#I CANNOT BELIEVE I FORGOT IT IS THEIR BIRTHDAY YESTERDAY SIGHS I FEEL BAD

[dseval]

Twoooo with nightmare and.. Dream!,

Have good day btw:}

So. For context: 2 is a romance song, so I DM'd her and she said no.1; hence number 2 remains unoccupied.

Another context: 1 is still a romance song, but imo it isn't explicitly romantic. It's about being bitter and wanting to bury old feelings for good. This is NOT Dreammare. Translations in [square brackets]

Dan mungkin bila nanti [and maybe if someday] Kita akan bertemu lagi [we will meet again] Satu pintaku jangan [I plead you] Kau coba tanyakan kembali [Don't try asking again] Rasa yang kutinggal mati [The feelings I've left for dead] Seperti hari kemarin [Like yesterday] Saat semua di sini [When everyone is here]

Mungkin Nanti - NOAH/Peterpan

Dreamtale by Joku

[ @chikikuchiku @chikikuwantyourcake ]

[peaceisadirtyword]

Surprise (Alex Høgh/Reader)

A/N: Hello! Today is Alex’s bday♥️ so I wrote this lovely anon’s request for today, as it’s the special day. I hope you like it and let me know what you think (I'm not very confident with this one, but I really didn’t have time to rewrite it).

Warnings: fluff, swearing, mentions of alcohol... And I think my bad writing, sorry.

Words: 1984

gif belongs to @alessandra-ives (and it’s my weakness)

It was only 11am and he already had to charge his phone twice. He usually received a thousand messages and notifications every day, but that day was special. 

Everyone had been wishing him a happy birthday since the night before, and he had spent a good few hours on his phone, answering some messages and talking to his family. 

Alex had been looking forward to that day for months, but a week ago his happiness had been crushed when he discovered he'd be alone on his birthday.

Well not alone alone, some of his closest friends were gonna go visit him that night for a few drinks. But you wouldn't be there there. 

The plan had been amazing. You'd fly to Copenhagen the day before his birthday, and would spend an entire week in there, with him. It had been months since he last saw you, and he missed you so much... 

But your boss had ruined everything, and now you had to work for the entire week, so your trip was cancelled. 

You had promised to call, though... He'd do a video-call with you when all of his friends were in there, to talk to you for a bit... And maybe pretend you were in there with him. 

He was on the couch, with the tv on and a book on his lap, but his eyes were glued to his phone. He had turned off all the notifications, and when it started to ring, he immediately picked it up.

"Hey" he smiled widely.

"Hi!" Your voice made him chuckle in happiness, you couldn't call him for a few days, and he missed it "Happy birthday!"

"Thanks" he bit his lip

"How is everything going? How are you?" 

"I'm fine, I received lots and lots of messages, I wish I could reply to all of them but" he sighed "Too many"

"Well, I'm glad no one forgot... What are the plans for tonight?"

Alex's smile faltered a bit.

"Marco is coming, and some other friends, we're gonna have a few drinks... Nothing too big" he shrugged.

"Sounds fun!" you bit your lip at the other side of the phone, noticing how his tone dropped a bit "I really wish I could be there, Alex"

"I know" he run his hand through his hair "It's fine"

"I promise I will go there soon"

"Of course, and I'll go there too" he smiled again.

"Are you sure you're okay?" you frowned "I don't want you unhappy on your birthday, Alex, I... Feel bad"

"Hey don't feel bad, okay?" He got up from the couch and started pacing around the living room "It's not your fault your boss is an asshole, I know you tried, and I'm not unhappy, I swear"

"Really?"

"Yes, come on" he chuckled again "We'll make a video-call, and I'll have an amazing birthday, and the next time you're here, we'll celebrate it again, don't feel bad"

"Okay" you smiled softly "I have a birthday present for you, by the way"

"Does it include a nude?"

"No! Oh my god you're an idiot" you laughed "Shut up, it's not that"

Alex chuckled, leaning into the wall and looking out the window.

"Well, whatever it is, I'm sure I'll love it"

"I hope so"

"Y/N, I'll love it, even if it's a paper bag, I'll love it because you gave it to me"

"Oh my god how do you know it's a paper bag?"

He laughed again.

"Anyway, I have to go to work" you said, and his smile faltered again.

"Okay, tell me when you got home and I'll call you"

"I will, enjoy your day, okay? Marco will tell me if you don't have fun"

"I will get wasted, don't worry" 

"I love you, Alex"

"I love you too, Y/N" the words brought a smile to his lips "Bye, gorgeous"

"Look at you! You are taller" his friends' hugs almost made him lost balance, and he had to put his hand on the wall to support himself, laughing "Happy birthday Alex!"

"Fuck you" he hugged his friend back before he let him go and enter his apartment, now full of very loud and already half drunk people. 

He was feeling good, he still missed you but knowing he would see your face soon (even if it was on his laptop screen) made him feel a bit better.

His phone vibrated on the table, and he smiled widely before taking his laptop and turning it on. Marco, who saw him and smirked.

"Are you going to call Y/N?" He asked, sitting next to him. 

"Yeah, she texted me saying she's at home now, so I'm going to call her"

"It's a shame she can't be here" he sighed, taking a sip of his beer "When will she come?"

"I don't know, she has to ask for some free days at work and... Well, I'll go there if she cannot come" Alex shrugged, not really wanting to think how much time he still had left to see you again. 

You picked up the call immediately, and as soon as your voice sounded on the room, everyone got quiet, sitting on the couch next to Alex and Marco to greet you. 

"Hey guys!" You smiled excitedly.

"Y/N! We need you! Alex has only drank three beers and has this annoying kicked puppy face..." said one of his friends, making everyone laugh. Alex hit his arm and looked back at the screen. 

You looked beautiful, with your hair framing your angelic face in a way that made his heart start beating faster and faster. And you weren't even in the room. 

"I thought you were at home" Alex frowned when he finally looked away from your face and noticed you were on the street. 

"I'm going home" you smiled "I couldn't wait to call you, so..." Your cheeks reddened, and Alex's friends started mocking the way he smiled widely. 

He noticed you had done your make up. Usually, you didn't do your make up for work, but maybe that day was special...

"Fuck, Alex, I need to go for a minute, the battery on my phone is getting really low" you bit your lip, and looked worried "Do you mind if I call you in five minutes from my laptop? I'll be home in a couple of minutes"

"Yeah, sure" Alex smiled again "Call me whenever you can"

"Okay, see you now, love you"

You finished the call before he had the chance to say it back, and rolled his eyes when his friends started laughing at him.

"I love you, Alex"

"Oh my god shut up" he laughed, kicking his friend.

And then, the doorbell rang.

He frowned in confusion. Everyone he invited was already in there...

"I'll get it, you stay here, in case Y/N calls you" Marco patted his shoulder and got up, walking to the door. Alex took his beer and drank a bit while looking at his phone in case you had texted him. 

He was too busy reading some of the new messages he got, and he didn't notice how all of his friends went quiet. Until someone covered his eyes from behind the couch. 

He gasped and heard some of his friends giggling around the room. 

"Happy birthday, Alex"

That voice... No, but it couldn't be possible... But the smell and the voice were unmistakable...

"Y/N?!" He put your hands away softly and turned around. You were there, smiling and biting your lip as you always did whenever you were nervous. You giggled when you saw his confused face and widened eyes. He looked like a puppy "Fuck!" 

He grabbed your waist and hugged you tightly, making you yelp in surprise when he lifted you easily over the backseat of the couch. 

"What the fuck are you doing here?" He sobbed in happiness, pressing his lips to yours. 

You smiled into the kiss and hugged his neck. 

"Surprise" you broke the kiss to look at him in the eyes "I'm staying for ten days" 

"Ten days? Oh gods" he hid his face in your neck, a few tears of happiness rolling down his cheeks. He had dreamt to be with you for an entire day for months, and now he had ten days... "I love you, I missed you" he muttered, his grip on your waist tightening even more, as if he was afraid you'd leave again if he let you go.

"I love you, and I missed you too" you whispered.

"Hey, you two! Get a fucking room!"

Alex nearly forgot about his friends being in the same room.

"Sorry" he chuckled, wiping away his tears as he let you go. You already had your cheeks reddened and went back to bit your lip. 

"Oh, he's crying!" More laughter, and this time Alex's laugh was a bit more louder.

"I can't believe you fooled me" he scoffed "I should have known, you sounded too happy this morning"

You two were the only ones left in his apartment. All his friends left after some hours of drinking, playing PS4 and even dancing and singing on the balcony. 

"I wanted it to be a surprise" you shrugged, walking around the living room and taking the empty beer cans and the used glasses to take them to the kitchen "It was true I had to work yesterday, so I rescheduled my shifts and talked to some of my coworkers and to my boss so I could have a few days to surprise you" you smiled at him softly, who looked at you as if you were the most precious thing he had ever seen "And... I needed some days more, because I have things to do in Copenhagen..." You bit your lip nervously, and Alex chuckled, throwing the cans to the trash and looking amused at your words. 

"Okay, and what exactly do you have to do in Copenhagen?" He raised an eyebrow.

"I... It's the second part of the surprise" you crossed your arms on your chest and looked away. 

What if he thinks it's the worst idea ever?

"Oh, the surprise has got more parts?" He laughed "You're going to be the death of me, woman"

He hugged you again, and you hummed happily when he kissed your forehead lovingly.

"Yeah, two more parts" you smiled as your back  was pressed against the wall. 

"Well, tell me" he looked at you expectantly, and you breathed deeply before answering. 

"I'm going to... Well, I thought about it for a while, and I applied even if I knew they wouldn't call me, but I had to try, because it was a great opportunity and..."

"Yes?" He widened his eyes.

"I have a job interview in four days. Here, in Copenhagen"

Alex gasped, and you frowned, worried. 

"That means..."

"That I'd move here, in case they... Hire me... Look, I understand if you think this it too much and I can call them and tell them I'm not interested and..."

"Shut up" he grabbed your face, grinning like an idiot "You living here with me would make me the happiest man in the world, Y/N" 

He kissed you again, a passionate and needy kiss that left you panting and grabbing his shoulders to support yourself. 

"Now, shall we go to bed?" He kissed your cheek and you blushed.

"Okay, but... You go first, I have to take the third part of your surprise!" You giggled excited, pushing him to his bedroom before running to the living room and taking the fragile package. 

He was shirtless, preparing himself to get into bed when you entered the room, and he raised an eyebrow as you gave him the package, already excited to see his face when he saw that old camera he wanted so bad and that was so difficult to find. 

"Happy birthday again, Alex"

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The Princess Uhura Diaries

June 6 This girl is a college graduate!!! Woohoo! So happy to have my degree at last. Harvard is no joke, believe me. Even Grandmother almost smiled at me when I saw her after the ceremony. I may fall short in the social graces, but she can't doubt my brains! Celebrated with the girls, then said goodbye and Scotty the Royal Terrier and I are now on the plane back to Genovia. I'll miss my school sisters big time, but duty calls. I'm being groomed for queenhood someday and Grandmother wants me back there for more tutoring in the ways of being royal. Sigh. 

June 8th Landed back in Genovia yesterday and found a couple big surprises. Grandmother renovated and updated a new suite for me. It's mind-blowing luxurious. The walk in closet is to DIE for. That'll come in handy for my extensive shoe collection. The bathroom is larger than my whole bedroom at Mom's and the bed.....well, it's every princess's dream. But that wasn't the only thing that surprised me. When I went in to my giant closet, who should pop up but Gaila, my bestie from New York!! There was lots of squealing and catching up after that. She came all the way over here for my party, bless her heart. June 15th I survived the party, thanks to Gaila and the cute guy I almost ran over on the dance floor. Yum-yum. It started Off like any other royal bash, me coming forth in my fancy gown introduced to a crowd of nobles and diplomats and forced to dance with a motley assortment of stuffed shirts. Ugh. The Pimply French kid was the worst. Then there was the awkward Swedish prince who stepped on my toes three times. I was so relieved to get away from him, I ran smack dab into some poor guy just standing there minding his own business, stepping on his foot even. He kind of doubled over for a second and I apologized as profusely as I could, dying with embarrassment at my perpetual clumsiness. Then he looked up at me and I met the most stunning pair of blue eyes I'd ever seen. He was kind of surprised himself I think, before he recovered and I made a joke about insurance information to which he smoothly replied in kind. It was almost flirting, but I was so relieved to finally meet a decent guy, I agreed to a dance almost before he'd finished asking. June 16th So much for a decent guy. Turns out he's gunning for my crown!! Today Gran had an uncomfortable meeting with parliament and they brought up the old law that requires a female to be married in order to inherit the crown!! I thought they'd done away with anachronistic, sexist rules like that. Evidently not. So, I've got to get myself a man before my next birthday or this James Tiberius Kirk brat gets a chance to lay claim to the throne. I don't know how, but his Uncle, the Viscount Mabry, said he should get the throne because he's more familiar with the Genovian society. Then, he brought him over to live here for the summer! When I saw who it was, well, I was steamed and disappointed. Let's just say, this time, when I stepped on his foot, it wasn't an accident. Gran said afterward, "As a Queen, I cannot condone it, but as a Grandma, I say RIGHT ON!!" I love that woman. June 22 Ever since HE moved in, I feel on edge everyday, like they're looking for reasons I shouldn't be allowed to rule. The Viscount is always sneering and sniffing at me and James is trying to pretend like he's not a lying scumbag. If it weren't for Gaila's refreshing presence, I'd have ripped out my hair by now, or thrown myself in the duck pond. First there was the embarrassing episode with the runaway chicken. I admit, it was stupid of me to open the clucking basket, but James looked way too tickled by my mortification. Then there was the inspection of the guard and I had to ride sidesaddle past the whole company without looking like I was in mortal fear of falling to a terrible demise. Of course, the supposedly calm horse spooked at something and knocked me on my rear anyway. Needless to say, my humiliation was complete, AGAIN. I saw Joe looking very grim and somewhat menacing at the Viscount, but I have no idea why. James had the goodness to keep his mouth shut for once. June 27 Gram is dead set on finding me a husband now. She loathes the Viscount and his schemes to get his nephew the throne. So she and Joe started vetting possible candidates and last night Gaila and looked through the options. It felt creepy. Who wants to pick their husband like he's a dinner option on a menu? But Parliament would have to abolish the longheld law with a two-thirds vote, and The Prime Minister says there isn't enough opposition  to get the required votes. I can tell that bothers him, but his hands are tied. So, we scrolled through various young lords and princes until we came to a nice looking Vulcan by the name of Spock. He's tall, dark, and very handsome, with cute pointy ears and looks very calm and logical like most of his species. I gave him the thumbs up and Gram declared she would invite him to visit Genovia immediately. I'm not promising to marry the guy, but I need something to keep me from thinking about those blue eyes!!! (Darn them) James still keeps trying to convince me our lie dance wasn't a lie and he really did enjoy it!! July 1st. Today was the Founder's Day Parade. As the princess and heir to the throne, I am obligated to sit on a float and wave at the crowds beside Grandmother. It's totally not my thing, but necessary for public relations. So up I got, pleased that James had to experience the same discomfort with his pompous windbag uncle. Despite my dislike of him, I have to admit he was pretty smooth at the mingling with the masses part and not nearly as uncomfortable as I'd hoped. I forgot about that when I passed the girls from the orphanage and saw the wistful expression in those eyes. Impulsively, I got down from the float and invited the girls to walk with me at the front. After all, in my view, every girl deserves to feel like a princess even if they never see a tiara. It ended up being the best part of the day and Gram didn't even really scold me. Even James told me sincerely it was a sweet thing to do. July 8th Spock arrived and we met in person for the first time. Let's just say he's even more handsome in real life and has those dark brown eyes that aren't hiding any nefarious designs! (Unlike some) We get along well, if it was a little awkward at first. Vulcans are very literal and logical and don't always get the jokes, so I try not to get too punny around him. Turns out he's WAY into science and stuff, founded a special scientific institute in his country even. July 12th. Been on several outings with Spock. He's quite a conversationalist once you get him talking. We took some long walks around the coast, played badminton, and several chess games, at which he royally kicked my butt. Of course, the whole thing is being blown up by the media and turned into a soap opera, which is really annoying.  The Viscount though, is really grumpy about it, much to my satisfaction, and James gives me odd looks sometimes, which I find highly unsettling for no reason at all! July 25th The Garden Party started out well, and ended in me doing something monumentally STUPID!! How could I let it happen? HOW?? I hate his guts so much right now!! James arrived at the party looking all smug and dapper as usual, with a knockout blonde on his arm, whom he introduced as Carol. She seemed like a nice girl, but it looked more like Jim was just trying to get me jealous, which is totally ridiculous because I don't even like him!!! Anyway, somehow, Spock and Carol got talking on some deeply technical scientific stuff and James and I were left alone. He started making suggestions that I'm only using Spock to keep my throne and of course I told him off for that, the hypocrite. "I loathe you!!" I yelled finally, getting right up in his smarmy handsome face. "I loathe YOU!!" He yelled back, staring at me intently. Next thing I knew, he'd yanked my face to his and was kissing me!! I should have slapped him for that, but instead I kissed right back. I can't believe that happened. Only you, diary, will ever know that James T. Kirk is really good at kissing, much as I hate to admit it. Then we started arguing again, and somehow ended up in the fountain. I embarrassed Grandmother again. Thankfully, Spock didn't see that indiscretion, being deep in discussion. Aug. 17th Well, James has been a lot less obnoxious lately, seeing how serious Spock and I are getting. In fact, he's been downright nice, even giving me archery tips as I practiced for the test I'll undergo the night before the coronation, which involves shooting an arrow through a ring, an Old Genovian tradition, I hear. I tried to ignore the fluttering in my stomach when he laid his hand over mine while correcting my stance, but wow, he seems to have really gotten under my skin. Ugh. Spock has been so sweet about this whole thing and probably being married to him won't be such a bad thing, but I just can't seem to be quite as happy as I thought I would with such a perfect man.... Sept. 3rd Spock proposed. I said Yes. The kingdom is going nuts at the prospect of a wedding.   It's kind of nice, actually, being engaged to him, but I never thought I'd feel so calm about impending marriage. Gram smiles approvingly a lot, Gaila still looks at me questioningly and Jim seems down in the dumps. He mostly keeps to himself now, seems to always have a book in his hand. He and Carol have double dated with us a couple times and she's great company, but it always ends up with her and Spock doing most of the talking and Jim and I avoiding each other's eyes. I think he's changed his mind on me being a fit ruler finally. I wonder if he'll have the guts to stand up against the Viscount uncle, who's more bombastic than ever. March 5. I haven't written in forever, but wedding planning has taken over my life right now. The dress, the flowers, the table settings, the cake, pleasing the families and all that jazz is pretty exhausting. Spock's been really kind and helpful in his own way. He's great at subtly telling people when enough is enough. It's very comforting and I ought to be head over heels by now, but I'm not and that saddens me. Should I really go through with this? Is it worth losing the kingdom and hurting Gran? Should I really cave to this sexist law? Gaila told me she'll support me no matter what I decide, and it's comforting to know that. For now, everything is going ahead for an April 3rd Wedding. March 30th Had a delightfully unconventional "shower" last night. We invited princesses of all ages to the palace for a giant slumber party, including mattress surfing down the main staircase. It was a riot! Even Grandmother joined in, looking dignified while doing it. It was nice to let myself go and just be a regular girl again. Pretty soon I'll be in charge of a country and fun time? Well, Buh-bye. April 2nd I caved to temptation last night and snuck  out with Jim to the lake for a moonlight walk. I should be strong enough to resist him, but those eyes just DO things to me and he seems to be much more than an insufferable, cocky rich guy. We really talked this time and I learned about his life and growing up with no parents and I told him about New York and Gaila and my Mom and how awkward it was learning to be a princess. "You're doing a pretty fantastic job, in my opinion," he told me. "You really do care about the people and the country. My uncle is so wrong." "You really think so?" I asked (He was holding my hand at this point). "Sure do." He smiled at me and my heart did a flip again. Shoving the guilt aside, I stayed with him. We danced in the moonlight and curled up under a tree and dozed off. Bad idea. Next thing I know, there come the paparazzi and I'm running away in rage and panic, wondering if it was all a set up by Jim to create a scandal and wreck the wedding. I really need to make better choices. April 3rd Well, there was a wedding today, but not mine. I couldn't go through with it, not after searching my own heart and realizing I'm in love with someone else. It's not fair to Spock, logical as he's been about the whole thing. When Joe told me that James had NOT planted those paps to ruin me and he believed the young man was besotted with me, well, the was the finishing touch. I went out there and told Spock I couldn't go through with it. He was very gracious as usual and I think I detected a faint trace of relief on his part. Then the good ole Viscount got up and started haranguing me again and how he wouldn't stand for this. After he stormed out in a huff, the Prime Minister came up and told me now was a good time to convince Parliament to change the rules. "They're waiting to be convinced. Go after them and tell them what's what. Don't back down." I always liked the Prime Minister. Lord Pike is a good man. Up I got and explained why women are perfectly capable of ruling a country without a husband. Most of them seemed to be receptive, but one old fellow had to ask "What does the other heir think?" There was a silence, and James stood up, much to my surprise. I certainly didn't expect him to be there after everything that happened to be there. He looked like he'd had a bad night, but what he said warmed me through. He backed me up completely!! Even said he utterly refused to be king because he felt the crown was mine and I would be a great queen. "Plus, she'll look lovely on all our postage stamps," he added saucily, with a smile at me. Once he'd finished, he turned and left without further ado, leaving me both grateful and puzzled. The Prime Minister called for a vote right then and there and the law was overturned. That wasn't the end of the surprises, though. Grandmother stood up and declared it would be a shame to waste all the bridal plans, so she and Joe would be filling in as the happy couple. It's very unlike her to be so impulsive, but the two of them together has been a long time coming and I gladly played bridesmaid as they were united in marriage. What a day!!! April 16th I passed the archery test with flying colors and the coronation will proceed tomorrow as planned. I'm really nervous about it, but this evening something wonderful happened. I was lounging in my drawing room, Scotty beside me on his little doggy throne, when Jim appeared and knelt before me. "What is your dilemma, young man?" I asked him playfully. Those big blue eyes were looking at me so intensely, I thought I would drown in them. "I am in love with the queen to be and am inquiring as to whether she loves me too." I admit, I launched myself at him in a very unqueenly manner and we held each other tightly, finally giving in to the electricity between us. Then he whispered "Nyota!" In my ear in a longing, loving tone and I kissed the daylights out of him. How I love that man. Scotty was annoyed at losing my undivided attention and stalked off in high dudgeon, yipping, but we were too busy to care. I'll make it up to him. April 18th The coronation went off with much pomp and circumstance. I now understand what they mean when they say "heavy is the head that wears the crown". Not only is it a huge responsibility to be ruler of a country, but the crown is literally HEAVY. My head was sweating the whole day. Between Grandmother, Joe, Gaila, and Jim, I was subtly encouraged by my loved ones and made it through the long ceremonies fairly well. Grandmother bustles around looking proud, Joe kept the throng from getting too big, Gaila smiled, and Jim looked dazzled and proud and utterly gorgeous. Even Spock attended with Carol sticking to his side. I think those two might have a thing going...... (Skips over a year of entries until the next June) June 6th I married Jim yesterday. It truly was the best day of my life and Mom got to be there, which was wonderful. I'd felt weird wearing the same dress that I'd originally picked out to marry someone else, so the original was auctioned for charity to support the orphanage. My new gown was a simple long white satin with elegant sheer sleeves and delicate crystals scattered over it. It moved beautifully as well, and Jim seemed to like it judging by the countless times he's told me how gorgeous I am. He's no slouch either, rocking that royal uniform with confidence and style. Joe walked me down the aisle, which made Grandmother very happy. (Was that a tear I saw in her eye?) Jim's eyes were just glowing as we exchanged vows and I hope I was able to convey my own love and joy so perfectly. "How does it feel to be a prince?" I asked him when it was over. "Not as good as being your husband," he answered softly, kissing my hand regally. I swooned inwardly. Who could help it? Just as we started our first dance, he looked down at his feet with feigned anxiety. "Are my toes safe today?" He asked, the rascal, bringing up our awkward first two meetings. I laughed. "You bet, baby." Well, Jim is starting to stir beside me and I think I saw one blue eye open a bit, so I'd better stop for now. I will say, he has totally cute bedhead! I think I'm going to ruffle it up some more.

[titlessandwitless]

Rules: Once you have been tagged, you are supposed to write 92 truths about yourself. At the end, choose how many people you want to tag!

i was not tagged but i’m self indulgent today and i think wanna do this so fuck it

LAST…

1. drink: cola

2. phone call: my mum

3. text message: @theleavesoflorien​

4. song you listened to: gotta work by amerie

5. time you cried: yesterday

HAVE YOU EVER…

6. dated someone twice: yea and it was a bad idea. i fucked up

7. been cheated on: not that i know of

8. kissed someone and regretted it: yeah p much all the guys (2) i’ve ever kissed

8. lost someone special: yeah

10. been depressed: i’ve no diagnosis so idk

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: does it count if i only threw up the day after lmao

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS:


12. blue

13. green

14. idk. fucken dark red maybe

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU…


15. made new friends: yes. and they’re amazing

16. fallen out of love: i don’t think i have been in love last year so no


17. laughed until you cried: probably. can’t remember


18. found out someone was talking about you: idk i’m not very observant honestly

19. met someone who changed you: yup

20. found out who your true friends are: i mean i know that the few friends that i have are my true friends

21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: nah

GENERAL…


22. how many of your tumblr friends do you know in real life: 1 i think????? the others are fucking far away

23. do you have any pets: yesssss. pupper!

24. do you want to change your name: yeah i think i wanna shorten it maybe idk yet

25. what did you do for your last birthday: i can’t remember

26. what time did you wake up: 7am and it sucked

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: i forgot. i was prolly sad or sleeping or thinking abt sex

28. name something you cannot wait for: vacation.. i need to unwind..

29. when was the last time you saw your mother: we live together

30. what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: i’d like to be able to live alone but rent is ridiculous and also i’d prolly forget to eat and other important things  

31. what are you listening to right now: a clock ticking and my dog’s sigh

32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: most likely

33. something that is getting on your nerves: people who are rude/mean/don’t listen/bigots/the noise that cutlery makes on plates

35. elementary: yea i have been in elementary school if that is the question

36. high school: thank god that is over

37. college: currently has me in its choke-hold

38. hair colour: brown

39. long or short hair: i think it is in between maybe but it’s gonna be cut soon, thank god

40. do you have a crush on someone: not rn i think but almost always

41. what do you like about yourself: i care a lot, i wanna help people and be kind, i have strong arms, i am sorta good at self-discipline sometimes

42. piercings: got my ears pierced in elementary school bc everyone else got theirs pierced and then i was allergic to the earrings so fuck that

43. blood type: are you gonna harvest my organs or some shit lmao. then you can do your research and come get them yourself buddy, fight me

44. nickname: i don’t know that i have one

45. relationship status: very much single

46. zodiac sign: gemini

47. pronouns: they/them

48. fav tv show: one day at a time (i’m only half way through though bc i have to leech on my friend’s netflix and i feel bad abt it)

49. tattoos: none yet but i have many that i want

50. right or left handed: right but i’ve been training my left bc what if i break my right arm at some point. gotta be ready

FIRST…


51. surgery: i don’t fucking know

52. piercing: have you not already asked this? ears

53. best friend: i think all my friends are? so sam, noah and marianne. edit: oh shit, you meant first best friend lmao. that would be the girl next door whom i was in love with also. whoops

54. sport: i used to play soccer but i quit bc my teammates were not nice. currently i go to the gym

55. vacation: i think it was lesbos actually. which is fun considering the gay

56. pair of trainers: idk what this means

RIGHT NOW…


57. eating: nothing

58. drinking: nothing

59. i’m about to: chill with my dog next to me on the couch

60. listening to: my mom talking

61. waiting for: nothing

62. want: a gf

63. get married: idk. on the one hand it’s rly old fashioned and patriarchal but also the idea of being in love with a woman and having her tell me she loves me and that she wants to be with me is amazing. also i’d get to wear a suit

64. career: i’m studying philosophy in college so idk what career you think i can get lmao

65. hugs or kisses: yes pls

66. lips or eyes: oh shit. i’m such a sucker for eyes honestly. but nice lips are amazing too

67. shorter or taller: do you know how short i am. the likelihood of finding someone shorter than me is ridiculous. and also i don’t care at all

68. older or younger: prolly older but idc as long as it’s only like 1 year younger and a few years older

69. romantic or spontaneous: both are good

70. nice arms or nice stomach: all stomachs are good stomachs. same with arms

71. sensitive or loud: sensitive bc i’m not good with too much noise always

71. hook up or relationship: depends

73. troublemaker or hesitant: i think most ppl are a mix? these questions are very binary

HAVE YOU EVER…


74. kissed a stranger: nope

75. drank hard liquor: yea

76. lost glasses/contact lenses: no

77. turned someone down: yes

78. sex on first date: nah

79. broken someone’s heart: yeah :/

80. had your own heart broken: many times

81. been arrested: nah

82. cried when someone died: definitely. many times

83. fallen for a friend: often

DO YOU BELIEVE IN…


84. yourself: most of the time with many things

85. miracles: no

86. love at first sight: nah mate

87. santa claus: not anymore lol

88. kiss on the first date: yeah if i like them and they go for it bc i’m too shy :/

89. angels: nope

OTHER…


90. current best friend’s name: sam, noah and marianne as i said

91. eye colour: blue

92. favourite movie: moonlight

[yume-no-ai]

A surprise for kouhai

A/N: A little late to write a story for Kindaichi’s birthday but phew I did it. Summary? A story of Kindaichi being discouraged, 3rd years wanting to throw party for him and small talks.

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*PWEEEEEETT*

The referee blew a whistle while crossing his forearms in front of his chest with open hands. The volleyball players knew what the signal means and it meant that the match has ended. A student flipped number cards; showing 23-13. On the right side of the team can see the members were all cheering and gave each other high-five while on the other side, most of them were staring on the floor in defeated and some lied down due to exhaustion. A build teenager boy gave a pat on each member’s shoulder/head while handing them water bottle. “It’s okay, guys! You’ve done a great job! Take this and cool down yourself!” “THANK YOU, IWAIZUMI SENPAI!”. All players who participated in the practice match against other school team today were all his kouhai; Second Year and First Year. 

Iwaizumi went to hand over the last bottle to Kindaichi, who took it without looking at him. He heard his kouhai let out a small grumble before thanking him. Iwaizumi looked at him with concern. He knew how his kouhai felt after a defeated match, especially Kindaichi. He can get super emotional. Catching up to Kindaichi, Iwaizumi switched to mom-mode (or that’s what his friends would say).

“Kindaichi, don’t ever give up.  You’ve done your very best out there. Take this as a lesson and fix yourself. Besides, this is just a practice match.”

“Senpai....I- If only I could try harder and able to block perfectly, we could have score so much. I... i’m so sorry,” Kindaichi spoke in low tone. He hated his gameplay today. After the national match with Karasuno, he downgraded himself and often being a bit clumsy in match. Kunimi always remind him that volleyball is a team game and Kindaichi knows that. His senpai’s disappointed and sad faces just kept lingering in his head.

After cooling down and took a shower, Kunimi waited for him in the locker room which he got told to go back home first without Kindaichi. He wanted to be alone for now. Oikawa and iwaizumi noticed this and motioned Kunimi to leave him alone for now. When Kindaichi left with his captain’s permission, the Seijoh members grouped up in the gymnasium.

“He left already. Everyone! First of all, I’d like to say great job on today’s match. Even though we lost, but you did your best! Be sure to practice on what you feel like you need to fix! Secondly, is everyone okay with our plan for tomorrow?” Oikawa beamed. All members nodded their head. Everything was in checked and prepared for tomorrow’s birthday surprise.

Yes. Tomorrow is Kindaichi’s birthday. “Great!! So, as we planned, when he comes right into the gymnasium, we all surprised him! No failures okay, guys! I bet he will love our surprises tomorrow!”. Everyone cheered when Oikawa made a small speech + reminder.

= = = = =

The next day...

“WAIT WHAT DO YOU MEAN?”

“Stop yelling, Oikawa!” Iwaizumi yelled back which made Oikawa pout and mumbled ‘But you yelled too’. Iwaizumi sighed, “You heard me. Kindaichi asked to be excused from practice for a few days. Saying he needs some time and space for now. I guess yesterday’s practice really hits him hard. It’s true that he missed or might able to block if he did much better yesterday.”

“But- but what about the party?! Everyone must’ve brought snacks, foods and decorations,” Oikawa looked at his childhood friend, who is also his classmate and sat in front of him in class. “Did you persuade him to come to practice today? Maybe he will listen to you!”

Iwaizumi shook his head. “Not working. I tried but he kinda...plead me with those eyes.” ‘And wait a minute...why me? Oikawa is the captain. Why don’t he tell Kindaichi to stay?’

“......well, I guess it can’t be help.. b-but..”

“oooorrr...” Hanamaki draped his left arm over Oikawa’s shoulder. “We can try to ask that person to persuade him to stay.”

The two childhood friends looked at each other before returned to look at Hanamaki. “Who is that person?”

= = = = =

“Why me?”

Oikawa kneeled down beside the person’s table seat while holding both of his hands in mid-air, “Please!! You’re our only last hope! Do it for him! It’s his birthday!”. Lucky for them, Kindaichi went to grab lunch with Kunimi so they’re free to talk out loud.

“Your senpais believe that he will listen to you, Yoshino. He...was down since yesterday’s match and feeling discouraged until now. As a senpai, we don’t want him to lock that feeling and blaming himself forever. It’s unhealthy,” explained Iwaizumi to the long wavy brown-haired with her significant red ribbon on the back of her hair, Yoshino Hitomi. Yoshino closed her bento and told Oikawa to stand up as her classmates were all looking and gawking at him (which also made her embarrassed). She pushed the center of her glasses. 

“Fine. I’ll try. But, if he still doesn’t want to go, then I cannot force him. We may be friends since childhood but there is limit,” Yoshino said softly so she does not sounds rude to her senpais. Oikawa, Iwaizumi, Hanamaki and Matsukawa nodded their head. This was their last hope.

= = = = =

The bell signaled that their last class has ended for today. Everybody was busy packing and stuffing their items into their bag. Kunimi already leaving the classroom to the gymnasium for ‘practice’. Yoshino sighed before stood up from her seat and walked towards Kindaichi’s desk. Kindaichi who was still packing, looked up to see Yoshino stood in front of his desk, “Oh hey, princess. What’s wrong?”

Yoshino squinted at him. “What’s wrong? We always go back home together. Ah! Since you have practice today, let’s walk together to the gy-”

“I’m not going to practice today.”

Yoshino blinked at him. “Why? You never skip practice.” Kindaichi grabbed his bag and stood up. “I feel like...taking a break from volleyball.”

Both of them casually walking to the shoe locker. “The last time you said you wanted to take a break from something was when we were in middle school. And you never continue from that so-called break. What happened?”

The two took their shoes in their own respective locker and switched the shoes they were wearing. Kindaichi sighed. He hates it when someone able to look into his trouble, especially Yoshino. He hates to be or look weak in front of her. The two of them exited the school entrance.

“I- I feel like I’m a burden to the team. Yesterday’s match was horrible. Could have score more but I kept missing the block. I don’t mind if our score difference was 1 or 2... but 10?? I even heard the team members grumbled when I missed. Then the image of our senpai’s frustration and disappointment face after losing to Karasuno flashed. I don’t want that to be repeat again to our 2nd Year senpai,” Kindaichi finally opens up and Yoshino listened.

She likes to listen to her friend’s story or problem and then she would carefully say what is the best for them. She heard about yesterday’s defeat. She couldn’t attend and supported her friends due to helping her grandparents at home.

She cleared her throat before began to reply. “I... do understand your situation, Kindaichi. Feeling hopeless or useless in not achieving something. When I wasn’t able to do ‘pop shove it 360′ trick- mind you that was one of the basic trick that every skaters need to know and I failed many times, I nearly wanting to quit. I was like “my parents bought me a skateboard, sent me to classes and even sign me up for camp yet still can’t do 360. I am just wasting my time, my parent’s time and money”. But here I am now. Still skateboarding. And a Young Skateboarding Championship too.”

At this time, both of them were nearly heading to the front gate. She gave him a small smile. “What I’m trying to say, Kindaichi, is that to never give up. It’s okay to take a break but not quit.” She laughed a little, “You’re lucky volleyball is a team play. I had to do it solo. No one is gonna back me up if I ruined in a competition.”

This hits Kindaichi and stopped his track. He just realised all these time, Yoshino always do it alone in  every competition meanwhile he had others to support him. Yoshino stared at him. Guess her words made Kindaichi realise. “So, you still want to go home? Or did you bring your jersey in your bag?”

Kindaichi turned to brown haired girl and gave her a smile. “Happened to have extra in locker room. Guess I need to practice harder than before” he said before heading to the gymnasium with Yoshino. Yoshino quickly texted Kunimi that they were heading there and need to be quick since Kindaichi was walking faster.

= = = = =

Everybody quickly took their places when Kunimi informed that Kindaichi will be heading over. The 3rd years prayed to the God to bless on Yoshino for able to persuade him. When the gym room made a rattling sound signaling someone is coming in, everybody kept quiet. The room slid open and revealed Kindaichi looking the surrounding in confusion along with Yoshino behind him. He saw big banner with ‘Happy Birthday’ words on it, a large table with various sweets, foods and drinks, and balloons scattered on the floor before getting surprise by his teammates. His team members made him wore a party hat.

“Y-you guys did these for me?” he asked. He even forgot that today was his birthday. Damn his emotional mood.

“Of course! We would never forget each and everyone’s birthday!” Oikawa patted his shoulder. “We thought you would never come but thanks to Hitomi-chan, she’s able to make you attend to your own party!”

Kindaichi turned and looked at Yoshino, who was sipping apple juice provided by Matsukawa. Yoshino held her right hand mid-air. “Before you think anything bad, what we had just now, was not senpai’s plan. What I said is all coming from me. Also, Oikawa senpai would whine and complaining about me not able to make you attend your own party,” the brown haired girl mildly pouting.

Kindaichi let out a laugh. That’s Yoshino Hitomi for you. She’s like Kunimi the 2nd but much better. He was also not gonna accuse Yoshino anything because he trusts her and even if she going with senpai’s plan, he didn’t mind. How can he not fall for her even harder? But no way he had the courage to tell her that. Maybe one day. For now, he will enjoy this moment on his birthday with his seniors and friends; still kept in mind to become even hardworking.

End 

[echoes-of-the-north]

1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? Absolutely not. He had minimal life and dating experience and knew little to nothing of me when he said it. We only knew each other one month. With no commonality, no connection, and no knowledge, and no time, I did not believe his love. And I knew I would never love him. I guess it’s good I broke it off. 2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now? No!!! No no no no!!! Honestly I don’t know how my ex was with me at 26 when I was 19. I’m just 23 and already can’t possibly conceive having any substantial relationship or bond with an 18 year old child just figuring out who they are in the world. But then, I thought the bond I had at 19 transcended age and all obstacles. I was wrong, but it means my mind can be changed if someone is precious to me. 3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time? Last two times the guy I was seeing showed up at work on my breaks. I mean yay friend but my work breaks are me time. And I need them to remain me time. Guess I don’t have to worry about that now. 4. Would you ever smile at a stranger? Of course. If I’m not in a desperately unpleasant mood I do try to smile at everyone even though my eyes hurt and are almost always an uninviting squint. You never know how hard someone’s day is and a smile can go a long way. I also smile when I see someone struggling or embarrassed, for encouragement. 5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? Oh I suppose so. Everyone knew I didn’t really fancy the guy I was seeing. But as for mad, my ex best friend is still rather upset I’m talking to her ex fling because we get on better. Blames him for us not being friends. That wasn’t what was wrong with our friendship but she’s still right pissed. 6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today? Several. But then, I was listening to a playlist which reminds me of my ex something fierce. The clubs in PV play songs that remind me of him too. 7. What exactly are you wearing right now? Hey now, that’s personal. Just a robe and pajama pants. 8. How often do you listen to music? Every single day. 9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more? Sweats. Next. 10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2013? This quiz is outdated. 11. Are you a social or an antisocial person? Introvert! I like social situations but need to have an out and plenty of alone time to recharge. 12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’? Aaaaa.... A.... No I don’t think so. 13. What about ‘R’? Yes. 14. Can you drive a stick shift? I have learned and successfully driven the bare minimum with a stick shift but cannot in good conscious say that I could drive one if needed. 15. Do you care if people talk badly about you? Well, a little. Honestly it depends on how much I care for the opinion of those they are talking to. 16. Are you going out of town soon? In a couple hours I’ll be on my way to Mexico! 17. When was the last time you cried? All week. 18. Have you ever told someone you loved them? Many times. I’ll get back to you if I find out it ever means anything. 19. If you could change your eye color, would you? Oh yes. To have either purple or Bowie eyes! 20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for? A man, yes there is one. 21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having. Stress, stress, stress, work, stress, family, packing, ugh. 22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead? I think so. 23. Are you dating the last person you talked to? No but I’d rather. 24. What are you sitting on right now? Lounging on my bed. 25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you? My best guy friend. 26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? .... 27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night? Uhhh, best guy friend? 28. Do you get a lot of colds? I don’t get sick too often. 29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from? My robe is from my grandma for my birthday. 30. Does anyone hate you? I’m sure some outright detest me. 31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room? Closet. 32. Do you like watching scary movies? I really do! 33. Do you want your tongue pierced? I’ve thought it fun to think about. 34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be? 2016!!! What a trashcan year. 35. Did you have a dream last night? Yes but I didn’t write it down so I forgot it. 36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them? Tonight. 37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? Not unless I meet someone damn special. 38. Do you think someone has feelings for you? Feelings? For me? It’s more likely than you think! 39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? I think so yeah. 40. Did you have a good day yesterday? Not particularly good or bad. 41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship? I was trying very hard not to be but somehow ended up there. 42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl? My mom does not count. 43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you? Yeah.... 44. What’s the best part about school? Can I say that I’m not in it anymore? Let’s say that. 45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook? What kind of question is that! 46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school? I did in junior high. And IM’d with my friend in my class during class in College. 47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head? Things go smoother in my head when I’ve redone them 100 times over. 48. Were you single over the last summer? Yes 49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago? Two years ago was Disney year and so infinitely more fun. 50. What are you supposed to be doing right now? Sleeping? I guess? 51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with? B? No! Well maybe sometimes. 52. Are you nice to everyone? Hahaha no. 53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? Oh boy. 54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? Have, can. 55. Are you good at hiding your feelings? Hahaha. 56. Do you think you like someone? eh. 57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’?. EH. 58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys? eeehhhh 59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry? Only like, all of them. 60. Do you hate anyone? sigh 61. How’s your heart? Bleeding, thanks. 62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about? ..... 63. Have you ever cried over a guy? Ohhhhhh yes. 64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now? There’s a list. 65. Are your toenails painted pink? No but I do have pink nailpolish on my bedside table. 66. Will your next kiss be a mistake? I’ll be in Mexico so, probably? (edited note: I was right and it was) 67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct? Honestly I think it has more to do with how it’s seen as weak for men to cry. We don’t see them cry often so we feel more connected if they let down their guard and cry in front of us. 68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public? Maybe? Can’t remember. 69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with? My grandmother. 70. How do you look right now? Like an angry tired trainwreck. 71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around? B, mostly. 72. Can you commit to one person? Can, have, will. 73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to? B 74. Have you ever felt replaced? Yes 75. Did you wake up cranky? Not particularly 76. Are you a jealous person? A bit 77. Are relationships ever worth it? A bit 78. Anyone you’re giving up on? I’m hanging on by a thread. 79. Currently wanting to see anyone? So many 80. Name something you have to do tomorrow? Plane flight. 81. Last person you cried in front of? Uh. Work. 82. Is there someone you will never forget? A thousand times yes. 83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you? No, only B. 84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now? Is ‘making up for lost time’ too cliche? 85. Are you over your past? That’ll be the day. 86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex? Yes 87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to? Did I not already answer this? 88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? Yes 89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in? No I tell them to go the fuck back home because I have a flight to catch. Oh god now I can see him doing that. Ugh. 90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? Oh my god. Yes. 91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months? Only if they’re really special. 92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael? Middle name count? 93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew? Nope! 94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going? Listen I had a one night stand in Vegas with a man 14 years older than me in January and that doesn’t count as a relationship but it went better than some of them let me tell you. 95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March? Danny was okay. 96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive? Haha oh, B? Yeah. 97. Who do you have texts from? B, Nicole, guy I was seeing, Amanda, mom, grandma, old voice teacher 98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? Upset but happy. 99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you? See: previous questions. 100. Who’s in your profile picture with you? David Bowie’s ghost. 101. Ever kissed under fireworks? ...?? ??? Oh wait yes I think so. 102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies? I get too many butterflies. They don’t shut up.

[janeykath318]

The Princess Uhura Diaries

June 6 This girl is a college graduate!!! Woohoo! So happy to have my degree at last. Harvard is no joke, believe me. Even Grandmother almost smiled at me when I saw her after the ceremony. I may fall short in the social graces, but she can’t doubt my brains! Celebrated with the girls, then said goodbye and Scotty the Royal Terrier and I are now on the plane back to Genovia. I’ll miss my school sisters big time, but duty calls. I’m being groomed for queenhood someday and Grandmother wants me back there for more tutoring in the ways of being royal. Sigh.

June 8th

Landed back in Genovia yesterday and found a couple big surprises. Grandmother renovated and updated a new suite for me. It’s mind-blowing luxurious. The walk in closet is to DIE for. That’ll come in handy for my extensive shoe collection. The bathroom is larger than my whole bedroom at Mom’s and the bed…..well, it’s every princess’s dream. But that wasn’t the only thing that surprised me. When I went in to my giant closet, who should pop up but Gaila, my bestie from New York!! There was lots of squealing and catching up after that. She came all the way over here for my party, bless her heart.

June 15th I survived the party, thanks to Gaila and the cute guy I almost ran over on the dance floor. Yum-yum. It started Off like any other royal bash, me coming forth in my fancy gown introduced to a crowd of nobles and diplomats and forced to dance with a motley assortment of stuffed shirts. Ugh. The Pimply French kid was the worst. Then there was the awkward Swedish prince who stepped on my toes three times. I was so relieved to get away from him, I ran smack dab into some poor guy just standing there minding his own business, stepping on his foot even.

He kind of doubled over for a second and I apologized as profusely as I could, dying with embarrassment at my perpetual clumsiness. Then he looked up at me and I met the most stunning pair of blue eyes I’d ever seen. He was kind of surprised himself I think, before he recovered and I made a joke about insurance information to which he smoothly replied in kind. It was almost flirting, but I was so relieved to finally meet a decent guy, I agreed to a dance almost before he’d finished asking.

June 16th

So much for a decent guy. Turns out he’s gunning for my crown!! Today Gran had an uncomfortable meeting with parliament and they brought up the old law that requires a female to be married in order to inherit the crown!! I thought they’d done away with anachronistic, sexist rules like that. Evidently not. So, I’ve got to get myself a man before my next birthday or this James Tiberius Kirk brat gets a chance to lay claim to the throne. I don’t know how, but his Uncle, the Viscount Mabry, said he should get the throne because he’s more familiar with the Genovian society. Then, he brought him over to live here for the summer! When I saw who it was, well, I was steamed and disappointed. Let’s just say, this time, when I stepped on his foot, it wasn’t an accident. Gran said afterward, “As a Queen, I cannot condone it, but as a Grandma, I say RIGHT ON!!” I love that woman.

June 22

Ever since HE moved in, I feel on edge everyday, like they’re looking for reasons I shouldn’t be allowed to rule. The Viscount is always sneering and sniffing at me and James is trying to pretend like he’s not a lying scumbag. If it weren’t for Gaila’s refreshing presence, I’d have ripped out my hair by now, or thrown myself in the duck pond. First there was the embarrassing episode with the runaway chicken. I admit, it was stupid of me to open the clucking basket, but James looked way too tickled by my mortification.

Then there was the inspection of the guard and I had to ride sidesaddle past the whole company without looking like I was in mortal fear of falling to a terrible demise. Of course, the supposedly calm horse spooked at something and knocked me on my rear anyway. Needless to say, my humiliation was complete, AGAIN. I saw Joe looking very grim and somewhat menacing at the Viscount, but I have no idea why. James had the goodness to keep his mouth shut for once.

June 27 Gram is dead set on finding me a husband now. She loathes the Viscount and his schemes to get his nephew the throne. So she and Joe started vetting possible candidates and last night Gaila and looked through the options. It felt creepy. Who wants to pick their husband like he’s a dinner option on a menu? But Parliament would have to abolish the longheld law with a two-thirds vote, and The Prime Minister says there isn’t enough opposition to get the required votes. I can tell that bothers him, but his hands are tied.

So, we scrolled through various young lords and princes until we came to a nice looking Vulcan by the name of Spock. He’s tall, dark, and very handsome, with cute pointy ears and looks very calm and logical like most of his species. I gave him the thumbs up and Gram declared she would invite him to visit Genovia immediately. I’m not promising to marry the guy, but I need something to keep me from thinking about those blue eyes!!! (Darn them) James still keeps trying to convince me our lie dance wasn’t a lie and he really did enjoy it!!

July 1st.

Today was the Founder’s Day Parade. As the princess and heir to the throne, I am obligated to sit on a float and wave at the crowds beside Grandmother. It’s totally not my thing, but necessary for public relations. So up I got, pleased that James had to experience the same discomfort with his pompous windbag uncle. Despite my dislike of him, I have to admit he was pretty smooth at the mingling with the masses part and not nearly as uncomfortable as I’d hoped. I forgot about that when I passed the girls from the orphanage and saw the wistful expression in those eyes. Impulsively, I got down from the float and invited the girls to walk with me at the front. After all, in my view, every girl deserves to feel like a princess even if they never see a tiara. It ended up being the best part of the day and Gram didn’t even really scold me. Even James told me sincerely it was a sweet thing to do.

July 8th

Spock arrived and we met in person for the first time. Let’s just say he’s even more handsome in real life and has those dark brown eyes that aren’t hiding any nefarious designs! (Unlike some) We get along well, if it was a little awkward at first. Vulcans are very literal and logical and don’t always get the jokes, so I try not to get too punny around him. Turns out he’s WAY into science and stuff, founded a special scientific institute in his country even.

July 12th.

Been on several outings with Spock. He’s quite a conversationalist once you get him talking. We took some long walks around the coast, played badminton, and several chess games, at which he royally kicked my butt. Of course, the whole thing is being blown up by the media and turned into a soap opera, which is really annoying. The Viscount though, is really grumpy about it, much to my satisfaction, and James gives me odd looks sometimes, which I find highly unsettling for no reason at all!

July 25th

The Garden Party started out well, and ended in me doing something monumentally STUPID!! How could I let it happen? HOW?? I hate his guts so much right now!! James arrived at the party looking all smug and dapper as usual, with a knockout blonde on his arm, whom he introduced as Carol. She seemed like a nice girl, but it looked more like Jim was just trying to get me jealous, which is totally ridiculous because I don’t even like him!!! Anyway, somehow, Spock and Carol got talking on some deeply technical scientific stuff and James and I were left alone. He started making suggestions that I’m only using Spock to keep my throne and of course I told him off for that, the hypocrite.

“I loathe you!!” I yelled finally, getting right up in his smarmy handsome face.

“I loathe YOU!!” He yelled back, staring at me intently. Next thing I knew, he’d yanked my face to his and was kissing me!! I should have slapped him for that, but instead I kissed right back. I can’t believe that happened. Only you, diary, will ever know that James T. Kirk is really good at kissing, much as I hate to admit it. Then we started arguing again, and somehow ended up in the fountain. I embarrassed Grandmother again. Thankfully, Spock didn’t see that indiscretion, being deep in discussion.

Aug. 17th

Well, James has been a lot less obnoxious lately, seeing how serious Spock and I are getting. In fact, he’s been downright nice, even giving me archery tips as I practiced for the test I’ll undergo the night before the coronation, which involves shooting an arrow through a ring, an Old Genovian tradition, I hear. I tried to ignore the fluttering in my stomach when he laid his hand over mine while correcting my stance, but wow, he seems to have really gotten under my skin. Ugh. Spock has been so sweet about this whole thing and probably being married to him won’t be such a bad thing, but I just can’t seem to be quite as happy as I thought I would with such a perfect man….

Sept. 3rd

Spock proposed. I said Yes. The kingdom is going nuts at the prospect of a wedding. It’s kind of nice, actually, being engaged to him, but I never thought I’d feel so calm about impending marriage. Gram smiles approvingly a lot, Gaila still looks at me questioningly and Jim seems down in the dumps. He mostly keeps to himself now, seems to always have a book in his hand. He and Carol have double dated with us a couple times and she’s great company, but it always ends up with her and Spock doing most of the talking and Jim and I avoiding each other’s eyes. I think he’s changed his mind on me being a fit ruler finally. I wonder if he’ll have the guts to stand up against the Viscount uncle, who’s more bombastic than ever.

March 5.

I haven’t written in forever, but wedding planning has taken over my life right now. The dress, the flowers, the table settings, the cake, pleasing the families and all that jazz is pretty exhausting. Spock’s been really kind and helpful in his own way. He’s great at subtly telling people when enough is enough. It’s very comforting and I ought to be head over heels by now, but I’m not and that saddens me. Should I really go through with this? Is it worth losing the kingdom and hurting Gran? Should I really cave to this sexist law? Gaila told me she’ll support me no matter what I decide, and it’s comforting to know that. For now, everything is going ahead for an April 3rd Wedding.

March 30th

Had a delightfully unconventional “shower” last night. We invited princesses of all ages to the palace for a giant slumber party, including mattress surfing down the main staircase. It was a riot! Even Grandmother joined in, looking dignified while doing it. It was nice to let myself go and just be a regular girl again. Pretty soon I’ll be in charge of a country and fun time? Well, Buh-bye.

April 2nd

I caved to temptation last night and snuck out with Jim to the lake for a moonlight walk. I should be strong enough to resist him, but those eyes just DO things to me and he seems to be much more than an insufferable, cocky rich guy. We really talked this time and I learned about his life and growing up with no parents and I told him about New York and Gaila and my Mom and how awkward it was learning to be a princess.

“You’re doing a pretty fantastic job, in my opinion,” he told me. “You really do care about the people and the country. My uncle is so wrong.”

“You really think so?” I asked (He was holding my hand at this point).

“Sure do.” He smiled at me and my heart did a flip again. Shoving the guilt aside, I stayed with him. We danced in the moonlight and curled up under a tree and dozed off. Bad idea. Next thing I know, there come the paparazzi and I’m running away in rage and panic, wondering if it was all a set up by Jim to create a scandal and wreck the wedding.

I really need to make better choices.

April 3rd

Well, there was a wedding today, but not mine. I couldn’t go through with it, not after searching my own heart and realizing I’m in love with someone else. It’s not fair to Spock, logical as he’s been about the whole thing. When Joe told me that James had NOT planted those paps to ruin me and he believed the young man was besotted with me, well, the was the finishing touch. I went out there and told Spock I couldn’t go through with it. He was very gracious as usual and I think I detected a faint trace of relief on his part. Then the good ole Viscount got up and started haranguing me again and how he wouldn’t stand for this. After he stormed out in a huff, the Prime Minister came up and told me now was a good time to convince Parliament to change the rules. “They’re waiting to be convinced. Go after them and tell them what’s what. Don’t back down.”

I always liked the Prime Minister. Lord Pike is a good man.

Up I got and explained why women are perfectly capable of ruling a country without a husband. Most of them seemed to be receptive, but one old fellow had to ask “What does the other heir think?”

There was a silence, and James stood up, much to my surprise. I certainly didn’t expect him to be there after everything that happened to be there. He looked like he’d had a bad night, but what he said warmed me through.

He backed me up completely!! Even said he utterly refused to be king because he felt the crown was mine and I would be a great queen.

“Plus, she’ll look lovely on all our postage stamps,” he added saucily, with a smile at me. Once he’d finished, he turned and left without further ado, leaving me both grateful and puzzled.

The Prime Minister called for a vote right then and there and the law was overturned. That wasn’t the end of the surprises, though.

Grandmother stood up and declared it would be a shame to waste all the bridal plans, so she and Joe would be filling in as the happy couple. It’s very unlike her to be so impulsive, but the two of them together has been a long time coming and I gladly played bridesmaid as they were united in marriage. What a day!!!

April 16th

I passed the archery test with flying colors and the coronation will proceed tomorrow as planned. I’m really nervous about it, but this evening something wonderful happened. I was lounging in my drawing room, Scotty beside me on his little doggy throne, when Jim appeared and knelt before me.

“What is your dilemma, young man?” I asked him playfully. Those big blue eyes were looking at me so intensely, I thought I would drown in them.

“I am in love with the queen to be and am inquiring as to whether she loves me too.” I admit, I launched myself at him in a very unqueenly manner and we held each other tightly, finally giving in to the electricity between us. Then he whispered “Nyota!” In my ear in a longing, loving tone and I kissed the daylights out of him. How I love that man. Scotty was annoyed at losing my undivided attention and stalked off in high dudgeon, yipping, but we were too busy to care. I’ll make it up to him.

April 18th

The coronation went off with much pomp and circumstance. I now understand what they mean when they say “heavy is the head that wears the crown”. Not only is it a huge responsibility to be ruler of a country, but the crown is literally HEAVY. My head was sweating the whole day.

Between Grandmother, Joe, Gaila, and Jim, I was subtly encouraged by my loved ones and made it through the long ceremonies fairly well. Grandmother bustles around looking proud, Joe kept the throng from getting too big, Gaila smiled, and Jim looked dazzled and proud and utterly gorgeous. Even Spock attended with Carol sticking to his side. I think those two might have a thing going……

(Skips over a year of entries until the next June)

June 6th

I married Jim yesterday. It truly was the best day of my life and Mom got to be there, which was wonderful. I’d felt weird wearing the same dress that I’d originally picked out to marry someone else, so the original was auctioned for charity to support the orphanage. My new gown was a simple long white satin with elegant sheer sleeves and delicate crystals scattered over it. It moved beautifully as well, and Jim seemed to like it judging by the countless times he’s told me how gorgeous I am. He’s no slouch either, rocking that royal uniform with confidence and style.

Joe walked me down the aisle, which made Grandmother very happy. (Was that a tear I saw in her eye?)

Jim’s eyes were just glowing as we exchanged vows and I hope I was able to convey my own love and joy so perfectly.

“How does it feel to be a prince?” I asked him when it was over.

“Not as good as being your husband,” he answered softly, kissing my hand regally. I swooned inwardly. Who could help it?

Just as we started our first dance, he looked down at his feet with feigned anxiety.

“Are my toes safe today?” He asked, the rascal, bringing up our awkward first two meetings.

I laughed. “You bet, baby.”

Well, Jim is starting to stir beside me and I think I saw one blue eye open a bit, so I’d better stop for now. I will say, he has totally cute bedhead! I think I’m going to ruffle it up some more.

“Good morning, Prince James.”

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