#Have fun reading my unreadable shit ig

[kevyeen]

They say be the change you want to see in the world so I let the parasites take over

https://archiveofourown.org/works/62074027

[izzyy-stuff]

GIRL FRIEND - CHOI SOOBIN

bf!soobin x fem!reader

in which your relationship with your boyfriend starts breaking into pieces as his girl best friend tries to get between the two of you, and for the first time in your relationship with Soobin, you start feeling insecure.

wc 4.1k

warnings angst, pet names, established relationship, featuring an oc Amy as Yeonjun's girlfriend and oc Dae as Beomgyu's girlfriend, soobin has a female friend called Micha, Soobin does mess up a lot, kinda misunderstanding ig(??), there's a few (a lot) texting parts but I was too lazy to make an actual fake text so hopefully it's not unreadable

↪ izzy speaks... rewrote one of my old fics again from my Wattpad acc. You can find the story from Wattpad here. I wanted to give you guys something to read while I work on other stories so you don't have to wait too long, so here it is :))

You had been sitting in the restaurant for more than twenty minutes already, trying to decide if you should leave and cry yourself to sleep or call him. Honestly, the first option sounded better. You didn’t even want to hear from him anymore. 

Still, you found the courage and unlocked your phone, opening your contacts. You called once. No response. You called for the second time, letting it ring longer. Still, no response. You could feel the anxiety building up as the phone call went into the mailbox, your boyfriend’s voice echoing in your ear as the pre-recorded line told you to leave a message, promising something about him trying to reach back to you soon. 

Your mind was a mess. Did something happen to him? Was he okay? Should you call the hospital and ask if he wasn’t there? Or was he completely okay and just decided to ignore you? 

While your mind was full of thoughts, your phone buzzed with a few new messages, making you come back to reality. 

Soobie boobie luvie <3 

[ 19:46 ]

Soobie boobie luvie <3 Hii baby, what’s up??  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I am sorry, I can’t pick up the phone rn  [ you ] Oh  [ you ] What are you doing?  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I am with Mi  you Micha?  Soobie boobie luvie <3 Mhmm  Soobie boobie luvie <3 She and her boyfriend had an argument  Soobie boobie luvie <3 So she asked if she could come hang out for a bit  Soobie boobie luvie <3 We’re rewatching jjk  [ you ] Oh Soobie boobie luvie <3 Love are u okay?  [ you ] Yeah sure  Soobie boobie luvie <3 You don’t sound too fine  Soobie boobie luvie <3 Do you want to come here too?  Soobie boobie luvie <3 You could sleep over Soobie boobie luvie <3 I have cookies  [ you ] No, I'm good [ you ] Have fun :))  [ you ] I think I might ask Yeonjun or Beomgyu to hang out  [ you ] Maybe they could come to my fav onigiri place with me Soobie boobie luvie <3 Sure <3  Soobie boobie luvie <3 Call me later?  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I love you lots    [ you ] Mhmm

bestiesss <3 

[ 20:12 ]

[ you ] Is anyone free rn? [ you ] Please [ you ] Or I might cry [ you ] For the plot ofc ✌️😙 Jjunnie Girl are you good?? Kaikai What’s going on?? Ams Babes why are we crying Jjunnie Where are you?  Jjunnie At least turn on your location so I can come pick u up with Amy [ you ] You don’t need to pick me up [ you ] I just want to hang out withsomeone  Gyu (rat) Can’t text Soobin??  [ you ] He might or might not be the reason why I want to cry so no  Ams What did he do Imma beat him up [ you ] You don’t need to haha [ you ] Enjoy your night with Yeonjun :)) [ you ] Kai, are you free?? Kaikai Yeah sure I can be whenever soon Gyu (rat) I am coming too 😙😙 Gyu (rat) To annoy the shit out of you and makeyou laugh <3 [ you ] Love you guys <333

It took less than ten minutes for the two boys to come into the onigiri place. Good thing they were open until nine. You smiled, moving your stuff away from the chair beside you so they could sit down comfortably. 

“Okay, girl, give me the gossip,” Beomgyu proclaimed immediately as he slid into the chair next to you. Kai simply sat on the opposite side, his eyes as curious as Beomgyu’s. You sighed, taking out your phone again. “Just look at it. I’m going to order another piece to make myself at least a little happy,” you proclaimed, trying to sound as jokingly as possible, but you knew you weren’t doing the best job. You opened the chat for them before standing up from your chair, smiling at them once more to assure them you were fine when you saw the look on their faces. “Wait, put it on my card,” Huening proclaimed, reaching into his pocket for his wallet. “You don’t need to,” you shook your head, but before you could even blink, you had his card in front of you. 

“Aww, you love me!” Beomgyu exclaimed as if he were alone in the shop. You hit his shoulder immediately. “That’s what you got from the conversation?” 

“Well, I just saw that you want to hang out with me, so of course,” he grinned proudly, making you roll your eyes. “I am sorry,” Kai said, pity in his voice. “It’s all good. You guys are here now instead,” you smiled, trying to make it as genuine as possible. 

“Okay, but on a serious note–” Beomgyu started again, making you raise your eyebrow. Those were words you couldn't ever imagine coming from his mouth. “Shut up,” he glared at you before you could say anything about it. He knew exactly what you were thinking. “I knew he was an idiot, but this is another level of idiot. You even mentioned this place in the texts. He could have figured it out. I don’t know. I wouldn’t ditch my girl for a different hoe,” he said proudly. 

“You don’t need to talk about how great of a boyfriend Dae has again,” Kai stopped him before he could open his mouth again. “Just saying,” Gyu shrugged. 

“Yeah, I wouldn’t ditch him either,” you mumbled, taking a bite of your new onigiri. “Why don’t you just text him you had plans? Maybe he would come after all,” Huening suggested, but Beomgyu simply shook his head, deciding to answer instead. “Why would she want a boy who needs to hear he shouldn’t hang out with a different girl when they have plans.” 

“Exactly,” you nodded. “And he is already with her. What would he do? Kick her out? I don’t think so.” 

“I am going to text him,” Beomgyu stated suddenly, making both you and Kai look his way, your eyes widening. “Don’t, oh my fucking god.” 

“No, trust me. I’ll either prove that he is an absolute asshole or you’ll get your date.” 

“I don’t think that’s a good idea–” Huening tried to stop him, but when he saw Beomgyu already taking out his phone, he just sighed, exchanging a glance with you. 

Soob :]  

[ 20:37 ]

Gyu :] Dude what are you doing  Gyu :] And omfg you better not bring up fucking Micha again   Soob :] Okay hello to you too??  Soob :] Since when do you have a problem with her??  Gyu :] Since like now  Gyu :] Why am I the one hanging out with your GIRLFRIEND instead of you?? Soob :] She said she wanted to hang out with you what are you talking about  Soob :] I told her she could come to my place and sleep here  Gyu :] Just stop talking and come here  Gyu :] shared location Soob :] I am with Micha rn tho  Gyu :] Is she more important than your girlfriend??  Soob :] No??  Gyu :] Then get your ass here  Soob :] I can’t just leave her here  Soob :] And you’re with her right now  Soob :] You can still drop her off at mine when you guys are done talking though??  Gyu :] Omfg you really are an ass  Soob :] What did I do??? 

“Okay so we came to the conclusion that he is an ass,” Gyu sighed, dropping his phone on the table, getting a headache from him. It didn’t matter to him that Soobin was his best friend. If he was being stupid, Beomgyu wasn’t going to be on his side. Especially when he knew his girlfriend didn’t deserve it at all. 

“Whatever,” you sighed, not even daring to raise your head and face any of the two. “Do you want to go buy a chocolate? Or ice cream?” Kai suggested, feeling sorry for you. “No, I'm good. Can anyone drop me off, though? I took a taxi here because I thought he would take me back later.” 

“I got it,” Beomgyu proclaimed, glancing over at Kai. “Want me to drop you off at Amy’s?” 

“No, no, I am just going to go home. She’s with Yeonjun anyway.” 

The three of you sat in silence the whole car ride. Even Beomgyu, who went there with the thought of cheering you up, was too scared to say anything. He was worried his jokes could make you feel even worse. 

You hugged Kai goodbye as you stepped out of the car, smiling at them and thanking them for coming to see you. But your smile dropped the second you heard the car driving off, feeling your eyes watering. You didn’t want to cry. It was just a stupid date, after all. But you couldn’t stop your tears, no matter how much you tried. 

You quickly wiped your tears off, looking at your phone again, deciding to call him. 

“Hey, love,” he greeted you immediately, and you could hear the smile on his face as he said it. You smiled a bit, too, greeting him back. “Are you still with Micha?” You asked, unlocking the front door of your apartment. “She left a few minutes ago,” he answered. “Are you coming home now? Can I come by? I want to see you.” 

You thought for a while, closing the door behind yourself. “I am kinda tired. Maybe tomorrow?” You suggested, dropping off your coat in the hallway and going straight into your room. “Ah, sorry, I already promised Micha we would hang out, and before that, I have work. I can come sometime after dinner, though? We could watch something.” 

“Right,” you mumbled, putting the phone on speaker and throwing it onto your bed so you could get changed into your pajamas. “We’ll see, I guess.” 

“Hey, Soobin,” you started again, making him freeze for a moment when he heard his first name. It might have been the first time he heard you call him Soobin since the day he asked you to be his girlfriend. He was always Soob, or Soobie, not Soobin. “I’m going to sleep now, but can you check our shared calendar later?” 

“Mhm, of course,” he nodded, still trying to figure out what he did for you to call him Soobin. “Good night, baby. I love you.” 

“I love you too,” you said, hanging up right after. You jumped into your bed, staring at the ceiling for a while, sorting all your thoughts. Eventually, when you saw Soobin blowing up your phone, you turned it off, getting up again to do your hygiene before going to bed. 

Soobie boobie luvie <3 

[ 21:24 ]

Soobie boobie luvie <3 BABY I AM SO SORRY  Soobie boobie luvie <3 PLEASE  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I know I fucked up Soobie boobie luvie <3 I should have remembered  Soobie boobie luvie <3 Oh god I should have come right away when you called me  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I am so so so sorry  Soobie boobie luvie <3 Please answer :(  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I’ll come over, what do you think? Soobie boobie luvie <3 Please love  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I swear I didn’t mean to  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I can tell Micha we can’t hang out tomorrow and take you out instead

Soobie boobie luvie <3 

[ 07:56 ]

Soobie boobie luvie <3 Love :((  Soobie boobie luvie <3 Please answer me  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I want to talk to you  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I can come on my lunch break  [ you ] Soobie it’s fine  [ you ] I made plans with Amy after our call last night so you don’t have to cancel any of your plans  [ you ] We can just see each other later :)  Soobie boobie luvie <3 It’s not fine at all though  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I’ll come by on my lunch break, yea?  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I’ll get you flowers  Soobie boobie luvie <3 And something good to eat too Soobie boobie luvie <3 I swear I am never going to forget about our date again alright?  [ you ] Okay :))  [ you ] I love you soob <3  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I love you too my love

♡⸝⸝

bestiesss <3 

[ 17:45 ]

Ams Never  Ams And I mean NEVER  Ams Trust a man  Jjunnie HEY  Ams You’re a liar too so shush  Jjunnie :(((  [ you ] I just don’t get it [ you ] Am I not enough anymore?? Ams That’s it I am coming to beat his ass  Gyu (rat) Can I watch  Dae<3 Boi  Gyu (rat) Yes my love 😍  [ you ] Fuck you :((  Gyu (rat) Hey I didn’t do anything  [ you ] You don’t act like that with her when I am not around [ you ] You just want to rub it in my face :(  Dae<3 Actually he does act like that nonstop  Dae<3 But hey that’s just because he is a weirdo so don’t mind him  [ you ] Okay great now she’s on his story  Jjunnie Wtfff  Jjunnie I should kick his ass too  Jjunnie Why the hell is he with her again

unknown 

[ 17:54 ]

unknown Heyy girlieee  unknown Micha here :))  unknown I am with Soob right now and I saw him trying to call you so I am just reaching out because he looks really sad  unknown I don’t know exactly what you did to him but maybe next time think about him too yeah?  unknown He wanted to ask you to join us but I don’t think that’s a good idea  unknown After you’ve been so bitchy and you know  unknown He told me before that he couldn’t see me because of you?? Like that’s some mad controlling behavior  unknown Good thing I can just cry a bit and he comes running to me  unknown Anyway, there is no need to come here  unknown We are having a great time without you

bestiesss <3 

[ 17:58 ]

[ you ] Okay stop she is texting me now Gyu (rat) Hope she khs 😙  Dae<3 GYU  Gyu (rat) I wish her the worst <3  Ams Give me her number ASAP  Jjunnie Alright now she pissed of Amy Jjunnie she really is getting the worst

Soobie boobie luvie <3 

[ 18:04 ]

[ you ] Soobin I can’t anymore Soobie boobie luvie <3 Wdym??  [ you ] This  [ you ] You can’t even type it out anymore??  [ you ] And her  [ you ] Why are you bowling with Micha when we were supposed to go out today??  [ you ] When you texted me it was an emergency and that you couldn’t make it today I thought something bad happened but turns out you just want to be with a different girl  Soobie boobie luvie <3 Love it’s not like that  Soobie boobie luvie <3 You know she is just a friend  [ you ] Is she??  [ you ] Why does she get to see you more often than I do then??  Soobie boobie luvie <3 Come on you’re overreacting now  [ you ] Am I??  Soobie boobie luvie <3 Baby just… Soobie boobie luvie <3 Wait a bit  Soobie boobie luvie <3 We’ll be done soon and I'll come to see you so we can talk about this okay?  [ you ] No not okay  [ you ] Remember when you told me you felt insecure about my relationship with Ryan before you found out he is gay?? I feel the exact same way  [ you ] But you don’t listen to me at all  [ you ] Last week I asked you not to go to lunch with her but you went anyway  [ you ] Then I wanted to come over  [ you ] But you were too busy listening to her troubles  [ you ] And now you are ditching me for her again  Soobie boobie luvie <3 Baby it’s different  Soobie boobie luvie <3 You would listen to Amy too if she got into an argument with Yeonjun  [ you ] I wouldn’t lie to you about it tho??  [ you ] And definitely wouldn’t go if I knew it made you uncomfy  [ you ] Soobin this is not the first time I’m bringing it up to you  [ you ] And respectfully tell her to stop fucking texting me or I’ll be rude  [ you ] She has no right to talk to me about my relationship 

Soobin glanced over from his phone at the girl in front of him. She was laughing at how badly she threw the bowling ball before she looked at him again, telling him it was his turn. “Did you text my girlfriend?” He asked, her smile suddenly dropping. “Well, yeah,” she shrugged. “You’ve been looking like someone died this whole time, so I just let her know you called. And that if she doesn’t want to show up, it’s fine, too, since we are having so much fun.” 

“Mi, this is none of your business,” he proclaimed, his voice suddenly stronger than she ever felt, angrier. She gulped, her whole body tensing from nervousness. “I’ve been sad the whole day because I miss my girlfriend. Which, by the way, is kind of your fault.” 

“I’m…sorry?” 

“Whatever,” he sighed, his fingers running through his hair. “You feel all better now, no? I need to go see her now.” 

“Wait– but what about–” she tried to stop him, even grabbing the hem of his shirt, but he just shook her off. “We are not like that, Micha. Do not touch me ever again.” 

“But I thought…” she started, letting go of his shirt when she saw the look in his eyes. She fucked up. “You were so nice to me. And that night when my boyfriend broke up with me, you–” 

“I hugged you. Like any friend would. It was nothing more than that and never will,” he interrupted her. “For fucks sake, I have a girl who I love with my whole heart, what were you even thinking??” 

“I don’t know! Maybe that you were having a hard time too when you were with me so much! I thought you liked me!” 

“Well, I don’t.” 

She stared at him for a while, trying to reach for his hand but he dodged her, not even looking back and walked away, leaving the bowling alley soon after when he grabbed his stuff. 

“You should not be calling me right now. I am on your girlfriend’s side in this,” Yeonjun proclaimed when he picked up Soobin’s call. “I know, I know, I’m team girlfriend, too. Always. So please, help me not lose her while I can still save it.” Yeonjun sighed. “Alright, what is your plan?” 

♡⸝⸝ 

It might have been the worst night you ever had. Tightly holding onto your pillow, your back against the wooden headboard, with a box of ice cream on your night table as you let tears run down your face, you couldn’t even think properly. Your mind was full of the happy moments you had spent with your boyfriend, making you smile, until you remembered how he laughed with Micha. You felt terrible. Terrible for not seeing it sooner, and for being so delusional and thinking his eyes were on you only. 

You didn’t even notice the night turn into another day as you sat on your bed. But as you saw the light peeking through your window, you knew it was time to come back to the real world. You had work to attend. You still had your daily life to live. 

So, in order to concentrate and do that, you decided it was for the best to ignore all his calls. 

You never hung up on him. You waited till it stopped ringing, watching his contact name disappear again as a new voicemail popped up on your screen. You didn’t open any of his messages, turning your phone off for the rest of the day when he started spamming you with texts during your meeting. 

It was for the best to ignore him. 

You tried to convince yourself, but every time you had a free minute at work, your eyes wandered to your phone, wishing for his name to pop up on your screen again. 

You needed to do something. Yell at him, cry, or even just hug him. 

But it felt like it was too late for that now. 

As if you had fucked up everything you could. 

♡⸝⸝ 

You sat on your bed again, scrolling through e-shops while waiting for Yeonjun to come over. He called you not so long ago, saying he was taking you out. You tried to refuse at first, but he wasn’t giving up, so it was eventually you who gave in. You haven't heard anything from Soobin since the afternoon, and honestly, it was stressing you out. You really needed Yeonjun to come and get your mind somewhere else. Somewhere where you wouldn’t need to think about the handsome giant Soobin was. 

But Yeonjun thought differently. 

“Where are we going?” You wondered, looking out of the car’s window. “Coffee shop,” he finally admitted, stopping at the red light in front of him. Your eyes widened as you looked at him. “You’re taking me to get coffee? Stop, I love you.” He laughed, shaking his head at you. 

Yeonjun parked his car in front of his favorite café, getting out of the car first so he could help you out. You simply smiled at him when he opened the door for you, jumping out of the car and looking around the place. You thought you tried out every café shop possible already, but turns out this one was still an exception. 

“Thank you. For everything,” you smiled at him as he locked the car’s door. “No need,” he shook his head. “Go inside and order something nice. I am going to call Amy real quick, okay?” You nodded to him, not saying anything else, and simply walked into the café. 

That was when you saw him in the corner, a cup of coffee already in front of him. You sighed, glancing outside at Yeonjun, who was mounting for you to join him there. You took a deep breath before turning around again and walking towards the table of two the black-haired boy occupied. 

“Hey,” you smiled a bit, catching his attention immediately. 

“Hey, love,” he smiled, his smile making you melt almost immediately. He moved the cup of iced coffee closer to you as you sat down before glancing at Yeonjun outside, exchanging some looks with him. 

“What’s this?” You asked, taking the cup of coffee and taking a sip right away. 

“I needed to see you,” he proclaimed. “Soobin,” you breathed out, the nervousness in him building up with each second. “Wait, let me talk first, please.” You calmly nodded to him, shifting in your place to sit more comfortably. “You can scream at me all you want after or do whatever you feel like in the moment, but let me just say a few things first.” 

“So, first of all, I blocked her. Everywhere. And I know it doesn’t apologize for anything I did until now, but I wanted you to know. She said something about thinking we were more than just friends earlier, so I turned her down immediately. I told her not to get close to me again and that I love you. I am so sorry for not seeing it before and doing things I shouldn’t. I wish I could change everything. I never wanted to make you uncomfortable and make you feel like I did. I just…, I don’t know,” he breathed out. 

“I don’t have any excuses. I know I behaved like an absolute asshole, and you have all rights to be mad at me and even break up with me if that’s what you want to do, but I hope you don’t because I have no idea what I’d do without you,” Soobin started talking faster and faster, making it almost impossible for you to understand what he was saying. Yet, you found your lips curving into a smile as you listened to his chaotic yap. 

You sat silently during his speech and even a bit after he finished, eventually reaching for his hand on the table. “I don’t want to break up with you,” you assured him. “I just…I don’t know either, if I am honest,” you sighed. “I am glad you cut her off, though. I don’t want to sound like I don’t want you to have friends. That’s not it at all, but I simply… felt so insecure when I saw you two together,” you admitted. “I felt like I wasn’t enough,” you whispered. 

“Love, you are more than I deserve,” he assured you. “I promise I won't ever make you feel like that again. And if I do, for whatever reason, tell me immediately, and I will do everything I can to change it. Nothing is more important to me than making you comfortable.” 

“Okay,” you nodded, smiling. “Let’s just go home now, please,” he said, squeezing your hand in his. “Let’s do that,” you agreed, standing up from your place and leaning towards him. 

In that moment, with your hands intertwined and your lips gently pressed on his, you felt like the whole world stopped spinning for a moment. As if it was just the two of you in the café, both nineteen again, as you kissed for the first time, confessing your love to each other. His kiss made you forget about everything bad that ever happened between you, leaving only the happy memories. 

“Let’s go home, Soobie,” you mumbled against his lips, smiling as he breathed out in relief. Only then did you realize it was always you and your boyfriend against the world until the very end.

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Pairings: Bakugou Katsuki x fem!Reader, Izuku Midoriya x NB!Reader

Warnings: some angst, FLUFF, and our boys being the best boys.

In which they comfort you after a rough day or week

A/N: im sorry if Izukus section is shorter than Bakugou’s. trying to practice writing other characters. enjoy!

Saturday's are reserved strictly by the majority of the girls from class 1-A, leaving the guys to hibernate inside their dorms as they allow the commencement of girls night. You've never rain checked nor rejected the idea of spending  quality time with your friends, considering all the tribe's and trepidation's everyone has endured together during their time at the academy. It's nice to just strip away the stress and dip your toes in pure relaxation.

Unfortunately, you woke up with a bad case of cloudy thoughts. For the past week you've been carrying the weight of dread, causing your mood to drastically change throughout the day. You'd be having a civil conversation with someone one minute and then the next minute you're completely irritated by their presence. You've tried to balance it out and fix it overnight with the regimes you researched on the internet. A new sleeping schedule, healthier diet, yoga, and even went to the extreme of writing in a journal. It was all so cut throat and prestigious, nothing close to your liking. Katsuki made fun of you for it one day when he snuck into your room and read the many inscriptions in your journal entries.

"This stuff reminds of Deku. Always shoving his nose in that stupid notebook of his," he didn't care much to hear your refutes about Izuku. "Anyways, what's with all this depressing shit you are writing? You don't really feel this way do you?"

You didn't give him a definite answer that day. Only a curt "no" and he resumed rambling about his day like nothing happened, having you listening with his voice like white noise going in one ear and out the other.

And that's how it went on throughout the duration of the prior week before Saturday.

Inside the confinement of your dorm, you made the rational decision to sleep in instead of attending classes. The chilling thoughts kept you up all night, never once allowing sleep to take full throttle. You tossed and turned around on your bed, unable to shut off your brain. So when you woke up in the peak of late afternoon, you weren't surprised to see the unread messages on your phone. All of them were from your explosive boyfriend.

King Explosion🤍: Oi you running late? Mr.Sleepy head is taking roll call

King Explosion🤍: y/n where tf r u?

King Explosion🤍: fine don't answer me ig

King Explosion🤍: are you at least coming down for lunch? i made curry last night and imma make you finish it

King Explosion🤍: fking hurry before dunce face eats it

King Explosion🤍: nvm he ate it 😐

Katsuki never intended for the message to be funny. He's probably blowing actual steams of smoke through his nostrils and ears while chasing kamanari amongst the halls. The comical imagery made you laugh harder. At least he made you crack a smile. You haven't shown any emotions let alone a hint of enthusiasm for tonight.

Maybe it'd be best to sit this one out.

"Hey, we're missing a person! Where's my y/n?" Mina asked after scanning the group of girls huddled around on the carpeted floor.

Momo shifted uncomfortably on the cushioned pillow she stole from the couch. "Y/N said she wasn't feeling too well to join us for tonight. Something about food poisoning and throwing up every hour."

In unison all the girls gasped, along with a concerned 'ribbit' from Tsuyu.

"Well I hope she gets to feeling better. I wouldn't want her to endure such sickness for much longer," Tsuyu croaked out.

Everyone in the circle agreed and promised to pay a visit later in the night to check on you.

On the fourth floor, Katsuki stared blankly at his phone, hands shaking due to the repressed anger he's been holding. Each of the messages he sent previously were all left on read, including the one he sent an hour ago asking if he could have a cuddle session with you before girls night. Yes, even an ill tempered guy such as him enjoys sappy shit like cuddling. After pacing back and forth in his room for a solid 5 minutes, he was now dead set on confronting you in front of your friends.

Katsuki made a beeline for the elevator and aggressively pressed the 1st floor button repeatedly in hopes it'll make the process go quicker. He reached the commons area in precision time, overhearing the girls giggle after someone suggested playing truth or dare. He towered over Uraraka's figure, casting a demonic shadow version of himself in the circle. Hagakure shrieked and clung onto Jirou.

"Where's y/n you extras?" He demanded, voice deafening the brunette under him.

"She didn't come tonight. She's in her dorm room sick," Jirou explained to him as she tried pry the invisible girl off her arm.

"Like hell she's sick!" Katsuki spun around quickly and retreated back to the elevator, mumbling obscenities under his breath. "She's going to pay for being so careless and irresponsible."

The commons room fell silent once the explosive blonde disappeared behind the doors of the elevator, all eyes searching each other in complete shock. Uraraka was the first to speak out of the small group.

“Should we warn y/n that Bakugou is coming for her?”

Jirou averted her gaze to the direction bakugou left off from, a ghost of a smirk spreading on her face.

“Nah. Knowing y/n, she can handle the asshole on her own.”

King Explosion🤍: can i come over? i wanna cuddle, i miss u

The text message kept flashing behind your eyes every-time you closed them - a sad image of Katsuki waiting impatiently for you to reply back with a heart or one of those unusual memes he unapologetically adores. You knew he’d be furious, no doubt about it, but you rationalized your decision and concluded it would be best to avoid your boyfriend like the plague till this undesired feeling dissipates. Katsuki doesn’t do well with people being emotional, let alone handle his own emotions for god’s sake.

Your own thoughts were interrupted by someone raping the outside of your door. The continuous knocks made your head spin, a painful sting ghosting back and forth between your eyes. Remembering back to an hour ago, you messaged one of the girls that you weren’t going to make it to tonight’s session. Surely they respected your wishes and continued on with their hangout? But you forgot about the one person who’s persistent and stubborn like a cat.

“I know you’re in there y/n! You may have fooled your idiotic friends with a lie, but you keep on forgetting you’re terrible at lying!” Katsuki hollers against the wood of the door, not once being considerate of those living above her.

He’s right. You’re absolutely horrible at making up excuses for yourself. Dating someone as intuitive as him will be the death of you.

“If there’s something going can you at least let me in? You can’t ignore me forever y/n.”

Again, he’s right.

You slipped out from the comfort of your bed and padded towards the door, mentally preparing for the blonde to scold you once he enters your room. What you weren’t prepared for was the tears swelling up in the ducts of his vermillion eyes - his hands clenched tightly into fists as he looked down at you. Your breathing hitched when his arm outstretched to rest on the door frame to keep his trembling body steady.

“What the hell y/n? Why the fuck have you been ignoring me?! Did I do something wrong?!” He asked, not caring about his current appearance.

You grab ahold of his other arm and absentmindedly started rubbing it affectionately, trying to coax him into calming down. “Katsuki no! You didn’t do anything wrong! Why would you think that?”

“Because dumbass, you’ve been distant this past week,” he paused, choking on his words. “Are...are you breaking up with me?”

Your eyes shot up instantly at his horrifying assumption. “Katsuki, if I tell you the truth, will you promise not to make things worse for me?”

He tilted his head in confusion, but nodded once you led him into your messy bedroom. Once inside, your boyfriend plopped down on your bed, watching intently as you anxiously bit down on your nails - a nervous habit you picked up at the beginning of the school year.

“I’ve been feeling weird lately. Ever since the beginning of last week. I don’t know how to describe it but, my brain is constantly feeding into my already negative state. Telling me things I know aren’t true but I’ve convinced myself they are. Almost as if a grey cloud is hovering above me,” tears were already starting to pour down your cheeks. “I just...I just feel so miserable and lonely and useless and irritated and- I’m so sorry for ignoring you. You probably want nothing to do with me after this!”

You manage to turn away from the sight of the blonde during your speech, ashamed of pouring out your emotions onto a person who disregards other peoples emotions and constitutes them as a quote on quote “pussy”.

From behind, you can hear faint shuffling nearing your already shaken up figure. A pair of muscular arms wrapped around your waist, pulling you into a wall that could only be described as his own chiseled chest, doing the same as you did moments ago with his arm - lulling you to calm down a notch before he stared speaking.

“If you been feeling this way, why lie when I asked you a few days ago after reading your journal?”

“I know how you are, Katsuki. You get very uncomfortable when people talk about their feelings. So, why should I be any different?”

Your boyfriend suddenly maneuvers you around in the circle of his arms, shifting to where you’re now making direct eye contact with him. His gaze intense and unwavering.

“Because you’re my girlfriend? I don’t give a rats ass about any of these extras. When it comes to you, I’d make an exception for. I made that promise to myself when we first started seeing each other. So don’t think for a second that I’ll disregard your true feelings, dumbass.” He stepped a couple of inches backwards, ankles eventually hitting the bottom of your bed - making him fall and dragging you along with him. You landed on top of him, head still buried in the depths of his hard chest. The vibrations of his chuckle shook your whole body. Katsuki gently titled your head to be leveled with his, a red tint of blush painting his pallid cheeks.

“I’m being serious though. Don’t be afraid to come to me when things get tough, okay? I love you too much to see you like this.”

Next thing you knew your boyfriend stole your breath away by meshing his plump lips onto yours, hands snaking their way into your hair and carefully massaging it. By all means, you let him have his way with you by kissing the sadness away, tears puddling together cheek on cheek.

He let go eventually, pecking a quick chaste kiss on the side of your mouth before hauling you further into the bed. You settled on letting him spoon you, knowing how much he likes the feeling of your backside pressed against him, and the fruity aroma of your hair infiltrating his senses.

“I promise Katsuki,” you said after some time during the cuddle session.

He shifted in his spot, head placed firmly in the crook of your neck. “Promise what?”

“That I’ll come to you when these thoughts return again. I should trust you by now, and I need to not let these emotions ruin everything in my life. I love you that much.

Your confession swelled the very last evidence of Katsuki being a human being, his heart.

He smiled weakly to himself and nuzzled more into your shoulder, brushing his warm lips against the tender skin. “You better, dumbass.”

-

Today was just so exhausting, and the big fat 'D-‘ written in red ink on your final report was the icing on the cake. To make things even worse, Aizawa reminded the whole class before the exam that this was to determine wether or not if you'll be joining the training camp that'll commence the following winter break.

Hopefully this was one of your teacher's terrible deception tactics into making everyone do their absolute best, go plus ultra even. But to your dismay, he was indeed very serious of the matter this time.

It wasn't your fault, not entirely. You stayed up all night listening to another one of your boyfriends rambles, the conversation lasting till 2 am. Izuku grew worrisome and anxious ever since his encounter with a gruesome villain, thus resulting in him to pour his emotions out onto you. Poor baby kept mentioning the safety of All Might and you.

Solemnly, you left class and trailed back to your dorm room, wanting to ignore the jovial atmosphere inside the cramped room as everyone traded and talked about their scores.

Izuku noticed you leaving abruptly and got up from his desk to follow you behind, bidding a quick goodbye to his friends.

Your room was dark and dramatically colder than usual, a trickle of light threatening to pour in from the cascading sunset. You laid down on your stomach with one of your pillows propped on your head, in hopes to shield away anyone from seeing your ugly-crying face.

Too late because Izuku was already standing outside your dorm room, swaying back and forth on his feet while biting down harshly on his lip. He can hear your soft cries seeping through the door. He doesn't know why he's hesitating, he's your boyfriend after all.

Moments later you hear the acute sounds of someone knocking on your door, followed by the soft spoken voice of your green haired boyfriend.

"Baby? Can I come in? I-If that's okay with you I m-mean! It's alright if you need some space but you left class so early I figured something happened to you and I got really worried because you always wait for Iida and uraraka to walk us back to the dorms as a group and maybe it had something to do with what I was telling you last night-."

You crack the door just a smidge before fully opening it, revealing your bloodshot eyes and tear stained shirt to him. His breathing hitched once his eyes fixated on your disheveled state. 

"Can you comfort me? I need you right now Izuku," your voice cracked a little, throat still tight after the crying session.

His strong, lean arms wrapped around your body momentarily, encasing you into a bear hug. Hugs from Izuku were amazing, no exceptions. He placed a quick peck on the crown of your forehead.

"C'mon, let's get inside and snuggle. How does that sound?" he asked as he unwrapped himself and took your trembling hand, leading you back inside the dimly lit room.

Izuku laid you gently down on your side once reaching the bed, crawling alongside with you before  draping the covers over the both of you. His familiar hands snake around your waist and nudges you to roll over. You obliged and shifted your body to face his, sparkly green eyes staring straight at you.

"Tell me, what's wrong baby? Does it have to do with the recent exam?" his thumb started tracing delicate lines on your hips, your uniform long gone and now replaced with comfortable clothes instead.

"I failed Izuku...I did so terrible on the written exam. I kept falling in and out of sleep during the test that I didn't have time to finish the middle portion of it," you exhaled a shaky breath. "Who knows what'll happen on the practical. I'll probably fail that too...I'm such a failure compared to everyone."

Izuku grabbed the tender flesh of your cheeks and directed your vision to level with his. He looked angry and concerned.

"Don't say that y/n! You're not a failure! That exam doesn't determine wether or not if you're good enough to be a hero. I've seen you in action hun, and I know for a fact that you're possibly the most strongest person I've met in my lifetime! You're ambitious, smart, determined, and so freaking beautiful." He then kissed you tenderly on the lips, his eyes closing slightly due to the contact.

"So...freaking...beautiful." He whispers against your mouth.

His sentimental words were enough for you to push back the negativity and simply enjoy the intimate moment.

Izuku lifted his head away from your face to rest it against your temple. "You're going to do great things, okay? One failing grade isn't going to be the end of the world. Trust me sweetheart, I've had my fair share in failures during our time here in Yuuei. But look at me now, still standing."

You nuzzled more into his chest, tickling his chin with your hair. Faintly, you can hear the pitter patter of his heart beat bursting through his rib cage.

"Would you love me even if I was a horrendous looking-failure?" you were clearly teasing him, but sometimes Izuku became dense when it came to that.

"Y/n! W-Why would you ask that! Of course I would you dummy! I'd love you no matter what."

This time you return the favor and kiss him, knowing how to easily fluster him in seconds. He whimpers into your mouth at the sudden contact and cups your jawline affectionately.

The two of you stayed like that till the moon shone through the balcony curtains, illuminating your skin in a dusty glow.

Lips bruised and swollen red, you laid lifelessly in his arms, letting him wove his scarred fingers through your hair. Izuku would occasionally stop to peck your lips, then resumes his attention back to your hair.

"I'm sorry by the way. I shouldn't have kept you up last night before the exam. I'm such a horrible boyfriend..." he admitted suddenly.

"Yes. Yes you are."

He gasped and stopped his movements altogether, obviously taken aback by your blunt words.

You giggled and said, "Kidding. You're the best boyfriend. Apology accepted.”

After hearing that, Izuku shoved himself onto your chest and let out muffled cry. "D-Don't scare me like that. Almost made me have a heart a-attack!"

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #246

(song lyrics here idc)

What is the most you’ve ever eaten in one sitting? I don't know. Probably too many slices of pizza back when I could kill pizza if I was hungry enough. How often do you skip breakfast? Rarely. What’s the longest you’ve gone without leaving the house? A couple+ weeks, probably. Where are you going the next time you go out? School. What kinds of things are likely to make you cry? Reunions of like any type, seeing things (esp. animals) in pain, if my feelings are deeply hurt, deaths... stuff like that. Really nothing unusual. What are some things that make others cry that don’t make you cry at all? Hm. I dunno. I'm sure there's something, but I'm unsure. If you drink/smoke, how often do you do these things? I don't smoke, and I'll ever only have like a drink or two on some holidays or for my birthday. What website do you spend the most time on and why? YouTube because it essentially replaces television for me. What’s the most amount of time you’ve spent online? Is this usual for you? Oh my god don't ask me this. What is one belief you used to have, but no longer do? In what ways are you influenced by the opinions of others, if ever? The one I disdain the most was being homophobic up to my late teenage years. I wanna curb stomp that ignorant fucking kid. I wouldn't say I'm influenced by other's opinions on things very much. What was the last thing to make you feel good about yourself? Drinking water lmao. How would you describe your overall (or preferred) personal aesthetic? My friend recently described me as a "gothic lolita" and y'know he's onta something. What kinds of small judgments are you likely to make about others? *Small* judgments? Uhhhh... God why am I blanking on surveys so much lately. What was the last thing you did mostly because society expected you to? Shower, 'cuz I seriously wasn't feeling it but needed to anyway. When was the last time you felt out of place? I had to babysit my nephew on my own early last month and I felt like I was in a different universe. I felt so, so unfit in the position and just all-around uncomfortable. I love that boy to death but babysitting is noooooot my thing. Do you believe in aliens, spirits, or angels of any sort? Yeah. Well, not "angels" by true definition, no. In what ways are you superstitious? I'm not. Where was the last place you went walking and how far? Would you rather exercise alone or with other people? Like, for fun? Not since I was at Sara's. I DO NOT like exercising in front of other people at all. What kinds of nail polish colors do you prefer to wear? How about makeup? Black is the entirely superior makeup color. How would you describe your own relationship with makeup? It's just for fun for me when I actually feel like it, and even that's rare. I usually only put makeup on for some pictures. Who has been in your life the longest amount of time? What about the shortest? My mom the longest, and my school teachers the shortest, I guess? Who was the last person to leave your life? How about return to it? My fucking therapist that deserves my fist through her face. Return, uhhhh yeah I dunno. It might be Sara, and that was yearsss ago. When it comes to travel, what kinds of places intrigue you most? Wildernesses, especially with mountains, rivers, waterfalls... that kind of stuff. Do you think humans colonizing Mars is a good idea? Would you go, if you could? No. Focus on the goddamn planet we're already on. If it was a life or death situation, I'd go, but otherwise, I'm staying here and at least trying to patch it up. What is the farthest you’ve walked in one day and what made you do it? Oh, many miles, I'm sure. I used to walk for literally hours out in my yard at night with my iPod. That was so common for me. Funny how now I'm recovering from muscle atrophy in my legs. Do you have a chore/housecleaning routine or anything like that? A "routine," no. How organized would you say your living space is? The house is currently a travesty. What is something important that’s often on your mind lately? Success in school. Do you find it easier to forgive yourself or others? Others. Have you ever had to call 911? For who/what reason? Yes; Mom thought she might've been having a heart attack. Thank fuck she wasn't. Do you like oatmeal? If so, what kinds of things do you like in it? Oh yeah. It's like a regular for me now that I'm big time trying to lose weight. I like the apple cinnamon one. What was going on the last time you felt nostalgic? Thinking about that walking question. How much attention do you pay to the movements of the stars and planets, and do you believe they influence anything? The most non-Pagan belief I have is being void of this one. No. When was the last time you were afraid to tell someone something? Heh, speaking of being (mostly, ig) Neo-Pagan. Classmate and I were doing an assignment getting to know each other and she asked my religion. She was a serious Christian and was clearly SO uncomfortable when I awkwardly answered lmao. When was the last time something didn’t go the way you expected it would? My disability case hearing just a week back. I expected to be way, way more terrified, shaking even, and was prepared for an intimidating judge. Just in general I was afraid of it being "court-like" and with a lot of people, but it was okay. I think having my attorney there was crucial to my (relative) calmness, though, because I was comfortable with and liked him. What is the most difficult or involved video game you’ve ever played? Most difficult that I ever tried, Dark Souls. Quit that waaaay early. Hardest that I've beaten, I honestly think The Legend of Spyro: The Eternal Night. Don't even @ me w/o trying it yourself 'cuz that game was so fucking hard to where I rage-quit for years until beating it. I did play it a second time for fun, though. Still hard. Most involved, oh, easily World of Warcraft. Years of effort put into too many characters la;ksdjfawoei Have you ever taken lessons for anything? Yeah; dance for a very long time as well as guitar. What’s your favorite band’s name? Well Ozzy goes solo. Btw I nearly died when I heard the Parkinson's news wtf life how dare why him- Who is your last sent text to? My mom. What’s your favorite flavor of Gatorade? I do noooot like Gatorade. What does your bikini look like? Oh hunny I'm barely comfortable in a one-piece. Do you drink the milk after you finish cereal or just leave it in the bowl? I can almost never drink it. The taste is just changed and is usually gross. Have you ever worn glitter eyeliner? No, yikes. Imagine that getting in your eye. Has anyone ever called you a hippie? I don't think so. Did you have any unread texts this morning? No. Have you ever been involved in strength training? No. Who is the last person you kissed? Sara. Have you ever been to a pottery painting store? No. Are bonfires common with you and your friends? Not at all. I don't think I've ever done that with friends. If you’re really quiet, what is probably the reason? I'm thinking about something intently. What does your boyfriend/girlfriend call you? N/A How much does the last person you kissed mean to you? A whole lot. Do you use lotion? If my skin is particularly dry. Have you ever used a sewing machine? No. Is hairspray a staple in your morning routine? I've never regularly used it. Do you believe in teenage love? Fuck yes I do, I can promise you that. When is your favorite TV show on regularly? It's discontinued. Who is your favorite person to waste time with? Sara. What has been the most significant thing to happen to you this year? Well, it's the first day of February, so I'll imagine you're asking about the past year, in which case I went back to school. What kind of kid were you when you were seven? Happy, weird, kinda hyper, outgoing and goofy. Do you always eat those mints you get at some restaurants? Yeah, if they're not the semi-soft ones that kinda melt in your mouth. Ew. Is there a subject you know so much about that you’d be able to teach it? Sure, but nothing like seriously important. Do you believe that being ‘cultured’ is important? Why or why not? I mean, probably if you travel. It's definitely wise to try to act at least semi-"appropriately" in another country. Where did you purchase the computer you’re using right now? Best Buy or Office Depot, idr. Do you think it’s fair to compare Family Guy to The Simpsons? I don't care? Will you miss CDs if they end up going obsolete? Why or why not? Not really, I just don't care. If you could relive one hour of your life so far, what would you choose? I don't have a clue. Do you think animals have a sense of humor? Probably. Animals can definitely act silly. Are you proud of your hometown, or do you try to distance yourself from it? That place is shit. Has your idea of the perfect romantic partner changed with age? Oh yeah, to a degree at least. I had such a fairy-tale ideology on love back then. How many cars have you ever owned? Myself, zero. Can you do math in your head well? I almost can't at all. What’s your favorite flavor of potato chip? Oh man, that's hard. Maybe salt and vinegar. Do you ever read the weather forecast? I mean I'll check the app on my phone occasionally. Do amusement park rides make you sick? Thus far in my life, no, but I'm too afraid to try some out of fear of that. Who is your favorite Star Wars character? Don't even like SW. What kind of cheese do you put on your sandwiches? American. What radio station do you listen to the most? None. Who was the last person to give you a gift? A family friend for Christmas. How old were you when you got your driver’s license? I'm about to be 24 and still don't have it. What was the first thing you ever learned how to cook? Scrambled eggs. Did you ever collect beanie babies? Maybe? I know I had one big one (me and my sisters had a matching set of different colors; mine was pink, what a shocker), but idk if I actually collected them. When was the last time you got a haircut? Early last month. Have you ever been to a bachelor/bachelorette party? No. How many people can you say you TRULY love? Romantically? Two. Platonically, a whole lot. Where are you most ticklish on your body? My feet jfc. Have you ever bailed anyone out of jail? Nope. What’s the last board game you played? Shit, what's it called. Something with my nephew. It's the one with the popping dice in the middle and four different colors to move around the board. "Sorry!" or something? Have you ever given someone a fake phone number? Might've when stupid kid me made prank calls. Do you have any bumper stickers on your car? No. Do you leave good tips when you eat out at restaurants? I've never been the one paying. Do you still own any VHS tapes? I'm sure Mom has home videos stored somewhere. If there was a real Jurassic Park, would you visit it? Oh fuck yeah 'cuz I'm dumb and love dinos. Have you ever gone golfing? Not legit golfing. Do you know any sign language? No. How many friends do you have that are married? Close friends, like people I still regularly talk to, none. Do you still have your wisdom teeth? Yes. Did you have a swing set in your yard when you were a child? Yes. Do you eat your mac & cheese with a fork or a spoon? I don't really care so I haven't noticed which I usually use. Where did you have your first kiss? His bed. When you were a kid, were you ever afraid of cooties? Lol no. Do you ever go Christmas caroling in December? No, I could never omg. Which overrated tattoo are you sick of seeing? I don’t care. Get what you want. What was the last thing you taught a younger kid? Apparently to say "aw shucks" at everything lmao. Are the clocks in your house mostly digital or analog? Digital. We have on analog in the living room. How long have you had your television(s)? God, years. A loooong time, but it's a fine TV. Do you like watching movies made with CGI or do you prefer hand-drawn ones? I tend to enjoy CGI more. I like realism in what I watch. Where did your parents buy their car(s)? Dad, idk. Mom got hers for free; a dance friend ran into a deer, so the front bumper got fucked up, and she wanted a new vehicle. Mom took it because shit, it was drivable, and she DIY fixed up the bumper to make sure it stays in place. Literally with zip ties and duct tape lmfao but HEY it WORKS. Do you know why your grandparents chose your mother’s name? No. Do you think you’d do well at teaching the English language to a foreigner? I think I'd be at least decent. What is a store you like that is exclusive to your country? Idk what's only exclusive to the country. If you attend school, what time do you usually get home after? Like, 4:35 or so. Mom finishes her field work at 4, and afterwards we go home. Have you written a resume before, either for yourself or someone else? Yes. What is your favorite thing about snow? IT'S PRETTY. What do you usually do when you have trouble sleeping? Try to go back to sleep at first, and if I really can't, I get back up on the laptop for a while. Are you satisfied with your social life (or lack thereof)? NONONONONONONONO. What TV show do you just assume you wouldn’t like? 13 Reasons Why. Do your friends have more money than you? lol duh I make none. Who always has the power to make you feel intimidated? Pretty much men as a whole...