#Funkin Matt

[ruminate88]

Contemplating 07/12/24

So twice yesterday two separate places were screaming “therapy” and then someone post the word “contemplating” and it was like wooooow.

I understand that what Andrew, Cody and Jake did to me was impactful on my self worth and brain function. God has helped me so far. I’ve been learning how to grow my hair back and get my digestive health under control. I found a good magnesium citrate supplement that’s helping with that 🙏🏻 I don’t know anyone personally who has ever done therapy, so I can give no advice there. However, I would say to just be careful who you talk to and what advice they give you. Counseling I’m sure can be good if it’s from a good source. I haven’t opened back up to my husband, since he had to threaten Andrew to leave me alone becuase I don’t think he’ll understand truly what emotional abuse is and I don’t want him to make me feel bad for it. I think he wouldn’t purposely want me to feel bad, he just maybe wouldn’t know what to tell me. So I’m being choosy in who I talk to these days. Altho if the door opened, I would try to speak up to my husband.

I’ve never understood “trauma” growing up cuz I didn’t think I ever experienced such a thing until this past year, especially after I fell at Christmas off the ladder putting up lights. That fall was quick but hard. The initial fall didn’t hurt. It was afterwards, when I’m left sore and covered in bruises 😢😢 that’s EXACTLY how it felt with Cody and Andrew. The actual abuse wasn’t painful. It was after they betrayed me and broke my heart, then I felt the pain and was left with deep wounds. After Cody ghosted me, wow…. I kept seeing a “zipper” being zipped up anytime I would try to pray and my mom says, “sounds like you need closure” and that’s ALL she said, she didn’t ask me questions and I did NOT tell her or anyone close to me about Cody. 🥺 I kept him a complete secret and yet he left this big gaping hole inside my heart that wouldn’t ever close up and I didn’t know why. 😓

Yesterday I read the famous verse and quote about love: “Love is long suffering, it’s kind, it’s not jealous or puffed up.” Wow ❤️‍🩹🙏🏻 I have suffered long for Cody and Andrew. I don’t hate them and yet they abused love…. I AM working so tirelessly to forgive them. I’ve not been seeking any revenge on them. I’m simply sad for them. Sad for myself too. They made love out as a selfish and evil game. Yesterday I posted about how I believed love had healing power but some reason my love didn’t seem like it affected cody or Andrew. Yeah, they’re manipulators and so they’re bad company to be around. I realize that now. I STILL believe in love. ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 even when I can’t “feel it” or “see it”. Andrew and Cody did NOT steal my love away or the ability to have it. They will NOT get revenge or anger from me. They’ll only get healthy anger from me. I want them to be better men ❤️‍🩹 I will pray and wish them well. I will let them live their lives in peace. I will not reach out to them or react in abuse back to them.

Will I ever be able to forget how much I loved them two? Probably not. Cuz my love was real and legit. I do believe each day, I’m another step closer to stop hurting over them and healing these deep wounds. I wanna be able to show my loved ones just how powerful love, forgiveness and healing really is. ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 all my life I’ve felt stupid because school labeled me 😭 I wanna show off just how powerful overcoming labels are!!

I have been saying this past year, “Even if you can only put a toe down at the moment, it’s still a step forward” ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

[tailsdollr]

stuff from July i.l forgot about😊

[minty-soda]

just sum art of my sona,, <33 plus an art dump..

[sketchys-hyperfixation-corner]

EDDSWORLD & Friday Night Funkin'

Two gingers with green clothing realize manslaughter is their only option.

[mashedbootatoes]

[dayloid]

Hi and hello there! I wanted to give a little introduction of myself and yes, i know it sounds boring to put here but…

I’m an shy, introverted female who is both an artist and an editor (with a hint of being a “beginner” writer). I am also into nature and learning new things I am interested in ^^

I love mint, lavender, early vaporwave enjoyer, sweets, and fashion <3

My hyerfixations are Lil Squeaky (he’s just my fav artist now gahh), Parappa (probably), Maplestory/Bannedstory, Bunny Malony, Wild Manes, Komi Can’t Communicate, and Mr. Driller <3

Please DNI if you’re a grøøm3r, into fetish/n$fw content, heterophobic, against christianity (i’m christian btw), and ppl under 16. Thank you ~v~

Uhh…BYF, I’m black and mild autistic. - If I may confuse you while having conversations, I’m sorry haha, just please be nice and aware of that. Thanks! - I’m also half-weird/normal

Now, ehh…where do I go from here?

Oh! Most of them are parappa stuff so here are some of my artworks I’ve made as an example. :)

You can also find my art on other socials:

Twitter/X: ponliestar66

IG: day.loid

I have discord so feel free to contact me if you like (I’m somewhat active there): duskidawnuwu

That’s all I can show you. cya ^_^

.•*stay unique my dear*•.

[redix19]

#4 Wii Matt

[radiantmocha]

"Square Up"

Coach: I see. Your concern definitely seems plausible, and having a backup plan is always commendable. Very well, then, Kieran, let's get started. I'll make sure both you and your Pokémon can hold your own, no matter what or who comes at you and your wife! Just know I won't be holding back... I have to give you the full experience. Kieran: Fine by me! Let's do it!

Sporting but it's Kieran getting hand-to-hand combat lessons

[rosiefairlands]

Stuff related to Newgrounds! Like Tankman and Eddsworld!

Blue-haired person in the first Tankman art is my Tanksona, Upsilon. They are just father and daughter your honor. ヽ(≧∀≦)ﾉ

[plazmazx]

My friend matt wanted to redesign his fnf character so its less of a bf reskin, so I drew this!

for comparison, this is what it looked like before.

so yeah I definitely think this is an improvement in design.

[tntummin]

Thursday Night Tummin' || ATOMic Challenge Part 2 - Vs. Matt

Huh. seems like we finally found out where Matt is. Plus now he wants to sing with me. Awesome!

Only kinda weird thing is that as soon as Edd saw him, he immediately locked himself up in the house. I wonder why...

Oh well. Probably nothing THAT big.

------------------------------------------------------------------------------Special credits to @friendlyfox34 for being my Girlfriend. :)

[cat-penguin-anon]

whoops changed my artstyle again (these were test doodles but yeah)

[somegirl-14]

have some ddto artwork with eddsworld characters because why not

[sketchys-hyperfixation-corner]

EDDSWORLD: FNF TBATF REIMAGINE

TFW you don't like a person's take on a FNF Mod concept so you make your own to prove a point.

So basically I saw a tbatf fnf concept and it... didn't reach the potential it could have?? So I made my own take on it and tried to get it close to the Vs Online EW Style.

Oh and I inserted my own Vlahd redesign/reimagine. His name is Viktor.

[officialchristiancagebbgirlblog]

@dogboy-mustaine in our search for the 1998 Funkin’ Dojo video. I found this clip from the video Matt uploaded that got taken down. Pretty sure that’s Christian. Only video I found so far 😪

[calebsworldencore]

Tordsworld rewritten Matt (owned by me)

Full Ginger Matt design owned by @minkshame