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A Path I Can't Follow
Author's Note: SO I was already writing this one shot when I got this awesome request from an anon, so I merged it into this. My Star Wars fans will be so happy with this one LOLL, well actually not happy bc its mega angst (iykyk). JUSTICE FOR ANAKIN AND SUGURU!!!
I recommend listening to your favourite sad playlist while reading, makes the experience 1111000% better.
Pairing: Suguru Geto x f!reader
Also, I have a giveaway event going on rn, if you'd like to enter to win an Amazon gift card then check it out here.
Request linked here
Warnings: violence, grief, loss, death. (yeah, I said mega angst...)
Tags: @simplyyyuji; If you'd like to be added to my taglist pls comment/dm me!

It had been almost a month since Suguru Geto abandoned the Jujutsu world, leaving behind a trail of devastation that none of you could have anticipated.Â
The day Gojo gave you the newsâŚyour world fractured in ways you couldnât comprehend.
When Satoru found you in the training hall, his usually carefree expression was replaced with something grim, something haunted.Â
The lighthearted banter youâd come to expect from him was absent, replaced by a heavy silence that stretched between you like a void.Â
You had known something was wrong before he even said it, but nothing could have prepared you for the words that followed.
Suguru had cursed an entire villageâmen, women, childrenâand even worse, his own parents were among them.
Your mind couldnât grasp it at first.Â
The Suguru you knew, the one who held you close on quiet nights, who used to laugh softly at your terrible jokes and talk about a future that didnât involve exorcisms or endless battles, was suddenly unrecognizable.Â
How could he have done something so monstrous?
You remembered staring blankly at Gojo, your body numb, the room spinning as he continued speaking, his voice distant as you felt something hot stream down your cheeks.Â
You had been dating Suguru for three yearsâthree years of knowing every side of himâŚor so you thought.Â
But this?Â
This was something you could never have imagined.
The ache in your chest was unbearable, it felt as if someone had hollowed you out from the inside. You shook your head violently âNoâŚnoâŚâ
You couldnât produce an image of the man you loved according to the monster Gojo had described.Â
The same man who used to trace circles on your back as you fell asleep, whispering that everything would be okay, had now left a village in ruins, and your mind couldnât process it.
Gojoâs voice had softened when he saw the look on your face, but the pity in his eyes only made it worse, and you fell to the ground in a broken mess.Â
"Iâm sorry," heâd said, and though you knew he meant it, those words felt hollow, as you knew he had lost someone important too in all of this.
You barely remembered what happened after that.Â
The days blurred together in a haze of disbelief and grief. You stayed in your room, replaying every conversation, every mission, searching for the moment when it all went wrong.Â
How had you missed this?Â
How could Suguru have changed so completely without you realizing it?
The weight of his absence crushed you.Â
The empty spaces he left behindâthe way your bed felt too big without him in it, the quiet moments in the common room that you used to fill with laughterâwere suffocating.Â
And no matter how hard you tried, you couldnât escape the truth: Suguru Geto, the man you loved, had become someone you didnât recognize.Â
And you didnât what from him, no goodbye, no Iâm sorryânothing from the man you loved.
You had been avoiding your phone, pushing the thoughts of Suguru away because they hurt too much to hold onto.Â
The soft knock at your bedroom door made your heart jump, only for it to fall when you realized it wasnât himâIt was never him.
But when you opened the door to see a letter laid on the groundâfolded, worn edges, and unmistakably his handwritingâyour world spun for a moment.Â
He had sent it. After everything, after weeks of silence, Suguru sent you a note.
Your fingers trembled as you opened it, heart racing, unsure whether you should laugh or cry at the mere fact that he reached out.
"Meet me."
And, God help you, you went.
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The air was thick, and the sky was dark when you arrived at the temple.Â
It clung to your skin, heavy with unspoken words, with things left unsaid between the two of you.Â
Your feet felt like they were sinking into the earth as you climbed the steps, each one pulling you deeper into a place you werenât sure you could return from.
And there he was.
Suguru stood by the edge of the open hall, staring out into the night, his back turned to you as the wind stirred his long hair. He didnât move as you approached, didnât say anything, even though you knew he had to have sensed your presence.Â
You swallowed the lump in your throat, willing your voice to come out steady. "Suguru."
It barely came out as a whisper, but it was enough. His shoulders stiffened, the only sign that he had heard you.Â
You waited for him to turn, for him to say somethingâanythingâthat would make sense of the last few weeks. But he didnât move.
The silence pressed down on you, suffocating.
âWhy did you do all this?â You finally asked, your voice cracking under the weight of the question that had haunted you every day since he disappeared.
Suguru exhaled slowly, a sound that was more sigh than breath. "I had to." He said before finally turning around to face you.Â
That was all he offered.Â
No apology, no explanation, just that hollow statement, like it was meant to answer everything.
You could see his features soften as your eyes locked.Â
He had almost forgotten how beautiful you were, how your features calmed him and brought him warmthâa warmth he hadnât felt in a long time.
You shook your head, trying to hold yourself together as you spoke softly.Â
âYou didnât have to. You didnât have to curse an entire village to death. You didnât even tell meââ Your voice cracked as you felt the pain of his absence catching up to you. âYou left me. You left all of us.â
Finally, he began slowly walking towards where you stood in the doorway. His eyes met yours, and the sight of him, standing there so composed, so distant, shattered something inside you.
"I couldnât stay," he said, his voice steady in a way that made your chest ache. "This world⌠itâs broken. Staying wouldnât change that."
You took a step toward him, desperation clawing at you. "We couldâve fixed it together. You didnât even try to talk to Satoru or me. You didnât have to leave."
He shook his head, his eyes hard, resolute.Â
"You shouldnât bother yourself with SatoruâŚâ He paused, âIâm building something new. Something better. I canât fix this world from the inside. I canât pretend anymore." He took a few more steps, closing the distance between you with agonizing slowness, each step erasing the space but widening the gap between who he had been and who he had become.
You felt the urge rise, the instinct to reach out, to touch him like you used to, like it would somehow bring him back to you.Â
But your hands stayed frozen at your sides, weighed down by the fearâno, the fact that your beautiful boy was already too far gone.
Your heart dropped.Â
The person standing in front of you wasnât the Suguru you had known, the one who held you close after every mission, the one who whispered your name like it was a prayer. This man was a stranger, distant and cold.
âAnd what about us?â Your voice cracked again, tears burning behind your eyes as you fought to keep them at bay. âWhat about everything we had, Suguru?â
His jaw clenched. For a brief moment, something flickered in his eyes, something soft and familiar. But it was gone in an instant, replaced by that same, chilling determination.Â
"I canât go back." His voice was quiet but firm as his thumb ran over your sift skin, reminding you of the happiness you once had with this man.
Unbeknownst to you, tears began to slip down your cheeks, hot and unchecked. You leaned into his touch, your voice trembling with emotion.Â
âWhat you are doingâŚI-Itâs insane. You, me, the othersâwe were building something.â
He shook his head, his expression hardening as his gaze turned distant again but still locked onto your crying eyes, his hand moving down to rest on the side of your neck, his touch was cold on your warm skin.Â
âNo, y/n. We werenât building anything. I was just wasting my time.â
You flinched as if he had struck you, the weight of his words slamming into you, stealing the breath from your lungs.Â
âWasting time?âÂ
You staggered back, away from his grasp, shaking your head, hands gripping your arms as though trying to hold yourself together.Â
âThis isnât you, Suguru. Youâre not this... this person. Youâre notânot a monsterâŚâ Your voice faltered, a sob finally breaking free from your quivering lips as you looked away from his once-kind eyes.Â
âCome home to me, baby. Please.â
You hated how desperate you sounded, how your heart felt like it was shattering in your chest as you stood there, pleading with the only person you had ever truly loved.
âI canât,â he said softly, and that softness hurt worse than anything else. His eyes met yours, and you saw itâthe finality in them.Â
âIâm building something new. A world where the weak donât suffer. A world thatâs right.â
Tears streamed down your face, hot and bitter, but you couldnât stop them. âWe could do that together! We couldââ
âNo, y/n!â His voice cut through the air like a blade, sharp and cold as ice.Â
He had never yelled at you, never raised his voice like this, and the sound of it sent a fresh wave of pain and fear crashing over you.Â
âWe canât.â
You flinched at his harshness, your breath hitching as his words sank in. He looked away, jaw clenched tight, as if the mere sight of your tears was too much for him.Â
"Iâm doing this for us," he continued, his voice lower but no less resolute. "For everyone.â
"SuguruâŚyouâre breaking my heart, youâre going down a path I canât followâ The words slipped out, quiet but forceful. Your eyebrows furrowed as you looked at him, the man you always thought you couldnât live without.
He shook his head softly, slowly approaching you as you moved away from him. âY/nâŚeverything Iâve done, has been necessaryâŚ"
âNecessary?â You spat, your voice trembling as your grief twisted into rage, angry tears streaming down your face. âYou think abandoning meâabandoning everything we have worked forâis necessary?â
He shook his head, taking small steps towards you slowly closing the space between you once more.Â
âYou donât understand,â he murmured. âIâm not abandoning you. Iâmââ
âThen what is this?!â You interrupted, your voice breaking as the pain inside you twisted into something desperate, broken.Â
âWhat do you call this if not abandonment?!â You screamed, your tear-filled eyes locking with his, and you knew he could see the pain in your soul, the pain he caused you.
Suguruâs eyes flashed, a familiar glint passing through them, and for the first time since you arrived, you saw something close to regret in his gaze. He looked at you in a way you never thought youâd get to see againâwith love.
Before you could even react, his lips were on yours, urgent and full of emotion.Â
The kiss hit you like a truck, your breath stolen from your lungs as his hand moved to the back of your head, fingers threading gently through your hair as he desperately pulled you closer.
The shock of it left you frozen for a heartbeat, but then your body responded on its own, your hands reaching up to cup his face.Â
Your fingers brushed against the familiar curve of his jaw, the rough stubble beneath your touch grounding you in a moment that felt both surreal and inevitable.Â
The kiss wasnât gentleâit was raw, a mixture of desperation and longing, as if he were trying to pour every unsaid word, every unresolved feeling, into the press of his lips.
Suguru kissed you like it was the only thing that mattered in the world, as if he could somehow erase the pain that he saw reflected in your tears with this one act.Â
His lips were soft, but his grip on you was firm, holding you as if he couldnât bear to let go.Â
And for a moment, you let yourself fall into itâinto him. You let the world fall away, let the ache in your chest dissolve into the warmth of his touch.
Your hands trembled slightly as they moved from his jaw to the back of his neck, pulling him closer, refusing to let him slip away again.Â
His kiss deepened, and you felt the weight of all the emotions he wasnât sayingâthe regret, the sorrow, the love that still lingered between you, even in the midst of everything.
But as your lips moved with his, the reality of what was happening began to creep back in.Â
This kiss wasnât a promiseâit was a goodbye, a last grasp at something that had already been broken beyond repair.Â
You could feel it in the way his body pressed against yours, in the way his breath hitched slightly as he pulled away, his forehead resting against yours as he caught his breath.
His hand lingered on the back of your head, but there was a distance in his touch, a hesitation that hadn't been there before.Â
When you opened your eyes and looked into his, you saw the tears welling up, threatening to spill from the depths of his deep purple gaze.
âSuguruâŚâ Your voice was soft as you spoke,Â
âI love you, I have, continue to, and will forever love you.âÂ
You watched his eyes search yours, the unspoken words hanging heavily in the air as a single tear slipped down his cheek, his lips quivered slightly, and you felt your heart shatter within your chest.Â
Instinctively, you raised your thumb to wipe it away, your gentle touch resting on his skin as your hands cradled his face. The warmth of his skin under your fingertips contrasted sharply with the hot tears streaming down your own face, the ache in your chest growing as you held onto each other tightly.Â
His fingers traced small, soothing patterns on your cheek, evoking the memories of laughter and love you once shared, of moments that felt invincible and eternal.
âPlease, baby, come hââ you began, desperation threading through your voice, the plea heavy on your lips. But before you could finish, he cut you off with another kissâthis one frantic and urgent, a collision of emotions.Â
Your lips moved together, moisture mixing due to you both crying, it was as if he were trying to convey everything he couldn't articulate, the weight of his sorrow and regret pouring into the embrace.Â
His hands became tangled in your hair again as he deepened the kiss, his tongue sliding into your mouth with familiarity.
He kissed you with a fervour that spoke of longing, a need to bridge the gap that had formed between you.Â
This kiss was deeper and more intense, echoing the confessions left unspoken, the promises he had broken.Â
In that moment, you both surrendered to the flood of feelings that surged between you, clinging to each other as if the world around you had ceased to exist.
He pulled away gently, leaning his forehead against yours.Â
âPlease, Suguru,â you said through your tears, your voice raw. âI love you. I love you so much.â
For a long, agonizing moment, he didnât say anything.Â
He just looked at you, as if memorizing the way you looked right thenâbroken, crying, desperate.Â
âLove wonât save you, y/n, only power can do that.â He said, straightening his spine and letting his hands fall to his sides.Â
âBut at what cost? You are a good person, probably the best Iâve ever met. Donât do this!â You cried, watching his eyes darken with something you weren't familiar with.Â
âYou donât understand, y/n, I am bringing about the world of the sorcerers! Those monkeys needed to be taken out in order for us to survive.â He tried explaining, and you felt your heart practically tearing apart.
âI donât believe what Iâm hearingâŚSatoru was rightâŚYouâve changed.â You said, taking a few steps backward to create some space between you. You noticed his eyebrows crinkle at the sound of your words.
âI donât want to hear any more about Satoru!â He shouted, growing visibly angry as he continued, âHe thinks he can take anything he wants, donât you let him take you from me too!âÂ
You let out a defeated sigh, but the hot stream of tears didnât stop flowing. âI don't know you anymore SuguruâŚâ
âBecause of Satoru?â He said accusingly.
You shook you head, a look of disbelief sprawled across your face.Â
âBecause of what you've doneâWhat you plan to do! Stop! Stop now... come back! I love you!â
Suguruâs features softened and he took a gentle step towards you. Before you could get another word out, his eyes darted to the doorway behind you, and that dark angered look returned.Â
You turned your head to meet the object of his gaze and were surprised to see Gojo standing in the doorway, his shades loosely between two fingers at his side.
âYouâre with him! You brought him here because you know heâs the only one who can kill me!â Suguru shouted, his eyes meeting yours with a raging fire you hadnât seen before, sending a wave of fear through your body.Â
âNo! I donât know why heâs herâ.â You pleaded your hands clasping together in front of youâBut Suguru wasnât listening.Â
All he saw was redâthe overwhelming rage and betrayal clouding his judgment, twisting every word you said into something darker.
Without hesitation, his hand lifted, fingers curling into a fist. The motion was swift, almost instinctive, and before you could react, the sensation of his familiar snake-like curse coiled around your body.Â
Its grip tightened with terrifying speed, constricting your airway, and your breath hitched violently.
Panic surged through you as your vision began to blur. You tried to speak, tried to plead with him, but the pressure around your throat made it impossible.Â
Your hands flew up to your neck in a futile attempt to loosen the curseâs grip, but it was no use.
Your eyes locked onto his, searching for some sign of the man you once lovedâsome hint of the tenderness he used to show you. But the fire in his gaze was all-consuming, the rage overpowering the softness you had once known.
Tears streamed down your face, each drop burning against your skin as your body began to falter.Â
Yet, through the haze of suffocating pain, you noticed somethingâthe glistening tears that fell from Suguruâs own eyes, tracing silent paths down his cheeks.
Even in his anger, his heart ached.Â
But it wasnât enough to stop him.
Before you could let out your final breath, you managed to say one last thing as you stared into his dangerous eyesâthe same ones you fell in love with, searching for one last glimpse of the man you loved.
âI willâalways loveâyou.â You breathed, voice hoarse as you felt your body slip into unconsciousness.Â
A single tear slipped down his cheek, one he didnât bother wiping away this time. The weight of your final words crushed him, cracking through the hardened shell heâd encased himself in.Â
âI canât let Satoru take her from meâ he thought to himself.
Suguruâs heart pounded in his chest, his mind racing as your words hung in the air like a ghost.Â
âI willâalways loveâyou.â
It was as if the last shred of your strength had been spent in those words, the way you looked at him, your eyes full of love and pain, piercing through the darkness heâd embraced.
His grip on you tightened, the snake-like curse coiling around your now limp neck with unrelenting force.Â
His thoughts were franticâdisjointed.Â
But then, Gojoâs voice boomed, snapping through the suffocating tension like a whip,Â
âSuguru, let her go!â It wasnât a requestâit was a command. At that moment, the intensity of Gojo's eyes was enough to shake even Suguru.
âLet her go, damn it!â Gojoâs voice cracked, desperation seeping through his usual unshakable composure.Â
âYouâve probably just killed her!â
Suguruâs hands faltered, his eyes widening in sudden horror.Â
Gojoâs words pierced through the haze of rage clouding his mind.Â
Killed her? No⌠That couldnât be true.Â
He hadnât meant to hurt you, hadnât meant for this to happen. Heâd only wanted to protect youâto keep you by his side.
âNoâŚno, no, noâŚâ Suguru muttered, releasing the curse, causing your body to fall to the floor with a loud thud. His hand covered his mouth as he stumbled back.Â
His eyes flickered between you and Gojo, and he quickly went to hold you in his arms. âNo!âÂ
Panic seeped into his gaze as he saw your limp form cradled in his arms, your head lolling to the side.Â
âNo, sheâs notâshe canât beââ
âY/nâŚ?â Suguru whispered, dropping to his knees beside you, his trembling hands hovering over your neck, unsure, terrified of what he might find.Â
His breathing hitched, and for the first time in a month, Suguru Geto was terrified.
âSuguru, what did you do?!â Gojo's voice rang out again, fury and heartbreak mingling together.Â
His hands clenched at his sides, every muscle in his body taut as he fought the urge to tear Suguru apart.Â
But even now, beneath the rage, there was still that glimmer of hopeâhope that you could be saved.
Suguru shook his head, his movements erratic, his denial absolute. âSheâsâsheâs fine, I didnât⌠I didnât mean toââ His voice broke, trembling as his eyes darted between your pale face and Gojoâs stricken expression.Â
He hadnât meant to kill youâhe never meant for it to end this way.
âI-I didnâtââ His words trailed off, his mind spiralling as he realized the depth of what he had done.Â
The weight of his actions crashed down on him, and for a moment, he was paralyzed by the enormity of his guilt.
Gojoâs eyes narrowed, his hands trembling as he walked towards where you laid in his arms.
âSuguru,â he growled, voice laced with cold fury.Â
âYouâve killed her.â
âNo!â Suguru shouted, backing away from you, as if Gojoâs words were physical blows.Â
His chest heaved, his breath shallow as panic surged through him.Â
He stumbled to his feet, shaking his head in disbelief, refusing to accept what had just happened.
âNo, I didnâtâsheâs notâsheâs still alive!â
Gojoâs pained gaze flickered to your still form, and in that instant, Suguru knewâhe couldnât stay.Â
Not with Gojo there. Not with the full weight of his crime pressing down on him. He turned on his heel, his heart hammering in his chest as he muttered incoherent apologies to the air, his mind fractured and overwhelmed.
Without another word, Suguru bolted from the room, his footsteps echoing in the hollow silence.Â
Gojo didnât moveâhe couldnât. Not yet. Not when your life hung in the balance.
The room fell into a suffocating quiet, the remnants of your final plea still echoing in the air.
There werenât many thoughts going through Gojoâs head as he carried your lifeless body back to Jujutsy High, just oneâhe had lost his two best friends that night.
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5 Days Later
Suguru had recruited a few curse users since his incident with you and Gojo at the temple. He had managed to knock you out so Gojo wouldnât be able to stick around and kill him, he couldnât afford to delay his plans. Or so he convinced himself.
One evening, he was approached by two girls he had adopted, Nanako and Mimiko, who claimed to have news from Jujutsu High, as they were responsible for gaining intel from the school to keep tabs.Â
âLet's hear it. I hope it wasnât too much trouble for you girls,â He said softly, a warm smile playing on his lips as the two girls sat beside him.Â
âNot at all, Mr. Geto.â Mimiko said taking out a piece of paper from her pocket to read some bullet points, written in glitter gel pens.Â
âUm, no one is making any real progress on tracking you down, probably because theyâre all idiots,â she said, rolling her eyes. Suguru let out a small chuckle.
âWell thatâs good news, anything else?â He said, that same smile plastered on his face.
âOh yeah, that girl sorcerer you fought with is dead, what was her name? Ummmmm, oh yeah! Y/n y/l/n!âÂ
Suguruâs entire body went rigid, the casual warmth that had coloured his voice just moments ago draining in an instant. His heart seized in his chest as Mimikoâs words echoed in his ears.
âY/n y/l/n⌠dead.â
âNo,â he muttered, his voice strained and barely audible as the room seemed to tilt around him.Â
âThatâs impossible. Iââ He swallowed, his throat suddenly dry.Â
âI just knocked her unconscious⌠I didnâtââ His words trailed off, his mind spiralling back to that moment, to the look in your eyes as his cursed spirit wrapped around your neck.
âI didnât mean to hurt her. I didnât mean toâŚâ
âYeah,â Nanako added, her tone indifferent as she glanced at the paper. âThat doctor ladyâs report said her neck was brokenâshattered, actually. Sounds like there was nothing they could do. She died instantly.â
Suguruâs breath hitched in his throat, and for a moment, he couldnât breathe.Â
His mind raced back to that final moment, your whispered words replaying in his head over and over again. âI willâalways loveâyou.â
âHow had it come to this? How had he let it happen?â
His hands trembled as he gripped the edge of the table, trying to steady himself, but the world was slipping through his fingers.Â
He hadnât meant to kill you. He didnât want that. He had only wanted to stop youâstop you from siding with Gojo. Stop you from leaving him, like everyone else had.Â
But now⌠Now youâre gone.
âMr. Geto?â Mimikoâs soft voice attempted to pull him out of his thoughts, but it did nothing to soothe the storm that raged inside him.Â
He couldnât hear her. He could barely hear anything but the blood rushing in his ears, the distant echo of your last breath.
He stood abruptly, pushing away from the table, the chair scraping loudly against the floor. Both girls flinched, their eyes widening in confusion as they watched his usually composed demeanour unravel.
âMr. Geto?â Nanako called out again, her voice small.
But Suguru wasnât listening anymore. He turned away, his mind a tangled mess of disbelief and horror.Â
He had to get outâout of this room, out of this suffocating realization that he had killed the one person who had loved him enough to try to save him.
His chest heaved as he stumbled toward the door, his vision blurring at the edges. The air felt too thick, too hot, and for the first time in years,Â
Suguru Geto felt like he was drowning.Â
âI killed my beautiful y/nâŚâ The thought reverberated like a haunting mantra, suffocating him from the inside.
He barely registered the sound of the girls calling after him as he staggered outside, cold night air hitting his skin but doing little to calm the chaos inside him.Â
Suguru collapsed to his knees, his breath ragged, his hands clutching at his head as if he could somehow block out the reality of what he had done.Â
The tears came, unbidden, hot and stinging, falling freely down his face as he let out a broken, anguished sob.
This wasnât supposed to happen.Â
âY/nâŚâ he whispered into the cold night air, his voice shattered. âIâm sorry⌠Iâm so sorryâŚâ
But it was too late. He had chosen the dark sideâŚ
The world he sought to create, one where the weak no longer suffered, now felt more hollow than ever.
And all that remained was the bitter taste of regret, the price of his ambition.

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man idk what im about to ask but can someone just do an analysis on luigi mangione's personality? i am SO intrigued. i just saw a vid of a girl being like "him and his blue bali shirt against the world" and explaining how all nerdy guys have this quirk where they are deathly loyal to a single clothing item apparel. i just want to know what his person is like i mean he's so smart so cute he reads the same books i read?!?!?! did yall even see his twitter?? one tweet was him saying "man i used to be so bummed in math class because if i was born during that one dude's time i wouldve solved the pythagoream theory already, but i feel so happy to stand on the shoulders of history and have access to problems that the past could only dream of having" like what? someone debunk this man. PLEASE.
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https://www.tumblr.com/taelophone/771565534253891584/luigi-m-a-look-a-luigi-mangione-analysis?source=share from @taelophone
both writers are INCREDIBLY talented and so sweet and i love them so much they are angels on earth to the maxxx and if u made an analysis and i didnt see pls forgive me!! these two are the only ones that ive seen :)) have a good day everybody!! everyone give a standing ovulation to all luigi writers NOWWW
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WRITERS BLOCK? NOT ON MY WATCH !!
Do you think Jake gave chocolate or somehow found some and made the kids taste it and then by popular demand forced to recreate it but it just ended up either nothing like chocolate or something akin to a poison but not reallyâŚ
Also happy valentines day! Totally didnt make me cry with the small Neytiri you had posted â¤ď¸
taken in by the sullys: (belated) valentine's edition! / sully family x human!daughter/sister!reader
this is SUCH A CUTE REQUEST OMG & happy (very late) valentine's day! sorry about the tears but it had to be done, anon pls forgive me đ
synopsis, jake attempts (and fails) to make a sweet treat.
jake should've known little white lies never stay little.
when he originally found (and swiped) a box of chocolates from norm's lab, he brought it back home to his five children, eager to spoil them with the decadent flavors.
neytiri bit into one delicately (read: suspiciously) while the children scarfed them down. jake had to snatch a few for himself and his wife before you guys finished inhaling them.
"mm," kiri groaned, her eyes squeezing in delight. "these are so good." lo'ak and neteyam nodded feverishly in agreement.
"where'd you get 'em!" tuk launched herself into his lap.
"made 'em just for you guys." jake said proudly before he could stop himself.
"thanks, dad." neteyam smiled sweetly, chomping down on his chocolate heart.
neytiri gave him the most diabolical side eye known to man. jake smiled at her smugly, knowing he scored some points with the kids after she'd been scolding them all dayâ
"make more!" tuk grinned up at him.
jake's smile immediately faltered. he had not thought that far.
kiri handed jake back the empty box, nothing but the empty wrappers mismatched across the molds that held the chocolate in place. "how long did it take you to make?"
"uhh, not long." he shrugged coolly, but neytiri's trained eye could tell he was bluffing. she just smiled and played into his predicament.
"the kids loved it, yawne." she stood up, standing behind him and squeezing his shoulders. "would you like your father to make another set for tomorrow?"
he glared up at her, only to be met with her amused expression.
the chorus of agreement was the verdict. jake would have to figure something out and fast.
/
during his time on pandora, jake has tried a lot of food, berries, herbs, everything. he remembered some nut tasting akin to the chocolate flavor he was going for.
in between his olo'eyktan duties, he harvested some. what else makes chocolate? water? he filled his waterskin with some fresh drinking water. sugar? he cut some cane up and carved the unrefined sugar from the stems.
as far as he was concerned, he had the ingredients.
before returning home, he ground the nuts into a fine powder. he crushed the sugar grains a little bit before pouring it all into a bowl. he added a bit of water until it was slightly gooey. whipping out the original box, he poured his concoction into the molds and let it sit overnight to harden.
safe to say when he presented his batch to you guys, you were not impressed.
"ow." lo'ak mumbled as best he could, his tooth stuck in the chocolate disaster jake served up.
neytiri cursed her husband before kneeling beside her youngest son to help him.
"ugh," kiri sniffed the 'chocolate' before putting it back into the box. "are you sure you did it the same way as the first time?"
jake huffed. "yeah... i guess..." he trailed off.
you knocked a mishappen heart against the ground. it dented the wood underneath you. "uh, dad... i don't think this is edible."
"couda tol' me tha befo'." lo'ak glared at you, his words muffled by neytiri prodding at his stuck tooth.
jake sighed, making sure never to try something silly like this again unless he wanted his whole entire family to rip his ego and pride to shreds.
lo'ak had one less tooth by the end of the day.
. . .
thanks for reading! <3
Š jsooly â25
#jake sully avatar#jake sully x daughter!reader#atwow#avatar 2009#avatar the way of water#avatar 2022#jake sully#jake sully x neytiri#jake sully x reader#kiri#jake sully x daughter#sully x reader#jake x neytiri#jake x reader#neytiri x jake#jake avatar#neytiri x reader#neytiri avatar#lo'ak x reader#neteyam x reader
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sigh might as well do the rest of the sillies.--
(This might be long im sorryyyy ;-;)

the main silly. the design is awesome and the dodge sprite looks hella cool :D
10/10

Delta my sweetheart :3
a very silly goober, i love the cat in the background of her song (kibby :DD) easy enough, no mechanics, just sillyness :)
10/10

Psi im kind of iffy on, cool design and all but the song wasn't too much of a banger :p
didnt want to kill me though and was overall an okay guy (he was kind of grumpy :P)
8/10

uhhh i dont know about Sigma...
he's mean :(
he called me a swear wordt in his song ;-;
cool design tho so 7/10

ZETA!!!
ZETA MY SCRUNKLY BELOVED!!! (if you think this is bad just wait until I get to Mu--)
Song: Banger
Lines: HELLA COOL (that's, why he's the boss) <- teehee refrence
Design: Snazzy Fella! i love it :DDDD
11/10 <:

Pi :>
very scrunkly, the parts where she'd slam her staff on the ground in her song to make the clock spin was SICK!!! not to mention the clock syncs to your computer's internal time :o
10/10 scrimblo

VERY SCRIMBLO!! (rational me went back in to edit this, his name is Gamma btw)
he looks like a silly guy righ-

---and he's pissed. great.
HIS SONG IS SO GREAT THOUGH!!! :DDD The choir and church bells were so SICK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
his attitude's a little funky tho >:p he said "Hi!" and when Hood responded he just kinda went "Oh it's you GREAT. youre gonna die now traitor >:(" but we love that about him because he's scrunkly :>
10/10

I still dont like you NEXT
(5/10 cuz his design is kinda cool)
(P.S his song is giving Battle Against a True Hero)
(P.P.S THERES A GOAT SCREAM SOUND EFFECT IN HIS SONG PFFAHHAHAHA) (P.P.P.S oh crap he has a second song-GO AWAYYYYYYY)

Iota my cold boy (i got confused a little but its iota not Lota)
i like the design + colors a lot :) plus the shackles + blue hands remind me a lot of Maelstrom from Friday Night Troubleshootin' :DD now he just needs one of his hands to be pink to match...
8/10

ehhh... i dont like your mechanic too much but your poses are slay and so is the song...
you can have a 7/10 as a treat <:
(IM ON TRY 40 OF TRYING TO BEAT HIS SONG GRAHHHH)

a-
huh
erm
hello Ëľâ.âËľ

(found this on Phomow1's twitter)
GOOD LORT HELLO BOY!!?!?!
erm new husband acquired
song is a banger too!!! the flashbacks are SO COOL TOO!!!?!?!?!
â/10 because husband (...and the other factors too, y'know.)
(he looks so cuddly in that jacket...)

OMICRON!!! ITS THE PONG GUY!!!!
he forbids you to not play pong during his segments :index pointing at the viewer emoji: and wishes you the worst of luck!!! muahaha!!! >:)))
10/10 goober
i think thats all the silly stick guys
uhh
pls forgive me for my silly rambles :>
Opinions on some of the Hood Roundtable antagonists...

Starting with YOU.
you were hard to beat, I'll give you that. What with your slashy attackys (pretty easy) and your teleporty arrows (EXCUSE ME WTF?!?!)
BUT

YOU.
YOU.

YOU AND YOUR STUPID BULLET MECHANIC WHERE I HAVE 3 MISSES AND A 10 SECOND COOLDOWN TO GET THEM ALL BACK?!?!
GRAHH IM GOING TO RIP SOMETHING APART
"and the note spam" -lil voice in the back of my head
OH DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THE NOTE SPAM/TRICKY DOUBLE ARROWS--
#Dear lord now i gotta tag stuff--#FNF Hood Roundtable#Hood Roundtable Hood#Hood Roundtable Delta#Hood Roundtable Psi#Hood Roundtable Sigma#Hood Roundtable Zeta#Hood Roundtable Pi#Hood Roundtable Gamma#Hood Roundtable Epsilon#Hood Roundtable Iota#Hood Roundtable Beta#Hood Roundtable Mu#psst#Mu#Mu you're my favorite#dont tell anyone#shh#:)))#Hood Roundtable Omicron#long post#jesus how long have i rambled for??? what time is it#3:11? 3:12? sheesh#should i do a troubleshootin' one?#im going to do a troubleshootin one#*casually dissipates into thin air*
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An Innocent Sin & the good gay flashback ft. my descent into madness
I wasnât sure if I should post this but I mostly want it archived so here we go. This is from like,, September?
So. âAn Innocent Sinâ is a dumpster fire unlike anything Iâve ever seen. I donât remember why I decided to read it. maybe I was crazy. Either way... I read it. It soon started to touch upon (very very outlandish) sexual abuse which I thought was interesting. (the angst, not so much some of the wack circumstances surrounding it)
ANYWAY. at some point... we have a flashback. And not just that. It has a gay character.
And it turns rly gay. which mind you, is still in a het smut manwha (that has a âgayâ side couple, but still!)
And it destroyed me.
For those who want to read it because I genuinely think the flashback is a decent bit, itâs all the bonus chapters between chapter 77 and 78 I think. Thereâs a part before that too, but idk where exactly anymore. (Itâs on lezhin! or your platform of choosing)
I donât THINK youâll need any other knowledge to get the flashback bit? but itâs been a while.
Below the cut (rip mobile users), you can read all of my amazing reactions (all of these were text messages, for context - but I took most of the replies and convos about other things out). Post is also tagged as long post. :))
(iâm serious, this is fucking long)
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Here I am. Liking the gay flashback character. Feck. Main dude is still straight but idk it's cute pff

This is a mess. The girl white hair likes, likes black hair, maybe, but thinks white hair is attractive

What just happened is sth I'd like to know too pff He's so cute tho omg. Watch me melt Can we stay in this flashback before everything got perverted af and before white hair gets assaulted all the time I would send an eyebrow emote if I could Context: he's asking he says it again
Ik it's not mutual but loookkk he's so sweet. He's kinda rude in present time, can't we stay in this flashback forever
I never asked for gay, never expected gay but I got gay
This story is trash why am I still reading it shdhhd
He caught his mom cheating. And now she's forcing him to watch??? What is thissss Well adoptive mom But still sudhdidu what Bitch how dare YOU exist
Save my babyyyy
Yay sister that's not yet a rapist to the rescueee
This flashback is actually just nicer in every way let's just stay here This is a super long flashback btw Idek anymore what triggered it
Okay I think I'm gonna make the sensible decision and let this dumpster fire rest and just go sleep
It was very wild. I kinda wanna see white hair get therapy but it has 90 chapters and I'm at like 30... So I'm very concerned this is gonna be very dragged out. Idek if it's even finished ahahsududi - but I do kinda wanna see where it goes and see more cute Noah (white hair) so. Here we are.
yeahhh like i was down for the sexual abuse angst but then the mother killed the adoptive son's mother bc the dad had a thing for her?? and it was someone a person studying with white hair knew and so he's investigating and I'm like how did this turn into a crime organisation kind of plot
hhhhhhh i... i appreciate these horny things also tackling abuse but it always kind of gives me weird vibes to have both, especially when its very horny. And when people are horny to people who've been abused. Idk but I'd assume... you might try NOT to tie them up if they're frequently bondaged during their assaults. I'm just.... disjdksdj hello?? am i weird?? why are they fine with it???
also this manwha is so wild, theres this murder mystery investigation thing and then theres just a couple doing honry stuff sprinkled in between and i'm like OKAY
they rescued a guy in their basement and he's understandably very traumatized and they're trying to question him cut to our main couple trying bondage which i still dont understand bECAUSE HE'S A RAPE VICITM WHY ARE YOU OKAY WITH THIS the ones questioning arent the main couple of course but idshkjds
like im glad he's somehow okay with all this horny stuff despite his trauma and im glad he can be happy and have a nice relationship but DO WE NEED THIS MUCH OF IT he's very cute tho
i like that even when i try other stuff lezhin recommends me it still has large amount of gay in it
[mei: i mean... that's pretty great, if you ask me]
I mean I agree, I'm enjoying the gay eheheh these tonal whiplashes there's not even that much white space between the panels fhjd nvm it just turned horny goddamn it can there be 1 chapter without fucking? okay, there were the flashbacks
WE ARE BACK IN FLASHBACKS but im not getting the gay relationship, sad
OH WAIT AM I GETTING GAY COMFORT bc thats very good too
OH NNOOO this turned sad very quickly
I'M SORRY IM SPAMMING BUT THIS IS JUST ANGSTY
I'M :((((
different species confirmed
I rly like them :((( I like the current girl too but it's just..... very horny with her. the flashbacks are nice [current tori edit: sheâs very unloyal idk why i said I liked her] im weird HHHHH RIPPPÂ
someone help him he looks so saddddd
not sure if thats the most healthy relationship but I'LL TAKE IT
AWWW black hair's mom cooks mild food for them bc Noah can't eat spicy food :((( im soft
PFFF
I LOVE THE FLASHBACKS :(((
awww
i feel like theyve done much more bonding than noah's current relationship. I mean yes I think its cute when she comforts him, too, but they rarely do anything besides be horny together
OH OH THEY'RE KISSING
best buildup, honestly
the position is hornier than I'd like later here goes hope it stays cute
D-did someone just respect the word "stop"??? I am amazed
i think you might uh. have some trauma stuff too so yknow
Dohye is a little dramatic in his reassurance but it's all rly cute so I'm :(( I like them a lot pls stay like this getting invested in flashbacks is always like: ik it wont stay but pls stay like this
hELP
chapters ending in "i wanna touch him" is never good. I'm scared. Oh okay he didnt do anything. PHEW. He's already better than the girl, can't they just end up together lmao
[Noah was jealous]
w-why do you look so evil dohye haukdhjs
oh. oh no. the horny is starting. pls dont... just be cute forever
DOHYE NO YOU WERE SO DECENT WHY ARE YOU LYING ABOUT KOREAN TRADITIONS TO GET HIM TO DO STUFF HORNY STUFF TOO NO PLS STOP I JUST- WHEEE TvT the manwha is actually less visually horny in the flashbacks but im not sure if its bc its BL which isnt rly the genre of the manwha or if its bc they're still kids basically, which... I'd respect the latter, tho I'd prefer it to be like this constantly haha
okay. he's not respecting stop anymore, but it's also more of embarrassed nature more than "no i dont want this stop" so maybe i can forgive it. Still losing points, but he hugged him and it was sweet so HHHHHHHHHHH NOT SURE HOW I SHOULD JUDGE THIS SITUATION
They [Noahâs family] forbid him to visit his friends house I AM DEVASTATED
understandable they're a rapist, a fucked up murderer mother and a father with a thing for younger women so
tho he dont know any of that but yknow he's so pretty just fucking end me on the spot
hooo
they are boyfriends and ik from the future that his sister is gonna ruin it allll she has those drugs that make visual imaginations feel like they rly happened to the person (dont know if thats real but holy fuck its terrifying) and she's used it before to say that Noah assualted her. and im pretty sure shes gonna use it again bc there was a panel of Noah remembering Dohye being uhhhh intimate with her and thats why Noah began to hate him and im so sad im not ready for it. bc he's denied it in the future and i honestly couldnt see it happening even before that or she drugged Dohye, i guess thats a possibility too
[current tori: oh girl, itâs neither and itâs wack]
which if, btich you gonna die even more enough rambling, more reading. this makes me so sad but also spicy
on the manwha note, he thinks Noah doesnt like his family bc he's adopted and doesnt feel comfy which....... fair enough i suppose. and he's so cute im gonna melt just looK AT THISÂ
SHUt UP, IM GONNA CRY
OH MY GODDDD he ate like ice and gum and all that, and Dohye assumed it was bc of the more spicy food and got rl worried, but he was just trying to get the smell out of his breath bc he wanted to kiss him ukhsdjs HOW CAN YOU BE SO CUTE HELLLOOOOOOOOO
look at them. LOOK AT mY BABIESSSS
how am i ever gonna care about the main couple again aww he-he wanted to go to the same highschool as him :((( im sad bc i know its not gonna happennnnnn
[mei: also at this point, you're literally never gonna care about them. i don't even know the main couple that well and i honestly don't care about them whatsoever.]
WAIT NO they're actually going to the same school awww ik it wont take long until sister fucks it up for them but for now theyre so sweet ohmygodddd
cant he move in with them, fuck his family honestly
dohye he's not a fucking pokemon iukhsdjs
oh. its. turning horny i am displeased with this development but i guess its natural for their relationship however COULD YOU DO IT AT HOME AND NOT IN SOME DUSTY SMALL ROOM how do ppl do this i like that the comments too are just "... is anyone still carng about the other girl?" sakjds
this is the best 3 panels in existence.
h-he just took your hand dohye idk what to tell you
[mei: "you blush at everything i do" god if that isn't me, idk what is]
awww its cute dohye is getting bonus points bc he invited Noah over while his mom wasnt home, they watched some sexual stuff and he DIDNT try to do anything what is this where can i get more of this
"well im not okay"
MY BABIESSSSÂ
they still didnt do much btw they're just kinda exploring and its honestly nice TvT I dont want this to ever endddd
[Dohye sees Noahâs sister and approaches her] N O
N OOOO
this is the starttttt of something.......... TERRIBLEEEEÂ
:((( babyyyy
I AM EMO
Noah was drugged im sure. hes having dreams and waking up in pain and the sister is asking doyhe over I DONT LIKE THISSSSSSS OH HE DECLINED
OKAY OKAY he saw him with her again but it was from behind and im not sure if it rly happened??? oh no this is terrible. Noah :((( poor child
i am so emo about this
[reminder heâs been abused TvT]
[the sister: âDonât you want to know why?â]
i will. murder someone he called to ask her to delete his number btw what is this manwha but this is just gonna make it that more tragic when whatever happens that breaks them apart :(((
he's such a good bf but Noah just wont TELL him his side I'M SO SAD
I AM SO SAD
No
NO
It cant end im actually tearing up nooo you were so cuteeee and happpyyy
[*sister is telling dohye to come to the gym hall*]
what else is she gonna do she already teared [current tori: ahem... T O R E] them apart THAT'S NOT DOYhE. THATS NEVER HIM. OH MY GOD. is it a look alike??? damn, she's dedicated to just. ruining it, huh
IâM
IâM SO SAD
now he's switching SCHOOLS NO NOOOOO how will i ever find happiness againnnn NO they're misunderstanding further they're not talking properly i mean i get it but oh my god
I'M :(((Â
NO NOOOO pls make up in the future at least omg he tried to clear it up tooo ahhh i dont even have hopes for them getting back together but i just i want them to clear it up im crying first manwha to make me cry and it's this dumpster fire ahaha maybe a little too bc it kinda hit a little close to home i guess but goddamnn ittttt they were so cuteee and so happy and AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
OH NO. Noahs getting drugged and assaulted. And he's realizing it happened before, he just forgot. I am. so sad it's not horny drawn either which i appreciate but MY HEART NO
N O DONT YOU DARE MAKE THIS WORSE
Im. gonna cry moreÂ
Doyhe kept an eye on him im so emo :(( but he thought he was doing well enough and gave up.... Im im so sad no i want you to make up and get back together its all just a stupid........... MEHHHH will i ever find sth like this flashback again
[mei: p-probably not, no]
i am so devasted i dont even wanna go back to the main couple just fucking. i want this relationship back :(((( but i guess the investigation might end up somewhere so hhh hhhhhhhhhhhhhh the baker manwha had a similar flashback feeling so. i just gotta find more of that haha
BUT THIS WAS SO SAD??? im so emo
[Dohye got kidnapped // the flashback commentary stops here but I think my descend into madness is pretty funny too]
OH YEAH THAT HAPPENED. THE FLASHBACK WAS SO LONG I FORGOT. NOOOO SAVE HIM. JESUS CHRIST PLS JUST ONE GOOD THING
its. actually rly smart to have another, more focused on them flashback, before the arc where he gets kidnapped by the rapist murder household so. good job. from a meta perspective but also NO but also. maybe theres hope for them making up at least after all :(((
[main couple kissing] this is. very weird now. but im glad he has someone, he deserves it but dohyeeeee
and switching to sex, YET AGAIN now i wanna see this EVEN LESS THAN I DID BEFOREEEE it's even.... a threesome now with one of the other characters why are you like this why can't you be. like in the flashback i am so upset HAHHHHH WHEEEZEEEE
I am just stop fucking jesus christ PLEASE I DONT WANNA SEE IT ANYMOREEEEE
im just stop the horny pls just tell me who that new guy is and why doyhe likes him so much
[mei: this manwha is a fucking mess but at least we got your lovely commentary out of it]
dhsuksj thanks i feel honored at least i got cute BL out of it before everything went [back] to shit
[mei: THAT TOO]
[...]
tbh im getting kinda mad about doyhe... i dont... feel like he'd just fall instantly for a guy who looks like Noah... but eh not my character
i just want closure for dohye at this point, fuck everything else ... not literally pls theres already too much of that
pls get it together for like 1 chapter is the investigation even still happening i am so confused save dohye plEASE wait what i have less than 10 episodes left Dont tell me this shit isnt even wrapped up yet
[Dohye is having a breakdown over the Noah double not coming to see him anymore]
yeah i this... doesnt feel like Dohye... at all... Even when Noah was rejecting him he was just kind of... taking it with some humor and maybe he was a little desperate and risky sometimes but... oh well... i do want him to get better but... im having a hard time believeing this development??? he never seemed overly anxious or anything. but who knows what else they did to him. Sister can still go fuck off tho
[...]
i mean. i liked the flashbacks a lot honestly??? it stayed simple and focused on the dynamics and less trying to balance smut with murder plots
[dm partner: NO THAT'S WHAT I MEAN LIKE CLEARLY THE AUTHOR CAN MAKE A GOOD STORY SO I'M JUST... CONFUSED AS TO WHY THEY DIDN'T STICK WITH SOME SOFT, FLUFFY BL ROMANCE MANWHA AND DECIDED TO MAKE WHATEVER THIS IS INSTEAD ]
okay i dont care bc dohye is currently getting assaulted nobody asked for this why i just. this is terrible. he was... so sweet. he doesnt deserve this. nobody does of course but jesus christ pls someone save him at least its not horny visually, one saving grace
ah... the assult is back to being depicted horny-ly thank you for nothing
[... removed some general confusion about the plot]
YES. SOME SHIP FOOD.
i am. suffering i mean i cant stop but GOD
okay so apparantly. the sister. has just an arsenal of people who look like other people Dohye, then Noah... and even Noah's GF??? this is ridiculous??
one good messageÂ
whyÂ
did you feel the need to add that [actual tired rage]
im gonna die this manwha is gonna kill me im laughing but im suffering oh hes arrested great and thats the end and the last update was in january of this year
why AS IN NOAH IS ARRESTED nobody who actually did anything is arrested What is this why is this AHHH I at least wanted the complete-ness of finishing this but now I'M JUST SUFFERING
[ mei: I MEAN TO BE FAIR I'D BE SUFFERING TOO BC JUST... WHAT THE FUCK I HAVE?? MANY QUESTIONS?? AND MANY CONCERNS BC THIS MANWHA IS JUST... AN EXPERIENCE ]
its an experience allright WELL
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yup thatâs it.
in my head, in a twist of events Dohye and Noah make up and are actual endgame. Something like that must exist out there but I wonât ask because itâd destroy the surprise and ruin the point.
Thatâs it.
Have a nice day.
#an innocent sin#dohye x noah#noah x dohye#long post#tori talks#tori has opinions#reactions#yes I do this often in our dms#poor mei#toriqueue
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Hey Iâm not the anon that u talked about but I follow u on twitter and wanna let u know that donât worry!!!! That happened to me a few days ago too djdnxjsn. Are you posting today?
ahhh HI OMG thank u for understanding :â)<3<3<3
IT WAS SO FRUSTRATING bc i got it all written but thereâs lil things to edit and words to change a bit but it was basically done and then the power went out and refused to come back for 7 hours :/
as soon as it came back i got to it but im sleeeeepy and i have a family thing tomorrow morning (basically today wow itâs 4 am) so i canât post it until the afternoon :( BUT YES TODAY ITâLL BE POSTED FINALLY. NOTHING WILL STOP ME FROM POSTING IT TODAY.
if u want, and for the other super patient and lovely anon as well, hereâs a lil preview of it; the first out of the 5 + 1 things of this fic! <3
(as i said, it still needs to be proof read again so if u find mistakes pls pretend u didnt, im gonna get to them tomorrow sdkfhds but yeah there u have 1,5k of this monster of a fic that took over 2 months of my life lmao what started as a lil hurt/comfort fic ended up in a 18k monster of developing relationship hurt/comfort and angst with a cHEESY ending wow)
Having the night shift at the E.R onFriday nights itâs always a chore. Harry always tries his best to change itwith one of his colleagues, even if he has to take Mondayâs morning shift whereeveryone comes with the silliest symptoms to get some excuse to get out oftheir jobs for a couple days.
This time, however, Liam has a familything he canât get out of and Harry has to cover the night shift.
It goes as he expected it.
Drunk college students with alcoholpoisoning are the most common gig of the night, followed by guys withconcussions and broken noses that can only be attributed to bar fights.
Itâs around 10 pm when heâs making a roundthrough the new arrivals when he sees a guy sitting in the waiting room withwhat seems to be a scarf wrapped around his left arm and a guitar tightlyclutched in his right hand.
He looks downright miserable. Soaked tothe bone â though Harry doesnât recall it raining when he started his shift âhair plastered to his forehead and a bruise in his right cheek that he can tellitâs gonna swell and hurt as fuck tomorrow morning.
He takes a look around the room andfigures heâs the most interesting case he can get out of the night.
âHello there, Iâm Doctor Styles. Did thenurse give you the triage paper?â He asks, looking down at the brown hairedguy, who startles at his voice.
âOh, hi, yes, uh,â he searches around hispockets for a bit, hissing when he disturbs his homemade bandage, Harry doesnâtknow if heâs hiding a broken, burnt or cut arm, but heâs sure the scarf itâsnot wrapped up properly for none of those situations.
He finally finds a yellow crumbled uppaper in the pocket of his jeans, âthought the red papers got attention first.âHe says, looking up to Harry and handing him the paper.
âYeah, Friday nights are usually full ofyellow ones, though.â Harry says, scanning the paper quickly and seeing Niall J. Horan, 25 year old male, reportedbar fight, probable broken wrist, no signs of concussion, vitals on order, pain8/10. âHowâs your pain right now?â
âOut of ten? Itâs been simmering between 8and 9 for the last hour,â Niall replies with a shrug. âNurse told me x-rayswere necessary but that Iâd have to leave my guitar outside,â he continues, âIrefused, because have you seen the people around this place? Theyâre all drunk.No way Iâm leaving it out here only to find it broken, so if you can tell mewhat to do or what to take for the pain Iâd appreciate it so I can go home.â
âYou could have a broken wrist, judging bythe pain Iâm pretty sure thatâs the case, isnât getting the x-ray moreimportant than a guitar?â Harry asks, an amused smile making his way through asNiall splutters and shakes his head.
ââCourse itâs more important, sheâs one ofa kind. Actually my arm might be broken because I fell out of the stage toprotect her.â He states. A stubborn frown taking over his face.
âAlright,â Harry nods, âYou can leave itin my office while we do x-rays and get you proper treatment. That way both ofyou will be safe.â
âReally?â Niall asks, âHey, thank youmate! I hope itâs not a bother.â
âNone at all, just follow me and weâll getit done quick enough.â
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Half an hour later Niallâs sitting in astretcher as Harry wraps up his broken wrist properly. His guitar restingbeside him. âI cannot help but ask, what did you mean you fell out of a stageto save your guitar?â
âOh,â he laughs, âwell, you see, I play inthis bar on Friday nights, to help a bit with the bills, you know? Being ajust-graduated-nutritionist doesnât give you much, so I was there, justchilling, getting ready to finish the set, when a bunch of assholes startedfighting, throwing punches and chairs and tables went flying. My guitar was inthe direct line of fire.â He says, pausing a bit to swallow harshly as Harrymoves his arm to check the blood flow is alright and the bandages are justtight enough. âSo I try to yell at âem to be careful but just as I was about toreach the guitar and leave a guy was pushed over, I can only guess he was deaddrunk, because he didnât even try to slow down the fall, and I could only seehis ass was for sure gonna land on my guitar, so I jumped head first to grab itand he fell on me, I fell on the corner of the stage, thus the bruising.â
âIs that why you told the nurse the reasonof all this was a bar fight?â
âWell, technically it all started with abar fight, but as I was about to explain it all she just went and rolled hiseyes and gave me a yellow paper.â Niall says, a sour look on his face, ârealrude of her, you know.â
âYeah, youâll have to forgive her,â Harrysays with a small smile, âwe donât get much of anything other than bar fightson Friday nights.â He continues, handing Niall a sheet of paper with hisprescribed pain medication.
âDo I have to come for you to take a lookat it again? Like, remove the bandage or something?â Niall asks, looking a bitforlornly at the piece of paper.
âOh, yeah but not here, exactly. You cancall this number,â he says, handing Niall a small card that just says Liam Payne and two phone numbers. âHeâsthe best orthopedist youâll ever find in this hospital. Heâll do an x-ray,check everythingâs alright and in about 4 weeks youâll be bandages free.â Hefinishes, smiling despite the fact that Niall looks kind of sad. Disappointedeven. âHe really is the best, youâve got nothing to be scared of, heâll takegood care of you.â
âNot as good as you,â Niall mutters underhis breath as Harry turns his back on him to open the curtain that wasseparating them from the rest of the E.R.
âWhat was that?â Harry asks.
âOh, nothing, just. Thinking out loudabout whether I should try to find a bus or just walk home.â
âI can call you a cab if youâd like.âHarry offers. Helping Niall gather his guitar, papers and card without losinganything.
âNo, thatâs alright. I left my jacket atthe bar so I have no change with me, just my very loyal Oyster card and twowell-functioning legs.â
âItâs really late, Niall, really. I canlend you some, itâs no trouble.â Harry says, searching in his pockets for hiswallet, âIâd be no good of me as a doctor if I fix you up only to let you walkhome at two in the morning. Cab is the safest option.â
âAlso the most expensive,â Niall remarks,âweâre in an alright neighborhood and I live like half an hour from here, itâllbe alright.â Then, with a bit more of spark in his eyes, he says; âIf you wantyou can give me your number and I can text you as soon as I get home.â
Harry seemed too busy looking into hiswallet to notice, though, âHere, just a couple of bucks. Just in case youdecide your houseâs too far and youâre too tired or cold to keep walking.â Hesays, handing Niall a couple of folded bills. âOr in case you have nothing inyour Oyster card. Canât never be too safe.â
Heâs just finished talking when a beepcomes from his pocket. Eyes opening wide when he sees a red alert from hispager.
âWell, look at that. You can have a couplered cases on Friday nights too.â Harry says, shaking his head, âHave a niceevening. Donât forget to pick up your meds tomorrow morning. What I just gaveyou weâll be enough for the night but it might get really achey if you movearound a lot.â Harry says, walking fast towards the nursesâ station. âNo guitarplaying, for at least a week, let you hand heal nicely. If thereâs moreswelling, your fingers get really cold, dark or you canât feel them or thereâsany fever at all, please come back to the E.R immediately.â Harry says in arush as he checks the new triage papers. âAny questions?â
âThank you.â Says Niall. âReally, you werethe nicest doctor Iâve ever met and I promise when I come back for that check-upIâll hunt you down and pay you back.â
âNo need,â Harry replies with a smile,âIâve got to run. Have a safe trip home!â
And with that he leaves, back towards theentrance of the E.R where an ambulance is pulling in someone in a really bloodystretcher.
With a shudder, Niall turns to leave, notbefore looking back at Harry for the last time and saying to himself, ânexttime Iâll get his number.â
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A Path I Can't Follow
Author's Note: SO I was already writing this one shot when I got this awesome request from an anon, so I merged it into this. My Star Wars fans will be so happy with this one LOLL, well actually not happy bc its mega angst (iykyk). JUSTICE FOR ANAKIN AND SUGURU!!!
I recommend listening to your favourite sad playlist while reading, makes the experience 1111000% better.
Pairing: Suguru Geto x f!reader
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Request linked here
Warnings: violence, grief, loss, death. (yeah, I said mega angst...)
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It had been almost a month since Suguru Geto abandoned the Jujutsu world, leaving behind a trail of devastation that none of you could have anticipated.Â
The day Gojo gave you the newsâŚyour world fractured in ways you couldnât comprehend.
When Satoru found you in the training hall, his usually carefree expression was replaced with something grim, something haunted.Â
The lighthearted banter youâd come to expect from him was absent, replaced by a heavy silence that stretched between you like a void.Â
You had known something was wrong before he even said it, but nothing could have prepared you for the words that followed.
Suguru had cursed an entire villageâmen, women, childrenâand even worse, his own parents were among them.
Your mind couldnât grasp it at first.Â
The Suguru you knew, the one who held you close on quiet nights, who used to laugh softly at your terrible jokes and talk about a future that didnât involve exorcisms or endless battles, was suddenly unrecognizable.Â
How could he have done something so monstrous?
You remembered staring blankly at Gojo, your body numb, the room spinning as he continued speaking, his voice distant as you felt something hot stream down your cheeks.Â
You had been dating Suguru for three yearsâthree years of knowing every side of himâŚor so you thought.Â
But this?Â
This was something you could never have imagined.
The ache in your chest was unbearable, it felt as if someone had hollowed you out from the inside. You shook your head violently âNoâŚnoâŚâ
You couldnât produce an image of the man you loved according to the monster Gojo had described.Â
The same man who used to trace circles on your back as you fell asleep, whispering that everything would be okay, had now left a village in ruins, and your mind couldnât process it.
Gojoâs voice had softened when he saw the look on your face, but the pity in his eyes only made it worse, and you fell to the ground in a broken mess.Â
"Iâm sorry," heâd said, and though you knew he meant it, those words felt hollow, as you knew he had lost someone important too in all of this.
You barely remembered what happened after that.Â
The days blurred together in a haze of disbelief and grief. You stayed in your room, replaying every conversation, every mission, searching for the moment when it all went wrong.Â
How had you missed this?Â
How could Suguru have changed so completely without you realizing it?
The weight of his absence crushed you.Â
The empty spaces he left behindâthe way your bed felt too big without him in it, the quiet moments in the common room that you used to fill with laughterâwere suffocating.Â
And no matter how hard you tried, you couldnât escape the truth: Suguru Geto, the man you loved, had become someone you didnât recognize.Â
And you didnât what from him, no goodbye, no Iâm sorryânothing from the man you loved.
You had been avoiding your phone, pushing the thoughts of Suguru away because they hurt too much to hold onto.Â
The soft knock at your bedroom door made your heart jump, only for it to fall when you realized it wasnât himâIt was never him.
But when you opened the door to see a letter laid on the groundâfolded, worn edges, and unmistakably his handwritingâyour world spun for a moment.Â
He had sent it. After everything, after weeks of silence, Suguru sent you a note.
Your fingers trembled as you opened it, heart racing, unsure whether you should laugh or cry at the mere fact that he reached out.
"Meet me."
And, God help you, you went.
â
The air was thick, and the sky was dark when you arrived at the temple.Â
It clung to your skin, heavy with unspoken words, with things left unsaid between the two of you.Â
Your feet felt like they were sinking into the earth as you climbed the steps, each one pulling you deeper into a place you werenât sure you could return from.
And there he was.
Suguru stood by the edge of the open hall, staring out into the night, his back turned to you as the wind stirred his long hair. He didnât move as you approached, didnât say anything, even though you knew he had to have sensed your presence.Â
You swallowed the lump in your throat, willing your voice to come out steady. "Suguru."
It barely came out as a whisper, but it was enough. His shoulders stiffened, the only sign that he had heard you.Â
You waited for him to turn, for him to say somethingâanythingâthat would make sense of the last few weeks. But he didnât move.
The silence pressed down on you, suffocating.
âWhy did you do all this?â You finally asked, your voice cracking under the weight of the question that had haunted you every day since he disappeared.
Suguru exhaled slowly, a sound that was more sigh than breath. "I had to." He said before finally turning around to face you.Â
That was all he offered.Â
No apology, no explanation, just that hollow statement, like it was meant to answer everything.
You could see his features soften as your eyes locked.Â
He had almost forgotten how beautiful you were, how your features calmed him and brought him warmthâa warmth he hadnât felt in a long time.
You shook your head, trying to hold yourself together as you spoke softly.Â
âYou didnât have to. You didnât have to curse an entire village to death. You didnât even tell meââ Your voice cracked as you felt the pain of his absence catching up to you. âYou left me. You left all of us.â
Finally, he began slowly walking towards where you stood in the doorway. His eyes met yours, and the sight of him, standing there so composed, so distant, shattered something inside you.
"I couldnât stay," he said, his voice steady in a way that made your chest ache. "This world⌠itâs broken. Staying wouldnât change that."
You took a step toward him, desperation clawing at you. "We couldâve fixed it together. You didnât even try to talk to Satoru or me. You didnât have to leave."
He shook his head, his eyes hard, resolute.Â
"You shouldnât bother yourself with SatoruâŚâ He paused, âIâm building something new. Something better. I canât fix this world from the inside. I canât pretend anymore." He took a few more steps, closing the distance between you with agonizing slowness, each step erasing the space but widening the gap between who he had been and who he had become.
You felt the urge rise, the instinct to reach out, to touch him like you used to, like it would somehow bring him back to you.Â
But your hands stayed frozen at your sides, weighed down by the fearâno, the fact that your beautiful boy was already too far gone.
Your heart dropped.Â
The person standing in front of you wasnât the Suguru you had known, the one who held you close after every mission, the one who whispered your name like it was a prayer. This man was a stranger, distant and cold.
âAnd what about us?â Your voice cracked again, tears burning behind your eyes as you fought to keep them at bay. âWhat about everything we had, Suguru?â
His jaw clenched. For a brief moment, something flickered in his eyes, something soft and familiar. But it was gone in an instant, replaced by that same, chilling determination.Â
"I canât go back." His voice was quiet but firm as his thumb ran over your sift skin, reminding you of the happiness you once had with this man.
Unbeknownst to you, tears began to slip down your cheeks, hot and unchecked. You leaned into his touch, your voice trembling with emotion.Â
âWhat you are doingâŚI-Itâs insane. You, me, the othersâwe were building something.â
He shook his head, his expression hardening as his gaze turned distant again but still locked onto your crying eyes, his hand moving down to rest on the side of your neck, his touch was cold on your warm skin.Â
âNo, y/n. We werenât building anything. I was just wasting my time.â
You flinched as if he had struck you, the weight of his words slamming into you, stealing the breath from your lungs.Â
âWasting time?âÂ
You staggered back, away from his grasp, shaking your head, hands gripping your arms as though trying to hold yourself together.Â
âThis isnât you, Suguru. Youâre not this... this person. Youâre notânot a monsterâŚâ Your voice faltered, a sob finally breaking free from your quivering lips as you looked away from his once-kind eyes.Â
âCome home to me, baby. Please.â
You hated how desperate you sounded, how your heart felt like it was shattering in your chest as you stood there, pleading with the only person you had ever truly loved.
âI canât,â he said softly, and that softness hurt worse than anything else. His eyes met yours, and you saw itâthe finality in them.Â
âIâm building something new. A world where the weak donât suffer. A world thatâs right.â
Tears streamed down your face, hot and bitter, but you couldnât stop them. âWe could do that together! We couldââ
âNo, y/n!â His voice cut through the air like a blade, sharp and cold as ice.Â
He had never yelled at you, never raised his voice like this, and the sound of it sent a fresh wave of pain and fear crashing over you.Â
âWe canât.â
You flinched at his harshness, your breath hitching as his words sank in. He looked away, jaw clenched tight, as if the mere sight of your tears was too much for him.Â
"Iâm doing this for us," he continued, his voice lower but no less resolute. "For everyone.â
"SuguruâŚyouâre breaking my heart, youâre going down a path I canât followâ The words slipped out, quiet but forceful. Your eyebrows furrowed as you looked at him, the man you always thought you couldnât live without.
He shook his head softly, slowly approaching you as you moved away from him. âY/nâŚeverything Iâve done, has been necessaryâŚ"
âNecessary?â You spat, your voice trembling as your grief twisted into rage, angry tears streaming down your face. âYou think abandoning meâabandoning everything we have worked forâis necessary?â
He shook his head, taking small steps towards you slowly closing the space between you once more.Â
âYou donât understand,â he murmured. âIâm not abandoning you. Iâmââ
âThen what is this?!â You interrupted, your voice breaking as the pain inside you twisted into something desperate, broken.Â
âWhat do you call this if not abandonment?!â You screamed, your tear-filled eyes locking with his, and you knew he could see the pain in your soul, the pain he caused you.
Suguruâs eyes flashed, a familiar glint passing through them, and for the first time since you arrived, you saw something close to regret in his gaze. He looked at you in a way you never thought youâd get to see againâwith love.
Before you could even react, his lips were on yours, urgent and full of emotion.Â
The kiss hit you like a truck, your breath stolen from your lungs as his hand moved to the back of your head, fingers threading gently through your hair as he desperately pulled you closer.
The shock of it left you frozen for a heartbeat, but then your body responded on its own, your hands reaching up to cup his face.Â
Your fingers brushed against the familiar curve of his jaw, the rough stubble beneath your touch grounding you in a moment that felt both surreal and inevitable.Â
The kiss wasnât gentleâit was raw, a mixture of desperation and longing, as if he were trying to pour every unsaid word, every unresolved feeling, into the press of his lips.
Suguru kissed you like it was the only thing that mattered in the world, as if he could somehow erase the pain that he saw reflected in your tears with this one act.Â
His lips were soft, but his grip on you was firm, holding you as if he couldnât bear to let go.Â
And for a moment, you let yourself fall into itâinto him. You let the world fall away, let the ache in your chest dissolve into the warmth of his touch.
Your hands trembled slightly as they moved from his jaw to the back of his neck, pulling him closer, refusing to let him slip away again.Â
His kiss deepened, and you felt the weight of all the emotions he wasnât sayingâthe regret, the sorrow, the love that still lingered between you, even in the midst of everything.
But as your lips moved with his, the reality of what was happening began to creep back in.Â
This kiss wasnât a promiseâit was a goodbye, a last grasp at something that had already been broken beyond repair.Â
You could feel it in the way his body pressed against yours, in the way his breath hitched slightly as he pulled away, his forehead resting against yours as he caught his breath.
His hand lingered on the back of your head, but there was a distance in his touch, a hesitation that hadn't been there before.Â
When you opened your eyes and looked into his, you saw the tears welling up, threatening to spill from the depths of his deep purple gaze.
âSuguruâŚâ Your voice was soft as you spoke,Â
âI love you, I have, continue to, and will forever love you.âÂ
You watched his eyes search yours, the unspoken words hanging heavily in the air as a single tear slipped down his cheek, his lips quivered slightly, and you felt your heart shatter within your chest.Â
Instinctively, you raised your thumb to wipe it away, your gentle touch resting on his skin as your hands cradled his face. The warmth of his skin under your fingertips contrasted sharply with the hot tears streaming down your own face, the ache in your chest growing as you held onto each other tightly.Â
His fingers traced small, soothing patterns on your cheek, evoking the memories of laughter and love you once shared, of moments that felt invincible and eternal.
âPlease, baby, come hââ you began, desperation threading through your voice, the plea heavy on your lips. But before you could finish, he cut you off with another kissâthis one frantic and urgent, a collision of emotions.Â
Your lips moved together, moisture mixing due to you both crying, it was as if he were trying to convey everything he couldn't articulate, the weight of his sorrow and regret pouring into the embrace.Â
His hands became tangled in your hair again as he deepened the kiss, his tongue sliding into your mouth with familiarity.
He kissed you with a fervour that spoke of longing, a need to bridge the gap that had formed between you.Â
This kiss was deeper and more intense, echoing the confessions left unspoken, the promises he had broken.Â
In that moment, you both surrendered to the flood of feelings that surged between you, clinging to each other as if the world around you had ceased to exist.
He pulled away gently, leaning his forehead against yours.Â
âPlease, Suguru,â you said through your tears, your voice raw. âI love you. I love you so much.â
For a long, agonizing moment, he didnât say anything.Â
He just looked at you, as if memorizing the way you looked right thenâbroken, crying, desperate.Â
âLove wonât save you, y/n, only power can do that.â He said, straightening his spine and letting his hands fall to his sides.Â
âBut at what cost? You are a good person, probably the best Iâve ever met. Donât do this!â You cried, watching his eyes darken with something you weren't familiar with.Â
âYou donât understand, y/n, I am bringing about the world of the sorcerers! Those monkeys needed to be taken out in order for us to survive.â He tried explaining, and you felt your heart practically tearing apart.
âI donât believe what Iâm hearingâŚSatoru was rightâŚYouâve changed.â You said, taking a few steps backward to create some space between you. You noticed his eyebrows crinkle at the sound of your words.
âI donât want to hear any more about Satoru!â He shouted, growing visibly angry as he continued, âHe thinks he can take anything he wants, donât you let him take you from me too!âÂ
You let out a defeated sigh, but the hot stream of tears didnât stop flowing. âI don't know you anymore SuguruâŚâ
âBecause of Satoru?â He said accusingly.
You shook you head, a look of disbelief sprawled across your face.Â
âBecause of what you've doneâWhat you plan to do! Stop! Stop now... come back! I love you!â
Suguruâs features softened and he took a gentle step towards you. Before you could get another word out, his eyes darted to the doorway behind you, and that dark angered look returned.Â
You turned your head to meet the object of his gaze and were surprised to see Gojo standing in the doorway, his shades loosely between two fingers at his side.
âYouâre with him! You brought him here because you know heâs the only one who can kill me!â Suguru shouted, his eyes meeting yours with a raging fire you hadnât seen before, sending a wave of fear through your body.Â
âNo! I donât know why heâs herâ.â You pleaded your hands clasping together in front of youâBut Suguru wasnât listening.Â
All he saw was redâthe overwhelming rage and betrayal clouding his judgment, twisting every word you said into something darker.
Without hesitation, his hand lifted, fingers curling into a fist. The motion was swift, almost instinctive, and before you could react, the sensation of his familiar snake-like curse coiled around your body.Â
Its grip tightened with terrifying speed, constricting your airway, and your breath hitched violently.
Panic surged through you as your vision began to blur. You tried to speak, tried to plead with him, but the pressure around your throat made it impossible.Â
Your hands flew up to your neck in a futile attempt to loosen the curseâs grip, but it was no use.
Your eyes locked onto his, searching for some sign of the man you once lovedâsome hint of the tenderness he used to show you. But the fire in his gaze was all-consuming, the rage overpowering the softness you had once known.
Tears streamed down your face, each drop burning against your skin as your body began to falter.Â
Yet, through the haze of suffocating pain, you noticed somethingâthe glistening tears that fell from Suguruâs own eyes, tracing silent paths down his cheeks.
Even in his anger, his heart ached.Â
But it wasnât enough to stop him.
Before you could let out your final breath, you managed to say one last thing as you stared into his dangerous eyesâthe same ones you fell in love with, searching for one last glimpse of the man you loved.
âI willâalways loveâyou.â You breathed, voice hoarse as you felt your body slip into unconsciousness.Â
A single tear slipped down his cheek, one he didnât bother wiping away this time. The weight of your final words crushed him, cracking through the hardened shell heâd encased himself in.Â
âI canât let Satoru take her from meâ he thought to himself.
Suguruâs heart pounded in his chest, his mind racing as your words hung in the air like a ghost.Â
âI willâalways loveâyou.â
It was as if the last shred of your strength had been spent in those words, the way you looked at him, your eyes full of love and pain, piercing through the darkness heâd embraced.
His grip on you tightened, the snake-like curse coiling around your now limp neck with unrelenting force.Â
His thoughts were franticâdisjointed.Â
But then, Gojoâs voice boomed, snapping through the suffocating tension like a whip,Â
âSuguru, let her go!â It wasnât a requestâit was a command. At that moment, the intensity of Gojo's eyes was enough to shake even Suguru.
âLet her go, damn it!â Gojoâs voice cracked, desperation seeping through his usual unshakable composure.Â
âYouâve probably just killed her!â
Suguruâs hands faltered, his eyes widening in sudden horror.Â
Gojoâs words pierced through the haze of rage clouding his mind.Â
Killed her? No⌠That couldnât be true.Â
He hadnât meant to hurt you, hadnât meant for this to happen. Heâd only wanted to protect youâto keep you by his side.
âNoâŚno, no, noâŚâ Suguru muttered, releasing the curse, causing your body to fall to the floor with a loud thud. His hand covered his mouth as he stumbled back.Â
His eyes flickered between you and Gojo, and he quickly went to hold you in his arms. âNo!âÂ
Panic seeped into his gaze as he saw your limp form cradled in his arms, your head lolling to the side.Â
âNo, sheâs notâshe canât beââ
âY/nâŚ?â Suguru whispered, dropping to his knees beside you, his trembling hands hovering over your neck, unsure, terrified of what he might find.Â
His breathing hitched, and for the first time in a month, Suguru Geto was terrified.
âSuguru, what did you do?!â Gojo's voice rang out again, fury and heartbreak mingling together.Â
His hands clenched at his sides, every muscle in his body taut as he fought the urge to tear Suguru apart.Â
But even now, beneath the rage, there was still that glimmer of hopeâhope that you could be saved.
Suguru shook his head, his movements erratic, his denial absolute. âSheâsâsheâs fine, I didnât⌠I didnât mean toââ His voice broke, trembling as his eyes darted between your pale face and Gojoâs stricken expression.Â
He hadnât meant to kill youâhe never meant for it to end this way.
âI-I didnâtââ His words trailed off, his mind spiralling as he realized the depth of what he had done.Â
The weight of his actions crashed down on him, and for a moment, he was paralyzed by the enormity of his guilt.
Gojoâs eyes narrowed, his hands trembling as he walked towards where you laid in his arms.
âSuguru,â he growled, voice laced with cold fury.Â
âYouâve killed her.â
âNo!â Suguru shouted, backing away from you, as if Gojoâs words were physical blows.Â
His chest heaved, his breath shallow as panic surged through him.Â
He stumbled to his feet, shaking his head in disbelief, refusing to accept what had just happened.
âNo, I didnâtâsheâs notâsheâs still alive!â
Gojoâs pained gaze flickered to your still form, and in that instant, Suguru knewâhe couldnât stay.Â
Not with Gojo there. Not with the full weight of his crime pressing down on him. He turned on his heel, his heart hammering in his chest as he muttered incoherent apologies to the air, his mind fractured and overwhelmed.
Without another word, Suguru bolted from the room, his footsteps echoing in the hollow silence.Â
Gojo didnât moveâhe couldnât. Not yet. Not when your life hung in the balance.
The room fell into a suffocating quiet, the remnants of your final plea still echoing in the air.
There werenât many thoughts going through Gojoâs head as he carried your lifeless body back to Jujutsy High, just oneâhe had lost his two best friends that night.
â
5 Days Later
Suguru had recruited a few curse users since his incident with you and Gojo at the temple. He had managed to knock you out so Gojo wouldnât be able to stick around and kill him, he couldnât afford to delay his plans. Or so he convinced himself.
One evening, he was approached by two girls he had adopted, Nanako and Mimiko, who claimed to have news from Jujutsu High, as they were responsible for gaining intel from the school to keep tabs.Â
âLet's hear it. I hope it wasnât too much trouble for you girls,â He said softly, a warm smile playing on his lips as the two girls sat beside him.Â
âNot at all, Mr. Geto.â Mimiko said taking out a piece of paper from her pocket to read some bullet points, written in glitter gel pens.Â
âUm, no one is making any real progress on tracking you down, probably because theyâre all idiots,â she said, rolling her eyes. Suguru let out a small chuckle.
âWell thatâs good news, anything else?â He said, that same smile plastered on his face.
âOh yeah, that girl sorcerer you fought with is dead, what was her name? Ummmmm, oh yeah! Y/n y/l/n!âÂ
Suguruâs entire body went rigid, the casual warmth that had coloured his voice just moments ago draining in an instant. His heart seized in his chest as Mimikoâs words echoed in his ears.
âY/n y/l/n⌠dead.â
âNo,â he muttered, his voice strained and barely audible as the room seemed to tilt around him.Â
âThatâs impossible. Iââ He swallowed, his throat suddenly dry.Â
âI just knocked her unconscious⌠I didnâtââ His words trailed off, his mind spiralling back to that moment, to the look in your eyes as his cursed spirit wrapped around your neck.
âI didnât mean to hurt her. I didnât mean toâŚâ
âYeah,â Nanako added, her tone indifferent as she glanced at the paper. âThat doctor ladyâs report said her neck was brokenâshattered, actually. Sounds like there was nothing they could do. She died instantly.â
Suguruâs breath hitched in his throat, and for a moment, he couldnât breathe.Â
His mind raced back to that final moment, your whispered words replaying in his head over and over again. âI willâalways loveâyou.â
âHow had it come to this? How had he let it happen?â
His hands trembled as he gripped the edge of the table, trying to steady himself, but the world was slipping through his fingers.Â
He hadnât meant to kill you. He didnât want that. He had only wanted to stop youâstop you from siding with Gojo. Stop you from leaving him, like everyone else had.Â
But now⌠Now youâre gone.
âMr. Geto?â Mimikoâs soft voice attempted to pull him out of his thoughts, but it did nothing to soothe the storm that raged inside him.Â
He couldnât hear her. He could barely hear anything but the blood rushing in his ears, the distant echo of your last breath.
He stood abruptly, pushing away from the table, the chair scraping loudly against the floor. Both girls flinched, their eyes widening in confusion as they watched his usually composed demeanour unravel.
âMr. Geto?â Nanako called out again, her voice small.
But Suguru wasnât listening anymore. He turned away, his mind a tangled mess of disbelief and horror.Â
He had to get outâout of this room, out of this suffocating realization that he had killed the one person who had loved him enough to try to save him.
His chest heaved as he stumbled toward the door, his vision blurring at the edges. The air felt too thick, too hot, and for the first time in years,Â
Suguru Geto felt like he was drowning.Â
âI killed my beautiful y/nâŚâ The thought reverberated like a haunting mantra, suffocating him from the inside.
He barely registered the sound of the girls calling after him as he staggered outside, cold night air hitting his skin but doing little to calm the chaos inside him.Â
Suguru collapsed to his knees, his breath ragged, his hands clutching at his head as if he could somehow block out the reality of what he had done.Â
The tears came, unbidden, hot and stinging, falling freely down his face as he let out a broken, anguished sob.
This wasnât supposed to happen.Â
âY/nâŚâ he whispered into the cold night air, his voice shattered. âIâm sorry⌠Iâm so sorryâŚâ
But it was too late. He had chosen the dark sideâŚ
The world he sought to create, one where the weak no longer suffered, now felt more hollow than ever.
And all that remained was the bitter taste of regret, the price of his ambition.

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