#How Can I Get My Ex Boyfriend Back Quiz

[apomaro-mellow]

5 times eddie singled out steve during a concert and the one time steve did it back

Corroded Coffin fans were no strangers to the deep love shared between frontman Eddie and his boyfriend Steve. To the point where magazines barely cared to feature any candid pics of them unless Eddie was flipping off the camera. "Two Very in Love People Share a Kiss at Cafe Date" didn't really sell much when it was the 50th story like that.

So when Eddie slowed things down in the middle of the concert, getting that very familiar 'heart eyes' look.

"I know my baby's in the audience. Even though he has a very comfortable room backstage. Show me where you are beautiful." Eddie's voice was slightly rough from the first half of songs.

His eyes scanned the audience until he heard a bunch of screaming from his right. The crowd was vibrating and he knew someone had spotted Steve.

"There you are." Eddie bit his lip, grin threatening to split his face. "This next one's for you."

The crowd was a mix of screams and awws as the beginning melody of It's Always Been You was heard.

2. Another day, another venue. This time, the afternoon crowd at a music festival. It was one of Eddie's favorite kind of scenes. People of all types, letting the music take them in broad daylight. A good mix of diehard fans, casuals, and people who had never heard them play before.

Eddie knew for a fact that Steve was sitting in a little foldable chair, with some drink from one of the booths. He always looked so unassuming with his soft hair and even softer clothes. But Eddie could never let him forget his inner badass. Nor did he let anyone else forget.

"Lil pop quiz for my fans", Eddie started. "One of our fan favorites The Knight's Arrival is inspired by someone very special in my life. Can we get a chant going for the man who has always been my knight in shining armor?"

A very enthusiastic chant for Steve started and Eddie thought his heart might burst. It was like a triumphant reprisal of those times the school would cheer on the ex-king on game night.

3. Sometimes the band put an age restriction on a concert. Now Eddie was of the mind that children didn't need to be coddled or have things censored for them. But also, he didn't need to lay it all out when there was a kid in the audience.

It was these kinds of shows that Eddie let it all hang out. More than one song was inspired by his nights with Steve. His angel's voice even featured on one track, letting out husky moans as Eddie brought him to the brink in the recording booth.

And tonight Eddie was hot. Hot enough to have already taken his shirt off and throw it to the audience. Hot enough that when he went backstage and saw Steve, he was only thinking of one thing. Eddie kissed him deep, tongue licking at the roof of his mouth before a word could leave his lips.

Crash was keeping the audience going with a drum performance. One that started with a simple beat that slowly intensified.

"I want them to hear you", Eddie said against Steve's mouth.

Steve's hair was already tangled in his hair. "You wanna dangle me in front of them?", he smirked.

"Show them you're mine", Eddie started nibbling at his jaw. "Show 'em how good I love you down."

Eddie got the headset mic rigged onto Steve. His sweet boy was already hard, just as turned on from seeing Eddie in his element as he ever was. Eddie slid down to his knees and unzipped his boyfriend's pants.

It started quiet. Not even audible as Crash really got going on the drums and got close to the climax. The room erupted as he reached the end. And it was in the calming of their cheers that they finally began to hear it.

"Eddie, mmmfuck."

They stirred in unison. Steve's voice rang loud and clear as he received a pleasure the rest of them could only speculate on.

"Fuck, sso good. Don't stop. Don't stop-ahh."

For a moment all they heard was Steve's quickening breaths before he called out Eddie's name, dragging it out like he was falling down a well.

Eddie came out moments later, licking something off his lips to cacophonous cheers. The bassline to Take a Bite began. He wished he could've told his high school self that one day he'd get a standing ovation for blowing a guy.

4. "Before we get started tonight I gotta make an announcement!", Eddie came out, already on 100. "First, where's my angel baby. Help me find him."

As usual, a particular part of the audience went wild and moved in a way that could only mean Steve was there.

"Can I get a parting of the Red Sea?", Eddie asked, moving his hands apart and getting that part of the mob to split like Moses. Steve stood there in the middle.

"Get used to that gorgeous. My fellow rockers, scholars, and mischief makers - I am officially a kept man." He flashed the ring on his finger to a din of screams. "Wedding's next fall and we're registered at every corner liquor store! 5-6-7-8!"

5. Eddie felt like he was home. In the middle of a set, shredding in a way that made him feel alive. The current song made it even better. One of the best collaborative efforts of the band. All of their fingerprints were on this track.

The crowd was just as amped up, giving back everything they got. There truly was no place he'd rather be.

Then he caught sight of his Steve, standing just off stage in the wings. And he was overcome. None of this would be possible without him. And even if Eddie and his boys somehow made it to stardom, it all meant nothing without his sweetheart.

Eddie casually walked over, fingers still moving as he got closer to Steve. He only took his hands off his guitar to grab his fiance and dip him as they kissed. Steve wrapped his arms around Eddie's neck. This wasn't his first time being kissed on stage.

And just as other times, the crowd went wild, while Jeff, Gareth, and Crash rolled their eyes through the playing.

6. Steve watched, absolutely lovestruck as Eddie sat on the couch, eating cereal. Dustin's baby, little Deana was propped up on cushions next to him, clearly satisfied as she sat there content. They were uncles babysitting for the weekend.

Steve walked over and grabbed the remote from off the coffee table, holding it like a mic. "All the babes out there, are you ready to rock?", he pointed to Deana.

Her new eyes got large at the movement and sound and her little fists waved in the air.

"But before I go on, I gotta give special love to someone tonight", Steve turned his gaze to Eddie. "To the greatest thing since sliced bread, I could watch you eat Coco Puffs all day."

"You're such a cornball", Eddie beamed, cheeks turning pink. "Can't believe you're doin it in front of a baby."

"Oh, don't tell me the god of rock is getting bashful? So when I wanna shout you out in front of our niece, it's cheesy. But when you call me out in front of thousands-"

"Shut up and kiss me." Eddie put the half finished bowl on the floor and grabbed Steve by the wrist, pulling him right into his lap.

Steve let out a little breath between kisses. "Dustin's gonna have a fit if he finds out we made out in front of his baby."

"What he don't know won't hurt him."

[wonyowonyo]

Straightforward - 𝐕

3RD PERSON POV

A clear blue sky and a white snowy ground, the autumn leaves replaced by white snow. The cold winds finally made their presence known indicating that Fall has ended and Winter is right around the corner.

"Brrr... So cold..."

Minju rubbed her hands to somewhat generate heat in her hands while she puffs, causing a visible fog to form, clearly showing the cold weather she and other people are enduring right now. Now that winter has begun anew... Kim Minju... recently got a boyfriend.

"Minju, Good morning."

Her friend Yuri greeted her, which Minju reciprocates by greeting her too.

"Apparently, we have a maths quiz today."

The duo chatted while fixing their things on their respective lockers.

"What? Seriously, I haven't studied."

Minju was distraught by the sudden news of a quiz, especially a maths quiz. The duo continued on with their discussion at the lockers, and so did the students in the same place.

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MINJU POV

While I, Kim Minju, recently got a boyfriend... Something has been bothering me....

"Minju-sii"

A deep voice called out to her, a voice she fully knows who it belongs to.

"Good morning."

Y/n would greet her while also smiling brightly.

"Morning."

Minju turned her head around to face Y/n as she greeted her. A few seconds would pass with Y/n just staring at the now puzzled Minju.

"W-what?"

Minju questioned, which has been a common occurrence between them.

"You have a different hair style today."

Y/n pointed out, prompting Minju to look at her new hairstyle which she just tried out recently.

'Ah, he noticed..'

"It's different from usual and it's pretty." Minju stared at Y/n for a second, acting all grumpy as she grumbled before turning her head away from his direction. "Urgh... How can you say things like that and not get embarrassed at all.."

Her whining and grumbling were all however just an act to hide the impending flushness of red that's slowly covering her face. Y/n, however, was not buying her act. "I really thought you were pretty, So it's not a lie."

With a simple sentence, Minju's act quickly crumbled into nothing. The redness of her face was clearly visible, while she stood there speechless. Y/n's straightforwardness really works wonders when it comes to catching Minju off guard. 'ᴬᵍᵃᶦⁿ ᵇʳᵘʰ...''ᴺᵒʳᵐᶦᵉˢ...''ᴵᵗ'ˢ ˢᵗᶦˡˡ ᵐᵒʳⁿᶦⁿᵍ, ᵃⁿᵈ ᵗʰᵉʸ'ʳᵉ ˢᵒ ˡᵒᵛᵉʸ ᵈᵒᵛᵉʸ...'

The countless whispers seem to knock Minju back into reality, as it soon occurred to her that she and Y/n are still in the lockers. Which means almost every student saw them being all chummy.

"Minju-ssi? Your face is re-"

Minju quickly covered Y/n's mouth.

"Hey..."

"That's enough!! Please stop talking!!"

Minju cried out, obviously flustered and embarrassed by what's happening to her.

.

.

.

This guy, Y/n L/n, is my boyfriend.

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"Urgh... It's still morning and I'm already tired.."

Minju haggardly said as she sat on her desk while resting her head on her arm.

"Y/n is as passionate as always!"

Her friend, Yuri said while giggling.

"Oh my gosh. I can't believe he did that in public."

Minju buried her head into the comfort of her arms as she recalled the events earlier in the locker room, which gave her another second hand embarrassment.

"Really?"

Yuri questioned while glancing in Y/n's direction, who seems to be busy helping another classmate with their homework.

"He's hardworking and smart. He seems cool but also sweet and passionate about the person he likes. That's great, you are beloved. What's bothering you?"

Yuri questioned Minju. Which prompted the girl to lift her head from her arms.

"...I mean."

"I feel embarrassed!"

"Cause the guys that I've dated never told me how they feel about me. I'm not used to it!!"

Minju would once again grumble about her predicament. It was true after all, her past ex were all douchebags who never really acted how Y/n is acting right now and It's something that Minju isn't used to.

"Well you never had luck with guys..."

Yuri rebutted, causing Minju to shoot a playful girl into the hamster.

"..And yet somehow, You seriously like Y/n despite saying he wasn't your type before you started dating him."

Yuri smirked while Minju simply blushed because of Yuri's comment.

"Not really.."

Minju was too flushed to even argue with Yuri's claims as she simply looked down and muttered to herself. Yuri simply gave her a 'be honest' look.

"Well. If you're really embarrassed, you just have to get used to it."

Yuri pondered as she tried to give her friend useful advice.

"Maybe you can go on a date or something?"

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"Sure.''

"Is there anywhere you would like to go?"

Y/n coolly said while fixing his messy hair. Both him and Minju are sitting on the bus stop's bench while waiting for their bus to arrive.

'That...that was quick...'

Minju was quite taken aback by Y/n's quick agreement to go on a date with her.

"You don't have anything to do? If you have to study or something... you can do what you've got to do instead..."

Minju looked at her swinging feet, somewhat unsure if Y/n will be really vacant.

"No, Don't worry."

Minju huffed in relief because of Y/n's answer. There was a short pause of comfortable silence between them.

"And.."

Minju curiously looked at Y/n as he spoke again.

"Of course, first and foremost, Minju-ssi."

"Because you're my girlfriend."

Y/n would look back at Minju while smiling at her. They'd stare at each other for what felt like an eternity but would be cut short by the arrival of their bus. This caused Y/n to break their eye contact as he looked at the bus before standing up. He'd then look back at Minju who was still sitting.

"Let's go, the bus is here."

Minju who's blushing for the millionth time today would only nod before following behind Y/n meekly, still red as a tomato.

'That's the first time he called me his girlfriend...'

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Minju can be seen getting off the bus as she arrives at her destination. She's dressed up casually as today is her long-awaited date with Y/n. Fishing out her phone from her pocket, she'd look at the time.

【１２：４０】

'I'm 20 minutes early.'

Minju then glances at her location, with the hopes of probably finding Y/n even though she's 20 minutes earlier than their meeting time. As she glanced through the crowd, a particular person standing within the crowd would catch her eyes. Standing there was none other than her boyfriend, Y/n, who's busy reading a book.

'He's already here... that's so him.'

Minju deadpanned and looked at Y/n's direction as if she knew at the back of her head that this was going to happen.

"Y/n."

Minju called out as she headed into the boy's direction. Y/n then glanced at the source of the voice before finding out that it was Minju. He'd quickly close his book and put it back to the bag he's carrying with him.

"It was cold waiting outside, wasn't it?"

Minju asked.

"I just arrived, so it wasn't a problem."

"Really? Okay then..."

Y/n would stare then stare at Minju, with his finger moving up to his chin. Minju's Y/n-senses would activate. Yes, that's correct, after being subjected to Y/n's straightforwardness, Minju developed what she calls as Y/n-senses. It's where she'd sense when Y/n would give her a very straightforward answer or say something that would catch her off guard.

'This is a sign that he's gonna give me a straightforward compliment!!'

'But I won't get shy when I know it's coming!!'

Minju would furrow her eyebrows, knowing what's about to come. She's being weirdly competitive about this thing.

'Come on!!'

"Minju-sii..."

Slowly, Y/n's hand would also move up to his mouth.

"...You're cute..."

Y/n mumbled as he'd look away while covering his mouth. It was a contrast from his usual straightforward approach.

"HUH."

Minju nervously smiled, a bead of sweat forming as she took a second to process the scene in front of her. Is Y/n really acting shy around her? The straightforward Y/n? Acting shy? What?!

It seems her mind processor would go haywire as she too would be flustered by Y/n's sudden actions.

'WHY DID YOU GET SHY!?!?!!!'

Minju screamed in her mind as she dashed away from Y/n.

"...Darn it!"

"Eh? Minju-ssi!"

Y/n can only call her name as Minju hid her face from Y/n. Minju touched her warm cheeks as she sighed.

'Oh no.. I'm not sure if my heart can handle it today... If I'm already like this...'

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[madlysage]

my stardew valley bachelorette headcanons… again super niche and definitely just me being insufferable

leah

- grew up in the south and still has a little twang when she speaks

- loves fleetwood mac and all 70s rock

- tried to make her own wine and elliott made harvey give her a stern lecture on botulism

- a serial dater with a string of bad ex-boyfriends in her wake (she was just a lesbian all along but that wasn’t accepted where she was growing up)

- a baby gay who still gets flustered when flirting with girls

- befriended the hat mouse and is still trying to convince elliott that he’s real

- dyes her hair but insists she’s a natural redhead (her mom was one and she always wanted to emulate her)

i always picture kennedy walsh (icon that she is)

haley

- the closet is glass babe (lesbian/possibly pan)

- wanted to go to college for photography and studio art but was worried it would put financial strain on emily

- secret little crush on leah because she loves her art and her artistic eye

- her and emily were raised by a single dad who passed away unexpectedly- it’s part of the reason she has a hard time opening up to ppl

- left anonymous mean notes about clint on the town message board for WEEKS after she found out he was hitting on emily

- uses her dad’s camera: it’s very sentimental to her

perf- would def be into clean girl makeup

emily

- nobody is quite sure about emily’s sexuality… including emily!

- very into spirituality- crystals, spirits, astrology, luck etc.

- makes alex uncomfortable anytime he comes over: she doesn’t realize she’s starting contentious political debates with him

- makes all her own clothes and hasn’t bought anything new in 3 years

- writes sweet notes to shane on the bar napkins when she can see he’s rlly going through it

- wears crystals in her bras

- stole haley’s diamond earrings for a gem mediation (it did not go over well)

- makes elliott quills with her parrot’s dropped feathers

but picture the hair blue ya know: don’t cast elle fanning as a character in a fandom challenge level impossible bro

penny

- bicon

- my image of penny is Filipino… stardew needs more diversity gonna be so real

- went to college for education and got her teaching license but had to move back home because of the debt

- learned how to do maru’s hair after she complained about how long it took

- watches old movies with maru every weekend and they do a book swap once a month

- sam is the only one who will eat her cooking (but he’ll eat anything… especially if penny made it)

- lets maru come in and give guest teaching sessions in science and math to jas and vincent

-started drinking coffee just to have an excuse to drop some off to maru and harvey at work

likeeeee beabadoobee just makes the perf penny i can’t explain it’s the vibe

maru

- lesbian queen

- my autistic love

- graduated highschool early: got a full ride to school and double majored in nursing and engineering before going to nursing school (graduated early from that too ofc)

- lives off of coffee and gets a daily lecture on caffeine consumption from harvey

- is harvey’s wingman (neither of them have any rizz…)

- goes to the bar just to quiz emily on astrology

- sets up ferris beuller type traps when she wants to sneak out and not deal with demetrius

-used to sneak into sebastian’s room during thunderstorms and still does sometimes

laura harrier my love my light… just picture her with glasses

abigail

- straight but likes to makeout with girls when she’s drunk

- goes to college online (majoring in business for pierre but double minoring in classics and anthropology) - her parents wouldn’t let her go in person because she’s too “reckless”

- brought home a squirrel once and hid it in her room for weeks

-used to do competitive irish dance as a kid (seems like something caroline would make her do)

- has a huge crush on sam and will flirt with sebastian to make him jealous

- pierced her own ears six times at once and made caroline faint when she saw her

- has a tattoo on her thigh that’s she’s desperately hiding from her parents

-helped emily dye her hair for the first time

- hooked up with alex once but will never admit it

can’t explain it she just gives kiernan - with purple hair ofc

[storiesfromafan]

Moral of the Story

Mattheo x Fem!Reader

A/N: so I tried something different with this one. Also posting on my phone, will fix it up when I can get on a computer.

Summary: don't hate me for this being about Mattheo and the reader.

Moral of the Story

So I never really knew you

God, I really tried to

Blindsided, addicted

Felt we could really do this

But really I was foolish

Hindsight, it's obvious

It’s funny how an attraction to someone can turn to a crush, which can lead to liking that person. And before you know it you’re in a relationship. All the while barely knowing them. Though over the course of a relationship you are meant to learn about that person you have chosen. Learning their likes and dislikes, hobbies and interests, if they are a dog or cat person. But for you it hadn’t been like that. Blinded by the Angel face of the Slytherin heartthrob Mattheo Riddle.

Like many girls before, and probably not the last, his chocolate brown eyes and curly brown mop caught your eye first. Then there was that smile that made butterflies flutter in your stomach. And not to forget that charm he just radiated when he talked, eyes focused on his prey, drawing you in whole heartedly. Every ounce of the male screamed sex appeal, every girl's fantasy. The bad boy, heartbreaker of Slytherin. He would blindside the girl he was interested in, causing them to become addicted to him. He was the drug of choice, and every girl became a drug addict on him.

You had believed you could be end game, claiming his heart just as quickly as you had offered up your own. But the fool you were. Mattheo had done it time and time again. Showing interest in a girl, becoming infatuated but really it was a game. Seeing how long it took from the first flirty look he sent their way to obtaining that first date with them to Hogsmeade. Round two in his game was to see how long it took to kiss them, which usually only took half their date. Extra points if he could get a make out session out of them before getting back to Hogwarts. Round three was for those that he found himself interested in for longer than a month. That was borderline full relationship status. Only a few had made it there, yourself included. 

You were the exception though. For he chose to go full relationship with you, shocking all that watched your dalliance closely. Y/N L/N, the first girl to make Mattheo Riddle her boyfriend. That day was the happiest moment of your life so far. But with it came the looming shadow of those that wanted your head, though not literally. You had a target on your back from the moment you accepted to be his girlfriend of four months. Everything should have been obvious; Mattheo and his ways, the target on your back. You should have seen it coming.

Talking with my lawyer

She said, "Where'd you find this guy?"

I said, "Young people fall in love

With the wrong people sometimes"

Some mistakes get made

That's alright, that's okay

You can think that you're in love

When you're really just in pain

Some mistakes get made

That's alright, that's okay

In the end, it's better for me

That's the moral of the story, babe

Sitting in the Great Hall for lunch surrounded by your friends, you pushed your food around your plate. You were hungry but had no appetite for what was on offer. But you ate a few bites, which had been hard to swallow. The conversation your group was having was like white noise; you could hear it but did not focus on it, wanting to tune it out. If attendance wasn’t important you would have stayed in bed, wrapped in your blankets wallowing in self pity.

“What do you think Y/N/N?” Pansy asked drawing you from your mind.

You looked at her with a confused look. “Ah, come again?”

She sighed. “I asked what your thoughts on Snape’s pop quiz. But I think your head was somewhere else, no doubt dwelling on the sorry excuse of an ex”, her tone had been sharp.

You weren’t the only one hurting from your break up, though it was more Pansy wanting to hurt Mattheo for the number he had done on you. Pansy thought the world of you, after just clicking in second year over putting a couple Gryffindor girls in their place over your house; Slytherin.

“I know you cared for him Y/N/N” Pansy said with a pointed look, “mistake made, that’s alright. In the end it's better for you, save yourself true heartache. Once a player, always a player unfortunately”.

If only she truly knew that ship had already set sail. For this was true heartache. Stupidly on your part handing over your heart freely, though you had thought Mattheo was doing the same. Wrong. 

It's funny how a memory

Turns into a bad dream

When running wild turns volatile

Remember how we painted our house

Just like my grandparents did?

So romantic, but we fought the whole time

Should have seen the signs, yeah

Looking down the Slytherin table you saw him sitting with both Draco and Blaise, all three in a heated discussion. How you longed for those moments. Sitting by his side as they conversed on a number of topics. You would even weigh in on the discussion with your own two cents. And they all seemed to enjoy your input on their banter. Those moments were a fond memory. Along with the stolen moments between the two of you. Such as a snog session in a corner of the library. Or lazing under a tree in the courtyard, Mattheo’s head resting on your lap.

But with the good there were always those that were turbulent. In the beginning there were a few moments that had been rough, and maybe a red flag, but the happy moments outweighed the bad. The last month of your relationship there was more turbulence than ever. It started out as small things; comments on your friends, conversations with friends or others from different houses, being late to meet him, etc. You had words with each other before turning into full on arguments, that many thought would lead to one of you hitting the other. It was all so toxic.

Talking with my mother

She said, "Where'd you find this guy?"

Said, "Some people fall in love

With the wrong people sometimes"

Some mistakes get made

That's alright, that's okay

You can think that you're in love

When you're really just in pain

Some mistakes get made

That's alright, that's okay

In the end it's better for me

That's the moral of the story, babe

Sneaking out that night you found yourself in the Astronomy Tower, cigarette between your lips as you lit it up. The first draw hit the back of your throat in familiarity, holding that burn for a few seconds before releasing it in a puff of smoke. With the lack of appetite, cigarettes became an addiction, bringing you some twisted comfort. As he was the reason you found yourself smoking. You consider it a parting gift of some sort.

Leaning against the railing of the tower, you looked up at the night sky. Grateful you never brought Mattheo up here. Or else this space would be tainted, like everywhere else you used to like to go. The stars in the sky seemed dull tonight, possibly mirroring your melancholy mood.

With the silence of the tower you heard the footsteps clearly, faintly coming up the stairs and growing louder as they came closer to you. It had to be one of your friends. No one else knew this was one of your hiding spots.

“Here you are” signed Pansy. “I have been looking everywhere for you”.

“You caught me” you sighed, releasing another puff of smoke before taking another drag of the cigarette. A soft, sympathetic look crossed Pansy’s face. Which you didn't like one bit. “Don't look at me like that. I don't want or need your sympathy”.

“You got hurt Y/N/N. He hurt you” she said, refusing to use his name. A true friend to the end.

“Yeah, and my dumbass knew what it was getting into. I saw it all before I stepped up to the Quidditch pitch. I ignored the red flags Pansy. It’s on me”.

“No!’ She said, raising her voice. “It’s on him! He took it further with you, he made you his girlfriend. If he intended to be serious he needed to work on himself”.

She had a valid point, you know that. You had changed for him, he should have done the same for you. Be the best version of himself for you. That wasn’t his plan. His plan was to be himself, you change for him and he would take from you while finding his next play thing.

“Well they say it's better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all. That could be a load of shit” you said with your cigarette hanging from your lips while lighting it once more and taking another hit. “But that’s how it goes. Blinded by affections of the heart”.

“I understand that. But it’s still no excuse” retorted Pansy. “He could see how you felt, he chose to abuse that”.

But I just need to tell you all

Some mistakes get made

That's alright, that's okay

You can think that you're in love

When you're really just engaged

Some mistakes get made

That's alright, that's okay

In the end it's better for me

That's the moral of this story

Some mistakes get made

That's alright, that's okay

You can think that you're in love

When you're really just in pain

“True, but I need to tell you some mistakes get made. That's alright, that's okay. In the end it's better for me, that's the moral of the story, babe” you said looking her in the eyes. “Chalk it up as a learning experience”.

“I don't disagree with your words. But I hate seeing you like this. It worries me” Pansy said, worry shining through her eyes brightly.

You gave her a soft smile that didn’t meet your eyes. “I know Pans. Honestly I am hurting, it sucks. But in time I will get over it, maybe not completely. Yet just enough to be some version of the old me. Promise”.

With those words, and a promise, Pansy let it be. And shortly after headed back to the Slytherin common room, you said you wouldn’t be far behind her. Alone once more, you continued to smoke your cigarette, your now old friend. You thought over what you had said to Pansy, the promise made. You weren’t sure if you believed your words or not. But hoped it was somewhat true. It gave you hope. Hope needed in a dark moment in this chapter of your life. Your first heartbreak, at the hands of Mattheo Riddle.

With the final drag of your cigarette, you put out the tip before flicking it over the edge of the tower. Taking one last look at the night sky, you saw a shooting star, a small sad smile forming on your lips. Taking your leave, you headed down the quiet staircase, along the portrait covered hall ways and back down into the depth of the castle, and the Slytherin common room.

Oh-oh, oh-oh (that's the moral of the story, that's the-)

(Oh-oh, oh-oh)

(Oh-oh, oh-oh)

A/n: any constructive criticism welcome 😊

[shitrusfruit]

hella bored

1)Are you really ready for 108 questions? yes I'm hella bored, but also 108 seems like a really oddly specific number???

2) Was your last real relationship a mistake? uhhhh, never really been. why is there no 3?

4) Who did you last say “I love you” to? probably my best friend in a platonic way because like, see above. never really been

5) Do you regret it? why would I?

6) Have you ever been depressed? I think I get angry more than sad.

7)Are you a boy or girl? girl

8)Who is your best friend? it's still Angie

9) What is your relationship status? single

10) How do you want to die? peacefully of old age???

11) What did you last eat? an orange

12) Played any sports? no.

13) Do you bite your nails ? sometimes

14) When was your last physical fight? does it count if you hurt them but they don't fight back because they're a coward???

15) Do you have an attitude? yes

16) Do you like someone? um. no comment

17) What is your real name? uh, what IS it? author keeps fucking changing it. I don't think it's Lottie anymore. it was Azalea for a bit which was cute. now Polly I think??? we'll go with Polly

19) Are you gonna get high later? that's not something I do

20) Do you hate anyone at the moment? again, no comment

21) Do you miss someone? .. no COMMENT

22) Twirl or cut your spaghetti? twirl!

23) Do you tan a lot? I don't think my pasty ass skin is capable of that

24) Have any pets? wish I did but don't

25) How exactly are you feeling? bored and pissy

26) Ever eaten food in a car while someone or yourself is driving? cars...... again with author changing stuff. :| not sure if my current iteration lives in a world with cars.

27) Ever made out in the bathroom? no

28) Would you take any of your exes back? never had any

29) Are you scared of spiders? no, used to think they were annoying I guess? but now I've heard a certain someone go on and on about how beautiful they are if you really look, so now I feel weirdly compelled to like really observe them like a nerd :|

30) Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? ......... maybe.

31) Do you regret anything from your past? maybe the way I treated someone.

32) What are your plans for this weekend? books, tea, sleep

33) Do you want to have kids? I guess. I get along well with kids but would also be fine with not having them. honestly if I was at that stage in my life now I'd let my currently nonexistent spouse decide whether or not they wanted kids

34) Did you ever kiss someone whose name starts with an M? no, that's oddly specific

35) Do you type fast? I think so

36) Do you have piercings? .How many? just basic ears

37) Want any more? not really, even though a certain someone keeps telling me I should get more

38) Can you spell well? yes

39) Do you miss anyone from your past? didn't we already ask if I miss anyone

40) What are you craving right now? potato leek soup.

41) Ever been to a bonfire party? no where's 42

43) Have you ever been on a horse? yes

44) Kissed someone in a pick up truck? again with cars/trucks lol

45) Have you ever broken someone’s heart? um. yes

46) Have you ever been cheated on? never been in a relationship

47) Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? she's not my girlfriend. 48? you keep skipping numbers. this isn't really 108 questions then is it???

49) Would you live with someone without marrying them? yes, how else would you know if you mesh with them well enough to marry them

50) What should you be doing? don't even know

51) What’s irritating you right now? what isn't?

52) Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts? uh.

53) Does somebody love you? unfortunately

54) What is your favorite colour pink!

55) Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle? stop asking about vehicles

57) Do you have trust issues? yes now you skipped 3 whole numbers, quiz maker. please learn to count

Do you have a good relationship with your parents? .......... sort... of?

62) Do you believe your most recent ex thinks about you? she's not my ex

63) Who was the last person you cried in front of? her :|

64) Do you give out second chances too easily? hell no

65) Is it easier to forgive or forget? neither.

66) Is this year the best year of your life? I hope not

67) What was your child nick name didn't have one

68) Have you ever walked outside completely naked? no!

70) Do you believe everything happens for a reason? I hope not

71) What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night peed -.-

73) What is bothering you what ISN'T

74) Have you ever been out of your state? I don't think I've ever existed in a setting that included states in its world building

75) Do you play the Wii? I think I would have if it existed in my setting

76) Are you listening to music right now? no

77) Do you like Chinese food? setting equivalent of China has pretty good food

78) Do you know your fathers b- day? uh. oops

79) Are you afraid of the dark? no

80) Is cheating ever okay? no

81) Are you mean? yes

82) Can you keep white shoes clean? no

84) Do you believe in true love? I don't know?

88) Do you like the outside? not really tbh

89) Are you currently bored? YES

90) Do you wanna get married? uh. maybe

91) Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? no.

92) Are you hungry? yes

93) Have you ever made out for more than a half hour straight? that sounds dumb

94) What makes you happy? not having obligations

95) Would you change your name? I don't really get a choice about that now do I :p

96) Ever been to Alaska? no

98) Do you watch the news? it's important to know the news

99) What’ s your zodiac sign?. Leo

100) Do you like Subway? I think I would if my setting had that

101) Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? :|

102) Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? he does :| but the opposite sex doesn't do anything for me anyway

103) Do you talk like your friends? I guess?

104) Have you ever seen someone you knew & purposely avoided them? of course

105) Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? no.

106) who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? Reyne -.-

107) Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes? smoking is gross

108) Can you count to one million? no.

[limjaeseven]

Love Me A Little

Pairing: Hongjoong x Mingi

Genre: Angst, s2l

Word Count: 2766

Summary: Hongjoong never really understood love. People had different stories of how it came but for everyone he knew, it stayed a while. For him, love was a fickle thing, a spark of passion fizzling out as fast as it started. He wasn’t happy about it, he wished he could love people the way they loved him, but it felt like that just wasn’t meant for him. That was, until Mingi came around.

Quiz Result: losing your passion and frantically trying to regain it - fever

Warnings: Implied smut, mental breakdowns

[a/n]: Here's my submission for @pirateeznet's first anniversary project! I veered plenty off the prompt but I still hope you enjoy. Thanks @daesukiii for helping me brainstorm this.

It wasn’t like Hongjoong didn’t want to fall in love, didn’t want a long term lover, didn’t want a marriage with a suburban house with a white picket fence and 2.5 kids, it just didn’t happen to him.

He tried, god knows he tried, but liking someone for him was as easy as getting bored with them, meaning his relationships were enjoyable for a short while before he was staying just because he didn’t want to hurt his partner. He tried to be a good lover, but he couldn’t keep his heart in place for very long.

The line of his exes was long, most relationships ending with his boyfriends realising that he just didn’t feel the same way that they did. Maybe a lifetime’s worth of love wasn’t meant for him, he thought.

Finding people wasn't difficult for him, neither was making them stay. The same couldn't be said for his own heart. It made him want to stop looking for people altogether, but the loneliness was too crippling.

"I wish I'd never met you," Jongho had cried the day things ended.

Yunho had left without as much of a note, not that Hongjoong was surprised after the year and change they spent together.

Dating Yeosang was fun for about the first month, then it started getting bad, then progressively worse.

San and Wooyoung felt like but a distant memory, fun while it lasted. They had sought him out to join their relationship but all he did was remind him why they were better off together.

A sigh left Seonghwa's lips as he watched his best friend sulk in the corner of his cafe, at a table unofficially reserved for him. "Your dull face is going to drive all the customers away." He said as he placed Hongjoong's tea in front of him.

"Leave me alone, I'm grieving," Hongjoong muttered.

Seonghwa sat down in front of his friend and asked, "Grieving what, Joong? We've been over this so many times."

"I'm grieving my sorry ass." It had been months since San and Wooyoung broke up with him but it still stung somewhere deep down. He couldn't blame them, he would have done the same if he was in their place, but he didn't know how to fix things. "Am I just aro, Hwa?"

"You know that's a question only you can answer." Hongjoong groaned and covered his face with his hands. "If you're asking me if I think you're aro, then no. What you had with Yeonjun in high school felt too real to be anything short of love to me."

Hongjoong had to agree. Choi Yeonjun was the only person who Hongjoong had actually, legitimately loved in his life. They never dated, conservative school and all, but still, they shared something special. Once Hongjoong graduated, though, they naturally drifted apart and that was the end of it.

Sometimes he tries to psychoanalyse himself and wonders if that incident left him irrevocably scarred or something. But he didn’t really feel different. Maybe it was about finding the right person, he thought. But that made him feel worse because what were the chances that he’d find “the right one”?

He groaned into his tea, making Seonghwa ruffle his hair comfortingly before getting back to his work. Hongjoong just wanted to not be and feel alone, but he couldn’t tell if that was in his stars for him.

Mingi happened by a sheer stroke of luck. Hongjoong gets chills when he thinks about it, how easy it would have been for him to miss him entirely. Hongjoong had decided to take an impromptu vacation, taking a week off work and booking the first flight out of the country he could find.

It happened to be a ticket to Japan he could barely afford but he had had a terrible month at work and everything was just going wrong so he threw all his critical thinking skills out of the window and was left with eight hours to pack and no return ticket booked.

Despite the time and the immediacy of his plan, he almost missed his flight because he fell asleep in the middle of sorting out his clothes out while lounging on his bed. He hadn’t prebooked his seat so he got the only free one remaining on the flight, which happened to be between a teenager who wasn’t able to get a seat with his mother and an old man who was snoring loud enough for Hongjoong to still hear it through his headphones.

He wanted to curse his fate when a tall man came walking towards him, and for a moment Hongjoong felt frozen in place. The man was really attractive, like absurdly so. His seat also happened to be next to the teenager’s mother’s. He very politely agreed to swap seats with her son and there he was, sitting next to Hongjoong looking like he just walked off a runway.

“Can I help you?” Hongjoong had to take a second to realise he was shamelessly staring at the man next to him.

He shook his head and turned away, grabbing the book he’d stashed away in the seat pocket in front of him to occupy himself. He didn’t bother checking which book it was, just grabbed whatever was on top of his shelf as he was running out of his house. It happened to be his copy of ‘The Picture of Dorian Gray’, a well loved one at that, with the spine broken in and the cover chewed up in the corners.

“Oscar Wilde? Good choice,” The man next to him commented.

Hongjoong let himself look at him again before responding, “Yeah I picked this up in high school and fell in love with it.” He reached his hand out to the man. “Hongjoong.”

“Mingi, pleasure to meet you.” The man replied, a bright smile breaking out on his face.

They talked non stop for the two hours of their flight. Things were so comfortable with Mingi. He was warm and immediately disarming. Hongjoong got a good laugh out of the facial expression Mingi made when he told him about how he landed up on that particular flight.

They had exchanged numbers and promises to meet each other over dinner by the time they had collected their bags and headed out to their respective hotels.

Mingi was in Japan on his dream trip, Hongjoong found out. He had originally planned it with his boyfriend but they ended up breaking up before it came to fruition but Mingi wasn’t going to let that get in the way of checking an important item off his bucket list.

“I could accompany you,” Hongjoong offered casually, “If you’d be okay with that, that is. It’s not like I have anything planned anyways.”

“I would love that,” Mingi said immediately. And so it was decided, a last minute vacation had turned into a sight seeing opportunity with an extremely hot man who not only was single, but also into men. Hongjoong knew it probably wasn’t the best idea to try flirt with Mingi not that long after his breakup, but he wouldn’t turn the man down if he wanted to try something,

And try they did. It took three days of them spending basically every waking moment together but they eventually got there. Mingi had invited Hongjoong back to his hotel after a day spent roaming around the fashion district of the city. They were planning to dine at the restaurant but given how exhausted they were, they ended up crashing on Mingi’s bed and ordered room service.

“Are you dating anyone?” Mingi asked out of nowhere, his eyes glued to the television playing some reality show they could barely understand the rules of.

Hongjoong turned to look at Mingi, his face lit by the glow of the screen, highlighting his features in a delectable way. “No,” He said.

“Anyone you like?”

“No.”

“Any on and offs? ‘Maybe-but-not-really?”

“No.”

Mingi took a deep breath before turning to Hongjoong, “Can I kiss you?”

“Oh my god just do it already.” They were rolling on the bed in a tangle of limbs within seconds, soft lips sharing passionate kisses. Hongjoong didn’t realise how much fun just kissing someone could be till Mingi.

Hongjoong didn’t go back to his own hotel that night.

The week felt like a dream that Hongjoong didn’t want to wake up from. Basking in Mingi’s glow felt like a slice of heaven he couldn’t let go of. But time ran out, and suddenly Hongjoong was hit with the reality that they had to go back to their lives, working cities apart with busy schedules and commitments that left them with little time for themselves.

He couldn’t get himself to ask Mingi what they were before leaving. They were supposed to leave on the same flight but Hongjoong had his pulled back last minute and he left without a word.

Hongjoong didn’t know what to do with himself on the flight back to Korea. He knew he was making a mistake, he knew he was running away from something that could maybe work for once, but he didn’t think he had it in him to find out. He was too scared to see something beautiful fall to ruin because his heart would eventually grow bored of that too, and he’d be back at square one, a lot more scarred and no less lonely.

For the next week straight he refused to go anywhere but to work or the local grocers. Seonghwa had to practically break his door down to get him to even say a word to him. “What is up with you, Joong?” He questioned, his voice accusatory. “You leave and come back without a word. I’ve been so worried about you. Couldn’t you have responded to my texts or heck, come to the cafe and showed your face so that I know you’re still alive instead of having to call your coworkers to check in on you?”

Hongjoong sat dazed on his sofa as Seonghwa shouted at him, his face impassive, barely registering that his friend was even there, much less what he was saying. “Hyung,” he said finally when Seonghwa stopped. “Hyung,” he repeated before breaking down in sobs.

He cried like he had never before. Seonghwa rushed to hold him tightly, rocking him gently as he tried to get Hongjoong to calm down but it wasn’t working. Hongjoong was a mess of tears, wails and panicked breaths, barely holding together.

“I’m so scared, hyung,” he muttered over and over again, his voice coming out in a wet warble. Seonghwa held onto Hongjoong tighter, whispering reassurances into his ears. It took a long time for his breathing to even out and his tears to stop but eventually he was lulled into an uneasy rest.

“You should call him, you know?” Seonghwa told him the next morning over breakfast. Hongjoong had broken down once more when he woke up and finally spilled everything.

“I just can’t. He didn’t try to contact me either, and I honestly don’t blame him.”

“The longer you wait, the harder it will get.”

Hongjoong paced around the kitchen, hands wringing nervously, “Hyung, he’s perfect. I can’t watch myself falling out of love with him. Not for him and not for me.”

“Then don’t,” Seonghwa said simply. “Don’t fall out of love with him. Try with everything you have in you. If it still happens, then that’s just what fate has in store for you. But to let go of something so precious for an outcome you don’t know for sure will happen, what a waste.”

Hongjoong didn’t know what to say to that. He stared at his phone as Seonghwa left. A picture of Mingi at one of the shrines they visited together stared back at him. He reached over to turn the screen off.

A week turned into two, then three, and before Hongjoong knew it had been over two months since he’d been back from the trip. He was sure Mingi had forgotten all about him by now. That was at least his hope, because he knew it was more likely that he hated Hongjoong with every fibre of his being for what he did to him.

He was in the middle of walking home when he crossed a boutique with a display of clothes that reminded him a lot of the way Mingi dressed. Stopping in front of the store window, he gazed over the mannequins, memories of their time together flashing in his mind.

The way Mingi had walked around the town in a loud shirt that Hongjoong had happily ripped off his body in the comfort of the new hotel room they had gotten together. He remembered the way Mingi had smiled when Hongjoong took more pictures of him than of the places they were visiting and how those smiles turned warmer when it was just the two of them curled together in their bed, their faces a mere breath away.

On impulse he stepped inside the shop. The counter was empty, the door behind it slightly ajar. Hongjoong found a rack of belts and felt the leather between his fingers. The image of him hastily unbuckling one from Mingi’s waist and throwing away crept on him that he didn’t notice someone step out of the open door and stand behind him.

“How can I help you, sir?” A familiar voice asked and Hongjoong felt his entire body seize up. He couldn’t get himself to move or say a word. “Are you okay, sir?” Mingi’s deep voice asked, and Hongjoong couldn’t muster even a sound as Mingi walked around to face him.

The shock on his face when he recognised Hongjoong was comical. He looked like he had seen a ghost, his lips parted and his voice caught in his throat.

“Mingi,” Hongjoong finally managed to say. And just like that the floodgates fell open. “Mingi, Mingi, Mingi, Mingi,” he chanted, unable to stop himself.

He could barely remember what happened but next thing he knew, Mingi had him wrapped ina crushing hug. “Why did it take so long?” He heard Mingi ask. Hongjoong just held onto him tighter, too afraid to let go.

“Why aren’t you mad at me?” Mingi smiled, taking Hongjoong’s hand into his own, running his thumb over his knuckles.

“No offence but I didn’t expect someone who booked and almost missed a flight to a random country in less than eight hours to be the most well adjusted person out there.” Hongjoong wanted to protest what Mingi was saying but he knew there was no point. “A part of me knew I’d wake up in that bed alone. It also knew that if I tried to get in touch with you, you’d just shut down. So all I could do was wait.”

“But I was so terrible to you, weren’t you hurt?”

“Oh I was plenty hurt, right after my ex too, but I wasn’t mad. I just couldn’t find it in me to be angry with you.”

Hongjoong raised Mingi’s hand to his lips almost reverently and placed a soft kiss on the back of it. “I don’t deserve you,” he whispered.

“I don’t care what you deserve or not, Hongjoong. I want you, if you want me too.” Mingi looked at Hongjoong with such a burning passion that he couldn’t help but speak his heart.

“I want you so bad, Mingi. With every fibre of my being,” he said. “Every time I look at you I had to remind myself that I’m not dreaming. I just wouldn’t be able to forgive myself if I hurt you again.”

“I wouldn’t forgive you either, and it would hurt me a lot if you rejected me right now. So just say yes. What has to happen will happen. Don’t let that stop you from being happy.”

Hongjoong closed his eyes and let himself wash away all his worries in the wave of Mingi’s presence. “Yes, a thousand times over.”

[pridepages]

eARC Review: Mistletoe and Mishigas

A HUGE thank you to M.A. Wardell for providing me an eARC in exchange for an honest review!

RATING: ⭐⭐⭐⭐

GOODREADS SYNOPSIS:  

Sheldon Soleskin should be having a horrible day. Even though he’s been unexpectedly transferred to a new school right before the holidays, has only one day to set up his new classroom, and just discovered his twin sister's been hiding an invitation to his ex-boyfriend’s Christmas Eve wedding, he’s still ready to take on the world with a smile on his face and a skip in his step. Theo Berenson just wants to be left alone to his custodial duties. But when the chipper new first-grade teacher needs help moving furniture the Sunday after Thanksgiving, he's forced to do something he detests. Help. To make matters worse, Theo's overbearing parents are coming for Hanukah in a few weeks, and he's told them he has a boyfriend. Except he doesn't. Because who would want to date an oaf like Theo? Working together, these opposites discover they might be able to help each other out. Agreeing to be each other’s dates, they become friends as they practice for their upcoming events. But when all the rehearsing starts feeling a little too real, and both men's pasts come roaring back to haunt them, will they be able to pull off the ultimate holiday masquerade?

RELEASE DATE: 10/10/2023

See my full review under the cut!

With apologies to the spooky gays, we're about to get festive!

(Note: in the interest of fairness to readers who don't yet have access, this will be a spoiler-free review without text quotations. I'll post again more fully in October when the book hits shelves!)

Anybody in education knows all about the sophomore slump.

Anybody who's ever written fiction can tell you that the second book is harder than the first.

Anybody who's ever read can tell you that second books frequently miss the mark.

Pop Quiz: How many apply to M.A. Wardell's Mistletoe and Mishigas?

Answer: None of the above!

I've been a Wardell fan since his debut, Teacher of the Year. Without being a direct sequel, Mishigas lives in the same universe. More notably, it brings the same magic.

Wardell has a particular gift: his fiction takes two seemingly incongruous things and blends them together.

On the one hand, the atmosphere of these stories is unfailingly cozy. It's feel-good. Readers feel safe and loved as they follow these characters. There is a sense of security that, no matter how many growing pains the characters must endure, they will end up happy.

On the other hand, these books tackle serious real-life issues. Characters live with trauma, neurodivergence, and simply with human flaws and blindspots. Wardell is able to weave in some of life's painful realities with grace and compassion that leaves readers hopeful--'if they can make it, then I can too!'

It goes without saying that representation matters, and that anyone who lives at the intersection of queer/Jewish/educator will feel a particularly special connection to this book. There's nothing like a holiday tale that speaks directly to the people who don't celebrate Christmas!

But one of the really special things about Mishigas is that you don't need to be any of those things to love it.

You don't even need it to be the holidays.

You just need a heart ready to grow three sizes that day.

(Sorry, I had to do it!)

[xrudypankowfics98]

Chapter Two: Fill-In

warnings: swearing, mentions of death, parents being invasive word count: 1.6k

You were sat in the diner, every whiff of food made your stomach both growl and churn. A waitress makes her way over to your table as she pulls out a pen and a little notepad.

"What can I get started for you?"

"Just a coffee, please?"

"Me too," Rudy smiled.

"Alright, coming up!" She beamed cheerfully.

The waitress stepped away to prepare the coffee as you laid your head down to just take a breather. Suddenly your phone begins to buzz in your pocket before you released a loud and over exaggerated groan. A few turned their heads as Rudy pursed his lips, exposing his dimple and giving them an apologetic smile. You rise, pulling your phone out from your pocket and looking at the screen.

"Oh, no."

"What?"

"My mother is calling."

"Well, answer. Maybe she just wants to chit-chat."

You give him a look before answering. "Hi, mom."

"So... anything planned for the holiday season?"

"Yeah," You lie. "I'm just gonna spend time with my friends,"

"Friends? I thought you would be in a relationship by now."

An idea came to mind as your mother continued blabbering about how lonely you are in the dating life. You continue the lie.

"Actually mom, there is something I wanna say."

"And that is?"

"I do have a boyfriend,"

In that moment, your coffee came to your table as you take a quick sip thanking the waitress. You briefly make eye contact with Rudy before looking down at the table.

"You remember. I told you about him the last time we spoke. He's right here with me too. We're just having a quick coffee and exploring the city after the night we had."

Rudy immediately looks at you, almost choking on his coffee as you two make eye contact with one another. You saw a confused look in his eyes, making you feel slightly bad lying like this. The truth is, you just wanted your family to make your life hell.

"Oh, honey--"

You couldn't listen to any more of her talking, pulling the phone away from your ear and begin to make the 'talk to her' face as Rudy rolls his eyes. He takes the phone from your hand, putting it up to his ear.

"Hi, Ms. (last name). This is, uh.."

You begin panicking before you decide to tell him your ex-boyfriend's name which earned you another exasperated look from Rudy.

"Matthew," You whisper then take a long sip of your coffee.

"This-- This is Matthew. How are you doing?"

You kept an eye on him as he made conversation with your mom. However, that was until the call eventually ended and Rudy gave you an apologetic yet nervous expression. He sat your phone down, sighing as you knew he was unsure of how to tell you.

"What is it?"

"Well, your mom wants to meet me in person. Plus, she invited the two of us to stay at her house for Christmas. And like any nervous response, I told her that we would be happy to join."

"Rudy, why did you say that?"

"I don't know, I was nervous."

You pinched the bridge of your nose, closing your eyes and taking a breather. You come back after a few seconds, telling him to give her more information.

"Since Christmas is next week, she wants us there by this Friday so she can get to know our relationship and catch up."

"Typical," You mutter. "Looks like we have tickets to buy and for me to quiz you on me ...and Matthew."

"So, I'm portraying your ex-boyfriend, that I've never met just to prove to your mom that you have a life, and don't need her nose in your business?"

"Yup, pretty much. But it's only until she wants us gone. Then when we return home, we go back to being friends. Sounds pretty simple to me."

You down half the cup, rising and stepping away from him. Rudy quickly takes a couple sips before leaving a couple dollars on the table then follows behind you. You stood outside, waiting until Rudy steps out as he fumbles with his jacket.

"You're crazy. You know that, right?"

"I know,but like I said, it's only for a couple days to a week. Maybe more. Did she say anything else?"

"Oh, yeah. That's the part I wanted to avoid telling you. She wants us to leave after New Years."

"Jesus, I should've known. She always does this. Always wanting me to stick around longer, so her nosey ass (and my other family) to prove that my life is sucky."

"They don't do that, do they?"

"All the time. I just want to prove that I am telling the truth about stuff, including my relationships."

"I get that,"

"Unless..." You trail off, folding your arms across your chest.

You furrow your brows, staring at Rudy and thinking. You didn't know if the idea you had was a good or bad one.

"Oh-no, what are you plotting?"

"What if you portray the role of Matthew,"

"I'm sorry, what?"

"You could be my fake boyfriend just during the trip, then go back to being friends."

"Oh, no. I'm not doing that."

"Please," You basically beg, pleading with him, "My mom doesn't know what he looks like. Plus, I'll go over everything about him, so if they ask you certain questions, you'll be able to answer."

"I'm not pretending to be someone else just so you can prove to your family that you're not some screw up. Just tell them the truth. They'll fuck off eventually."

"Please, Rudy? I'm only asking for this one favor, that's it."

Rudy stood there, working his jaw as you rested your hand on his arm and holding his gaze. A smile forms with pleading eyes as your heart fluttered inside your chest. Without your knowledge, he glances down at your exposed cleavage, quickly averting his somewhere else.

"Jesus Christ. Fine! I'll do it."

You brought Rudy in a tight gripped hug, almost squeezing him in the process. He wrapped his arms around your upper back the best he could, holding you close. You pull away after a few seconds and grin from ear to ear.

~~~

Back at your apartment, you and Rudy are seated on the sofa discussing your ex-boyfriends interests.

"Now, listen closely because you are gonna be questioned on stuff like this, ok?"

Rudy nodded. You rose and began pacing back and forth.

"You both dress the same pretty much, so that's check marked off the list. Um, hmm. Well, you are not from Alaska. You are from here -- Utah. That's where Matthew is from."

"Wait. You're kidding, right?"

"Nope. Anyway, you work finance. Oh, and your name is Matthew Solace, CEO of Solace Incorporation. Just make something up, they don't need to know what you actually do. And besides, he never really mentioned it anyway."

He nodded once more, mentally noting each fact as he sat there admiring your determination on this whole act. He came back to reality.

"Got it."

"You don't play sports, you watch sports. You prefer Jack Daniels Whiskey for some apparent reason. Your favorite genre is comedy and romance--"

"Jesus, that's making sound like I'm some boring, rich asshole who only cares about himself and career."

"Thats...That's what he is. You're not wrong about any of it."

"(name), you seriously went for a guy like that? You've got bad taste, no offense."

"Some offence taken. Anyway, if you need to know anything else throughout now and on the way, let me know so I can fill you in."

"I think I got the basics."

You plop on the couch beside him, checking your phone. You see thirty-seven messages from your older sister, Caroline, asking you about "Matthew" and why she's just now hearing it from your mother.

"Shit,"

"What?"

"My mom told my sister, Caroline. And now, she just sent me thirty-seven--"

Your phone pings as Caroline had sent another message. "Thirty-eight messages about Matthew -- you, Rudy. God, could this day get any worse."

"At least you are more perky. That hangover must be going away."

"Barely. I wanna go back to passing out, maybe I'll forget about my problems. Oh wait, my family's is the problem here. God, if my dad hadn't died, my mom wouldn't be snooping on everyone."

"Wait. Your dad died? How come you never told me?"

"It never came up in any of our conversations. Plus, I don't want pity when his death anniversary arrives."

"If you don't mind me asking... how'd he pass?"

"Heart attack. It was literally three months before Christmas, and well, him and my mom got into this huge argument. And yeah, you know what happened next."

With tears forming in your eyes, you quickly move to where Rudy doesn't see you crying. He's seen you cry a couple times before but wasn't expecting you to cry once again. Hell, you weren't expecting yourself to cry but here you are fanning your eyes and looking up at the ceiling. Rudy noticed almost immediately, scooting closer and bringing you into his arms, knowing that you were emotional talking about your father.

"Hey, hey, shh. It's okay."

Your face was buried in his chest, inhaling of what was left of his cologne. He was still dressed in the suit he wore the night before. You felt safe with him, honest, and open. However, something deep down made it worse. But in that moment, you couldn't think of anything else as you were beginning to feel better.

"Thank you, Rudy." You inhale before releasing it. "Since you have those few things in mind, I guess now we go buy plane tickets."

"I guess so," He chuckled.

[artandpunishment]

why am i laying in bed fantasizing over what i would say to my ex if i ran into them at the goddamn grocery store? why am i hoping to have a fling with a fling from two years ago, send a reparations text to the first boyfriend i ever had, that something actually works out with an old crush, that i meet someone new at literally any little outing i go on?

i swear to god it has always been some foolish part of me. there has always been something missing.

no matter how happy i could be, i'm either thinking one or both of the following: something is missing, something is going to go wrong very soon.

i can't have nice things because i am always looking for something that is missing. there's this hole, this yearning, this hatred for another an 'else' a 'more.' nothing that i have has ever been quite right.

even when i was a fucking pre-schooler i relished in having a crush, especially on my best friends (who were boys).

i primarily get off to women but i know i can never or may never date one because my mom would never love me again.

literally i want peace so bad.

i took this quiz that was 'what you think you want versus what you actually need.' it gutted me because it said i wanted nothing but need a nice pen to be able to get out my thoughts. it said some other things to write with the pen, but i can't remember them right now,

it is just a fucking quiz but i cling to have someone write something so profound about me. i want to be able to care about one particular person because they saved me and i want them to have a similar sort of peace with me.

i know i am saying that i want things after mentioning the quiz, but it's still true. i want nothing because i don't actually know what i want.

yes, i said i want someone, but i know that that isn't the best for me and definitely not for someone else, especially given the mental state i am in right now.

my fucking ex called me yesterday and asked how this market i was a vendor at went. sure, that was nice of them to do, but literally fuck you. that's all you want to ask me about after not talking for over a month?

what happened to how you wanted to stay friends, come back to my house, and all this other shit? hopefully they fucking realized one, you can't be friends with your exes, at least, not when you screwed with their emotional stability like they did to me.

i didn't realize how hurt i am until the past few weeks. and i swear they fucking started the call like we did when we were together. they don't fucking get it. they will never understand. and here i am yet again typing bullshit out for all of tumblr to read.

i feel like a burden telling this to anyone.

[dianaritteroflows]

12/2/2023 10:17 PM

Emotions have been HIGH lately. On top of finding out an old fling is coming back to Miami to come see me after he unadded and unfollowed me on everything, I also had to compete with my ex boyfriend in an academic presentation competition in front of recruiters, judges, and over a 100 other students. Not sure what was in the air yesterday, maybe it was the two final presentations and a quiz that just made me want to break down crying. So I did. That didn't really make me feel better, my make up was smeared everywhere. My mascara was running down my face, it was awful. My eyes were swollen when I finally showed up to the academic competition.

I also thought about Nate again. Yesterday, just felt like the confirmation that everything was over. He didn't try to reach out, he didn't try to see how was I doing or anything. It just hurts so much. How can someone be so kind be so suddenly absent and hurtful in their lack of consideration?

That line in Sweet where she talks about writing a letter but not sending it sort of inspired my next series of things. It wouldn't be any better for me to reach out to him so I will write the messages I would've to him here:

"Hey, I'm sorry for reaching out, but it really does hurt that we cut off things. Would you still want to be friends?"

Like how stupid would that be to write to him? But that's how I feel:

"Nate please can we stay friends?"

Desperate and clingy. Besides, now it's common knowledge from his fraternity that I am talking to other brothers. They are aware of my name. Girls with my reputation don't get boyfriends. We stay put in our place.

Now one of his friends know that I've been getting with my old fling again. He even took pictures of us together. It wouldn't matter to send those messages.

Why do I want to send them? Yeah like overnight he's going to want to be like "Yes, I do want to be friends with a whore!"

It feels awful to have my reputation. However, I did it to myself. I self destructed.

WHORE WHORE WHORE WHORE

God, I joke about my body count and I do find it funny sometimes. But truthfully I'm very aware of my number and how society views it.

I've had somewhat of a religious reawakening and its making me more critical of myself.

Who wants to be friends with the whore?

"Nate, can we be friends?"

Sounds like I'm on the edge of killing myself.

I recently learned about EXIT international. Membership is actually very cheap. With membership, you also get your flight to Switzerland paid for. Of course, it's only one flight.

Sometimes, I feel comfort in knowing I still have one option where I can end up. I can just exit out of my suffering.

"Nate, please can we be friends?"

"I don't want to go on being strangers. I can't go on being strangers. I can't have another person on campus who knows me so well that treats me like a stranger, I can't keep going on like this. I can't. It's killing me seeing so many familiar faces of people who are just strangers to me now. You weren't supposed to end up like that. We were supposed to at least say Hi to each other in passing no matter what happened. This hurts so much."

[ryuuseini]

I'll be honest: sometimes I take those "is your MC a Mary Sue" quizzes, not because I buy into the belief that a Mary Sue is a real thing, but because I want to see how absolutely baffled these tests are when I show up with my 29 year old OC who is arguably very conventionally attractive at the cost of his sanity. But I've noticed as I try to answer yhe questions of these tests - some of which are old and only exist as an archive (the Mary Sue Litmus Test, for example) and some of which that are pretty damn recent - is that some questions are Literally Impossible to Answer.

And look, I get it, you can't account for everyone’s OCs because that's impossible. However, a trend I've noticed is... Every question that revolves around how your OC is seen by others is phrased as if the "other characters" are a monolith.

Let me explain. So I come in with my OC, who I'll refer to as Kaz from now on ('cause that's his name), and come across the question of "how do others view him?" I get the choices of "love him, hate him, neutral, likes him" (for example.) How do I answer this question? No legitimately - how do I answer this question? Because there are two characters who absolutely love him in a found family like way, four characters that hate him, three that like him (and out of those three, one is "likes him enough to put up with him"), and one who has an "its complicated" relationship but ultimately would end up in the "likes" category. So, doing our math, that's:

2 people who love him (and not even in the way we're assuming the question is asking)

4 people who hate him

4 people who like him (with an added caveat that half of them have some sort of disdain towards Kaz)

And like. What do I do here? Because it's an even split, among the named characters at least, between "hate" and "like". And because of how binary these results are, they will heavily screw if your OC is perceived as a "Mary Sue" (which, doesn't exist, but given how often the term comes up to this day, I can see young creators hoping their OCs don't fit into this box).

And sure, you can argue with me "well its just a quiz you're not supposed to take it seriously" and true, you're right, it is just a quiz. But it doesn't represent how much of a sliding scale OC development really is. And that's my major problem.

Character development is a sliding scale. Not everyone will love your OC and in that same breath, not everyone will hate them either. Back to Kaz as an example - he's got an ex-boyfriend (named Reiji) and a girl he has a platonic crush on (named Remi). Kaz and his ex are on bad terms and its justified because they both hurt each other! Meanwhile when Remi first meets Kaz she thinks he's cute (but then kinda... takes it back because of the way Kaz responded to that but she does try to move past that because sometimes first impressions are impossible to judge people on) and then still ends up liking him as a friend. And the reason I bring these two up is because Reiji and Remi are childhood friends! So Reiji vents to Remi about Kaz and Remi goes "oh okay" and adjusts her perception of Kaz to be far more nuanced than what she had understood with their first two interactions, while when Remi talks to Reiji about Kaz he uses it to adjust his perception of Kaz to fall more into the disdain category.

So it's like!! Your OC is gonna be perceived in so many ways by your cast (and the surrounding background characters too!!) that putting them into a box isn't going to help! So like. Please don't take those tests as a way to see where to "fix" your character because they will never account for your whole story. You could have a queen ruling a nation and everyone loves her and people who speak out against her are seen as unreasonable. Would that make her a Mary Sue? Like. Genuine question here. Because I think not, but that is a question on multiple Mary Sue tests.

[lolaruberto96]

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How Do I Tell My Parents Im Back With My Ex

[sublimecatgalaxy]

HI HUN!!

it’s me again, coming in the clutch with requests:)

Jonathan Byers with:

“stop pouting”

and

build up/mutual lining and maybe some jealousy?

TAKE IT WHEREVER THAT BEAUTIFUL CREATIVE MIND OF YOURS TAKES IT!! i promise i’ll watch s4 of stranger things asap to contribute with the simping of the characters lol

<3duck:)

YESS DUCKY YESSSSS. Still haven't seen the last 40 minutes of the last episode so I'm spitballing here. Not canon.

"Who're you looking at, Byers?" He jumps as I slide onto the hood of his car beside him, his hand clutching his chest as he tries to collect himself. I watch with teasing eyes as he bumps me with his shoulder.

"No one." He laughs, messing with the keys in his lap as my eyes follow where his just were, watching Steve and Nancy conversing right outside the high school entrance. I know that they'd been having issues lately, way before he came home after everything went down. I think the last thing he expected to see was his current 'girlfriend' close to her ex-boyfriend once more.

"I'm sure it's nothing, J. They went through a lot over here with all the kids, I'm sure it's just residual anxiety and worry." He smiles softly at my attempt at reassurance but his head just shakes.

"I told her about college, that we won't be together." Biting at my lip, I turn fully to face him as my brows lift in shock. It had really taken him this long? He's known about his acceptance to his local college and I know how excited he's been to be able to stay with Argyle, the one and only friend that he's managed to make other than me. But there's a pit in my stomach at the thought of him reconsidering for Nancy, someone who he hasn't had a connection with in a long time. "I guess we're not together anymore either. Steve must've heard the news." A frown tugs at my lips as I reach over, taking his hand in mine as he huffs.

"You did the right thing." With a gentle squeeze of my hand, he nods, but his face is still so sullen and sad. It breaks my heart seeing him like this. "Alright, stop pouting and let's talk about the good things!"

"Like what?" He chuckles, his eyes locked on our conjoined hands as his thumb brushes over my own. My heart skips a beat at the subtle move but I carry on anyways, my smile not dropping.

"Like how you get to stay with your best bud Argyle and your family. You'll be able to get a good education, without the stress and have plenty of time for all the stress-relieving plants you want!" He snorts, eyes glancing over at me as a smile breaks across his lips. "Or we could talk about how much you missed me." I boast, flicking my hair off of my shoulder as he laughs but there's a sense of sincerity behind it.

"Yeah..." He trails off, clearing his throat as he sits up a bit straighter to face me. "That also may have been a topic of conversation between Nance and I." He mumbles, reaching up to rub at the back of his neck. My brows furrow, eyes blinking a few times as I try to make sense of what that means.

"Me? I was a topic?" I stutter out but he just nods simply, eyes shifting to avoid mine. "You missing me was a topic- Jonathan, what on gods green earth do you mean?" I laugh, trying to break the tension that's built around us but he just stays stoic as he takes a deep breath in.

"She asked what the real reason was that I came home in the first place. If it was because I loved and missed her but..." The nerves radiating off of him makes my stomach churn as I cross my legs beneath me. "It wasn't her and that was an even bigger reason why we broke up." His hair shields his bashful eyes but I can see the red on his cheeks, red that's crawling all the way down his neck.

"Who was it?" I quiz but something about his expression, the look in his eyes as he glances up at me gives it away. "O-oh." I stumble, my hand slipping from his as I lean back, trying to process the dots that just connected in my mind. "Oh." My arms cross protectively across myself as he watches me, anxiously waiting for me to say something else than a fucking vowel.

"I wanted to tell you, uh, I tried to when I left. But you wouldn't take the note because you thought it was too much of a 'goodbye'." He chuckles sheepishly as my lips part in shock, remembering back to the day where I helped him and his family get ready to part ways.

"Fuck, I'm so stubborn." I laugh, cradling my face in my hands as he chuckles. "So it's me? You came back for me?" My finger presses against my chest as he nods, his lip tucked between his lips as he shrugs.

"Why do you say that like it's so hard to believe?" The question makes me ponder but the answer is simple. I never expected my best friend of almost ten years to reciprocate feelings I've felt since puberty.

But I could never say that out loud.

"I guess I'm just a bit shocked."

"Shocked? Not disgusted or repulsed ri-" Surging forward, my hands cup his cheeks as I capture his lips in a timid kiss. The quiet gasp that leaves him makes me want to pull away, worried that I overstepped, but before I can, his hands are on my hips, pulling me towards him as he deepens the kiss.

He's surprisingly good at this, lips slotted with mine, hands traveling from my waist, all the way up my back to press his chest against mine. It's not messy or uncoordinated but perfect as I slip away before it goes any farther. His eyes take a minute to open, lips swollen and damp as I chuckle, nervously tucking my lip between my teeth as he shares laugh, bashfully pulling me into a hug.

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[the-haikyuu-trash]

used to be my special someone. || kuroo tetsurou

author’s note: i really wanted to make a book out of this so it would be heart wrenching but i got lazy 😿 also this was inspired by this photo and it’s also inspired by my ex boyfriend because i got my heart broke 4 months ago <3 well some bits of it (especially the one month thing :D) but basically thats how we ended BUT AT LEAST I CAN USE IT PRACTICING WRITING ON FANFICTION AND LAUGH IT OFF <3

Tags : angst, hurt, break up, classmates to bestfriends to lovers to exes troupe, it won’t make you cry but you’ll understand

Characters : Kuroo Tetsurou x F!Reader , Sakusa Kiyoomi X F!Reader

Ever since first year high school, after being in the same class and being seatmates for three years straight, making memories every where they go, playing the same sports, share the humor, they instantly became best of friends.

Kuroo Tetsurou was… a special someone to (Name).

Because to (Name), Kuroo was the one who:

would listen to her endless rambles about this and that, her interest or the plot of a badly written movie which he responds with such interest, urging for her to continue since he “always looking forward to hear about her day.”

took care of her when she experienced her first break up, crying her eyes out, letting her tears fall to his chest as he hugged her tightly, promising an ice cream to make her feel better even though it was midnight.

would constantly tease her when she got one answer wrong from their quiz, telling her if she keeps falling asleep she would soon fall behind him and she has no choice to study with him— which she instantly said ��you would love that now do you?” Remembering how his face turned red when she smirked at him.

took her to the nurse’s office because she received the ball with her face when Kuroo distracted her during their practice, letting out a loud laugh as he gave her a piggy back ride, teasing her that “so much of a volleyball player” that (Name) was to embarrassed to say anything because the student are looking at them, whispering “such a weird couple”

would always checks up on her and knows (Name) like the back of his hand.

would take care of (Name).

He was the one. That’s why it was no surprised to all of them when they graduated, where he asked her to become his girlfriend, with a properly arranged bouquet and love letters (Kuroo spent so much time writing those by the way. “I wrote them evertime I think of you.” She remembered him telling her that.) making her smile so wide that it hurts her cheeks and everything seemed so perfect.

Too perfect.

That (Name) wonders where it did all go wrong? It’s only been a year in their first year college? Was it the lack of time together? Was she clingy? What was it? Her eyes that used to be so full of love everytime she saw him was replaced by sorrow and confusion and he hated that he was the reason, but there was no going back and letting the silence of the night envelopes them.

She saw this coming but refuse to acknowledged it. The short messages? The cancelled dates? Him being distant? She wished it was just her imagination, but unfortunately… it really happened.

“You didn’t… do anything bad— you were the perfect girlfriend I could ever have but… I—…” Kuroo whispers, looking down at the pavement, because he can’t look at her in the eyes with love and adoration anymore and he knows that would hurt her more.

“… you what?” She asked, (Name) didn’t mean to be harsh but she was genuinely asking because if she didn’t get her answer now, then this pain she’s feeling right now, it would just haunt her.

Taking a deep breath, he finally looked at her, clenching his fist to see her tear rolled down to her cheek and he badly wants to wipe away her tears but he holds himself back and it was painful for him to see her like this because of him. Kuroo cursed himself, that he broke his promise to her— that she could trust him.

“I just couldn’t see you in my future.” She stares at him helplessly, like she’s been slapped in the face with reality after living in fantasy for so long.

It was true. At first, he saw her getting married to him, having a life together, building a family but then the next— it feels it wasn’t right.

(Name) could feel her heart dropped to her stomach and she felt sick standing in front of the man who thought who loves her the way she does to him. She doesn’t know what to say, what to feel or what to do but she couldn’t bring herself to be angry at Kuroo, even after he breaks her heart and his promise so she musters a forced smile, trying to blink away the tears. “I… see.”

She remembers how miserable she was back in college, she went so much in her stage of grief and after hearing about Kuroo actually finding a girlfriend after a month of breaking up, God… she was a mess. Had her worth question, asking herself if he really did loved her, made her look in the mirror so many times to see what was wrong with her and it was so painful to hear what the their former classmates says about her.

“They were literally so perfect.”

“Maybe she was the problem, to see that Kuroo moved on after a month?”

“Or maybe Kuroo cheated on her?” (No, he didn’t, she thought harshly, because she knows that he will be honest with her if he did cheated. Why is (Name) still defending him—)

She was angry at herself for being so vulnerable, angry at Kuroo for making her feel this way where every night she keeps telling herself that “If I only knew how much pain I’d been in. I wish I never met you.” She cringes everytime she remembers that, (Name) admits she was being dramatic.

But soon her anger turned to nothing after years goes by, because someone picked up those pieces and put it all back together slowly and safely to the point (Name) was ready to fall in love again, and this time, there was no doubt and no hesitance in her relationship, making her fall deeper and he’s there to catch her. (their love story was something else— the whole campus knows about it too). She knew this time, she’s making a right choice and happy that faith brought them together. (Name) is finally herself again.

—

When she saw Kuroo again in the MSBY VS Schweiden Adlers match, still tall, hair still the same but so much different now, it all feels that the world slowed down when their eyes meet after years of not seeing eachother. The moment feels like the first time they met but so much more special than it should.

Even though the ex-lovers were shocked, there’s no bitterness hanging on the air and (Name) was the first one to give him a soft smile, walking towards him with confidence and crossed her arms against her chest as she stopped in front of him.

“Hey.” She says softly and Kuroo has to snap from his trance after seeing his ex-girlfriend walks in the room, still beautiful since the day he lost her.

Kuroo fixed his sleeves that was rolled up to his arms, nervousness was seeping through his bones before resting his hands on his hips to calm himself down, sending a smile to (Name). “Hey you.” He breathed out.

(Name) looks at him, there’s the note of familiarity in her eyes as she looks at him with the same sparkle when they were highschool students but so much different now that they’ve grown matured and he feels his breath hitched when he felt her eyes looking every inch of his body. He freezed up when he heard (Name)’s snort, letting him know a teasing comment was about to brought up.

“Look at you with your silly little suit, you finally made it, huh? What’s your next plan? Forcing our old players on highschool to play together?” (Name) teased and Kuroo lets out a laugh, he genuinely didn’t know if it was a laugh of relief but he knows that he’s happy to see her again. “This is the first time we saw eachother and the first thing you do is wound my heart?” Letting out a playful gasp, she turned her head and pout. “You wound mine first!”

“Oh come on, that’s not fair.” Kuroo pouted but it soon fall to a soft smile when she lets out a laugh, he hasn’t heard that laugh for years and he didn’t know he deserves to hear it again, but some God probably blessed him and he’s thankful every second that passes by. “I’m kidding you rooster, I missed you.” He felt oddly comforted by those words.

“I know you do.”

“… I’m so glad you broke up with me.” She said, giving him a rose of a brow and a teasing smile.

“(Name)! I’m kidding! I missed you too!” He opens his arms for a hug and (Name) entertained him, wrapping her arms around his body and he squeezed the life out of her, making her squeal, slapping his back lightly. “You’re gonna kill me!”

Kuroo, hates to admit it, but he missed this feeling, the warmth of her embrace that made him relax and that made his heart race just like back then, before he could even relish this moment, she quickly pulled away and flashed a wide smile, the same smile when he asked her to be his girlfriend. “I’m so glad I saw you. Because look!” She showed the diamond ring resting on her ring finger. “Kiyoomi proposed to me!”

There it is… that familiar look on her eyes, the same one she used to give Kuroo back then. So full of love and adoration.

“ah right.” Kuroo thought and a small smile appeared on his lips. He remembers the stories, that Sakusa Kiyoomi was the one who mended her broken heart, that they had the most unusual love story (just like them) that took place back then in college, and the one who’s now making her happy and love.

Kuroo Tetsurou used to be (Name) special someone.

But now, it’s Sakusa Kiyoomi that completes (Name).

It was years ago, he moved on, (Name) moved on, but it feels bitter for Kuroo because he missed her so much but when he saw her happy, finally living the life she has always wanted, made him happy.

But that doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt but he could only blame himself. Ignoring the tight feeling in his chest, he smiled like how (Name) smiled at him when he broke up with her.

“Am I invited to the wedding?”

And she happily replied; “of course!”

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