#How to goodbye depression

[i-dreamed-i-had-a-son]

There is a brutal contrast in how Megatron and Optimus's stories end. Optimus nobly surrenders his spark, along with the Matrix of Leadership, having been sent off by his dear and trusted friends after giving them a fond farewell. He has accomplished his life's greatest goal; now he is able to rest. He dies willingly, at peace, bringing hope and giving life to the next generation by restoring the Allspark.

Megatron had already been killed, and was told that he can never join that very Allspark. Having been enslaved, and only released because of Optimus's actions, he is now reanimated, inhabiting his own corpse. His only remaining ally, who has constantly betrayed him, does not understand him. He flies off, alone, having lost all his forces and failed in his mission, and realizing that his life's greatest purpose was misguided. He is left, we can only assume, to live a hellish and hopeless life--a shell, consumed by the past.

And he did not tell Optimus goodbye. He knows that Optimus will leave him behind, will obtain the heaven he can never enter. He gives him the parting gift of his repentance, to acknowledge this. But in his refusal to say farewell, there is an echo of his own wretched endurance. He does not get to rest. Megatron will remain, eternally alone--eternally waiting for a reunion that will never come.

[sapphics-with-guns]

Sorry folks. Romance will not fix them. They still need serious therapy.

[blastlight]

i wish i was sad in a relatable way instead of just being a puddle for no fucking reason

[guinevereslancelot]

me, a jammer 🫐🎶

[corallapis]

okay. see. the thing is. the cricketing gear isn't just a silly set of clothes the tardis picked out. it's to clue you in that we're dealing with posh edwardian man levels of repression here. that's who five is.

[anonzentimes]

​god i cant believe youre real OP. its so unbelievably rare to find people who are able to understand and speak about komaeda exactly like this. Super amazing! Im glad hes made it to you <3 I really dont know how to tell you how much I appreciate your blog, I just hope you know it !

DUDDEE THANK YOU SO MUCH YOU'RE SO SWEET!!! I'm always so worried that I'm not able to understand the media I like enough or am doing it justice so hearing MULTIPLE people say I understand him is so reassuring!! It really has so much weight considering how often he's misinterpreted or misunderstood, it makes me really happy to know people appreciate my rambles. It's so silly but it really is such an oddly personal but impactful compliment haha! I'm beyond happy he made it to me too, my life genuinely wouldn't be the same without him. Nagito caused a domino chain effect for so much of my growth and experiences that it's comical.

It also means a lot to me because in the 3 years I've loved him at the beginning I wasn't able to articulate things like I do now! Recently I've been really improving at articulation and it's been so nice. I finally am able to thoroughly communicate why I like him and the things that make him, himself! The combination of trying to be more comfortable and confident with myself, rambling more on social media and to friends, and reading slightly more has really been beneficial for me and I've been really happy about it. Thank you for enjoying my blog!

[spock-adoodledoo]

oh my god i just finished the dark forest finally. 7/10 i suppose, i went through the first half or so of the book being really annoyed by luo ji but also enjoying the chapters where he shows up because unfortunately he was entertaining. still don't understand the imaginary girlfriend thing, it just feels like he needs someone to protect from the world which like ??? ok sure i guess, it just rubs me the wrong way personally. for the second half and especially the end i became luo ji's number one defender it's fine. for the rest, holy crap—the droplet, the microcosm of the universe on those runaway ships, the wallfacer project, luo ji drawing from rey diaz's plan, the attitude of the world towards him, the entire theory... wow

[deathofaninteriordecorator]

i have got to move back here

[just-nonsense-bungaku]

声/Koe/Voice Translyrics!

"Wow tumblr user just-nonsense-bungaku! What kind of assignment are you procrastinating on to write translyrics this time?" Ok but have you noticed that my lyrics are the best when I have an assignment due in a few days? I can literally write translyrics in an hour and change when I'm procrastinating. It's my superpower, by which I mean adhd and autism.

Aaaaaanyway, I wrote some translyrics for Koe, one of Elma's less-discussed songs! I think it's really beautiful personally, especially with how it mirrors Parade and talks about Elma's depression and identity crisis.

Can’t touch them, I don’t know why

Can’t see them, no matter how hard I try

This thing I always forget, I really

Just want to hold it some more in my mind

The place where this song went to hide

I don’t know why that is, so the words are stuck here forever

Below my throat, the single goodbye, I never could say it

I bitterly smile

And in the morning light, I will bite my lip ‘til it hurts me

And I will face this empty feeling everyday

I knew I’d be living this way

I know I’ll be living this way

It comes out whenever I speak

And just so, it hides away, timid and meek

Outpouring, just like my tears

In silence, deep in my throat, it’s still here

A god that’s dwelling in me

The words I want to write are the hole you left where my heart is

The very life you lived, it hurt me like a machine gun

A single goodbye

Whose hollow shape I trace, spilling out the feeling of nothing

And so today, and everyday within my dreams

I see you sitting with me

And laughing beautifully

I don’t know why it is that the words are always beyond me

Below my throat, just one more goodbye, but still I can’t say it

So bring me to rest

And in in the morning light, I will bite my lip ‘til it hurts me

And even now, within a world that I don’t know

You’ll just find me, all alone

I’m laughing here on my own

[foxtriestobiteandmaimandkilland]

oh actually fuck i forget that waking up on time means i either have to be asleep at 9pm or be sleep deprived for months. sorry theres gonna be soooo many Sad posts on the dash now that schools back.

[zylphiacrowley]

memento vivere

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[arkhammaid]

i love spring

[random-cockroach]

*Hangs it on a wall* *On a multiple walls and multiples copies* Will use this one against you now

WTF WHY SO LITTLE TAGS ARE ALLOWED #WHATEVER ELSE BESIDE FAV AND GOLD #I LOVE IT #I HAVE THREE PILLOWS NOW THIS ONE IS GIVING PURE JOY STRAIGHT IN MY BRAIN THROUGH THE FEATHERS POKING IN ME #I CAN'T EVEN EXPLAIN WHY #PERHAPS BECAUSE I WAS WAITING FOR THEM MEETING FOR TOO LONG #HEEEEAVVEVVVEEEEEN #BITING YOU #THANK YOU

You know how like. You imagine a story and you come up with a bunch of scenes that you really want to draw so the entire time. The whole beginning of the story is for the sake of getting to those scenes? Yep. Prowl is about to have a really funny interesting conversation with Rung and this is gonna be one of the scenes. I finally got to draw it *manic laughter*

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[light-wrath-paradise]

Btwww I might have. A disorder. I will not specify. But it is a new one. One I don't have yet. It is not known yet.

Like it's probably nothing I mean just forget about it it's totally fine and probably nothing and I'm just being hysterical and I managed to subconsciously manipulate my doctors aha. Like don't worry about it I'm sure this is just a hell of my own making and if I really wanted it to stop I could totally just stop it. So don't even worry about it.

The fact that the only people who fully relate to me and whom I relate to are people with said disorder just means that I subconsciously manipulated them into relating to me. Somehow.