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TRUE HAPPINESS

Throughout my life, I haven't made the best decisions. I went left instead of right when I should have stayed right and vice versa. I have hit when I should pass. I chose violence when things didn't go my way like a bratty little boy. I tried to bully when people made mistakes, and I couldn't take criticism to save my life. I felt like there was never a choice for me. I had to be this angry, disgruntled, young man and I was raised to believe that was the way it had to go. For years I believed that lie, felt sorry for myself when I caused all the havoc and chaos. Now I know better.

We tell ourselves stories to make ourselves feel better. Whether justifying terrible things we did to people, giving up on something we were working on, or procrastinating on something we need to take care, it's more comfortable to do so. We want to feel that feeling that we don't need to change. And beside do you know how much work we would have to do to change? Man forget that noise. However, I made the decision to get better, and it has been hard, hard work.

Every time I thought I was doing better, I was quickly slapped with the realization that I had more to learn. I had more layers of the onion I had to peel, and yes, they made me cry. I had a therapist who told me I needed to shed the asshole skin. I was nowhere near where I needed to be. And the thing was, when people challenged me on it, I would get really upset defensive and you guessed it, angry. I think I wanted the world to see what I was feeling and although many people said they saw changes; it wasn't everyone and deep down in my gut I knew there was still more layers to remove.

I would find myself on Facebook crying about my life and how unfair it was. One of the biggest lessons I have learned, and it's a stinger, is you are responsible for everything that happens to you. You make decisions, take risks, roll the dice if you will, and the outcome always is different. Sometimes favorable, sometimes not. However, I need to know I am the one who holds the keys. I drive the car as much as I can within reason. I blamed other people for their reactions to me, when in reality I pushed really hard. Yes, I have borderline, and that is something we do. However, that does not give me an excuse to be a shitbird.

One of the things I really have learned and honed in on is its always a good idea to think about how things affect other people. Then you ask yourself, would I like someone to do that to me. See I really didn't have the respect for myself that I should have. I would talk badly about myself, feel hopeless and depressed, and I took that out on people constantly. Even when I knew I was wrong and trying to grow. It really hurts to see what your experience has been, and how some people don't have the same experience you had.

Since my trip to Arizona, I have learned a lot about energy. How to attract good energy and how to do things differently. I faced many of my demons head on and did some amazing work. This summer I was forced to confront a lot of the stories I told myself finding out that many of them were bullshit. So, I had to do what any good yogi would do, I had to let that shit go man.

Once I did, things opened up. I realize I do have a say in what happens. I am practicing the art of response versus reaction. Noticing how I feel when I get triggered and remember it is I who assigns a trigger meaning. No one else. I am in full responsibility of what I say or do. I own all of it. The good, the bad, the ugly; all of it. I have finally come to terms with this.

The yin-yang is the merging of light and darkness. There is not one without the other, We can pride ourselves on that we do nothing wrong, but we are perfect. However, we are good if we continuously hold space for ourselves for self-love and forgiveness. Understanding practice makes progress, not perfection. Live life one breath, one moment at a time and feel everything and cherish it. And feel grateful for all of it.

And that my friends, is true happiness.

Love and namaste

M

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Faceit Premium Mission July 2024: Asiimov Assault - Overview

This month's (July) Faceit Premium mission for CS2 players is the 'Asiimov Assault'. Players can win an M4A4 | Asiimov Field-Tested after completing all challenges.

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Thursday, February 1, 2024

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Faceit Premium Mission May 2024: Quick Draw - Overview

This month's (May) Faceit Premium mission for CS2 players is the 'Quick Draw'. Players can win an AWP | Graphite Factory-New after completing all challenges.

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