#Gittarackur x reader

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chapter 12

H X H ( ILLUMI ZOLDYCK)

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WC: 1341

TW:  none really

A/N: I'M BACK BITCHES!!!!!! sorry for all the typos

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Chapter 11-- chapter 13

When taken back into the blimp with the remaining contestants, you’re told to just rest up until the next part of the exam comes in. With that you walk around and explore around until you catch the two young ones, Killua and Gon. You watch as they joke around and sit next to one another, looking out the window before them. Listening to their conversation and when Killua tells Gon that his parents are assassins and the destiny that was mapped out for him. You could see the look of shock and confusion over take young Gon when Killua describes wanting to get rid of his parents.. Hearing Killua speak so enthusiastically about the bounty the world might have on his parents. 

Oh how you remember your own thoughts of your parents when you were his age, Oh how you wanted to get rid of them yourself. Sometimes it was all you could dream about. As always your thoughts come to a stop when you feel a presence behind you, though they tried to conceal it, you can already tell the familiar Aura behind you. 

“ Hello Gittarackur.”

“Hello.”

You turn around to face the pierced man with not much of a smile to give, “ Stalking me i see.”

As always he is a man with few words, not much to share or say, but will always provide you with his presence. You turn back to face the two boys and that’s when you sense another person in the room, the chairman… What does he want with them? Slowly you pull out your small hair pin, in case you must attack the chairman, wanting to make sure Killua and his friend that he has made are safe at all costs. But to your surprise the chairman invites them to a game and if they win, they’ll be hunters on the spot. With that the boys walk away with him getting ready to play.

“ Why do you wish to protect those boys?” Gittarackur speaks from behind you.

“ It’s none of your business.” you glare at the man and begin to walk away, but he follows right behind you.

“ But I can tell, you would give up your spot if it meant protecting them, foolish of you. If they cannot fight for themselves they aren't worth saving.”

“ don’t tell me you're threatened by those two.”

“ Not at the very least.”

I laugh at his response and walk to your sleeping area, you notice that many men sit around the floor and look at the both of you in what looks like possible fear. 

“ All of you get up and leave.” I command them, but they all look at you as if you’re joking. With a small huff I pull out your pin once again and just before you're gonna aim for someone, Gittarackur stops you.

I look at Gittarackur as to why he stopped you, but he had already pulled out his own needle and aimed it at all of the individuals in the room. 

“ Leave the room now and don’t come back.” he instructs in a very firm tone. A tone I’m all too familiar with..

“ I could have done it myself.”

“ I’m Well aware Noa.”

“ Then you should have let me.”

“ I wouldn’t have been a gentleman.”

I let out a scoff at that comment and make your way to one end of the room and sit down. And begin removing all the pins from my hair. And massage any parts of my body that ache.

“ So Gittarackur, do tell me, do your needles change your appearance?” 

“ No.”

“ Lies, 

“ Maybe so, maybe not.”

“ So tell me Gittarackur, what is it that you do for a living, or why do you need a hunter's license?”

“ For work.”

“What work is that?”

“ None of your business”

“ But here’s the thing Gittarackur, you’re in my presence so I’ll ask again, what work is that?”

“ a mission.”

“ Gittarackur save you and I both the trouble and elaborate before I make you against your will. I look at him like im giving him a warning, and then turn back to examining my nails. Hmm they need some filing.

“ I’m what one would consider an assassin.”

“Hm really? I haven't seen your work, you must suck at it then.”

“ No, I just don't leave a mess behind.”

“Who said i leave a mess behind?”

“ Considering you and Hisoka get along rather well, it says alot about your style i suppose.”

“ He is an interesting one, but you’re friends with him, thus the same conclusion can be said about you.”

“ I don’t like any types of mess.”

“ i know you don’t.”

“ What?”

“ nothing Gittarackur, we should get some sleep.”

I go ahead and stretch my body before laying on my back and shutting my eyes in hopes to get some rest. But I don't hear Gittarackur shift or make a single sound.

“ Gittarackur you should rest, you’ll need it.”

“I don’t need it.”

“ We all need it, just because you were trained to not need it as often, doesn't mean your body doesn't require it. Now don’t be stupid and get some rest, besides if you’re really an assassin you would have been trained on the tunnel sound, you do know what that is right?”

With that Gittarackur huffs, “ Yes I know what that is, I just like to be alert.”

“ Just say you suck at the basic skills of assassination, obviously you haven't mastered that skill.”

“ I wouldn’t speak of things you don’t know about.”

“ Well Gittarackur, I know a lot more than you think. So keep your advice for yourself and don't speak of things that you yourself don’t know about.” 

With that i listen for Gittarackur to speak another word, but he doesn’t as usual. You lay in complete silence and feel as the atmosphere becomes ever so familiar. So tense, yet so calm.. So strong, yet comforting. You know this Aura, you know it all too well.. It was sometimes the only aura that would calm you. Like the arms you can be held in, the hands that would move through your hair. You knew it all too well. 

I slowly begin to even out my breath and heart beat until I know that Gittarackur will think I'm sleeping. It was when I heard the slight sound of something. Though to most people they wouldn’t have heard it, I can hear the  sound of a needle being dislodged from the skin. That was when I heard a small hum of satisfaction, and a few pops of one’s neck.. And a silent whisper of “ killua you’re such a pain.” 

That was all I needed to know, to know that the Aura, the needles and way of speaking was that of the one I knew the most. With a small smile to myself, and decide that it’s time to have a little fun.

“ Gittarackur” I speak out, knowing i did startle him as i hear him jab the needle right back to it’s old spot.

“ Why are you up!” he speaks up. 

“ I heard Hisoka in the distance, he’s about to come in.”

“ I didn’t hear anything, what games are you playing at?”

“ I’m not playing any games, I hear his heart rhythm in the distance… just like i hear yours… and just like i heard you pull that needle out, i heard it. Thus you lied and i was right. It does change your appearance.”

“Go to bed.”

“ So tell me, do you change the way you look because you’re just terrible to look at, thus this look is better than how you actually look like..  Or are you spying on someone?”

“ What are you getting at? Just spit it out.” he huffs

“I’m just saying Gittarackur, that you’re a mystery to me is all. And don’t worry, i didn’t see how you look. I respect you enough to give you your privacy… But you can tell me.. Are you hideous too look like without your disguise?”

“ I said go to bed.” He instructs me

“Fine.” i bite back

“ Good”

“Good”

“ Goodnight.”

“Goodnight Gittarackur.” 

[foreverfangirlsblog]

Roommates

Illumi/Gittarackur x Reader

Hisoka x Reader platonic

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Third POV

You had met Hisoka at the last Hunter exam. You didn't pass that year and blame him partially. You called him out on his psycho behavior pretending to be an examiner since he kept killing fellow participants. The two of you got in a fight, and then....you were both disqualified. Ever since then he had some how grew fond of you, something about "finding another equal" whatever that meant. You couldn't complain though, being his friend wasn't all that bad and it helped to have a strong ally even if he was peculiar.

You arrived to the waiting area for the first phase and searched for Hisoka immediately, he informed you that he would be here again as you were traveling over. You quickly found him, I mean he stuck out like a sore thumb with his vibrant hair. "Hisoka!" you waved at him to get his attention from across the room. Some people stared but you didn't mind, although there was one even more peculiar looking guy standing next to him who was looking between you two. He was the same height as Hisoka but had spiked purple hair in a Mohawk style but also partially bald on the sides. He wore an array of green and had yellow pins sticking out of his chest and long slender face. You grimaced at the sight of the pins but made your way over. As you approached Hisoka smirked at both of you. "Who's your new buddy?" You asked him prompting him to introduce you.

The man reached his hand out to shake your hand in a shaken and rustic motion, like he was a tin man needing oil. "I'm Ill-Gittarackur" you were confused by the change in wording but brushed it off because his voice was also very strange, it was very shaken and almost robotic.

"Nice to meet you Gittarackur. My name is [Y/N]" you smiled brightly at him despite Hisoka giggling at the interaction.

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The first phase started and you all went your separate ways. In fact you all decided to keep your distance from one another for majority of the game, until the trick tower.

You all had finished so early, Hisoka first, then Gittarackur, then yourself. When you had finished you saw them playing cards together, so you obviously sat down and joined them to kill time.

"Agh I can't do this anymore" you said frustrated throwing your cards in the air. The whole 70 plus hours to complete the trick tower was agony for you considering it took you about 10 hours at most.

"Why don't we play a different game?" Hisoka suggested creepily.

You thought about it for a moment "Depends on the game.." you said hesitantly.

Hisoka suggested a harmless game of truth or dare. You played rock paper scissors to decide you would go first. Since you won you prompted Hisoka, "Truth or Dare" you asked him.

"Dare of course" you racked your brain for an adequate dare for him....

"I dare you to restrain your bloodlust next phase when you peak" he glared at you as you smirked. You did NOT want a repeat of last year and this was the best way to ensure that didn't happen.

"Fine" he said begrudgingly "but only for an hour tops"

"Deal" you said as the two of you shook on it, "your turn" you prompted for Hisoka to ask someone else truth or dare.

He picked Gittarackur. He hesitated a bit in his answer but ended up picking truth. It seemed like Hisoka had already had a question in mind because he prompted Gittarackur immediately "What do you think of [Y/N]?"

You were a bit taken aback by his question for Gittarackur. I mean the two of you had just met?

"I...think....she's....intriguing..and...

quite....attractive" the words were broken but you could still sense the shyness behind them. You blushed a bit but quickly shook it off.

"Well ahem-" you coughed awkwardly as you stood up to walk away "this was fun but I'm going to go see what that ninja dude and other contestants are up too, see if they're a threat"

You quickly made your exit unsure of what to make of the situation 'So much for a harmless game...that was interesting' you thought to yourself

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It was finally the end of the third phase. So long Trick Tower!!

You all were taken to an all old stationed ship. The two I front of you wre an older woman and an older man, they looked like grandparents. Apparently the Hunter Association was giving us 3 days to rest before the next phase officially started. 'Suspicious' you thought.

They said that they ran a hotel and thrift store. Since their hotel rooms were astronomically expensive they prompted contestants to trade treasure for their room instead of money. So, monkey do as monkey told-we all spent the day scavenging for some type of treasure in the surrounding ocean filled with sunken ships.

Majority of the contestants traded for a room no problem, well almost no problem.....they forced everyone to share rooms.

"Please I'm begging you I can't sleep in this room" you tried asking the old lady manager of the hotel to switch your room but she refused.

"I'm sorry there's nothing I can do maybe you can switch with someone else?" She suggested sweetly but useless for you.

You groaned and were ready to start cussing out an old lady when Tonpa walked by "I'll switch with you!" He said eagerly. You were about to to question him since you weren't necessarily fond of Tonpa the Rookie Crusher, but decided you'd take your chances.

"Deal" you exchanged keys and immediately headed for your new room.

Once at the door you realized that his roommate could've been much worse than yours....but then again what's worse than snakes? You held your breath as you unlocked the door hoping to find a normal roommate on the other side. To your surprised it was Gittarackur.

You sighed in relief although Gittarackur looked at you with a confused look. "What happened to the chubby man?" He asked.

"I'm guessing the needles got to him" you laughed, pointing at your face in reference to the pins sticking out of his. "I switched with him because my roommate filled the room with snakes. And I do not do snakes. Im glad you're my new roommate though!"

There was a semi-uncomfortable silence between you two upon noticing that there was only one bed in the room despite the two of you being assigned to it.

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As the sun set the two of you got ready for bed. Your routine was normal...Gittarackur on the other hand was odd. You didn't mean to see what you did, but the door was open slightly so you couldn't help but peak in.

While in the bathroom preparing for bed Gittarackur had taken the pins out of his face. The pins must've morphed his face because without them....well he was kind of beautiful. His face was much more petite and paler in color too, his eyes dark and sunken. Most different was his hair, that atrocious hair style turned into beautiful long black hair that seemed silky and soft to touch. You didn't even notice you were staring so intently until you accidentally dropped your brush 'shit' you thought to yourself.

Gittarackur immediately turned his head towards you "Shit" he said out loud.

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Gittarackur or Illumi, as you've found out explained everything to you. He was there under cover to monitor and prevent someone from becoming a Hunter.

"I'm guessing that someone is your little brother, Killua is it?" You asked nonchalantly as he looked at you a bit surprised "It doesn't take a genius to know you're related, you're a family of famous assassins"

"Well yes....but you can't tell anyone, only Hisoka knows" you hummed in response.

"Fine with me, I won't get in your way"

There was another silence between the two of you, although this time it wasn't as awkward as before. "So tell me froggy did you really meant what you said earlier?"

"Froggy?" He asked confused again

"Yeah froggy, you were a little sore on the eyes but now you're transformed into your normal Prince looking self. Froggy"

He laughed at your comparison "So what I'm hearing if you think I'm a handsome Prince"

You grew a little embarrassed with a light dust of pink of your cheeks "Hey I asked you a question first"

"You mean when I said your were intriguing and attractive and you walked away? Yes, I did"

You smiled at him sheepishly, "yeah that, I'm sorry about that. To be honest I still wasn't really sure about how I felt about you, but now I think I understand you better. At least I know the real you now"

He nodded, understanding your point of view.

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The two of you stayed up late enjoying each others company and continued talking about yourself and really everything you could think of.

It was a mix of you enjoying the conversation and trying to prolong the inevitable.....sharing the bed. But it was past 3am and you both needed the rest wether you liked it or not.

"Okay, so I guess I'll take the right side and you take the left?" You prompted trying to rip off the metaphorical band-aid.

"Are you sure you wouldn't be more comfortable if I slept on the floor?" Illumi asked softly

"No no" you insisted "I can't let you do that, this place is old and disgusting"

After a bit more insisting you both climbed into the bed making sure there was a significant gap between you two as you both layed in the bed face up on your backs.

"Well goodnight!" You said a bit loudly as you turned over to face away from him.

'Just sleep [Y/N] sleep. Don't think about his froggy Prince face being on the pillow beside you'

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Illumi POV

[Y/N] fell asleep rather quickly, she must've been really tired despite acting like she didn't need the rest. Since I'm a trained assassin I wasn't really tired so I instead just watched her as she peacefully slept.

'She's so pretty. If I'm a frog, does that make her the princess?'

She turned in her sleep to face me, our faces now inches apart. I studied her face like it would be a test in the next phase. Her eyelashes long yet dainty. Her [H/C] hair that perfectly fell around her face and onto the pillow. Her skin that looked clear like glass yet soft like a cloud.

"Take a picture it will last longer" a voice disrupted my fantasy. Hisoka.

"What are you doing here?" I snapped a bit at him for invading my privacy, our privacy.

"Relax relax I'm just checking on how my match is working" Of course he prompted this somehow, Hisoka loved to play many roles: pervert, examiner, now match maker.

"Get out" I said in a deadpanned tone. Luckily he obliged and left out the window from where he most likely snuck in.

I thought about getting up to lock the window to prevent having another unwelcome visit, but [Y/N] moved again in her sleep. Only this time she wrapped her arms around my torso and rested her head on my chest

'Well now I'm stuck here'

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Original POV

The next morning you found yourself sleeping on a much more comfort pillow than the night before. 'Is this pillow moving' you asked yourself 'shit'

You lifted up your head to find yourself snuggling Illumi who was looking at you softly. "Good morning" he said.

"Shit I'm so sorry-" you started to apologize and move off him but he wrapped his arm around you forcing you to stay.

"Don't be, I didn't mind" he rested his hand on your head and started playing with your hair slightly, calling you down.

"Illumi" you said softly wanting, needing to close the gap between you. You looked down at his lips, and he did the same. Your eyes both flickered closed as the gap grew smaller and smaller. When...SNAP - FLASH.

The two of you jumped apart immediately startled by the intrusion.

Hisoka had somehow managed to make his way back into your room. "Hisoka what the hell?!" You yelled at him while throwing your pillow at him.

Of course he dodged it with ease, "you'll thank me later" he said holding up the now printed Polaroid of the two one you almost kissing.

"You little shit!" You immediately jumped out of the bed and began chasing him out of the room and into to the hallway.

Before you fully chased him through the door you ran back to the end of the bed "We are not done here," you looked at Illumi still shocked in the bed "I will be back to continue this" you finished before running back out to the hall yelling for Hisoka.

Illumi sat in bed still processing the chain of events as you ran after the mischievous clown

The end

[anccaku]

Speaking of Gittarackur, I started writing that one Illumi x Reader fic idea I had. To not spoil too much, it's basically where reader is doing the Hunter Exam and in that Trick Tower test, reader and Illumi disguised as Gittarackur have to team up. Then after that it's just cute Reader and Illumi falling for each other without realizing.

Sneak peek:

Hisoka is shipping them lol.

[tokoyamisstuff]

Betrothed - Illumi Zoldyck x Reader (18+)

Synopsis: After marrying into the infamous Zoldyck family, will your dedication and kindness be enough to warm the heart of your newfound husband?

Warnings: Gore, Angst, Unhealthy Relationship, NSFW, Yandere! Illumi, Sexual Harassment, Torture, Death, and many more!

Fandom: HxH, Hunter x Hunter (2011)

Chapters: Unknown, work in progress.

Notes for the Reader:

Completely Neutral! Reader (no defined gender, descriptions of skin color, blushing, hair, etc...)

Safe to read for POC, Gay/Trans/Nonbinary readers, etc...

Arranged Marriage AU, Canon Divergence

I changed the title from "Healing Obsession" to "Betrothed" but it's the same story.

Initially I wanted this to be a fluffy Hurt/Comfort Fic, yet I can’t get out of my skin. Angst is the only thing I can write, apparently.

Momma never told me how to love Daddy never told me how to feel Momma never told me how to touch Daddy never showed me how to heal Momma never set a good example Daddy never held momma's hand Momma found everything hard to handle Daddy never stood up like a man I walked alone, broken Emotionally frozen Getting it on Getting it wrong

How do you love someone Without getting hurt? How do you love someone  Without crawling in the dirt?

Ashley Tisdale - How do you love someone?

Chapters

Chapter 1: Bride

Chapter 2: Bonding

Chapter 3: Blood

Chapter 4: Beloved

Chapter 5: Balmy (NSFW)

Chapter 6: Bold

Chapter 7: Bloodlust (NSFW)

Chapter 8: Blind Rage

Chapter 9: Beauty and the Beast

Chapter 10: Bewilderment

Chapter 11: Broken

[hxhhunterxhunter]

Onii-Chan (x child reader)

⭐️Chapter 12: Ending the 4th Phase 💧

(Venus/AmethystEmpire, I Love this so much asdidsdfdfs T~T ❤❤❤❤ )

Y/n was being carried by Illumi as she was napping. After finding Hisoka, Illumi had left the female in the hands of Hisoka, while he went to bury himself underground til the phase ended. 

Y/n started to slowly wake up, rubbing her eyes she noticed that Hisoka was sitting in his spot with butterflies.

"Pretty butterflies..." She mumbled as she rubbed her eyes. 

"You're awake~ How did you sleep my sweet little fox~" Hisoka looked in the direction of the waking female. 

"Good..." After a few minutes of waking herself up fully. She started to chase the butterflies around, which were nearby Hisoka, he watched her with a smile on his face. Y/n was trying her best to catch a butterfly.

"Come here Mr butterfly! Let me catch you!" She said as she tried to grab the fragile insect.

Hisoka soon stood up. "I'll be back my sweet fox~ Don't go anywhere." Hisoka headed off as the female nodded her head. She soon heard moving bushes and looked to see Gon was quickly moving to follow Hisoka.

"Gon-Oniisan?" She tilted her head as a butterfly landed on her nose. She looked at her nose and took the red butterfly off her nose and let it sit on her finger.

"Hello Mr butterfly, my name is Y/n." She smiled at the creature that was resting on her finger. She had noticed that Foxy was sittin against the tree, where Hisoka was sitting. She noticed a few stitching in the stomach of Foxy, along with her pin '406' in the lap of the fox plush and a few other pins that Foxy was sitting on.

"Illu-Oniisan fixed you!" She smiled as she picked up foxy, as the butterfly fluttered off her finger. 

"Foxy come." She said as the fox was surrounded by smoke as it appeared in front of her, and was double the size of the small girl.

"Sit!" Foxy sat in front of the small girl as she stood on her tippy toes and  pets the fox's head.

"You deserve headpats too!" She giggled as she petted the fox.

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"Where is Onii-chan..." Y/n pouted as she was laying down with Foxy, and her head was on his back, as she was looking at the stars.

"Hisoka-Onii-Chan Lied to me!" She huffed and sat up. She looked at Foxy, who was sleeping, while his ears were up, listening to their surroundings. As she was about to get off, Foxy rolled and laid on top of the small child.

"Foxy! Get off!" She whined and tried to wiggle out from under him. Foxy growled softly as he didn't move, making the girl huff.

"I know I promised to Onii-chan to stay here, but he is taking too long!"

She said and was still trying to get Foxy off her, but he wasn't budging since he was more than double the size of her, a lot stronger strength wise and heavier than her.

As this continued until Y/n was too tired and fell asleep

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Soon as Y/n heard a horn sound and a voice.

"The fourth Phase Of the exam has just ended. Will the applicants please return to the starting point at once. You will be given an hour of extra time to get to the boat. If you do not return, you will fail the exam"

"Onii-chan lied... Let's go foxy." Y/n huffed as Foxy got off the female and changed into his plush form. Y/n held it close as she jumped to find Illumi coming out of a hole, he started to place the needles back into his face, changing into his disguise.

"Lets go." Illumi said and picked the female up so they could get going.

"Thank you Illu-Oniisan for fixing Foxy!" She smiled happily at him as they continued to go.

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"Now, we will check the tags of everyone here!"  The lady, who was on the ship, spoke out to everyone there. Illumi had put the female down and she went to Killua to say hello, as she was ignoring her Oniisan for lying to her.

As everyone showed their tags she wrote down the names.

"#44 Hisoka, #53 Pokkle, # 99 Killua,#406 Y/n, #301 Gittarackur, #191 Bodoro, #294 Hanzo" The woman said as she wrote it down. "So only 7 applicants passed."

Y/n felt worried for Gon, Kurapika and Leorio, wondering where they were.

"Oh?" The woman looked up to see the 3 that Y/n was thinking about

"Gon-Oniisan!" Y/n yelled to the male getting his attention. "Kura-Oniisan! Leo-oniisan!" Gon grinned at the female and waved at her, while Kurapika and Leorio smiled at her.

"Just arrived at the last second." The female smiled "#404 Kurapika, #403 Leorio, #405 Gon. 10 applicants have passed to the final phase."

Y/n cheers as she saw all her friends were here.

[anccaku]

The Guy With Needles On His Head & A Killer Doesn't Need Friends for the WIP game (if one is the one you don't wanna talk about feel free to skip it :])

OK first [Illumi (Gittarackur) x Reader], basically in the Trick Tower part of the Hunter Exam, reader and disguised Illumi have to team up to get to the finish line. They of course are second and third after Hisoka. Reader starts to catch feeling for this strange man that has needles all over his head and face. Then of course eventually his true identity is revealed, and reader kinda struggling with their feelings. And Illumi might return the feelings, but he thinks reader isn’t attracted to him anymore. I already showed a little snippet of this fic before!

Second, that’s actually the current title. It’s childhood friends to lovers AU with Illumi. Silva had killed MCs parents so naturally MC befriends his eldest son. They go to confront the Zoldycks, but sees the young boy around their age instead. So something softens inside them and they want to make friends. Illumi is just kinda letting it happen. Then over the years they both start developing feelings for each other, but neither confesses. I’m still not sure if Illumi’s feelings get unhealthy or would they be sweet. It’s a slow burn, with some smut there somewhere. I drew fan art of them actually.

Sorry if they sound boring lol

[tokoyamisstuff]

Betrothed Ch. 9 - Illumi Zoldyck x Reader

Epilogue: Beauty and the Beast

Summary: Leaving the Zoldyck estate to search for your husband, what will await you once you find him?

Warnings: Angst, Violence.

Words: ~2500

Story Masterlist

A/N: The plot is connected to the “Phantom Rogue” movie. In case you haven’t watched it yet (no spoilers don’t worry): The antagonist of the movie uses Nen to create puppets taking after real persons, which even possess their personaliy and memories.

All I ever wanted All I ever needed Is here in my arms Words are very Unnecessary They can only do harm

Depeche Mode - Enjoy the Silence

People tend to say you should be careful what you wish for. Apparently they were right.

At least it worked...somehow.

The last thing you knew was that you had sneaked into Alluka’s cell, wanting to free her just as much as you wanted to find Illumi. Of course her parents weren’t really fond of the idea, so you waited for an opportune moment and asked for Nanika to appear before the family could realize and act against it.

Your wish was pure and without any ill intend - so there would be no consequences.

“Please: Bring me to Illumi. I need to save him!”

So she did as she was told.

You found yourself having been teleported to an unknown place, at bright day even though it was night at the Zoldyck estate. That means you’d be at least on the other side of the world, gladly far enough away for them to quickly try and retrieve Alluka.

All you could make up in between miles of nature was an old building, almost like a chapel.

And in front of it stood Illumi.

“These eyes are strange” he thought out aloud, taking in his environment. “Everything looks so bright.”

“Illu-nii-!” You put a finger in front of Alluka’s lips, signalizing her to stay quiet. Gladly you had appeared in somewhat of an hiding, so no one had noticed you up until now.

Something was off. That thing was surely not Illumi - even if it painfully appeared so.

“Gon!” a blonde girl shoutet in visible distress, “Hang in there! Gon!”

And then it dawned to you: A Nen ability.

Cloning? But why and how? It should be impossible to make such a perfect image of another person, which even seems to think and act on it’s own.

“Give gon his eyes back!” Killua demanded, but got shut down by the clone through a proper kick in his guts. “I can’t do that, Kill.”

You were too late to stop the poor Killua from running away, instead of chasing him deciding to follow the spitting image of your husband - but he had detected you earlier than you anticipated.

“Weird...” he spoke with the voice you had missed so much, staring at you with an empty glare. “You don’t look different.”

A surprised “Huh?” was all you managed to get out at his weird assumption, defendingly standing in front of Alluka.

“Those eyes make everything shine so bright. But you look just as always” the clone statet, almost as if amazed by your sheer appearance.

“You’ve always shined to me, Y/N.”

And like that, he was gone.

There wasn’t much time to think about it, since the screams of that unfamiliar girl got you down to earth again.

“Please, Gon!” she encouraged him as he tried to leave after she wrapped a bandage around his empty eyeholes. “Don’t-”

But he was already gone, chasing Killua to god knows where.

“What the hell...” you mumbled, still holding Alluka firmly in your arms.

Now the girl, which appeared like a puppet as well given a second look, turned to both of you. “Just...who are you? And where did you came from?”

“Long story.” Your answer was short, not wanting to tell anyone about Alluka’s powers. “But I’m a friend of those children. And...I need to find the man from earlier.”

“That was just one of Omokage’s puppets” she explained, pointing towards the direction Gon and Killua ran off to. “I can explain anything on the way. But we need to find them!”

It was already night when you found those two, because even with your superhuman speed you still had a child to take care off.

Seemingly, the two had resolved whatever internal trouble they were having, and much to your surprise Leorio and Kurapika had joined them as well.

“You guys...”

“Y/N?!” All of them went into a defensive position, ready to fight you in case you were a puppet as well. You weren’t mad, though. It was the only plausible reason for them to have magically appeared in here.

“Killu-nii!” Alluka cheered, approaching her brother as fast as her small legs could carry her. You wanted to prevent a reunion like that, but well...

Of course the boy broke out in tears as he remembered his sister he was forced to forget about all those years, the weight of his guilt crushing down on him once again. “I’m so sorry, Alluka...I think I was still under Illu-nii’s influence.”

Your lip began to tremble at his words, having to bite it so they wouldn’t notice that you were about to cry.

“Y/N? Is everything alright?” Damn. Of course they noticed the shift in your aura.

“Come to think of it...” Gon said, unusual sharp intellect considering his usual, blunt nature. “How come you accompany Killua’s sister? Doesn’t that mean you would’ve broken in Kurokoo mountain and fight all the Zoldycks for it?”

“I...uh-”

“Wait a second!” Good for Killua that he regains his cool so fast after having been emotional, but you wish it weren’t like that. “Isn’t that my great-grandmother’s ring? Did you stole it?!”

“Wha- no! Of course not!”

That wasn’t his greatest concern: Did you know about Alluka’s powers, and wanted to have them for yourself? Was that the reason? But how could you ever just invade the Zoldyck property and take what’s theirs without dying at their hands?

None of it made sense, no matter how much he racket his brain around the matter.

“Illu-nii gave it to Y/N for their wedding! Isn’t that cute?”

Everyone’s breath hitched at Alluka’s innocent words, and you could feel even those whose eyes were stolen widen in shock.

Before you could even defend yourself, Killua had tackled you down before sharpening his fingernails and pressing them against your neck, drawing blood.

“Why...?” Kurapika spoke the word that went through everyone’s minds, followed by Killua’s disappointed whisper “Traitor....”

“Because I love Illumi. That’s all.”

The boy then grabbed your shirt, shaking you as if to wake you up from a deep trance. “Love? LOVE?!? You know my brother, damn it!”

“Yeah!” Leorio joined the scolding. “You know very well what he forced Killua to do all those years, and that he tried to kill Gon!”

“I know very well what he’s capable of.” Against all resistance by your friends, you still remained calm and cheerful. “But he’s my husband, and I’ll fight for him until my dying breath.”

You’ve never seen Killua so furious and hurt in your life, and you could understand him:

The man responsible for all of his pain - and someone he considered a friend to fall in love with and defend him.

“Don’t give me that bullshit...” he growled as he let go off of you, tears of anger collecting in the rim of his eyes. “He obviously turned Y/N into a needleman!”

The only one to remain silent was Gon, knowing that he shouldn’t intervene until Killua was done having his rage.

Since the truth was simple, yet hard to accept for someone who had suffered under Illumi’s influence for that long.

“Don’t bully Y/N!” Alluka suddenly  blurted out, softly punching her brother’s back.

Killua then refrained from interrogating you any further, turning around to hug his sister once again. You knew the anger he let out was not just against you or your husband, but also out of wdisappointment in himself.

“I’m so sorry, Alluka...I should’ve saved you. Instead, I tried to leave my past behind and also left you alone!”

Alluka was a smart girl, at least emotionally - her mind worked different than the other Zoldycks. She gently put her hand on her brother’s hair, consoling him even though she never really understood how severe the situation at hand was:

“It’s okay! I was’t alone!” she cheered, smiling all innocent from one ear to another. “Big brother Illumi played with me all the time, together with Y/N! We had such fun!”

You smiled gently at the naive girl, knowing everyone would believe her to speak the truth. Picking her up and on your shoulders as she always wanted you to do, you waited for everyone to just process her statement.

“Alluka has spent almost every day at home with us” you proudly declared, as if you were actually her parent. “He’s a bit reserved, of course, but he loves her very much!”

“...that’s so fucked up” Leorio declared as he thought back to the creepy Gittarackur.

Killua was at loss for words, only managing to get out a consensual nod at Leorio.

“Hey!” you snickered mischievously, rumpling up his hair. “I’m your sister in law now. A little more respect!”

“Anyway” Kurapika interrupted, “Where’s Pretz?”

Seems like changing the topic was easier for the group than to keep thinking about that almost impossible constellation.

“She’s a puppet” Gon revealed as if it was the most obvious thing in the world, just for you to confirm his thesis.

“And you let Illumi steal your eyes just to follow the nen connected to them?” Giving him a head-butt, you added. “Still the idiot.”

That wasn’t fully true: Those kids sure grew since the last time you’ve met them at the Hunter Exam.

You couldn’t help but laugh at the situation, feeling like a stone was falling off your chest just by being with them.

“I’m glad to meet you again. I’ve missed you so much, guys!”

Leorio had volunteered to take care of Alluka, so she wouldn’t get dragged into the fight, while the others of you headed for Okogame’s hideout.

It was a giant church, so old that it was on the verge of breaking down. 

Fitting place for a showdown, you thought.

“You don’t understand the beauty of my art!” was Okogame’s answer as Kurapika demanded for him to set his dead friend free.

“See?” he yelled dramatically as he revealed his puppets. “Pairo’s beauty together with Kurapika’s passionate eyes.”

To be honest, that wouldn’t revoke a reaction inside of you as your mind was always wandering off.

But then, he revealed his other creation.

“And Illumi’s madness, together with Gon’s pure eyes.”

“...”

“Still the damsel in distress, I see.” God, even his voice was just like him. “I thought I’ve teached you better than that, Y/N.”

“Here he comes” Gon stated the obviously, but you had something to tell Killua.

"This isn’t completely him” you whispered as the puppet slowly approached you. “I can sense it: He isn’t nearly as strong as the real deal. And do you know what? He’s influenced by our memories of Illumi. They shape this puppet. That’s why he’s so scary to you, do you understand? That’s just how you depicture your brother.”

Killua knew what you really wanted to say: As you were now, you could easily end this - but Killua needed to defeat his fears himself.

The puppet came to a halt in front of his younger brother.

“Emotions are obsolete.” Ironically, it seemed that the puppet couldn’t avert his gaze from you, only making you crave your husband more. “Don’t value any of those pathetic commitments.”

“T-That’s wrong.” You were so proud of Killua, because even though he was almost frozen in place out of fear he was able to talk back to his brother. “I made friends, and it’s a great feeling.”

“You’re being silly, Kill” he declared as he pointed at you. “Do you see Y/N over there? I tried it myself. And guess what: They betrayed me. Ran away from me, scared. And now I’m all alone again.

Ouch. Even the puppet was hurt by your actions back then.

“But killing is something we can always do. It gives us power, makes us feel alive. Fear is the only reliable way of controling someone. We don’t need friends. We can manipulate people. Otherwise they will only hurt and betray you. So if they disobey: Kill them.”

“S-Shut up!” both you and Killua shoutet in unison.

“Kill me, then” he whispered into Killua’s ear, “Come on. Prove that I’m wrong.”

So that’s the monster Killua saw in Illumi all those years...

“Lumi...” you couldn’t help but sob, “I didn’t want to let you down...”

“Don’t interfere” the puppet spoke, throwing several needles at you at once. “I don’t have any business with you anymore. This is a family matter.”

“I like the outfit!” you laughed it off, avoiding the needles as if it was nothing. “Feels just like sparring back then!”

“You’ve always been too careless, Y/N. Because I had a soft spot for you. But I’m not going easy on you now - my order is to leave none of you alive.

A few needles pinned you to the wall, making you realize you weren’t fully concentrated.

You didn’t want to fight your husband, even though that’s not really him, so you were unknowingly holding back.

“We knew it would eventually end that way” the puppet spoke, the dark void in his eyes reminding you of the Illumi you got to know before your marriage. “Even though I’m almost sad about it.”

Your head fell in defeat, too hurt to see the love of your life suffering for so long. May as well let him hurt you a bit, to punish yourself and feel what he felt.

“I’m so sorry, Lumi.” Your answer and lack of struggle actually made him taken aback for a second, until the mission that Okogame’s nen imprinted on the puppet forced him to continue.

“Hey!” Killua yelled as he kicked another set of needles out of his hand, “We are your enemies! You said it yourself!”

Of course they had their own intentions: Getting back Kurapika’s eyes, save Pretz, overcome the trauma Illumi had put on Killua...

But you were thankful that your friends tried to avoid you having to end Illumi’s life, even if only in a metaphorical sense.

The real fight didn’t even take a whole minute, with Gon and Killua only taking a few hits until they pierced the puppet’s heart with unified strenght.

Immediately, you rushed to his side, caughting the stiff body before it hit the ground.

“Why do you stay with me, Y/N...?”

You grabbed his hand, feeling honest compassion for the artifical being as you cried out “Because you’re being loved. By me, and Alluka and even Killua! I’ll find the real you, and save you no matter what!”

“I see...” The puppet robotically touched your cheek, movements not really different from the real Illumi at the beginning from your relationship. “Maybe I was wrong about trust after all.”

A small smile played on his face as your lips hesistantly touched, while you simultaneously pressed a knife inside of him to end it all.

“Rest now” you said what Illumi had always told you when you were upset. Okogame’s curse couldn’t force his will onto the puppet now that he wasn’t able to get up ever again.

And Illumi collected the last bit of strenght as his body slowly dissolved into nen.

At least in the end he wasn’t alone - until death does you part.

“I guess dying through your hands doesn’t feel all that bad.”

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