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[cigarettes-and-black-eyeliner]

MY BIRTHDAY!!! :D

Today, the 12th of november, the day I was born!!! I guess I am 18 now. Strange

[iliothermia]

I'm a little behind in my shipments because I've been getting so little sleep + waiting for my shipping material restock to come in (but they came today) I'll be shipping every current order tomorrow when I've had some sleep, thank you for the patience if you've been waiting this week!

[jinhyun]

hellooo, my lovies!

as you may have noticed i haven't updated either of my ongoing series since september, and before the year ends i would like to clear things up and set things straight when it comes to them.

back in june i began this mandatory 6 months long apprenticeship in order for me to get my law degree, and tbh i got exploited the hell out of me, to the point that i would only think about work 24/7.

up until like the beginning of august i would still daydream and stuff and i came up with back to december way before that and i was so excited for it, but then i just got more and more work in the middle of august and from then on it never stopped. i was in a constant state of stress and anxiety, and i reached a point i had only once in my life before reached, in which i no longer daydreamed lol. i still don't really daydream anymore nor do i make up scenarios before going to bed like i always used to. i finished the apprenticeship in december 7th but there's still paperwork i'm turning in and my mind is pretty much numb at this point, idk how to explain it.

the thing is, although i've tried to take off from where i left the stories since i'm not working anymore, i can't bc i feel nothing. i no longer feel that spark or get excited about writing. sure, drabbles and those silly ot8 texts i've posted i'm okay with and genuinely enjoy writing, bc they're simple and don't require me to get as emotionally involved as a series does. but when it comes to watercolor and back to december i try and try and i just can't.

regarding watercolor, i haven't decided what to do with it yet but i think it's no news that i lost my excitement about it a good while ago. there's only one part left and then the epilogue, but if i'm being completely honest i'm considering just leaving it there and maybe write the epilogue right away.

as in for back to december, i'm putting it on hold indefinitely, mainly bc i don't know when i'm gonna be hit with the inspiration i used to have again and i don't want to keep you guys waiting. i've tried to finish the third part but it's been months and i only get frustrated when the words won't come to me like they used to, so it's not good for me either. just think of it as if it was discontinued but if i ever feel like writing for it again i will.

i know these are very shitty news but i can't keep pushing myself when i don't feel the joy i used to when it comes to writing stories. i hope it goes away soon though bc i do love writing and it's been my escape from reality my whole life, so this is hitting me really hard lol.

i may come back to btd in the future or i may come back with a whole new story i'm excited about, but for now i'm gonna stick to drabbles (or one shots if i feel like writing something longer idk) and fake texts.

i'm really sorry. i used to be really excited about both stories but life happened, and i thought you guys needed an explanation. i hope you understand<3

[poisoneitherway]

screaming

[quietlyblooms]

memories that linger | love and deepspace

there's always been something pushing against you. and not in the metaphorical, woe is you sort of way, but in the way that... well, you can't quite put your finger on it. there's nothing metaphorical about it, you think, but anyone else would swear it's just your luck. you believe that, too, when you aren't so displeased with the way things are going. there is something that tries to force your hand, change the choices you want to make.

you realize that sounds crazy. that's why you keep it to yourself.

you've stopped resisting the push so much these days. you feel it like a hand upon your back, urging you forward and into the hunter association's ranks despite your dream of publishing your manga. it feels simultaneously wonderfully right and terribly wrong, though the development of certain events quickly steals your attention away from that invisible hand. you want answers. you need them, and you'll march in whichever direction that leads you to them.

additional details

in this verse, i'm writing chiyo as the mc and toying with the concept of past lives like the game does, though i may also sprinkle in a little itty bitty bit of fourth wall stuff -- like chiyo having the thought, " this is like a game, and someone else is making my choices. " as a treat <3

but the focus will be more on fate bc chiyo really hates it as a concept, and that's so much fun to write in this setting :' )

when interacting with other mc's, we can decide if we'd like our characters to just so happen to be in the same boat, having grown up with grandma and caleb, etc. if not, i have no problem writing chiyo in her main verse! there's plenty to work with either way and i'm happy to adapt!

bc chiyo's parents and grandmother play such important roles in her development, they're alive and well until wanderers kill them during chiyo's freshman year of high school. this event leads to josephine taking her in. she was a friend of the family and as good as a second grandmother to chiyo.

i'll likely think to add more when i'm not sleep-deprived and as i progress in the story, but if you have any questions, just let me know <3

[keeps-ache]

been saying 'i'm a monk' when i don't react so strongly to silly things. monk mode Activated

[basketobread]

Can we tag you in art we made of ur tav(s)? Because omgggg your lunara is taking over my mind 😩💜

YES!! OF COURSE!! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE TAG ME IF YOU DRAW ANY OF MY CHARACTERS!! 😭❤❤

the last thing i want is to miss out on BEAUTIFUL ART OF MY POOKIES!!! I NEED TO SEE IT!!! 😭❤❤❤

[esteemed-excellency]

Apologies to everyone who sent me messages today, both here and in game, but i was super tired (thanks heatwave). I'll write back tomorrow as soon as my brain is functional again.

The good news is that the weather here is relatively normal (25 degrees instead of almost 40) so i'm going to sleep A Lot ✌️

[spinostarz]

ok from now on i'm going to be normal sorry for poisoning ur dash with us politics and election shit

[koka-mi]

ALRIGHTYYY I'M DONE MAKING AN OMORI PICMIX FOR MY OMORI GC time to head to sleep....I am so tired :'D

[morrigan-sims]

I can't fucking wait to share these renders of Carrion. I've only started on one of them but augh I'm so excited. They're going to turn out SO GOOD, I think!!

[rotisseries]

hi guys I have to submit a yearbook quote tomorrow (tomorrow as in today because it is past midnight for me but whatever) and I am completely blanking on what to submit so here's a poll you guys pick

[magicalgirlmascot]

Thoughts about your AU where Matoro is stuck in the Ignika. (And probably Mata Nui, too.)

- Mata Nui didn't want to retreat entirely. But he'd just recently recovered from a coma, a seizure, brain damage, and damage to his heart and more of his insides. Then he socialized with people in the first time ever, worried about his people, was diminished, then fought Makuta who was in the Great Spirit Robot.

He needed another nap after all that.

- The exertion also weakened Matoro and Ignika. Ignika still has their defenses up - no touching or coming closer without their consent - but both of them were barely aware of their surroundings for a while.

- Matoro hears voices he knows talking to him. He wishes he could answer them - they often sound so sad - but he's so tired... (And to talk with him they have to don the Ignika. Which is still very dangerous for most people even with Ignika's consent.)

- However, Matoro can write with ice energy. (And do pranks. It's sometimes very boring being stuck in one place.)

- As for who can don the Ignika safely:

The Toa Mahri

Kiina and Ackar and Berix

Wairuha or Akamai (because of their connection to Mata Nui)

Vakama because he created the Mask of Time and wore it

- Ignika is lowkey scared of Vakama. They sense time-fuckery around him.

- People do rotations on a voluntary base where they read to the Ignika or tell stories. It started with Kiina who wanted to share her adventures and new experiences and hoped Mata Nui would hear her. It grew from there as a way to honor Matoro and Mata Nui and Ignika and others who died to protect the GSR inhabitants and Spherus Magna inhabitants.

Then it turns around they're still there, that they can hear them, and that they're bored.

- Mata Nui, listening and observing, has a lot of time for self-reflection. He wonders who he is: He doesn't want to be a god. Being a god didn't help him against Makuta. He couldn't help his people because he was unaware that everybody had become self-aware.

It's also amazing how big this new world is. Not in size, but in the amount and variety of lived experiences.

AAAAAA I CAN'T BELIEVE I MISSED THIS SOMEHOW I'M SORRY

Honestly I love all of this!! "Mata Nui is tired of being god" is one of my favourite takes on the character tbh so having him just like. completely fine with just having a nap for an undetermined amount of time in the Ignika is great lmao. He has dealt with so many medical problems in the last 1000 years he needs a nap. A real one this time, not a forcibly induced coma.

I think that Nuju would also be able to wear the Ignika, if only because 95% of the time when someone gets to wear it it's because either Matoro or Mata Nui is calming Ignika down and trusts that person completely. I also think, however, that Nuju would abjectly refuse to put it on. Absolutely not. That thing killed his closest companion. (He does go talk to it in Bird sometimes, though. If nobody else is around to see him. He has his pride. The other Turaga all 100% know though)

People Matoro Has Pranked:

All of the Mahri at least twice each

Takanuva

Berix

Kopeke (only once and he felt really bad about it after)

Nuparu also constantly comes by with various ideas for contraptions to allow Matoro (and Mata Nui by extension) to be able to communicate better. None of them work but they appreciate the effort

If Matoro thought being attached to Mata Nui was weird, actively sharing headspace with him is even weirder somehow. Mata Nui is nothing if not a considerate roommate(?) and Generally A Pretty Swell Guy. They wind up becoming pretty close friends once Matoro is finally able to get over the whole Great Spirit thing.

[balladetto]

@gloryseized ♡ the lads: grown!

[itsjaywalkers]

offering a snippet for my valentine's day fic that should have been posted in. well. valentine's day. but it got away from me quickly and ended up being 13k instead of 4k because i just finished it and i'm so relieved i could cry

you can expect it at some point tomorrow because it's currently 4 am and i can barely keep my eyes open so <3

[quietlyblooms]

forgive meeeee i meant to write, but i was sleepier than i expected to be ;v; still very excited to write and chat!! but oh man i'm tired