#He misses Ryuga and he’s still mourning over his death

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*Pops up outta nowhere*

*Taps mic*

Hey, remember me? I disappeared from the MFB Fandom for like *checks notes* a year?

I never posted it but this is a drawing of Kenta from when I was 15 and I decided to redraw it!

This is the result! I really liked it so I thought I'd share it! (Also because I miss this fandom)

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Still can’t think of a title for this yet, but I’ll have one soon when I finally get my Archive your Own account set up. AnywaYs, enjoy the first chapter. Triggering warning though, it does talk about heavy subjects as death, grieve, and the foreboding feeling of death. So if you’re not comfortable with that sort of stuff proceed with caution!!

Kenta was hunched over on the edge of a hill. He had been sitting there for he didn’t know how long, and honestly, he didn’t care to recall. The sun started to set, blood orange light making the water below him dance an eerie shade of crimson. This used to be the place where he and his friends would train and hang out. The good old days. Everything seemed so simple back then. There was a gaping hole inside his chest like a festering infection, slowly eating him away until he was nothing but a pile of dust and hollowed bone. He still couldn’t believe it. He put his head in his hands. His best friend was gone. It had been nearly three months since Ryuga Kishatu’s disappearance, and nobody seemed to have hope for his survival. Gingka and the others were already starting to plan his funeral. Kenta bit his lip, choking back tears. He felt so betrayed by all of them. Was it really that hopeless and he just couldn’t see it? Ryuga couldn’t be dead, he just couldn’t. Kenta saw it with his very eyes… he vanished into starlight—but that didn’t mean he was done forever! Shaking his head, fighting back tears, he kicked the ground with his heel in frustration. He wasn’t gone—he wasn’t—Ryuga would never just—

“Kenta, pal,” A voice called out from behind him.

He turned. It was Yu, his usual attire gone and replaced with a tee-shirt and jeans. His face wore a mask of pity and empathy as he stepped to Kenta’s side, sitting down next to him in the soggy grass. There was a long, sad silence between them like the mourning at a funeral.

“How are you holding up?” He asked, his voice unusually quiet and tender.

Kenta held back a choke. “Fine I guess.” He lied.

There was another pause.

“How come you weren’t with Gingka and the others? I thought you would be happy to see them again.” He queried, glancing at the green haired boy.

Kenta looked deep into the crimson water, trying to distract himself from the on slot of tears beginning to well in his eyes.

“I just needed some time to get my head on straight. I’ll catch up with them later.”

Yu didn’t seem convinced. He frowned, staring at the grass.

“We miss him too,” He said. “We all miss him.”

Kenta stayed silent.

“Gingka wanted me to ask you if you’d say something at his funeral… Since you’re the one who knew him the best.”

“Why should I?” Kenta suddenly countered, fire in his voice. “He’s not dead. He’s just missing. We all saw it—he just vanished. There isn’t a body to bury.”

Yu nearly staggered back, but he put a gentle hand on Kenta’s shoulder supportively. “Kenta—”

His sentence was cut short by the green haired boy rounding on him, his voice bristling. “He’s not gone! You’re all acting like he’s dead but he’s not gone! You hear me!”

Finally, the hurt was too much to bear. His eyes poured with tears, his whole body shaking in anguish as his voice strained to babble out heartbroken words.

“He’s not—he’s not gone… He can’t be dead, Yu, he just can’t…” He blubbered.

The ginger haired boy pulled his friend into his arms, letting his tears soak into his shirt as he held him. Kenta’s chest pounded as he gasped for breath as he sobbed, broken and defeated. He wailed, his whole heart feeling like it had been stabbed out and tore to shreds by some nasty fiend. As he cried, the realization had suddenly hit him. His best friend was dead. He was never going to hear his voice or walk in his footsteps or ever battle him again. He was gone. And Kenta was all alone.

Yu hugged his friend tight, nearly on the brink of crying himself. He wanted to say something, like a joke to make him laugh, like they had always done when they were together. But he knew that even laughter wouldn’t help his friend now. All he could do was grieve, and Yu would loyally stay beside him for as long as he needed to cry. Yu held him for what seemed like forever, but by the time he was done sobbing the sun had fallen, leaving them in the cover of moonlight. Kenta pulled away, sniffling back lumps of hot snot. He had cried so much that it had looked like Kenta had spilled a water bottle on his shirt. He was slightly embarrassed.

“I’m sorry…” He mumbled, wiping his eyes.

Yu smiled comfortingly, giving Kenta a pat on the back. “No problem, buddy. I’m happy to help a friend.”

Kenta managed a smile, but it felt strange on his lips. Yu gladly accepted though, standing up and helping Kenta pick himself up too.

“Thanks,” He said.

“No biggie. Now C’mon,” Yu said, hand on his shoulder. “Let's go home.”

Kenta nodded. “Yeah.”

In silence, the two headed off down the cold road back to Madoka’s house. Madoka waited anxiously at the door, her jaded eyes scanning the surrounding area for any sign of them. Finally, her eyes locked on to their approaching figures, and she ran up to them with a sigh of relief.

“I’m glad to see you boys got back safe.” She said, giving them a smile. It faded to a pitying frown when she looked at Kenta. “Is everything alright?”

Kenta nodded, though he still felt sad. “Yeah. I’m fine now. Just got a little sidetracked is all.”

Madoka nodded, looking down at her feet in shame. “I’m sorry if it was too much when we started talking about the funeral… I know this is still sensitive for you and we should’ve considered your feelings. I’m sorry Kenta…” her voice was soft and sincere

Kenta did his best to give a comforting smile. “… It’s alright. I’m okay now… I understand you want Ryuga to be at peace.”

The three of them looked at the ground in miserable silence as they mentioned his name. The wound seemed so raw to all of them. But Madoka gave a little shake of her head, trying to bat away the gloomy feeling. She gave a warm smile to Kenta.

“There’s pizza in the fridge if you’re hungry. You’re favorite.” She said, her voice trying to be cheery.

“No thanks.” He declined. He didn’t feel like he could even eat ever again. “I’m going to head off to bed.”

Kenta started to walk forward, but was held back.

Yu put a hand on his shoulder. “You sure you’ll be alright?” He checked.

Kenta tried to put on a reassuring smile, but his pain showed through. “I’ll be fine. Don’t worry about me guys.”

“But, Kenta…” Madoka stopped short. “alright. You can sleep in the guest bedroom tonight.”

“Thanks.” Kenta said quietly.

“Text me if you need to talk okay?” Yu offered.

Kenta nodded. “Okay. Thank you.”

Yu gave him a nod and a smile, starting to head back down the road. “I’ll see you tomorrow. Rest easy for me, got it?” Yu laughed.

Kenta chuckled. “Sure thing. Be safe, Yu.”

“Pfft—I’m always safe. That’s my middle name.” He winked as he walked away, waving to him. “Goodbye!”

“Bye Yu!” Madoka called, waving back.

Kenta did the same. “Bye Yu, see you tomorrow.”

He watched his friend walk away into the distance, and his smile faded. He couldn’t help but wonder how long it would be until Yu left him too… or maybe how long any of them had left in this world. The thought of it made him want to break down again. Madoka must’ve noticed his sad expression, because she leaned down and hugged him.

“Don’t worry Kenta, things will get better. I promise they will…” she softly spoke.

Kenta accepted the embrace, wrapping his arms around her. “I know… It just is tough right now…” he admitted with a sigh.

Madoka pulled back and gave him a motherly smile, a mist of pain within her eyes. She stood up right and started walking back to the bey shop, holding hands with Kenta. He didn’t understand the large amount of coddling everyone was giving him. It was odd. No one ever treated him this way. It was like he was a glue together piece of glass that they were desperately trying to keep together, like he would break at any second if they took their eyes off of him. Especially Madoka. She was behaving like more of a mother than ever to him. He wondered if she was lying about feeling okay too.

The bey mechanic pushed open the door and led him inside, the whole shop smelling like lemons from a cleaning they had done a few days ago. Kenta looked back at the door as it closed and noticed that the sign was flipped over to read CLOSED.

“You closed the store?” Kenta asked as Madoka led him up the stairs.

Madoka frowned. “Yeah… My dad said that we should take some time off because… because of the death. He says he doesn’t want my mental health to become too overwhelmed.”

Kenta nodded in understanding. “Your dad sounds like he really cares about you.” He remarked.

Madoka gave a fond smile, stepping onto the platform of the hallway and off of the stairs. “Yeah… He really does. He’s so cool like that.”

Madoka waited at the top of the stairs as Kenta hoisted himself up onto the platform, smiling up to Madoka. She gave him a supportive back rub as he looked up to her.

“You’ve really grown since I last saw you.” She mentioned softly.

“Yeah…” Kenta looked down at himself. His legs seemed longer; his clothes were different too. He gazed down at his hands. They were callused with time and training, reflecting the ghosts of his former life. He still had scars on his hands from foraging for food and surviving off the land as he and Ryuga traveled together. It all seemed so distant from him, like a star that he couldn’t quite touch. He knew he had been with Ryuga, but now he found himself thinking the idea as surreal. Maybe this was all a horrible dream, and he would wake up to find out none of it happened at all. At least then he wouldn’t feel so miserable. Hugging himself, he turned to Madoka.

“You ready for bed?” She gently asked.

Kenta nodded.

She led him to the spare bedroom, the door like a giant white shoebox resting against the wall. She grabbed the nob and turned it, unlocking the habitat for Kenta before he went inside.

“Call me if you need anything.” She said as Kenta stepped into the room.

“Okay.”

With that, Madoka gave him a slight nod, and softly closed the door. Kenta was all alone in the room. Moonlight streamed into the space and pooled onto the bed that laid against the wall. The room was small and empty, but it was spacious enough for him to pace around if he needed to. He walked over to the window and gazed out into the stars. It was the middle of summer, and the stars were nearly blot out by the buzzing streetlights and alite buildings in the distance. Still, he stared, trying to make out some constellations in the peaceful silence. From where he gazed, he could make out just a couple, but he stopped as he identified a third one and then gawked at it for a moment. High above him was the constellation Draco, swirling around itself as it shimmered in the sky. It was almost too painful for him to look at it. Everywhere he turned he was reminded of his best friend’s absence. It was like a shadow, tailing him, clinging to his soul like a parasite and making him feel so sick he wanted to die. He buried his head in his hands, his fingers tangled in his green hair. His friend was gone… It didn’t matter how much he repeated it to himself, it felt like it still wasn’t so. He wanted to believe that Ryuga was alive, and maybe he was just out there training in the middle of nowhere like he always did. But… Kenta had to accept it. Ryuga was gone… He wasn’t coming back… The boy stifled a whimper in his throat, tears dripping from his chin onto the ledge of the window. Throbbing pain engulfed his heart, stuffing its tubes with heavy led that weighed his soul down so much he didn’t want to move. He felt so helpless and lost in all the misery he bore that he wasn’t sure if he could really make it an hour without breaking down again. It all seemed too nihilistic now. And all he could do was cry. That night, he fell to the sounds of his sobs, praying to the universe for this death to be taken back, bargaining with invisible figures that he would do anything to just see his dear friend again and tell him goodbye.

[mikami]

Death Note Audio Drama 05

Disc 5: Exclusion Criteria - a summary / partial translation

Prior translations / an explanation as to what the fuck this is.

In this: Rem dragging Misa for like a minute before then settling into her usual ‘I’d die for her’ pattern without a single explanation. Light, Misa, Rem and Ryuk going to Space Land! L arguing with a waiter! Otherwise there is a whole lot of canon-close plotting going on.

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We begin with Rem talking to Gelus (the name used here), who is watching Misa. Gelus tells her that Misa is going to die today. Rem points out that everyone has their set time on Earth and calls Gelus out for behaving unfitting for a shinigami by mourning.

REM: What’s so special about this... Misa Amane?

GELUS: Her parents died in a break-in, but she’s tough. She’s working as a model, did you know? It’s a hard job. Every day can be a set-back, the people are judging you.... but she stands her ground and--

REM: Are you serious? She’s living off insurance money and smiles into cameras. That is a ‘hard job’ to you?

GELUS: I’m just saying--

REM: And I say, 17 years in a first world country in the 21st century. A pretty good life, if you ask me.

GELUS: I did not ask you.

REM: Get over it, Gelus, her time is up. If you don’t want to watch her die, you better look away now.

We hear the stalker approach Misa, trying to get her to die together. But then Gelus begins writing! Rem tries to stop him, but to no avail. 

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TITLE MUSIC

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RYUK: The thing with this girl is playing with fire.

LIGHT: I’ve got a few things that can burn.

RYUK: Beginning with L?

LIGHT: She can see people’s true names. I just need to make sure she meets him and she can bring an end to him. And then nobody will be a danger to me anymore.

RYUK: Her, maybe.

LIGHT: That’s something we can deal with later. Now come on. We’ve got a date.

RYUK: I’ve got no interest in Rem. Her teeth aren’t--

LIGHT: Shut up!

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The task force is sighting the security camera material from Aoyama. L’s actor still mispronounces it as ‘Ayoyama’ and he’ll never stop, it’s killing me.  L orders that Light is getting an agent tailing him again, since he was also in Aoyama.

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Light, Misa, Ryuk and Rem are on a rollercoaster!

RYUK: I’m not sure what’s up with this human idea of putting yourself into a state of fear on purpose.

REM: I second that. I feel no desire to be pulled up there only to then drop down again.

MISA: Ooh, be quiet back there! Just try enjoying the ride.

REM: Maybe it’s all about the side effect. The females can scream and hide in the arms of the males. A good excuse for physical proximity.

RYUK: How’s a bit of cuddling supposed to help when you’re crash landing?

LIGHT: Is there any way for you two to make yourself inaudible and invisible?

REM: Maybe they enjoy the anticipation of the fall... 

Light then decides to change the topic and ask Misa how she got her Death Note. She tells the story. In this version, the Death Note just immediately fell in front of Misa, rather than Rem deciding to give it to her.

The rollercoaster starts.

REM: Ryuk! Let go of my arm.

Ryuk: ‘m sorry!

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Mogi, who is trailing Light, informs L that Light has a date. 

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Misa complains the milkshakes aren’t big enough, while Light gives her Kira-related instructions for a new message to announce she’ll kill independently from Kira now and spread her powers (like in canon). 

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Ryuk and Rem discuss ferris wheels. Ryuk supposes that it’s all about getting the view, Rem points out that it’s also about couples getting privacy. 

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Light tells Misa to never disclose their relationship or anything to the police. Misa tries to ask for more dates, Light declines, everything just as in the manga. The whole ‘I’ll have to date other girls, too’ happens here as well. Light threatens Misa and then Rem threatens Light, all according to normal script.

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Mogi informs L of the fight in the burger restaurant, though he also supposes they have made up by now (Mogi: “Yeah... yeah... He just got a goodbye kiss on the cheek that I’d care massively aggressive.”) Mogi asks L who he should follows after the date. L tells him to follow Misa to find out who she is.

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Light and Ryuk discuss the situation. Nothing really interesting here except for sum-ups of the situation.

Light walks past a magazine and spots Misa on the cover of Eighteen.

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Light comes home. Sayu immediately confronts him with the Eighteen issue. There is a whole feature on Misa in it, about her hobbies and what she’d like in a man (Sayu: “By the way, I don’t think you’re here type, but whatever.”), etc etc.  Light asks Sayu to keep quiet, she asks for the money just like in the manga.

Misa drops by for a visit that isn’t really explained, since they just got off their date.

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Mogi informs L of this. 

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Light and Misa go to his room.

LIGHT: You never told me you’re a model.

MISA: Just look at me! What else am I supposed to be? A car mechanic?

LIGHT: You didn’t think to at least bring it up once?

MISA: You never asked! Which, by the way, is so typically Boy. You only talked about yourself and your great plans and your important mission. You don’t even know my favorite color.

RYUK: Blue.

LIGHT: Blue. We read the article.

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Misa’s new Kira II tape plays. L figures out that the two Kiras are in contact now. L suspects Light a little less because Kira II didn’t insist on showing L on TV and he figures Light would want that. 

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Misa and Light walk in the park. Light talks Rem into agreeing to kill L for his and Misa’s happiness.

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Matsuda brings in forensics results for the newest tape. They found a blonde-dyed hair. L informs Soichiro that Light is Kira, if he dies in the next few days. Soichiro complains about none of L’s reasoning holding up in court.

L: Calm down, chief inspector. If I’m right, I’ll be too dead to care. I hope I’m wrong, and then you can call me an amateur next Friday instead.

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L shows up at campus again. Light makes a quip about having thought L would turn to dust in the sunlight. The rest of their conversation is close-ish to the manga.They go for a coffee.

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The task force is in a surveillance van, spying on the campus. The only mention of L liking sweets is made here.

They suddenly have a stranger on their police channel, only taking a moment to figure out it’s Mogi, who is in the perimeter because he’s following Misa.

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WAITER: So here’s two coffees and the cookies. Would you also like a blueberry muffin?

L: Why would I want one?

WAITER: They’re on sale.

L: If I wanted one, I would have ordered one. 

LIGHT: Just don’t mind him, he’s not from here. 

WAITER: Not a problem, I’m just asking. 

L: No, you’re suggesting to me to order a blueberry muffin. Because you’ve got too many blueberry muffins.

LIGHT: That’s enough, L. Here.

Coins clink.

WAITER: Thank you.

LIGHT: As an apology for my friend here, who is being such an idiot.

L: Friend? I’m flattered. 

Light (sighs loudly): ... of course. Let’s just sit down here.

L: To still call me a friend after all I put you through so far...

LIGHT: Well, we’re similar in many ways.

L: Oh really?

The conversation is interrupted when Misa enters the cafeteria and approaches.

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Ryuk and Rem sit in the university’s bell tower and talk about why their respective humans are here. Misa actually has a photoshoot directly at college here.

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Misa comes by, chattering.

MISA: Don’t you want to introduce us?

LIGHT: No.

MISA: Oh, don’t be so grumpy, darling. Hello, are you a friend of Light’s?

L: You could say so. I’m Hideki Ryuga.

L gives his usual spiel about liking Misa as a model, Misa is happy and then---

LIGHT: Her fans are losers.

MISA: Darling?!

LIGHT: I’m just saying. A lot of them are really batshit. She has to keep her private life secret.

Ah, so it’s an excuse for not telling L about her earlier. L lays it on thick and calls Misa his “favourite photo model” and Light his “best friend”. Then Misa gets spotted and the usual commotion happens. The waiter offers a free blueberry muffin to Misa.

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The task force in the van can’t see anything through the commotion. Mogi can’t get close either. 

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Misa’s manager comes to drag her outside. She is called “Miss Yoshi” consistently here, though Misa calling her ‘Yoshi’ in katakana and without honorific in the manga suggests a nickname. Especially since she’s from Yoshida Productions. Her real last name is likely Yoshida.

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L gives Mogi and co. the cue to arrest Misa. It’s kind of silly because now they all act like they have this defined plan involving Mogi? When earlier Mogi’s presence in itself was a surprise.

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L goes to grab some cake, Ryuk comes into the coffee so Light has someone to talk about his plans to. Light tries calling Misa.

L talks to the waiter again.

WAITER: Okay, so two cheesecakes, one more coffee, would you maybe like a---

L: Look at me. Do I look like I do?

A phone rings.

WAITER: Are you going to pick up?`

L: Hello, darling. I can see who’s calling. Light, I know it’s you.

They briefly argue about how L got the phone, L informs Light of Misa’s arrest.

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Misa on her photoshoot. We hear the cameraman give her directions for a while. Then the team suddenly swoops in to arrest Misa. They somehow publicly say she is arrested for  “resistance against the state, blackmail, and a conspiracy with the goal of killing people” and read her her rights. 

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Rem comes to Light to blame him for Misa’s arrest and tell him to fucking fix it. 

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There is an absolutely strange segment here of Soichiro talking to Yoshi, about Misa’s arrest. Yoshi strongly protests it, keeps pointing out that Misa is a minor, generally wants to know what Misa is even arrested for. She seems to have a small hunch that Misa is arrested for being a Kira suspect.

I’m not bothering to transcribe this scene though, since Yoshi literally never appears again after it, so this scene is just entirely pointless.

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Misa in her cell. She’s panicked. Nothing of substance is said.

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L talks about Misa’s containment position with Matsuda, since an audio drama listened can’t see it. 

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Misa begging to be killed, wohoo. Rem talks her into giving up the notebook.

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Light buries the Death Notes in the park and hands one to Rem. She flies off.

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Misa lost her memories and now refers to L as a stalker. He is confused. It’s the same as the manga, really. L interrogates again.

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Light handed himself in to the police. He has an official interrogation by Mogi, which Soichiro angrily interrupts, but Light continues testifying. The actual testimonial is alike to the manga.

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Soichiro accuses L of driving Light mad, but eventually consents to Light being put under arrest, under the condition of also being under arrest.

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Ryuk complains about boredom in the cell. (”Repeated attempts at getting Light to play ‘I spy with my little eye’ were grandiose failures.”) Ryuk just narrates dramatically to relieve his boredom.

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Watari wonders how to punish Kira, if Light really has a split personality. How to punish Kira and reward Light, when they’re in the same body? 

L just wants to proceed according to plan and Watari just... “We’ve got a plan?”

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Ryuk snuck out to eat an apple and came back, because he can’t stand being in the cell anymore. Light gives up the Death Note, finally.