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jangofctts · 3 years ago

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I have some random questions about Bats and Blue:

Is she on birth control? Is that why they are both okay not using any other protective/contraceptive method?

Is this his first real intimate/sexual relationship? He seems pretty experienced physically speaking. And it seems like there has been a seed of interest for each other, since they have know each other for so long, but has he been with anyone else?

Why now? I get she is down to fuck The Batman but why does Bruce suddenly feel okay opening up to her? Was their first experience the catalyst for him to allow himself to want her openly when he is Bruce?

What did they think about each other before they fucked. She mentioned she thought about The Batman and was attracted to him. What were their initial thoughts when they met for the first time (with him in disguise)?

Who do you think she likes more? Or is it like she likes them both, but for different reasons? I feel like he thinks he is more himself as The Batman and so they are more open when she is with that version of him (I cannot wait to see her reaction when she finds out....)

How do you think Blue sees herself, in regards to her gender and her physical appearance? Is she like more feminine or more adrogynous or does she not really think about that at all?

And then how does that tie into how Bruce/Batman sees and is attracted to her? Is it more that he knows her so that's ehat drawn him in? Is it more like..unspeakable and they just have that chemistry? Is it not at all about her appearance and demeanor and just her presence?

Love you, love your writing, cannot wait to read more ❤️

I aM HAPPY TO DISCUSS skjerh but it's gonna be below the cut!!

yes! i forgot to edit it in and i’ll be editing the second chapter tn to mention it, but blue is def on birth control, but also like it do be fanfic so no babies no chance of pregnancy and no diseases lmfao

I dont know, I dont think Bruce 2022 has had any long lasting relationships but I don’t think he’s a virgin yknow. im guessing he probably messed around a little bit in his later teens or early 20s. and like, he’s intuitive and blue tells him what she likes. you don’t necessarily need to be experienced to be a good lover imo

like I said in the third chapter, bruce and blue know each other! like they’re childhood friends and bruce has technically and already feels comfortable and has opened up to her before. the only thing is that she left for university and they sort of drifted until the third chapter takes place, where they reunite because of alfred’s scheme lmfao. bruce and blue have always had feelings for each other but they are both wickedly shy people so nothing was ever said. and bruce is still trying to manage how to be batman and such so his decision making is like questionable at best when it comes to real life, yknow? he’s a recluse and does not know how to deal with people well, esp with romantic interests.

well I mean, batman is sexy lmfaOOO and blue thinks so too. tbh he did scare her initially but she trusts Gordon and she then (obviously) made her own opinion about batman through working with him. like blue is a very kind and caring person and it’s easy to tell that batman is um Unwell, so she developed a sense of worry and sympathy for him. bats, since he is bruce, was fuckin spooked when Gordon introduced him to blue. Bats didn’t know blue was back in town or working for GCPD and so he wanted to keep his distance out of fear of discovery or keeping her out of trouble essentially. however, he is stupid and feelings make people even dumber so he wasn't very successful in pushing her away. and then in the first chapter, even though it was a life or death situation, he was literally willing to die instead of forcing or like asking blue to help him

yeah I agree. blue likes bruce and bats for different reasons but she does have that familiarity with them since they're the same person. like one is a forbidden love and the other is a childhood love. and yeah bruce is definitely braver with the mask and does feel more himself, which I hope I accurately portrayed. bruce is shy and like, idk it’s scary to open yourself up if you dont have a mask to create a sort of barrier.

and well, it is a reader insert technically, so the appearance is up to the reader. but I do have my own input as to what she would look like. she goes by she/her pronouns and identifies as female, but again I dont really use a lot of pronouns in the fic so it can be up for interpretation. as for looks I was thinking of a blend of the two ladies in the photos below! Blue’s family is Arab and hence the appearance

again bruce and blue have known each other for AGES. like it’s more of their chemistry and personality plus just overall familiarity/comfort he has with her and vice versa. obviously he’s physically attracted to her looks but it’s more of what’s below the surface. plus, just in general, bruce is not a superficial man and isn’t shallow when looking for partners. in fact I'd say he’s more of a personality over physical feature guy. and so is blue!

hope that clears stuff up!

#my rambles lmfao sorry #ask #keida answers

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goldilocks-pony · 2 years ago

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this is the character stuff i filled out for my oc so yall can have some more knowledge about him. use the format if you want, I forgot where I got it from but if you dm me for it ill find it for you @sparklenarniawizard idk if you could use this

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Demographics

Name: Vincent/Vince/Vinny/Vin Simon Cade

Age: 17

Sex/Gender: Amab Gnc

Ethnicity: Hispanic (hondorus and el salvador)

Occupation: Student/ waiter at the Dingo

Socioeconomic status: Lower middle class

Education: 11th Grade

Other notes: pronouns he/they/it

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Physical Appearance

Eye color: Green/Hazel

Skin color: mildy dark, Warm undertones

Hair color: Dark Brown

Height: 5'9"

Weight: 157 lbs

Body type: medium build

Fitness level: hella strong

Tattoos: hello kitty behind his ear

Scars/Birthmarks: Scar on left shoulder blade, stretch marks on sholders

Other distinguishing features: vampire teeth

Disabilities: Celiacs, damage to left shoulder due to accident

Fashion style: Grunge

Accessories: rings, belt chain

Cleanliness/Grooming: Showers Daily, messy hair

Posture/Gait: Strong posture, only slouches when reading

Tics: n/a

Coordination (or lack thereof): Strong, but clumsy at the worst times

Weaknesses: blue eyes, scared of spiders, scared of falling in love/ getting attached

Other notes:

History

Birth date: 1969, october 31

Place of birth: Huston Texas

Key family members: Johnny Cade (uncle) Kathy Hughes (Mother)

Notable events/milestones: Play tennis, in school council

Criminal record: arrested for street racing

Affiliations: n/a

Skeletons in the closet: n/a

Other notes: n/a

Psychological Traits

Personality type: n/a

Personality traits: loud, funny, insightful, buries his feelings, analytical, flirty

Temperament: cool headed unless someone is messing with stuff he cares about

Introvert/Extrovert: extrovert

Mannerisms: speaks with hands, puts arms around shoulder when walking and talking

Educational background: tulsa public

Intelligence: above average

Self-esteem: low, but covers it up with fake confidence

Hobbies: exercise, writing stories, journaling, cooking, woodworking

Skills/talents: Great with words, very strong

Loves: his dog goldie (its a golden retreiver) his family, isah curtis

Morals/Virtues: Won't fight with anything but hsi fists, beleives everyone derserves someone, won't leave anyonre behind or alone

Phobias/Fears: spiders, falling in love, getting attached, loosing ehat he worked for, living life alone, failing, not being enough, being hated

Angered by: people threatening his friends, disrespecting women, the wrold being a bad palce, hypocrties

Pet peeves: people talking slow, people ignoring him,

Obsessed with: Woodworking, stories

Routines: showers in the morning, sits under a tree while writng/reading

Bad habits: grinding his teeth, bitnig his nails, not brushing his hair

Desires: to be successful, for people to care, to be importatn to someone

Flaws: Insecure, seeks attention, needs constant reassurence

Quirks: flicks his hair back with a pencil, makes fists when stressed, zones out constantly

Favorite sayings: "It's hard to have what you want when you don't work for it" "Never let yourself be less than what you would accept from someone else"

Disabilities: ehlers danlos, adhd

Secrets: despises johnny for nto living longer, secret stoner, goes to family functions with a soc for money so she doesnt have to come out as a lesbian

Regrets: Not loving as much as he should, wsting time worrying about something you cant fix

Accomplishments: Makes good money working his job, 4.0 gpa

Memories: His aprents getting married when he was 4 (they had waited until they were moved into a home of their own)

Other notes: Johnny's half brother (from a relationship his father had before meeting his wife) is his father and he only meets the gang after being informed of johnny's death, became best friends and married kathy hughes (johnny's half brother's name is Charles Clyde Cade and was born may 21, 1947) Johnnys dad moved to tulsa so he could live with his grandmother after his parents kicked him out for being drunk all the time

Communication

Languages known: English, a little spanish

Preferred communication methods: english, calls

Accent: southern

Style and pacing of speech: talks fast, with longs breaks inbetween to gather thoughts

Pitch: medium

Laughter: big laugh, breathy, howling sorta

Smile: shows top teeth, very little bottom teeth

Use of gestures: waving hands, holds his hands together when nervous, rocks back and forth when bored

Facial expressions: very open and expressive

Verbal expressions: "uhhhh uhm"

Other notes:

Strengths, Weaknesses, and Abilities

Physical strengths: yes

Physical weaknesses: weak knees, left shoulder dislocactes easy

Intellectual strengths: can think abot something for awhile

Intellectual weaknesses: cant focus easy

Interpersonal strengths: knows what he wants

Interpersonal weaknesses: low self esteem

Physical abilities: hits like really hard

Magical abilities: no, hes human

Physical illnesses/conditions: damage to left shoulder

Mental illnesses/conditions: depression, adhd, bipolar

Other notes: his shoudler got damaged (giant slash on left shoulder blade) by falling into a crack between moutnains and climbing out, he was on a roadtrip with friends to go to mountains after he got his licence

Relationships

Partner(s)/Significant other(s): n/a

Lover(s): n/a

Parents/Guardians: Kathy Hughes, Charles Cade

Children: n/a

Grandparents: johnny's parents ( no contact)

Grandchildren: n/a

Family: little sister (daphne) father (charles clyde cade) mother (kathy hughes)

Pets: goldie (golden retreiver)

Best friends: n/a

Friends: Isaiah Dallas Curtis

Rivals: n/a

Enemies: n/a

Colleagues: n/a

Mentors/Teachers: n/a

Idols/Role models: n/a

Followers: n/a

Strangers: n/a

Non-living things: plant named greg (emotional support plant)

Clubs/Memberships: n/a

Social media presence: tumblr

Public perception of them: positive

Other notes:

#vince cade

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unfamiliaranimalentity · 3 years ago

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otto is literally such an interesting character and a very good foil to sasha and the rest of the psychic 7

for sasha, hes in a similar boat of being Smart Scientist With Kinda Bad Ethics but like. hes so so emotive and has that kinda. uncle-y tone of "i will give u a dangerous activity to do have fun!!!!" and sending u on ur way where sasha is less emotive and like surprisingly fatherly in a "will look out for u and believes in u SO much but is willing 2 tell u when u fuck up." sasha seems a bit disgruntled by ethics and tends to go. ah shit no funding ehat the fuck. while otto is like. Ethics Cant Stop Me :) if im not funded So Be It i WILL find a way.

when it comes to the rest of the psychic 7, as many ppl have noticed, he rly doesnt have anyone who was like. his right hand person yknow? he def cares abt them but, despite being genuinely very emotive, it isnt all that obvious. at the beginning of the game u can hear him blaming himself 4 smth (which is less vague but seems to be based around the hyperhyglaciator) (which sasha reassures him abt which is such a good bit of characterization) whicj like. shows that despite his disinterest in ethics he still very much cares, he just doesnt rly. see risk as much of an issue! to him, and most of the psychic 7 in the past, risk was just a possible obstacle to Cool Information, he just also happens to be the one who hasnt necessarily internalized that its that lack of acknowledgement of risk is... bad. he still very much cares, just that where everyone else went oh. helmut died and we lost lucy. bc of our reckless actions, he clearly poured himself into his work and mostly felt the general guilt rather than like... fully realizing it was recklessness that got them there

as well, as smth to note, otto seemed to be the one most likely to argue with others (not in an anger way but like. that "accidentally got 2 into a discussion" kinda way where u dont rly hold it against each other or anything) which generally fits his nonchalance around many topics. ford also kinda does this, it being very common for him to jab at others in lighthearted ways or not, but most of his ruder comments tend to be less argumentative and more "i am trying to shut u down as SOON as possible and will insult u or be as smappy as it takes 2 get there" OR just in like. a lighthearted joking manner. but otto seemed to get rly into banter. this seemed to work out rly well for him and ford bc they both kinda do that, but it creates an interesting separation between him and the others.

its not rly shown how lucrecia viewed him so like. thats unclear, tho they seemed to know each other from b4 lucy actually joined ford and otto! and otto clearly held her in high regards at least.

bob is... interesting, bc helmut notes that the 2 would get high together. very specifically those 2! otto and bob both had other ppl they got along w better so ud think theyd get high w those ppl, but nah, they just got high with each other specifially. this kinda makes it seem like the two rly would argue but like. not at each other so much? or in a way where they half find it fun, even if they get irritated. also, in bobs mind, otto is the one who kinda like... embodies his feeling of being hated or dismissed by the others. my guess is that ottos seeming nonchalance abt helmuts death probably Got To Him and like. as bob isolated himself, viewed that percieved lack of compassion as very pointed, viewing their banter as more aggressive than it really had been (bob lilely had fun but just... forgot abt that part and only remembered it as Just Arguing in his extremely depressed state)

speaking of helmut tho, not much rly can b easily gathered between the 2 tbh? like . helmut seems honestly kinda dismissive of otto (which adds some irony to bob thinking otto/the psychic 7 preferred helmut over bob tbh). they may not have rly been that close? which i feel like some could interpret that as a "obvious art vs science" thing but i dont think thats It. otto seems to actually LOVE art? at least 2 me. he describes his inventions as dreams and is adamant that Thats What They Are which is a very figurative and artistic way of looking at them! this isnt to say they didnt care abt each other tho. dr touch seems to b a little aloof and odd, but is the Only sense to reassure him when he apologizes to them, and does so w a very obvious lighthearted joke that helps. that isnt smth ppl who arent close would view the other as being like! i think they just... werent as close as they couldve been yknow? which, in part, could be related to helmut, for most of his time in his mind, seeming to think otto abandoned him (which he also attributes to ford, but i think he and ford were closer b4 the deluge so less was Hurt by him feeling abandoned)

also, otto build helmut and bob a sword for their wedding. these ppl cared abt each other

Comptons dynamic w otto is also rly intetesting. hes regarded as nicer than ford in comptons mind (idk if him heing the "nice one" meants out of the 3 judges and, subsequentially, the 3 ppl theyre based on, or if he means out of the psychic 7, but for this post im gonna interpret it as out of the 3) which is a little obvious given his generally happier attitude. compton clearly views him generally positively. if the theory that the psychoisolation chamber next to his menagerie is his is also true, it wouldnt b surprising if otto is even the one who built it! and maybe even comptons hat! and, as a note, otto and compton are the only remaining members of the psychic 7 to still be psychonauts during the game itself. idk what to do w that information but like. it means Something im sure. but aside from that, compton really does seem to like otto, and im fairly certain otto cares abt him too! but smth interesting i never see mentioned is that like. in cassies memory vault otto is depicted as holding compton like hes a football. this is very funny. this is also odd tho cus if u use tk on compton he mentions that he DOESNT like being held. is otto the exception? was compton tolersting it at the time? did otto forget abt that? was otto just being a dick? who knows! their dynamic interests and confuses me

cassie and otto tho. i do not know if the two liked each other that much LOL. for one, ottos destroyed lab and cassies hive are like. ridiculously far away from each other. like. the farthest they could be from each other. also, cassies view of otto seems to just b "guy who acts smart" which is. not very positive! she also shows some irritation around no one listening to her abt the hydraulic mining but she directs that not at ford or otto but at lucrecia. in fact, she doesnt seem to hold that against ford at all! so its unclear if she is irritated at otto for that 2. all i know is that cassie doesnt... seem to care 2 much for otto. whether otto doesnt care for her either is unclear

idk how 2 end this post. basically, otto is a very interestjng character

#psychonauts 2 #psychonauts 2 spoilers #otto mentallis #weed mention #drug use mention #long post #ask to tag #otto is so interedting. id write one of these for everyone but idk if id have the energy to go thru w it cus this took a While #if theres evrr a pn2 dlc i am Begging df to make ottos mind a level cus it would b so informative and cool #i wanna know what this mans brain looks like #also. wanted to put a readmore but. am on mobile #i am So sorry

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transvavsquad · 4 years ago

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hey what if in the shifter au instead of a cloak he has a ring actually i cant believe i didnt include that in ny post, imagine ehat has to have happened for the ring to fall into someone elses hands, only identified as the lost captains ring. uwu , also i forgot to sign my last ask but i called jordan feral so 📼

WOOF

#answering

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nightsstarr · 6 years ago

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Sorry I forgot the second part, criminal AU and modern AU with demonfire, sorry again!

Don't be sorry, I've messed up sending in askbox memes before.

I've literally written an AU where Mar'i is Catwoman, so that would be my first answer. My next answer is that I am a few chapters in google docs into a story where both Mar'i and Damian are assassins, so that would be my next answer.

For the sake of this meme, the next choice would be Damian as the bad guy, Mar'i as the good guy.

Damian probably makes it all the way to becoming Batman and he gets really fed up with the no kill rule

He probably kills the Joker tbh. I know there are so many AUs where the Jokwr being killed is what tips the main character into being a murderer and therefore, in comics world, a total crazed bad guy.

But yeah Damian kills the Joker and he isn't sorry about it. He gets into an argument with several other members of the Batfam about it and essentially they make him give up the cowl

(Cass would take over ffor him btw)

He keeps refusing to apologize and the other members of the Batfam won't let him operate as a vigilante at all, stating that they can't trust him and he won't follow their rules. Maybe he goes to Jason for advice, and I think Jason would tell him that he did good and fuck those other guys, but that frustrates him because he wants to be a real member of the batfam again, not kind of an outsider like Jason

He moves out of the Manor and doesn't give anyone his new address and he's having a hard time feeling isolated. And he keeps working but he doesn't adopt a new alias, he just does his thing and gets out before the Batfam sees him

Mar'i thinks everyone is being too hard on him and she's steuggling with the more detective side of vigilantism, turna out she doesn't have a knack for it

She's trying really hard to track down Damian on her own and he ends up confronting about why she's looking for him and ehat she thinks she's doing

She pours her heart out and says she misses him, also she doesn't get why everyone is so upset. Maybe it's raining or some shit and Damian takes her back to his secret apartment

They kiss or something and Mar'i ends up secretly helping Damian against the rest of the Batfam's wishes for a fre chapters. So he's kind of an anti hero more so than a criminal but w/e

Dick ends up finding her because of the iphone find my phone thing and he sits them down and he's mad, like wtf. Maybe he walked in on them making out or doing the do so he's also angry about that

The two of them argue that Gotham has been more safr since the joker was killed, Harley Quinn wemt a little crazy but she's able to be talked down more than the Joker so Damian feels that he did well.

Not really a happy ending but the fam un-excommunicates him. He doesn't move into the manor ever again and he never becomes Batman again but he becomes a new hero and earns back the respect of the batfam.

My thought is that maybe Mar'i accidentally kills someone but Damian covera for her even though he knows it'll land him in deep shit with the rest of the fam after promising not to kill again. Dick immediately knows it was Mar'i and not Damian but he takes all his anger out om Damian anyway. Maybe Dick and Mar'i have a nice moment where Dick admits that things are different, that he's upset with her but he'd rather her kill than be killed, and he never tells anyone else that it was her and not Damian.

So it would not be a happy ending, Damian gets officially kicked out of the Batfam, Mar'i would distance herself from him because she almost lost her father and it was too much for her

But then in an epilogue they meet up on the streets of Gotham again and either they're just still in love or maybe something ridiculous like Mar'i is pregnant.

#demonfire #damimari #i had a lot of opinions about this apparently #that i didn't know until i started thinking about it #drabble

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danieyells · 5 years ago

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Today's idle daydream is 'imagine making a dating sim that caters excessively to my own tastes' lmao

I love scenarios where the mc ends up an unwilling pet and things like that--where all control is gone and the mc is at the mercy of the player's choice partner. But, ofc, dating sims are largely about uh. I forgot the word--inserting yourself into the scenario. So of course they have good endings. Falling in love, being freed, entering a relationship, probably being treated better in some capacity. Happy ever afters. Certainly not a bad thing especially if you're playing as yourself.

But man i'd love for some. . .maybe not bad ends, but less fluffy ends. I'd probably wind up making something like that, where there are more "bad" ends than "good". Surrendering to whatever your chosen's got in mind for you. Working things out so it's maybe not as bad as it was, but you've come to enjoy or are used to or accept whatever the circumstances may be. Remaining the slave, the pet, the servant, the posession, the toy, the thing that belongs to them--probably happily. Depends on what you're into.

Y'know, masochism and submission fantasy. Questionable. There'd be happy endings too, of course, but. . .depends on what you're after or how you play.

. . .of course, the opposite could be fun too. A lot of otome games are, y'know, """female perspective""" sort of thing, so they often contain domesticness and soft things. The player is at someone else's mercy. But a dating sim in the opposite direction would probably be cool too. A sadism, dominating fantasy.

Your partner choices come in several sorts--and maybe you don't have to be as passive as other games. You can be kind of them. . .though your brand of kindness may not be typical. Various levels of control. You make decisions and they follow them--or they don't and ehat happens next that's up to you. You could teach them to submit--willingly of course, unless you're not into that, it's all fantasy anyway, no one's getting hurt--or you could have them be good from the start. Maybe you want to free them from your control eventually. Or maybe you wanna graduate them from your something to your someone. Or something like that, where the power is in your hands--for better or for worse. Idk how such a scenario would work though. There are plenty of ways that kind of story could be set up, but i suppose it's a bit easier to lay everything out for the player with a submissive perspective lol. . . .

. . .honestly i'd probably work on it if i could draw. Like, there are programs for visual novel-making and dating sims and some of the otome game apps i've played have started with 'made in unity'--if uou can use Unity to make an app then it'd actually kind of a reachable idea, or that's how it feels to me. . . .

. . .anyway. that concludes danie's daydream of the day. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ someday i'll make lots of cool things. You'll see.

#ask to tag?#dubcon m???#dubcon imp????#danie yells at their ideas #. . .real talk loch would be in the latter one

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angelstrenchcoat-67 · 6 years ago

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You and I

Pairing: Stanford!Sam x reader

Warnings: None

Series Summary: It wasn't easy for Sam to decide he wanted to leave his hunting life behind, to leave Dean behind. But when he saw the Stanford acceptance letter, he knew he couldn't stay back. And he knew he wasn't going to be alone.

PART 7

"Are you sure you don't want to come?" Jess asks Sam for like the third time now as we stand at the security line at the airport. "You can get a ticket for tomorrow"

"Jess, go" Sam laughs as he hands her the carry on. "Y/N and I'll be fine. We are cooking for christmas and maybe we'll go to a party on new years eve"

"I'll make sure he doesn't get in any trouble" I wink at her as I stand behind Sam. "You enjoy your time with your family"

Sam was initially going to join Jess for the winter break but a couple of days after I told him that I was going to stay on campus (because I have nowhere else to go, he told Jess that he wasn't going because he was going because he remembered he had to work at the library that week. I like to think that it was because he didn't want me to be alone. A girl can dream.

"Okay" She sighs, giving up on the idea. "But please do celebrate the holidays. Don't just stay in watching harry potter and sleeping"

"You say that like it's a bad thing" I protest but when she gives me a glare, I just mutter a 'Fine'.

"Now, go before you lose your flight" Sam gives Jess a quick kiss on the lips, which I look away for. "Say hi to your parents for me"

"Goodbye" Jess says against Sam's chest before giving me a bright smile. "See ya in a week"

"See ya" I give her a small wave as starts to walk away from us.

"It most feel good to have a family to go to" I feel like Sam doesn't mean to say those words because he immediately clears his throat. Jess is no longer in sight so I get a little courage and I reach for his hand.

"You have me" I smile as I give his hand a squeeze. "You always have me"

"I do" He returns the smile before wrapping his arm around my shoulder.

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"So what do you want me to make for tomorrow?" I ask Sam as I flip through the cooking book in my hands.

"You don't have to cook, Y/N" He chuckles as he moves through the channels with the remote control.

"I want to" I pout as I read the recipe for a chicken plate. "Just give me ideas"

"Okay" He sighs before staring at the floor for a couple of seconds, like he is trying to remember something. "How about that lasagna you used to make? That was really good"

"Yeah, I can do that" I close the book before placing at the end of the couch. "You are going to have to help me, tho"

He nods, not really minding it. "Hey, what was the dessert you used to make all the time?"

"Apple pie since Dean loved ir so much" I roll my eyes, remembering all the times I found Dean eating the entire tray.

Sam's face changes, an empty look taking over his eyes. Right, I forgot I'm the only who is in speaking terms with him. "Sam"

"Hmm?"

"You know you can call him, right?" I inch closer to him, bringing my arms around my legs.

"It's not that easy" He shakes his head, trying to focus back in the tv.

"It is, Sam" I correct him. "It can be that easy if you just tried. I am sure he misses you, too"

"What if he doesn't? What if he hangs up?" He asks and I can tell he has thought about this before.

"Then at least you know you tried and that'll give you a little more peace with yourself" I can't seem to be able to stop my hand from reaching to push the hair away from his face.

Sam immediately leans into the touch, his hand reaching for my free hand that's resting on my knee.

We stay like that for a couple of seconds until he looks up into my eyes. I swear there is something magical about those hazel eyes because my reaction is almost instant. Like I'm under a spell. My heartbeats starts to rise and my breath gets heavy while Sam's hand squeezes mine even tighter before bringing his other hand to cup mine between them.

"Sam" The sound of his names from my lips comes out almost like a whisper but loud enough for him to hear it.

"I-" He stumbles with the words, trying to come up with a sentence. He lets go of my hands before blinking away. "I think I need to go out for a while"

Before I can stop him, he is already out the door. The loud bang the door makes when he shuts it close is the last sound I here as I sit there, trying to calm down my heartbeat.

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"You should call him" I sigh, resting my head on the bed headboard. "He has me but he still needs you, Dean"

"It's not that easy" Dean's voice sounds deeper than usual. "I wouldn't know ehat to say"

"Cut the crap with the whole 'it's not that easy' speech, Sam already used it" I roll my eyes, even though Dean can't see it. "And you can start by apologizing"

"Why would I apologize?" Dean growls. "He is the one who left"

"You cannot get mad because Sam wanted a different life, Dean. I get that it hurts but Sam has the right to choose who to be in this world. Even if you or John don't like the decision he makes" I scold him. Even though Dean is the oldest one, I was always the mature one, talking some sense into them. "It's time you act like a grown up"

"Don't be so condescending when you can't even tell Sam you have feelings for him" Dean calls me out. "I'll call him if you tell him how you feel"

"You know those are two completely different things" I huff, feeling a little attacked by Dean.

"You know it's the truth, kiddo" He snickers and I can picture the smug look on his face.

"And how are you spending the holidays?" I try to change the subject, not wanting to change the focus on me.

"Dad is on a hunting trip but he said I have to sit this one out so I'll be by myself, eating cold pizza and watching those cheap christmas movies on tv" Dean tries to shrug it off but I can tell this actually it's not as exciting as he makes it to be.

"You can come over if you want" I suggest shyly, not really sure of what reaction I'm gonna get from Dean. "I think Sam would like it"

"I- I don't know, Y/N. We haven't exactly seen each other for almost two years now" Dean tries to make his words sound as neutral as possible but I know there's a certain level of pain in every word. "I don't..."

"Dean, you don't have to be alone if you don't want to" I bite the bottom of my lip. Dean liked to pretend that things don't affect him but I know better. I noticed how he tried not to cry when John forgot his birthday and left to kill a vampire nest. Or how he would put less food on his plate to make sure that Sam and I were eating enough, even though he was hungry. Or how took the blame when Sam forgot to pack some of the weapons and John took it all on him. Because that's who Dean is.

Silence follows my words for a couple of seconds and feel a lump forming in my throat until Dean speaks again. "I wouldn't be able to make it for Christmas"

"You can come for New Year's eve" I immediately suggest because now I know he really wants to come, that is his way of saying it.

"I cannot promise you anything" His voice sounds the exact same way it does when he is trying to hold back a smile. "I would have to come up with an excuse to dad and then figure out how to get there"

"Just try, okay?" I hold the phone tighter against my cheek, hope lacing my words.

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"I thought I would have to eat this all by myself" I say as I push the lasagna into the oven.

"How did you know I was here?" Sam asks me as he leans over the door frame.

I take a couple of seconds to really look at him, to admire how his blue flannel covers his muscles and his hazel eyes shine withe the light of the candles around the kitchen. "I heard the door"

I can sense Sam whenever he is near me. It's like a radar but I don't want to admit that to him so I lie. Lying to Sam about how I feel about him comes really natural to me.

"I wanted to apologize" He ignores me as he stands straighter, his eyes not meeting mine. "For the way I left last time I was here"

"Sam, it was nothing" I shrug it off, focusing back on the food tray in front of me.

"No, it wasn't" It takes me a couple of seconds to realize that he is standing next to me now as his hand reaches for my face. "I-"

I can see how he is struggling to make up the words, his hand shaking against my skin. "Sam, is everything okay?"

"No" His breath comes out shaky as he connects our foreheads and his free arm snakes around my waist. "I don't know what's happening"

"Sam-"

"I don't know what you are doing to me" He frowns, almost like it pains him to say it. "I never felt like this before with you and then one day, I did"

"What are you saying?" I push down the sob that threatens to leave my mouth as I bring my hand up to meet Sam's.

"That I was happy with Jesse. I was in love with her, or that's what I thought" He closes his eyes harshly as he presses me tighter against his chest. "But when you and I had our fight, it burned me. It destroyed me more than when Jess and I fought and I knew that wasn't normal. When you avoided me for weeks, it didn't feel like I was missing a friend... It felt like- Y/N, please say something"

"What do you want me to say, Sam?" My voice comes out shaky as my heart beats fast against my chest. "I've been waiting for you to say that more that I'd like to admit because how you are feeling right now, that's how I've felt my entire time"

"Please tell me that you are not just saying that to make me feel better?" Sam's voice comes out hoarse as his lips dance in front of mine.

"I've loved you even before I knew what loving meant" I place my hand over Sam's heart as it beats uncontrollably under my touch.

"Why did you never mention it?" His words come out hard, almost like he is angry at me for it.

"Because in your eyes I was just your little sister" I feel the tears stinging my eyes. "And then you were in loved with someone else. And it hurt like hell"

"And I preferred to have you in my life just as a friend than not have you at all. I was scared that if I told you how I felt, that you would hate me or feel disgusted. And I couldn't bear that thought" Sam's thumb moves to clean the tear that first dares to roll down my eye. "So I pretended I was okay because you were happy and that was enough for me. Seeing you happy is always enough reason for me"

"It took me some time to figure this-this feelings" Sam gasps like he is finally coming to terms with what he is feeling. "And they are not normal, I shouldn't feel this way about you. But I do, and it's killing me to have you in my life but not in the way that my heart aches for"

"Than have me the way you want Sam" I sob, forgetting in what situation we are in. Forgetting the reality that we have to get back to after the winter break.

"I can't kiss you" Sams says almost to himself. "It wouldn't be fair for anyone"

"No, you can't" I try to agree with him. "You are with Jess"

"I'm with Jess" He breaths out heavily, his warm breath mixing with mine. "I can't"

"Mhm" I barely nod along before Sam's hand moves down from my cheek to my neck. "Sam" His name rolls out of my mouth with no effort, like I'm under a spell.

This seems to send Sam over the edge because he pulls me by his grip on my neck until our lips are finally touching.

I could try to describe how it feels to be this wrapped around Sam, how his lips feel on top of mine, or how his arms feel as they push me closer to him. But I don't think words can make justice to the feelings. It's like a fire that's burning me down as his lips take over mine, his tongue softly running over my bottom lip and his hand diggs into my hair.

I'm too focused on running my hands through his hair to notice how he grabs me by my thighs to pick me up. I'm too focused on how his lips caress mine to notice how he pushes me against the wall, his kiss intensifying even more.

"We shouldn't" Sam moans as his lips love down to my jaw until they reach ny neck. "This is not okay"

"You're right" I try to keep my eyes opened but his hands and lips make it really hard.

"Tell me to stop" Sam stops kissing to look into my eyes, his burning hazel gaze locking with mine. "Tell me and I will"

"Sam" I try to say his name as normal as I possibly can but when he moves his hands to make sure I don't fall, it makes his name sound like a moan.

And that's all it takes for Sam's eyes to darken even more before his lips find mine and everything around us disappears.

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Hello my loveees! It's been so long since my last update but I was really sick and I had to fix a lot of things for college so it was a but crazy. But here I had this written and I wasn't sure but I hope you like it❤️❤️

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iliveinprocrasti-nation · 5 years ago

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I would like the tea

Ok let’s fckin GO MATE

So, picture this: theres the Anyplace Academy School. For some reason it’s in a different city than Anyplace, but no one talks about that. It’s a private school that starts at like two years old and once you get to first grade you gotta wear uniforms.

So this school likes to say it’s all inclusive. It’s a pretty good school, good teachers and all, and small classes which is nice. The fact that they have a lowkey morning prayer/announcements but isn’t a “Christian School” makes it a big pick for some families. One issue: it’s not really all inclusive and is basically one or two steps away from being Christian. Some things that happened during the three years I went there:

My social studies teacher told us all about his divorce with his first wife and how that caused him to leave the Catholic Church. This teacher also occasionally went on Jesus rants (y’know the ones, “whoever your G-d is, He has a plan for you” and occasionally he forgot my friend and I and just told us “Jesus has a plan for all of you” which we found hilarious (as a Muslim person (her) and Jewish/pagan person - I had phases, it’s in a rant I posted earlier - telling us Jesus has a plan for us just makes us crack up)

There’s like... a Christmas wreath or something we did that I’ve only ever seen in churches and not really in peoples houses - I think it’s called an advent wreath. We’d light those and my principal would talk about Jesus. It was an experience. She talked about G-d and Jesus a lot now that I think about it

Of course during that same time we had the hannukah ceremony where one of the only Jewish teachers would bring up a few Jewish kids, have them say one prayer, and then light the menorah. Me and the only other Jewish kid in my grade found this hilarious because neither of us had ever done only one prayer, the teacher in charge of the ceremony would sing a song (never in Hebrew, always an English one about the holiday) for one of the days, and then all the kids on stage always looked so uncomfortable and it was funny because our little siblings were always up there

We had to write prayers for morning prayer. Every student did and then we’d have to read them in front of the whole school (they were also not great prayers so like,,,). During my pagan phase I wrote “Dear Gods, Goddesses, and Deities” for one of them because screw everyone else I do what I want. My teacher literally crossed it out and was like “we’re just gonna say Dear G-d, ok?” Little me was pissed but also a goody two shoes so I followed ehat my teacher said. Looking back, there was a kid two years above me who was Hindu (I think- I’m pretty sure but correct me if that’s not the religion) and I feel so bad for him having to go through the very much monotheistic morning prayer every day. Also kids were allowed to say “in Jesus’s name we pray” at the end of speeches but no one could address them to multiple gods so like double standards much

The one time where they went on about Easter or Good Friday or some holiday like that and Passover was literally the same day but no one mentioned it at all ever and I was pissed like it was the only thing I spoke about for two days my friends were so tired of me by the end

The dozens (literally dozens) of times I heard my principal tell other students hat their Jewish friends either wouldn’t be at school or would come late because it’s a Jewish holiday and they’re at the synagogue. She never even went into what holidays they were

The time my social studies teacher (same one with the Jesus thing) shut down the class discussion about a synagogue shooting with “whatever” - note that he didn’t even know it happened (although we had a 45 minute discussion about Notre dame and other big events during the years). He wanted to get over the topic and shut it down like that.... (ok this is random but also when he taught about the Spanish Inquisition and such he just offhand mentioned that it was bad for some people and that what happened wasn’t fully right but then just plowed through and never mentioned it again)

And, my favourite example, the time they pulled one of my best friends up (the one I mentioned earlier, she’s Sunni Muslim) to speak about a holiday she doesn’t celebrate (I think it was an Islamic new year holiday that another kid, who was a different type of Muslim, celebrated). They had her read a poem after the other kid explained the holiday and introduced her by saying “__________ wanted to read a poem about the new year” as if she celebrated the holiday and they hadn’t just handed her a random poem they’d found and printed

That’s all I can remember off the top of my head (btw this is unedited soo it’s gonna be a wreck sorry it’s late and imma pass out after this). But like these things are bigger than I might make them seem - also the breaks we got there were insane and for every Christian holiday while Yom Kippur wasn’t even spoken about once and I legit had to explain to people why I could have pizza during Passover ok yea I’m bitter about that can you tell also I’m always up to spill tea about my old school (especially my coach like that man lost all my respect in my last year there) so yeah thanks for asking and I’ll add on if I remember anything more. Also if you wanna find my rant you can look in my “judaism” or “jumblr” tag and it’ll have a note at the top with something like “long rant from frustrated Jewish girl” if you wanna read that mess

#thats the tea #our perceptions of echoes #me #my post #personal #ask #judaism #jumblr

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yan-enha · 2 years ago

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(ahhh i forgot to reply to your question. i’m so glad life’s treating you well lately!! you deserve it, ivy. i hope it’ll last for the longest time or maybe even forever hehe! i’m not doing so good rn but that’s okay ig. just a lot of irl stress and pressure and expectations. but case 143 by skz has kept me going since it came out yesterday! it’s so good. i love my boys.) — 🥮

It's fine don't worry. I hope life treats me this good from now on too! I know , i can understand about the stress , pressure and expectations 😭 but you need to keep some things in mind . First of all , you don't need to be better than anyone else but yourselves. Like be better than ehat you were yesterday. Then , you don't have to exceed everyone's expectations but yours. You have to be satisfied with yourselves. Don't forget your worth and give yourself some time to rest and enjoy aswell.

And about skz , ahhh they're always so cool and comfort everyone don't they? They're just so talented and give people hope and good music . Love them and you bae 🤍🤍

#to: yumi🤍

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baekhvuns · 3 years ago

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HAIIIU its alright😭😭 i turn off notifs on my phone for every single app HSHAHSHQHHHAHA if i do turn it on i would jot be able to finish a single task🤩 i get distracted easily😔😔 i also jus took a nap omg WHEN I GOT OUT OF BED MY BACK HAD A FIREWORJS SHOW🤩🤩🤩 and i didnt even sleep for that long😔 it was jus a short nap time😟😟

ALSO BLONDE SAN i feel like his hair is the opposute of his piechart hair from answer era like,, the pie chart part is black now,, and the rest of his hair is blonde idk dO u GET EHAT I MEAN😭😭

sanie always tries so hard to hide his hair color but end up failing every singke time I FEEL BAD😭😭 ESP THAT TIME WHEN HIS HAIR WAS PINK JEKDJQIXOKWDN ACCIDENTALLY REVEALED IT ON LIVE even though we alrdy kbew it was pink we just pretended to not know bcs san<33

WHJJSJSJJS NAH IM FINE NOW😭😭 HIGHKEY WANTED TO SHOUT AT HIM AND BARK BUT I AINT THAT BRAVE our house has a mall nearby like,, literally its behind out house and since the supermarket opens earlier than the rest of the mall i jus decided to go there HSHZHSHSH,, just for a pack of mentos😭😭😭 LMFAO THEN a worker suddenly talked to me bexkkwjxjw idk how to translate it to english bcs it has a completely diff meaning but it was disgusting BEKXKAKZKWKKS he also passed by me and bumped into me oN PURPOSE WKDOWKKD THE WALKWAY IS SO WIDE AND EMPTY WHY THE HELL R U SO CLOSE TO ME😭😭😭 yea that happend BUT I GOT MY MENTOS😀😀😀

i srsly should finish my homework😟 ill brb when i finish like at least 3 more😭😭😭 I AM ALSO FRUSTRATED BCS OUR TEACHER JUS TOLD US THAT SHES NOT GOING TO TELL US WHAT OUTPUTS AND TASKS WE DID NOT PASS OR ARE LACKING IN BCS WE ARE ALREADY GROWN UPS@,@*#*@*@ WHAT DOES THAT HAVE TO DO WITH OUT OUTPUTS😭😭 WE ARE NOT THE ONES THAT HAVE ACCESS TO UR RECORD BOOK@?!?!?!? what if we passed the output but she jus forgot to record it are we supposrd to know that too?@?@?@? i sWEARRR

NEWAYS I SAW AN ATINY YESTERDAY SAY THAT BLONDE WAS YUNHOS WORST HAIR COLOR@,,-*!*@*!*@ EXCUSE ME THAT WAS THE MOST GOLDEN RETRVIER YUNHK HAS EVER LOOKED AND I LOVE IT I CANT BEKIEVE NWSKAKSKQK ALTHOUGH THE RED HAIR IS ALSO NICE,,, I STILL THINJ BLONDE YUNHO BELONGS TO THE MUSEUM HAVE U SEEN HIS PRETTY CUTE FACE WHEN HE WAS MC-ING I FORGOT WHERE JEIXJS IT WAS WITH SOMI AND AN OH MY GIRL MEMBER I FORGOT😟

hope ur having a great day as always<3 stay safe and healthy ofc mwamwa ill brb uh idk when HSHSHHAHA but ill brb<33

-🍤

HIHI

BDANBDSNB ME TOO 😭😭😭 this was asked so long ago but i hope u had a nice ass nap bC I KNOW I DID ☺️☺️☺️ passed out for 3 hrs straight <3

ALSO BLONDE SAN i feel like his hair is the opposute of his piechart hair from answer era like,, the pie chart part is black now,, and the rest of his hair is blonde idk dO u GET EHAT I MEAN😭😭

HE IS FULLY BLOND kinda fried blond buT YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN DBDBDB I GET WHAT U MEAN

FHWNDHSJ HE FR DOES 😭😭 LIKE BRO GIVE UP UR FANS WILL ZOOM INTO EVERY CORNER 😭😭😭😭 we all became jared 19 and never learnt how to see or read for san so many times <3 love to see the support atiny community has when it comes to pretending his hair colour is just black and nothing else ☺️☺️

BRUH THE CASHIER?????? SOCIAL DISTANCING BRO WHATSGOINGON ????? AT LEAST U GOT UR MENTOS fuck every one there 🔫🔫

i srsly should finish my homework😟 ill brb when i finis like at least 3 more😭😭😭 I AM ALSO FRUSTRATED BCS OUR TEACHER JUS TOLD US THAT SHES NOT GOING TO TELL US WHAT OUTPUTS AND TASKS WE DID NOT PASS OR ARE LACKING IN BCS WE ARE ALREADY GROWN UPS@,@*#*@*@ WHAT DOES THAT HAVE TO DO WITH OUT OUTPUTS😭😭 WE ARE NOT THE ONES THAT HAVE ACCESS TO UR RECORD BOOK@?!?!?!? what if we passed the output but she jus forgot to record it are we supposrd to know that too?@?@?@? i sWEARRR

FBWKFHSJHFSKFJSK UR LIFES SO CHAOTIC FJWJFHEK 😭😭😭😭 i love this front row seat to ur life absolutely <33333 BDANDBKS UR GONNA THROW HANDS AT THE TEACH

YUNHOS WORST WAS BLOND????? HA.HA. WHAT A LIE SAURRY BLOMD YUNHO IS LITERALLY HIS BEST LOOK???? ATINYS bLiND NO FR HE BELONGS IN THE MUSEUMS + BLUE YUNHO TOO FBSBDBD HE LOOKS SO PRETTY WITH BLOND IT SUITS HIM SO WELL BLOND BELONGS TO HIM

hope ur having a great day as always<3 stay safe and healthy ofc mwamwa ill brb uh idk when HSHSHHAHA but ill brb<33

BDNABDN YOU TOO!!!! C U WHEN THE FIC DROPS 😭😭😭 IN MY ASKS TMR THENFBFN

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nheirei · 4 years ago

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(Haha who dares use Polish on this site anyway? Definitely not us.)

OOMGG I CANNOT BELIEVE I ACTUALLY FORGOT TO TRANSLATE KAMIENICE

I want to die...of laughing. I have no idea how I missed that while reading the chapter so many times and editing it and even sending it to my beta reader. Seriously, I have no idea what happened xdd And youre the forst person to mention it! I wonder ehat all the others were thinking about that detail hahahaha

Ahhhh im so happy you decided to post this huuuge review! My heart stopped for a moment when i just kept on reading and reading it and there was still so much text and so many praises! I totally didnt make screenshots to put into my little "things worth living for" folder. Nope. Not at all.

But i did cry. I loved every paragraph of what you've written. You've always been so kind to me and this series, but now you just made my eyes water with how nice you made me feel about everything you mentioned. It's for moments like this that every struggle i face during writing feels worth it. I canot begin to thank you enough for giving me so much strength to continue with this series.

And to answer your question about how do i write this way, well...

I am seriously just as surprised as everyone else reading my stories. I come up with literally everything, from jokes, to plottwists, to those silly little details like space frogs as i go. I do not control the story. Does anyone? Hope they continue to do so.

I love adding Peter to the mix, he's such a perfect material for their found family. It may not show through this story enough, but im a hoe for found family xd

Yep, detective Loki is going to make a few lives a litle bit more chaotic soon and i cant wait to dive into that!

I love you so much. You just made my day, week, idk my life so much better and brighter with that post!

Please Hate Me //part 45

Fandom: Marvel

Summary: Based on: “Imagine having a love/hate relationship with Loki.” by @thefandomimagine Who would have thought that babysitting a god could be so much fun?

Genre: slow-burn, enemies to lovers, banter, smut in this chapter

Loki, despite being raised in a royal family, was at heart a man of simple pleasures. What more could he want from life than what he already had?

The Edge was a place of wonders, that much was indisputable. And even if not all of them were easy to enjoy, there were still moments worth living for.

The stars above felt closer than the last time Loki paid attention to them. Galaxies swirled in their eternal dance, the stars bright and colorful. Here, at the edge of the known universe, one had to wonder what laid beyond it. Here, it didn’t feel far at all.

Czytaj dalej

#ahhhhhh #omgmgmgmmgmamqmqaaqqqa #best fay everrr

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