#FUCKKKKK NOW THIS SHIT HYPE

[plsleafmelon]

dude i do not want to do this battle again i am so tired brooooo WHY IS THIS FIGHT TAKING FOREVER WHAT IS THE EX CONDITION????

[lamborghinitoothpull]

This is just me rating the jackass/cky crew member from one to five with how much I would get along with them (2000s edition obviously. It also includes unofficial members too):

Bam:

-3/5

-i think we have similar humour (very cryptic humour) and taste in general

-it’s weird that I gave him a higher rating bc I think he’s a huge asshole sometimes lol but we’re both huge fangirls and us fangirls gotta stick together okayyyy??!!?!!

Johnny:

-4/5

-the constant pranks would genuinely piss me off since he doesn’t know when to stop but we would be super chill with each other

-johnny is super easy going so I wouldn’t feel intimidated or anything

Raab:

-5/5 no doubt!!!!

-he’s an angel honestly

Stephanie:

-5/5

-she’s the coolest girl on earth and I would like to think we would be bffs hehe

Chris:

-2/5

-I love Chris but I do think we would argue a lot

-we both talk without really thinking so we would misunderstand each other all the fucking time omg

-plus our energies seem too different or maybe too similar I can’t tell

-I really want to be delusional and be like “we would be BFFs 😍😍!!!!” But I can’t sadly…..

Dico:

-4/5

-I can see us playing video games together and just chilling in silence

-it would feel super relaxed around him

Novak:

-1/5

-I don’t hate him

-we’re too different

Ryan:

-5/5

-I actually believe me and Ryan would be great friends

-like I can actually see us having those deep ass talks at like 3 am while high as shit

-also we would get each other out of our comfort zones which is a plus <3

Preston:

-2/5

-HES SO FUNNY SO SO FUNNY BUT I THINK WE WOULDNT BE CLOSE AT ALL

-he scares me sometimes

Dave:

-3/5

-things would be cool between us but I defo sense tension between us

-it’s not from a malicious place though

-maybe it’s difference in personality?? Idk

-but he’s a rad guy and is effortlessly funny

Steve o:

-2/5

-this one is painful for me bc steve o is my fave (apart from ehren and stephanie)

-I’d hate his guts lowkey like he’s just too much for me

Ehren:

-5/5!!!!

-now hear me out!! I know it sounds super biased bc he’s my fave and all but I really do think we would click very quickly

-is he annoying?? Yes. But I can be more annoying than him

-we would probably take a bunch of roadtrips together and do crazy shit

-I would also protect him I’m sorry actually no I am not apologising for being an ehren mcghehey apologist!!! He deserves some love and I’m gonna gladly give it to him I do not care!!!!!

-I see a lot of myself in ehren and I probably shouldn’t be proud of that but fuckkkkk like he really is like me!!!

-we can’t spell for shit, dumb asf,

RAKE F’KING YOHN:

-5/5

-I would not understand a word he would say to me but I have a huge soft spot for nerds </3

-i want him to rant to me about chemistry

Wee man:

-5/5

-it’s literally wee man hellooooooo???!?!!!

Jeff:

-5/5

-he’s hot

Jess:

-5/5

-I want him so bad like I would not act normally around him

-like I would constantly hype him up and praise everything he does

-I hate using this word be yeah fuck it I would simp for him

-honestly what is there to not like about Jess????? He’s THE dreamy drummer bf cmon now

Okay I’m forgetting a few other people but I’m tired and soooooo over this!!! Idk why I did this in the first place lmfao gn mwahhhh </3

[hijack711]

CHAPTER 5:

Tag(s): fluff, story building, daily life, wholesome moments

Honing your physical health through working out was a great way to take care of your mental health and maintain your working performance at its optimal levels. However, not everyone could find joy in lifting heavy weights, even if they did, some just couldn’t share the same thoughts on certain days as others.

At VST Entertainment, interns, official employees, trainees, and artists all had the right to enter the company's gym, but not everyone had the time to work out. Therefore, familiar acquaintances of this gym often were artists and trainees with the potential to become idols in the future.

In the gym of the headquarters, all 6 members of Unity were extremely focused on working out with the aim of getting their physique back to its prime.

While Unity's members were well-known for their seemingly endless stamina, only the members themselves and those who were within their circle knew what the source of their physical and mental endurance was.

Today was their leg day and it was brutal

“5 more kilograms for each side or what?” - Ivy asked Yuki

“Yeah, fuck it, let’s do it, but you might want to call me an ambulance after that, sis.” - Yuki

“You are an ambulance.” - Ivy

“Hahaha, funny.” - Yuki

“YEAH, baby, LIGHT WEIGHT!” - Sirene

Yuki stepped into her spot just a little bit under the bar while positioning her feet, her hands grabbed the bar as she took it out of the rack. When the bar was out of the rack, Yuki took a deep breath and braced her core. After the first four reps went smoothly, the vocalist seemed to be running out of strength. With Ivy being the hype woman behind Yuki, Ivy constantly yelled words of encouragement.

“UPPPP, give me 3 more!” - Ivy

Easier said than done, that was what Yuki experienced, she was overwhelmed so much that she couldn’t even say anything coherent.

“LAST ONE!!!” - The other 5 members

Finally, Yuki had successfully pulled off the 100-kilogram squat. Unclasped the belt, she almost immediately slumped down to the floor.

“Fuckkkkk, shitttt. Ambulance. Now!” - Yuki

“Man down man down, ah shit, woman down, folks. Come on, sis, let’s get to the bench.” Baekgi

“Siyoung-ah, let’s get it, last set best set, we still have more to go, chop-chop.” - Ivy

Although her strength wasn’t at its best like the other members, Sirene’s confidence was still there because she did better than this back when their working schedules weren’t hectic.

One two reps, more reps you could do.

Three four, more pressure was put on the core.

Five six, starting to get sick.

Seven eight, “That’s all for today!”.

Although her strength was only about 80% of before, Sirene showed no signs of disappointment in herself.

“Yeah buddy, let’s go for it again next week. I thought I wouldn’t even make it that far.” - Sirene

Wearing an unhappy attitude whenever they had to do squat, the 2 younger brothers of the group felt like 2 old men when compared to themselves just a few months ago. On the other hand, deadlift was a different thing, Damian and Baekgi had no problem with this one.

“Yessss, that’s more I like it, we’re slowly coming back, Baekgi-ya.” - Damian

“Yep.” - Baekgi gasped in response

...

...

...

DURING THE SAME PERIOD OF TIME.

“Okay, all the matters that need to be discussed are almost done, let’s move on to the last one, Secretary Han, please.” - Seonghwa

“Yes, CEO-nim.” - Kiseong

“Pardon my rudeness, Mrs. Lim. Suddenly, I remembered this. As we all know, Unity is currently one of the most recognizable K-Pop groups, and each member has proven themselves to be capable of doing solo. However, they’re wild, like really wild. I was there with you, Mrs. Lim, and I also agreed with you about giving them the freedom to compose music and write lyrics. Rehn’s and Ivy’s talents are undoubtedly extraordinary, but their creativity is bringing home both controversy and admiration.” - Yujeong

“Thank you for your opinion, Mr. Kwon. I believe that the rest of the board members here share the same thoughts as Mr. Kwon. To ease your anxiety, I don’t think the promises of our company stock growth will do so I’m going to put it this way.” - Seonghwa

“All of us used to stay in our comfort zone, but now, you are here as members of the board, it proves that you decided to take a leap at some point in your life. No offense to other big groups, but when do you think we will have such a combination like Unity again?” - Seonghwa

“Sure that they are wild, but as long as the leaders keep it at an acceptable level, then I’m okay with it. What are your thoughts?” - Seonghwa

...

...

“From the group's debut until today, I haven’t really had much trouble dealing with the media whenever the topics revolve around Unity and about each member, for that, I agree with Mrs. Lim here.” - Minji

“Thank you, Mrs. Kang.” - Seonghwa

“If both of you have agreed, then I'm at ease now.” - Yujeong

“I got no problem, agree, I’m okay with it, etc.” - The rest

“Alright, and Mr. Kwon, rest assured, Rehn is a man of his word.” - Seonghwa

“Okay.” - Yujeong

“Now, let us move on to the last matter.”

...

...

...

Back to Unity, their workout session then continued for another 45 minutes and as the hour hand struck 10:30, the members packed up their workout belongings to head home.

On their way out of the headquarters, the six were greeted by everyone they came into contact with, and they also met Mrs. Lim. Lim Seonghwa and the man who would later become her husband were co-founders of this company, when she was in her early 20s, she dreamed of creating her own music band but her mindset would soon change when her soon-to-be-husband advised her to open her own company.

“Hi guys.” - Seonghwa

“Hello, Mrs. Lim” - Unity

“Are you guys heading home?” - Seonghwa

“Yeah, we’re on our way. Oh, it seems like the meeting just took a toll on you.” - Rehn

“Indeed, almost every single time, and again, congratulations on your new victory, guys. Moreover, I must give credit to all of you, especially Rehn and Ivy for the bold move you two made.” - Seonghwa

“Honestly, we just went with the flow, and put reality into it, we couldn’t even imagine how it would turn out. I’m glad that we didn’t disappoint you.” - Ivy

“Well, I’m not your mom for sure, so no need to say the last part.” - Seonghwa

“Rehn and Ivy, you two did great but a “slap” in the face? That was daring. You all are talented, just don't push your luck too much, I'm saying this because I care for you guys.” - Seonghwa

“Got it, ma'am.” - Yuki

“Roger that, we'll mind our steps.” - Damian

The rest nodded.

“Great.” - Seonghwa

“CEO-nim, we should throw a BBQ night, this weekend, oh right, we have a plan with BlackPink. Next week?” - Baekgi

“Sorry, guys, got a plan for my kids. Let me figure out the time and I’ll give you guys a call, okay?”

“Yeah, okay, etc.” - Unity

...

...

...

Walking to the parking lot, Rehn and Ivy whipped out their key fobs, the two pressed the buttons. The spirit of ecstasy and the flying B logo popped up as if the cars were greeting their owners.

Seventeen minutes of driving and the two SUVs arrived at a Vietnamese restaurant, although it wasn’t a fancy one, the place had become a go-to restaurant for the foodies.

“Heyyy, girls, we’re here!” - Yuki

“Hi guys!” - Jisoo

“Good god, you’re finally here. What took you guys so long? We’re hungry!” - Lisa

“Sorry, we had to stop for a quick chat with Mrs. Lim.” - Damian

“Yeah, “quick”, you said? I could have had a plate of xôi before you even arrived.” - Lisa

“Ouch ouch ouch, unnie.” - Lisa

“Yah, Lalisa, don’t ruin a good day, okay? It was us who invited them.” - Jennie

“I was just joking a little bit, sorry everyone.” - Lisa

“Serve you right, Lisa-ya.” - Sirene

“So, what are you girls going to order? Oh, I just remembered that Chaeyoung here has to follow a diet. Before we came here, I heard she asked Ivy to cover for her, hehehe.” - Baekgi

“Bro, you hate me that much? I’ve been trying to avoid your brother’s surveillance but you blew things up, thanks a lot.” - Rosé

“Oh, was it true, babe?” - Rehn smilingly asked while emitting a menacing aura

“Kekekeke, hahaha, etc.” - Lisa, Jisoo and Yuki

“This is worth a watch! Hey, Baekgi, pop a beer!” - Damian

“Ah, … uhmm, … well, unnie!” - Rosé gave Ivy puppy eyes with the hope of being saved

“No need to be tense, there can be some exceptions, babe, but stay within the diet, alright?” - Rehn

“Yayyy, thank you, honey. Come on, let’s order, hurry!” - Rosé

“I wonder if they ran out of beef because I’ve been craving it so much lately?” - Ivy

The two groups then helped themselves to a nice meal and shared memorable moments with each other. During the meal, Jennie couldn’t help but glance at the couple. Jennie was there but also wasn’t, things were fine with the others but not when either Rosé or Rehn talked to her. When Rosé or Rehn or both of them made jokes, Jennie would laugh with them, however, it would quickly fade away.

...

...

The girl would find herself zoned out a few times throughout the meal until someone called her.

“Jennn!”

“Taehyung? Why are you here?” - Jennie

“Ahh … you called me to pick you up after your date with Unity, and we’re supposed to have a movie date in about 30 minutes.” - Taehyung

“Huh?” - Jennie

“HUH? Did she just huh?” - The others

“Huh???” - This was perfectly the time for Taehyung to huh

“Oh shit, sorry baby, I didn’t mean to forget our date, let me pack my stuff.” - Jennie

“Whoa whoa, take your time, I’m not in a rush. Oh hey guys, how’s it going?” - Taehyung

“Not so great, some didn’t bring their cards, the rest forgot to bring cash.” - Ivy

“And then you showed up which was perfect, GIVE ME YOUR WALLET, you little shit!!” - Rehn

Together with Rehn, Ivy, and Baekgi grabbed Taehyung’s jeans and yanked them down. Luckily, Taehyung managed to hold onto it in time

“Ay yo, what the fuck, don’t you dare pull my jeans, I’m not wearing a belt, STOPPPP!!” - Taehyung was literally begging while holding onto his jeans and it was pretty loose

“Hahaha.” - The others

“Bye guys, see you girls back at home.” - Jennie

The rest bid goodbye to Jennie and then resumed their meal, conversations kept popping up, each of them would either be serious as if the two groups were discussing the world’s fate, or just completely random stuff.

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[onlyjaeyun]

greetings my dear zadie 😁 i missed u sm (sorry for the disappearance- i really missed filling ur inbox like this pls don’t mind me💔) & i genuinely have no idea where to begin from because i just got caught up with like 30 chapters of strictly business and i haVENT BEEN SLEEPING SINCE YESTERDAY BECAUSE I CANT CLOSE MY PHONE 🧍‍♀️ first of all what the FUCKKKKK IS GOING AWNNNNN😨 like what the hell what the fuck the whole family situation is so heartbreaking then we have the fucking mind blowing jaw dropping earth shattering identity crisis inducing universe colliding inducing smut to have ever grazed tumblr idk if it’s the severe daddy issues but my GOD thewayjongseongisaservicedommakesmegentearup also can i just say as someone who’s been reading your masterpieces since hype boy i absolutely adore. like ADORE 🧎‍♀️ the way you write your smuts they always like ooze out love and i adore it sm like it’s like that one meme where u know it’s not a quick nut but smth made with love & care and that’s exactly how you be writing your shit dawg like you’re so talented?? out here making me close my phone every 5 mins just to giggle and calm myself down. now when i tell you my legs r aching bcs of the amount of hours i just spent swinging them while giggling because of the shit i was reading for HOURS BRO. 😀 like i’m so obsessed with how you write i want to kiss & appreciate each every single one of your neuron cells and axons for connecting to eachother to form such beautiful ideas mamas. anywho back to the story FUCK YOU SHIAH UGLY ASS PREHISTORIC ASS BITCH THE FUCK IS YOUR GODDAMN PROBLEM DAMN. like you’re genuinely a miserable grandma if you’re out here in your 30s or smth pushing 89 and you’re bullying & talking shit about a girl who’s 21 💀 like girl go teach at unis what u learned about dinosaurs since you’ll be talking straight up from experience. i bet yo ass she was there at the last supper arriving with her horse and all that like GIR- sorry excuse me for the disrespect fr 🙏🏼GREAT-GREAT-GRANDMA. GET YOUR GODDAMN SHIT TOGETHER AND BACK THE FUCK AWF 🤺 anywho now that we talked about the literal cause of the big bang theory let’s go talk about jongseong 🤭 no because i love this man with my whole entire heart i just- i <3 mature men <333 he’s so cool & mature & understanding & it’s making him so much more sexier than he already is it’s actually driving me crazy because wHERE do i find a replica of the man i just read about. like sir. SIR im losing my mINDDDD 🤸‍♀️🕳️ and then going to yn i love her sm :( she’s so smart & kind and she did not deserve anything that happened to her she’s such a sweet girl i can’t do this i can’t stand kind hearted people getting their souls hurt like this like pls she deserves sm better (i’m literally coming for you shiah. sleep with one eye fucking OPEN.) i’m so glad she has jimin & aeri w her i love them all so much and nayeon (btw making nayeon jongseong’s older sister single-handedly saved approximately 26392 lives and prevented 6 million deaths im telling u, ur mind? legendary.) and then we have seoul’s fav four oh mY GOD i love jaeyun sm. he’s so hilarious like bros always speaking & asking the ACTUAL questions he’s so funny i love him sm & hoon is just hooning he’s a bad bitch & a serious mf i love him sm for that fr always serving shit and all that a fucking icon he’s so real 💯 and oh lord 30 year old hee? is going down in the history books i fear 🚨 u making hee this attractive right after poison is just so ooooooo i wanna fight you so bad (w kisses & hugs duh!) but like gen. easily one of the best stories i’ve ever came across, easily one of the best authors/writers i’ve had the chance to read the works of and witness with my own eyes 🙏🏼 like thank u so much for your service fr i love u sm pls take care of urself & don’t tire yourself out (i’m ignoring all events that took place in the most recent chapter because no.) sending u sm love & kisses zadie ! <33

actually no fuck that what the fuck do you mean the engagement is ACTUALLY GONNA HAPPEN. didn’t jongseong already put that bitch in her place like GRANDMA???? R U NOT EMBARRASSED THIS IS SO EMBARRASSING. chasing after a dude when he literally told u all ur shitty fantasies AINT GONNA HAPPEN and someone who put u in ur goddamn place and SO OBVIOUSLY HAS SOMEONE ELSE HES INTERESTED IN (WHICH TALK YOUR FUCKING SHIT JONGSEONG 🗣️💯 SPEAK UR TRUTH DONT LET THEM SILENCE YOU!!) IS SO LIKE ??? girl stand up fr you’re famous ig & hella rich u can find someone else leave my babies alone i beg. and oooo girl jongseong’s dad fr about to make me become a lawyer to jail his stupid ahh alongside yn’s father (and her brothers) 👩‍⚖️ now one thing shitty men will always excel at is being a fucking asshole to everyone including your family yet excluding your side chicks! like at your prehistoric grown goddamn age you’re gonna force your son to marry someone he doesn’t even like 😧? shit’s wild fr. anyways fuck you shiah fuck every single dad in the story and fuck you shiah (pt2) cuz u ain’t SHIT. you will never be SHIT with your horrendous pick me attitude and with your personality that’s literally revolved around being a trophy wife (and being in a marriage with a man who doesn’t even want you??? like do u have no shame. no self respect. like idgaf if this is about business and allat the man DOESNT WANT YOU 🫤 get that shit in your thick ass head grandma) like that shit’s crazy and fuck that account that posted that shit i hope yn’s okay and jay makes shit up for her cuz come on now 😐

-⁉️ <3

MY BABY IS BACKKKKKK HI BABY 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 you have no idea how much i giggled and smiled seeing you in my inbox imagain i MISSED YOUUUUU and hope life has been treating you well baby 🥺💞 pls tell me you havent been overworking yourself or i will have to fight you 💔

and please the way i couldn't even hold back my ugly laughs while reading bc you expressed my thoughts and feelings about yoo shiah in strictly business too spot on 😭😭😭😭

when i tell you the part where you started complimenting me, the smau and my writing made me tear up like i dont think you guys know how much your words mean to me and i will forever keep them super close to my heart so thank you so, so much baby. sending you the fattest kiss right now pls accept 🥺💞🩷💞🩷💞🩷

[oatmealmika]

um... so on attack on titan official ig account, it has been confirmed that the final episode's trailer will be coming out on july 2nd, 12:30 PST. first of all,

OH SHIT.

second of all, wow. just wow. i cannot believe that this absolute masterpiece and genius piece of art is wrapping up. and so soon? yeah, i know it's been over two years since the final chapter released, but shit man... when finding out the news, i freezed. i literally think about watching the final episode every day, and now that we are so close? fuck-- but in the best AND worst ways possible.

attack on titan has had its immense effect on so much about me; my writing, my art, and even my views on the world itself. once it ends, i won't be sure what i'll do next. i've been so hyped about one piece recently, but ever since i heard the new aot news (literally ten minutes ago) i cannot feel a thing about one piece right now (love it, but aot just stops time for me).

so, in summary, i apologize to everyone who will have to know me before and after the final episode. i am so so SO sorry for the angst-driven ball of sadness i will become afterwards, but tis only natural.

but fuck man, thats crazyyyyyy....... i hope all yall have a good rest of your day/night, and chat later :)

p.s., MAN HOW I LOVE AOT IT AINT EVEN A JOKE BRO LIKE FUCKKKKK

[may-tine]

Someone who has never watched TMNT Rise reacts to the movie

@gauntletknight​ this is for you

so the last tmnt anything i watched was the 1990 live action film and the 2003 cartoon, when i was like 7? so we are off to a great start, but lets get into it

hey what, why are we in hell

okay wow Casey is here already i remember him

hey MIKEY??? WHAT im sorry does leo have a metal arm?

are we opening with time travel WHAT

WHY IS CASEY JONES FROM THE FUTURE.WASNT HE JUST SOME PUNK FROM NEW YORK?

I just watched a man die.

things keep happening and i cant put my thoughts down- oh i JUST WATCHED ANOTHER MAN DIE

alright pausing for half a sec to get thoughts down, this is a wild opening, tho i guess for a movie you need some higher stakes then a normal show. Im pretty sure the normal show is more classic turtle hijinks. aight back to it

actaully whats the krang? was that in the original? Are we going to see shredder?

oop yep classic teenage turtle hijinks

now i dont remember much but i remember Donnie and Leo being kinda hard to distinguish personality wise. Im glad they put some further characterization on them both

Mikey is somehow more childish?  but like in a babyish way

oh yeah Raph is the leader this time around.

okay so the magic thing is already established in the show, and Shredder has been dealt with?

oh buddy

WHO THE FUCK ARE THESE RANDOS?

I think Donnie was always tech but was he always THIS tech? Damn son

music is super funky

Eyy foot clan! wait these are shredders guys arnt they?

Raph is still mostly angry but hes like, softer. and WHY IS LEO BEING SUCH AN ASS! is he always like this?

Rat dad! We Love splinter

this version of casey is so weird compared to what im used too, i dont hate him tho

yoo wait thats April? APRIL STEALS?

Yo  have they been training her as a ninja as well? good for her- APRIL DONT STEAL RANDOM CHEMICALS

Oh this is begging to go wron- yep

this entire interrogation scene is amazing

Okay i do adore this casey

shit is it really like, too late, too late?

god this krang thing is heking creepy why are they blocks

OH THE MAGICS OFF, right after i noticed April had magic too

oof Splinters out cold

Do they have a pod for casey? ok yeah- oh leo no

wha

hey waat the fucK? RAPH?

oh god the you survived banner is about to NOT be funny

nooo hes turning on casey

oh god the powers are still gone

Raph isnt captured... is he?

COMMANDER?

oh he is captured, kinda surprised there

ah hostage situation got it- HEY WHAT THEY FUCKKKKK

AHHHHH?????? bye foot clan

same mikey

AHHHHH HIVE MIND

oh caseys about to ruin the mood

or hype them up

oh no reveals are being delayed

GOD  this is horrifying isnt this a kids show?

HEY LEO I THINK THEY SAW YOU COMING!

APRIL HAS A MOTORCYCLE YESSSS (did she have that orginally? maybe?)

Im worried how single minded Leo is getting about this, but at the same time, i get it.

THEY POSSESSED A TRAIN???

SOFT SHELL? oh your kidding

Oh god dont possess the tank

APRIL NO- oh, april yess

Ive never been so scared of a train in my life

WHY IS THIS A STRAIGHT UP HORROR????

WHY DID SHE STEAL SO MANY????

Casey with the call out!- oh not like that kiddo no

yep like cops will do anything- WHY ARE THEY GOOP LIKE THAT, Its too fleshy my guy.

Casey what was that smirk?  Did you do this on purpose?

Mickey with the mystic hands stuff worries me cuase is LITERALLY KILLED HIM

oh the triangulation scene ive seen this

oh no

oh raph is not going to be raph once hes out of there is he

AH I HATE BEING RIGHT

WAIT I THINK I SAW FANART OF THIS EARLIER TODAY I THOUGHT IT WAS SOME AU

WE ARE HITTING FINAL HOUR SHIT AND ITS ONLY HALF WAY THROUGH THE MOVIE????

god krang raph is so spooky

HEEY FAM? HEY TMNT FANS??? ARE YOU GUYS GOOD??? i was not expecting such levels of cosmic horror 

wait why does a turtle have eyebrows?

god the krang possessed tech is the worst, horrific,OH GOD WHAT IF THE TURTLE TANK.

shout out to Donnie having a step counter, same buddy.

i do enjoy the art style

oh why he sound like that

god the animation on krang raph is upsetting

I do adore this mikey as well, i was thinking i wouldnt liked this take on ‘immature’ but hes growing on me

OH NOOO DOnnie no dont do it oh god the goop

guys WTF

GUYS WTF

I DONT LIKE DONNIE IN THERE

AHH THAT EYE

WTFWTFWTFWTF

Hello?? am i about to cry over turtles??

MYSTIC POWERS!!!!!! What about the power cancel?

oh yeah B team. Love that Aprils first idea is dropping a building on somthing

AHHH THATSD A BEAM THROUGH AN EYE AAA, like its an alien but ye

YOOOO MIKEYYYY JUST THROWS A BUILDING

Oh this is so sick

yeee the anti power stuff or not? they still work?

Leo damn it dont do the self sacrificial shit YOU KNOW HOW MUCH THAT SCREWED YOU UP WHEN RAPH DID IT

hot moment to appreciate the Krang mechs, great monster designs

HAHA PORTAL FUCKERY

Casey my boy ; _ ;

oh god it ended on a portal chop

whats he holdin- NOOOOOOO DONT DO THAT TO ME

ONE OF THEM IS STILL ALIVE AHHH

MIKEY NO DONT HURT YOURSELF

HES CRACKING- THEY ALL ARE AHH

WAIT THIS IS GONNA LET KRANG BACK IN

QUICK SAVE YEAAAAA

ive only been to new york once whats wrong with Staten island

Casey gets pizza!!!

WHo the hek is Cassandra- UH OH

oh this ending song is a banger

WELL That was a lot of fun and SUPER DARK WHAT. At least I get the hype now. I dont know if ill start the actual series but I will be rooting for a s3 for all the fans

[pianostarinwonderland]

Azul’s figurine makes me feel too many things

🗿

Disney I hate this, I was just vibing in vc and then you just mcfucking dropped

This

I CAN’T HANDLE THISSSSS OTL DFJDJJDJSKDJKSJDJJSNDJDJ SOBS SO HARD YOU KNOW, I DON’T BUY MERCH, I REALLY DON’T. my ONLY PURCHASES WERE THE FIRST COMIC ANTHOLOGY AND THE AZUL NUI AND THAT’S BECAUSE IT WAS MY BIRTHDAY AND CHRISTMAS IN ONE MONTH 💃 BUT WHEN I SAW THAT FUCKING FIGURINE IN MY DMS, MY FIRST RESPONSE WAS LITERALLY

I’M IN SO MUCH PAIN, I NEED IT SO BAD

And like. The whole day. The whole fucking day. I was just looking at the image and admiring every single thing.

I HAVE TOO MANY THINGS TO SAY ABOUT THIS GHHRHRHRHHFHFHFJFHFB

First off, that mcfucking angle.

To the photographer who took the picture 🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿��🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿

I. I just want to talk.

How dare you. How dare you choose this angle.

IT’S AN ANGLE THAT SHOWS ENOUGH OF HIS FIGURINE TO MAKE PEOPLE HYPED AND EXCITED BECAUSE THE CRAFTMANSHIP IS SO SO GOOD BUT IT ALSO KEEPS THE REST OF THE FIGURINE A SECRET SO THERE’S STILL SOME MYSTERY THAT BUILDS UP THE DAMN EXCITEMENT

AND YOU KNOW WHAT? LOTS OF OTHER ANGLES COULD HAVE DONE THE JOB BUT OF ALL THE WAYS YOU COULD TAKE THIS PHOTO, IT JUST HAD TO BE THE MCFREAKING ANGLE WHERE HE’S LOOKING DOWN ON YOU AS HE HOLDS UP THE CONTRACT, WAITING FOR YOU TO SIGN IT

NOOOOOO THIS ISNmT FAIR THIS HURTS WHAT THE FUCKKKKK 🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿PUTANGINAAAA ANG SAKET AYOKO IPERMAHIN YUNG KONTRATA PERO HNNNNGNGNNHNHNNGNHNGNHH NASA SAHIG NA AKO DAHIL SA KANYANG TITIG 🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️

His. Fucking. Face.

DO I HAVE TO SPELL IT OUT????

HE’S

FUCKING

BEAUTIFUL

AND DISNEY DAMN WELL KNEW HOW TO BRING OUT THE BEAUTY IN HIM I WANNA CRY SO BAD

The fucking craftmanship to shape his face with this balance of softness and sharpness in his cheek and jaw line??? The shape of his nose???? HIS CUTE LITTLE MOLE NEAR HIS LIPS???? HIS BRIGHT SKY BLUE EYES LOOKING DOWN ON US 😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳???? HIS ABSOLUTELY PERFECT LIPS TURNED UP INTO THAT SEXY SMIRK?????????

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DISNEY THIS IS TOO MUCH IT HURTS SO BADDDD

AND AM I HALLUCINATING OR DO HIS EYES SEEM TO HAVE THIS SUBTLE ONE EYEBROW RAISED EXPRESSION?? BECAUSE IF IT DOES, IT GIVES OFF AN EVEN MORE SMUG VIBE AND GOD I’M GONNA BANG MY HEAD AGAINST SOMETHING

AZUL PLEASE MAINIT NA DITO TAPOS INIINIT MO PA ANG KWARTO ??? PINAPAWISAN MO PA AKO ??

I NEED !! RAIN !!!!

The way he holds that contract.

God. It’s such a small detail. But

They even managed to sculpt the way Azul held that contract with this certain overprotectiveness like DAMN????

Man. I want to know what it says on the contract. I think there was someone who apparently managed to decode it? I should double check that.

But also wow imagine being held like how Azul holds his contracts haha

His. Fhcking. PANTS.

Disney

Disney what the fuck

What the absolute fuck

YOU DIDN’T HAVE TO MAKE HIS PANTS SO TIGHT AND YET ???? OH MY GOD I’M GONNA EAT A ROCK RIGHT FUCKING NOW THOSE CREASES ARE NO FJCKING JOKE LIKE HHRHRHRHHRHFHFBDHHSJSJDJDJKSKSKJDHSJSKDOD 🗿🤡

Man. His pants are already so form-fitting as seen in lab Jack’s groovy. 🧍‍♀️

Can I just say holy shit why is his calf THAT curved like what the fack Disney I’m in so much pain

GODDDD HIS LEGS MAKE ME FEEL TOO MUCH OTL I’M SO WEAK FOR LEGS AND HE HAS NICE LEGS WTF TWST

Man, I’m still kinda sad that they hide the booty because the coat is attached to his ass

Putangina Disney this hurts 🗿 like literally, I’m TwoSet’s Brett’s lofi and Directed by Robert something at the same time. 🤡

Sobs so hard I wanna go home mom please pick me up I’m scared

[seeminglyseph]

Brainstorming Lake's relation to the main 6. I'm stoned and just trying to get back in the vibe.

Portia: they probably know each other the least out of them, they like each other as fellow chaotic souls, but also he brings out the worst in her brother and she really wants Julian to like..... stop doing self destructive things.

Julian: They are like so similar in certain ways that they get along really well in the worst possible way. Having similar shitty coping mechanisms and negative self image causes them to get to similarly dramatically destructive places. They hooked up once while working the plague and Julian became so uncomfortable with the situation he started avoiding Lake out of Feelings and eventually ended up assuming it was Lake "getting the message" and not wanting to work it out when Lake stopped showing up to work. He feels "slightly" guilty about that now. It does not help the self destructive tendencies. They both refuse to actually talk about it.

Muriel: like... he doesn't really hate Lake, he just gets frustrated that he causes problems for Asra and also by proxy Muriel. Lake likes him a great deal despite Muriel's frustration with him, in part because someone getting angry at him is pretty much the only form of affection he understands. Realizing that did not improve Muriel's mood about the whole thing. He was anti-necromancy but helped Asra 'cause he loves Asra and what the fuck if he can't stop the little gremlin he may as well get stuck in jail with him later. Damn it. Post resurrection Muriel did find Lake a lot more agreeable and they have a few moments that Lake can't remember. Ultimately for the time being he's just letting Lake forget because like... fuck all the Lucio business like shit. Unless they are staging an intervention. He is kind of concerned we aren't staging an intervention. What the fuck was the point of the Necromancy Bullshit Asra?

Nadia: did not improve her headaches at all. How? A blood bond with her *dead husband's* goat ghost? Like okay ultimately he did save the world and get Lucio's ghost out of the palace but surely it would have been significantly easier if they had *stopped to plan* for like *five fucking minutes*. At least he gave Lucio something to do afterwards instead of whine about being banned from Vesuvia. What a fucking nightmare.

Asra: mutually Lake and Asra run on a similar vein of Chaos Will Rein and so they tend to get into a feedback loop of energy and vibes no matter what direction that vibe happens to be going. The only impulse control they have is Muriel and when they separated the consequential emotional low that came with the breakup put them both in the worst possible places (Lake's place was slightly worse due to dying but that's kind of how Asra's place got worse) post resurrection Asra had to deal with his emotions feeling dulled and blunted compared to before and the very difficult task of rehabilitating Lake. They spent a lot of time at Mutiel's cabin before Lake learned to get enough motor controls down that he didn't need to be lifted places anymore, though Lake of course cannot remember this. It also made part of his mental recovery a bit difficult when they realized a lot got reset when he forgot most of being in the cabin. This caused a mild fracture in Asra and Muriel's relationship for a little bit and is part of why Muriel avoids Lake. When you're trying to build memory it's bad to cause more holes in the memory. Asra is super not hyped about Lucio, not okay and going to put a stop to it, but it's gotten all fucked up by all the magic and he is absolutely furious that Lucio is fucking shit up this much oh my god thing were really starting to look up what the fuckkkkk

Lucio: so before Lake died their only real interaction was Lake breaking into the palace to steal supplies for the clinic out of some really misguided impulse to do something good, as a result Lucio lost his temper and sent Lake to be Valdemar's test subject which ultimately ended up killing him. Now he kind of forgot about Lake even existing until a little while into their magic isolation gaslighting adventure at which point he starts to panic because he super super definitely needs Lake to like him really really badly and now that he likes Lake he feels really ashamed of having had him killed and he tries to lie about it and does get found out during the route, but so much magic shit and more gaslighting isolation time means he manages to twist it to like "look, you brought the plague into the palace. And like... it's Valdemar. I was scared of them like a LOT so I feel like while it was super shitty of me to have let them do that to you, with them and the Devil breathing down my back at the time I think it can be at least understandable that I didn't have the strength to resist them on something that seemed like a small battle in the grand scheme of things." And just you know being a fucking abusive nightmare about it because that's the trainwreck I am conducting! You have been warned lol

[irondad-not-ironsad]

A little late, but here are the notes I took during my first listen to the red vault tracks (yes I listened to ten minute all too well first), if this seems rambly and nonsensical it’s because I was taking them in real time and progressively becoming more wine drunk throughout 😂

ATW 10 minute

THE INTRO IS DIFFERENTTTTTTTT

IMMACULATE VIBES OMGGGGGGG

ITS SO DIFERENT AND THERE HAVENT EVEN BEEN NEW WORDS YETTT

EVEN THE ORIGINAL LYRICS SOUND DIFFERENT

big pop vibes I love it

SHE SAID FUCK

HE NEVER SAID I LOVE YOU

JAKE HAD COMMITMENT ISSUES

SHIT

IM GOING TO LISTEM TO THAT BIT AGAIN RN

HITTING TO HARD TAYLOR

SHIIIIIIIIIT

SHES COMING FOR HIS THROAT

SHIT SHE CAME FOR HIS PREDATORY ASS

maturity is seeing how back them she cut all the lyrics referring to the game gap but now she’s grown and is unashamed to call out his bullshit

This long outro gives me “I promised ten minutes so I gotta stretch this” vibes but I love it

Second listen time

Starting with this was a mistake because now I can’t bring myself to stop looping it

This is my new favorite thing ever this is all ok gonna talk about for weeks

“Anytime now he’s gonna say it’s love, you never called it what it was” I needed to hear that

YOU KEPT ME LIKE A SECRET BUT I KEPT YOU LIKE AN OATH GIRLLLLLLLL

They say all’s well that ends well what the fuckkkkk

“If we had been closer in age maybe it would’ve been fine” Taylor I’m so sorry girl he didn’t deserve you

“It’s supposed to be fun turning 21” go off papa swift

Ronan

Not gonna give to much commentary here but it’s beautiful and devastating and I’m sobbing

(Also my roommate doesn’t understand Ronan and she’s listening in album order so she doesn’t get why I’m crying)

Better Man

Amazing vibes from the intro

SHE SOUNDS SOOOOO GOOD

whole different lens hearing jake songs post ten minute all too well

Nothing new

Confession I’ve never heard a phoebe bridgers song beg for so I’m hyped and hoping she has a verse

Oh noooooo right off the bat huh

Ugh I wanna hug 22 year old Taylor

Is this phoebe?!

I LOVE HER VOICE

This is perfection

I think this is my favorite kind of musical vibes

Okay but 9 years later and Taylor is still thriving I wish 22 year old Taylor could see her now

BABE

it’s so pop but it’s a much needed break from sobbing I hope?

I heard her sing this live on rep tour but this is so different

Im dancing like it’s still sad but it’s a sad bop

How was she so brilliant in her early twenties? Like I’m around the age she was then and I couldn’t imagine being this genius

THE BRIDGE IS IMMACULATE

MESSAGE IN A BOTTLE

1989 vibes

was not expecting it to be this POP I love it

I just wanna dance to this at a club

Like ultimate early 2010s pop vibes

This is enchanted but more upbeat and pop I can’t explain it just is

Like big “we’re not officially a thing but I could really see this going somewhere and it scares me and thrills me all at once”

I Bet You Think of Me

Is this country/folksy vibes I detect?

Love the storytelling spoken singing vibes

I FUCKING LOVE THIS IS THAT A FUCKING HARMONICA OOOOO

her talking about his snooty friends reminds me of the academic snobs in my philosophy classes

I love the yeehaw vibes juxtaposed with criticizing there snobbiness

FUCK JAKE GYLLENHAL GO FOR HIS THROAT GIRLLLLLLL

Imagine thinking Taylor swift wasn’t good enough for you

“When you say oh my god she’s insane she wrote a song about me” I love this

Also not Chris only getting backing vocals, iconic

This is red’s mr perfectly fine

Forever Winter

I’m scared

Love this intro but I know imma cry

This is speak now meets evermore

Okay lyrics reminding me of renegade

The naivety of thinking you can fix a guy is beautifully captured here

Wait is this song about trying to stop someone from commenting suicide?

If so this is a whole new layer of devastating

Run

1234 I LOVE

was not expecting this to be slow

But I’m in love with it

Is this a love song? Awwww

About a hidden relationship it seems

Don’t come for me but I like this more than everything has changed

This is adorable

Oh no sadness in the bridge

Ok I loved that

The Very First Night

Immediately speak now vibes which I love

Ooh that bass

Okay pop vibes now

1989 is that you?

This went from speak now to red to 1989 in less than a minute

Iconic

Not at all what i expected but I am obsessed

GORGEOUSSSSSSS

[starline]

GOT Season 7, Episode 1, Dragonstone Reaction/Review

- GAHHHHH THIS RECAP MAKES ME HYPED

- OH fuckkkkk… It took me a little too long to realize that is ARYA MOTHERFUCKING STARK. FUCK YES. FUCK YES. YASSSSSSS BITCH YASSSSSS. (I thought it was a flashback a weird second)

- YES THE NORTH FUCKING REMEMBERS. NNNN I”M SO PUMPED.

- Man these Winds of Winter aren’t fuckin�� around.

- Lyannaaaaaaaaaaa!!!! My heart! Bear Island is badass.

- SANSA I agree with you.

- Goddamn JON, well okay FINE. The rest of the Kalstarks/Umbers are kids. FINE. FINEEEEEEE. UGH.

- Aw Sansa you got so tall!!

- I LOVE THE STARKS SO MUCH. Yes Sansa and Jon please talk everything out. I LOVE IT. Listen to each other. YES PLEASE.

-  Cersei, I hate you, but I like seeing you plot.

- UGhhhhhn I really don’t wanna see anything about the dumb Greyjoys. Jamie is right, they suck- wait what Queen? OH SHIT.  I thought he was gonna go to Dany! Now COLOR me interested again.

- Damn Euron… well that’s a pitch. You’re still gross, but for Cersei, i dig it? This is neat. Neat neat neat.

- SAMMMMMMMM. My Boi! Man they have you on that internship track. Grosss. I’m surprised this wasn’t turned into a musical remix of some kind.

- Brianne and Tormoud oh geez. I ship them so much but he needs give her a little room. She doesn’t trust dudes, dude. I just want her to be happy please.

- Littlefinger go awayyyy you creep.

- Wait. That song got OUT. Is that some singer I should know? He looks familiar. Is that that Ed Sherman man?

- Arya aw you are gonna kill these folks? They seem okay.

- Oh hey Hound, what’s up?

- I’m still annoyed Gendry isn’t with this crew. Lady Stoneheart too.

- Maybe this show ends with the White Walkers winning? I like Clegane’s redemption arc.

- Sam with his family and the books :) Oh who would have thought the island of Dragonstone would be made of it! Golly! hahaha

- OH it’s JORAH! Poor man.

- DANYYYYYYYYY. She finally made it over! Aw man aw man!

- This feels like a trap, but I’m enjoying the tour.

- “Shall We Begin?”  YES LETS.

Aftershow thoughts:

- Still think Sansa was right and the Kalstarks shouldn’t be forgiven.

- Arya go to JONNNNN. I need to see more Starks together PLEASE.

- I hope Bran is also on his way.

- MORE PLEASE K THANX.

[hiamigoman]

OK hold the fucking phone it’s time for my moment of acknowledgment for a random ass thing I found while watching random videos on YouTube and seeing where it takes me;

Evidently it took me to this

And HOLY SHIT, do I ALREADY have a ticket to the HYPE TRAIN

1.) First Things fuckin first, the music sets the mood so perfectly in this trailer, with a survival vipe and rough tone on it. I don’t know if Spiders knew my kind of music while making this trailer but lord knows a love a song that can tell a story and does this song tell a fucking story.

2.) CAMERA ANGLE FUCKKKKK

That’s some good shit right there, that’s how you make a trailer that excites me. A chase scene with the camera going through the trees. Erotic, is it not?

3.) Angry Boy™

This whole get up gives me a historical hard on, because if you read the description of the video it says:

“As showcased in this video, Greedfall aims for a very unique visual identity, inspired by Baroque art from 17th Century Europe, depicting grandiose sceneries in muted warm colors and dark undertones.”

HOHOHOLY FUCK. THE BAROQUE PERIOD. WARM COLORS. DARK UNDERTONES. It may not seem like much, but with all things considering, the Baroque Period (1600-1750) was a period in both music and art where the composers are artists (in general) tried to create pieces that evoked emotions from its audience. And besides art, the Baroque times were a time of “general broadening of human intellectual horizons”. Now, this is SO important to me, because it draws a line in the dirt of where the game will go, and FUCK AM I READY FOR THAT LINE. (does that make sense i dont care) 

BASICALLY THIS SHIT WILL BROADEN MY FUCKING ASSHOLE WITH SEXY COLORS

4.) Angry Boy™ P.2

He angrer

5.) This Tree Bitch

Look at her fuckin face as Angry Boy™ gets fucking destroyed. I don’t know if she’s a main character in the story, or if she’s just a filler character as well as Angry Boy™ but I love her already. Bitch just got shot by a musket and just nonchalantly summoned a fucking tree Megaloceros from the depths of the forest and pulls the biggest grin I have ever seen someone pull, with such events previously happening to them. 

Tree bitch you’re my favorite. 

6.) ANGRY BOY™ JUST PULLED OUT A SWORD TO FIGHT THE BEASTY

WHAT THE EVERLIVING FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU’RE GONNA DO TO THIS THING WITH THAT METAL TOOTHPICK, ANGRY BOY™???????

BUT GUESS WHAT, 

ANGRY BOY™ JUST TRADED FISTS WITH MOTHER NATURE AND HE’S STILL BREATHING. IF THAT DOESN’T REPRESENT TOUGHNESS, I DON’T FUCKING KNOW WHAT WOULD. I’M EXCITED IF HE’S A MAIN PROTAGONIST, JUST LOWKEY HAVE JESUS ON MY SQUAD. 

7.) Random Stranger decides to calmly observe this fuckery

Haytham Kenway just came out of the wrong game and now he’s put into this mess. But he doesn’t give a rats ASS, apparently. This guy is the main bad ass (or maybe the main protagonist you play as, that’s why his/her face isn’t show)

CONCLUSION:

FUCK AM I READY.

The game is set to release in 2018 and I’m going to pull a No Man’s Sky with this game but boy am I ready for whatever Spider decides to send my way. 

[monsterqueers]

I just finished darkness of dragons (WoF) and holy fucking shit that was good and im so hyped. Spoilers below the cut

WOO canon lesbian dragons!!!!!! That are pining and flirting with eachother!! AND ITS NOT BIG DEAL JUST LIKE THE OTHER QUEER CONTENT FUCK YEA Also I love Quibli my clever bisexual dragon son. 

He called Winter pretty and talked about feeling so often the ship levels went from ‘ok im shippin it cause I hate love triangles and I do this to every love triangle’ to ‘OH FUCKKKKK THATS CUTE IM GONNA DIE QUIBLI YOU CUTE EGG, WINTER YOU PRICKLY TSUNDERE YOU HNNG’ Im gunning for Moon/Quibli/Winter. Like hardcore. It feels on the borderline. AND STRAWBERRIES!!! I UNDERSTAND THE CAREFUL NOT SPOILERS NOW THAT IS A FITTING END HOLY SHIT. NO DEUS EX MACHINAS JUST CRAFTY BRAVE LITTLE DRAGONS USING THE TOOLS THEY HAVE IM SO PROUD AND that mcfuckin cliffhanger! Im hyped for the next one, though there really wasnt a need for it and it really could have wrapped up there, I CRAVE THE DRAGON

[burntflorets]

things i want to say to you if we were still talking: day 3

6 april 2017 2:57am i got nightmares again. this time i was helping a close friend of mine ( i can’t seem to be able to remember her face once i woke up). she was transitioning to become something else a different religion or sth. i helped her through her tough times. we were in my room just that it had a different setting. and she had another girl friend with her. it’s hazy i can’t remember everything but she tried to kill me. she had a gun. she was in a trance and she randomly shot the gun all around. i said i was scared and hid in a corner. her friend looked at me weirdly. i said i wanted to leave, my friend turned the gun on me. i ran for my life, down the stairs. she shot me in the head but i still could run. everything happened in slow mo. i ran in slow mo. she didn’t. i was crying calling out your name. i made it out of the front door crying for help and bumped into my colleagues. there was no one around except them. they stalled me for a few seconds before the girl caught up with me. they didn’t believe my story. they said i was crazy i tried to escape and i couldn’t. and i wanted to wake up from my dream so desperately and i couldn’t too. the dream was never ending, like it was trapping me inside it. i knew i was asleep and i was dreaming. i couldn’t do anything about it. idk how i finally woke up. i think i tricked myself into thinking that it was alr 6am. i heard myself calling your name out in my sleep. i guess even when i’m not conscious and awake i still need you as much.

3:33am hey i can’t go back to sleep. i was scrolling facebook and i came across this which i wanted to tag u in. but i can’t bc we aren’t supposed to be talking. i’ll just put it here, maybe you might come across this someday. “How to keep a relationship: Communicate: Talk about things, the good and bad. Build trusts. Be honest. Be faithful. Be there for one another. Make time for one another. Leave the past to the past, which include ex’s. Know that having arguments are normal. Know that you won’t always be happy. Don’t expect change. Appreciate the flaws. Appreciate each other. Become best friends. Lastly, love each other unconditionally. ” i know i said i didn’t want to hope but i really wish we would work out in the end.

7:27am i barely slept. i feel like shit too. i want to skip work today. my whole body feels like it’s giving up.

what day is it? oh thursday. nice. almost one week is over.

3 more weeks to go.

10:23am my whole body hurts. i think i over exerted myself yesterday while carrying the stones. it’s good feeling the pain tho, since i promised i wouldn’t hurt myself intentionally. at least this pain helps me a little bit. idk.

i saw this crystal marbled bar soap and immediately wanted to tag u and i was about to press send when i realized we don’t talk anymore. the marbled soap was so u, and it was whitish, your favorite colour. i wanted to get one for you but it costs 10usd for like a 5cm piece. plus the shipping. i think it’s not worth it. i looked up some diy crystal soap articles and maybe i’ll make some considering i don’t go out anymore and i have some time. maybe i’ll make them some day. if i can get myself out of bed and do something productive with my life.

11:33am ‪i would rather be fighting with you than going through this alone‬

12:30pm it’s lunch now and i bought majestic bay’s staff menu. i was so hyped up for it bc they said it was the okra one. bc i remembered the colleagues talking about it saying that the minced meat and brinjaw one was good. when the food came, i got so disappointed bc it’s was fucking LADIESFINGER AND FISH. FAK i always thought okra was brinjaw omfg and i was cheated??? holy shit i was so mad bc not only i don’t like ladies finger, the portion was so little that there’s only 3 small pieces of fish and 2 slices of ladies finger. omfg i got so mad that shit cost $5. omg ended up we had to buy macs the staff menu and a large fries. ugh

it’s weird tho i feel nauseous and my stomach hurts but i ate breakfast today. i had wraps and sandwhich. i didn’t eat the sandwhich tho. now eating lunch i feel like i need to puke even more than ever. ugh what’s wrong with me. i’ve been eating i swear. i’ve been eating 3 meals i didn’t skip any meals but idk why.

7:42pm daddy and mummy went out for dinner, they told me they had some food for me on the table and i just had to warm it up. i didn’t want to eat bc i didn’t have any appetite recently. but i couldn’t just throw it away and lie that i ate. so i just warmed up the food. i left the soup on the stove on low fire and went to bathe. halfway i heard and explosion and i got fucking scared. like omg wtf what if my whole kitchen is in flames or sth??? wtf wtf so i went out stark naked and soap still in my hair. and the fucking back door was open bc i went for a smoke earlier. fuck my life. and i was scared someone came home too and i was naked?? and what if the kitchen was on fire too?? fuck. luckily the fire just went out but the sound tho. scared the shit out of me. thank God nothing happened. holy shit. i thought the worst was over, and i could just go back to bathe. I couldn’t fucking turn off the fucking gas HOLY SHIT. the knob was jammed fuckkkkk how more suey could i get. and i was soapy and the soap was in my eyes and what not and i was trying my best to turn off the stove before anyone came home seeing me naked????? fuck. i finally managed to in the end. i swear my heart was beating so fast i thought it was going to pop out. omg. ok story telling time over. i’m so tired to even eat. i just want to smoke my life away till i pass out from the fumes.

9:28pm i happened to chance upon this thoughtcatalogue article and i really agree with it a lot.

I Love You, But You’re Not Good For Me (And I Can Finally See That) Becca Martin

It’s been months since I’ve seen you last and I was convinced you were what was missing from my life. I convinced myself that I couldn’t live without you, that I’d never be happy again until I was reunited with you, but going back made me realize something I’ve known for a while but have never been able to admit to myself. I finally realized just how toxic and suffocating you are in my life. I get so wrapped up in love and the idea of love that often times I forget just how good or bad something can be for me. I think that it’s right, and that just because it makes me feel good that means it’s all okay. But it’s not. It’s not okay that I left feeling full of regrets, feeling less than when I arrived to you, feeling empty because as much as I want to be with you constantly, going back to you made me realize how damaging our relationship is. It made me realize that what we had worked for so long, but even through all those years I failed to notice you’ve always made me feel this way. You were always bad for me but I just became completely intoxicated by you. You made me forget my morals, my values, how to be strong on my own because being around you makes me weak. It makes me do things I’m not necessarily proud of because being around you makes me feel alive. It makes me hate myself – and love shouldn’t make you feel that way. But I never noticed it at the time, I blocked it out and always blamed it on anything other than you. I enjoyed every wild moment, every drunk mistake, every time I let myself go completely because all I was concerned about in those moments was being there with you. I never wanted to be apart, I never wanted to live without you because I never thought I could enjoy life without you. I wanted to stay there; stay in those moments of comfort with you because it made me feel safe. In all those blissful moments I forgot how damaging you were to me because in those moments I never wanted anything more than I wanted to be there, with you. I thought going back to you would help, I thought it would remind me just how much I love you and it would make me want to stay. But I was wrong. I loved you when I got there – and I still do – but now I’m not so sure that it’s healthy because when I drove away and left you this time I didn’t feel the same heartbreak I felt the first time. I didn’t feel the same sadness and regret of walking away. This time I wasn’t even sure I wanted to go back to you again. Instead, this time I felt empty, I felt hopeless and like I’ve completely lost myself because that’s what you do to me. You completely intoxicate me and you turn me into someone I’m not, someone I don’t know anymore. And it breaks my heart to come to this realization because I love you more than you’ll ever know, but you’re not good for me. I learned that I can love you with my whole heart in a way that I’ve never loved anyone or anything else but that doesn’t mean we are good for each other; it doesn’t mean we’ll end up together because sometimes you don’t end up with the love of your life, and that’s okay. I love to love things that are bad for me because they make me feel alive, but at a certain point I need to walk away from what I really want in the moment and start walking towards something that’s good for me in the long run. I don’t know how I’ll do it without you, but all I know is I need to try because I can’t keep going back to you. I’m no longer good for you and you’re definitely not good for me.

it’s scary bc that’s how i feel sometimes. especially when we fight. i’m pretty numb rn, i don’t feel as much as i did on that day and the next. i know you’re bad for me, bc you don’t ever change or try and understand when a misunderstanding happens. you said u would but when it comes down to doing it, you don’t. but i still love you. a lot in fact. like how the girl felt like in the article.

these days, we have been fighting so much i’ve stopped wishing and hoping for things to go my way, i just let nature take its course. and i don’t think i’ll have a definite answer for you if u were to ask me at the end of all these. i’ve cleared my mind and have been thinking things through. i don’t feel depressed or happy or wtv. i just feel normal. like it’s any other day. i’m just going to leave it in God’s hands. it’s not that i’ve given up. i don’t want to fight against what has been planned for us. it’s tiring knowing that you’re fighting a losing battle. i’ll just let nature take its course, and go with the flow.

the thing about me is that no matter how wrong i know something is or how bad something is for me, i still try and fight for what i want. and i might end up fighting a losing battle when it comes to you. bc no matter how toxic our r/s is, i am that stubborn and i won’t give up even though i know it’s not going to work. i only give up when i’m broken. and i guess i’m not that broken enough to give up yet.

10:30pm the mood swings are back. i feel shitty. i miss u. there's a dull ache inside my chest. i wanna talk to you. i wanna know what you're doing. i want you to be here. i want to see your face. i want to feel u. i miss u.