#He looks like a goth babe but he is a barbie on the inside

[dasmondkuss]

Curiosities about Spring:

- He is a vegetarian.

- He wouldn't drink coffee for any reason in the world. He dislikes everything about it.

- He goes by He/Him only because that's how gender was explained to him, but gender is a weird experience for him. Somewhere between idgaf and wtf.

- He wears uniquely black. You won't even find a dot of another color in his clothing. Perhaps a bit of grey and that's because the fabric has worn out.

- He loves the falx, but he can properly use most swords. He works as an online instructor under HEMA (Historical European Martial Arts Alliance)

- A nice night of sleep... What is that? He sleeps poorly and wakes up several times. He has to stretch every day for his body to feel alright.

- He doesn't enjoy candies or sweets in general. He eats exclusively dark chocolates and fruits when he wants a snack.

- This is the guy you call to fix something at home, and this is the same guy you call if you want to crochet.

- He wears eyeliner quite frequently.

- He is withdrawn and awkward, but if you hit him up with a conversation you'll see how he gets comfortable around you in a matter of two sentences.

- He will politely refuse any conversation regarding religion.

- He can't help himself whenever there are boots in front of him. He must buy it. It's a whole heartbreak experience when the store doesn't have his size.

- He's never been in love and doesn't believe in it. But he's dated here and there, and he's been gentle and caring every time. Has it led him to some problems? Absolutely.

- If he makes a mistake he regrets, he will compulsorily write 'Forgive me' in a pocket notebook he can't leave his home without, or else he will turn to alcohol.

- He hates wine.

[no-no-no-ahhhh]

I'm having bad anxiety so I'm just going to answer these questions rn

Okay so when having anxiety I over think and I barely have any friends so I thought if using these questions to keep my mind off things and it kinda works it's also why some are long because I'm trying my best to think about other things then my stress. Maybe some of yall can try this if you want. Could help idk

Questions belong to @tr33-g1rl

1. coffee mugs, teacups, wine glasses, water bottles, or soda cans?

Soda cans

2. chocolate bars or lollipops?

I LOVE chocolate bro

3. bubblegum or cotton candy?

Cotton candy because let's all be honest bubble gum doesn't even tast good so that just leaves texture and cotton candy dissolves abs you could always have normal gum

4. how did your elementary school teachers describe you?

Some would say nice hard working smart and dyslexic but that's what they say not actually think

5. do you prefer to drink soda from soda cans, soda bottles, plastic cups or glass cups?

I've never really had the soda bottles but for now Ig soda cans because I feel like it keeps it fresher then the plastic and plastic is bad

6. pastel, boho, tomboy, preppy, goth, grunge, formal or sportswear?

Umm out of all these ig tomboy my style that I try to go for more rn is kinda like bille eyelash baddie style

7. earbuds or headphones?

Def earbuds cuz headphones if left on too long start hurting and squeezing my head

8. movies or tv shows?

TV shows 100% I cant consum media for long (my anxiety)so cartoons are the best for me because they're usually 11 minutes and light hearted

9. favorite smell in the summer?

Hmm this is good question in my head summer looks so good ahh but I've never really had a sent for it cuz the past few years I've been in my room but I love the sun oh and you know when your about to go in the pool and you can smell the Clorox mixed with the sun block and that smell just smells like a soft nice energy and there is this one tropical sent havent really smelt it in years I remember the one time I got to smell it was in middle school in the girls locker room so ig it was a perfume idk if it was really associated with summer or it was just tropical perfume my mom could spray on anytime of the year

10. game you were best at in p.e.?

Lol none I hated p.e I was also pretty tall at the time so people expected me to play but I just wanted to hide in the corner

11. what you have for breakfast on an average day?

Well I don't really like breakfast that much I think food in the morning makes me nauseous but I have to eat it cuz I can't eat school lunch food cuz that shit is nasty but breakfast school food is 😉 so I usually get banana bread and good ass duch chocolate milk

12. name of your favorite playlist?

Por Vida is one of my favorite albums if that counts

13. lanyard or key ring?

I hate things being around my neck so key ring

14. favorite non-chocolate candy?

Mexican candy

15. favorite book you read as a school assignment?

The outsiders

16. most comfortable position to sit in?

Your butt relaxing ig and not hunched over idk how some people do their work not hunched over like how do you see what your working on

17. most frequently worn pair of shoes?

These white Adidas with 3 halo strips and tan boots

18. ideal weather?

To wear you can soak in the sun but not have it burn you right when you go outside and kinda breezy not a fan of the cold and whatever weather that isn't effected by global warming is the best

19. sleeping position?

I always try not to sleep on my back cuz then they say that the demons come for you

20. preferred place to write (i.e., in a note book, on your laptop, sketchpad, post-it notes, etc.)?

I have a lot of journals and books to write

21. obsession from childhood?

My little pet shops, barbies, fnaf, teen titans, monster high dolls, beanie babes, never brats or the ever after high dolls cuz I had a fear of big heads as a kid

22. role model?

Em their are not many people to look up to these days but Quenlin Blackwell is even though she struggles with depression and seasonal depression she still is a qween love her

23. strange habits?

24. favorite crystal?

Hmm maybe amethyst one of the only ones I have

25. first song you remember hearing?

No idea

26. favorite activity to do in warm weather?

Be in the sun

27. favorite activity to do in cold weather?

Not have the seasonal depression come for me

38. lemonade or tea?

Lemonade bro tea is kinda weak and for BrItish blocks , but today I did have a bunch of lemons and they got me sick cuz I dont have a healthy balanced diet if anybody knows simple healthy recipes that have little to no cooking pls share

39. lemon cake or lemon meringue pie?

I've never actually have had lemon pie but I have been thinking about making pie. I've had peacon pie and water burger apple pie and McDonald's apple pie and I think another fast food pie but I can't remember the flavor. I know the other flavor exist because my mom order a different pie flavor from me once and she said we can both try each others. Maybe it was lemon. I think lemon tast is quit forgettable thow idk I always put other things on my lemon and lemonade has all that sugar and speaking of Britain I think they carbonate their lemons . But I think I've only had lemon cake 2 times , so if the cake

40. weirdest thing to ever happen at your school?

School is lame and that's on period pooh

41. last person you texted?

Umm this girl I barely know and I'm going to leave it at that cuz this story makes me kinda sad and worried and I'm answering these questions to avoid that

42. jacket pockets or pants pockets?

Hmm good question , I think jacket because they are bigger and girl Jean's have the pockets different to make the booty look better and sometimes that leads to uncomfortable pockets and front pockets barely exit for girls and jackets sometimes have those secret pockets only you have assess too like the ones on the inside and jacket pockets are bigger

43. hoodie, leather jacket, cardigan, jean jacket or bomber jacket?

1. hoodies are good for when you dont have a bra on and they come with one BIG pocket and you dont need to worry about a shirt

2. Leather jackets are for cool kidz and carry a nice vibe and still thick enough to keep you warm , but you can't really get them wet I think so you can't wash em , but they can come with cool designs on the back but their better fitted on perfectly on a person and if you grow they just look odd on you then you have to buy another and that's not fun

3.Bomber jacket , it's a whole style but one I try to pull of but just cant do it well

4.Cardigans kinda umm not a fan but good if your wearing a dress that's shows your shoulders and you are insecure about that being shown. Remember when somewhere in the 2000s they told us that cardigans where so easy to put on and throw more into your outfit so people bought quit a few. I do

5.I feel like jeans jackets aren't warm enough maybe their more for the summer?

44. favorite scent for soap?

Hmm maybe something tropical or just those cool lavender ones that have oats that's cool I like oats in my soap

45. which genre: sci-fi, fantasy or superhero?

I hate sci-fi uhhhg and super hero kinda ties in with that so fantasy and when reading fan fic just sweet simple domestic fluff

46. most comfortable outfit to sleep in?

Hmm not sure but the shirt has to be soft. I only experience soft shirts like that few times in my life

47. favorite type of cheese?

Mexican cheese and blue cheese uhg and mozzarella with that crust, yum🤤

48. if you were a fruit, what kind would you be? Errrum maybe a watermelon cuz they are very hydrated. Oh and watermelon with the big black seeds is better then that soul less watermelon

49. what saying or quote do you live by?

None dawg I really need to find one but I do have a lot written down In a book

50. what made you laugh the hardest you ever have?

Omg my aunt had some funny looking ass dogs I couldn't stop laughing. One of her dogs hate me tho now

51. current stresses? I dont want to talk about it cuz I dont want to worry but I was crying for more then 6 hours probably 8 when I think about it and then today as well and it's so bad I'm not even going to school

52. favorite font? I like the one kali uchis uses in one of her albums I think it's called fairy tell or something

53. what is the current state of your hands?pretty dry cuz I wash them alot and kinda long nails cuz of genetics

54. what did you learn from your first job?

I havent had a first job

55. favorite fairy tale?

Hmmm something with the tooth fairy

56. favorite tradition?

Idk holidays cuz I get school off

57. the three biggest struggles you’ve overcome?

Depression and I would say anxiety but no

58. four talents you’re proud of having?

I dont have any talents

59. if you were a video game character, what would your catchphrase be?

Uuuuyg idk too stressed to really think that I dont even know what type of video game I would be in

60. if you were a character in an anime, what kind of anime would you want it to be?

nothing stressful maybe something calm like a farm anime, some light magic, pokemon things like that

61. favorite line you heard from a book/movie/tv show/etc.?

I was never ment to live life like a sim - megan the stallion

62. seven characters you relate to?

Anybody with anxiety, kinda pearl from Steven universe, the nerdy part of dipper from gravity falls , Roman from sander sides if virgil too sense he has anxiety okay and that's all I can think of I think early I said I dont really watch media or stuff so yeah

63. five songs that would play in your club?

Gosolina kali uchis songs and bank account that's all I can think about rn

64. favorite website from your childhood?64. favorite website from your childhood?

Y8 brooo oh and there was Disney or Nickelodeon websites you know that show with the hands and they had the googly eyes they had a g as new for that loved it and for Disney they had zack and cody games on their website and it's not a website but the one thing on windows that would work without wifi you know and you could make cakes and give them faces and try matching the cards

65. any permanent scars?

One time a cat scratched me more the like 8 years ago and I can still faintly see the mark

66. favorite flower(s)?

The one that grows on the cactus

67. good luck charms?

I know a rabbits foot is one and 4 leaf clovers,and markipliers flannel. I sadly dont have any personal good luck charms

68. worst flavor of any food or drink you’ve ever tried?

I don't want to talk about bad foods rn cut the cameras

69. a fun fact that you don’t know how you learned?

idk I think I can vaguely remember every facts orgin that I know

70. left or right handed?

Basic right handed but my dad used to be left but then the school forced him to be right

71. least favorite pattern?

Anything 80s uhg that shit is disgusting and terrifying

72. worst subject?

Chemistry but I just got out of that so that's fun

73. favorite weird flavor combo?

People day hot cheetos and sour cream is odd but I like it . I would wat some rn but I think I got sick cuz of my poor diet so I'm not. Someone pls suggested simple easy foods for your girl who can cook

74. at what pain level out of ten (1 through 10) do you have to be at before you take an advil or ibuprofen?

1 I am big baby

75. when did you lose your first tooth?

I dont know

76. what’s your favorite potato food (i.e. tater tots, baked potatoes, fries, chips, etc.)?

Tater tots are good and fries

77. best plant to grow on a windowsill?

Idk no green thumb

78. coffee from a gas station or sushi from a grocery store?

Idk ig coffee

80. earth tones or jewel tones?

Jewel tones

81. fireflies or lightning bugs?

Theirs a difference?

82. pc or console?

Console it's just simpler

83. writing or drawing?

Uhhheg ig drawing I'm bad at grammar

84. podcasts or talk radio?

Podcast, podcast are just more plans out then talk radio and talk radio is a morning thing and I'm not the biggest fan of mornings

85. fairy tales or mythology?

Fairy tales mythology kinda ruff ya know

86. cookies or cupcakes?

Cookies their just more sturdy and their is always normal cake

87. your greatest fear?

Tooo many things and I'm having an anxiety attack right now so like no

88. your greatest wish?

Well it's cute and all idk to live peacefully is one part the other parts a secret for now

X.o.x.o gossip girl ya know ya love me

89. who would you put before everyone else?

Umm maybe myself Idk

90. luckiest mistake?

One time my mom ordered a foam sord for my brother and a real one came. It was some anime sword

91. boxes or bags?

Bags cuz they look cute and you can take em every where with you. Disposable I would have to say boxes tho because its less damaging to the environment

92. lamps, overhead lights, sunlight or fairy lights?

Sunlight is so warm and it fills something inside of me makes me feel cozy

Lamps are great for when sleeping and your scared of the dark

Fairy lights are cute but are they neccessary

Overhead lights are good for when you just need light in your life

Am I the only one who gets sad and sometimes cant clean if it's dark in the house?

94. favorite season?

Summer I think. I know it's harder for me to function in the winter cuz depression but then summer is anxiety sometimes ya know

95. favorite app on your phone?

Littetly no idea I don't really love/like the things on my phone if their more distractions or time wasters but I do love how I can search up useful things on YouTube to try to calm down my anxiety and I was definitely not a fan of tumblr at all but I kind have made it my safe place a bit

96. desktop background?

Well the computers my dad's so it has deadpool on i

97. how many phone numbers do you have memorized?

Barely 2 ,I am kinda a dummy sorry unggv

98. favorite historical era?

Well idk heehaww cowboys?

[ghoulluck]

She had never noticed the color blindness until she couldn’t see people through her left eye. It was a strange new development in her condition and Julien experimented frequently out of curiosity. The world was a dull grey scale with a selective blindness related towards people. Julien shut her right eye as she started her descent down the water slide. Through her left eye, she could see cars driving themselves and things normally held by hands holding themselves up through some mysterious force. What kind of blindness was so strange in nature? The selective eye was also changing. It was becoming filmy and cataract ridden, yet it didn't seem to be loosing any vision in addition.

She crouched as she picked up speed on her skateboard. “Watch out.” The whisper was so low it jolted her, but the thing she saw out of the corner of that selective eye was more frightening then anything she had seen. Before, the spirits had been distorted, like a fuzzy television screen that refused to pick up signal. Now, this thing was as crystal clear as the people she saw with her right eye.

The collision was so hard, Julien could only register the concrete that she hit afterwards. She exhaled softly as she rolled to her side. Her head throbbed and she could see the great expanse of concrete in her left eye. In her right eye, she could see the goth girl from the parties she went to struggling to sit up.

Julien couldn’t will herself to move. Her limbs were heavy and she felt both cold and warm at the same time. Ryan’s shadow loomed over her as the goth girl moved to be at her side and she was cussing something fierce under her breath that Julien couldn’t quite hear.  She had only gotten a cuncussion once before and this experience was very similar. The world warbled like the inside of a sea shell, the woosh of blood inside of her ears was rising and Ryans words were harder to hear with each passing second. “Don’t move.” The blonde closed her eyes, her fingers unwittingly gripped at Ryans arm as she leaned over Julien.

What was happening? The urge to sleep was making her eyes heavy. She fought it some to force herself to sit up. The concrete felt like an ocean instead of something solid. “Can’t hear–” she tried to say, but her speech came out garbled. Had she hit Ryan first then the concrete? The feeling of wobbling increased and she had to lay back down.

Antoly turned when he heard his cellphone start meowing. “Babe, can you get me that?” He asked as he toweled his hair from where he stood at the mouth of the room. Hart glanced around quickly for the phone before finding it on Antoly’s side of the bed. The Russian noted the caller id. It was a funny picture of the blonde mimicking Adolf who looked rather offended at her. He swiped right and tucked the phone against his ear.

“hey baby girl, what’s–”

“uhm. .”

The voice on the other end of the line was definitely not julien. “You’re her nurse?” His stomach sank as he quickly started to dress despite his damp skin, “yeah, where is she? And who are you? She okay? Is she breathing? Is she having a seizure?” The barrage of questions left Ryan gaping at the blonde for answers.

She had urged Julien to stay put. There was blood on the concrete and streaming down her face. Adolf’s paws danced anxiously on the concrete as the goth felt the pressure, “uhm." Ryan boiled it down to what was more important. "Not sure, she hit her head on the concrete? She’s bleeding.” The goth opted out of her involvement. She had expirienced worse.

Antoly hissed as he put on his shirt. Hart worriedly watched the Russian pace back and forth before deciding to get his medical bag for him.  “Okay, turn on her location. I’ll be there as fast as I can. How bad is the bleeding?” Ryan grimaced, “She looks like carrie right now?” It wasn’t like the blonde was gushing blood exactly, but it was enough to spook the goth. She could hear the man exhale on the other line. “Okay, keep her awake. Okay?” He immediately clicked the phone off and the blonde blinked tiredly as she took the phone back.

She croaked something and adolf came to her side to sit vigilantly with his ears pointed and turning to hear for the slightest sound. “He said I have to keep you awake and turn on your location?” Julien seemed to dimly register the words as she swiped across her phone. The blonde was eerily calm which Ryan chucked up to the smack to the concrete.

She watched frenchie scroll through social media before opening her camera app. She watched Julien observe herself with one eye closed and then the other. “Can you see okay?” The left eye was hazy with forming cataracts. That was probably the wrong question to ask. Julien nodded as she slowly pushed back her bangs. On her forehead was a nasty scar that ran from her eyebrow to her hairline that looked indented as if she had had hit a corner or something. The blonde grimaced at the sight of the scar and turned her head to look at her temple. It was bloody with road rash. Ryan glanced it over. It was bad, but not as bad as she thought it would be. It would probably scar although she doubted she would ever see it as Julien fixed her bangs and her hair so it wouldn’t be seen. There was an awkward sitting silence before Julien forced herself to sit up again. It was easy to see she was in a great deal of pain.

Ryan looked around. The skate board was broken in two. Her own headphones were broken as well and the screen of her phone was cracked more then it had already been. The only truly upsetting part was that her not even half eaten cheese fries were currently wasted across the concrete. Ryan shrugged these things off as she scratched at her neck roughly before noting there was blood on her fingers. “Bleeding too,” Frenchie’s soft accented words reminded Ryan she had also sustained a good hit. A dull thudding started to emerge and whatever adrenaline she had was wearing off. Ryan touched her face and Julien grimaced. “What? You’re bleeding too.” In fact, blondie was bleeding into her white shirt. Her knees were scraped up, her hands her elbows, but some of julien’s looked old or at least not quite as fresh.

“Black eye,” Julien commented as she squeezed her eyes shut to wave off the nasuea. Ryan shrugged. Kickboxing was a good way to excuse a dead beat douche’s fist. Adolf’s wet nose touched julien’s cheek as he sniffed her over. “Okay,” she reassured the dog who gave a low wine. Suddenly, his ears were pointed and the girls could hear the roar of an engine not too long after. Adolf began to bark wildly circling the girls before julien grabbed the dog to hug him to her. The voice that followed it sounded more like a dad then a nurse. “What have I fucking told you about that skate board? You’re gonna break your damn neck on it.”

Antoly was tall and blonde like julien. The teenage girl shrank some at his voice as she hugged Adolf tighter. The dog was apprehensive and he growled at antoly for raising his voice. “Oh shut up. You’re worried too,” he told the dog as he put his bag beside julien and squatted down. “Lemme see baby girl.” Ryan watched the way antoly so expertly pushed away the blonde’s hair without so much as touching her forehead. There was a grimace as he lightly glazed his eyes over the scar. “Okay, I’m gonna take you to get a cat scan.” She watched Julien nod and then the man approached her.

“Hey, you're uh-- his kid?” He omitted Indy's name out of politeness. The dark eyed man was a tender subject. Ryan squinted at him sideways. She imagined him with a man bun and with a very strangely pretty man before she clicked her tongue. The goth didn't bother to correct him. “Yeah.” He squatted down in front of her, “how’s your hand by the way?” He reached her her head and she jerked away out of instinct. “I’m fine.” Antoly pursed his mouth before springing up. "Well, you ain't, so you and barbie get your asses in my car. Come on baby girl." He gave Julien his hands and helped her up.

The dog didn't seem to be a very big fan of Antoly. He came around to Ryan, delicately put his teeth into one of her shirts and tugged her hard enough to drag her across the cement. The goth was too tired to fight. She piled into the back seat with Julien and the dog.