#Guarding The Moon.txt

[tofumoons]

resuming hxh after like a year....i knowww everyonehgtfunkcing loves chimera ant arc and like i dont hate it even a year? later i remember a lot of like rlly chilling moments and i still find it super intelligent and inovative and interesting but i think it is just sooo long....like guys can u hurry uppp!!! and it drags and there isnt a whole lot of catharsis. idk.

[lowell-moonguard]

Phase builders stop filling a zone full to the brim with trees challenge

[aigiarnhimaa]

The sage questline really got me wondering how the fuck am I suppose to be looking at Sharlayan with anything but fucking scorn why do they get all of their sins ignored and forgiven because they were the ones who got to talk to crystal mommies pet bunnies.

[autistic-blue-oak]

I love the trainer lodge I'm getting so emotional over Silver

[m-steraquasgf-restinpeace]

it’s gone midnight and i have a presentation to give at 9:30am yet here i am, playing dishonored again, because apparently the obsession never quite went away,

[lowell-moonguard]

I mentioned this on twitter but I wanna talk about it here because there's no character limit and the post lenght will be religated to exactly one (1) post. Unless someone talks to me about it then idk.

Its super fucked up that the trans experiance is so throughly fetishized that people can't really conceptualize the idea of a trans man becoming a father by any other means than adoption because to do it "the old fashioned way" is just straight up a lot of cis people's fetish?

Like I am trans masc, I am capable of becoming pregnant. And while I don't want kids, and neither do any of my partners. The idea of someone like me can have children and find it to be an empowering and normalizing experiance is something that's a little beyond words for me right now.

Like sit down and really think about it, what is the vision most people have about trans people, including trans femmes. Do you think any are parents? Do you think that this was a planned endevore or was it something they had to "earn" via adoption? What about a trans masc and femme couple? Where the traditional roles of mother/father are flipped in our bio-essentialist world? Do you know of a single story where a trans person has a child, The Old Fashion Way, and this is treated like not only a normal thing but something to be celebrated?

I can think of maybe one (1) article I read a few years back about a nonbinary person who was capable of becoming pregnant and the journey that was. The dysphoria that induced and the struggles they underwent both due to the changes pregnancy brings and every bit of it was a story that needed to be told, that needed to be said.

But because of how people make my sheer existance into a fetish, I can't tell my stories in peace. I can't bring this character out into public because I'm afraid people are gonna start excluding me from things because I'm "bringing my kinks out into public" when really its just that I, a trans masc capable of becoming pregnant, want to tell not only a story that is rarely told in a non-sexual light, but one that is empowering to me personally.

Like I get it, I'm queer and I'll never fit into the cisheteronormative ways that American Society want me to. And I also get that because transness is just seen as a vehical for sexual taboo that no matter what I do, people are gonna see anything I do as a sexual thing. But there's some normalities that I do want to have accessible to me and people like me.

You know that post that's gone around where if you take a tired, run through, cishet romance trope and turn it gay it suddenly becomes intresting again? Imagine actually treating the journey of parenthood with the same respect. I have two characters now that are trans and parents, one was simply backstory and one is current.

And I know people like RCDArt fucking scarred all of us, and that the literal fucking DECADES long list of cis people writing mpreg because their ships are gay and they want the Drama™ of a pregnancy storyline without any of the introspection, research, or fuck maybe even awareness that trans people even existed back in the early days of fic. There's a history of this stuff just being used as fap material and nothing deeper.

But that doesn't mean trans people shouldn't be able to tell stories that are about us, that are usually inaccessible to us because we spend so much time trying to prove to The Cis that we aren't ~weird~ and are Just Like Them except we get to die alone and childless. We don't pass on The Queer Gene that makes more of us because well that would be counter productive to allowing us to exist wouldn't it?

And on the flip side I totally get other trans mascs that don't want to touch the subject with a 30 ft pole because even thinking that they're able to get pregnant gives them the kind of dysphoria that makes them wish they weren't alive. I get it. I do. But what makes you dysphoric doesn't make everyone dysphoria. Everyone experiances things differently and we need to make stories that apply to trans people and our lives.

[lowell-moonguard]

Doin a wip of Falmarin

Thanks for helping me unfuck her feet Fen

[lowell-moonguard]

I honestly don't get the appeal of rping a child.

Like, it makes me so intensely uncomfortable to see someone rping like, an 11 year old. And I know I get sus of people who rp 18 year olds but I'd rather someone at least rp someone who is an adult than rp a kid.

Cause someone could be like, 45 and their character still sus. Its all in how they act. But all the kid rpers I've seen in the time that I've been on this server, are all like, soldiers and assassins and highly experiance things and I'm just

"yea I know these bad things happened in the Ye Olden Times but please I don't wanna interact with this"

[lowell-moonguard]

Thinking about how Falmarin is still so scared of herself that she doesn’t trust herself to be asleep around others, lest of all her wife, unless there’s another Illidari awake nearby. 

She’ll lay there for as long as it takes for her wife to fall asleep before she gets up and goes somewhere else to sleep, even if it means that she’ll only get a few hours or even minutes of sleep that night. 

She’s so afraid that she’s going to do something to the people she loves, either by accident or because she loses herself if even for a moment. 

[lowell-moonguard]

Thinking about how Falmarin has such deep seeded issues with Elune now. She lost everything when the Legion turned part of Ashenvale into Felwood. 

She still had faith during the Outland Campaign

She still had faith during the final push against the Legion. 

But each time it waned. The worldly events kept chipping away at her faith in her people’s goddess. 

When Teldrassil burned that was the last bit of faith in Elune she had. The last moment she could believe that her people’s goddess was going to protect them, to help them, to do anything. 

She lost everything twice. She had nothing to sacrifice when she became a Demon Hunter, and grew to hate that phrase when her kin would use it. She’s never seen or heard from anyone from her home since. 

She honestly and truly feels like Elune has abandoned her. Abandoned her people. After sailing for a while, she found faith in the Tidemother. 

Because the Tidemother doesn’t promise everything. The Tidemother is open about how dangerous she is, how she will sink you just as any other if you get cause in her wake. 

[lowell-moonguard]

Honestly one of the depressing things about the wow community right now is how completely unwelcoming it is.

You wanna get into mythics and raiding? Good luck, your IO is nothing and no one will take you for shit. If you don't already have people you're not getting them. God help you if you play Feral.

You wanna rp? Good luck finding a guild that isn't already a either insulated within itself, active, or is accommodating for you in any way. God help you in Stormwind, what with the regular public events that are death knight and undead attacks on top of the usual fuckery that makes rping there a frustrating experience even at the best of times.

It's so hard to find much of anything in wow right now and it's not a surprise why people are leaving for greener pastures. I had fun at WFC the one day I got to go, since my vacation wasn't approved, but I've been seeing screenshots of it this year on Twitter from everyone who has. It's.... Depressing to look at. Compared to last year. I'm going to go on Saturday if I don't work but I'm genuinely hoping that this isn't the rp community's death knell. WOD was bad from what people told me, I'm hoping it bounces back but I might not be there to see it.

[lowell-moonguard]

I love how the rest of the co told stories and parables that had well defined morals and then Lowell's just like

"There was a forest spirit who was kind of freaked out by the fact that a man blew both hot and cold air and kicked him out of its house."

[lowell-moonguard]

Its genuinely fucking hilarious that in the middle of rp me and whoever I'm with at the time will just go off about some completely unrelated topic in /p.

Tonight it was chicken farming.

[lowell-moonguard]

Wip of the icon that I’m drawing for Falmarin’s IC blog. All in the attempt to push myself into doing art more often. Its @currentnuisance

[Img description: A screenshot of Procreate with two images next to each other. One a white canvas with a sketchy horned figure, she is of elvish origin and is wearing an ornate blindfold. The second image is in Procreate’s Reference window, the same figure depicted drawn in someone else’s style. End description.]

[lowell-moonguard]

Went to Dalaran for the first time since pre-patch and real talk? Can we keep this energy going? Not just when the scourge is gone?

Dalaran is a real good spot for cross-fac rp and we can just run down and get Elixers without having to deal with scalpers on the AH

[lowell-moonguard]

Sometimes you have headcanons to fill the gaps blizzard left

Other times you have headcanons because it makes your current rp extremely fucking hilarious