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Gago to si Netflix 😂😂😂

Nanood kasi ako ng The Breakup Playlist- Sarah Geronimo and Piolo Pascual

Then may part dun na nagkaron ng confrontation sila, it has been 3 years since they broke up and yet may tama pa rin sila sa isa't isa, may pain pa rin.. Then I remember, it has been fucking 7 1/2 years and yet may pain pa rin, may tama pa rin. Then may scene dun, si Sarah and bestfriend nya, they were talking. Sabi nun bestfriend nya- "umiikot ang mundo pero ikaw andun ka pa rin. Magpatawad ka hindi para sa kanya kundi para sayo"

Tama sya, I should have forgiven you for hurting me so bad that it almost killed me- literally amd figuratively. I should have forgiven you so the oain j me would go away, para san ayun healing process nagstart na. I should have not just buried the pain away. Dapat hinarap ko sya, hindi ko dapat pinagwalang bahala. That pain took 7 1/2 years of my life, I wasted time with the wrong people instead of focusing to healing myself. Marami nawala sakin, trabaho, confidence, self esteem, respect. Ni magayos ng sarili di ko na ginagawa, tinadtad ako ng acne. Lahat lahat nawala sakin, tiwala ng mga taong nagtiwala sa kakayahan ko nun mawala yun taong iniikutan ng mundo ko, nun mawala ka sakin. Ang pagpapatawad sayo ay para maging okay na ako.

Don't get me wrong with this, I am writing this now to let myself know of my realizations.

You will ALWAYS be my GREATEST LOVE, GREATEST DOWNFALL, GREATEST HEARTACHE, DEEPEST SCAR and all the extreme feelings that i could possibly feel. YOU WILL ALWAYS BE THAT PERSON. Yun pareho ko kumain ng fries, yun pareho ko na mahilig sa dagat, yun unang tao na confident ako ni dinala sa church. IKAW YUN.

Things between us ended to soon and I could probably say, tragic ending. Sabi mo nga, si TIMING kasi, ayaw nya tayo pagtagpuin. Sabi mo nga, masaya ka na ngayon. Don't get me wrong, I am happy that you are happy even if it means that I am not part of that happiness that you feel. At least alam ko, may taong nagmamahal sa taong napakalaking bahagi ng buhay ko.

Wag ka magalala, pilit pa rin ako bumabangon, unti unti. Paunti unti binubo ko ulit lahat. Di man madali pero pilit ko kinakaya. You said, tapang ko, but you know what? I HAD NO OTHER CHOICE BUT TO BE STRONG kasi takot na ako. Takot na ako masaktan, takot na ako malugmok, takot na ako makita ulit ang sarili ko na mamatay ulit.

Masaya ako na masaya ka. Oo mahal pa rin kita, pero kasabay ng pagbuo ko ng mga nawala sakin pinapakawalan ko na ang sarili ko sa pain ng past. Wala na rin naman ako magagawa, wala na rin tayo magagawa, si TÌMING kasi ayaw nya.

Salamat, maraming salamat kasi minsan, sa halos 4 na buwan naging para tayo sa isa't isa. Salamat kasi naramdaman ko na mahal mo ako, salamat kasi prinotektahan mo ako kahit masakit para sayo at sakin. Sorry for not fighting for what I feel for you, sorry for not being there when you need me, sorry for making you feel guilty for everything.

I love you CAMILLE SAMIA CALUYA ALEGRE. MALAYA KA NA.