#HIA WIN IS CRAZY IN LOVE

[bl-bam-beyond]

BL- BOYS' LOVE:

Series: BETWEEN US (2022, THAILAND)

Win (NOPPANUT GUNTACHAI aka BOUN) becoming a bit more wrapped around Team's (WARUT CHAWALITRUJIWONG aka PREM) finger.

The way Hia Win looks at Team.

[kwonzoshi]

Top 10 Best BL Boys of 2022

10.) Mangkorn [Big Dragon]

- I’ll tell you right now, when I started Big Dragon, I did not expect to like either of the characters. Yet SOMEHOW this tall lanky fuck ended up winning me over. He’s complicated, can’t communicate for shit and has so much love to give.  

9.) Tankhun [Kinnporsche]

- Where do I even start... this man is funny, fashionable and loves his family/friends deeply. He gets written off as crazy and is EXTREMELY misunderstood but has the BIGGEST brain in that family. I mean he truly holds the only braincell in the compound. This man deserves so much more than he is given, and I love him to pieces.

8.) Nuea [Secret Crush on You]

-The definition of his crazy matches my crazy. The way he accepted and loved Toh for everything he was. NEVER asked him to change and met him wherever he was at, incredible. He always stood firm on his feelings, even when he wasn’t sure Toh felt the same. 

7.) Wasuwat [The Eclipse]

- He was cute, artsy, funny and smart as hell. I respected the hell out of him for not accepting whatever the fuck KhanThua tried to do at the beach and I respect his quick thinking even more. He is loyal and will do anything for his friends. Even put more work on his plate. 

6.) Khondiao [Cutie Pie]

- Literal ray of sunshine. Though most of the story he seems weak, he is strong as hell. He handles himself, Hia Yi, Kuea and so much more with grace. He is an amazing friend and an even better partner. His patience with Yi deserves to be rewarded. I mean that. 

5.) Jao [Secret Crush on You]

- Literal ray of sunshine number 2. Watching his story develop and him gain confidence in himself was one of the highlights of the show. As a friend, he was ten toes down for his Alphabet Mafia and I love him for that. 

4.) Payu [Love in the Air]

- Y’all may disagree with me but this man is one of the best boyfriends in all of BL. He took Rain under his wing, and while the beginning of their relationship wasn’t the best, he really did everything to make sure Rain was being careful and responsible. He also lays the pipe down, what more can someone want?

3.) Ayan [The Eclipse]

- He is the definition of “I’m hurt but I’ll heal you.” The way he cared for Akk even though he could’ve easily just let him rot, is why he is top 3. He knew what Akk was doing from the beginning but he noticed that he was suffering, just like he was. The way he was with his supposed ‘enemy’ just shows that his character was pure of heart and just trying to find closure. Green flags everywhere.

2.) Akk [Enchanté]

- I’M ONLY GOING TO SAY THIS ONCE, AKK DESERVED BETTER. This man shoved all of his feelings to the side to help the man he has loved since they were children. Even though it hurt. Even though it was KILLING him. He was supportive and loyal. The way he forgave Theo and just continued to give him the same energy... he is incredible. And the way he was waiting to fulfill promises they made to each other as kids?! Where do I find an Akk?!

1.) Pluem [Ghost Host, Ghost House]

- I will take ZERO criticisms or arguments. Pluem Pitiphong is THE best BL boy of 2022. He was loving, understanding, gentle, caring and just everything he could be for Kevin. He had his low moment but he’s human and it was honestly, mild. He loved Kevin with every fiber of his being from the moment he met him. HE WAITED FOR THREE YEARS FOR HIM. Patiently. Quietly. He faced his fears and worked on himself to be the best he could be for the man he loved and I respect the absolute hell out of him for that. He is the GREENEST of green flags and this is why he is number 1 on my list. 

HONORABLE NON-BL MENTION:

Yeon Sieun [Weak Hero Class 1]

- I have to mention him because while it WASN’T a BL, there were gay undertones. Sieun was loyal and devoted as a friend. He was willing to put his safety and his life on the line for Sooho and even risked jail time for him. He went from ‘couldn’t be bothered’ to ‘if you touch a hair on his head, i will kill you’ and I LOVE THAT. He is quiet, intelligent and full of so much love for the people he cares about. He was deeply misunderstood and even then, he wasn’t full of hate or resentment. He just took care of business. 

🚨Disclaimer:

This is simply my personal opinion from the shows I watched this year. This isn’t to say there aren’t more that could fit this category, these are just MY choices for my list. Thank you ♡

[lutawolf]

Between Us Episode 11 Commentary and Review

Damn, but these boys are bringing me to my knees. So with the chaos of yesterday. I watched the show but didn't do a review. But I also didn't want to skip it totally. So here we go.

"You're such a good person. Too good and you make me afraid. I'm afraid that when you make me feel special...It is, in fact...you're just being like this to everyone." This fucking killed me, guys. Slayed me. I'm going to give you correct subs in this next bit because there are differences. "I'm afraid, Hia. I'm afraid that It's just all in my head. You know me better than anyone. You know what I like. And what I don't like. But I'm a piece of shit, I only know your coffee order." So Team is actually telling Hia why he can't be mad at him for not wanting to be his boyfriend. He is saying that he realizes he isn't good enough. Go sob, I know I am. That's when we see Win break down. Like fuck. These boys kill me!!! Also, when Team asks "can we at least try" That should have been subbed as "But whatever it is, if Hia, you think it isn't the right time yet, can I try first, Hia?" Say a huge thank you to @notfreetoday for all the sub help. You can find more from her here.

Finally, Finally! They are communicating. They both tell each other that they love each other. "You're crying like a baby." Um, Win. Have you seen your face? Then he goes on to raz each other about being off tune. Same Team, same.

Sexy time! Maybe it's the music, but there seems to be a gentleness that wasn't there before. It's in the way they stay close as they shed clothes. This is much more love making than just sex. There is still that Dominance from Win, but it's softer. If you're wondering in what way he is showing Dominance, just watch the hand placement. It's not about who is on top, it's about who is in control.

I love that they were holding hands where anyone could see until the friend group. Which all know about them. I'm not really sure what you are nervous about Team, but I like that Win is upset but not pushy.

"You're a lucky guy, Hia. You met the first one, and he's good-looking. Nice behavior too. Plus, he's such a good guy." "You're so annoying. Always getting on my nerves. And so damn stubborn. But... I also love you so damn much as well." Then tries to kiss Team who smacks him. Yes, that is something a brat would do. Team had a limit and Win was going to over step it. Still, Win reprimanded him. Even challenged him. So cute! Causing the brat to stick out his tongue again.

This brat and Brat Tamer were made for each other. No joke. That parking lot argument was too cute. "Wait up boyfriend!" 🤣🤣🤣 This whole episode is nothing but mush, and I'm loving it!

I adore that we see several different couples. Those that really do up valentine, and then you have the crazy couple. Their love is just as solid, but they are more casual. Don't hate me, people, but the broccoli scene was just okay. It didn't hit the feels the way the original broccoli scene did.

I've started to like the brother and eyebrows. Bro, you got to forgive eyebrows. He's a good guy. Then we get more love and support from WinTeam in the hospital. I love how Team tells Win to take his time, that he is by his side. Then we flash to Win dropping Team off and Team pushes all anxiety aside to support his boyfriend. I love it! This is someone who really knows what's important.

The whole forgiveness scene makes me really uncomfortable. Like I was enjoying it until the kneeling point. I think it's because I feel like the father is more at fault? In a D/s relationship, a submissive would not kneel before their Dom if the Dom fucks up. So I think that's where my feelings are coming from.

"Yes, I will marry you!" 🤣🤣🤣

Team waited up for him! There has been a huge growth, now that he knows where he is standing.

Really cute episode. I enjoyed it so much. I wish pacing were better. I still love it though and can't wait for next week! 💜💜💜

[vegasporschetruther]

thank you @thisautistic for tagging me <33

10+1 bl chars that i want carnally :3

(not in any order) (i bent the rules alot lmao sue me)

1) kim theerapanyakul - kinnporsche

how could you NOT desire his crazy ass? hes sooooo pretty and talented and horrible at being a detective and had a secret hannah montana life ! what more could you want from a character?

2) porchay kittisawasd - kinnporsche

HES MY BABY !!! his heart is soooo full of love <3 i want to sit with him while he practices his singing and i practice drawing and we can both be deranged abt musicians together <33 i love him so much.

3) black pothiyakorn - not me

ANGRIEST WETTEST CAT EVER !! he will punch you and spit n your mouth and you WILL thank him for it !! hes a communist through and through and loves his younger brother so much <33 interacting with him in any way, shape or form will always be An Experience.

4) ayan sukkhaphisit - eclipse

the feelings this guy evokes in me…god. like i NEED him. him and i would meet up to study chemistry or smth and we would be SUCH besties. but also i desire him. i can never be normal about him. someone please make me stop.

5) win wanichakarnjonkul - between us/until we meet again

hia win is one of those guys you can never properly move on from. hes just so…slutty. like oh my god i meed to have swimming lessons with him fr. his tattoos are on my mind 24/7. hes such a GuyTM. he is the moment.

6/7) rain/payu - love in the air

you can never seperate the most perfectest adhd4adhd couple but MAN would i kill to be in between them one day. rain is sooo cute and pretty and babygirl and i LOVE HIM. but also you cannot take away daddy payu from me. hes also in the room. i love them so much your honor.

8) xue yang - the untamed

HE SERVED SO MUCH CUNT. god he has actually taken over my brain you dont understand. he did absolutely nothing wrong !! he just committed some murders. no biggie. you lock me in a room with him, and youll never hear from me again <33

9/10) boston/nick - only friends

being with them would simultaneously be the worst thing for my mental and emotional health, but the best for my sexual health. there will never be a dull moment. me and nich would probably fight like cats over boston’s attention, but would bond over the fact that we’re both animators. he would help me so much <33

+1) yok - not me

i literally kid you not, im going to art school because of this guy. he changed me as a person. him and i would be SUCH besties. we both would be so into arson <33 we could study anatomy together if you know what i mean. being with him would improve my mental health SO much.

tagging: @khaotunqs @tbhimnoteasyonmyself @khaofirsts @xiaojaan @jaanwangji @hiskinndbodyguard @satelliteee28 @jeffsaturism @itsbinghebitch @transwegath @celestial-sapphicss @blneobin @firstkhaolesbian and anyone else who sees this <33 (just say i tagged you !)

[death-is-a-new-beginning]

if you still write for cisco, i’d like ro request a smut (if you do them, its okay if not)! he and the reader are together but its a secret. she’s been bratty and teasing him all day. cisco tries to keep his cool but he’s obviously breaking, so she snaps hia final straw by flirting with barry (before iris & him are together). something inside him snaps and he drags her to his lab and fucks her senseless and overstimulates her. thank you in advance!!

A/N: Ooh I would love to do this for you! This is my first time writing smut but I'm going to do my best. Sorry it took so long! I wanted to make sure I got this right. I hope you like it! Also requests are open, feel free to request some more fics! 

Word Count: 2699

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All damn day. All damn day y/n had been teasing Cisco. He was going absolutely mad because all he wanted to do was pull her onto his lap and kiss her senseless and do so many things just to hear her scream Papi, the way she did when she finally released her control. God just thinking about it made him want her that much more. But he couldn't do anything because they were keeping their relationship on the down low.

She was wearing normal clothes that normally would not call attention to her but for some reason it looked so good on her. It had been cold outside so she had worn a black hoodie with the S.T.A.R Labs logo on it and some dark jeans with red converse, totally normal clothes. But something about those jeans made her butt look a type of way that he just wanted to smack. At some point during the day in between missions the temperature had gotten warm and y/n took off her hoodie to reveal one of Cisco's new t-shirts he'd gotten recently with a mathematical equation written on it. It was like she was trying to get them outted. She looked at him smirking, knowing full well what wearing his clothes did to him. She then circled him like a temptress and reached over the control table for a her pen and came dangerously close to his face, he could feel her breath fanning him, her lips inches from him. It was like a mental battle they were fighting to see who would give in first. He was oh so close and willing to give in if it meant having her close to him.

After a few seconds of making intense eye contact, she smiled sweetly and said "Sorry Pap-Cisco I can't seem to reach my pen, do you mind passing it to me?"

He quickly passed it to her, swallowing thickly suddenly so thirsty, with a thirst that no amount of water could quench but time alone with her. He stood up abruptly and said, "No problem at all," and quickly exited the room, he need to get out of there. Barry would be back from the police department soon and he didn't want them to catch them doing something deliciously indecent. Not to mention Caitlin was working with them as well so it would just be problematic all the way around.

The rest of the day seemed to pass by agonizingly. With "accidental" brushes of skin in passing or flirty glances and there may have been something with a lollipop and a fake innocent laugh, he was at his wits end and about ready to burst, not caring about exposing their relationship. Later that day, they were working on some tech for Barry's suit when Cisco made a comment about her not programming something correctly and she just flipped him off.

"Like you never make a mistake? Geez, I'm already fixing it. Get off my back cowboy." The sexual frustration was translating over into just straight frustration with each other.

"Rarely do I make a mistake that would end in our friend getting killed," he fired back at her, immediately regretting it but he couldn't take it back.

"Fine, Mr. Perfect finish this yourself. I need a break anyways," she huffed and dropped the tools she was using and was already out of the room before he could call her back.

When Barry walked into the metahuman jail section, he noticed y/n sitting down on the floor reading a book about Quantum Physics, trying to come up with new ways to help Barry's suit phase with him more smoothly.

"It looks like you're doing some light reading," he joked, sitting next to her.

She laughed, "Yep, I needed a distraction before actually punching someone in the face. Maybe you know a guy on which I could use as a punching bag?"

Barry's eyebrow raised inquisitively, "Who do you want to punch in the face? Who hurt you?" He began laughing and bumped her shoulder with his.

"That is a can of worms I'm not sure we want to open muchacho," she joked with a bright smile, already feeling better, she hated arguing with Cisco, especially when it came to keeping Barry safe or when he felt like she wasn't doing a good enough job.

"How about you give me a list of names and I'll be back in like two minutes with the names crossed off with thorough lessons learned?"

"You think you could get it done in two minutes? Its quite a long list. I think it would take five minutes at least."

"Dang how long are we talking?" He asked.

"You know that episode of SpongeBob where the list just keeps going like out of his house or what not? Yeah about that long," she chuckled.

Barry cracked his knuckles and stood up, "Okay, no time like the present, give me the names and I'll beat their ass," she stood up while laughing then said, "Easy there Sonic, you need to fuel up and check in with Caitlin for your normal check up."

About thirty minutes later when she hadn't returned, Cisco went to go find her, he was worried he might have took it too far. He passed by the metahuman holding cells and heard her laughter mixing with Barry's. They were making their way to the entrance, he heard Barry ask her if there was anything he could do to help her and she said a hug would work. He watched them hug, her arms were around his neck which made her shirt rise up a little so Barry's hands were on her bare skin. After a few seconds they pulled away, with a sigh she sent him on his way to Caitlin and sighed before turning to go back to where Cisco was only to come face to face with a pissed off Cisco.

Y/n stopped in her tracks, a pissed off Cisco was probably one of the hottest thing to witness, but his anger was directed towards her, she could detect that much.

"What the hell Y/n? I know we want to keep our relationship on the DL but flirting with Barry? What the actual hell?" The realization that Cisco was jealous of Barry, for no reason, made her laugh.

"What is so funny?" Cisco asked almost yelling. He couldn't take it anymore, he felt so possessive and seeing them hug was the straw that broke this camels back. He would show her who she belonged to, as much as he belonged to her. He grabbed her arm and pulled her into a secret room he had found the first year he started working at the lab. He sometimes slept there when he was working late. It had a mattress he'd secretly brought a few years ago.

He locked the door and like a predator hunting his prey, he pounced. He pushed her up against the wall, he had placed his hand behind her head to protect it, just like guys do in anime. His eyes darkened when he saw how turned on she was. He almost growled, "You're mine. Only mine, and I'm yours," he pressed his lips to hers passionately and it was on. A fight for dominance began but one he was winning. He smiled in the kiss and pulled away. Her eyes slowly opened, she was panting hard. His hands had moved down from her head to her side sliding his hand under his shirt she was wearing until he reached her breasts and he squeezed her the way she liked.

She moaned softly with this action her eyes growing dark and his hand were on the move again, unbottoning her jeans and reaching for the one place she ached for. When he reached that place his hands slowly circled her mound so slow that it was almost agonizing.

"All day you've been taunting me, being cute, wearing my shirt, being a brat. You even flirted with Barry! Well baby girl, you messed with the bull, prepare to get the horns." His voice deepened and the Cisco that only she gets to see came forward. He removed his hand, the source of her pleasure, which made her whine in desperation. 

"Take off everything. Now." He demanded.

"Yes S-sir." She stuttered, at times she was unprepared for the shift in dominance with Cisco. Most of the time he was laid back and nerdy as all get out, but here and right now Papi Cisco was present and demanded respect. This made her want him all that much more. She removed her articles of clothing one by one. His eyes raked over her as he licked his lips. 

“Now get on all fours on the mattress. You know what to do, you’ve been a bad girl and it’s time to get punished,” She complied, her bum was up slightly. She stared ahead at the metal wall. He took off his shirt, and approached her his hands squeezing her ass, massaging it. 

“You’ve been bad baby girl, being so beautiful and flirty with me all day when we are trying to keep our relationship under wraps. You’ve been pushing my buttons. You’re going to count to three okay?” He asked kindly. 

“Okay,” She said. 

“Okay what?” He asked.

“Okay sir,” She replied with a smile on her face. 

“Good girl, let’s begin,” He spanked her, it was a solid spank that didn’t hurt but made heat pool down her body. “One,” she moaned. The second and third followed suit with more pressure in each spank. After he was done, he massaged her butt, there was a bit of redness but he would make sure she wasn’t in any discomfort. He peppered kisses on her ass which made her moan, the soft touches were driving her crazy. He took those kisses lower until he reached her lips, licking down her strip, moaning at how wet she was for him. 

“Please, Cisco,” she mewled, all she wanted was for him to finish what he started over and over again. 

“No Mamas, you teased me, now its my turn. On your back baby girl. You’re not allowed to touch yourself,” she turned over, laying on some firm pillows that gave her the support she’d definitely need soon. When she looked at him, he was putting his hair up with a hair tie and there was a few strands that would always fall loose no matter how hard she tried. He looked beautiful, she enjoyed seeing all the different sides of him, they often face so much danger which is why they decided they wouldn't tell anyone until they were sure it would last. 

He kneeled onto the mattress and made his way to her, like a predator hunting for his prey and he looked hungry. Like he’d eat her whole. She almost moaned at the thought. When he reached her, he  was hovering above her, mere inches from her lips. 

“May I kiss you?” He asked, even when he was in dominant mode, he always asked her for consent, always made sure she was okay. The respect alone made her love him so much more. She wanted him to do more that kiss her, she wanted him to fuck her so good and then make love to her, the order in which that happened did not matter. 

“Yes, you can kiss me. I hope you plan on fucking me too though,” with that he smiled and smashed his lips to hers, sucking on her bottom lip a little before slipping his tongue in to her mouth. His hands wandered to her breasts, squeezing her nipples roughly which made her moan into his mouth and arch her back. His hand continued his journey down her body and between her legs, she was so sensitive and swollen there. He rubbed in circles then in 8 rotation movements. And with two fingers he entered her, he started pumping the digits in and out of her. She began moaning, her hips trying to meet his fingers with each thrust. 

After a few moments of fingering her, on the brink of her orgasm, he stopped. He slid his fingers out and she clenched around the absence of his fingers. He brought his fingers to his mouth and sucked them, tasting her while making direct eye contact. He smirked, he planned on edging her for while before letting her finish. 

“Please Cisco, I was so close,” she pleaded. Aching to finish the job herself. 

“No baby girl you’re not allowed to cum until I say so, understand?”

“Yes, sir, “ she conceded. He placed one more kiss on her lips before moving down her body, leaving a trail of kisses as he made his way between her legs. Then he started sucking and licking and tonguing her entrance, He could feel her start to clench around him and so he stopped. Again. He robbed her from completion again, he kissed her thighs as he sat up on his knees. He unbuckled his belt and undid his pants. He stood up pulling the last remaining clothing off. He was standing there in all his glory. He pulled a condom from his wallet and gave himself a few pumps until he was hard enough to put the condom off. 

When he was ready he climbed back to her rubbing himself at her entrance, to which she moaned. He kissed her and pushed his way inside of her, they both moaned, he stretched her so well, he waited a bit to let her adjust and then began to move slowly, in and out of her. Her legs were wrapped around his waist trying to meet each thrust. He kissed her harder as he started to speed up, hitting the spot that made her go wild. 

He then slowed and came to a stop as she came close once again and came to a halt. She huffed in frustration, but then Cisco moved to his knees whilst still inside her, she was clenching and unclenching around him which almost made his control waver. He lifter her legs to be on either side of his neck and he put a pillow under her bum so she was comfortable. He held her legs together and started to thrust into her deeper and harder than before, she was screaming in pleasure, which made Cisco glad he had sound proofed the room. 

¨Papi, please let me cum. I´ll be a good girl. Daddy please,¨ she recited like a prayer, she wasn´t sure she could prolong her orgasm if she tried. He was fucking her so good. 

¨Cum now baby girl,¨ he demanded and she experienced the strongest orgasm she´d ever had. The man was Gandalf at making her cum. How he learned all of these techniques was beyond her. As she rode the high down, he continued to thrust until he came not too long after she had finished. He pulled out, he cum slipping out of her lips. He slowly lowered her legs down and went down on her, lapping up her juices, cleaning her, and sucking her sensitive clit, she didn´t think it was possible, but she ended up coming again for the second time. 

He cuddled her and she came down another high, panting. “I’m glad I was being a bad girl today.” She said with a laugh.

-A few days later-

Y/n was hanging with the gang in the main control area, laughing and joking around with Barry and Caitlin. Cisco walks into the room, strolls over to her, mumbling something like “Fuck it” and spins her to him and kisses her in front of everyone, she kisses him back on instinct. After a moment, he pulls away and looks around the room and says, “She’s mine.” then he struts out  back to his lab. 

“I knew it! Barry you owe me $100.” Caitlin said excitedly while clapping. 

Y/N just sits there in shock of what happened. “Wait you guys had a bet going?” She exclaimed.

-Fin-

[unpopular-bishop]

teamwin

“Do you like to bottom?” Team asks once they’re cleaned up and the lights are off. He’s got his head resting on Win’s chest and Win has to think that he probably picks up on it when Win’s heartrate suddenly goes crazy.

“Not really.” he settles on saying, trying not to come off unsure, trying to figure out where the sudden bolt of anxiety came from. Team hums once and then snuggles close and drifts off.

Win does not drift off for a while.

-

Win thinks he has a pretty healthy relationship with sex. He likes the connection and the physicality of it, the vulnerability. The way sweat mixes and there’s laughter when you’re comfortable with the person, the weird parts and the good parts and even sometimes the bad parts. He’s always willing to try something at least once, unless it makes him too uncomfortable, and he tries to have the same mindset for other people. He isn’t into anything too wild, that he’s discovered yet, at least, but he’s got a pretty normal sex drive. Despite the rumors, though, Win has not actually ‘got around’ all that much. He’s had a few girlfriends and boyfriends, a couple one night stands, and exactly two friends with benefits before he met Team, and there was a dry spell between his last time with someone and falling for a freshman swimmer with cute cheeks and a bad attitude.

All of this is currently pertinent to the conversation because, no, Win doesn’t think someone is assigned a role in sex and must live that role out for the rest of his or her or their life, but Win also is aware that he is experienced only in that he’s technically had more partners than Team has. None of those partners were exceedingly adventurous. Win started out in the world of sex topping and he’s never had a partner that was interested in him doing something else.

Until Team.

Like most things about Team, there’s that until before his name. Win didn’t really care about romance until Team. Win thought he was down with just chilling out, having some fun together, being casual, until Team. Win had never met anyone who was so willing to work hard to show he cared, even if his efforts sometimes didn’t work out, until Team. Win’s never been in love until Team.

Win’s never really been nervous about sex before, until Team, too.

-

“I’m not afraid that he’s gonna hurt me,” he says into his latte, slowly circling his straw around as he thinks out loud. He and Dean are sitting in Dean’s car, parked in front of an old movie theater. The car is off, windows down in the empty lot, with soft music playing from Win’s phone set on the dash.

This is their spot. Win’s never brought anyone else here, and he knows Dean has never brought anyone else, either. This is the spot they were parked in (on bikes, just starting high school) when Dean told Win about his family, and how alone he was. It’s the spot where Win first came out to Dean, and the spot where he finally broke down and cried because he didn’t actually want to be dating the boy he was dating but didn’t know how to say no. It’s the place where Dean once described his nightmares to Win, and the place where, last year, Dean finally broke and told Win about In and Korn, and he and Pharm. It’s their place, and that’s why he feels comfortable admitting to the weird, personal thoughts that have been floating around his head ever since Team hinted that he wanted to switch things up.

“He wouldn’t.” Dean agrees, sipping at his own coffee.

“And I don’t think it’s weird to bottom?” Win sort of says as a question, because he doesn’t, but if that were true then he wouldn’t be having such a hard time now, would he? Is he secretly an asshole without meaning to be? Has he been looking down on bottoms his entire sex life? That doesn’t feel right, but also the love of his life hinted that he may want to try being on top and suddenly Win’s whole foundation is shaking so obviously something is up!

“Start simple.” Dean suggests, which is always how he starts out his suggestions. Start simple. For Dean, things are always simple; don’t overthink or overcomplicate. Things are, or they are not. To start, figure out what is, and then figure out exactly what is means. Start simple.

“I’m worried about letting Team top me.” Win flops back in his head, huffing. It would be embarrassing to admit to anyone but Dean. But Win has held Dean through more nightmares than either of them would admit and Win is who Dean panic-called the first time someone had kissed him and Dean had burst into tears in the bathroom of the party because he felt like he’d cheated on someone who didn’t exist.

“Is worried the right word?”

Win thinks, carefully.

“I think so.”

“Is it that you feel it’s passive? You letting him?”

Win takes a long drink while he thinks that one through. He’s an active person. He’s aggressive about what he wants, he likes to chase. One of the things he ended up not liking with previous partners was having his hands restrained because it meant he couldn’t do what he wanted and that wasn’t enjoyable to him.

“Maybe.” he admits.

“Okay, so pin that.” Dean changes the song on the dash to something less loud. They’ve been listening to Brit Pop for an hour now and that’s about the extent to which Dean lets Win control the music. “Is it that it’s Team?”

“No.” Win says immediately and then pulls a face when Dean gives him a look that says shut up and actually give it some thought.

Win, reluctantly, shuts up and gives it some thought.

He loves Team. He trusts Team. He has never hesitated to really do anything with Team once he decided that Team was what he wanted. He likes how Team touches him and he likes what they do in bed and what they do out of bed. He likes swimming with Team and eating lunch with him, likes holding hands or just meeting eyes from across the room. He likes being with and around and near Team.

Is it the thought of Team that’s worrying him when it comes to this? The thought of Team topping?

“Maybe.” He says with a grumble.

“Are you worried about being topped in general?”

Win hesitates, thinks about it, then shrugs.

“Not really.”

Dean nods and Win takes a deep drink of his latte just to have something to do. So is it that he’s being passive? Or is it the thought of Team? Is he overcomplicating?

“What about Team is worrying you?” Dean offers after more silence, like he’s prompting, and Win appreciates it. Win is a go-with-the-flow kind of guy. He wishes he could just lay back and have a blast and not worry about this at all, but there’s anxiety in his gut when he thinks about having sex like that now, and he thinks that if Team knew that, it would hurt his feelings a lot. If Win has to talk this out, he wants to go in prepared and no one does prepared like Dean smacking him in the face with everything he’s doing wrong to get him prepared.

So what about Team is worrying him?

“He’s younger.” He decides. “No, that’s wrong. He doesn’t have much experience. I’m his only one.”

“Okay.”

“I’m not worried he’s going to hurt me. I’m worried...that I’ll hurt him?” Win tries to put the thought to words and fails. He stops for a second and then tries again, “I’m worried that I’ll let him down.”

“I wonder if you’re worried because this is gonna be the first time you’re both going in. You don’t have any experience bottoming. Team’s the expert this time.”

“Oh fuck.” Win blinks, sitting up straight, “Dean, what the fuck! Is that it? I’m not worried about Team topping me, I’m worried about me bottoming for Team!”

Dean claps three times, placid as ever, and drinks his coffee.

Win downs his latte like a shot, slumps back in the seat and looks at the sky through his window.

Huh.

-

“Wanna have a weird and awkward conversation?” Win asks once Team is in bed and they’re both warm and wrapped up in each other for the night. Team’s still wide awake, and will be for at least the next half hour while they both come down from their days and prepare to actually fall asleep, so Win thinks this is good a time as ever.

“Do we have to?” Team wrinkles his nose up at him and Win can’t resist leaning down and kissing him, just once, because it’s either do that or explode with fondness.

“Yeah, a little bit.” He admits and then has to resist the urge to kiss Team again when Team just sighs before settling in. Win has broken up with people so that they don’t have to have awkward conversations. Awkward conversations ended three relationships and a friends with benefits arrangement. Team just sighs and braces himself.

Until Team, once again.

He knows that if he’d said that last year, Team probably would have hit the ground running. Honestly, Win was probably in the same boat for a while there. But he feels safe now, secure in the knowledge that this isn’t gonna tear them apart or hurt them. He thinks Team must feel the same way, because he looks curious and slightly awkward already, but he hasn’t tensed up or tried to escape Win’s arms or bed, either.

“A couple days ago, you asked me about bottoming.”

“I don’t remember that.” Team suddenly ducks his head, cheeks going pink, “The end, goodnight, hia.” Win laughs and ends up needing to forcibly yank the blanket off Team’s face so they can look at each other again, “Team, come on. I promise, it’s gonna be weird but we can figure it out.”

“Ugh, fine,” Team complains, but he settles back down and they lay together in the dark for a few seconds in comfortable silence before Win starts up again.

“Yes, I remember bringing it up.” Team finally huffs, “What about it? You didn’t seem super into the idea.”

“I wasn’t.” Win admits, “But I wasn’t sure why.”

“Maybe you’re not into shoving things up your butt?”

“Okay.” Win pats Team’s face and resists the urge to cover his mouth. “Judging by what we do, like, nearly every day, I don’t think I have a problem with shoving things up butts.”

“Not my butt, maybe,” Team pinches him, “Maybe your butt is different. There are people like that, you know, who only like to put it in or be put in.”

“There are.” Win agrees, “But I never really thought I’d be one of them. I just,” he has to pause, gear himself up, “I’ve never done it before.”

Team stops where he’s been tracing insults into Win’s stomach, then sits up so he can look down at Win with wide eyes. Win can make out how big they are just using the moonlight streaking in through the windows and he tries not to flush under the surprised look.

“You haven’t? But you’ve done, like, everything!”

“I haven’t done everything, Team!” Win tries to decide if he should be amused or annoyed by that, “I have more experience than you, but that doesn’t mean I’m a sexpert, you know.”

“You sure act like it.” Team mutters and then yelps when Win smacks at his hip, “Okay, sorry! I just meant, you’re like...good, or whatever.”

“Thanks, or whatever,” Win sighs and stretches out, still under Team’s watchful, surprised eyes, “But yeah, I guess I just...got nervous. I talked to Dean about it -”

“Hia! Again!?”

“I talked to Dean about it -” Win repeats louder over Team’s whining, “And he helped me figure out that I’m not really worried about you topping, but more about me bottoming. It’s gonna be the first time I’m not able to, I guess, take the lead. You know more about bottoming than I do, experience-wise. I don’t wanna do it wrong.”

“Oh.” Team pauses and Win watches him let that sink in. When he smirks, Win can see that clearly in the moonlight, too. “Don’t worry, hia. I’ll be gentle.” he croons, and then switches back to normal, “But only if you want to.”

“I think I want to.” Win finds himself smiling, even as he reaches up to forcibly make the smirk go away with his fingers at the corners of Team’s mouth.

“Well.” Team smacks his hand away and flops back down, “I think I want to, too.”

“Good.” Win nods once, “See, that wasn’t so bad, right?”

Team hums, and they fall quiet again. Win does not expect it to last, and it doesn’t.

“Well.” Team sits up to look at him again, “Actually, if we’re gonna be awkward, I wanna talk about this, too. Why didn’t you talk to me about it if you were worried?”

Win cuts his eyes away. He was expecting the question but it still makes him feel called out and pulled open in a way he isn’t very fond of.

“Come on, hia.” Team pokes at his chest, “I know I’m not very good at talking and stuff, but I wish I could have helped you. I don’t really care if you talk to P’Dean, I guess, because I talk to Pharm, too, but this seems like something we should have worked out together?”

“You’re probably right.” Win admits and makes himself look back at Team, meet his eyes and hold them, “I was embarrassed, and I didn’t want to hurt your feelings. You don’t ask me about trying new stuff much, and I didn’t want to make you feel like you overstepped or anything. I just wanted to get my thoughts in order and Dean always helps with that.”

Team hums again, not agreeing or disagreeing, but just showing he’s listening. It’s one of Win’s favorite noises; just proof that Team isn’t sure but he’s still present and listening. He makes Win feel listened to. Just another until Team moment.

“I already know you aren’t actually cool, hia.” Team finally says and it would sting except for how it forces Win to laugh, bright and sudden.

“Rude! Rude, Team!”

“It’s true!” Team laughs back, shoving at Win’s hands when they fly up to pinch at his cheeks. He’s at a disadvantage, still using one arm to lean over Win while Win has both arms free but he eventually manages to catch both of them by a couple fingers on each hand and pin them to the bed above Win’s head with a loud huff of effort, “For real! I already know you aren’t some super cool senior, hia. I like you the way you are. If you’re embarrassed about something, you can just tell me, like I can tell you even when I’m embarrassed about something.”

“Yeah. I’m sorry, baby.” Win agrees, nodding slowly. Team adjusts his grip so he has Win by the wrists instead of just the fingers and Win lets him, feeling his neck and cheeks starting to heat at the way Team is leaning over him, holding him down with a playful sort of grip.

“It’s okay. I’m glad you could figure it out with P’Dean. But, you know, if something like this happens again...I want you to talk to me, too. Okay?”

“I promise.” Win says simply and knows that Team knows how much he means it.

“Good.” Team leans down for a peck, and then kisses him a few more times, until Win’s starting to feel a little dizzy with it. “Now, back to the issue at hand. Wanna practice?”

“Practice?” Win repeats dumbly, still blinking. He’s not used to Team taking that sort of initiative, kissing him so confidently, and he’s still recovering.

“Yeah, you know,” Team lets his wrists go and wiggles his fingers in front of his face, “Practice.”

“Oh.” Win says slowly and then nods without thinking about it too deeply, “Yes. Yeah. That sounds - good. Like a good idea. You want to?”

“Duh.” Team smirks, “It was my idea in the first place, remember, hia?”

“I remember.” Win says and then drags Team down for more of those deep, smooth kisses Team is handing out like candy tonight.

-

“I don’t wanna hear about it.” Dean says as soon as Win sits down, latte in hand and a smug smirk plastered on his face.

“Okay, but I’m gonna tell you anyway because you secretly do want to know.” Win says around his straw and takes immense pleasure in the way Dean’s already stoic face somehow falls even more.

[bifangirl09er]

Fandom: Between Us

Relationship: Win x Team

Rating: T

Ow! That hurts, another bruise for sleeping with my loving boyfriend, not in that way, just sleeping. It’s making me slightly crazy, but I love him too much to not be happy with it as well. He might be crazy and giving me bruises and cuts in my sleep, but he is just being a restless sleeper. This time though I am not going to get up so when he moves again, I lay on top of him to keep him still. I smile as he stays still and seems to relax in my hold. I love my boyfriend so much even this silly thing he does in his sleep, especially since I don’t think he knows he is doing it. Though that smile comes off my face when I hear him say, “Told you I’d get some cuddles.” Now I would get mad at him for manipulating me like that, but Team deserves everything I can give to him and if he wants cuddles he can get them. 

However, that doesn’t mean that I won’t be getting a bit of revenge for this, so I scoot away from him. I watch as he makes grabby hands as I completely leave his body, and usually, that would make me come back to him. Though this time I want to get a little revenge for months of kicks, punches, and bruises in my sleep. I shake my head as he pouts very likely expecting me to give in, but nope he is going to get it for a couple of days at least. I can see the moment where he realizes he messed up because he starts to get up and starts apologizing, “I am sorry Hia, I just wanted attention. I didn’t want to make you mad, please don’t be mad, I love you so much.” He climbs over me and kisses me on the forehead, my right eyelid, then my left, my left cheek, then the right, then my nose, then my chin, and then a brief peck on my jawline. Each kiss ends with an “I love you,” and “I’m sorry,” Honestly this is the best apology I have ever received, it reminds me of something I would do for him and never think he would do for me. 

After the sweet kisses I look up at his face and he just looks at me and asks worriedly, “Are we okay? I promise I didn’t try to hurt you, and actually, I started feeling bad when I saw a couple of bruises on you. It started because I was scared to ask for affection from you, then when I got better at that, it already became a habit, so please don’t be mad.” 

I smile to show that I am mad, but then respond, “What would you do to persuade me, hmm?” He just blushes in response and I shake my head, “No, sex or physical stuff will not do it.” He sighs and bites his lip, clearly worrying about it, and so I sigh and whisper in his ear, and then as I back up he nods his head smiling. 

AT LUNCH:

I watch as Pharm looks around confused, probably wondering where Team is, and see when he sees him. I smirk as he looks at me with confusion and then smiles when Team sits down two trays and drinks on the table. I smile as he sits down and kisses me on the cheek, and hands me one of the trays and drinks. Pharm finally looks at the both of us and asks, “When did you figure it out, Win?” I laugh and think, of course, Pharm knew about what Team was doing and would be able to tell right away that I knew now.

Team answers for me, “He found out today, I couldn’t keep it in anymore especially since he started getting bruises.” 

Pharm cringes in response and asks, “So, buying him food and coffee is punishment?” 

I shake my head, “No, I wasn’t mad about it, I just made him promise me that he won’t go about it that way. Since, I will always do anything for him and cuddle him, or any other affectionate thing with him at any time.” I look over at Team and continue, “You are the most important person to me and I wouldn’t want you to ever feel that you couldn’t ask for any of that.” I turn back to Pharm and explain the food and drink, “No, this isn’t punishment it is something that Team has always wanted to do.”

He looks like he is going to ask a question when Team responds, “Hia is always spoiling me with everything, and I have always wanted to spoil him even if it’s small. So, as a bonus and also to make my boyfriend happy, I bought him food and drink today.”

Pharm nods his head and as Team cuddles to my side, just smiles at us just happy that we are happy. 

Imagine Your OTP #503

Person A: *Wriggling in their sleep*

Person B: *Flops on top of them to keep them still*

Person B:

Person A:

Person B:

Person A: "Told you I'd get my cuddles."

[bifangirl09er]

Fandom: Between Us

Relationship: Win x Team

Rating: PG 13 just in case

I fall onto the bench at the lunch table right in front of my best friends and let out a big sigh. I let my head fall on the table as I wait for my boyfriend to come so we can eat lunch. I feel a hand on my head and look up to two worried faces as Manaow slowly takes her hand back and I slightly whine. So, she smiles and comes to sit beside me so she can play with my hair the way she knows I love. I feel somewhat relaxed as my headache, the level of a hangover slowly goes away. Then as I seem to relax more Pharm speaks up, “Bad day?” I nod my head in response until I realize that Manaow can’t pet my head so I stop. 

I put my head on Manaow’s shoulder because even though we constantly tease each other she always knows what to do when I don’t feel good. I lean up to kiss her cheek and then explain to my friends my disaster of a day, “Yeah honestly it comes down to me missing Win if you want the short version.”

I see Pharm give me a look and then Manaow states out loud, “We want the long version.” I sigh and try to figure out where to start. 

Okay, probably I should start this weekend, “So, as you both know, Win’s cousin’s wedding is next weekend. Well, since the people who are part of the wedding party work during the weeks, the planning and setting up have been on weekends. Most weekends I have been able to go down with Win for the whole weekend, but because of the project we have due on Wednesday, it was too hard for the whole weekend. Luckily I could stay until Saturday night which was when View and I came back here because we both had schoolwork to do. It was fine to be at the house by myself though it made me sad to be without Win, we have done longer than this. It’s just after we moved in together it’s been harder to be apart.”

I sigh and continue, “Though that isn’t the issue, with the stress of Win not being there, the craziness of the wedding, the pressure of the swim team, and the project, I was so stressed. This means that I have those wonderful nightmares which tend to go mostly away when I am with Win, but without him, it’s hard. Though the level of stress I have put on myself recently made it so my nightmares were just so bad, I was living in it for hours after I woke which meant that it was hard to do anything. I couldn’t even eat anything before swim practice because it made me feel sick. Then at my 5 AM practice, I was fine especially since I even got 10 seconds off my normal time that was until I had to run here to get breakfast. The problem was because I was rushing there and to here I wasn’t able to stretch before or afterward, so my muscles are barely able to move.” 

I feel my muscle jolt in pain and I try to not wince, but of course, my friends see it. Pharm gets up and takes my arm from my other from where Manaow is and starts massaging it. Wow, I have the best friends ever, they are not exactly what I need right now, but they are helping while I am waiting for the person I want. Though back to the story, “Then as you both know I got here late so I had only a couple of bites of my sandwich that Pharm made before we had to go to class. By the way, thanks again for the delicious sandwich Pharm, actually can you get the box out of my bag because I can’t wait to eat until Hia gets here.” I watch as he nods and opens my bag and gets out the box with the sandwich in it. I smile as I make grabby hands and he laughs and opens it for me and put it in my open hand. 

I take one bite and smile at my best friend and then continue with the story, “So classes were mostly fine, until abstract algebra. Teacher Nim gave us a question that was so easy I could have done it in my sleep, except I was so tired that I couldn’t do it and front of the whole class got the question wrong. This easy question in a class that I, a freshman with graduate school students, didn’t get right in front of everyone. Nim said it was okay, but I could see that he was disappointed in me a little. So, I disappointed my favorite teacher, and then right when we got done I had to go to the library to drop off a book. It was supposed to be a boring visit that was supposed to take no time at all until I overheard a group of girls and boys talking about Win like he was a god. Forgetting that he had a boyfriend,” I growl out the last part and see the smiles of empathy from my friends. 

I sigh again and look down at the sandwich in my hand and start eating it feeling at least a little better, though I am still very hungry and want my Hia. I feel myself pout and feel the comforting arms from Manaow beside me which makes me fall into her hug. I hear Pharm and Manaow talking around me, but not listening to what they are saying because I just feel too tired for it. I am apparently out of it so much that when Manaow and Pharm push away I just look up to pout, that is until I see Pruk, Dean, and Del have joined the table and I stop. Though I feel sad since I don’t see Win until I feel a hand on my head and put my head back to see my boyfriend smiling worriedly at me from above. I stand up from my seat and kiss him on the cheek not caring at all that we are in public. Which I think is why he looks at me more worried and I respond, “I think I need a pick me up.”

He smiles and picks me up and I wrap my legs around him feeling better with him especially when he sits down in his normal seat. I just smile as I settle on his lap as he asks Manaow and Pharm what happened, and I let them explain as I just seek out the comfort of the love of my life. 

Imagine Your OTP #511

Person B: "I need a pick me up."

Person A: *Picks them up*

Person B: