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TM GAME TOURNAMENT MAGAZINE ANNOUNCMENT 08 PART 06

Leading Students Redemption Part 05 Contents: [15.] Fact Side Part 03 [16.] Fact Side Part 04 (After the Intermission)

Intermission Contents: [1.] Intermission On Writing Leading Students Redemption [2.] Intermission Update (02/18/25) [3.]About My Schedule And My Situation

Fact Side Part 03

[Fact07 Begin]

Like I wrote in "Fact06", "If you can't stand student that have immigrant status. And/Or, see that student that have immigrant status are nothing but troubles. Then, don't read this fact."

It is a fact that I talked with Colleen who is voted by the MBHS as the class president. She is 1 grade higher than me. I only talked with her multiple times. So, I don't know how her class president history begin. At a far distance, I saw she got up on the podium to make a speech (it could be a rehearse. I don't know. I'm from a far distance.).

On Fall 1999. My first year and first semester in MBHS. The basketball coach wanted to recruit me into the MBHS Basketball Team.

On Spring 2000. 1 season in the MBHS campus, Coach Roaster assigned me to assist her like assistance coach in her Fencing (Sword Combat) Class. Coincidentally, I have won all of my Sword Combat matches against all the students that I fought against for that 1 season.

I think that the unappreciation for Sword Combat have made that 1 season not important or doesn't exist. Worse, the unappreciation for Sword Combat have created criticisms and arguments against me.

[Fact07 End]

My Side of The Argument06: My Side of The Argument06 is to explain about why Fact07 happen in my life.

On Fall 1999. My first year and first semester in MBHS.

This is before my older brother, Ho Hong Lam. Stop being who he use to be like. Because of the pressures in his life.

Me and Ho in the same PE class mean the following: A reunion with him. Me and him watching each other back, because of our inferior background.

Nevertheless, people have been telling Ho that he look like a movie star. Also, people have told me and Ho that we look like twin brothers. So, my thoughts are the twin brothers that look like movie stars is equivalent to things will work out for me and him. As for me and him, spend some time together and hanging out. Like children being children.

This mean me and him would be together during the PE class activities. Except for the cross-country jogging exercise. During the first and second time on this jogging exercise, me and him try to pace together. At the same time, like I wrote in "My Side of The Argument05", there is a student named Milan who is far ahead of the class on this jogging exercise. So, I stop pacing with Ho. And, go with my own pace like how I jogged at the Crown Point park 2 times a week early in the morning.

This jogging exercise is out of the MBHS campus and in the Mission park. Basically, the first part of the jogging path is from MBHS campus to the the Mission park. Then, the second part is jogging in the Mission park.

Nevertheless, I already got the extra credits for being the first place runner in the PE class. Also, extra credits for going the longer distance than the requirement. So, I didn't need to prove myself by jogging back to the MBHS campus from the Mission park. Me and Ho like the rest of the students in the PE class. Would walk back to the MBHS campus. In a way, me and him walking back together is equivalent to being together in this jogging exercise.

Because things are going as planned and working out for me and him. So, my thoughts are maybe this is how movie stars felt like walking through red carpet with fans asking for their autographs. I have not met a movie star before. But, like I wrote above, I heard people said Ho look like a movie star before.

Furthermore, there are 2 Asian-American girls who are together like me and Ho. Also, in the same PE class as me and him. The 2 girls often hang out with the Asian-American group.

The Asian American Argument is MBHS orientation, MBHS Student Service, MBHS Key Club, and PE activities is set up by Asian-Americans.

Even though, I'm aware of this Asian American Argument. But, those 2 girls see me and Ho like movie stars. In a way, I sees those 2 girls as being nice to me and him.

One day, during PE class, the students asked me if I could join them for 1 basketball game. Those 2 girls is among those students. Those 2 girls was nice to me in the PE class. So, I felt bad saying no to those students.

I told those 2 girls I'll be in their team for 1 basketball game.

The argument is this whole 1 basketball game is very stupid. Me and Ho are like movie stars in the PE class. Me and him avoided the commotions in the PE class, then me and him could continue on like movie stars. Example: What if this 1 basketball game started commotions?

Minutes into the game, crowd of students crowded around the basketball court to watch the game. All of a sudden, the players in the game is asking me where I learn how to play basketball? I have some really good moves.

As for Ho, he is not in the game. About half time in the game, he switched in the game. Overall, I'm a better basketball player than him. I don't want to talk about him in this 1 basketball game to avoid the confusion. Because he is the older brother people assumed that he is better than me in everything he do.

Option1: Like I wrote, "I would carefully prepare months of time ahead on my MBHS schedule." Give and receive emotion. Example: If someone nice to me, then I'm nice to that person in return.

Option2: Going back to the very confusing circle again. Example: Piss off yourself for having immigrant status. And, keep thinking that people only see you as unimportant and nothing but troubles, because of your immigrant status. The whole world is against you.

I would go with Option1. Also, even though, I try not to think too much about the Asian-American Argument. But, those 2 girls are Asian-Americans. According to the Asian-American Argument, those 2 girls could be with the Asian-American group that already set up a lot of the things in the MBHS campus. Including this 1 basketball game.

Because of the problems in my life including having immigrant status, so I sees that the reason I played that basketball game is because those 2 girls asked me. How could 1 basketball game lead to so much arguments?. Example: I wanted to stop dwelling over that 1 basketball game that those 2 girls asked me to play.

When the game is over. My team won. Those 2 girls told the players to give me some space. When I'm alone in the basketball court, the MBHS basketball team coach got next to me. He told me I got some really good moves. Then, he asked me if I wanted to join the MBHS basketball team.

It is all so hard to believe it. Because I have been hearing a lot of stories about how hard it is to make it in the high school basketball team try-out. Now, there is the basketball coach asking me to join the team without the try-out. I told that coach that I need some time to think about it.

Days later in the PE class, Colleen approached me. She is Asian-American. Like I wrote above, "According to the Asian-American Argument, she could be in the Asian-American group that set up a lot of the things in the MBHS campus."

She told me so you are that player that the crowd been talking about. Also, she want to do trading transaction with me. The interpretation is she want to help me out on my trading transaction.

The following are my thoughts: I only played 1 basketball game. Just within days of time, the students started talking about me. In addition, those people who are in the pioneering business didn't choose to be pioneer. We do what we can to make a living. So, if people give us that understanding. Then, if we fail our business. We would able to forgive ourselves.

Because of the problems in my life, I didn't tells her that in the TM Game tournament I'm a grand champion. So, I'm usually the one who giving advices to the players. Not the other way around such as people want to help me. Also, Pokemon Trading Card Game (TM Game) have reached world-wide super success. It is created by an International Company. So, the authenticity is highly restricted. Her pioneer could get under a lot of radars. But, soon or later the high restriction will find out about her pioneer.

So, I told her that her showing supports by saying she wanted to help me out. Is already helping me out.

Afterward, I looked up her in the MBHS campus, I found out that she is voted as class president. When I talked with her at that very moment. I didn't know she is the class president.

Fencing (Sword Combat) Class

At the end of the Fall season (first season). On Spring 2000, I got out of the PE class. I said my goodbye to those 2 girls. I thank those 2 girls for the times that me, Ho, and those 2 girls hanging out. Example: Those hanging out is like me and Ho were part of the Asian-American group. At the same time, me and Ho are like movie stars.

Coach Roaster have assigned me as the Equipment Monitor weeks before Spring 2000. So, on Spring 2000 she assigned me as the assistance coach in her fencing (Sword Combat) class.

This is my side of the argument. If you want to look at my history first before continue read, then... fill in the blank. Example: Sword Combat is not a joke, Neng.

Anyway, back to the Sword Combat class.

From 1993 to Summer 1999. I created the unofficial local Empty Handed Combat league in the Crown Point Elementary School (CPES) campus on 1993. Also, from 1993 to Summer 1999, I have regulated and participated in the unofficial local Empty Handed Combat league. I have won all my fights. It is around 20 fights.

Local mean small league. Or, unimportant league. Because it is unofficial and local so it doesn't matter to the society. Or, it doesn't exist. Worse, there are criticisms and arguments against me.

The Sword Combat class is in a gym with matted floor. A Sword Combat coach, Coach Roaster. An equipment room. An armor rack filled with armors. A sword rack filled with swords. Attendant roll-call sheet. And, so on. From the list of things about the Sword Combat class, the Sword Combat class could be argued as improvement on the unofficial local Empty Handed Combat league.

I could recalled back in the country-side in my early age, I would gathered bamboo plants. Then, I would use rubber-bands to tie the bamboos together to make a bamboo sword. This morning (02/13/25) I did some drawings to show the illustrations on how I made those bamboo swords.

One time, the children in the country-side (Sand Be Vietnam) got together and decided to have a bamboo sword competition. Those children who are in the competition is put into teams. The last team left in the competition win the competition. This mean all members in that remaining team win the competition.

Even though, it is called bamboo sword competition. But, the participants doesn't need an actual bamboo sword. Example: A long bamboo rod would be okay. Just as long as it is some kind of bamboo rod.

It is a competition of honor. If a participant got hit on the body (including head, arms, and legs) by a bamboo sword multiple times. Then, he or she will eliminated himself or herself. In addition, there are multiple refs watching the competition. If the refs saw a participant got hit on the body (including head, arms, and legs) multiple times, then the refs would eliminated that participant. Last but not least, at anytime a participant may give up. Give up mean that participant eliminated himself or herself.

The final 3 in the bamboo sword competition is me. My older brother, Ho Hong Lam. And, nickname, "Shanghai Grand".

The reason I could only remember him as nickname, "Shanghai Grand". Because he live a few houses away from my house. I often heard the them song, "Shanghai Bund". If you check the Internet Movie Database, then you would sees that "Shanghai Bund" theme song is from "Shanghai Grand" foreign movie.

Me and Ho is in the same team. So, if me and him eliminated "Shanghai Grand". Then, our team won the bamboo sword competition.

Me and Ho chased "Shanghai Grand" until he is trapped. And, he have to get into Sword Combat against me and Ho. During the Sword Combat, all the children in the competition who have got eliminated. Show up and crowded around the Sword Combat.

My older sister, Bun Hong San is one of the refs.

As the Sword Combat continue, "Shanghai Grand" bamboo sword broke. So, Bun paused the Sword Combat and walked over to "Shanghai Grand" to ask him if he want to give up the Sword Combat and end the competition.

"Shanghai Grand" is scared about being trapped. Outnumbered. And, with a broken bamboo sword. As Bun about to get close to him. He swung his broken bamboo sword. The splinter of the broken off from the broken bamboo sword made a skin-deep cut on Bun's face.

Me and Ho started chasing after "Shanghai Grand". On the chase, Ho ran another direction and cut him off by tackle him to the ground. Then, Ho made him apologize to Bun about the skin-deep cut on her face.

Afterward, because of the skin-deep cut on Bun's face. My family and "Shanghai Grand's" family got into arguments. And, stop going to each other houses and stay away from each other properties. In addition, the children in the country-side stop talking about the bamboo sword

In San Diego in my early age, I found some bamboo plants next to the PBMS campus. So, I gathered those bamboo plants and made a bamboo sword. I didn't get into Sword Combat with it. But, it reminded me about the country-side.

As for the toy sword that I bought in the toy store. I think I don't need to talk about it. That is my briefed sword combat history.

The combination: Wearing real armor and wielding real sword (rapier). Being affiliated to a real Sword Combat class. And, assigned as an assistance coach of the Sword Combat class.

That combination made me feel like I have went beyond Empty Handed Combat and bamboo sword combat. So, this combination made very glad to be in the Sword Combat class. Also, I have high priority about Sword Combat class.

The following is the opposing force: Students who doesn't like the idea that sword combat is a PE activity. Or, students who want to have regular PE activities and sports.

I think that is why I have won all of my Sword Combat matches against the students in the Sword Combat class.

The combination: I'm a grand champion in the weekly TM Game tournament. I won all my Empty Handed Combat fights. And, I won all my Sword Combat matches.

I felt that this combination have made me think that I could be in the hall of fame.

Intermission On Writing Leading Students Redemption

I used a rubber-band to tie 2 coffee wooden sticks together to make a cross. Yesterday (02/13/25), I only 4 followers and no feedback have have made me hot and bother. The following is how the hot and bother started: I'm facing a lot of problems in my life, because of having a poor life with a lot of bad lucks. Yet, I'm pushing myself constantly days and nights for the last a few days to finishing writing Leading Students Redemption Part1-5.

In addition, I only have 4 followers and no feedback. And, the house inspection is coming up on 02/20/25. So, by Yesterday I had enough and fed up. So, I got upset at myself. And, I tore the wooden cross to pieces in the North Clairemont Public Library.

I stopped writing Leading Students Redemption. And, I started looking for the singer, Alan real name on the websites. As I'm looking at the websites, I found out that she sang Mandarin dialect songs and Japanese language songs. I could understand Mandarin dialect. As for speaking, I have to speak slowly. I took Japanese 101 and 102 in San Diego Mesa College in a very crammed schedule, because I need it for the PTTS. So, I could understand a little bit of the Japanese language. As for speaking, I need a mini Japanese dictionary in my hand. As for writing, I could write a little bit of the Japanese Language (Hiragana and Kanji). The Mandarin dialect use almost exactly the same Kanji as the Japanese Kanji. In summary, I can't read the Mandarin dialect and Japanese language without a dictionary.

So happen many of the websites about Alan is in both Mandarin dialect and Japanese language. But, I found some English websites. I did about an hour searching through the websites. I came upon the name, Alan Dawa Dolma.

From my experience, you buy a music CD album. In the insert booklet (or manual), you could find the name of the lead singer of the band. There are time people only recognize the lead singer. Example: I think people only recognize Dido (Florian Cloud de Bounevialle O'Malley Armstrong). But, not her band. The same with No Doubt. I think people only recognize Gwen Stefani. But, not her band.

So, I'm a bit hot and bother to only found the name, Alan Dawa Dolma. And, the English translation on her lyrics, "Xin Zhan Red Cliff". In about an hour of searching through the websites. Is Dawa Dolma sound like a Mandarin or Japanese name? Is Dawa Dolma her English name? What are her Mandarin and Japanese names? In addition, while searching through the websites, I think I came upon singers who have sang the same song(s) as Alan.

The combination: Alan is a singer from Asia continent and I don't have information about her background. And, singers who sang the same song(s) as Alan.

I felt if I continue searching through the websites, then that combination could create confusion.

I came up with the following solution: Buy Alan English music CD album. Look for her English name. Buy Alan Mandarin dialect music CD album. Use a Mandarin dictionary and find her Mandarin name. Last but not least, do the same thing as finding her Mandarin name to find her Japanese name.

At My House

By the time I get to my house from the library. The hot and bother got worse. I felt like I'm about to have a major breakdown.

I couldn't stop the major breakdown. So, I try to escape to the Studio Ghibli animation, "Whisper of the Heart". By watching the anime film on my laptop. How did my life became such a big mess that I'm forced to run away from?

I paused the anime film. Then, I took out a photo of myself, Neng Hong Lam. I gave that photo a kiss to show that I do care about my life. After I puts that photo away. Then, I self-pity myself and started crying.

After the film ended, I would do vocal training by singing the song, Kiss the Girl. The singer who sang that song her name is Ashley Tisdale.

Before I begin singing, I would said the following lines:

[Song Introduction Begin]

To myself, Neng Hong Lam who keep getting pick on.

I want to have wishful thoughts that one day, I could cry in the public. And, there are sympathy for my cry.

Recently, I got on my knee cried in front of my mother. Also, I would self-pity myself and cried. Each time I cried I pictures the children in the third world countries suffer from famine and poverty. Why am I crying, I'm one of those children who got rescued from the third world countries. I'm supposed to be grateful. Not crying.

To the meant to be girlfriend that I haven't came upon.

I want to forgive myself for keep running into bad luck girlfriends.

I want to forgive myself for keep getting pick on.

I want to forgive myself for the commit suicide attempts.

A chance to not afraid to says I did have thoughts of killing myself and my parents. At the same time, finding reasons to appreciate life and continue on with my life.

I want to have 1 positive feedback about my life from 1 person in San Diego before I die.

Please… Please… Please… God, the Lord, Jesus Christ, and San Diego give me a tiny bit of your mercy.

As for Ashley Jones, on October 31, 1995, Halloween. My mother and my father took me out to trick or treat. When me, my mother, and my father came in front of Ashley's apartment. Ashley saw me in her bedroom window, so she came over to me and invited me to her second floor apartment. My mother and my father gave me a nod that I could go with her. Inside her apartment, she introduces me to her father. Her father would tells me, "Ashley been talking a lot about you." After I left her apartment, she would wave toward me from the second floor balcony. The balcony could have been her bedroom window. She is in the same class as me in Second Grade, Third Grade, and Fourth Grade from 1992-1994 in Crown Point Elementary School (CPES). On 1995 on our Fifth Grade year, me and her is in a different class. She is in Ms. Nancy Reed's class. I'm in Mrs. Cheryl Mullennix's class. The CPES graduation party on 1996 is the last time me and her saw each other.

Why I have to be alone and no one could give me any mercy to my poor life with so much bad lucks? So, I'm going to sing this song, Kiss the Girl. The singer who have sang this song her name is Ashley Tisdale. There are so much being with another person. Sharing. Loving. Caring. And, the things life could offer. In this song.

[Song Introduction End]

I would said the Song Introduction out loud. Then, I would sang the song. I would repeat that training multiple times.

When I'm about to go to sleep. The hot and bother made me about to have a breakdown. So, I held the wooden cross in my hand. I got on my knee. Then, I confess out loud. I confess for about 20-30 minutes. I made another wooden cross. It is the same cross that I tore to pieces.

The next day (today, 02/14/25). After I woke, I turn on my laptop. I do the same vocal training I did last night. Example: Like I wrote above, I would said the Song Introduction out loud. Then, I would sang the song.

During the vocal training, I made a pause on it. Then, I would begin cooking breakfast, lunch, and dinner. When there are waiting time in the cooking, I would read through the Song Introduction to sees if I wanted to add any more lines to it.

I got to the North Clairemont Public Library at around 12:00 PM. I decided seeing my cry. Vocal Training. And, confession out loud. To have an intermission on writing Leading Students Redemption.

The following are my brainstorm on the things I'm going to do in the intermission: Since I have written books (Arowra Series Books). I could look at some writers' (author, novelist, and so on.) interviews and documentaries. I have completed about 50% of the Arowra: Spiral of Conspiracies (Card-Based TM Game) Base Set. I wanted to make Heather Mason as one of the main characters. Adelaide Clemens' role is Heather Mason in Silent Hill: Revelation. So, I want to look at some of Adelaide Clemens' interviews and documentaries.

That are some of my brainstorm ideas. If I brainstorm other things to do, then I would adds to the list of things I want to do in the intermission.

Intermission Update (02/18/25)

Recaps On Writing Leading Students Redemption

No feedback could lead to no respect. It is a punishment to learn lessons about getting respect and feedback. I'm going to keep it at: No feedback and No Respect.

The No Feedback and No Respect could make the situation very confusing. I'm hanging on to a tiny of hope that things could be lesser confusion. Or, if I pushed myself to be faster, then things could be lesser confusion.

The following is to give myself a break to the very confusion in my life: Who ever created this very confusion in my life could create more confusion. What if that person give me a chance by not creating too much confusion in my life?

As for the proof reading and making correction, I occasionally I would do the proof reading and making correction on what I have already posted up on tumblr.com.

Note on writing the documentary, Leading Students Redemption Part1-5, beside I only have the 4 followers in tumblr.com. I don't have feedbacks on tumblr.com. This documentary is supposed to be a very important true story about showing leadership. And, a chance for those people who have done a lot of community services involving leadership to have redemption. So, not having feedback is contradicted. Making this very important true story nobody know about it. This mean nobody know about it could lead to it is not important.

I went back to the Lead Student Redemption Part1-5, I spelled "Jamie" name wrong. It is spelled "Jaime". As for the name Kayla, it is a name from a Mesa Multimedia club member. And, the name of an experienced female video game player I met from the Resident Evil Outbreak server. I forgot the names of the 2 Asian-American girls' names. Also, I forgot their relationship to each other. So, I used the name, Kayla as a substitution. I went back to changed the names to I forgot their names. In addition, I would add more information about the beginning of the MBHS first year and first semester.

Back on around 2014. Some how my MBHS Yearbook just disappeared under my bed. I asked my younger brother, Du Hong Lam if I could borrow his MBHS Yearbook. I think he told me he will look for it. Anyway, I think maybe his MBHS Yearbook disappeared also. Because I wasn't able to borrow it from him.

I only remember most of those students by their first names and there are students I have forgot about their names. The MBHS Yearbook have the students first names and last names.

Kiss the Girl Vocal Training Update

I have added an extension to the song introduction. Also, a Prep Talk before the song introduction.

The following is the Kiss the Girl song Introduction extension:

[Extension Begin]

It only have been just 1 day since I wrote this song introduction where I talk about my life. And, I already felt like I'm forced to add the following to what I have already wrote:

Argument1: It is not a joke. It is the rule of the game. A person cannot be at a poor life with so much bad lucks. A person must learn the rule of the game to never be at a poor life with so much bad lucks.

Arugment2: You only have 4 followers and no feedback at tumblr.com. Who is going to read this song introduction on tumblr.com?

I don't know what is going to happen to me. But, if I give up on myself. Then, it would be hard for me to expect people to not give up on me.

I don't know how much longer I could continue with this isolation. So, I'm going to forgive myself for saying the following: It doesn't matter how well you build your fortress of the mind if you are alone and no one would acknowledge your fortress.

Please god. Help me to not feel discouraged and can't get up on stage to sing in front of a crowd of people. Don't let me be nervous singing in front of a crowd of people on stage. Don't let me choke on the lyrics or blank out on the lyrics in front of a crowd of people on stage.

[Extension End]

The following is the Prep Talk before the song introduction:

[Prep Talk Begin]

Prep talk to prep myself up for the vocal training:

See that there are the darkness arsenal and the righteous fortress. The darkness arsenal wanted the world to burn and everything to be in destruction. The righteous fortress will protect a person from the darkness arsenal. And, a person could achieve salvation in the righteous fortress.

If you have idle mind, wandering mind, and unfocus mind, then your mind could be vurnerable to darkness arsenal attacks. Practice daily good habits in your daily life to have ready mind and focus mind.

Come on, Neng. During your prime time back in the high school years. Tournament grand champion. Winning all of your fights. You want pressures and weights. So, you could challenge yourself.

Now, you finally getting what you been asking for.

The 13 years from 2012-2025 working to establish the PTTS. No Feedback and No Respect. Or, worse thinking you have feedback and have respect when you don't.

Please don't make the same mistake. Please don't repeat the same history.

Please step up and take this challenge to practice singing. Die or become famous through your singing. You cannot fail on this singing.

If you fail on being recognize through singing. Then, you could not get any feedback. You can't have respect from not even 1 person.

You can't look at anyone face on the sidewalks, in the stores, and daily activities in general.

You will live in fear, misery, and bitterness all the time.

Even if you could live until your old age. You will die alone as an old man filled with regrets.

This is the pressures you been asking for.

Come on, Neng. Only you can help yourself now.

Come on, Neng. You can't give up.

[Prep Talk End]

About My Schedule And My Situation

Hollywood Cinema: In "Terminator 2: Judgment Day" movie, the scenes from the story show that when Judgment Day happen the world is in a total destruction and chaos. According to those scenes, Judgement Day supposed to be very devastated.

History: In the United State (US) history, at around 1929, the US was in a very devastated state known as the "Great Depression". The following is quoted from "National Geographic Historical Atlas of the United States": "Black Tuesday, October 29, 1929: Workers flood the streets of New York following Wall Street's crash. It helped cause the Great Depression, when millions went hungry."

Before I talk about my schedule and my situation, I'm going to first briefly go over the following: Going To College Summarization, Multimedia Classes Summarization, Club President Luck Or Bad Luck, and Establishing the PTTS (On 2012).

Going To College Summarization

Months after the Mission Bay High School (MBHS) graduation on June 2003. On September 2003 (Fall Semester). I have became the first in my family to go to college. San Diego Mesa College. And, having inferior background. Example: I have immigrant status and poor family. Made me have discouraging thoughts about going to college.

Also, I think that a lot of the students have the following privileges on going to college: 1. Those students' parents have college saving plan for them to go college. 2. Those students have connections with people who have been to college before. So, the true experience of college life would let them know about college life. 3. Those students have went through a lot of preparation to go to college. Example: Searching through the selection of college and University. Going through College orientation. Touring the college campus they want to go to. Getting college scholarship. Talking with college counsellors and counsellors in general. And, so on.

The following is me compared with the privileged students: Going to college have made me into a very discouraged student without funds and supports. And, I don't have any connections. As for the privileged students, those students are encouraged to go to college. And, have college saving plan funds from their parents. Scholarships, connections, and supports.

In summary, because of having inferior background and looking at the comparison I wrote above, I have to step up on the management of my college life. College life mean the life I'm going to live, because I have enrolled in college.

The following is a briefed summarization of my college life from 2003-2005:

[Briefed Summarization Begin]

First semester in Mesa College, I would sees if I could make friends. I made 2-3 friends. But, it is hard to keep in touch with those friends. I remember I was able to keep in touch with 1 of those friends. The following is my attempt to try to keep in touch with that 1 friend: I saw that him on the college campus I would told him I work at the La Jolla Marshalls. "I would give you 10% discount if you need to buy anything at Marshalls." That was how I try to keep in touch with him. He came to Marshalls with his girlfriend 1 time. But, I have the following thoughts: What happen if he need those money to buy foods and he spend it on buying clothes at Marshalls?

Beside what I wrote about that 1 friend. I don't think about college life. Inferior background. And, being compared with privileged students. In addition, I would have my headphone on my head with music playing from my CD Walkman player at all time when I'm outside of the classrooms to block away the college campus activities.

At my house, I would do the same thing as the college campus such as listening to music on my headphone to block away the activities in my house. Also, I would mark the house chores of each family members on the calendar and I would do my marked house chores.

As for my goals, I would set the following goals: Have a manageable schedule. Constantly study the college subjects. And, finding ways to improve my study.

[Briefed Summarization End]

Multimedia Classes Summarization

By 2005, I'm fed up about the problems in my life. I would take mainly Multimedia classes in Mesa College. From the funds I have to go to college, I have to sees that Multimedia classes is the requirement classes to become an animator. Also, if for some reasons I failed as an animator. Then, I could use the Multimedia classes to do graphic design freelance contracts. Multimedia classes are Graphic Design, Animation, Web Design, Video Editing, and Game Development.

From 2005-2008, I would focus on taking Multimedia classes. Also, looking for ways to have more time on Multimedia self-study (AKA self-training). The following are the ways for me to have more time on self-study: I would asked the Multimedia instructors if I could stay in the classrooms when the classes is over to continue Multimedia self-study. Usually Professor Alfonso Sballett would allowed me to stay up to 3-4 hours after the classes end. Most of the time Professor Karen Oven would allowed me to stay around 1-2 hours after the classes end. Last but not least, I would go to the Mesa College computer lab for self-study.

I took the following Multimedia classes taught by Professor Alfonso: Multimedia 101 (Introduction To Multimedia). Introductory Photoshop. Intermediate-Advance Photoshop. Introductory Flash. Intermediate-Advance Flash. I repeat Photoshop 1 time to have more time for self-study (AKA self-training). The same with Flash. 5 classes total. 7 classes total counting the 2 classes I repeated.

I took the following Multimedia classes taught by Professor Karen: Dreamweaver 101 and 102. Dreamweaver is Web Design. 2 classes total.

I sees that the Animation classes as more advance and also there are a lot of depths. So, I have took some Multimedia classes before I took the Animation classes. I have to look up the 2 instructor names who taught Animation 1, 2, and 3. When I took those 3 Animation classes, I didn't stay in class when the class end, because like I wrote above there are a lot of depths to the Animation. Also, the Animation application (3-Ds Max) alone cost around $1,000. How much would the Expansion/Plugin cost? How much would the Downloadable Contents cost? How much would the upgrade cost? What happen if I forgot about I only have limited of fund to go to college? So, I sees myself more of the animator who is writing the story.

The argument is students who are taking Animation classes want to get into Animation production. As for me, I think the following are why Animation classes is not a waste of time: 1. The Animation application (3-Ds Max) could come in handy when working in a graphic design projects that needed 3-D objects. 2. If I know the world of Animation, then the story I wrote could be on the same page with the world of Animation.

Without checking the Mesa College database on the classes I took. From my memories, I have took 6 different Multimedia instructors. So, the following are 2 more Multimedia instructors I didn't mentioned above: The Video Editing instructor. And, the Illustrator instructor.

Club President Luck Or Bad Luck

The following are my reasons that I got elected as club president of Mesa Multimedia Club from 2008-2011 have to do with luck and bad luck:

From my knowledge, I have seen candidates in the class president election posting up flyers in the school campus about their campaign to be elected as class president. There are a few times from a very far distance, I would sees those candidates getting up to the podium on the stage/platform to make their speeches on their campaign to be elected as class president.

As for me, my multimedia instructors, Alfonso Sballett and Karen Oven who brought up the topic, Mesa Multimedia Club in the classroom. At the end of the class, I would ask for more information about the club and ask for their recommendation. Both, Professor Alfonso and Professor Karen recommended I should be part of the club.

In addition, from the talk with Professor Alfonso and Professor Karen on the Mesa Multimedia Club topic. Professor Alfronso told me that Joe and Hannah use to be his students. Joe is the club president of Mesa Multimedia Club. Hannah is the club vice-president. Also, Professor Alfonso told me he would send Joe and Hannah an email that I will be attending the Mesa Multimedia Club meetings.

I would steam-press my suit. And, carry my laptop in a Swiss-Gear laptop messenger bag. Because at the time, I couldn't afford to buy suit-case and leather laptop bag.

Inside the meeting, when Hannah walked close to my desk. I would raised my hand to ask her to come over. When she came over, I would told her that Professor Alfonso told me he send you and Joe email about me attending the meetings.

She replied the following: She would keep me in touch with the activities in the club meetings by sending me email during each meeting days.

I thanked her for taking that step for me. At the time, I didn't know that is the club officers responsibilities and duties to send out email to club members. I thought maybe she did consider me and her for having the same instructor, Professor Alfonso.

That is how I started showing up to the club meetings.

Professor Alfonso have taught many Multimedia classes. So, he have many Multimedia students. Me, Joe, and Hannah are not his only students. I just wanted to sees maybe I might have a chance to able to associate myself with Joe's and Hannah's league. Example: I'm not just another of the many students that have been taught by Professor Alfonso. I'm in the same league as Joe and Hannah.

The following is my brainstorm way to sees if I could be in the same league as Joe and Hannah: The club president, Joe usually make the club meeting announcement from the front of the classroom. The club vice-president, Hannah once in a while would have a walk around the classroom to look at the club members. When she is doing her walk around the classroom, I could show her some of the works I have done in Professor Alfonso's classes. From her reactions and feedbacks, I could know if I could be in the same league as Joe and her.

Basically, that is the few contacts I made with her. As for the email, it is the club officers responsibilities and duties to send email to club members about the activities in the club meeting days.

By the end of the semester, on December 2007. The winter holiday vacation is multiple weeks of time. I put it at: It is just another club in the Mesa College campus.

On January 2008. About 2 Weeks before the Spring Semester begin. Joe send me an email. In that email, he wrote that the club officers and club members have elected me as the club president.

I replied the email. In the replied email, I wrote that I need to have one-on-one meeting with him to confirm the email.

Me and him exchanged phone number in the email. And, decided to meet up inside the Mesa college campus cafeteria. At 9:00 AM. Me and him meet up at around 8:45 AM.

He have a folder with many sheets of papers inside. Those papers are documents about the Mesa Multimedia Club.

I would have celebrated if I went through the process that the candidates have to go through for the class president election. Example: Like I wrote above, candidates have to post up flyers around the school campus on their campaign to be elected as class president. Getting up to podium on stage/platform to make their speech on their campaign to be elected as class president. And, so on.

The following reasons make me think that I might be interested on becoming a club officer: Wearing the steam-press suit to have first impression. Talking with Professor Alfonso and Professor Karen about the Mesa Multimedia Club to show interest about the club. Professor Alfonso sending the Email to the club president and club vice-president that I will be attending the club meeting to build a connection with the Mesa Multimedia Club.

I told him that I only had 1 Email and 1 Meeting. On becoming the club president. I need more time.

At around 9:30 AM, Mark show up. Mark is have leg's injuries and using clutches. The leg's injuries is from a car accident.

Joe and Mark told me they would want to give me more time by letting Mark be the club president before me. But, Mark's car accident and leg's injuries make him can't be the club president.

I go with Joe's and Mark's emergency reasons that needed me to be the club president.

Afterward, I send email to the club members about the emergency reasons that I'm going to be the club president. Also, I got into talk with Professor Alfonso and Professor Karen about being elected as the club president. Both of the professors recommended me to sees that being club president is meant to be.

Then, Professor Alfonso told me he is the Advisor of the Mesa Multimedia Club. And, Rebeca Karcz is the club vice-president. She will be assisting me to run the club.

I made a brainstorm of a list of things I need to do to be more like the class president election. The following is that list:

Post up Mesa Multimedia Club flyers around the Mesa College campus.

Go to Professor Alfonso's classes and Professor Karen's classes and talk about the Mesa Multimedia Club.

Get to know more about the club custom on Mesa College campus.

Once I'm settled all the things I need to do to becomes the club president. And, Rebeca show up to the club. Me and her would start that list of things immediately. In a way, me and her is making up for becoming club president and club vice-president.

After I went to Professor Alfonso's classes and Professor Karen's classes to talk about the Mesa Multimedia Club. Professor Karen made an 100 dollars donation to the Mesa Multimedia Club.

I got elected as club president it is luck or bad luck? 4 years from 2008-2011 serving as club president of Mesa Multimedia Club. I think I deserve to know that much. it is luck or bad luck?

Establishing the PTTS (On 2012)

The end of Fall 2011 semester on December 2011 is the last semester of being club president. On Spring 2012, I started the PTTS (Planet-wide Tournament Tip Session).

There are around 20-30 active clubs in Mesa College campus. I don't know how many inactive clubs are there. The following is to have some self-respect about establishing the PTTS: I was able to keep the Mesa Multimedia Club active for 4 years from 2008-2011. How sorry can the PTTS be?

I self-pity myself for carrying this burden on establishing the PTTS.

When I felt I can't even have self-pity on carrying this burden on establishing the PTTS. Self-pity mean I pity myself. An example of pity is the following: Poor Neng Hong Lam. No one would acknowledge the PTTS.

It is very devastating that I can't self-pity myself for carrying this burden on establishing the PTTS. So, in multiple of the PTTS session videos, I would talk in front of the camcorder. In the talk, I point out the following: Have a look around. There is no sight of the Great Depression or Judgment Day.

The house inspection is on Thursday 02/20/25. My mother, Sok Nghim Hoi told me I can't be in the house when the house inspection comes. She said the time the house inspection going to come is at around 7:00 AM.

I been having the wishful thoughts to not give up on myself. One day, I could have feedback about the PTTS. Example: "Poor Neng Hong Lam who have been working on the PTTS since 2012."

As for the club president, the following is a negative feedback about me getting elected as club president: "It is bad luck that Neng Hong Lam got elected as the club president from 2008-2011."

I would argues that I don't want to have that negative feedback about being a bad luck club president. But, having feedbacks I know that people have acknowledged me as club president.

There are no sight of Great Depression. Or, Judgment Day. How come my situation is so devastated?

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