#HOW AM I SUPPISED TO GET PASSED THIS

[phoenixwwitch]

DAVE FILONI COUNT YOUR DAYS

[justalittlefreedom]

Personal DPDR

Its so strange. I wake up yet still feel asleep. My limbs are just a milisecond too slow. Wow. They feel so heavy. Wait, but i also cant feel them? I need to get up for work. Why? Lets just lay down and sleep some more. Why? Because why not? We can go to work when we wake up. 8am can wait for us. I dont think time works like that. Why not? Just pause it. Suddenly i am on the toilet. I dont remember getting there or needing to go. Did i already finish? I cant tell. That part of my body isnt talking to me. I look at my phone. It is 10am. Really? But it was just 8am! Swirling fog is floating through my head. Looking out of my eyes seems off. Almost like ive taken a step back from them inside my head. Like im looking through a glass window. Im dressed now. I think i wore this exact same thing for the last three days. Did i ever take it off? It doesnt matter. Eating. Eating. Eating. I think this is my third bowl of cereal. I dont remember eating each bowl but ive filled it three times. I cant tell if im full. Im not sure i was ever actually hungry. Suddenly im running to the toilet and throwing up. Oh yes, of course, my stomach was too full... i can almost feel that now. Now im driving. I dont remember how i got here or where i am going. But im not worried or even care. My body keeps moving the car and taking exits like it knows exactly what it is doing. I relax and listen to music. Except it sounds wrong, slightly out of tune and muffled. I turn it louder. The volume changes i can hear that..... and yet it is exactly the same and sounds no lowder than before. I turn to look at the other car so i can merge. They are going faster than me so i wait for them to pass. Holy crap they are slow. But i know only a few seconds have actually passed. It feels like everyone is driving in peanutbutter. So slow. My car says it is going 80 MPR. Work is a blur. I know i helped people and drove them places, but the memories are bluring and slipping away. So strange. Im at a zoo with clients. Im suppised to be in charge. They are mentally ill and im the adult. I can not find any of my clients. I wander the zoo. At one point i go to the gift shop and it is too much. Im confused. Solors, animals, things to buy but i cant quite understand what the individual items are. I see a sign for ice cream. I remember i like ice cream. Suddenly i am walking up to the counter and ordering ice cream. I dont know why, but who cares! Now i have ice cream. Im eating it really fast. I cant remember eating it. I vaguely wonder how i didnt get a brain freeze. Maybe i did. The sky is overcast and looks like it is about to rain. The wind is strong. Everyone around me are in coats. Im in a tank top and sandals eating ice cream. Strange. How do i feel? I try to check in with my body but it feels completely neutral. Not hot or cold. Which is strange because im always cold. But i dont really care, even as i worry about it. Its like something happened to losen all the connections from my body to my brain. Im still getting signals, but they are very faint. Im heading home now. Im slapping my leg hard and over and over again. The sting is intense but i also cant feel it. That doesnt make sence. I keep slapping it. Soon im home and i realize i cant remember the drive home.... and im still slapping my leg. I stop. It doesnt hurt at all. Now its been 5 days. What did i do all those days? I know i did stuff... didnt i? But it feels like the days happened long ago, and i can hardly remember any of it... im still wearing the same outfit. I know ive slept, but i never feel sleepy. Im awake when i wake up... i think. And then i stay on until i know people are supposed to sleep. Im not tired. I cant feel tired but ive been yawning for a while now. I lay down and turn off. Maybe, just maybe, when i wake up again someone will have fixed my system and taken all the cotton out. Maybe i will really wake up. Something is wrong. I can feel it in my whole body... the body i cant feel. But i cant worry about that right now. I am foating away.