#HHH WHAT IF MY RECENT POST IS RELATED TO THIS

[icewindandboringhorror]

whenever I feel kind of subtly frustrated, stagnant, and unhappy - generally upon closer inspection, I find it’s because I’ve been focusing outwardly too much. watching tv shows, using social media more, trying to keep up with a community from afar or lurking on forums or something, replying to messages, etc. etc. ... at some point it’s just like, I absolutely must disengage with the outside world, I need to write, or pace back and forth talking to myself about worldbuilding concepts I’m working on, or edit a video, or just like... do anything that actually feels moderately productive in working towards my goals or developing the things I actually care about. A lot of stuff that brings other people comfort (socialization, community, engaging with media) seems to just stress me out if they’re not constantly broken up by long periods of time to myself to focus on my weird little hobbies lol.. I don’t always realize this at first but sometimes it just hits me like ‘OH, I feel terrible lately because I’ve been primarily focused on The External for the past two days, time to Withdraw’ gghjjb

[mrs-miya]

truth or drink → friends with benefits edition

warning: not proofread; alcohol/drinking; mentions of sex and threesome.

genre: angst if u rly squint; fluff; slight suggestive

a/n: reblogs and feedback are appreciated! i had this idea yesterday when was about to sleep lol. i kinda rushed into this as well..? i wanted to post something writing related here hhh

atsumu: i’m atsumu

y/n: and i'm (y/n)

together: we’re friends with benefits!

the two of you laughed before looking at the director to ask if you can drink before the game starts.

y/n: can we? i feel terribly nervous about this.

“go ahead.”

you raised your shot glass as atsumu raised his, clanking it together before drinking the whiskey.

“how did you two meet each other?”

y/n: college. it was our first year and we both had the same class. we never really... conversed that much before unless it’s school-related.

atsumu: she was always present at my club mate’s parties, i’m gonna be honest here, i never really took her as a partygoer until i saw her dancing shamelessly with her friends. nothing indecent, it was actually funny because she doesn’t have any moves.

y/n: hey-!

seeing your reaction, atsumu let out a laugh causing you to pout at him.

“how long have you been friends with benefits?”

atsumu: almost 2 years now. started when we were in our last year of college.

atsumu: you ready for the first question?

he glanced at you for your approval before grabbing a card from a container.

atsumu: what should we call our relationship?

y/n: like i- we said, we’re friends with benefits!

atsumu only laughed at your answer.

y/n: rate my- oh wow, this early in the game?

you looked at the stage crew then to atsumu who seems to be clueless at the current situation

atsumu: go on, rate your what?

you shook your head, trying not to cringe at the question that you’re going to ask out loud.

y/n: rate my performance in bed...

atsumu stared at you for a millisecond, processing the question in his mind. then, with a smirk on his face, he folded his arms and looked at the camera.

atsumu: oh that’s easy. she’s an 11— 11/10. i wanna say a bigger number but it might sound cheesy.

y/n: when was the last time you’ve slept with a person that’s not me?

atsumu: 3 years ago, at suna’s party.

y/n: that was before we had... this relationship. You’ve never really slept with anyone else recently? or last year?

atsumu shook his head, smiling at you.

atsumu: you?

y/n: well i don't think i did. unless i was too drunk to remember – hopefully that didn’t happen.

atsumu: as far as i know, it didn’t.

y/n: oh, well, thank God.

atsumu grabs a card and his eyebrows perked up at the question he’s now going to ask

atsumu: oh~ this is an interesting question.

y/n: you’re making me nervous, tsum.

he looks at you, a smirk formed on his face as he read the question outloud.

atsumu: have you ever thought about having a threesome with me and a friend?

now it was your turn to get flustered, you held up your palms and covered your face to it, contemplating if you’re going to drink to it or not.

y/n: well, i’d be lying if i said i haven’t.

atsumu: really? with who?

y/n: yeah. but to answer your second question, i’m going to drink to that.

atsumu leaned back on his chair, groaning at your answer. he makes a mental note to pester you about it later.

y/n: now it's my turn to ask a spicy question.

atsumu: ask it away, ’m not afraid to answer ‘em.

y/n: yeah you never drank to a question.

y/n: anyway, name your favorite and least favorite place we had sex in.

atsumu: hmm, my favorite would be the kitchen counter. but my least favorite...

he dragged out the last word, shaking his head at the same time.

atsumu: i can’t believe i’m going to do this...

atsumu takes the shot glass beside him, drinking the whiskey in one go.

y/n: hey, if it makes you feel better i wouldn’t answer that too!

when atsumu picked the top card, he let out a sigh as he mentally read the question.

atsumu: are you afraid of commitment?

y/n: you know full well i’m not.

you gave him a soft smile.

“how about you atsumu?”

atsumu: ... before, yes. i was afraid of commitment, like really afraid of it. but now... i’ve been thinking about it and maybe it doesn’t sound so bad.

atsumu let out a quiet chuckle, avoiding your eyes.

y/n: this is why 2 of his exes left him.

atsumu: hey now, those are all in the past!

y/n: after a few months of being friends with benefits with him, i asked him a question - only out of curiosity. i asked him if we could be... something more and he said that he doesn’t see us being ‘something more.’ it’s understandable, honestly, considering the relationship we’re in.

you smiled at the card in front of you before looking at atsumu.

y/n: do you think i love you?

atsumu: i do. in fact, i’ve known for a while, not to sound too cheesy but i can see it through your eyes. it shines differently than when we started.

a small gasp came out of you before mumbling a “how?” to yourself.

“what about you (y/n)? do you think atsumu loves you?”

the way you’re playing with your fingers as a sign of nervousness didn’t go unnoticed by atsumu.

y/n: i’m not sure, to be honest. sometimes, i feel like he loves me and wants us to be ‘something more.’ but when i think about that, i also think about what he said a year ago. i don’t know..! he makes me confused.

you covered yourself with a laugh, hoping you weren’t assuming the wrong things.

a woman from backstage handed you two cards, one for each of you.

y/n: this is the last question right?

the woman nodded at you before leaving the set. you gestured atsumu to go first, his mind preparing for what’s about to be asked and answered. he took a short breath before flipping the card to read the question

atsumu: do you love me?

y/n: now that the cat’s out of the bag... yes, i love you.

atsumu: okay... your turn.

the set was still, the two of you talking to each other almost in whispers. as you flipped your card, you suddenly felt like your stomach was filled with butterflies.

you bit your lip in agitation before looking at atsumu.

y/n: it’s— it’s the same question.

atsumu positioned himself properly, both arms on the table. he exhaled as he gazed at you longingly.

atsumu: if you think i don’t... then you’re wrong. i love you too. probably more than how i think i do.

extra:

y/n: did you just ask me out? in a video?

atsumu: i guess so. i can ask you out again later if you want.

you both let out a hearty laugh causing the stage crew to laugh with you.

y/n: i’m gonna come over later and we’re gonna talk about this properly.

atsumu: come over? just live with me, most of your clothes are there anyway.

y/n: are you now asking me to move in with you..?!

[captaincryolicious]

hi zep! long time no see lmao

i saw your recent,,, vent? can i call it that? and honestly i couldn't help but relate; i recently posted something similar to my own blog about the comparison and being unsatisfied with my own writing. to me, it all boiled down to the fact i started sharing what i write, when before it used to be all for me, no matter the quality of the content. even if i say i don't care, notes are a reward and brains are easy to get addicted to positive feedback (aka the notes). maybe you can relate to this?

regardless, imo, all of the works you've put out in your little corner of tumblr are amazing. you're a very talented writer, the imagery and feeling being so easy to grasp and to feel it myself. i hope you can find joy in writing again soon. <3

—👁️‍🗨️

aaa hello! it's been a while indeed. happy to see you again ^^.

you're totally right, honestly. the notes and feedback are all part of it. this is probably going to sound super whiny, but it all kinda began when i realized that none of my posts has reached the 1k notes yet? i see so many posts on my dash reach these numbers and i literally thought "aren't mine good enough?" and that's when it started going downhill.

it also doesn't help that my last posts didn't do very well. it genuinely makes me feel like the quality of my writing has gone down. it also happens when i read through my own writing. i truly believe that my writing has lost its spark? i don't even know anymore if i'm just seeing things or if it's really true but it's driving me nuts hhh. but yes, validation is kinda addicting. sometimes the fact that i don't have a lot of people hyping up my work really disencourages me lol (but i'm super grateful for the people who do, like so so so super thankful!)

aaa this kinda turned into a rant again i'm so sorry!! but thank you so much for taking the time to stop by and tell me this. what you wrote at the end truly made me feel better. i think i even have the courage to open my writing doc now lol. thank you so much! and once again i'm happy to hear from you again!

[waka-chan-out]

i saw that anon ask if you wrote in different AUs and as someone who spends almost their entire 4 hour shift, five days a week, thinking about haikyuu boys in different AUs i would like to share my recent hyperfixations

— medieval AU (my personal favorite,, i just love medieval europe hhh but i think it would be cool too for like different periods in japan like edo period or smth like that)

— roman gladiator au. basically i just want to be wrecked by a big beefy man

— ok so idk if you’ve seen the show “the 100” but basically 100 teenage prisoners are living on a space ship because the world essentially ended bc of a bunch of bombs. but the ship is running out of air so they send these prisoners to the ground to try and survive to conserve air. idk i’ve always though that the 100 au was so cool bc i love sci-fi

— i saw this one on tiktok but it’s a soulmate au where you can hear in your head when your s/o sings. and in the au person a is a super famous singer and person b is just barely making it by

— idk if this would be considered an au? but like reincarnation au? but basically you keep being reincarnated until you find what you want most in life

but yeah that’s what i’ve been thinking about as of late!!

okay i’m obsessed with all of these but the roman one in particular has struck my interest. i’m absolutely obsessed with that kind of thing so maybe i’ll have to try that out.

honestly i have a few AUs that i think about a lot even if they aren’t smut related. like if i was an artist i’d draw them, if that makes sense, but it’s hard to properly portray in a oneshot (though i’d be very willing to try.)

one of my favorite movies is IT (2017) and i think about a haikyuu AU all the time. one of my favorite artists on instagram has done that one but i think all the time about what the characters’ fears would be and how they’d react (making myself emotional with the miya twins one in the process) and i just love it sm.

now i’m thinking i’ll definitely write my little conservative town one because i’ve received two votes yes and i am obsessed with it so i totally want to do it.

i have a few crime related ones brewing in my brain because i’m a true crime fanatic and just thinking about this shit makes me excited (no dark content though. i haven’t really ever posted or reblogged that and i don’t want any of my followers subjected to that when i haven’t established myself as a blog that does that).

meg is gonna write a zombie apocalypse AU at some point. i’m obsessed with zombie movies and i feel like that’s inevitable.

any other suggestions or headcanons are more than welcome because shskdb i love these new ideas you guys keep it up.

[star-puff]

9, 24 and 48 for the fanfic ask game! 🤗

9. What are your favorite fanfics?

oh no sflksd i’ll list my current hq favorites that come to mind .

- ampersand by infantblue (on ao3)

you already know how much i love this monster of a fic fhsdlfksd

- the blooming, bloody sun by @sa-suga 

and again i’ve made my love for this fic Well Known by now but i literally can’t shut up about it and i Won’t, because the amount of worldbuilding and detail crafted into this world deserves So Much Love. like. all the love in the world.

- speak it free by @sa-suga

yes, another kyouka fic. surprised? you shouldn’t be!! but no yeah this fic came from her Heart and you Can Tell ughsfdhsdk it’s so good you guys. so so good. and i think everyone needs a good kiyoko x reader fic at least once in their lives. i rb’d an almost incoherent rant about this fic so if you’re interested 😀👍

- blooming day by @stelleum

tbh this fic just really hit home for me sfdfldskj. i feel like the first generation asian-american/asian-canadian experience is kind of universal all around. it’s this conflict between knowing the sacrifices your parents have made for you but at the same time you’re your Own Person and you have issues of your own and you lash out because you’re still Human, not the Perfect Child that everyone wants. there’s only 3 chapters out rn but hhh ngl every chapter made my heart ache bc of how natural it felt and how hard i related to it :’)

- literally everything by @krystallisert. i’m serious. everything. i think aj is the first person i think of when people say that fanfic authors are just as good, if not better, than the published authors out there. her voice is so sophisticated and there’s so much attention in her worldbuilding it’s like you’ve immersed yourself in this world she’s created for your entire life. she’s definitely someone i consider the Queen of AUs, from her dystopian (in defiance in defiance in defiance in defiance-) series to her “even death” series to FUCKING!! DA CAPO!!!! oh my god. anyways. she just recently posted a medieval royalty au with oikawa that i still Need To Read but i’m waiting until i have a lull in my school work so i can give it my Full Attention. BUT THAT DOESN’T MEAN YOU NEED TO WAIT. GO READ IT!! it’s by aj so no doubt it’s going to be Outstanding.

24. How many WIPs (work-in-progress) do you’ve got?

uhhhh. let’s see. i have 5 wips Though Out for my main m.list. and then i have 36 from the two req events that i had set up :’’’) it’s definitely a work in progress .

48.  What is your favorite sentence that you’ve used in a fanfic?

answered here

[fictionkinfessions]

I’m trying to repress this one and I keep seeing other people posting about the source here it’s just way too close to uncanny valley hhh I don’t even like kinning from live action movies let alone this bs. Can these kinfeels Go Away Please I do not care if it’s a fictional universe it Bugs Me, it Feels Bad.

Worst part is on not even sure which one I’m getting feels for. It’s both of them. Crap it’s both of them! AUGH no this isn’t allowed!!! Brain sTOP PROJECTING ONTO YOUTUBE SHIT JUST BECAUSE IM HYPERFOCUSED ON IT!

AT LEAST PICK THE ONE WHO IS JUST LIKE CURRENT ME DOWN TO THE AGE, COLLEGE MAJOR, AND NEUROLOGICAL DISORDERS! WHY THESE TWO??? IM NOTHING LIKE THEM DESPITE TYPING THIS IN ALL CAPS WHICH... is exactly what one of them would do. And maybe this feels like a shift. But that’s IRRELEVANT.

And SO WHAT if I have vivid memories of both canon and non canon events related to the other one! Including who my-HIS biological parents were! Whatever!

IM NOT ADMITTING IT. IM NOT. IM NOT A TWITCH STREAMERS SELF INSERT LET ALONE TWO OF THEM OKAY! THIS IS NOT A DESPERATE PLEA FOR SUPPORT EITHER. IM NOT COPING BADLY WITH RECENT EVENTS!

[magicalbananalampparty]

I've just come back to MCL, and I just recently discovered the sequels of HSL hhh (눈_눈) and honestly I'm quite disappointed in... all kind of aspects of the game...?

I missed the characters, that's precisely why I looked for my account's password in the abysses of my sh*tty memory. But I just found out that most of them are... gone...

I cannot relate to the UL Candy's personality, and her studying art was really unexpected. I thought she could have a job organizing events, since she's done really good things in HS (the concert for example). Anyway, this is really the tiniest problem of UL, from what I have seen so far.

I don't consider myself to be part of the fandom, since I stopped playing a while ago (I still want to finish HSL though but the new AP system...? I wish Candy could just stop overthinking) and I just watch YT videos about UL, but I'm truly grateful to all the people who post memes/any kind of content about the boys who are gone, it really helps me to cope with that.

[luvknow]

wait wait wait do you have tattoos??!! could you describe them hhh they seem so cool

i do, how did you know!? i dont remember posting abt them recently lolol

queen of hearts in red on wrist

rose in black on forearmq

"weightless" in red on forearm for my favorite all time low song

a matching black fish tat w my homie cuz we're too scared for a real koi fish tat LOL

capricorn constellation in black on forearm

"freely" in black for my favorite day6 song

an outline of a crystal in black on my bicep but i hate it so i wanna cover it up LOL

i need more 😐 idk what i want yet tho. i wanted something princess mononoke related but everything abt that movie is BIG so idk i was thinking her red mask ???? and i want a couple more random ones like my parents birth years and i want a flash tat for friday the 13th but yknow.... Global Pandemic 😐

[elriccs]

2, 10-12, 21? hehe

Do you do something creative/related “irl” as well? ahhh no not really, all my creativity is limited to me posting edits here on tumblr haha 

What graphics / gif trends do you dislike most? i really can’t think of anything specific? but i really don’t like this one coloring that bumps the contrast up to the heavens and you can’t really see what’s going on because everything is too bright?? of course to each their own taste wise but i really dislike it 

What graphics / gif trends do you like most?

minimalistic edits that look like posters? i live for those, i really like it when a creator sits down and thinks of a cool poster design for a certain character, i find this mostly with the 6 panels edits

Font(s) you like using

the font i used in the reigen and hisoka edits recently, it’s called Nouvelle Vague

How much time do you spend on a single graphic / gif?

two panel edits take less time even if the details on them show better (so it might seem more complicated), the most taxing ones are the 6 panels edit and they usually take 4-6 hours approximately? 

thank you for sending those!! 

Ask a graphic / gif maker 👀💕

[smallbluelight]

Tagged by @ilikemarshmallows

Instructions: Tag 10 followers that you wanna get to know better

Name: Keisey

Gender: Female

Star Sign: Pisces

Height: 5′1 (been the same height since 14 TvT . Also sad bc Ive been mistaken to be younger than my age a loot.)

Sexuality: Straight

Hogwarts House: I don't know, Im not a fan of Harry Potter

Favourite Animal: Birds due to my first fandom (Angry Birds), and they're so diverse

Average Hours of Sleep: 6-7 hours.

Current Time: 10:00 pm

Dog or Cats: Both but I lean more to cats (can't really have them as pets anyway bc of allergies)

Blankets You Sleep With: It varies, depending on how cold or how hot the room is. I do have a small teddy of which I had for years that I like to sleep with :')

Dream Job: Something art related I guess? Im actually not sure. There was a time where I liked to be an astronaut but then it changed to wanting to be a nurse like my mother. I can't take math and science without almost failing and I don't want to be a nurse anymore. I had the drawing hobby since 11 and I love making comics since Im not good at writing things. Maybe someday a comic artist or an illustrator? Really not sure now hhh

When I Made My Blog: June 2019 with that first post. But I've had this acc longer than that. I just barely used it to post things.

Followers: 58

Why I Made a Tumblr: Just to be updated with the people I follow on other social medias. But then I got too into AvA and AvM that I found a small community of artists for the fandom and I want to join in. I may not always upload AvA stuff and recently just my own stuff but I love seeing art for the fandom ;u; (also other fandoms im in too)

Reason For My URL: Name that involves one of my favorite colors and is what I use on other websites I don't do much with. (And Tumblr ended up getting used so here we are)

@m-pennanti @jellyloveru @lunadrawstrash @toastraccoon @raranaura78

[pixeltalia]

Hey! I really love your recent post! It's so great to learn smth about someone who makes you happy with their asdfhjkhch I think it's great you like sewing especially bc it's a hobby that's 'uncool for young ppl'. It's also fine to listen to bands that are seen as emo, but only listen if you enjoy it :) All together I really like you and your blog/art and want to thank you so much for making hetalia art and updating regularly bc it's not very common. Plz stay hydrated and don't die in the heat!

hhh thank u!!! i have the most all-over the place music taste,,, i have a playlist that goes from abba to rites of spring (1986 post-hardcore band that basically started emo) to dragostea din tei so,,,

and, yeah, sewing is a weird one ig?? it feels odd bc even if young ppl say they like sewing it usually means like,, cosplay making or dress making or some and like,, id love to do that and im working towards it!! but my Skill and Experience is in cross stitch and embroidery,,,, so whenever i try to join stuff related to that it's just me, a 16yo guy, and a bunch of 60yo women lol,, but cross stitch is kinda what got me into pixel art so i gotta say,, my life would be very different without it

also!! thank u for appreciating my blog!! ik i post a lot (i try to do an art post of some kind at least daily) and it probably annoys some ppl but like,, i feel like ive been way less depressed since starting this blog??? idk i seem to be in an oversharing mood but u know,,, ive been depressed as long as i can remember and ive always rlly struggled with loneliness and finally feeling like part of a community is rlly helping??? wow that is wayyyyyyy too deep but yeah. makes me feel,,,, less cosmically and/or socially insignificant

sorry for such a long answer but thank u for ur ask!!! in case i can't tell,, i don't get a chance to talk about this much

[sailorzakuro]

What are your thoughts on this year's casting for NogiMyu?

Omg I didn’t even know they’d announced a new NogiMyu until I got this XD. But when I looked it up OMG I’M SO EXCITED right now I can spam this Tumblr with more Nogi members claiming it’s Sera Myu related MWAHAHA XD. I’ll go through them 1 by 1:

Sailor Moon: Shiori Kubo - I think Shiori will be a great Sailor Moon! She certainly has a cute style and she’s a great performer.Sailor Mercury: Hazuki Mukai - I’ve said this before Hazuki is a pretty underrated 3rd gen so I’m happy she’s getting recognition here! Honestly before this I would have had her for Mars but I think she’d do well as Mercury!Sailor Mars: Seira Hayakawa - Since she’s a 4th gen I haven’t seen much of her yet (I need to watch recent episodes of Nogizaka Under Construction to see them haha) but since she’s new to me I’ll just assume the casting made an informed decision XD.Sailor Jupiter: Junna Ito - JUNNA IS GOING TO BE IN NOGIMYU DO YOU KNOW HOW HAPPY I AM I also thought of Junna for Mars but Jupiter works just fine but omg Junna is SO underrated she’s my 2nd favourite 2nd gen (1st is Karin even though she’s graduated T_T) and I think she’s SO suited for a character like Jupiter!!Sailor Venus: Mayu Tamura - Again, a 4th gen so I don’t know much about her but she certainly looks the part of Venus XD. I may have to watch some Nogizaka Under Construction for her and Seira so I’ll get back to you XD.

Omg final thoughts I’m SO EXCITED THEY’RE DOING ANOTHER NOGIMYU and they’ve abandoned the fucking team thing THANK YOU honestly the whole Team MOON/Team STAR thing was bringing this fandom apart I say APART XD. I’m presuming with this news if they do more they’ll change casting with every new production which means this time next year you’ll be getting a similar post XD. OBVIOUSLY I’m sad Hinachima, Zukkii and all my other favourites aren’t returning (esp my wife hhh) but if the casting is going to change each time then I’m not too sad cos it’s not like they’re being replaced XD.

[punkcryptids]

LIFE IS STRANGE 2 EPISODE 3

okay, so throughout the recent life is strange games i have made posts such as this one; I would make a bullet-point list of my ideas and thoughts of the game, certain little lines or details and shit. i did this for the farewell episode, i think before the storm (at least one of the episodes), and captain spirit. i tried to do this for life is strange 2, but Tumblr fucking killed itself when i tried, like i even restarted the fucking episode to redo it. so i don't think ive done these for life is strange 2, but honestly they're a lot of fun to rant out my opinions of the game and the little details and shit so, without further ado, here's this -spoiler full- little list.

also, little sidenote: i had no clue this was supposed to come out, i heard jack shit about it so like, the day after it was released i saw an article, googled it, and fucking died and felt so stupid. so anyways. let's begin.

*spoilers ahead, ill tag the post too but smh once got anon hate over this shit*

ok just to start this off, the little like "last time on life is strange" refresher is really nice and unique and i fucking love it still

the wolf drawings v cute

not game related but this fucking incense im burning is floating across the screen and it's so fucking ominous

ALSO NOT GAME RELATED BUT FUCKIN MY HEADPHONES GIVING OUT

why the fuck is Chris a racoon

okay now game points for the a c t u a l fucking game??

ok this fuckin music fuckin kicking

ok i like the choice to start this episode with like a flashback, i really like that choice (also three bullet points in a row i start with "ok" v original)

yo sean wanna give me that weed bag? could use some brother skksks

fuck Daniel his room nice af

honestly the instant thought when Daniel came into Sean's room was that he was stealing his weed? cause I could've sworn that's where it was in the first episode

i love his dad sksksk

i hate that fucking toy okay, it's awful

ok low-key, i hate kids and if i Sean I'd be so annoyed? because like he came into Sean's room when he's been told not to, and like snuck in there, and then lied about Sean hitting him (bc I didn't hit him) and then as soon as Sean goes to apologize he's like "get out" like u little hypocritical shit hhhh. love Daniel but it's fuckin annoying

"and don't touch my stuff" (comes into Sean's room and touches shit)

LITERALLY FUCKING TOOK HIS WATCH BUT "don't touch my stuff"

Sean is a dick to Daniel sometimes but like he still acted like a good brother in the end and i would've been pissed so like good on Sean lmao

JESUS FUCK HIS HAIR

*inhales* AAAAAAAA

love the drawing of the deer smoking

wonder why they got kicked off the ranch

bRO A WEED FARM FUCK HIT ME UP SEAN WHAT U DOIN

i want a fucking joint Jesus Christ Sean fucking share? rude ass

ok so ur shirtless

good doggie

accidentally trapped the dog whoopsies

american grafitti

"fuckin ranch of hell AVOID" what the fuck happened there?

i like penny, he seems cool af

Daniel's fucking hair yikes

also why the hell he being a dick to us for? why the fuck it so hostile?

I like Finn too

"it was my turn" you had been throwing them?? for the entire morning wHY IS HE FUCKIN MAD AT US??

YOU FUCKING USED YOUR POWERS SO I WOULD MISS WHAT THE FUCK

NO FUCK YOU, YOU LITTLE ASSHOLE YOU JUST FUCKING THREW ME

Daniel is pissing me off I s2g

why is asking about the watch a "big choice"

oh okay so finn replaced sean and now daniel is just a little fucking asshole about it

big Joe big angry

he just fuckin hit her head what the fuck hell yeah I'll intervene fuck you??

why does he want to talk to me what the fuck did i do

okay if Daniel loses us this job i will fight him

am i really trimming weed rn i dont think y'all understand how much my stoner ass is jealous

uh? random ass glitch of flying scissors

okay whatever sounds effects are in the background of talking with Finn sound like lis 1 music and im freaked

if we get caught while training I'm murdering someone

new emo daniel

that music is fucking intense

"im not a kid anymore" I'm gonna fucking hit this kid I s2g

pass me the BONG

"how come you can and i can't" YOURE NINE DANIEL GODDAMN WAIT A COUPLE YEARS

I GET TO HIT THE BONG

ok Sean, you had one like mediocre bong hit and like two hits from that joint like you should not be that high. high screen is cool tho

ALSO HE DIDNT CLEAR IT THERE WAS STILL SMOKE

someone pass me more weed

I have taken 3 drinks of this beer and Sean cannot see anyone but the guy he's focusing on

i wanna stay with these guys ffs I don't want to go to mexico

fuckin daniel, hhh i feel bad that I didn't go with him but i wanna have fun :(

edgy boi now

IM ABOUT TO GET IN SO MUCH SHIT FUCK

this song is a bop tf

i feel like they haven't had as much copyrighted music in this season

nice work montage

i wish there was an option to say I'd buy Daniel some food that he wants :/ I get we have to save but fuck :/ trying to win big brother points and game won't let me

thank u Merrill im glad ur not mad at me uwu

DANIEL I SWEAR TO GOD

ARE YOU KIDDING ME

DID HE JUST

don't punch out finn i love him

why is Daniel showing him his powers like i get he threw the thing at big Joe but why this necessary,,,

can we give Daniel a haircut now like im sorry but his fuckin hair

FINN YOU CANNOT USE DANIEL TO BREAK INTO SHIT

they like took 1 drink of that beer and it was done what

you cannot fucking use daniel if they make me i will feel like shit

gimmie tattoo

ok ik I should probably say "wolf" bc of the symbolism throughout the game but like fuckin surprise me Cassidy

what is with this episode and fuckin nudity

i can literally see her nipple under the water wtf u good

I didn't talk to anyone else, just Finn and then fucked Cassidy so ya know

fucking finn are you fucking serious

shut the fuck up stop trying to convince me shit

fuck you I didn't fucking do this

fuck you finn

and you got him fucking shot you fucking proud? hm? fucking dick.

ok so Cassidy is still here, and Finn, and Merrill, and I swear to God, if fucking Daniel left us I will fucking

THERE'S A FUCKING GLASS SHARD IN MY FUCKING EYE ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME

okay so uh this episode? not my favorite. at all. especially because the choices didn't fucking matter. the "big" choices are supposed to fucking matter but they didn't and that really kinda pisses me off. and idk. i didn't care for this episode but like :/ time to wait till august

[flyinggabriela]

rules: answer the questions in a new post and tag 10 followers you want to know better

Got tagged by @moping-imp

Thank you!! I've never been tagger to one of these before, such an honor! I hope we can talk someday, if you're ok with that! 💕

1. Named after anyone?

I think I'm named after Gabriela Mistral, a chilean poet!

2. Last time you cried laughed?

Just some moments ago. I saw a video on Twitter where the trailer to the Sonic's movie was playing and all the people said "uh, meow" at the same time, it was hilarious [ https://twitter.com/Geeky_Girl75/status/1127035306669215745?s=19 ]

(And I think the last time I cried was,,, yesterday?? I read a short Moomin comic that made me feel so,, sad h)

3. Do you have kids?

No, I'm still very young but I would like to have one day,,

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot?

Nah

5. What’s the first thing you notice about people?

I guess their eyes, but I also care a lot about the lips, for some reason??

6. What’s your eye color?

Mostly brown,,

7. Scary movie or happy ending?

HAPPY ENDING PLEASE

8. Where were you born?

Uhhh Spain,

9. What are your hobbies?

Drawing,, and I also play a little bit the ukelele, but I haven't been playing recently :(

10. Do you have any pets?

Yes! I have 3 cats (one of them is still a baby) and one dog

11. What sports do you/have you played?

I don't like sports hhh

12. How tall are you?

1.80m // 5.9ft

13. Favorite subject in school?

I guess I could say English?? I also like arts, and this year I stared Latin and Ancient Greek, and I have a really cool teacher, so I enjoy those subjects alot

14. Dream job?

Something related to art, tbh,,,,

15. Tagging:

I don't,, know that much people here on Tumblr :( I'll tag some of my favorite blogs, obviously it's not mandatory, just do it if you feel like it! 💖

@mwg-7 @edgymoss @coolboysclub

[lucalicatteart]

Uvra Istill: brief species overview

(lol this is such an older species i don't have any good photos for them except for this random sketchy thing from like 2 years ago but I guess that'll have to do for now) .  Sometimes for smaller species/subspecies/groups that aren't very much focused on in my worldbuilding yet, I'll just do these sorts of posts where it's just a small outline of main points about the species, rather than an elaborate multi-part series of informational posts (like how I do with the Avirre'thel, or what  I plan to do with certain major groups of Elves or Jhevona, etc.) , so here's a smaller condensed bit of info about them. And if I choose to work more on them in the future, I'll make new posts and elaborations, but for now it's just a brief bit lol (info under read more)

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!! (NOTE: for some bastard reason this ‘read more’ sometimes doesn’t work when viewing the blog in the sidebar and it just shows up as a full long post?? Sorry if it shows up super long for you, I promise there is a ‘read more’ here, and it’s supposed to keep most of the text of the post hidden unless you click on it, but for some reason sometimes it glitches or something and it just shows up on my blog full length. If you’re having this problem just view my blog in a new tab on it’s own or etc. instead of in the sidebar way. Sorry about that, I still have no idea what’s causing this glitch (which only started recently I think) and i don’t know why the read more works on some posts but not others. If you have any info about how to fix it let me know lol hhh) !!

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✵Overview✵

♤ Uvra Istill are a catlike hybrid species that mostly all reside in a closed off area on a collective living property. They aren’t capable of magic but typically do have  higher than average physical  abilities and are known to excel at strategy, hunting, hand eye coordination, and thinking quickly (though people are unsure whether this is actually an innate inclination or more to do with how strictly they're raised and trained in these skills since childhood).

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♤ They may come off to outsiders an uncivilized due to their common imagery of bones, dead animals, and rocks/caves, but they are actually highly "civilized" (in the common use of the word, meaning they utilize/understand most modern science, technology, etc.)

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♤ They’re known to be frequently in conflict with neighboring groups, due to a few of their very outspoken members, but overall they keep to themselves by nature. Though they do commonly show up at supernatural realm wide events, and are closely involved in politics and business of outside species, they consider this just meaningless social participation for the sake of being polite.

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♤ Lifespan is currently unknown, since none have died of natural causes at this point. But the oldest member has gotten to live to about 1465 years old (with the aid of magic and spells and enchantments they purchased).

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♤ They’ve never given themselves a specific name, ‘Uvra Istill’ is simply a nickname given to them by the natives of the land they settled in a few thousand years ago, and the name stuck. It translates to ‘Animals of Death’, which most of the species found amusing and decided to keep using the name sarcastically for the humor of it.

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♤ Their culture can be brutal and hostile to it's own members, though they attempt to put on a nice appearance for outsiders.  However it's usually not like they're out killing each other and torturing members of their own species, despite bickering a lot, they do all still have a very strong group mentality, very "us VS. them" in terms of wholly supporting themselves and finding the lives and ideas of outsiders usually worthless, etc. So even when angry, they usually consider their own kind to be too sacred to ever harm one of their own too badly.  They've designed harsh rules against harming their own kind, just to dissuade anyone who may even think about it. They’re not usually thought of as the most law-abiding group of people, but most can agree not to harm each other, and those few that don't would still follow the rules simply out of fear of these punishments if nothing else.  So they're not really harming each other physically or anything, but by 'brutal' I guess I mean in terms of how strict and overly structured they are, and practices that can be mentally harmful (which they culturally don't recognize as a form of harm really lol, like locking someone in a closet for 4 days wouldn't break the "don't harm others" rule, but punching once someone would, so this kind of absurdly narrow definition of harm tends to foster a lot of passive aggressive behavior as everyone just thinks of worse and more indirect ways to harm each other)

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♤ There are only about 1500 in existence. Most of them live communally in the same area, but they have been known to leave the tribe and pursue their own interests. About 5% of them do this. But it’s typically preferred to stay. Though they’re not the most peaceful in terms of personal relation, they do all prefer to be around their own kind, and they have a sense of superiority about this. They can at the very least relate to each other culturally, and at the end of the day they will strongly look out for their own. Staying in the community is usually just a more rational decision, since it guarantees a sense of security and shared resources. They own a large section of fenced in property, and have three main mansions that they stay in collectively. (shown below.. which looks pretty tiny when drawn but like.. the whole property is massive in real life, there's so much on it, it's probably equivalent to like the size of a small town, but just if every town person threw their resources into a collective pool to bulldoze the entire place and build a single giant property out of it lol)

♤ Guide to above map :   

 1 - The main mansion, most of this is reserved for rooms where people live and sleep. About 1,300 Uvra Istill live on this main property (the other 200 have left for varying reasons), and out of those, about 800 of them live in this building. It’s 15 stories tall with elaborate decoration and design, and most of the rooms are very well sized, with personal bathrooms, walk in closets, and usually personal kitchens or extra rooms,, though these areas are often shared between 1 - 3 people (or more in the case of families, like a mother with 4 children or etc. may get a larger personal area to fit everyone in, etc.).  

 2 - This mansion is mostly empty, reserved for elaborate events and parties that they throw. It’s more of a ‘guest house’ technically. It’s  smaller than the residential ones, but is still massive. The upper floors are closed off, and reserved for who knows what. And there’s a large basement that leads to a intricate map of underground caves, but it’s not used often. There are many trap doors and false walls and hidden rooms,  since they are a very playful bunch and still like to play lighthearted (or sometimes not so lighthearted) tricks on people who come to visit them. 

 3 - This is the secondary residential mansion, with the rest of the Uvra Istill having bedrooms here. Typically this is where the community leaders and highly respected individuals  will live, it’s smaller, but the individual rooms are larger and more lavish. The bottom floors double as hobby rooms, with a massive library, science labs, athletic rooms, game rooms, lounge rooms, indoor pools and spas, fully stocked communal kitchens, arcades, art rooms, a full history museum dedicated to the species, their own art gallery, a cinema, bowling alley, sewing rooms and a fashion show area, and much much more. 

 4- The schooling area and large academic building with training courses, classrooms, and tons of rooms dedicated to a massive variety of academic subjects.

 5 - A  fancy ball sport area (probably the equivalent to humans having a golf course), running track, various sports courts, and an outdoor athletic pool.  

 6 - Elaborate gardens, including greenhouses, hedge mazes, multiple sitting/picnic areas, actual gardens with crops and trees of fruit and etc. where vegetation type food is produced, and massive flower walls or decorative flower arrangements. 

 7 - A large lake where people swim, fish, do boat racing, build waterslides, and participate in various water sports that require a space bigger than a pool (bodies are also dumped here sometimes lol).

 8 - A large courtyard with a fountain and different arrangements of seats and plants, where outdoor festivities are often held. When they throw parties, the guests will usually stay for about a week, so the parties often start out here and then move inside as the night progresses and people go to their rooms. 

 9 - A circle of thick dense woods which are nearly impossible to get through. They use this as a second layer of defense, in addition to the huge outside fences, they’ve engineered this treacherous string of miles of woods full of swamps, dangerous plants, extremely dangerous animals, impossible terrain, various traps, security cameras, robotically controlled weapons,  and hazardous chemicals. It’s guaranteed to keep people out (or in, possibly). 

 10 - The main gate, this is the only way in for guests. It’s the only break in the huge 30 foot thick reinforced metal fence that spans the outside of the entire area, and the only safe path through the woods. It takes about 30 minutes of keys and codes and unlocking security systems to get through,  so getting in or out is ensured to never be an easy or fast process. 

 11 - A second gate closure, not visible from the outside and only accessible or known about to the Uvra Istill. This doesn’t take as long to get through, and cuts straight under the woods, so they reserve this as a means of emergency evacuation (in the case that their helicopters or private jets are unable to just carry them out of the area). About 32 feet underwater in the lake, there’s an entrance to an underground cave system, which will take you under the woods and to the hidden gate on the other side. This is thoroughly covered in tricks and traps as well, but an Uvra Istill will already be informed of what areas to avoid.

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✵Physical Details✵

(bhbghg this is just a blurry screencap of an old sloppy image that's probably barely readable but, I don't have anything else for them. I plan to redo a lot of this old art and make it more visible and etc. but for now this is all I have to show their anatomy and etc.)

✵Culture✵

♤ They don’t have many traditions or ceremonies, but they do occasionally throw grand elaborate balls and parties once every few years. These events are notoriously controversial, as mishaps often occur (usually at LEAST one death happens, if not more), and most suspect foul play.  Despite this, thousands of people still show up at their events when the species has them, since they're pretty good at marketing themselves in a way that makes them seem mysterious and exclusive, thus desirable to people who are elitist or always wanting to get into things that nobody else is invited to or etc.. Lots of like, elven royals or random rich supernatural realm folks who always fall for the flattery of receiving an ~~Exclusive Invitation~~.    Additionally, many upper class folks seem to be more invested in thrilling exclusive entertainment than the lives of others, so honestly the fact that people die there may even be a selling point for them rather than a downside. It's interesting and exciting when things turn into a murder mystery party, and they would never be the one to die of course, since they're too rich and important, thus the spectacle of someone else dying may just be a fun experience that they can brag about to their friends in the royalty who didn't get to go, enthused by the potential Drama of it all etc.

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♤ They are still a fairly new species, so they haven’t had much time to evolve and progress as a culture, but they do still have a few characteristics of society and stereotypes they are well known for, despite only having existed in their current state for just around 500 years. (mostly due to their frequent attempts to win the favor of nobles and royalty and more powerful groups than their own, though they may not be well known to any common folk, they are definitely known about in many royal circles (though mostly as 'that weird death cult that throws amazing parties' lol))

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♤- How Outsiders View Them :  Though not everyone is the same, and of course there is naturally variance between individuals, just by way of cultural influence, they are known to be arrogant, sarcastic, cold , and somewhat argumentative. During political events that they attend, they’ve been known to be outspoken, and this doesn’t much help their relationships with other groups.  Though also being known for jokes, they simultaneously seem to  take themselves extremely seriously,  often refusing to participate in events because they find them ‘silly’ or ‘irrational’, which probably only contributes to their perceived air of superiority and people assuming the Uvra Istill feel they're above everything.  Though despite being known mainly for their less desirable traits, they do have great charm, and are skilled at getting people to agree with them. Other species often avoid doing business with Uvra Istill, out of fear that they'll be convinced to agree to an unfair deal that's not helpful to their interests. They may be moderately controversial, but they do have many positive assets and some  groups  appreciate this.  They're currently most closely allied with groups of elves that are in the Elven Alliance, solely because they're currently the dominant political power in the realm so obviously the Uvra Istill want to be liked by them. Though this kind of earned them the disfavor of the Avirre'thel, since the Avirre'thel helped send the species aid back when nobody else would very early on in their history before the Uvra Istill were even established,,, only for them to later suck up to/ally with the same group of elves who have consistently tried to destroy the Avirre'thel for thousands of years. The Uvra Istill tried to maintain relations by explaining how it's not actually a big deal and they didn't mean to seem insulting but they're just being practical or etc. but the Avirre'thel just like... don't care lol... Like, the Uvra Istill don't have any resources or technology or anything that the Avirre'thel really want to serve to gain from being on good terms with them, so they were just kind of like "...uh, okay... well anyway, bye." and kind of cut off political contact with them lol. Though the Uvra Istill try to trade with them or contact them from time to time the Avirre'thel are still just like "dude... we could not care less lmao... we don't need any of your traded goods.. please just let us self-isolate like we've been doing for centuries and stop trying to send letters to our government officials and shit... goodbye" .  The Uvra Istill have also been mildly involved with some groups of  humans (native to Nanyevimi, not earth humans)  in the past, but despite the Uvra Istill literally not having any magic or abilities that would really put them above humans, besides maybe having claws and shit, they still see humans as weaker than them and usually their only contact is in regards to trying to trick a group of humans into giving away all their resources or etc.  The Uvra Istill  are generally also viewed as tricksters, known for commonly pranking people or joking others for fun. Which of course this reputation mostly stems from what people see of them at their frequent exclusive parties, during which guests are usually toyed with quite a bit. Most of this is simply playful and lighthearted, but it can sometimes come off as more harsh or legitimately conning others, so people often have a complicated relationship with this species, they’re either extremely liked or vehemently hated, with hardly any in between.  But they have reasonably sized political and financial influence, so people are forced to do business with them regardless (and most of them are greatly amused by this, they find great humor in the fact that people hate them but are forced to come to them anyways lol).  They're also usually seen as a cult, even by people who are positive towards them and welcome alliances with the Uvra Istill. Because of their history as basically an entire species genetically engineered by one individual, with a culture set by basically one individual, all living on one collective property and "ruled" by one individual (or, now that individuals remaining family members since they've died), and also their very strict culture and odd practices and worship of death and etc.,, even from the most positive of outsiders they still tend to be viewed as a cult first and a distinct species second,, though they are genetically distinct and are technically their own species, also like 99% of the members of said species exist in the same area in a very weird cult-like environment so. Though definitely in the past they seemed more like a regular species and had their own cities and differing groups and schools of thought and etc., after ending up on the property they live on today and going through a few cultural changes (everyone being forced to follow strict personal rules set by the leader, etc.) it is a pretty strange atmosphere.

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♤ - Everyday life:  Many Uvra Istill spend most of their days just hanging out on their property, playing games, reading books, and practicing hobbies or academics. They have elected officials who will go and speak to outside species, but other than those few, most of them don’t leave very often.  Though their personalities differ greatly and they all break off into friend-groups and cliques amongst themselves, they do mostly all share traits of being highly self focused and self involved, so there’s not as many community activities as would be expected from people living so communally. They prefer to work on the things that interest them, and honestly couldn’t be bothered about much else. They do work together, but only because they know that by furthering the species, they are also helping themselves.  Despite their arrogant and outspoken reputation, many are actually very isolated and reserved, it just happens to be that the elected officials of the species can sometimes misrepresent their group as a whole (i.e., everyone perceiving them as being highly argumentative, just because many of the officials who represent them have been so, though in reality most of them are not, etc). Though some of the stereotypes are true for like 70% of the population (such as being very prideful, pretentious, serious, clever, and being easily amused by their own antics), many stereotypes actually are not, and tend to be exaggerations of misrepresentations.  Many do pair off into couples, but it’s common for their relationships to be somewhat volatile. In a culture that nearly breeds people to be controlling and dominant, it can be hard for them to get along with each other without always clashing heads and trying to out-compete or constantly take control of one another. Luckily, they’re also taught to be very rational, so most conflicts will eventually always be worked out and resolved, or sometimes will just go away because they’ll be tired of wasting energy on fighting.    They do have a hierarchy, with clearly defined leaders and other societal roles, but they also place importance on the fact that all of their members are provided for, so things are never too horribly imbalanced. They want their numbers to stay up and for people to not leave, so aside from the childhood training and heavy indoctrination, the second biggest way they do this is to have a luxurious environment where every member feels valued and provided for and is better than any other living situation they could access, which is where part of their focus on their property literally being like.. an elaborate mansion paradise comes from. They want to emphasize that members of the species have it better than everyone else, and have the personal freedom to just relax and lounge on golden couches all day, or doing whatever leisure activity they please.  This also helps with species pride, how they feel they're better than other groups and more advanced and etc., since every member of their species is living a better life than pretty much a majority of any other group in the surrounding areas, A paradise which they obviously deserve, since as a group they are all superior together.

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♤ They’re incredibly rich and live lavish lifestyles, which once again helps them manage to win over so much influence in politics and business.  Most of their original income was from crime (particularly anything involving assassinating or hunting people) , black market trades, bounty hunting, and selling corpses/meat. But they invested their money carefully and now own a few large areas full of important trade resources, so make most of their money through that. Though they do still often partake in their old ways of making money as well, it’s not as much of a necessity as it once was,  so they usually don’t feel like going through the effort. Those who enjoy the thrill of the hunt/murder or get cheap kicks from high-stakes illegal trading are allowed to stick with it and do as they please, but a majority have walked away from that lifestyle and now prefer to invest their time in hobbies and self-improvement, only occasionally hunting for personal gain when they have the impulse.  Usually these trades and resource management and stuff are negotiated by the leader of the group and their other close respected officials, and it's their responsibility/job to keep up with (on top of running everything around the property). These are the only people who actually HAVE to have a job, and must be working at all times, all other member of the species really don't have to do anything if they don't wish. Species members are allowed to have their own jobs (like being assassins, trading on their own, selling their crafts, etc.) outside of the property if they want, but they only get to keep 40% of their income, and the rest is invested back into the collective property, like to buy food for everyone and pay for servants to upkeep the mansions, etc. Nobody really has a problem with this though, since they recognize that being part of this collective is the only way they're able to live as luxuriously, as if they were on their own, even being able to keep 100% of their earnings, they'd still have a pretty measly existence (especially give then area they live in, like the places outside of the property), therefore even if it means giving a little bit up, being part of the collective is the only thing that allows them their otherwise perfect and leisurely lifestyle.

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♤ They are still similar to cats in many ways, most notably in their common cultural ideal of bringing dead things to their loved ones to show affection.

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♤ - Attire: As a culture, they place a large amount of significance on death, and even glorify it. They enjoy the imagery of death, and much of their clothing and decoration is inspired by this.  Their usual dress is a mix of dark but fancy looking clothing, often with elaborate designs and layers and patterns, mixed with more earthy items like bones and rags and rope.  Bones are extremely common accessories, especially as a way to honor relatives (like wearing your sister's bones after she dies in an accident), or for those who take pride in their kills and may wear them out of meaning or significance (ex: “This is my mother’s skull, she abused me so I reported her and she was publicly executed. I’m proud of that so I wear it to remind me of my victory over her”, or like  “This man killed my best friend so now I’m wearing his ribcage as an accessory.” , etc.) .    The tradition of modifying skulls and other bones to wear as masks or body decor has stuck around since the very olden days, when they used to use this as a tactic to intimidate others. As a young species they were still very weak and hadn’t physically bred themselves to a desired strength yet, so they often had to stalk other species and simply go after their leftovers in order to get food. Back in this time when they would follow a larger hunting species around, they commonly adorned themselves in any way to look larger and more threatening, so they wouldn’t be attacked themselves in the process. Though it serves no real purpose anymore, most of them keep doing this because they just find it fashionable, and sometimes humorous. They often adorn modified skulls with decorations and carvings, usually other strings of bones. They also commonly use smaller bones as piercings or buttons on their clothing, and medium sized ones are often strung into ornaments or necklaces. Larger ones may be worn as defensive armor, or just for show, often in more elaborate or culturally significant outfits.  The most common colors in their clothing are blacks, reds, grays, gold, and dark purple. They like thick very decorated and rich looking fabrics, with a bit of a tendency towards over-decoration or being almost absurdly showy. They basically just like to wear anything that communicates:  "Hey, I’m here, I’m fabulously rich, superior to you, intimidating, and highly skilled, ,  I could probably purchase your entire family with just the money I have in my pocket, and I also have an intense morbid fascination with death.“

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♤  Children are extensively trained in a highly competitive school-like environment. A regular kid will do about 65+ hours of skills training a week, and it’s encouraged to have at least completed a “high-school level” of education by 11 years old. By around 16 years, all mandatory training and education is complete, and the individual is free to pursue whatever they’d like, but up until then, their curriculum is brutal.  It’s not uncommon for some children to even resort to trying to kill each other just to take the top spot of their class, even though murder within the species isn't allowed, they put the children in such a hyper-competitive and strictly controlled environment that some are willing to risk punishment to try to harm a classmate sneakily or something. Their schooling usually involves a lot of physical training but also plenty of mental exercises, children are expected to be broadly knowledgeable about the world and proficient in a variety of subjects and skills. Additionally they spend plenty of time on "personality training".  Certain personality traits are culturally encouraged, and if an individual fails to possess them by the end of schooling, they are usually killed . When they see “just no hope for an individual”, their life may be voted on. The only type of murder permissible in the group is when a claim is made that a certain person should die, so the entire group gets together to debate the pros and cons, and casts votes at the end.  Though it can't be too close, if the votes were like 60% yes, 40% no, the person may let go or the subject would be re-voted on at a later date. But if over 75% of the group (all 1,000+ of them) decide that it would be reasonable to kill a certain person (for crimes they're accused of, or just failing to meet the group's standards and being a 'weak link', etc.) , then they're publicly executed.  So it is possible that some children can be put to death simply for not meeting certain standards of personality traits and ability.  Though this is extremely rare, since most people who train the children are very determined about it, they would rather push someone to the point that they die from working too hard than just giving up on them and sentencing them to a dishonorable public death. They would see that as a reflection of failure in themselves, which is unacceptable. So most trainers will stop at nothing to make sure the children will succeed, even occasionally resorting to methods that could potentially be considered borderline torture to “bring out the right traits in the individual”.  It is common for children to sometimes band together and try to escape, and there is actually a whole group of Uvra Istill who exist outside of the main community and call themselves “ex-members”, as they often proclaim that the entire species of Uvra Istill is just a massive cult (since the entire breeding of the species and creation of culture as a whole seems largely influenced by just one person alone, similar to the leader of a cult), and they hold extreme contempt for their own species.  Many “ex-members” wish to reform the species of Uvra Istil, or at least separate into two distinct branches, hopefully eventually evolving into different species entirely, but this is hard when the Uvra Istill name is so prominently associated with the society of the non ‘ex-members’.  The typical opinion of those still within the community, is that the “ex-members” are just weak, and are not deserving of sharing blood with them.  The main Uvra Istill are actually surprisingly open about their willingness to kill any “ex-members” (especially if they’re caught before escaping), just as many “ex-members” are openly aggressive about their desire to kill those who are still in the community. It’s a largely ignored conflict that many Uvra Istill feel hasn’t been accurately resolved or addressed, but most community leaders think it should just be ignored, which many people question.  Some outside groups in the past have distanced themselves from the Uvra Istill over this, as they have heard about some of the mistreatment, but the Uvra Istill are very secretive so most people they trade with don’t know the full extent (if they knew how severely children were sometimes being  psychologically abused and manipulated and traumatized to alter their personality (and also like doing stressful training sometimes over 70 hours a week, plus being killed if they don't meet the standard of the group), they would probably stop all trade with the Uvra Istill entirely , but they’re not currently fully aware.  (Though some groups like the Fanyiniri elves probably wouldn't give a shit lol)  Though it's hard for children, most when growing up actually don't mind anything that happened to them (though this is probably just a result of the indoctrination and propaganda they're taught) , because they kind of see it as a trial to earn their right to their positive existence. Yes, from age 6 - 16 you're going to be experiencing grueling training and be almost regularly traumatized (sometimes quite severely), but after that, you get to live for free, on this amazing beautiful property, with everything you've ever wanted provided for you at no cost, pretty much never having to train or work again if you don't want to (though most do want to), having the absolute freedom to just live a live of leisure free of any worldly concerns.  This is how they often frame it and feel it's justified, basically it's like you just have to just work your way up to conforming to the standards of the group and kind of earn your way into the species, but once you've made it past that threshold, you're one of them now, and they'll care for you and protect you at all costs. So it's still, incredibly, incredibly shitty, but many traumatized children find it worth it and justify it in retrospect by how many privileges and benefits they get afterwards.

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♤ They have a mostly modern diet now, but still enjoy plenty of raw meat, bones, rocks, and dirt as they’ve eaten in the past. They’re pretty big on alcohol, and enjoy creating new sorts of drinks to unveil every few years at parties.

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♤  Despite their sometimes harsh society, many actually report high levels of happiness and feel content with themselves and their lives. The most common issues they have are with managing emotional outbursts, anxiety, and symptoms of depression, but those have almost become so commonly accepted that there’s usually a variety of strategies for dealing with them, and as a group they are surprisingly supportive in helping each other with these.  Other than that, people seem typically very fulfilled, and are highly self confident and content, especially since most don’t have the stress of having to handle a job, and are allowed to just explore and improve their own interests, never running out of things to do to keep busy. Though there’s probably many dark things that go on behind the scenes and there are many ideas in their society that face wide criticism, they don’t accept outside criticism in the first place , and don’t care to listen to outside opinions of them, so for now things will continue as they are, which isn’t even bad at all, in their opinion.  Regardless of controversy, they are still one of the most prominent newcomer species in the supernatural realm as a whole (so gradually gaining influence and resources), and are an essential part of a few local economies, governments, and societies in the realm.

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♤ Cultural beauty standards include:  Dark dyed hair and dark lips/eye makeup on everyone despite age or gender, different adornments of bones, dark sick looking eyes, just generally looking dead, short hair, shiny well kept claws and hooves, braiding tail fur, hanging things from the ears, sharp dark slicked down eyebrows, sometimes shaving patterns into the fur is popular. They may use dark colored dyes to stain the tips of their fangs, and more extreme modifications include cutting shapes into the skin for decorative scars, and shaping their ears using surgery. It’s also common that in more elaborate outfits they may take some sort of gold paint or gold sheets, and line their claws, hooves, and parts of the face with gold. There is wide variance in facial features, since they are a largely mixed species with a larger gene pool in the past, so individual preference varies, but culturally they seem to prefer more cat-like faces, and especially admire the beauty of people with large mouths and larger sharper teeth.

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♤ They have no religion, but often state that they worship death in a more abstract sense, though there is no set of religious guidelines that they follow.

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♤ Many Uvra Istill keep pets and like the idea of sidekicks or small companions. They often walk around with small animals on their shoulders or in their hair. Most popular are owls, snakes, foxes, medium sized cats, lizards, spiders, and sometimes bats. They often hire mages to come in from the outside world and perform spells on their animals, so that they’re able to communicate with them or so that the animals will have some sort of supernatural abilities. Nearly 80% of them have small companion animals, sometimes more than one, it seems to be a widespread cultural thing.

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✵History✵

–(There’s like thousands of years of history so obviously I’m just summing it up and not going into much detail because that would take too long. The easiest way is to just frame it through the lens of one of their very influential members. So if it seems very focused on one person, that’s because it is, for the sake of brevity. It’s just like if you were telling the history of an organization there might be extended focus on the founder of said organization, while smaller details about the other people are perhaps ignored)–  The Uvra Istill started off as a very regular form of cat-person, usually used for servants or messengers, and not of very much class or value in the supernatural realm. They were usually very mistreated, often living poor and dying early of illness or starvation, not being given much for food other than rotting animals, bones, and dirt.  Eventually one of these cat people by the name of  Brivgi gathered up about 50 or so of them, and decided that they would move somewhere and start up a society of their own. They stole a boat, and raided the city at night, stealing as many supplies as they could make away with, before setting sail without having any idea where the hell they would be going. Brivgi just decided that she would make the best of wherever they ended up, and that anywhere was as good of a place as where they were. She was a charismatic leader with big ideas who gathered people in a time of hopelessness when many of her kind felt they didn't have any options for living anything other than their current miserable lives, so she didn't really need to have a plan lol. Most were happy to follow her since like, even if they just sank their ship and died in the ocean or something, that's really no worse than their current lives as abused servants living on rotting animal scraps and sleeping bruised on the plain muddy dirt floors of basements.  By the time they reached land, 15 of them had died during transit, and 10 more were killed when they were ambushed immediately upon approaching the shore, but luckily Brivgi and a few others had managed to escape.  They settled in an area of caves, since that was the only place they could find that wasn’t owned by anyone. There were a few scattered tribes of species here and there, but they were mostly the only inhabitants of this area. Here is where the Uvra Istill bloodline actually went from regular cat-people to a more engineered species of hybrids.    Brivgi became obsessed with making her kind into the ultimate species, even bringing in the outside help of sorcerers and demons and whoever she could find, to speed along the evolution process with magic, paying them in whatever she had (sometimes even trading away her own members, and once trading one of her own children).  She saw it as urgent that they must immediately start the most advanced and capable society possible, and her dream was to have a whole group of those who were perfectly designed to hunt, kill, outsmart, and ultimately dominate society. Many of her group began to have doubts, feeling that Brivgi was  unstable and delusionally obsessed with unrealistic ideals, so occasionally they would sneak away in the middle of the night, but many of them stayed and were utterly devoted to her, since regardless of her intense and sometimes immoral ideas, she was still an incredibly dedicated and charming leader who believed she was doing the best for everyone.  They simply stayed in the caves for about 800 years, breeding and evolving and being turned into the vision of what Brivgi desired. They weren’t strong enough to hunt the large animals that were in the area at this time, but they did often  follow around larger predator animals and local tribes of humanoid beings, feeding off of whatever they left behind after a kill. They would often cover themselves in bones and rocks and facepaint, anything to make them come off as more intimidating for protection. They mostly lived on small animals and scraps, bones and rocks, and occasionally stuff like tree limbs and sticks, sometimes leaves or fruits, but they really didn't desire that type of thing and had to have meat of some kind. After a while of just surviving and developing, they decided they had enough numbers, strength, and resources to attempt to relocate.  There were now about 4,000 in total, so it was going to be a massive task to move them all, but they were growing too large for current lands, so Brivgi and her advisors decided it would be the best course of action. They journeyed for about 5 months, during that time only loosing 800 members, and actually keeping together fairly well. They settled in a new open expanse of land, located in a fairly good spot in between some mountains and a large city. Since they were so close to the city, there were new career options open to the Uvra Istill, and the most appealing of those seemed to be crime. Just given their natural skill set (or I guess, the genetically engineered skill set that Brivgi planned for them), they were very proficient at jobs involving assassinating or hunting people, selling corpses/meat, and bounty hunting, and these were often very quick ways to make a lot of money in a short period of time. They continued on this way for a few hundred years, flourishing and building their own little city, and greatly increasing their numbers.  Around this time there were nearly 10, 000 Uvra Istill, older generations and new generations and different evolutions of the species all living together . Brivgi still lead them, often advising their business decisions and holding councils for the community, happy to basically have created her own small civilization, especially content that they were prospering under her guidance and the course she set for the species. By now she had generations of children who served alongside her as advisors and understudies.  However, a few hundred years after finally feeling settled in, a natural disaster struck the area, which also lead to a war over resources amongst the Uvra Istill and other species/people in the surrounding cities. They had already lost half of their city in floods (and about 6,000 of their people), so they decided to  refuse to give help to neighboring communities, since they saw it as more important to provide for their own. The Uvra Istill had massive reserves of resources though, so the outside cities felt it was ridiculous and unfair for them to keep it all to themselves when the people around them are dying and in need .  There was a surprise uprising, their whole city being attacked from all sides by people from all surrounding areas combined, desperate to survive in any way thy could (whether the Uvra Istill agreed to share or not).  Resources were stolen, and though the Uvra Istill had superior combat skills and technology, they were still massively outnumbered, and the  outside attackers managed to kill about 3,000 of the Uvra Istill during the first two weeks of fighting alone. Around the third week, Brivgi gave up on trying to hold onto the city, gathered as many resources and people as she could, and she fled, evading the outside attackers by using underground evacuation tunnels she had built years ago as a precaution.  She knew they would have nowhere to go, and would be found if they resurfaced, so she simply blocked off the other side of the caves and holed up inside of them with her remaining people for a few days, still close enough to hear the sounds of destruction and more of her people dying not too far away above ground. With no other options, she started to call upon all of her vague contacts, reaching out to anyone she had done business with in the past, looking for someone who would help them. They were running out of food in the caves, and though they didn’t hear fighting above ground anymore, Brivgi still feared they’d be hunted and killed if they didn’t have an immediate escape plan upon leaving. She sent out her best most skilled fighters in disguise, to sneak around and act as messengers. After only a day or two, one of the messengers finally received word back from someone, the Avirre'thel agreeing to give them a temporary plot of land and place to stay in interim. They evacuated quickly , finally leaving the underground hideouts, and heading to the place that was agreed they could stay temporarily.  Still having managed to sneak away with a little bit of resources, Brivgi made a deal to simply buy the entire plot of land from them, and there laid the foundation for the modern Uvra Istill property. With only around 200 members of the species left (others having died from the fighting, floods, during underground hiding, being left behind, or dying during travel), Brivgi was largely discouraged, but still determined to bring her visions to light and fight for her species (which she saw as like, perfect beings of her creation, she felt intense responsibility for them and dedication to be a good leader, despite the recent upsets to their way of life and loss of a majority of their species and everything they owned and etc.)  Though she did start to get a bit weird after this, many of her children had died, and she began to carry their bones around with her, wearing them, keeping them in her bed, in her room, and spiraling into a further obsession with death. Her few children who remained were largely concerned about her, but still did anything to help with her ideas for their society, and they were typically her most loyal of followers. The Uvra Istill were still a largely suffering people, most of them having just been through some of the worst events of their lives, so any leadership was good leadership to them, and the constant ceremonies and imagery of death didn’t bother them, they quite embraced it, they still saw Brivgi as one of the only people who could bring them security and hope, and with all of the loss they had personally suffered as well, the indulgence into death resonated with many of them  (side note: Brivgi had been artificially prolonging her life with magic and etc. and some people think that played a role in her getting a bit weird and obsessive, like the constant exposure to enchantments that she, as someone from a non-magical species, wasn't used to, could have started to impact her health and body and mind. Though it also fits totally fine into her personality profile to have just become strange simply due to the loss and upset of her life, since she did take it very personally that something she had been improving for so long (her species) had been destroyed. So it really could be either, or a mix of both lol) . With the resources she still had,  Brivgi laid blueprints for three mansions,  large facilities,  and massive improvements to the property, hoping to provide for her species a safe haven paradise where they could live and have everything they’d ever want, and this time she kept a large focus on extreme security measures. She wrote out curriculums,  programs, and rules, all incredibly strict and designed to make the species the best it could ever be (like setting cultural standards and the rules of education and of conduct, laws of the property, etc.), to be ultimately powerful, unable to ever be stopped or harmed no matter who attacks them. The focus became even more about being strong, and also about not trusting outsiders/not being open to trade, after the losses they had just suffered at the hands of other people, which Brivgi mostly blamed on them just not being strong enough, and that they should never have trusted the other cities enough to live near them in the first place.    She put all leftover money into savings, businesses, and other investments, hoping it would pay off over time. Before the construction on the property was entirely completed, not long after finishing her 25,000 page manifesto on how the Uvra Istill should be governed and run, Brivgi called a meeting of her people, where she dragged herself into the courtyard (along with the bones of her children she'd been carrying around), curled up into a ball underneath a decorative velvet blanket, and abruptly  publicly executed herself in front of all of them, her last words being something along the lines of “I feel that I’ve left everything in very capable hands. If we are to succeed, then I am so very glad. But if we are to fail, I simply do not want to be around to see it.”  By this point, she was over 1,000 years old, and clearly had been suffering physically and mentally, so her children quite easily came to terms with her death and quickly picked up where she had left off.  Particularly her eldest daughter Vivrinia, who is currently still in a leadership position , ruling over the current Uvra Istill. Though she is considered much more callous than her mother, she still strictly follows the words Brivgi left her, which unfortunately for her,  does include being kind to her own species from time to time. She is still always making a constant effort to improve the society, and make sure that they are as influential and capable as they possibly can be, despite her somewhat resenting having such extreme responsibility thrust upon her at a young age. Currently,  all construction is completed, the property is gorgeous, there’s extensive training in place for all children, people of the society still have strict standards of embodying the “right traits”, and the political , social, and financial influence of the Uvra Istill is ever growing across the whole realm (so everything is going according to the rules Brivgi outlined). Though it’s been nearly 500 years since Brivgi’s death, and they’ve evolved as a culture on their own since then,  it’s still clear to see how much she had impacted the entire society of the Uvra Istill, especially in her later years. Many of her ideals, cultural preferences,  traditions, and philosophies are still extensively practiced and embraced by the Uvra Istill of today (like the worship of death and constant use of death imagery). She is widely honored, considered to be the creator and savior of the species, and has multiple statues, rooms, and museum sections dedicated to her on the property.

(here's a n ancient pixelated sloppy sketch of Brivgi I guess lol) 

 And that's all about the Uvra Istill,  for now at least !! 

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nicknames: eschu gender: female zodiac: sagittarius  height: 167 cm / 5′5″ age: 17 (18 in dec!) time: 8:27 pm favourite bands/solo artists: svt, ptg, jbj ;__; , loona, nct, sewoon song stuck in my head: i’m listening to likey (twice) rn so ...? last movie i saw: honestly don’t know i don’t watch movies that often ... i think it was hsm 2 when i was binge watching like? last month? or so last thing i googled: cm to feet (for this post LOL) other blogs: @renjisung do i get asks: like once every three months??? i don’t really . talk on tumblr HHH so it makes sense drop me an ask if u want to tho i’m shy but im not mean i think why i chose my username: mingyu + uwu    it’s cute right......lol following: 65 average amount of sleep: around 6-7 hours now that i’m out of school but when i was still in hs like 5??? lucky number: don’t have one but i always say 15 cos it’s my birthdate zz what i am wearing: shirt dress zzz i’m home n sleepin in a few hrs dream job: my /dream/ job was always to be a journalist or some sort, didn’t really matter what i wrote about i just wanted to write, idk i like writing a lot! and i also really like languages so something related to those?? heh dream trip: i realllly wanna go to france cos i’ve been taking AL french and i’ve been learning it for 5 years, i like to say i’m somewhat (???) fluent and i wanna use my skills hehe, i wanna visit maybe a more countryside area?? favorite food: too many... >___< i’ll just say ramen cos it’s my go to play any instruments: i did 3 months of piano when i was 7 and i had to learn the recorder in primary school do . those count favorite song: again too many but my most recent fav is gfriend’s time for the moon night! play(ed) any sports: i did tennis for 3? years but i stopped when i moved to hk, i did track and netball too but again! i stopped everything when i moved :/ hair colour: black  eye colour: black?? dark brown????  most iconic song: subjectively???? haru haru (big bang) but idk what one could define iconic as   languages you speak/are learning: english (native), malay (fluent), french (advanced? intermediate? lol), korean (intermediate to a Certain extent), mandarin (beginner), cantonese (bare minimum beginner lmao) random fact: i sneeze whenever i think of k*ssing or when i see uh intimate? moments in movies n stuff is this tmi? lol idk describe yourself as aesthetics/things: i don’t understand this question And i don’t know how to describe myself but uh that meme of kaonashi (no face) hugging their knees and sitting by a pavement is a constant mood

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