#Guyssssss. Im normal

[maxverstappsthighs]

LOSCAR CONTENT + ALEXXXXXX

[still--kicking]

OH MY GOD HELLOOOOO????????? MISSMULLET I OWE YOU MY LIFE THIS IS THE BEST BIRTHDAY GIFT EVER 😭😭😭😭😭 MY JAW IS ON THE FLOOR BUT MY CROPS ARE WATERED, MY SKIN IS CLEAR, AND MY CURSES HAVE BEEN LIFTED !!!!!! THIS IS THE MOST INCREDIBLE THING IVE EVER SEEN 😭😭😭❤️💙❤️💙❤️💙

THANK YOU SO MUCH OMG ILYYYYY

Part Time Soulmate, Full Time Problem - Chapter 3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY @still--kicking!!! <3333 to celebrate, I simply had to illustrate one of my favorite scenes from the chapter that completely won me over me on this fic. boom, indeed, I was never the same again haha!

as much as I love all the cute stuff (like the other pieces I've illustrated suggests) it's truly the hurt and angst potential that got me to read this fic in the first place - and, boy oh boy, does it deliver on that front!! honestly, the way this fic manages to flow between drama, humor and soft tender moments is outstanding and one of my favorite things about it.

I must sound like a broken record at this point, but really, go read it!!

[soratonin]

GUYSSSSSS IM SOOO SORRYYYYYY UEUEUE LIKE I REALLY LOVE ISAGIII (つ╥﹏╥)つ I SEE HIM EVERYWHERE I GO I SEE HIM IN UR POSTS THAT HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH HIM I KNOW TO U HES NOT EVEN ALL THAT AND HAS A NORMAL BORING CHARACTER DESIGN COMPARED TO THE REST IOR WHATEVER BUT NOT TO MEEEEEE I LOVE HIM A LOT I CANT HELP ITTTT IM AN ADDICT I CANTTTT CONTROL MYSELF HES MY BABYYYYY

[dykeofmisfortune]

not to go on an autism rant but. me when i'm constantly out of step with the times like not even in a "born in the wrong generation" way but i never know when new things come out like idk what's ever airing rn but here's a show from exactly a decade ago that i can't stop thinking about and oh whoops now i'm really hooked on a different show from exactly 2 decades ago and most of the music i listen to is only anywhere from 20-60 years ago and my favorite movies are all from the 80s and 90s and i am never aware of the Current Year and things happening. like a time traveller who just stumbled into the distant foreign year 2024 where i am Consciously Trying to keep up with the new media and pop culture trends like yes i do a great job at convincing everyone that i'm With The Times but really it's veryyyy hyperconcious to fit in. like i get the worst fomo but not about anything in particular just that time for me seems to move way slower than societal time and i get way more stressed than the normal person about missing the new release of this or that bc most likely 2 years after an album drops im like "guys wait this is so good wtf" or i'll watch a show that everyone has been talking about forever like guyssssss or a game that was popular 4 years ago like Omfg wow.... i have the opposite of recency bias i like things that have had time to marinate in cultural memory to get a solid consensus on. call it time traveler's syndrome or a symptom of my very likely autism that is getting impossible to ignore but Wow

[milksnake-tea]

yk i kinda forgot that my older mutuals still follow me so like uhm hey guyssssss i apologize for what uve seen i may have gone insane as a way to cope w school im still normal iswear

[lunar-writes-things]

Hi guyssssss uhhhhh im alive I promise

So I started college, I’m on summer break now and rn Marvel has my soul

More specifically Bucky Barnes does so in writing an oc fic which is something I havent done in forever

I’m so normal trust and totally not working on this at 2 am

Anyway that’s the update bye love you all mwah mwah 💜💜💜

[tauforged]

“yeah sure just what the only canon nonbinary character needs, tits and a pussy” is such a fucking insane thing to say about these headcanons too. like absolutely bizarre way to talk about the idea of a fictional person being transfeminine and pursuing transition. “i’m sure it resonates with *some* nonbinary peoples experiences” oh but the interpretation that flare, who in canon expresses a lot of dissatisfaction with how others expect them to be and how it contrasts with what they think they really want, talks about feeling lonely and isolated because they’re constantly stuck in the in-between, WHOSE ENTIRE CHARACTER ARC CENTERS AROUND ACCEPTING AND LEARNING TO LOVE THE ‘ALTERNATE SELF’ THAT ACTIVELY CHOOSES TO PRESENT AS A WOMAN (granted she is also a guitar but its obvious that everything about lizzie from her voice to how she speaks is a choice she made to individualize herself from the rest of the helminth, which has always been decidedly ungendered, but i digress) AND WHO IS EXPLICITLY REFERRED TO AS BEING A REFLECTION OF THEM, IS LITERALLY JUST SOMEONE THAT WANTS AND DESIRES FREELY WITHOUT SHAME AND FEELS JOY IN EXCESS AND LOVES THEM AND LIFE AND EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING AROUND HER. AND HOW THEIR ENTIRE DILEMMA IS THAT SEES FLARE’S LONELINESS AND FRUSTRATION AND DYSPHORIA AND IS TRYING TO HELP THEM FEEL WHOLE AND LOVED, BUT THEY’RE SO AFRAID OF HOW IT COULD GO WRONG THAT THEY REJECT HER OVER AND OVER, SPIRALING INTO DESPERATION AND EVEN PHYSICALLY HARMING AND TRYING TO KILL HER RATHER THAN TAKE THAT CHANCE BECAUSE THEY’RE CONVINCED THERE’S NO GOING BACK AND THAT IT WILL HURT THEM…

yeah yeah no yeah no it’s wayyyyyy more logical to interpret them as, i dunno, transmasc and already fully transitioned and self assured in that, and lizzie doesn’t represent anything at all, she’s just a funny guitar. or maybe we should just assume they’re amab and perfectly comfortable with everyone assuming they’re a flamboyant cis guy who goes by they/them, i dunno, just for kicks. or guyssssss remember how they say temple is their STAGE PERSONA and greatly exaggerated? they probably are wayyyy more normal um i mean i just think they should be more like me because that’s the only kind of experience im comfortable with. transmasculinity is the default nonbinary experience, hell yeah put top surgery scars on there — woah woah woah, you think that character is on ESTROGEN? you think they…. WANT to look like (gag) a WOMAN??????? stop fucking erasing nonbinary identities, creep. you’re no better than all the dudebros who act like every nonbinary person is a woman with blue hair and pronouns. you’re being so weird about us. see how i implicitly assume that you are part of the outgroup because you recognize experiences that are different from mine? why do you care so much, you aren’t even transfem. you literally have he/him in your bio, you’re one of us, dude. i’m sure that describes someone else’s experiences, yeah, but it’s not mine and i don’t personally know anyone that would resonate with it, so i’m going to assume they don’t exist. it doesn’t effect you, why are you going to bat so hard for it? quit acting like transfem nonbinary people and trans women exist and should be represented in any way being Weird about nb characters, man.

i’m still really salty about a handful of people being purposefully obtuse about transfem flare hcs as being “just giving them the girl lite treatment” and being super reductive about it. like i don’t want to to get Into It with them cuz frankly idgaf about their opinions and don’t event remember who said it but just the way that literally everything they said on the subject was wrong still makes me mad as fuckkkkkk lmao like oh my god

[yeonbinni]

new header my beloveddddd

[dayoung-remade]

imagine merman johnny ...

[nortsauce]

GUYSSSSSS GUYS GUYS GUYS POINTS POINTS POINTSSSSS!!!!!

IM SO NORMAL IM SO ABNORMAL

Phoenix Wrong don’t complain challenge: impossible

Fanart of the lovely dovely mega awesome beautiful ask blog that is @i-am-not-phoenix-wright

[shittycalamitasdaily]

just a status update mirror from reddit comments

(((heeeeyyyyy guyssssss. soooooo. still sick. im working on it. i made a REALLY big post over on the blog again, dont wanna shill too hard but uh. do NOT have the effort to draw more, so. it is the ONLY thing i am doing today. here's a single panel from it. just gonna use it as a teaser and hope yall are willing to go look at the rest of it over there (tumblr). too exhausted to share it any other way, and every time i share an album here (reddit) by normal means it gets HARD ignored anyway, so. teaser! yeah. again, thanks for all the support. it really does mean the world, and i hope to get things back on track once this shitty illness passes over. REALLY getting worried it might be. The Big One. but i haven't found any tests that aren't 8+ miles out from college so, my brother is gonna walk me over to a nearby pharmacy and hope they got something. wish me luck!)))

[phoneybeatlemania-bit-the-dust]

I agree with you almost completely btw!!! ^^^ and I actually disagreed a lot with the psychologist in the extract - but I thought he was alluding to some better points, so I thought id upload the extract as some food for thought and to stimulate conversation - I was going to add some of my own opinions and differences with the extract, but I was busy so y’know. But yeah, im glad you pointed out that John clearly resembles a person with BPD, rather NPD.

By the way, the psychologist also said something along the lines of: “we shouldn’t try to diagnose John because that would be unnecessary; he wasn’t mentally ill enough to render a diagnosis of a disorder” <<< I completely disagree with that! I think if John had been alive today, people might have recognised the significance of his borderline traits and he might have been diagnosed in later life.

I think the psychologist was at least alluding to the suggestion that John had a lot of traits of BPD (and to some degree, NPD), but for whatever reason he thought it would be a bad idea to outright suggest a possible diagnosis for him, and so just used the term “narcissistically wounded” which, I have to be honest, I don’t even really know what he means by that? I don’t think that its another way of phrasing the NPD diagnosis - so id probably hazard a guess to say that it refers to a person who is deeply insecure and emotionally fractured (or just, someone with traits of a cluster B personality disorder), but I couldn’t say for certain. As you illustrated above, it isn’t uncommon for people with a personality disorders to find overlap between different diagnosis’s (especially cluster B personality disorders), so it isn’t unusual that John had traits of NPD - but at the end of the day, I think that closest fitting diagnosis for John is definitely BPD.

Only thing that I would counter with your response is (im not sure if im even counter arguing here or just adding to the conversation tbh):

“He also was capable of emotionally intimate relationships, and in fact people were drawn to him b/c he was the kind of person who could and would go "deep", fast.”

I think that whilst John was certainly capable of intimate relationships, especially to an idealised and obsessive degree (because JohnandYoko is not what a normal relationship looks like guyss🤦‍♂️), I think that maintaining these relationships was a real challenge for him, because I get the sense that John could never feel as close to other people as he wanted to. People often argue that Paul was too closed off with John, and whilst I agree that its probably true that McCartney has difficulty being truly open and honest with other people, I would also argue that even if Paul had told been totally open with John, removing all facade and ego entirely, and telling John every secret he had (im hyperbolising at this point, but I think you get the point), I still don’t think that that would’ve satisfied John. I think John would’ve remained dissatisfied with his relationship with Paul (and Cynthia, Yoko etc.) because he had the classic borderline issue of having the ability to form swift and intense bonds with people, but still finding that that void and alienation within them still exists - and that regardless of how close they may get to another person, there is still a certain isolation that exists within every relationship.

Paul probably could’ve been less closed off with John, but also, even if he had let John get closer, im not sure it would’ve made a difference in the end. I think John probably still would’ve “discarded” the relationship, because I don’t know if he was ever capable of constructing a practical and still truly intimate relationship with another person (if that makes sense?? I think im just rambling now sorry guyssssss)

As always, I enjoyed discussing these things with you, cause your takes are just so……..🤌🤌🤌

I think were probably along the same lines here, especially with John having bpd - cause I always like seeing people recognise that it’s important to understand him, and his relationships, through the lens of someone who likely had the disorder.

TL;DR - John had traits of NPD, but he fits the diagnostic criteria for BPD a lot better - and had he lived to or been born into a different era where there was better understanding of mental illness, I think he probably would’ve been diagnosed with BPD.

“John’s apparent arrogance, which he displayed from an early age, was almost certainly born of low self-esteem…‘I would describe Lennon as “narcissistically wounded”, says psychotherapist Richard Hughes. ‘A lack of self-esteem is an outcome of that, but it is not binary. Describing someone as “narcissistically wounded” is not a diagnosis. It is more a “character style”, which is not a pathological term but one which is used…to explore character from a developmental and rational perspective. It is important to remember that we are all a bit borderline.

…‘As an adult, he consequently vacillates between overstimulation of the self and feelings of inferiority…A history of inconsistent attachment can lead to defences such as dissociation, splitting and self-soothing strategies…which may lead to a deep sense of alienation and the inability to maintain meaningful and intimate relationships.

It is well known that people with narcissistic deficits often find it hard to empathise. They can be highly social…and, in the same breath, they can push people away when relationships call for vulnerability or intimacy. ‘Despite this’ says Richard Hughes, ‘narcissistic people are ofter “merger” hungry. Lennon was. He idealised. He needed to “twin”, and he “mirrored”. I think about his significant relationships with Brian Epstein, Paul McCartney and Yoko Ono in particular, and there is definitely a sense of where does one end and another begin?”

- Who Killed John Lennon? by Lesley-Ann Jones (pg. 59-60)