#HOW GRIAN FOCUSES ON THE DEATHS AND FINALITY OF THEIR RELATIONSHIP

[applestruda]

Yknow what more rambles timess

I'm still absolutely insane over @/cherrifire's tongues and teeth desert duo anamatic,,

When it first dropped i could've cried over how much I loved it and im still very much at that level

LIKEE

FOR ONE CRANE WIVES IS A GUARANTEED LOVE FROM ME

BUT ALSO I JWBQBQBQ

JUST HOW THEY WENT THROUGH ALL THE LIFE SERIES SO PERFECTLY

AND THE DANCE

jwjwkqkqnw its just so *chefs kiss*

Also I mean its made by cherri, I love their art to the moon and back

OKOK EDIT AND ANOTHER THING IS I CANT EXPLAIN HOW MUCH I LOVE THE START OF IT WITH THEM TALKING AND IT TRANSITIONING TO THE SONG jwbqjqnwn

[go-to-the-mirror]

for the bad things happen bingo-

verbal abuse or neglect/abandonment for mcyt? (specifically bdubs it strikes your fancy, but do whatever you would like!!)

[ID: A bad things happen bingo card. From left to right, top to bottom, the squares are: Never Got to Say Goodbye, Cabin Fever, Thrown Down the Stairs, Fingore, Victim Blaming, Caught in a Storm, Secret Caretaking, Isolation, Painful Wound-Cleaning, Tourniquet, Precarious Ledge, Blackmail, Suffocation, Raspy Breathing, Neglect/Abandonment, Knocked Out, Toxic Gas, Tricked/Scammed, Verbal Abuse, Missing and Presumed Dead, Locked in a Cage, Trapped in a Burning Building, Falling Through the Ice, Blindfolded, Kneecapping. "Neglect/Abandonment" is striked through. /End ID]

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Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Archive Warning: Major Character Death

Category: Gen

Fandom: Life SMP Series

Relationship: Bdoubleo100 & GoodTimesWithScar

Characters: BdoubleO100, GoodTimesWithScar, Grian

Additional Tags: POV BdoubleO100, BdoubleO100-centric, 3rd Life SMP Finale, Bad Things Happen Bingo

Language: English

Words: 511

Chapters: 1/1

Summary: Scar and Bdubs walk through the woods, Bdubs hopes they'll be the last ones alive. Scar... that's another story.

Walking through the woods with Scar is... companionable. It brings to mind days spent walking through the shopping district, Scar talking with wild hand gestures, enabled by the motorised wheelchair Doc built for him. Now he rolls through the grass. Bdubs has no idea how he gets around, somehow jumping and traversing dangerous terrain as well as the abled participants did. Maybe whoever came up with this place didn’t want Scar to be at a disadvantage. Say what you want about death games, but at least they aren’t ableist.

“We’re the last two,” Bdubs says, bumping against Scar’s wheelchair.

Scar looks up at him – though there isn’t much of a difference in their height, loath as Bdubs is to admit it – and smiles.

“Yeah,” he says, beaming in that way only Scar can. He’s like a cat in a sunbeam. “Well, Grian’s still alive, so we’re gonna have to deal with that–”

“We’ll deal with that later,” Bdubs says, coming to a stop on a cliff above a pond. “And just be together before Grian comes back.”

“Ok,” Scar says, kicking his legs a bit as Bdubs sits down, legs dangling off the cliff. “So... how was the Crastle?”

“The Crastle was good,” Bdubs snaps, before he can stop himself. “I mean, the Crastle was good, Cleo was good, teaming with you was good.”

“I’m glad you thought it was good,” Scar says. “I mean, after what you did with Pizza, I doubt anything could make me forgive you, but I’m glad you think it was good.”

Scar says it over the top, like it’s one of his jokes. Bdubs laughs and leans against Scar’s wheelchair. Scar’s hand comes to rest on Bdubs’ head.

“Scar,” Bdubs begins. “Are you scratching my hair?”

Scar laughs. “Yeah, and?”

“Nothing, I was just confused.”

Scar hums in a agreement, and they sit there, together, for a time.

It starts with a rustle of the leaves, some movement of disturbed birds. Bdubs is on high alert, climbing back to his feet with his hand on the hilt of his sword. Scar turns his wheelchair around, but is more focused on his communicator, frantically typing a message than he sends right as Grian, bloodied, and red, with claws and vulture wings, but the eyes of a predator leaps through the trees and hits Scar of the cliff into the water below, with his gleaming sword and a cry of “Traitor!”

Bdubs quickly follows suit, falling backwards into the water, on alert to fight against Grian, but not expecting Scar to slash at him with a sword strike of his own. Bdubs topples back into the water, giving Scar the opportunity to get in another good hit. He’s barely aware of what he’s saying, trying desperately to preserve his life.

Scar gets one last hit on him, and then Grian is in the water too, and Scar’s sword is down, left abandoned in the water and Grian holds the sword to his neck, and Bdubs is collapsed in the water, bleeding out slowly.

Alone, even in death.

[redstone-sun]

question: is there anything in TRSNS that you wish you could’ve added or elaborated on but had to cut out? it probably goes without saying, but if this is the case i’d kind of love to hear about it

Hoo boy, okay, here we go. Short answer, yes. Long answer…ahem. Below the cut. I apologize in advance.

So, as you all know, I had not seen the original redstoner series when I began this fic. Pablo Punchwood was a later addition, as was the phenomenon scene, the mirror scene, and the nightmares. I wrote the whole thing in chunks, like it is now, but there was a lot of rearranging that happened. I started by writing Grian going through the portal to find Mumbo. There was a time when Pablo happened when Mumbo blacked out after helping Grian. But that’s besides the point.

The healing process is different for everyone, and I think the overall arc I created is fully fleshed out and developed. HOWEVER. There are certainly a lot of little things that I’ve considered adding, including some things from some of the asks on this blog(blue shirt anon, the death message thing). Also, I had only ever seen Mumbo’s, Grian’s and a few of Iskall’s episodes when I wrote this and that is why the proverbial camera sticks so closely to those three. I have since then tried to write in more hermits but I can’t do it smoothly enough. I also wanted to write a version where Mumbo kills almost all the hermits and almost all of them come back maimed. It started out well enough, but I still just didn’t know enough to pull it all together.

I also think it could be beneficial to explore Mumbo’s suicidal ideations and self hatred more and expand on his inner dialogue. I think that as it is currently it works as a full component of the fic but it would have been interesting to see more of that. I also think Iskall and Grian could do with a little more metaphorical screen time.

It’s hard to write Minecraft fanfic because there’s so many game dynamics that you can adopt or change or explain or leave out all together. This fic is fairly low on Minecraft game dynamics, but it would be interesting to do more with that, either through the death notifications like the one ask said or by just adding more Minecraft-y things in general. However, I do have a version that I’m working on that will be completely separate from Minecraft and Hermitcraft because I want something I can send to people who don’t know what the hell I’m talking about. It stands alone as a short story because it’s about healing and character development that can be wholly separated from Minecraft.

This fic would have been so much different had I actually known what redstoner really was. It probably would have been simultaneously darker and more humorous and also probably a lot shorter. I honestly don’t think I would have enjoyed writing it as much, and I don’t think it would have gotten so much feedback if I had. Still, there are some things in house_owner’s series that I would have liked to explore. The actual effect of the red sun, the fact that he made the red sun, command blocks, etc. etc.

On the Discord server, I’ve written so many AU versions of TRSNS. I think the current count is somewhere near 8, all different lengths and all different focuses. The original will always, always be my favorite, but it’s been fun to explore what else could have been. Some of these are just changes in secondary themes such as the incredibly gorey Tear Me Apart, or are set in other Hermitcraft AUs like the overexposed AU.

Something else I might want to actually write later(still deciding whether I’d actually add it) would be something my literal, actual father asked me about. So, he’s religious, and basically what he said is that there’s three steps to forgiveness. Apologizing(making up with yourself), forgiveness(from the other person), and atonement(making up with God/the world). The way he described it in this context would be as soon as Mumbo is sufficiently unboxed, he’d offer himself as Grian’s wings/arms and Iskall’s voice. That way he’s putting in the energy to make up for what he did by taking it away, even though it wasn’t necessarily his fault. I sort of wrote it in a crossover fic I did(long story) but it’d be an interesting conclusion to the whole mess.

Speaking of that particular crossover, it’s very Pablo-centric. And that’s another thing I’d like to clear up or even just conclude. I can’t remember if I wrote the final letter in to the Ao3 version of TRSNS, but basically I have a couple paragraphs where Pablo makes it home and leaves a letter to Mumbo under a rock. I didn’t really expect everyone to love Pablo as much as they do(a lot of people have adopted him as a dad, similar to Joe), and some even asked me if Pablo came back. That’s just me pandering to the masses, though, even though I think that ending with that letter is a good choice.

ALSO, if y’all haven’t guessed/read, this is a huge projection fic. It’s a lot of my own healing experiences and personal relationships. It isn’t based on anything specific(well, the red sun is), but it’s an extremely personal and emotional fic. That’s why it’s so good and why it’s gotten this sort of reaction is because I’m writing about what I know and I’m writing with confidence. If it was just a Mumbo killing people fic, it wouldn’t be a quarter as interesting or good as it is now. But that’s besides the point. I think if I had to rewrite the whole thing over again, besides adding in the other hermits, I’d add more about Mumbo and the red sun. How they talk to each other. How Mumbo feels pulled back but revolted at the fact that he feels it. Sort of an emotionally manipulative red sun(totally not a projection :) ). Someone in the server brought up a similar idea and I had to yeet myself out of the chat because it was hitting way too close to home, but I think that exploring that sort of thing in this space where I’m comfortable and confident could be beneficial to me.

ANYWAY, oversharing time’s over. Rereading the actual original ask this stemmed from, I didn’t actually cut out that much from the original fic, and the length shows it. It was more changing and rearranging things. I don’t think there’s any scenes or anything that were in the original that I had to cut out entirely. There was some things that I wrote after finishing it and just never added, but I don’t think that counts.

So, yeah! If y’all have any other specific questions about this, feel free to shoot ‘em my way. I’m going to be posting a ‘How TRSNS Came to Be’ post eventually because I wanted to write out a brief synopsis of my rise to STARDOM(lol) and this is my blog where I can put random stuff like that. Thank you for the ask, and sorry again for the length!