#Hard To Say Goodbye

[horizonspurple]

Song sharing Sunday

'It's hard to say goodbye Oh, I tried couple million times Missed a million signs'

[bloodyroseart95]

My heart is broken from losing my best friend yesterday. I watched him take his last breath through a screen since I couldn’t be by his side. I’ll love and miss him always 💔💔💔

I hope you and your little brother are rolling in the grass and eating treats together and being loved cuddled and kissed by god since I can no longer do it myself 💔💔💔😭😭😭

[amphibianaday]

Taking a break from amphibianaday soon and may or may not return

Day 1821 is coming up soon, marking half a decade of amphibians! After day 1821 I will be taking break to re-evaluate if I'm still drawing because I want to or because it's become a habit. Between fulltime work and hrt turning me into some kind of extrovert I have a lot less free time now. I guess I'm figuring out how I want to spend it?

I don't want to promise any kind of return but I also can't quite commit to deciding to stop for real yet. So. I'm waiting until day 1821 so I can end on a good milestone if I don't decide to keep drawing! :D

a bunch of personal soppy thoughts about it below if you're curious!

It's been part of my life for so long, it's hard to imagine not drawing every day now. But my life is in such a different place now than it was when I started, in so many different ways. When I started I was living with my parents, working a part time job I hated, hoping to study to become a game animator. I had only barely figured out my gender situation after years of questioning and denial. Since starting this blog I have:

come out as trans

got accepted at my dream school

changed my legal name

moved out

realized I didn't want to be an animator actaully

fell in love with rigging and programming

graduated and started working as a professional technical animator

started HRT

got top suregery

Kind of wild to think about how drawing amphibians has been with me quietly in the background through all this. I'm sort of moving away from bein An Artist™ (at least professionally), but drawing all these amphibians so far has been awesome and improved my art so much. I've made lots of art I'm really proud of!

Alos gotta take this time to say a Huge thank you to anyone who has ever said something nice in an ask, dm, reply, tag, etc. I read and treasure every kind message and it's always made my day to hear my art has brightened someone else's, or been an inspiration :)

See you in 2025!

[grapejuicegay]

7.01 Abandon Ships

7.10 All Fall Down

[ahappydnp]

got sooo sad all over again hearing them talking about the plan to end dan and phil in 2018. like it was obvious and we knew but god. i didn't want to believe it then

i just can't cope with knowing we almost didn't have this

[nekky-nek]

Will I ever recover from Xemnas saying to be human must take incredible strength? No. No I will not.

[prettysweetprettysweet]

I fondly remember all my emotions I felt after I had watched the first episode of Iwtv. In the lead up to it, watching the teasers and reading the articles, I was thinking 'are they really doing all this...they can't be doing all this, it's too good' and then after the premiere I was completely floored, like holy shit not only are they doing all this, they're doing it well and it's incredible. I replayed Louis' confession over and over and over and was dumbfounded by the raw talent they had managed to pull when they hired Jacob Anderson. I was so, so excited about the groundwork they had laid. Minus a few off beats towards the end, these two seasons are perfect to me. I can't imagine any piece of media, or any character, ever surpassing the show/Louis' effect on me.

[alatabouleau]

Some weeks ago, I finally watched the first two seasons of Doctor Who (2005). And it was. Beautiful. So, I just wanna say, one thing I love about The Doctor with Rose is that it's not a "will they, won't they" story. Throughout these two seasons, it's pretty clear that these two are in a committed relationship. Only that this relationship transcends human categories as much as everything else they do together on their adventures. It's not fully romantic, yet not entirely platonic, either. It's something in between, something you cannot pin down, except for one thing: This relationship is vital for them. They are better together than on their own, a one-in-a-lifetime-kind of thing that happened completely by chance, yet changed both of them forever. Soulmates. I love it.

[theartistaslisalee]

This past week my dad suffered a seizure and spent several days in the hospital, and the cause was a sudden drop in blood pressure. Incidentally my mom also suffered with low BP which it was later revealed were the side effects of aggressive chemo she had undertaken many years before for lymphoma. She had passed away back in summer of last year and now Dad ( who himself had gone through chemo for gastric cancer in the past and currently battling prostate cancer which unfortunately has spread to his bone) is starting the decline. And its really sinking in that, in due time, that me and my three siblings will be left alone on this Earth without our parents ( it’s still hard to believe that it will soon be one year that Mom has gone to heaven ). We take so many aspects of our lives for granted; we often forget about our mortality, or the fact that nothing lasts forever. I know that every parent/child relationships are different, but whatever the circumstances, we should remember that we would not at first exist without our parents. And life is short and unpredictable, so we should take every opportunity to show our love and respect to our parents and/or settle whatever loose ends that had been left between us; I've read many accounts of people who live with regrets at having not settled things with their parents before their passing and sometimes it can be debilitating. Even something as simple as "I love you" can make a big difference.

[ultimateplaylistmaker]

X

[cosmic-hoboandthehighlander]

“Umm…Look, uh, will you excuse me? I—I do think I’m going to be needed on the telephone.”

The Green Death; ep 6

[nayruwu]

sobs. bawls. curls up into a ball and cries.

[monstermoviedean]

if you have a good vibe/kind thought to spare and could send it my way. i'd really appreciate it.

[lucawrites11]

it's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday

alexia/jenni, angst with a happy ending, suggestive, slow burn (?)

It was a mistake. Alexia tried to sneak out of the bed without waking Jenni but Jenni’s arm was holding onto her hip tightly in her sleep. She should’ve never fallen back into this again. She had tried to keep Jenni at arm’s length, she had tried so hard. They’d broken up when Jenni had chosen not to renew her Barcelona contract, breaking their promise to each other not to do long distance again. This time she went further all the way to Mexico. For six years Alexia thought Jenni was going to be the person she spent her life with but she ruined it with one decision.

Her ACL injury had given her a whole year away from Jenni and after half a season when they weren’t in a relationship being a mess of hookups and love confessions, she thought it was the one positive of the injury. She got to actually focus on her new relationship and maybe start to fall in love again without Jenni getting in the way and all the old feelings resurfacing.

She was naive to think they could make it through the whole World Cup.

read on ao3

[demelzathemer]

I had a dream where Charles met Edwin at a train station (both alive at the same era). They were both homeless after running away and bonded without a place to go. The thing was, Charles' parents had reported him missing and came to look for him. But no one ever came for Edwin.

I tried to go back to figure out what had happened and saw Edwin packing up his things at home. He was going to turn eighteen and knew his parents would kick him out for being gay the moment he became an adult. So he took cash, photos of him with his siblings and packed everything else he might need. He said goodbye to his little sisters without telling them where he was going and left the night before his birthday. I guess he was right about his parents because no one ever came after him.

Charles didn't want to go back either so they hopped on a train, evading officers and not knowing where the train would take them. I think Edwin had been living outside for some time because he had been robbed of his cash at some point and neither of them could afford tickets. I don't know where they ended up but I want to think they found some opportunity to have a place of their own and live together.