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[nocturnalghoul]

❛ you’re the only thing that matters. ❜ for my good sweet obsessed-with-each-other boys swiss and rain. as if i needed to specify that.

Okay so I know this was meant to be sweet, and it still is, but I did also make it angsty first because I’m me. This is not at all where I originally was planning for this to go but it’s where we ended up so I hope it’s still enjoyed. 

Rain is hard on himself, allowing the negative voice of anxiety to win for a moment before Swiss comes to squash his worries. Small mentions of self-deprication or self-doubt (mostly a lot of assumed negative reactions)

Out of the corner of his eye, Swiss sees Rain speed down the hall towards his room, hands squiggling nervously at his sides as he rushes with purpose. It was a habit the ghoul had picked up to release extra anxiety, each finger tapping quickly against the thumb one at a time in quick succession. 

Whatever was going on with the water ghoul couldn't be good. He quickly throws shut the book he had been soldiering through for Cumulus’ benefit and walks after the water ghoul, seeing him turn into his room and shut the door. 

As Swiss reaches out to knock the door he hears Rain muttering worriedly, causing him to pause for a moment, frowning, before finally gently knocking. 

“Hey Raincloud, can I come in?” he gently asks, shoving down the worry that is starting to bubble up in his own throat. 

There is a quick sharp sigh from the other side of the door before it creaks open and Rain’s face appears. “Oh um, yeah sure babe. Come on in” he greets with a fake cheery tone, hand still running through the calming motion where it lays along his side. Rain is technically smiling, but it wouldn’t be convincing even if Swiss didn't know the water ghoul as well as he does. He turns away from the door and moves to sit in the middle of his bed, trusting the multi ghoul to follow.

Swiss steps inside the water ghouls room, turning to softly close the door. From behind him he hears a soft sniffle and feels his heart break. When he turns back around, Rain is staring at a spot on the floor, tears flowing mostly silently. Swiss knows that the cheerful facade was for the benefit of anyone else who may have been walking by, but the way Rain immediately dropped it leaves a knot of anxiety in his chest.

Swiss rushes to sit down in front of Rain, cradling his face tenderly in his hands and gently wiping away the tears with his thumbs. “What's wrong Raincloud, talk to me” he prompts, moving to run one hand soothingly through the water ghoul’s hair. 

Rain starts to rapidly mutter out broken sorrys and other things that Swiss for the most part can’t make out with the way the water ghoul is crying, but the phrase that sticks out is “I know you’re disappointed in me.”

“Whoa, Rainy take a deep breath for me okay?” he interrupts, leading the water ghoul in some breaths to calm down. “What do you mean you know I’m disappointed in you, babe? Why would you possibly think that?”

Rain stares up at him, mouth agape and tears still flowing. Swiss can see the gears turning in the water ghouls head as he runs through various ways to voice his fear. He lightly rubs up and down Rain’s arm, allowing him space to find the words he wants to say. 

Eventually he mutters out a small broken “so you haven’t heard then, that's somehow worse” before burying his face in Swiss’s shoulder. 

“Heard what babe, are you okay? Did something happen?” Swiss prods, trying his best to keep his voice level despite the deepest panic he feels swirling through his veins at the idea of what could possibly be distressing his mate like this. 

“No, I’m fine. Sorry to worry you. Sorry. I just, fuck… and its so stupid but I could already hear your disappointed sigh in my head before, and knowing I disappointed you was already a lot, and now I going to have to hear it in person and-” Rain rambles out before Swiss shoots him a look filled with so much love it throws the water ghoul off his rhythm forcing his voice to trail off. 

“I don’t even know what happened to make you so upset, but one thing I do know is that it doesn’t matter, okay? You are the only thing that matters to me. As long as I have you everything else is trivial.” he whispers, placing a kiss on the water ghouls' temple. 

“I love you too.” Rain lets out with a small sigh, finally leaning back to look Swiss fully in the eye. “I knew I was overreacting but it all kept echoing through my mind and I couldn’t get it to stop.”

“See, I have everything I could hope for. Please don’t let the voice of doubt inside your head sound like me, that is what breaks my heart. Besides, just because it sounds like you or me doesn’t mean that voice knows shit, Raincloud.”

Swiss catches the tiny twitch at the corner of Rain’s mouth, the slightest hint of a smile beginning to form now that he was moving past the original panic in his mind. 

“Next time you hear that mean voice you come find me okay? I’ll climb inside that noggin of yours and kick those thought’s ass myself okay?” 

That finally pulls the last parts of Rain’s smile out of hiding, allowing a goofy grin to overtake his face. Swiss looks into his eyes and promptly finds himself wishing he could drown there. The glint of appreciation for Swiss inside the water ghoul’s eyes sparkles like the most gorgeous oceanside view one could possibly imagine and he feels his heart swell at the sight. 

“There’s my beautiful Rainbow” he mutters, pulling Rain back into a tight embrace before he can start to cry himself now that he knows everything is alright. He’ll figure out what exactly happened later, but all that matters now is the feeling of the strong yet lean swimmer's arms of his mate currently wrapped around his waist. 

Swiss pulls back ever so slightly to lightly kiss every freckle on his Rain’s face, whispering hushed praises in between each kiss in an attempt to fill the water ghoul’s heads with as many sweet words of his as possible for him to replay in times of worry.