#I AM SO MAD AT MYSELF BECAUSE THER EIS NO WAY OF GETTING ALL THAT WORK BACK

[clangenwritingexperiment]

Moon 100

(I had all this written out... then I didn't save... I am going to cry...)

Crookedbracken's grief has gotten so bad that they now have an actual physical stomach ache because of it. The medicine cats are concerned.

Frostfreckle has given birth to two tiny kits. Pumpkinkit and Runningkit. This will be their last litter or they will be boxing their mate over the head.

Primwave has recovered from their whitecough.

Primewave has also tried to confess to Swiftspark but they were rejected.

Shimmerfreckle's leg has healed with no scar in sight.

Cragshadow was out on a morning walk when they were suddenly jumped by a fox. In their mad scramble to get away and up a tree, the fox managed to chomp on their tail, leaving it mangled.

Whisperpeak's whitecough is gone.

Sunnybird and Dazzlenest have recovered from frostbite but were left with a scar.

Hemlockpelt is expecting kits!

Whiteice and Hailleaf have survived yellowcough.

Garlicclaw joins the elders! They happily settle down in the nest next to their new mate Wolverinepeak. They both look forward to living their sunset moon together.

Conchpaw has been named Conchblaze and honored for their composure.

Riverkit, Weaselkit, Hyacinthkit, and Heavykit stand trembling as they are all made apprentices. Riverpaw is given to Waterice, Weaselpaw is given to Riversand, Hyacinthpaw is given to Redocean, and Heavypaw is given to Hailleaf.

Jumblekit sits nervously at pools edge. Their littermates had just been apprenticed but they were left out of the ceremony this far. Were they going to be apprenticed at all?

(This is where I lost ALL of my progress so I will instead summarize what I can remember)

Jumblepaw becomes the new medicine cat apprentice under Fleckrustle.

(I had a whole thing where Fleckrustle had received visions and was even visited by Stormflicker to tell them that Jumblepaw was the one but it's all gone now)

Several cats become mates.

Shoreeagle has died due to an unexpected fox attack.

Pumapaw, Bearpaw, Pheasantpaw, and Gardeniapaw all become apprentices.

Sloepaw finally had their warrior ceremony and they are very proud of themselves. They are now Sloepelt.

Hilltalon found an abandoned kitten and adopted it. They named the kit Blizzardkit.

Quietpaw has also become a warrior named Quietmask.

Sprucefeather also died because of a snake bite.

Flaxpaw and Frecklepaw have also become warriors named Flaxstripe and Frecklecry.

Dolphinfade and Hemlockpelt have created Barnaclekit.

[lokbobpop]

Error

error, mistake, and blunder mean an act or statement that is not right or true or proper. error is used for failure to follow a model correctly. There was an error in the addition. mistake is used when someone misunderstands something or does not intend to do wrong.

1300, "a deviation from truth made through ignorance or inadvertence, a mistake," also "offense against morality or justice; transgression, wrong-doing, sin;" from Old French error "mistake, flaw, defect, heresy," from Latin errorem (nominative error) "a wandering, straying, a going astray; meandering; doubt, ..

Error er ror err or

Writing error

Well i have thought my whole life had been ion error it was like i was a walking error I couldn’t seem to do anything it was in in error the error of my ways of who i was I couldn’t read or write thei was an error surly we should all be equal to do this yes why cant i i must be an error i went wrong somewhere wrong the line something happen to me im not like others im wrong i wan tot be fixed i want to be like them why why why because they seem to have ther shit together they seem to be getting what most others have gotten but i cant i see me writing like this bring up my mind to just in when i writing how lost i am and confused it bring up the parts of me im not faced property yet within me my whole body tensed up i was in the unconscious when writing this feeling the poor sorry more i cant do this im in error this is why it’s so important to walk this out of my word ot see what i am allowing not to avoid it ebarace these part so of me to live to see what im missed to cover it.

Reading error

I have seen the error of my ways im growing now i dont need my mind to say think this or that anymore i cant think for myself I can see if i dotn keep on top it just jumps in my head shifted funny them like a reset of my thoughts lol it was like the mind system was like try this for size i will not let you go easy don’t mind show me why i allow you are actually supporting me by showing me now so shut up

When you do something and it comes up error like when your downloading something and it says error in download and what really what did i do wrong mostly in booking flight tickets i always seen to get error come up its like i always do something wrong ive not pressed something not fill out something like that or its wrong what i have put and i get pissed off with myself for doing it wrong and blame comes up of myself and so on.

When you make and error and you can change it like my anger with my girls as they grow up i cant change it but i can ask for forgiveness anf i can forgive myself for what i allowed myself to do unto them i do feel better now i have completely walked this point i know it will still come up and try and fuck me up but no im on this im on the mind as best i can with determination and perseverance o yes

This is a warning red elect emergency lolo made me thing of this song.

What i have done in error i forgive myself completely all thing that coem up within that I have done in the past or now in error i forgive myself for allowing this within me there is nothing i wont forgive myself for I truly only see the best version of me working for me so all error mad and that might be mad i forgive al of them as i know i trying my best at all times.

Saying error

There has been an error this thought has come up like im being told this by someone and i cant do it because there is an error and I see myself being pissed off with this error was it my fault or theres if mine i would normally put myself down but now i forgive all about me or i would blame them which i now see them as me and they made what i could also easily do a mistake

When i was a school i would make errors in my writing all the time and i would scribble it out black it out almost i wanted it gone not to be seen so i would cover the whole word so I couldn’t see it and no one else like even the teach ad i didnt want then to see it but it now stood out a mile that i had made the mistake anyway as it stood out so much like a sore thumb big black ink mark or pencil so its not hidden nothing is hidden its all here to be seen yes you cant miss it.

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Does this definition support me no i see i wanted to hide my errors i was ashamed of my errors i have blamed myself and others for error ive thought my life was an error becaus ei wasnt like others crazy but yes like we all have to be the same well not being the same got me here right now and im good right now so nothing has been an error ok maybe billions of years in exile might of been but hefty it’s done i can only forgive myself for allowing it not only me many others have been locked here or there above.

Error e or

Error

To learn to use them to help find me they are important to make to see what ive aloud within yes this is where change happens within this word this is a very important word to live and embrace all parts of me. Seeing realizing and understanding with determination perseverance for change

I will live this word with seeing my error are as a place to start looking at what im allowing within me so i can change they are important to make to see what im doing to slow down move to change in and out they are important.

[leftlimpleft]

                    lma o !!!!!  my friend got mad at me today !!!  for no reason !!   so i’m going to rant / tell the story below the cut bc my mom took her side LOL!!!!!!!

okok so my friend we’ll call her polly she stayed over my house last night and we smoked she dyed my hair ?? w/e it was fun !!  and so today we literally slept until like 4 lmao and then she had to go to her grandfather’s for his birthday / cake, and then she was going to come back to my house. rad right yeah so i was waiting for her i flipped my mattress ( which i’ve been meaning to do for literally  ayear ) i made my bed for the first time in a really long time and i started cleaning my room i was being really !!  productive bc i didn’t just want to sit around with my thumb in my ass waiting for her to get back.

SO THEN my dad gets home from work and he’s like “hey i gotta go to the job i was at earlier today bc some pump thing stopped working i gotta fix it u wanna go?” and i was like sure idk how long she’s gonna be let’s go. BOI then so i was snapchatting her before we left to tell her i wasn’t home and she was like iight i’ll go get snack s and shit and i told her i’d pick her up on our way back bc she wasn’t going to have a ride back out. THIS IS WHERE IT GETS GOOD LMAO I HATEMYSELF. so i thought we were gonna be taking my dads car bc like idk i thought that’s what he drove today but we took his shitty van that only has two seats in the front and so much shit in the back / middle that ther eis literally no room for another human being lmao keep that in mind ok

so we’re out we get this pump thing goin i’m still talking to POLLY and after we get back into town we’re driving up a hill that’s kinda close to my house and my dad asks me if i’m hungry??? and i’m like fuck yeah i am so we pull a U-TURN in some apartment building parking lot and go to the diner that’s just down the hill. now ive still been snapping her this whole time so after we get in and order and everything i check to see her response and answer her w just  apicture of my dad and an answer to w/e she said.

BOI O BOI THIS IS JUICY so she responds w “no inv?? rude af” and i’m like lmao m8 it’s just a prank. i told her that we weren’tplanning on coming here that it was completely last minute, that we were on our way home and pulled a u-turn bc he asked me w/e. and i told her that we were on our way home, so she answers and she’s like “i thought you were coming to get me?? ok so you hate me that’s cool” and i’m like LMAO stop what the fuck like idk if we have room for u and she was like ?? room for why ??? and i told her that we took the van whatever and she was like “how am i gettin to ur house then?” and i was like lmao m8 idfk like my brother was down the street from her house so i told her to ask him and she was just like “just forget it” or smth like that so i was like great ok and she was like “im just gonna kill myself” and i was completely done at this point this girl. FUCK POLLY ok she manipulates me like that all the fuckin time ?????  anytime i dont want to do smth with her she always says shit like “u don’t like me” or “y do u hate me” or “ok i’l just kms” and it’s literally so fucking ???? shiTTY FEELING!!!! 

so i just replied “stop” and she was like “i’m crying” and i was like why wtf and she was like “because of you ebcause you don’t like me and you won’t come get me” and i’m just !!!!! BOI  !!!! I LITERALLY CANNOT CMOE AND GET U LMAO THERE IS NO ROOM!!!! and so she stopped answering me and i’m just ok m8 good for u so my dad and i finish eating and we leave and boy i’m fuckin heated like dont touch me

we get home and i’m talking to my dad and automatically my mom is just “polly called me she’s in tears she’s having a breakdown she’s coming to get her stuff” ( she left her bag and shit bc she was supposed to come back lol ok ) and i’m like alright m8 let me go get it from my room i literall y cannot see her right now i’ll flip. so i go and get it i give it to my mom and she tries ???? to tell me that i nEED TO BE MORE SENSITIVE !!!! LMAO WHAT ?!!!!!!!!!

so i tell her the whole story in liek one breath because i cannot be assed and i am so heated and she jsut rolls her eyes and ust “she probably didn’ take her medication today she was really excited to come abck she got all these snacks for u and she was sad that you didn’t get her” and i’m just !!!!! MATE I COULD N’T!!!!!! GET HER OH MY LODRY WHY DOES NO ONE GET THIS !!!!!  and so i’m just lmao i need to go lay down

so she comes and i’m upstairs and i guess before anyone ?? came to the door she caled my mom !! and was talking and i have literally never heard my mom speak to me OR my brother the way that she spoke to polly liek .... can u not lmao.  so her mom came to get her shit while she stayed in the car she decided not to stay toight ( thank the lord honestly i was goin 2 flip probabl ylmao ) and my om and her mom were talkin and my mom was like “yeah they just got back they didn’t have room but becca could have been a little more sensitive” and I’M JSUT !!!! LMAO WHAT !!! BITCH! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

i am so riled from this all over again but i’m just !! how can you go against your daughter like this ??? how can a seventeen year old, almost eighteen year old WOMAN not confront me / this siuation liek an ADULT???????  HONESTLY I want to scream alrightif u read this ur tight i love u bu tlike honestly i ams o !!!!!! BOi