#I FINALLY CONVINCED YOU TO JOIN THE RPC

[goddslayerr]

And suddenly, Ashton doesn't seem as enthusiastic anymore about greeting their captain.

"...uh, great. Yeah, that sounds good." They raise their eyebrow, rocking back and forth on the heels of their boots. "So... is that what you've got in the bag? The, uh... meat..?"

"CAPTAIN!! HII!!!!"

ASHTON!!!!!! HI!!!!!!

(He is dragging a comically large bag behind him, blood seeping through onto the ground)

I was JUST about to start dinner! You’re just in time buddy! How does burgers sound?

[forcedsense]

People always get so offended when I tell them that I’m allowed to call myself an idiot/dumb/whatever but theyre not allowed to call me that and then get mad at me if i call them out on it while playing games oe whatever (not abt the rpc this is abt the rl ex friend lol) and im just like;;; we might share autism but heres the thing, I’m allowed to call myself an idiot bc i live with myself. You’re not allowed to insult me because a: its rude, and b: you’re literally calling me an idiot due to my not having a sense of direction and play styles due to my disabilities.

The very fact people STILL dont understand why insulting someone for their disabilities, or flat out saying ‘your lack of attention just proves youre the worse xx player ever!!’ is literally just ableism and offensive is why i have trust issues and am tired of other people. I am allowed to joke about my problems because I have to live with them, and in manyways yes I am just an idiot, like how I was an idiot for not realizing that a grown ass man one month younger than me always relying on me to pay for shit to do w him, guilting me out of things i want to do because he decided it was stupid, insulting half the shit i liked saying it and anyone who enjoys it is stupid, regularly using the R-slur when something dumb is done/happens (ableism aGAIN), refusing to get a license because he ‘doesnt feel like it’, doesnt even try to get a job anymore after a few rejections (which, I’ve applied hundreds of places and never even received a rejection, so im starting to wonder the validity of those statements too) and saying its because his mother wants to force him into one, abusing his siblings by screaming at them and gaslighting them constantly, but I’m the idiot and the asshole because I’m disabled, or I don’t always think first before soing things (which has led to my doing shitty or stupid things, but I have the remarkable capability of admitting when I was wrong unlike these fuckheads who, when you flat out explain in detail what they did wrong, claim youre gaslighting and abusing them when youre telling them its inappropriate and wrong to guilt trip, be ableist, insult others intelligence, and ignoring when people ask you to stop, and all the times he joined my streams and would use my birth name after I asked him not to and to use my pen/alias, always accounting it to ‘forgetting’ but after 30+ times of being told, its no longer forgetting, like thats just putting unnecessary risk and ignoring personal preferences. I won’t even go into all the bitchfits about ‘gender discussion’ or anything because it still makes me sick and gave me severe imposter syndrome for my body dysmorphia.

Respect the disableds wishes, We should not have to explain this to you. Basic human decency should just be a given, and someone telling you in detail why what youre doing is wrong, and ignoring it and repeating it again (I’ve told him before that insulting me, calling me names, and otherwise hurt my feelings and I don’t want to risk any relapses. He ignored these and continued, he’d screencap my making mistakes and putting bad things in the wrong chat, and when I would apologize for what I did when I was wrong, he’d still hold it over my head and claim I suicide baited when I didn’t. I say whats happening and assume its fine since i was always there for him when he needed me, even after he actualy suicide baited me by claiming my using a joke on him he repeatedly used on me made him suicidal and that i owed him an apology, ive literally been walking on eggshells for years and finally not having him in my life has actuallybeen so much more freeing than I ever thought it would be. )

Disabled people are very often the centerfold of abusive relationships because we’re so used to the mistreatment that its almost a fucked up comfort, we feel like our complaining about mistreatment is us ‘overreacting’ because the able bodied constantly convince us it is. That we’re always the problem whether we make mistakes or do something bad and that our apologies are always fake and wrong, but when people do horrible things to us we’re not owed an apology, rather we always owe them. It’s fucked up and wrong, and honestly exhausting. We’re not punching bags to make the able bodied feel better about themselves. Whats fucked up is hes also autistic, and should know better, but is so self possessed that all the friendships hes lost and regained over the years have never been his fault, he was always ‘being abused’ by everyone, everyone somehow is always in love with him and gaslighting him, and ive come to terms with the fact its a mental fuck up of a self centered individual so narcissistic that he cant handle the idea hes ever in the wrong.

If I talkedabout this to people, they would claim I was in the wrong for not worrying about his feeings more or ‘putting up with it because it helps him feel better, he goes through a lot at home’. Being treated shittily doesnt give you a free pass to abuse your supposed friends. His dads a piece of shit and his mom (who honestly was an amazing person as far as I saw and his siblings would talk about. but he personally always claimed she’d turn into a monster randomly for saying he should get a job or try to succeed in life, and for applying for jobs for him that e purposefully failed the interviews for. These are the exact reasons he’d bitch about her, and occasionally because he’d overhear hee claiming he was wasting his life, which is horrible to hear but still does not excuse insulting your friends, belittling their success, insulting them for their disabilities, and going through your friends for supply and then dumping them and ‘accepting them back after they apologize’ whenever you need more validation. My family life is fucked to high heaven and I still try to be kind to people, I still try to educate people, and I still do my best even if I fuck up. And when I fuck up, I own up to it and apologize. Something people always ignore and pretend never happened, because to them the disabled are incapable of apologies.

Stop talking over us, stop treating us like shit, and stop purposefully hurting us, our feelings, insulting us, and using us to make you fee better. We are not punching bags, we are real people with real issues and all your shitty behavior does is add to it.

[taeuhyng]

i've run a couple groups the last time was my final time every single day i received terrible anons saying we were boring but when we'd do things we weren't being inclusive enough because of the times of events which the most interactive parts of have to be when i wasn't at my REAL job. it's just such a thankless role and i'm convinced this community will run itself into the ground because there's many like me who are burnt out and it's just not worth it anymore to make these groups.

i just think we, the rpc as a COLLECTIVE, need to learn how to treat admins with respect. if you don’t like the fucking rp either LEAVE or don’t join. PERIOD. 

[firewhiskeyandhoney]

❤️ positivity for a writing partner.

i’ve never ever ever clicked with a writing partner as much as i have with you @allmymuseinspo and i do not know what i would do if we hadn’t stumbled into the same group together. i’ve never had to make concessions in regards to hc’s with you because we’re just always automatically on the same page, even coming into things with playing reg and sirius. i’ve never had a sirius mun just automatically get and agree with my ideas in regards to their family and home life and it was so so refreshing. and then we’ve just clicked outside of rping so much and you’ve become one of the absolute best most amazing friends that i’ve ever had and i do not know what i would do without you. you’re one of the only friends that i’ve almost never felt super anxious and unsecure in my friendship with which is an entirely new experience for me. you are v good at helping give me a reminder of it when i need it but not going above and beyond so that i become reliant on the constant reassurance which has been tough but v necessary for me to have. i love you so so so much and i am so happy that we are friends and ugh i just do not know what i would do without you

and then there’s @worldofmuses… ciara, you have been with me through thick and thin for i feel like nearly six years now. you have stuck around through some of my worst and nastiest moments and i am honestly a bit surprised but nonetheless grateful. i am so lucky to have someone around who understands most of the crazy shit i’ve seen in the rpc and totally agrees with me about just how crazy some of it has been. i honestly feel like had i not known you there are things that i know happened in 1970s that i would have been convinced i’d imagined bc they were so weird (i mean you, bella and evan). while we’ve only been lucky once in the shipping department, you have always provided me with the absolute most perfect sibling relationships that i could have ever asked for. whether it’s our original and dearly beloved babes Aug and Addie or Thorfinn and Sienna, i always know that i can count on you for quality relationships. i also need to give an honorable mention to reg and laila as you were the first person to ever really convince me that reg was capable of having a ship bc i was v much against it until you. i cannot believe that we only recently discovered our mutual taylor love because it has added an entirely new layer to our friendship that is so intertwined with everything else that i honestly don’t understand how we never knew about it. i love you so so so much and am so grateful to have had you stick around through thick and thin, even in our dry spells, and i cannot wait to finally meet you face to face next year. you are so so important and special to me and i’m so happy i convinced you to join my group and convinced you to really give it a try ooc wise as i do not know where it’d be without  you and the vital role you play there both as a writer and as a person.

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[xtswifts]

in all my years on tumblr, this is still one of my favorite gifs of tay in existence, so i shall use it now on my mega ooc appreciation post.

i am still on hiatus — it has been a ROUGH 36 hours my dudes — but i did want to drop in and post some ic/ooc appreciation things while this week is still here because i am all in the business of sharing the love. it’s one of the many reasons i absolutely adore this group. this group has always been about love, for me, and would probably be the singular word i’d use to describe my experience here.

i joined this lovely bunch back in july, i do believe? i had actually just finished up writing and self-publishing my third book which wound up being a behemoth (seriously it was a lot) and while i was absolutely and completely braindead when it came to writing, i still wanted to write. i’m a writer. that’s who i am and that’s who i’ll always be. i wanted something a lot more low-stakes, kind of go-with-the-flow, no real pressure and more collaborative than the isolating fun of novel-writing, so i turned back to roleplay. hollywood rps have always been my absolute favorites in the rpc for whatever reason; i have such fond memories in hollywood groups and it’s a fun and creative way for me to just project the love i have for my faves. after a few experiences in groups during late 2017 and early 2018 i was pretty sure that i was done with roleplay. it just wasn’t the same for me, no matter where i went. priorities had shifted and it was no longer about writing because you loved to write. but, me being ever the optimist, i decided to dive back into the tags and see what was still around or had recently popped up. i found this group and i saw that they had just had a taylor swift removed from the group, and hi hello nice to meet you i am taylor swift trash no. 1!!!, i felt like it was all Meant To Be or something like that (plus, she was taken in every other group and that’s who i really wanted to put a hand at writing). so i put in an app for her, got accepted, and i have been plaguing your dashes ever since :~))

in the four-ish months that i have been here, so much has happened in my life. i started my (outrageously stressful) junior year of college, i lost my grandma, i went to go see queen swift in atlanta and meet my baby princess camila, i have had major friend complications and doubts about my career track and i have had just really boring, empty days where everything was going seemingly okay. this group has been there for me through every high, low, and in between. this group has been my escape to run to when i’m stressed or up late at night and can’t sleep or just really looking to be social or want to write something. this group has been so welcoming, warm, and fun; i have had the opportunity to explore my character any which way that i please and form awesome plots with people, and even more awesome friendships ooc. some of you send really, really kind things my way which, fyi, i’m super grateful for and have probably cried over because this was the first time i not only felt welcomed in a group as taylor, but felt welcomed in a group as me. i am so grateful that i get to call this place my internet home and there is absolutely nowhere else i would rather be spending my free time writing. i stand by what i say: this is the best group in the tags, hands down. you could not ask for a more inclusive, diverse, welcoming, creative playground to spend your time on. to all the lovely admins over on main @hollywoodfamerp​ thank you for doing the heavy lifting and giving us a safe and warm place that we can call home. the work you do never goes unnoticed. you are appreciated and you are so, so loved. ♡  

some ~personal~ shoutouts:

@nhxran​ — peyton, you are without a doubt one of my best friends both in this group and just in general. we had an immediate chemistry as writing partners from that very first starter reply and nothing about that has changed. you are the writing partner i always hoped i would find in a group due to how generous you are in every reply, the way you are willing to headcanon and brainstorm (even at the craziest of hours) and i still remain in awe of you as a roleplayer with the way you juggle such diverse characters, all of which have their prominent voices that never seem to overlap. you are the roleplayer i wish i could be. even though we might sometimes be ships in the night ic, ooc i know that you are always there and you always have my back, and i truly hope you know that the same goes for you. i love you, you intelligent, creative, witty, beautiful, heart-of-gold woman you. i would not have stayed in this group if i had not met you. you are one of my favorite people, period. thank you for being one of my dearest friends.

@cara-x-delevingne​ — mickey, the first person to ever pop into my ims and say hello (and you were FAST about it too, lol), you have been one of my favorite people to write with! the way you breathe a life into your characters is almost unparalleled to any writer, much less any writer in a hwood group. you have such a talent and not only that, you are funny and kind and inclusive and i am so glad that there are people like you (and you) still out there in this world. we need more people like you. thank you for one of the most epic friendships i’ve ever written in a group and always challenging me to step up to the plate and bring my a-game with taylor. you inspire me and i love you. never change.

@armiehmmer​ — graaaaace, the law to my swift! you were actually one of the reasons i joined this rp; before i joined i stalked a few blogs and as i have told you (and you have probably seen via my wildin’ ass on twitter) i love jen, so much. i saw how dedicated you were to your jen and how included she was, which i thought was amazing because like my girl t, some people just aren’t about. i figured if you could put in the effort and grind hard enough with her and get positive results, i could do the same for taylor. and here we both are, killin’ it. you are such a lovely person who has always been nothing but kind, i am still endlessly jealous you were in pasadena for rep tour but we’ll let it slide for now, lol. i love you, thank you for being the epitome of grace in this roleplay. you’re a pure light and the dash is dimmer without you on it.

@jstntimberfake​ — nicki, or should i say, GOD, i don’t know where to begin with you. you are the reason i almost took home a jt standup from 2nd and charles. i love everything that you do on both of your characters. you become them, they stand so far away from the person that you actually are and i think that is the testament of a true, talented writer: they are able to convince you that they’re someone else. and you do, every time. i’m just really, really happy that i get to say that i’m in the same rp group as you because it makes me feel like a Cool Kid on the playground who has light up sneakers. you are so cool and it sometimes lowkey intimidates me, how amazing and talented you are. thank you for always putting a smile on my face. love ya love ya  

@itsscarjo​ — aria, my magnificent love. you are so well spoken and kind and as my clumsy twin, i have no choice but to love you dearly. it’s so nice to just have somebody to talk to sometimes and every time we’ve talked, it’s like being all bundled up in a warm fuzzy blanket. you are so easy to talk to and i cannot wait for the things you and i do on all of our people now that our lives have calmed the heck down and we can come on and write. thank you for being such a spectacular, inviting person. i had several other people sing your praises to me when you joined the group and i can wholeheartedly agree with them. you are one of a kind. big love

@aubreycplaza​ — marissa, i mcfreakin’ adore you. i’ll be honest, i have not had the best experiences with aubreys in the past but that all goes out the window with you. i’m obsessed with you and all of your people, and to know you and get to write with you is an absolute pleasure. thank you for being so much fun to write with, thank you for giving me so much quality stuff to stalk while i’m on the dash and feeling like trash, thank you for being so understanding of me constantly feeling like trash, i adore you. can’t wait for tay and aubrey to finally go on their fuckin girls trip and become little jetsetters together (forevaaaa)

@jamesrodriqez​ — hello stranger idk you but i think you’re pretty cool! and i think that you have been one of the most entertaining, fun people to write with in these last couple of weeks when i feel like i’m barely able to write two sentences that haven’t been written onto a powerpoint that i’m copying off of. you just give me so much excitement about writing and plotting and that excitement is something that can be difficult to find again after you’ve gotten comfortable in a group. thank you for keeping things refreshing and new for me and taylor. i’m excited to get back to all of our fun shenanigans (and to love on your new people bc yes amen) #jandrea forever

@jarpadking​ — nikki! first of all, i’m in awe at how fast you can come up with replies on TWO characters that are so well-crafted and authentic to that person’s voice. i struggle just writing a single coherent reply on taylor half the time, lmao. you are one of the hearts in this group, the way you make it an effort to branch out and talk to every single person and create connections with both the mun and the character. you’re one of the unsung heroes and if we could all be a little more you like you, we’d be the best roleplayers around. love you so much, my dear, and of course, thank you for being so warm and inclusive. people like you are rare

@itskeeoone​ — i have spent all day binging pll because that is how i choose to veg out and every time i see keegan on screen now, i think of you, em. you just write him so wonderfully and truthfully and i don’t ever want to let you go (please don’t ever leave this group or i’ll cry). taylor and keegan have given me all the life, they are very similar people and i’m happy that my 15 year old self’s dreams are coming true by their worlds colliding here in the group. i’m so excited to write even more with you now that the holidays are coming and i’ll actually, y’know, BE AROUND, but yes. love you.

@goddamnjade​ — lucy, you know anybody that is as big into the dance scene as i am HAS to get a spot on this appreciation post ;) but also, you have just been one of the loveliest people ever? i think you’re one of the hearts in this group, the reason that it is why it is and the reason that it’s so warm and welcoming. you are so inclusive and fun to write with and i really hope that i get to talk with you more ooc because i adore youuuu!

@yosebstan​ — rileyyyy, gotta admit, sometimes you intimidate me but it is only because you are an absolute fuckin’ legend in this group, and not just because of your admin status. your characters have something that a lot of people try hard to encompass but can’t ever capture, and that’s longevity. your characters never feel stale, they always feel new and fresh and like real people, not just tropes or over-concentrated personality traits and i get so excited every time i see one of your people on the dash. i’m lucky to be in a group with you, so so lucky. i sometimes hope your natural inclination for rp will rub off on me and make me a better writer. love you, and i really hope we get to do some fun stuff in the future!!

@jpgsasha​ — cami, you and i clicked so fast when we started replying to each other’s stuff back when you still had camila and i cannot WAIT to write with you as my honey sasha (seriously, a fuckin’ plus switch). we had some of the LONGEST replies on the dash at one point but when you’re inspired, you’re inspired! thank you for inspiring me and being one of the most down to earth people in this group. you deserve all the fuckin’ love. please love me so i can give it to you.

@avycias​​ — katieeee!! it legit surprised me to find out how close we are to one another #hurricane watch friends, lol. you are so sweet and your alycia is absolutely legendary, i was biting at the bit to write with you from the minute i joined this group. i hope we get to do all of the things with taylor and alycia because writing with you makes me so happy. you are wildly talented and the way alycia comes to life every time you type something is magical. you write her with a conviction and you make her your own and i think that’s why i adore her so much. thank you for being you. love you much babes

@milesdominic​ — marie! miles and taylor had one of the cutest friendships ever and it needs to make a comeback asap, because 1) that, and 2) writing with you comes so naturally (*plays naturally by selena gomez and the scene*). i barely have to think about what i want to reply to you with because there’s a chemistry there that is hard to replicate; thank you for keeping me on my toes and my brain alert and being such a fun person to write with. you give me the chance to explore sides of taylor’s voice that other people look over and that i love, and that’s all anybody could ask in a writing partner, someone who allows them to run wild!

@blccmtroye​  — fiona, i fuckin’ love your troye. he is too much fun to interact with, and i am thankful that you gave this group a shot (and that you gave me a shot). i couldn’t imagine this place without the wit and the charm that you supply with every single post you make.

@flynnpls​ — marie, i’m just in love with all of your people and you. you’re one of the people i feel like i admire from afar because i stay in awe of the way you write and how effortless it seems to come to you. you balance all of these different personalities with finesse and i really do feel like i’m talking to or reading the words of the actual celebrity in every single reply. i am crossing my fingers that i get the opportunity to write some really incredible things with you here in the future because i have such mad respect for you.

+ to everyone else that i either forgot to mention, have not really formed connections with outside of replies or haven’t had the chance to talk to you/your babies due to my super fun hiatus: i stalk so many of you on the dash and keep up with your plots and where you take your characters and it really and truly is such a privilege to be in the same group as you. they say that birds of a feather flock together and if that’s the case, i am simply a reflection of all the things y’all are. kind, funny, clever, creative, welcoming, intelligent, and a part of something, and i could not ask for more. i love all of you, whether we’ve talked or not (believe me i probably stalk you and just love you from afar) and any time you ever need a friend, call me beep meeeeee. i’m always game to do things with taylor and explore her more through whatever plots or connections we could create, and i promise that if i don’t respond to an im, it’s because i’m off on hiatus or it got eaten. i want to do ALL the things with ALL of you. come hit me up! let me love you! k thanks!!!

obligatory thank you note to my queen taylor alison for existing. love u bitch.

xx, caroline

[maskedmuses-archived]

Anonymous asked:  For the mun - Was there a specific inspiration behind your OC muses when you created them?

So, on the blog there are only three OCs: Azuna, Lucille, and Osiris. Koya is iffy, but she is actually a canon character, just highly obscure and with nothing really to work with aside from three panels in an already obscure manga.

I’ll be focusing on the pure OCs for this ask.

Azuna was my very first OC, I made her August of 2002 for a roleplay site that set me down the path I’ve come today. As a child, I felt myself very trapped by my circumstances, and I wanted to make a character that could break free and make her own choices. I came up with the story of running away from home to escape a marriage due to her family influence and power, to give her something to ground her before having her own adventure. Unfortunately, over the course of five years, her story turned very tragic and she had a horrible end to her tale.

Over the next few years I’ve always toyed with bringing her back to the RPC, and I was finally convinced to do so by a couple of friends of mine.

Lucille was an OC I made after I had joined tumblr and had been in the Yugioh RPC for a long while back in 2012. The fandom was splitting back then and events in my life that occurred around that time had actually pushed me to a point where I felt like I was going to end it all. I had no reason to live at all, the only thing I felt anything for was to see the Rise of the Guardians movie because I remembered it was the only thing I felt I “had to do” before taking a final step, but even that was dwindling. A couple of people took me to it and it opened my eyes.

I felt a new reason to live, and in that renewed vigor for life, I decided to create Lucille.

Lucille was a manifestation of my depression. She was how I felt: stripped of her voice, very few emotions, but still wanted to be there, deep down. A shadow, a spirit who could be gone without the support of those around her, I knew I could have been the same way. I always told myself that if Lucille could push to get believers and grow stronger, then so could I.

Osiris doesn’t have nearly as fancy of a story. He was created to be a side character to Koya, so that way she could leap from dimension to dimension of her free will, so she could be easier to RP with (since she would be in the same situation as Yakumo, who because of her universe, finds it very difficult to mesh with other universes on a canonical level). However, stemming from a ship of a friend who is no longer on tumblr (Gyasa and Rusephine), eventually he began to take on a life of his own.

A playboy prince who has to still stay at his mother’s side, the angelic man who is a weapon, it is an interesting concept to play with and I always have this image of him descending down before Rusephine to protect her, sorrow ripped across his face.

Plus, he’s flamboyant, so he’s the only guy I’ve ever felt 110% comfortable RPing as, so he’s fun to work with when I get the chance.

[wintcrbird]

you join rps to create issues every character you have either tweets triggering things or very problematic things and when people call you out or go to the admins you like to start ooc and ic drama, then dont reply to the mains dms. Once all of that happens you complain no one wants to interact with you and threaten to leave once you finally leave you run to rpts how do you not see that as not problematic?? Its every rp you do this in and its annoying no one wants to accept you because of it

1 i’ve never intentionally joined rp just for something to happen , i guarantee it’s either i want to rp w my friends or try out something new 2 whenever someone found something i said ic to be triggering or problematic and TOLD me abt the effect it had on them , i deleted it and apologized , if there was something that was triggering to someone else and no one brought it to my attention , how am i supposed to know what other ppl are thinking ??? 3 the only time i’ve complained ooc was about activity and ppl bubble rping and ONLY on the tl when the admins have tried to fix it and nothing changes 4 there was one rp where i was like ? this is slow and my muse constantly got ignored so i was like ? rp recs anyone ? 5 i’ve never gone to an rpt or rpc abt a problem i’ve had in the rp bc unlike most of y'all i don’t take any of it ooc, move on from that shit and forget abt it but HEY LIKE I SAID , i can’t convince y'all to feel a certain way about me or change ur mind and give me another chance so the best i can do is learn from this and try MY best to not jump to conclusions and bring stuff like that to the tl but i can’t change if no one says anything bc a majority of the problems that have arose have NEVER been brought to my attention. just bc some of y'all find things triggering and offensive and problematic doesn’t mean i nor anyone else does so if there is every ANYTHING that i do that offends ANYONE , i am open to them coming to me and talking about it instead of posting a public psa , encourage ppl to talk shit and make them public enemy #1