#FROM ME AND FROM MONGMONG

[jinnie-ret]

Hi! I was just wondering, could you write a oneshot of reader feeling really tired/kinda depressed, like too tired to get up of the bed to get a drink, too tired to even talk and skz just helping them through it and taking care of them? It could be 9th member or just the groupd friend. It's ok if you don't want to or don't feel comfortable with it. Thank you! Lots of love!

slump

stray kids x best friend!reader

genre: angst, fluff

content warnings: mental exhaustion

word count: 1.3k

summary: your best friends notice you've been acting different recently, and help you through your mental rut.

Thank you so much for requesting! I hope you enjoy this one. And if anyone is ever feeling this way, you can always message me, or reach out for help :)

Asks are shut, but if you want to be added to my taglist, let me know! And reblog and like if you enjoyed! <3

MAIN MASTERLIST

Knock. Knock. Knock.

"Love, can you open the door?" Changbin's soft voice called out quietly, yet you made no effort to move. You knew he could just as easily open your door and walk in, but he was waiting to see if you had the energy to do it yourself.

"I'll take that as a no," and he walked away from the door, probably back into the kitchen to inform the boys that their latest attempt didn't work.

It wasn't that you didn't want to see them. It was more that your social battery was drained. Not even a good night's sleep was helping you gain energy because, well, although you weren't having sleepless nights, there was still a lot of things weighing on your mind that was stopping you from wanting to do anything.

Buzz.

Oh. They were spamming the group chat again.

kangaroo🖤: remember to have something to eat!

bokkie🐲: pls eat smthn sweaty 💞

prince🖌️: lixie you did not jst call her sweaty that isn't gnna help 😭

mongmong🎤: ignore them sweetie just pls eat smthn if you have the energy yh?

cheese toastie🦊: our minnie is so sweet

quokka boy🥊: careful or he will chnge his mind 👀

kitty boy😼: i'm cooking u dinner rn

dwaekki💪: pls come out and see us love :(

And so the guilt set in once more. You could tell they were doing their best but for the past couple of days you didn't want to do anything at all. And whilst they had asked you, you shut them down every time and waved them off.

The next day, you were due to go into work, something your best friends were well aware of as they had checked your shared calender to see if there was anything upcoming that was overwhelming you.

When you rang into work to call in for a sick day, that was the first time the boys heard your voice in like 48 hours. Croaky. Dry. Exhausted.

Which is what prompted your next visit.

"Hey, Y/Nnie, I've brought you some water. You don't have to talk to us if you don't want to... but, yeah," Felix brought in a bottle filled with ice water and you could tell he didn't know what exactly to do in the situation without you responding to him.

You couldn't help but feel the gratitude within you after he awkwardly smiled at you, and so, you spoke up from your nest in bed.

"Thank you, Lixie."

Within a flash he turned around and grinned warmly at you, excited at just this simple interaction, because him and the boys had been worried sick the past few days. They knew everyone had their moments, but they had never seen you like this before.

After he left, you sipped at your water and continued to mindlessly scroll through your social media feed on your phone. There was still a numbness there. You recognised videos that would normally make you laugh yet no emotion filled you.

And that's what made you feel weirder.

You thought about other times people went into some sort of slump and they'd normally be sad, upset for some reason. But no, not you.

You felt emotionless. The loneliness wasn't what sucked you in yet it was like a part of your brain felt like it had shut off. And that lasted for the next few hours until the members caught you out of bed looking for something in the cupboard to eat.

"Oh, Y/N!" Han jumped back with a hand on his heart, yet you carried on in your sluggish efforts to make something to eat.

"You're out of bed?" Jeongin was shocked until he winced from the small slap on the back of his head from Changbin.

"Don't eat that, it's not good for you, here, heat this up," Lee Know took away the instant noodles from your grasp and instead pulled out a container with a portion of dinner he had made last night. He seemed to be taking control yet he wanted to see you do something for yourself. He hoped it was motivating and that the simplest thing of heating up your own food would lead you towards an upward trajectory of going back to your usual self.

You slowly padded across the kitchen to the microwave and shoved the food in, a gentle hand tapping you on the shoulder as you shut the machine's door.

"Let's talk, Y/N," Chan guided you to the sofa in the lounge connected to the kitchen, the rest of your friends following through. There was no choice in the matter, yet the eldest remained calm which reassured you slightly.

"We've been worried about you," Hyunjin spoke for everyone when he said that.

"Sorry," you whisper, picking at the threads of your baggy jumper sleeve.

"No, don't apologise. We just want to know what's going on in that head of yours," Seungmin leans forward as he speaks quietly.

You simply shrug.

"Y/Nnie?" Chan further prompted.

"I don't know," you shrugged again, not even knowing how to explain what was going on.

"You don't know?" Felix looked around at the other members, confused.

Just then, the microwave dinged, and you stood up to go and get your food, but Lee Know's hands on your shoulders stopped you.

"Don't worry about that now. Just talk to us, anything," his thumbs rubbed soothing circles before he moved away.

"I-I don't know what you want me to say," you brought your legs up to your chest.

"We know you had work today," Changbin mentioned.

"It's ok, I called in sick," you mumbled, avoiding eye contact.

"Do you have a temperature?" Han frowned, feeling your forehead but that answered his question.

"I just didn't feel like it... but not in like a lazy way but I just couldn't... mentally do it?" your answer came out as a rushed question, not even sure yourself but it made sense to the rest of the boys.

"Ah, sweetie, you should have said," Hyunjin pouted, feeling bad that you were struggling.

"Not that easy though, is it?" you looked up and saw Chan crouched down in front of you.

"It's not, we know that, but we want you to always know that you've got us to fall back on, no matter what, ok?" he grabbed your hands as he said this, squeezing them so that you knew he was physically there.

"Y/Nnie... you know you don't have to always have energy, right? It's ok to have your down days," Han said seriously, which even caused Chan to look at him surprisingly as he moved away from in front of you.

"I feel like..." you began, but trailed off shaking your head.

"Tell us, talk to us love," Changbin insisted.

"I feel like I have to keep telling myself I can do it, but I know I'm lying to myself, I guess?" you sighed, leaning further back into the sofa.

"You can do it, we all know you can," Jeongin encouraged you sweetly.

"But if you can't right now, that's also fine," Seungmin added on.

And there was no need for you to verbally respond, because these safety oozing from them was wrapping you in a nice comfy blanket.

Oh, and Felix was also wrapping you in a blanket, that could have been why you felt the sudden warmth.

"Right, now you can eat," Lee Know nodded, satisfied with how the conversation had played out.

"Me too, hyung!" Han and Hyunjin both dashed after Lee Know, begging him for food too, and with that you smiled.

"There you are," Changbin titled your head up as you smiled, his face mirroring yours.

"If all it took was for Han and Hyunjin to be whiny and complain, we could have had this conversation a lot sooner," Seungmin rolled his eyes fondly, thinking of the two 00 liners who were bickering earlier that day.

"Don't ruin the moment Seungmin," Chan tutted jokingly.

But it didn't ruin the moment. Seeing them act normally around you again after they had cleared up what was going on made you feel better.

You felt, once again.

tagged: @skz-streamer @kiraisastay @hannahhbahng @backintomykpopphaseagain @sakufilms @hanjiquokkaaa @arloo00 @dunno-wut-to-do @splat00z

[staystarlost]

Ah, long distance—the all too familiar ruiner of relationships. Promises to stay together, that distance only makes the heart grow stronger. Yet, texts go unanswered, calls ignored. Insecurities and accusations thrown left and right; trust dismantled right before one's very eyes. The love, once nurtured, rots and withers away until there’s nothing left except the remains of what once was. 

But that’s not the case for you two, is it?

Mongmong: I’ll be there in 10 minutes

You: Yay! Text me when you’re here 😘

No, it appears not. 

You’re one of the lucky ones, you know? To have found a person willing to make it work, regardless of the sacrifices.

Seungmin is a good man, but a busy one. Unforeseeable conflicts outside your relationship almost always prevent the day you both have longed for. Though, he still manages to update you about his day, what he’s doing, how he misses you and can’t wait to see you again. Patience is a virtue in your relationship, one you’ve both had to master for the love to live on. 

But it’s always worth all the sleepless nights and the bags under your eyes. The way you run on fumes throughout the day because you decided to disregard your sleep schedule in favor of talking about your day and knowing more about his. The dent in your wallet has gotten a little wider, has it not? The money you manage to scrape together is few and far in-between but our time together is priceless, you once said to him, nestled beneath a blanket while wiping a stray tear from his cheek on one of your final nights together.

You should see the love-sick expression he wears when he gets an encouraging message from you in the middle of the day. It surely doesn’t help the dopey smile all his friends tease him for when he sees his set lock screen, his favorite picture of the two of you from when he saw you last popping up and tugging at his heart. 

Though, the promise ring he gifted you, its matching pair getting closer and closer to where it belongs, affects you all the same. He’ll likely never know your nervous habit of twisting the beautiful ring for comfort when the person you desire the most is right beside you. 

Ding!

But that’s okay, go run to your lover. He’s waiting for you. 

Mongmong: I’m here <3

[fatehbaz]

The archipelago of uplifted coral that is my mother’s homeland surfaced during the earth’s ancient cycles of glaciation. The early people came in sakmans, carried by wind and seas, guided by stars and clouds and bioluminescence, the fragrance of flowers, the flight paths of birds. Settlers lived and fished and farmed in this part of Oceania for thousands of years, but the naming history issues forth at the moment of subjugation. Islas de los Ladrones -- the Islands of Thieves -- they were called by the first Europeans who came. Then Islas de las Velas, the Islands of the Lateen Sails. Then the Mariana Islands, in honor of Spain’s queen regent. Before it was Guam, Guåhan was known, under Japanese rule, as Omiya Jima, the Great Shrine Island. [...] Elsewhere, settlements recall the body of the creation god Puntan: Tiyan, his flat stomach. Hagåtña, his blood. Toto, his resting back. Mongmong, his beating heart. [...]

These small islands have grown crowded with denotations, I try to tell a friend, except it comes out as detonations. [...]

---

I am reading from a passage on CHamoru history and culture. Kåntan Chamorita is an ancestral form of call-and-response, a spontaneous sung dialogue. [...] Thumbing the texts, I brandish our histories: the brutality of Japanese rule; the architectural colonization that drove the CHamoru from los antiguos, their dwelling places in latte houses; the violation of natural resources brought about by American occupation.

She [mother] tsks, waves impatiently. Hekkua’. An expression that means at once “I don’t know” and “Forget it.”  [...]

In 1917, the U.S. Navy banned the CHamoru language in the Mariana Islands. A few years later, by order of U.S. naval captain Adelbert Althouse, all CHamoru dictionaries were burned. The language was said to represent a cognitive deficiency. The adoption of English would ensure, among other things, mental well-being.

The ban has since been lifted, but my mother hid her language for so long, it��s become hard to find.

What is the word for sky? I ask her.

She shakes her head. Nothing word for sky. Only heaven: långet. [...]

---

And so did we sail out. For more than ten years [...]. We moved into other countries where other languages had been suppressed and where other people had been made invisible. There were signs [...]. In New Zealand, where I went to kindergarten, Ma¯ori children were beaten for speaking te reo in schools. Bislama was prohibited in Vanuatu, but I only remember the quietness of the bay, the great banyan trees, the malaria pills. In New Caledonia, where I went to elementary school, the Kanak languages were banned from the education system from 1863 until 1984. Gendarmes in Nouméa stood on street corners with machine guns slung across their chests. [...]

My mother is telling us something exciting. She trips happily over the words, her face laughing. [...] My mother did not want me speaking like her. She wanted me to be better than that, which is to say better than her. [...]

Kao piniten hao? -- Have you been hurt?

Hunggan. Mayulang, yu’ -- Yes. I’m breaking.

My mother corrects me: mayulang only applies to a thing that’s broken, not a person. You can be hurt, she tells me, but not broken. [...]

---

The etymology of translation refers to the removal of a saint’s body to a new location, to bearing bones and words, both sacred, across. As if anything can be moved whole [...].

We never heard the end of my mother’s stories. [...] These days, she is happy to let most of her sentences go unfinished. [...]

She raises her eyebrows, juts her chin.

I tell her, You’re a book of lost endings.

Which one? she asks.

---

It’s too small here, I said. It’s boring, hot. It’s too small. [...] We spent two years sleeping on my auntie’s living room floor. Unrolling futons and lying under the weeping air conditioning unit and peeling paint. We ate Spam and rice with ketchup. [...]

Lately, I have been confusing the CHamoru word for flight, malagu, with the word for flee, falagu. [...]

I dream now of the islands and wake with my head barely above water, my mouth filling with salt. [...]

Mamaolek ha’? -- Are you doing okay?

Maolek. I’m doing okay.

---

Text by: Hannah Dela Cruz Abrams. “Moving the Saints: Passages from a deconstructed homeland.” Orion Magazine. Spring 2023. [Some paragraph breaks and contractions added by me.]

[im-tops-bottom]

Changbin: has anyone seen the chicken? The dirty little rascal

Chan: the who?

Changbin: the baby chick who goes by bbokari, Felix, yongbok and a plethora of other names...but right now will be referred to as the little shit

Chan: oh god what has he done now?

Changbin: he bit the vetinarian today who was doing his checkups because there were surprise injections

Chan: *groans* not again

Changbin: oh it gets worse. In retaliation he went into the corner of the nice lovely ladies room, peed and pooped in the corner and bit her through out the rest of the check up. Refused to change to his human form to clean his mess up so I had to go between cleaning it and making sure he didn't bite the lady

Chan: go on

Changbin: he refused to leave the office so after chasing him around the office, I managed to wrangle him up and put him in his time out cage, he then transformed back into his human form and broke the cage

Chan: oh god

Changbin: on our way home he refused to apologize and when I tried to grab onto him when we got home because I wanted to march his ass straight to the naughty corner, he bit me, transformed back into his chick form and did a runner. Out the open window and inside

Chan: I'll deal with it. I know exactly where he is.

.....

Door slams open

Chan: LEE YONGBOK FELIX GET YOUR ASS HERE RIGHT NOW

Felix: uh oh

Felix: *quickly transforms and tries to do a runner*

Chan: *at the speed of light quickly grabs Felix and holds him up in mid air* you're in trouble mister

Felix: *chirps*

Chan: no don't give me that. You will be apologizing to both Changbin. I know that you hate injections and you were surprised about today's one and that's on us for not telling you. We will tell you from now on but we know how much you hate them

Felix: *tweets*

Chan: yeah yeah but still that does not give you a reason the bite her so we will be taking you down there tomorrow so you can apologize to her

Felix: *chirps*

Chan: yes you will be grounded. No QuokkaRi adventures for a month

Felix: *thrashes and tries to bite Chan's fingers*

Chan: make it two. Keep biting me and see what happens

Felix: *calms down*

Chan: now seeing as you are either on the brink of an accidental death with paboracha, never sleep or eat because you're too busy playing games when it comes the evil twins, you will only be spending alone time while you're grounded with Binnie and I

Felix: *acts up again*

Chan: we're the only ones who ground you and can handle your nipping. Just be glad we banned Lee Know from doing your punishments or do you want him to be brought into the groundingracha line?

Felix: *turns back* no please please don't. His spankings hurt the worst

Chan: good to know. HEY BINNIE LET LEE KNOW KNOW THAT HE IS BACK WITH THE PUNISHMENT GANG

Changbin: *from the kitchen* ON IT

Felix: *grumpy* I hate you

Chan: I love you to *holds Felix on his hip tight* now say bye to everyone. I got work at the studio to do

Felix: ugh bye Mongmong bye innie

Seungmin/Jeongin: bye baby

[lunariet-arc]

a confession that the little bunny stickers you use in your ooc posts give me so much serotonin, they're so cute and floofy ahh

then please,   let me dedicate this very happy mongmong to you,   lovely nonnie   !!   i hope this can give you a lot of serotonin and i hope that you're going to now have the happiest and warmest sunday   🥰

[sailorhyunjinz]

How about super tomboyish reader who is almost like a brother to the members so doing anything to them just feels weird? And imagine how whipped they'd be to finally see you wear a toght fitting dress that shows off your beautiful curves 🥴✌🏼

OK you didnt specify with format i should write but imma just write it as a headcanon,,, because it seems fitting! SO LEGO

warnings; fem!reader, swearing, non-idol!au, highschool!au

so your closest friend group consisted of 8 guys

you've known them since kindergarden pretty much and you never felt different because you were a girl

quite the contrary, you were comfortable! and so you naturally grew into what your family described as a "tomboy"

but something was around the corner

p r o m

you hated the thought of even going

it was going to be filled with people you never wanted to see ever again after graduation, bad club music and too sweet punch

but you couldnt hate it either since the rest of the boys were so excited, wanting to confess to some girls and get them to be their prom date

[Jisungie] guys, dark blue or burgundy tux?

[mongmong] burgundy? are you fucking 5? dark blue all the way

[lixie] HEY! I WAS GOING TO WEAR BURGUNDY

[Jisungie] i think you should bro

[chan-wolf] but real talk guys, what flowers do girls like

[Jisungie] AYE y/n!!! TELL US

[y/n] i dont know? roses?

[hyunjinnie] roses seems too,,, funeral,,,

[foxdude] but real talk,,, what is y/n gonna wear

[binniebinnie] I WANNA KNOW THIS ONE

[lixie] ayo changbin i thought you were sleeping, get on the game in 5

[binniebinnie] i was sleeping before my mom started beating me with the vacuum BUT SURE

[mongmong] you probably deserved it, have you seen your room? those monster cans have centuries of dust on them

[foxdude] shut the fuck up everyone, wanna know what y/n gonna wear

[y/n] tbh i dont have a flying fucking clue, my mom wants me to wear a dress

[binniebinnie] OH SHIT Y/N IN A DRESS ITS SERIOUS GUYS

[hyunjinnie] at least she looks better than you

[chan-wolf] when was the last time you wore a dress? wasnt it like kindergarden? lmao

[y/n] ,,, oh shit you're right,,,

[Jisungie] what if y/n is hot in a dress?

[foxdude] get out the groupchat you fucking perv

[Jisungie] PLEASE DONT REMOVE ME AGAIN IT'S HAPPENED LIKE 3 TIMES THIS WEEK

[mongmong] another mf that deserves it, can changbins mom beat jisung with the vacuum as well?

[lixie] i would pay to see that lmfao

[chan-wolf] well,,, you have to wear something cause you're coming to prom with us!

[Jisungie] well obviously she has to wear something ;))

[hyunjinnie] OUT!! NOW!!!

[User 'Jisungie' has been removed from '9 dudes']

[mongmong] finally some peace

[chan-wolf] you'll look good in whatever you wear y/n! the important part is that you feel good about yourself!

[y/n] thank you chan, really!

you put your phone away, sighing as you looked out the window

what the fuck should you do?

days later your mom knocks on your door as you're playing games with felix

she's holding a long red dress and you just stare at her in disgust before saying something quick to felix and turning off the game

"y/n, it will look great on you! just try it on, for your mom!"

you sighed, taking the dress from her and shutting the door behind you and starting to undress, you could at least try it you thought.

when you put it on it felt,,, odd,,,, but not,,, horrible?

your walking and posture could use some work since you didnt really know how to sit in such a dress

but it looked alright!! NOT HORRIBLE!! YAY!!

your mom was awed >:((

immedietly grabbing her phone and snapping a pic in typical mom fashion from some odd angle

the day of prom you couldn't sit still, shaking your leg as you scrolled mindlessly through your phone

all the boys were coming to pick you up since you lived closest to the prom venue

they were all so cute greeting your parents with the utmost respect and standing all dapper and trying to be cool like 8 douchy highschoolers but failing miserably

you heard some bustling of noises and small talk, deciding that it was time to head down to the living room but barely breathing from how tight the dress was

how you were gonna dance in it still remained a mystery.

you looked down the stairs and started walking down slowly, startling jisung that was walking by the staircase

"who the f- y/n?!"

the other boys came rushing as they heard jisungs uproar, their jaws dropping to the floor

they barely recognised you

"why the fuck are you guys staring like that?"

you say, convincing them that it is indeed y/n that was standing before them

you had a body-ody-ody that was usually covered by boxy hoodies and oversized pants

but this dress displayed it all, ass and tits

not like,,, too much but just enough,,,

some of them didnt know where to look, not wanting to weird you out

whilst some were openly staring (cough jisung and changbin cough)

which felt FUCKING WEIRD you obviously had to punch some sense into them

all and all,,, it ended up being a really memorable night! it wasnt as highschool cringe as you thought it would be, espescially since you got to spend it together with your best friends in the entire world.

[peaches-writes]

rating my own fics on a whim bc 500 followers &

i enrolled in college as a writing major but i rlly dont wanna do the actual writing rn dont b like me

oh also link to my m.list since im too lazy to link them one by one in this post 👉 m.list

fist fight w me on inbox if yall want im always down to fist fight 💖

channie fics

syncopated - 3/10 messy af alludes too much on my pre-pandemic love life therefore embarrassing 

history - 7/10 i think im funny but yall didnt think so when i posted this also i havent listened to any nostalgic music in a while

sweet disposition - 8/10 everyone likes this so uh sure also i rlly do love the song

wedding doves - 9/10 i pretend to not like this one but in reality im trash for fluff that attracts all the ants & mice in the house

before one a.m. - 10/10 i thot it was trash while writing it then yall gave my libra sun ass an ego boost still wont make a pt. 2 for this one tho 

minho fics

eighteen - 7/10 personal comfort fic wouldve been funny if it was longer tho

d-day - 10/10 not to be a libra but i peaked here this is an underrated gem idily the movie it’s based on also still slaps for me lol 

genuinely - 4/10 couldve done better w this one but im too lazy to re-write duh i mean yall im making this long ass post instead of acads or my wips yall see how lazy i am

unbothered - 8/10 only flaw is that it was supposed to be a full fic but then i didnt rlly know where it would go if it was 

binnie fics

pierced - 8/10 i should donate this to a spicy account or summ if yall into that lmao waht lskfjdslk i meant tattoo artist changbin rights

giddy - 7/10 i iwas young i didnt know any better jk 

polished - 10/10 yes i would still like to paint changbin’s nails hmu binnie i paint nails well apparently 

hyunnie fics

hwang’s guide to gardening - 6/10 cheesy af jesus christ wtf was i doin in the summer 

drift away - 5/10 syncopated, drift away, & eighteen r all based on similar life experiences but i laugh at this one all the time more than the other two

space buns - 10/10 wHY DOES NO ONE BACK ME UP ON THE HYUNJIN SPACE BUNS AGENDA IT NEEDS TO HAPPEN

11:08 PM - 4/10 this rlly did happen but i cant show yall the pics so the fic didnt turn out well lol

shared spaces - 5/10 ur welcome fellow short ppl 

11:57 PM - 6/10 if this was longer what wouldve happened idk yalls 

seven hundred and one - 7/10 (thats not a pun) wtf happened w this one i rlly shouldve cut the last two parts & adjusted the timestamps but i got lazy lolololol 

sungie fics

meeting points - 10/10 only bc i miss the outside world this was a mess

soft lens - 5/10 i dont think im funny anymore

okay without you - 8/10 guitar player jisung deserves everything in this world but this is so cheesy

how to appease ur asian aunties - 6/10 im too lazy to write the next part these days lol 

lixie fics

in other futures - 7/10 should b longer tbh but whatever i think i wanna watch charlotte the anime when im not stressed out w school anymore lol 

8:02 AM - 10/10 my humor peaked here but yall arent ready for that conversation

brownies & blankets - 10/10 bc i rlly did ended up spending money from feeling this fic too much 

roll call - 10/10 its my comfort fic 

mongmong fics 

sunshower - 8/10 will re-write this in the future idk i jUST FEEL LIKE WE NEED A REDEMPTION ARC 

3:06 PM - 10/10 i miss being in love 

touch - 7/10 should be a series but im not smart enough for writing mystery fics trust me on this one ive alr written a detective movie in high school i rlly cant do it well 

innie fics

relax im nervous too - 9/10 i miss the place this is based on like i rlly miss goinG OUT LOL

10:28 AM - 7/10 should b a longer fic boo vivi 

according to flora - 8/10 should also be a longer fic i got lazy i cant think of any more flowers boo sldkfjsdklfj

[banyak100418]

i love you 100.

aka why i love you. aka word vomit of the things about you and us that make my life worth living. (warning: nsfw sprinkled throughout.)

 1. “love” itself sounds like an easy word to say. it gets thrown around a lot. but when i say that i love you, i mean that i love you. i’m in love with you. i mean it with every single fiber that makes up who i am. i mean that i care about your happiness even more than my own, because you, to me, are the sun.

 2. i like thinking about the first time we ever interacted. it’s been almost two years. july first. who would have known that everwing game invites will bring me to my home. they say it’s a small world but for me, it’s a vast universe, and it overwhelms me to think that among the billions of galaxies, people and creatures, you and i happened to be the people that we are, and we have found our way to one another. everything that happened had transpired in the right time and for all the right reasons, because this path brought me to miss right (a.k.a you).

 3. when we started doing our 11:11’s, i thought i was only wishing for your comfort and happiness, but in time i found myself wishing to have you, too. i always find it so endearing, how we basically started with this, how we gradually learned each other’s feelings by wishing each other happiness every night. and to this day, we still do it when we can, and it make my heart do a double flip.

 4. at some point there, you sent me something, telling me not to worry, because you’ll hold my hand the whole way through – and you have, you always did. you never broke your promise.

 5. cliché as fuck, but you are beautiful. inside and out. you are a beautiful soul. even if you think otherwise, i still think you’re the most beautiful, flaws and all. i’m proud to say that i have the most beautiful girlfriend in the entire world, and her majestic existence alone is enough to convince me to keep on going.

 6. your rosy, chubby cheeks that i love kissing so much.

 7. it’s your lips. so fucking irresistible. plump and sweet. 10/10 would kiss again. 100/100 would kiss everyday.

 8. you’re sexy when you’re sleepy. did you know that?

 9. you say you don’t like your hair, but they’re beautiful to me. your curls are cute as fuck. thinking about them makes me wanna touch them again. wanna run my fingers through them while we cuddle.

 10. you have a talented tongue. eyemoji.

 11. you give great cuddles. i love you. please cuddle me soon. i wanna cuddle you, too.

 12. your eyes and the way they light up when you eat nice food, or the way they gradually get a little glassy and sad when i cry a little too hard in front of you.

 13. it’s also the way they look at me, as if there’s something in me that’s worth seeing. your vision’s pretty bad (and that’s okay, i’d still love you even when you get old and blind), but you see everything in me that no one else couldn’t – that i couldn’t.

 14. hah, and the way they disappear when you smile your cutest smile, when your cheeks go all the way up and you’re just like ^u^.

 15. your laugh. sometimes you get giggly, like a low “hhhh” and it’s so cute.

 16.  but sometimes when i say something that just makes you laugh like “HAHAHAHA” my heart just forgets what i made you laugh in the first place, because all it knows now is to adore you. i hope you laugh like that more, my baby. your laughter can cure cancer and bring world peace.

 17. i love it when you laugh at my memes. i love how you laugh at my stupid, dumb jokes. know that you don’t always have to laugh at them if you don’t find them funny (because most of them are really dumb hhh), but honestly the only reason why i share them is because they made me laugh, and the only other person that i wanna see laughing is you.

 18. i absolutely love watching you eat. i love how you finish all of your food and you look so, so happy whenever you eat. i can be full just by watching you eat and be happy with food. my baby.

 19. you are my sunshine. one look at you and my problems and worries float away. when we talk, when i’m in your arms, i’m able to tune out the outer world, and i can only focus on you. my light.

 20. i say this in the most loving way possible—you have a crazy side that i always love seeing. it surprises me every time you bring this crazy out, when you sing your random little songs, or just suddenly make derpy faces or extreme green jokes. keep your crazy on, baby. i love everything about it.

 21. i absolutely love watching you gain consciousness in the morning. it’s one of the simple joys that i have in life. i love how, when you wake up and you don’t have anything important to do, it takes you like a hundred years to force your right eye open.

22. you snore. it’s cute. i love it. keep snoring. snore at my face. heck, snore right on my ear. i love you that much.

 23.  your voice. i remember at first you kept telling me that you don’t sound good. you were so insecure. but i couldn’t even find what is it about your voice that doesn’t “sound good”, because to me, your voice is sweet and comforting. like a blanket.

 24. the random selcas you send me sometimes, whether you’re sporting a derpy face or posing prettily, i love them all.

 25. also whenever i see those my heart goes dugeun-dugeun and all i could think of is: “so pretty. wanna kith.”

 26. i’m sorry that i often sound like i don’t care much when you do things for me, or when you do things that i ask of you. i appreciate each and every single one of them, baby. it’s endearing how you always want to be able to do things for me, and for all your other loved ones. you are really one of a kind. especially that time you gave me a gift by singing for me on my birthday.

 27. i could never forget the feeling that i had when you booked that ticket to see me. i was so happy, i felt like i was floating. it was all just so surreal. it was almost too good to be true for me. it’s a feeling that i’m always reminding myself of, the feeling that we made it happen the first time. and we also made it happen the second time. we’re gonna make it happen the third time (i’mma book my ticket soon!), and the fourth, and the fifth, and the sixth, until the day we don’t have to be miles away from one another anymore. this love, and everything that we are, is just extraordinary and i would never in a million years trade our love for anything else in this world.

 28. the first time i saw you, i was drawn to you. i’m not a hugger. but i ran to you before i could even think, before i could even process what was happening, or what i was about to do. you were a tiny bit awkward and taken aback, i could tell, but you hugged me back anyway and it was the most comforting hug in the world. to me it was something that i’ve always dreamed of (and i’d never thought i’d have), and when you put your arms around me i had this idea that maybe it was the same for you too, maybe you had wanted to hold me just as much as i was dying to hold you.

 29. when i asked us to sit down at the café for the meantime while the driver found his way to us, you immediately took your phone out. i don’t know, i could tell that you were trying to ignore how awkward it could get so i was just watching you with a smile but you couldn’t even look back at me? and it was just so fucking cute? you were so shy. you asked me “why” and i was like “nothing” but in reality i was falling hard and fast for you there. i love you. god, i love you.

 30. and on our way to the hotel, when you actually kinda called me in to scoot closer and hold your hand, i was on cloud nine.

 31. (later i learned that your hands aren’t only soft to the touch and nice to hold—you’re also talented in using them in other ways. like. you know. in bed.)

 32. on our second day, when i got home from class, i climbed to your bed and started falling asleep in your arms. you were running your fingers through my hair. it might just be my imagination, but as i was being lulled to sleep, i think i heard you tell me that you love me, in the softest voice. the way my heart jumped was something i’ve never felt before, and in that moment i confirmed to myself that this is what i am going to live for.  

 33. i like how you smell and just thinking about it makes me miss you so much, like holy fuck.

 34. i miss how your hair smells. sometimes i open rejoice bottles at the grocery store just to get a whiff of your scent, but it just isn’t the same. i miss you.

 35. when we were at baler, that night we went out and walked back to our place, it was scary but i felt strong beside you, even if you were scared of mongmongs. we’ll have more late-night walks, right? i will protect you from doggo. we’ll go to more beaches in our lifetime, and we’ll make out by the waves and under the stars each time.

 36. i’m sorry that our first kiss was shitty… but i hope i made it up to you? that kiss on the beach? to this day, i still find it to be the most picture-perfect experience i’ve ever had. do you ever wonder just how many people have had their perfect kiss? because i have, and it’s you, you are my perfect kiss. kisses are always perfect with you but there’s just really something about that kiss by the beach. we’ll do more perfect kisses. a hundred. a billion. we’ll make the most out of our time, all the kisses we missed while we were still far from one another.

 37. you are a wonderful friend. whenever you talk to me about your friends, or like when they have issues or something, i understand that you don’t particularly like it when you’re being dragged into their situations, but at the end of the day, you are still good to them and they can still call you whenever they need anything.

 38. you are so good at keeping civil relationships with everyone, and unknowingly, you help peace prevail among your colleagues.

 39. your work ethics. ugh. [ 100 emoji ]. i don’t know why you don’t see it, but you work so hard and so well. you are so good at what you do. i am always so, so proud of you. i’m proud that between the two of us, you seem to have most of the working brain cells, hahahaha.

 40. you ARE good at math. a fucking genius. i’m SO turned on.  

 41. you are creative af. i still remember the stuff you did on canva for the newsletter. you’re so good. like damn. i could never. THAT’S MY BABY RIGHT THERE.

 42. you know so many awful things about me. you know how my dad abused me. you know how i’m not very good at certain things. you know that i’m not really someone who has a nice face, and also, i’m fat. you know that i have the tendency to commit certain mistakes. and yet you’re still here.

 43. i’m not intelligent – at all – but you always tell me that i am. i’m not creative, nor pretty, nor cute, nor anything, but you always remind me that for you, i am every good quality that i don’t think i have, and somehow, i start to learn how to own them. you boost my confidence up, baby. even when i’m a shitty painter, the way you hype me up makes me feel like i can be up van gogh’s ass.

 44. whenever you’re sad, crying, or just generally not feeling well, i have this overwhelming urge to run there and at least hold your hand or hug you. i want to protect you, in any way that i can. it’s like one of my biggest missions in life. i wanna protect you, even though you’re much braver than i am.

 45. you are easy to love. you don’t make it difficult for anyone to love you – you are just lovable as you already are, and baby, trust me when i say that i fall for you harder everyday.

 46. you always know what to tell me, to make my heart find comfort. i hope i could be the same for you.

 47. you are not afraid to stand up for yourself, and that’s so brave. if it had not been for you, i wouldn’t have learned that standing up for myself isn’t wrong. every day, you give me strength and courage to fight for myself, just like how you do. it’ll still take me a long time to figure out how to do it consistently, but being with someone as brave and strong-willed like you is such an inspirational blessing.

 48. have i mentioned how much i love your lips? and our kisses? i’m pretty sure i did but i just wanna remind you just how much i wanna kiss you again. soon.

 49. when we first started dating, i wasn’t very good at communicating – like i’m just very shit at it, i don’t reply and i don’t always say the things i want to say because i don’t know how – but from you, i learned. i appreciate how good you are in this area, and how you always do your best to check up on me, or at least update me when you are doing things. i love you. i’m so happy i have someone like you. rather than just filling in my weaknesses, you help me improve myself.

 50. you try your best to have a very objective, almost perfectly neutral approach to problems but not without using your heart. us humans are naturally emotional, and to me, having the ability to be able to solve a problem by properly investigating the logistics of it, while at the same time keeping a heart, is a superpower.

 51. you are not afraid to argue with me when you know that i’m wrong, and although i have to admit that i sometimes get scared when you’re mad at me, i appreciate that you are bringing things up for the sake of fixing things between us. i am eternally grateful that you are a kind heart, that you call me out when i am wrong not because you want to shove my mistakes to my face, but because you want us to be better. all the more reasons why i should never let you go.

 52. i know that you always got my back. when things feel like they just can’t work the way i hoped they would be, thinking about us and how the universe just allowed us to be with one another despite all the circumstances gives me so much faith.

 53. you listen very well. with you, i feel like you actually want to know about the things that i’m talking about. you always hum and nod along like “i’m listening, go on”, even when i feel like what i’m talking about is very boring or nerdy or dumb. when you do that, i feel very loved. i appreciate that so much.

 54. you listen very well pt. 2, in the sense that when you do not understand something, you ask me so i can clarify it, and in return, you carefully listen to what i have to say. you listen so you can understand. you always give me a chance to speak. i appreciate it, all of it.

 55. YOU are a star. at everything. you’re good at everything you do, you always makes things work and even when you don’t, you’re still good and like i said earlier, you always make me so so proud of you. i love you. i hope you’re proud of yourself, too.

 56. i am tough to deal with, tough to understand at times, especially when i’m sick or going through something, but i’ve never ever seen you give up on me because you were tired. thank you for being patient.

 57. you hate waiting but you do it for me. i’m sorry. i love you. i’m sorry.

 58. absolutely love your pussy. i love eating you out. your wet pussy’s just so beautiful to me. also, i love how you’d run your fingers through my hair. i can’t wait until i get to taste you again, baby.

 59.  also, can i just say that whenever i see you looking at me, my heart still stops?

 60. the way you teach me malay, and the way you laugh at me when i say things with a foreign accent. nasi lemak sambal sotong? u w u

 61. the way you SPEAK tagalog. you’re so cute. you’re like a baby. whenever i remember how you repeat “dalawa” “na lang” “mahal kita”, my heart melts. i love you. so much.

 62. it’s a small detail, but when i have issues and you’re trying to help me with it, you always ask me what you can do for me. whenever i hear it, i become much stronger because i get reminded that you’re here, with me, willing to do whatever just to keep me at ease.

 63. another small detail, but whenever i’m going through something, you always say ‘we’ or ‘us’ instead of just ‘you’ or ‘me’. “we’ll make it.” / “can we eat our dinner soon?” / “is there any way for us to deal with it?”

 64. ah,, the way you grope me unapologetically in public. especially that time you claimed me at the bus. fuck. that was so hot. do it again. (suddenly i’m thinking of making out with you in a fitting room.)

 65. also, whenever i let you watch me fuck myself on vidcall and you ask me like, “good?”, i swear to god i can cum from that alone.

 66. i love you even when you think you are not worth loving, even when you feel like such a failure as a sister to your siblings, as a daughter to your family, or even as a lover to me.

 67. i love you even when we’re not okay as a couple. even when i’m not okay as an individual. even more when you are not okay as an individual. some nights are just so bad, and i am sorry for even letting us go through such things, but even so, we get through them. that is the most important thing, right? a lot of times, giving up has crossed our minds but did we ever? no, because we are meant to be.

 68. i love you. i know you love me, too. that love just never goes away, and it is the kind of love that is always worth keeping.

69. you, my baby, deserve this entire world. you deserve the sun, the moon, and all the other stars in the sky. you deserve the entire universe and a lifetime’s worth of love. i know that it’s impossible to swim from the ocean to the sky and personally pick out the most beautiful star for you but know that i’ll dedicate my life to giving you everything else that i could.

 70. i also know that i am still imperfect and sometimes i just couldn’t deliver, but i am asking for patience because i am still learning for you. i want to be better for you.

 71. actually, the mere idea that you always make me want to be a better individual for you already makes you such a wonderful person. again, for the nth time, i am so lucky to have someone like you.

 72. i love how you touch me. i love how you love my boobs. i love how you rub your my clit. i loved how your fingers felt inside me, like fuck. it was so good.

 73. i especially love how you kiss them and run your tongue gently against my nipples until they perk up.

 74. you never failed to support me. although sometimes, you don’t necessarily agree with my methods or the decisions i make, you support me anyway – you’re still there, you never left.

 75. if you ever need a kidney, i got two.

 76. if you ever need a heart, mine is all yours.

 77. i asked the universe for happiness, you gave me so much more. you gave me peace, you gave me wonder, you gave me hope and light when it’s just pitch black. i’m too far gone, too far in love with you and your soul that i swear i’d lose everything if i lost you.

 78. you can have my everything and i don’t even have second doubts about it. i am uncertain about a shit ton of things, but i am certain that i love you, and i want to build a future with you.

 79. and this is the part where i start daydreaming about the everything we’re going to have.

 80. you and i, we will be one. we’ll be happier. we will be okay. i will be your wife, and you will be mine.

 81. we’re going to have a house of our own. not too big, and not too small – just enough for you and me to be in our own little world. can we grow houseplants? i’d love to grow my own herbs by a windowsill.

 82. i’d cook for you. maybe not everyday, because remember you’re dating a lazy ass bitch and i know sometimes we’d both come home just hungry as fuck that we’d want to just order take out, but if you ask me to, i will put on that apron and cook for you. i wanna be that nurturing housewife, you know? (of course i want some kissy kissy while i cook. may i have those too?)

 83. don’t forget the nine cats we’re gonna adopt. we’re going to love each and every one of them. they’re gonna be like our children. you are going to be such a great fur-mom to our future cats. i can’t wait to see that.

 84. i’m gonna do housekeeping. i’ll clean the toilet for us, you’ll do the dishwashing. i’ll happily fold your clothes and iron them always.

 85. we need house rules. maybe at least five. number one should be “don’t forget to kiss your wife goodbye”. if i can’t go to work with you, then you better give me that kith before you go. > : c

 86. i won’t let you get out of the house without breakfast. but if you’re running late, i’m gonna make sure you have a packed meal ready, so that you won’t be too hungry when you get to work. <3

 87. you’ll do your best at work like always. when you come home tired, or when you want to rant about your coworkers, i’ll hold your hand and kiss you while you talk, so that you can calm down. when i feel like wanting to give up, you’ll be there for me like always, and you’ll pick me up from my slump.

 88. on our off days, we’ll stay in, eat pizza and ice cream, and watch Netflix, hold hands, kiss and cuddle.

 89. ^ if you’re bored with that, we can go out and explore. you can drag my lazy ass outside, it’s fine, as long as i can get to see your pretty pretty smile.

 90. i’m gonna have my master’s degree! and be a good housewife for you. you’re going to reach everything you want to achieve, learn everything you want to learn, earn everything you want to earn, because you are my #BestAgent, #CEO, #RichMama.  we’re gonna witness everything fall into place, not only for me, but for you and all the people that we love.

 91. not all marriages are perfect… there’s gonna be yelling here and there. but we’ll get through them, just like how we get through things right now.

 92. we’ll grow together, as a couple and as individuals. i’ll learn so many things from you, and i’ll be able to share some of my knowledge with you, too.

 93. you and i will grow old. together. we’ll see each other’s hairs turn gray, we’ll lose our teeth together and laugh about each other’s wrinkles when we’re much older.

 94. (i wonder how the sex is gonna be when we reach that age. hmm. we’re gonna be so lethargic. we really need to invest on vibrators. HAHAHAHAH jks.)

 95. all of the things i listed above are the things that keep me going – the things that keep me sane. it’s you, beautiful. you keep me on my feet, you help me get back on track. but most of all, you give me hope that i will be able to spend a lifetime being happy with you. you give me hope that i deserve to be happy with the person that i love, despite my past and the issues that i carry from those scars.

 96. there are lots. there are a million other beautiful things about you and me that i failed to mention, and there will be a billion more memories to create with each other. along with those memories, i will learn a gazillion more reasons to love you.

 97. like that one 8bitfiction quote, “i forgive the world because it has you” – it’s true; the world is ugly but it’s beautiful to me. you make all the difference, baby.

 98. we will be okay. you and i will have our happily ever after, so i need you to hang on tight until we get there. me too, i’ll be here, i’ll always do my best, and i’ll always hang on tight so that we can reach our dreams together.

 99.  you’ll always have me. i’m not going anywhere.

 100.  and even before you ask in the future, for the record, yes, i will marry you.

 i love you, baby. happy valentine’s day. <3 

[exo-decokiss]

> [Papa] “That’s right, Mongmong, it’s time to start gathering offerings for Hallow. I’m sure everyone is familiar with how this works, but just in case there are some newcomers, I’ll leave this here for you.” > Chen’s Papa conjures a bright, floating orb. When you look closer, you can see a projection of the past replay itself to refresh your memory. > [Papa] “As you can see, we’re trying something a little different this year with this candy corn dome. Using the amount of candy we gathered from previous years as reference, we think that filling up this dome at the very least will be enough to summon Hallow. Obviously it’s not nearly as much as last year, but it would be ideal if we could reach that level of offerings again. Anyways, I'm not here to tell you who to give your candy to. If you wanna offer some to Hallow, though, just hand them off to either me or one of our helpers here.” > He sets Mongmong on the ground and you watch as he waddles over to the candy corn dome. Mongmong gives his candy to Miso, who then teleports it inside the dome, upon which the magic circle responds very weakly.

> [Papa] “Oh, and one more thing. If you’re planning to give any candy to certain patients in our hospital ward, just remember to be respectful, yeah? They’re still patients after all, so they may need their space.” > [Mongmong] “Ukyuu!” > Now that the demon realm has begun preparations for this year’s Hallow’s Eve, who will you give your candy to?

[edk-chatlog]

Well, I’ll thank you anyway instead! He’s not easily open towards strangers, but he won’t be hostile if you feed him. Chen actually taught me that when he first hatched. He told me Mongmong was the same way when they first met ^_^

> [Xiumin] “Is that so? Well, now that you mention it, I do remember hearing about that particular story from Prince Chen’s childhood. It’s almost hard to believe that Mongmong wasn’t practically obsessed with the Prince for a time. Perhaps the same will come of you and your tentacle monster.”> He looks down at Koko, who is still stubbornly turned away from him.> [Xiumin] “Well, as Prince Chen says, the easiest way to a tentacle monster’s heart is through its stomach.”

> [Koko] “Rrah!”> Koko peeks over his shoulder just to growl at Xiumin, then goes to hide behind your chair.

[exo-decokiss]

> [Suho] “When you sang, it was like I could suddenly remember things from when I was human, and things about you, too. Can you... tell me more about what I was like?” > [Chen] “Oh, of course! You were kinda dorky and awkward, especially when we first met. You got embarrassed easily, but I always found that cute about you, and you were also a hard worker when you put your mind to it. You had the cutest smile, too... I miss seeing it.” > [Suho] “I see... And did we... do stuff like this often?” > Suho brushes his fingers over the hickey on Chen’s neck, causing him to gasp softly. > [Chen] “Y-Yeah, we did. Despite your awkwardness, I really liked it when you took control. But you seemed to like thinking about me and Mongmong doing naughty things together, eheh.” > [Suho] “Oh, well that explains why I have those images in my head-- I mean, the human me must’ve been a weirdo, haha...”

[edk-chatlog]

Hmm... looks like I’ll have someone come to you, then! Hey Chen, so it looks like Koko isn’t as wary towards me as before, but I’m wondering if you know anything about treating injured tentacle monsters. I’ve tried my best, but it looks like he’s still in pain...

> [Chen] “Oh, hi again! Aw, your little one got hurt? I can try using healing magic on him if it’s not too serious, otherwise we might have to take him to a specialist.”> He goes with you to where Koko is.

> [Koko] “Rrr...”> Koko growls at Chen when he gets close, baring his small teeth at him.

> [Chen] “You’re a real feral one, aren’t you, little guy? My Mongmong came from the wild, too! You two might be able to get along, if you want.”> He distracts Koko by talking about Mongmong while reaching for his injured tentacle. Without directly touching it, Chen’s hand glows with magic, hovering over Koko for a few moments before pulling back.> [Chen] “There, that should close up the wound. Luckily it wasn’t too deep. How do you feel, Koko?”

> [Koko] “Rrr?”> Realizing Chen did something to him, Koko sniffs his tentacle and moves it around experimentally. After making sure his injury is gone, he quietly goes to Chen and puts his head underneath Chen’s hand.

> [Chen] “Aww, all better? That’s a good boy...”> He pets Koko a little, then nudges him off to go play with his chew toy.

[edk-chatlog]

Im so proud of you! You can do it Noeu! So amazing. Just an amazing job Noeu! I'm so proud of you. Such a good job!

> [Noeu] “Chu chu!!”> She hugs you tightly, her excitement generating even more electricity from her body.

> [Chen] “Okay, Noeu, I want you to remember what you just did and practice it until you can transfer your energy without wasting any. Then I’ll teach you how to use that energy to make objects come to life, just like Mongmong did with the spider!”> He smiles as Noeu nods in determination.

> [Mongmong] “Ukyu kyu kyu…”> Meanwhile, Mongmong controls the spider plush to sneak up behind Suho and jump on his head, causing him to cry out in surprise as he tries to grab his twelve-legged assailant.

> [Suho] “Agh!! Mongmong, get this thing off me, you little brat!”> He stands up and starts grabbing at the spider plush which keeps escaping his grasp while Mongmong cackles.

> [Chen] “You two-! How many times do I have to tell you to be nice to each other! No fighting in my room!”

> [Noeu] “Chu hu hu!”> Noeu giggles at the scene, which only encourages Mongmong and exasperates Suho and Chen.