#Emily liveblogs SPN

[winchesternova-k]

about under the cut

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about

call me emily, alex or cas. em, nova & castiel are also fine. 24. they/fae/ze, usually interchangeable. they/them preferred currently.

queer, autistic, adhd, mentally ill, physically disabled/chronically ill and chronic pain. i used to be a care worker. i’m also white australian, tme & perisex.

i’m a writer, artist and gaymer, a sci-fi and fantasy geek, horror connoisseur, doll collector, sword enthusiast and big emo.

i’m also a nondenominational christian, who is highly critical of the church. specifically my beliefs are closest to anglican and catholic as that’s what i was raised as, but It’s Complicated™️. i am firmly anti evangelical/pentacostal/any other fundamentalist or cult sects, and anti missionary. i am pro all other religions. antitheists are not welcome on this blog. atheists and agnostics of course are.

i tag any posts relating to my faith as ‘christian tag’ and posts about christianity generally that don’t pertain to me as ‘christianity’ for blacklisting purposes. if you have trauma surrounding christianity and would prefer not to interact, there’s no hard feelings! i wish you good health and healing :)

i post a lot about my about my special interests and hyperfixations. full disclosure that dragon age rewired my brain chemistry in 2023, so there’s probably going to be a lot of that around for the foreseeable future.

my spins include: the tribe (1999), dragon age, x-men, vampires, supernatural, batfamily, resident evil, horror in general, fashion dolls and associated media (mainly bratz & monster high), sherlock holmes (mainly the granada series & frogwares games). current hyperfixations will always be in my bio and will be edited as needed.

links

i can also be found on:

pronoun page | ao3 | twitter | pinterest | dollect

ask me for my psn & pokémon go :)

icon was made by @/hexblooded

tagging & general housekeeping

anon is currently turned off because some people don’t know how to behave. my dms are always open, and if you want to discuss something privately, you can always reach me there :)

i try to tag common triggers with ‘[trigger] cw’ or ‘[trigger] tw’ without the brackets. if i forget to tag something, pls let me know and i’ll fix it asap. MINORS PLEASE BLACK LIST ‘MINORS DNI’ AND ‘NSFW’. flashing media is tagged as ‘flashing gif’ and ‘flashing video’. i am not currently tagging any queer community related slurs and i do personally reclaim the word fag. please let me know if there’s anything you need tagged and i’ll do my best! the only thing i will not tag the word queer.

i generally tag spoilers. i usually tag for tv for up to a week after. i am currently tagging dragon age spoilers as: ‘dav spoilers’ for veilguard and current marketing. story relevant spoilers are tagged, as is anything else from behind the embargo. this does not include basic marketing. vows and vengeance is tagged ‘vows and vengeance spoilers’ and ‘dragon age spoilers’. these are tagged for 3-4 days after release, but i don’t usually make new posts after that anyway.

tags where i talk are: emily talks, alex talks, cas talks & emily liveblogs [insert media]. spn specific tags are emily liveblogs spn and emily rewatches spn. i also have a doll tag for fashion dolls, some are mine and some are other people’s.

tags where i rb things i relate to are: about me, me and same. i also have a writer tag, a fanfic writer tag, and an artist tag. i also have a separate tag for when i’m actually writing. i also make mods for the sims 4 sometimes (though i haven’t posted any yet). i sometimes post about my dog (though i mostly rb memes). my popular posts.

original characters navi etc.

i mostly post about my dragon age ocs at the moment. my general oc tag for other projects is ‘ocs’.

dragon age specific tags -

‘canon’ timeline: havella brosca (intro) / julian hawke (intro) / aelua lavellan (intro)

‘moonless’ timeline: tal’en surana (intro) / meera hawke (intro) / lunetta lavellan (intro)

‘bleak’ timeline: elyas cousland (intro) / kiernan “hawke” amell (intro) / lysk cadash (intro)

‘elfroot & blood lotus’ timeline: dallen tabris (intro) / valeria hawke (intro) / daniel felix trevelyan (intro)

proper navigational & introduction pages are under construction for all.

discourse, etc.

i’m an inclusionist of all good faith queer identities (yes, that kind too). whatever intracommunity queer discourse you’re thinking of i’m probably pro-inclusion. exclusionists are not welcome on this blog, folks who are looking for answers in good faith, or are former exclusionists are.

i’m an ‘anti’ in the sense that i believe in critical media consumption and am against child pornography. i also believe in holding bigotry, and racism in particular, to account in fandom spaces. i believe dark topics can be explored in fiction, but i also believe romantisization of incest, abuse, pedophilia, etc is Bad. ie. i don’t vibe with uncritical works or works that are straight up pro incest etc. antiantis/proshippers etc are not welcome here for this reason. and since apparently it needs to be said, i also do not believe in harassment or death threats/suicide bait etc. grow up.

dni

general dni criterias - if i catch you being bigoted in any way and you don’t attempt to better yourself after being held to account you’re getting blocked

terfs/twerfs/swerfs/radfems of any kind. this blog loves and supports trans women and sex workers. bioessentialism is bad.

exclusionists of any kind (yes, that kind too)

maps/nomaps/whatever pedophile fucks are calling themselves these day

proship/anti antis/comship/comfic/whatever y’all are calling yourselves

and on a personal note - if you were one of the people who sent death threats and suicide bait around the bbc sherlock fandom on twitter in 2019: fuck off. several people i care about nearly took their own lives because of you and i don’t want you anywhere near me. death threats etc are awful in general but this one was personal.

thanks for reading!

[fandom-hoarder]

Walker 4x11 liveblog copy/paste

Aah i just started the episode but the flashbacks at the beginning got me all 🥺🥺🥺 over hoyt and i had to explain it to my daughter because she was like, that is NOT how i want to hear somebody say marry me. And i was like lol no you don't understand

Hazy emily in braids!

Lol stella: that's just his face

AUGIE'S GRADUATION

"You're right there." And then he TOUCHES HER

Are they in the old house??

CordiEmily kiss made my heart hurt.

Lol Cordi's subconscious still making Emily so perfect she's solved everyone's problems before he even knows what they are. 'Your wife's a genius you know.' 'Yeah but, what's going on...'

Hahhh the smoothie from liam

Stella isn't talking to him?!?! He IS in the universe where they don't fuck omg

Aaaaah he's on a gurney

Godddd HOYT

HIS DAUGHTER. He has a life with sadie omg aah

AND GERI LOLOLOL

So stella the car is still hoyts

I keep thinking how this can all fit into my idea of sam living as cordi after the werewolf case 👀👀👀👀👀

Abby and hoyt

This fucking APP i have turned captions off and on twice but they still won't turn on 🙃🙃🙃🙃 i have to pause so i can finish in the kitchen

Watching again.

OKC!! LOL

Never had daughters

Not that YOU know of

"You know you don't have to be here"????

It's nice to just be together for once🥺🥺🥺🥺

WE SHOULD TALK ABOUT AFTER???

LIKE THE AFTERLIFE AFTER?? 👀👀👀👀👀👀👀

Life, death, everything in between. Lol hoyt

Your stetson friends 👀👀👀

IT MEANS HE'S IN DANGER. Y'ALL

I don't care how often he's gone AWOL before, it always means something is wrong lmfaooooo wtf y'all

It has never meant something wasn't wrong 😂😂😂😂😂😂

Motel destroyed

God cordell is so confused

All the cryptic stufffff

You're being INTERROGATED cordi

Godddd emily doing it by herself cuz Cordi's not around 👀👀👀👀👀👀

Hoyt and Cordi 🥺🥺🥺🥺

Hoyt and abby knowing what bonham said to cordell, about holding quiet. The way everyone is getting their perfect endings because it's not gonna go like that again 👀👀👀

EMILY AND AUGIE WITH THE CAMERA 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

"And Stella's you" 😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱

Always there when i need you// funny how that always just seems to happen

DENISE DAVIDSON

James "would be" proud??

Oooh jfc are these like. Hypnosis techniques to get info out of cordi 👀

"Give him a little grace" ARE THEY STILL THINKING HE'S JUST GONE OFF BY HIMSELF

Did i MISS something? I want to tear my hair out lmao but a commercial started so i can't rewind

Show’s back

“Did you think you missed it?”// “Well i missed Stella's”

Yeah i have been thinking you're gonna miss augie's too, cordi 👀

"Let him write the letter" godddd i have chills

Are you talking to me now?// Idk if i can do this 👀👀👀👀👀

Why does this look like a funeral lol

Is that Emily giving cordi and geri her blessing? 👀

"You don't HAVE to be here" 😱😱😱😱😱👀👀👀👀👀

Kelly?!

Aaah is it Larry's funeral

THE NAPKIN?????

Gahhhhhhhhh the rulesss

Oh ok....... he's just not there...

NO ONE IS

THEY'RE BURYING HIM NOW

"My father loved Shakespeare"??? I'm putting that in fic fodder

I FUCKING

I fucking KNEW IT godddddd😭😭😭😭😭

ABBY CROSSING HERSELF

Godddd😭😭😭

IS HIS SUBCONSCIOUS MAKING THIS SHAKESPEARE OR ARE THE GUYS BURYING HIM???

Hoyt and cordi 😭😭😭😭

The letterssss

In my heart this is really Hoyt's ghost

They've got an antidote ok. Do they ALL have one though?

Emily's tears 😭😭😭

"I think i ruined it"😭😭😭

The way he's too tall for the gurney lol

STOP TALKING AND FIND WALKER MY GOD

David's gonna die isn't he

Aaah haha my god of course he just got ran into by something 👀

This episode is killing me but also I AM ALIVE. THERE IS SO MUCH FODDER HERE

The spn feel is real lol

"You're here. How am i supposed to walk away from that?" Omfggggg

I just noticed he's wearing his ring 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

You're not supposed to be here, not yet// even if i want to be?

Goddd i am also fully believing this is Emily's real ghost

"Let us go" 😭😭😭😭😭😭

GET THE DIRT OUT OF HIS AIRWAY JFC

Didn't even clean a spot on his neck lmfao

DAVID IS SHOT. FUCKING KNEW IT

Godddd lunaaaa

I knew it would happen but jfccc

WHERE IS THE GUYYYYY

Omfggg i can't believe it ended like that (well i can but goddddd)

Ok I have to rewatch lol

Restarting the ep

The fading in and out of blurry emily and solid emily 👀👀

Cordi picking out what he's gonna wear to his funeral hahhh

The way they used that "the dogs'll get out" line twice I'm like 👀👀👀👀 where are the dogs irl

Bonham's daughter line has me like 👀👀👀👀 like I'm not a trans!cordell truther or anything actually but 👀👀👀👀👀 but then there's also like... he could be geri's dad instead of davidson or something lololol the way this drama goes

Please, was it a throwaway quip or did it mean something lol

Cuz it's all what Cordi's brain is doing

I can't tell if they're doing the blurry memory thing on the scene with Hoyt at the piano, or if it's just the backlighting from the window tripping my astigmatism lolol

"You were never exactly...IN it"

The way Hoyt is doing the event business with abby instead of liam and ben 👀👀👀 i guess it serves 2 purposes: bringing hoyt into the fold and also not replacing ben with uh... s1 fiance whose name i can't remember

Here we are with doubled up commercials again...febreze commercial that's ALSO a charmin commercial lolol

The little touch of Cordell's ranger bag on the luggage bench

Omg i just noticed cordell took one of the poker chips and pocketed it 👀👀

"Have i taken you for granted?" 🥺🥺🥺🥺

"Is that how you felt"

If sam and dean were sitting on that bench, their legs would be touching lol

The ranch looks so cozy godd. I want my outside to be cozy

Imagine Sam as Cordi being especially confused and off kilter in this because this isn't even his life. These aren't the faces that he should see. 👀👀👀👀

"I feel like i missed it" BECAUSE *YOU* DID 👀👀

Larry calling Cordell's obsession "going down the rabbit hole" makes me think of that post about all the brown in the ep where larry gave him the journal

Ok y'know i FELT like the beginning of the funeral scene was inside the ranger station, and now i see i was right lolol. That's the parking lot outside. That's the lobby...

Cordell not knowing if he missed Stella's graduation in this universe and still no one will answer his questions

God this is just what it feels like to be in and out of sedation godddd

"Feel like we keep talking past each other" just what sedation feels likkkkkkkke

Also gotta say how happy i am to get a "stella blue" in here

Goddd all the emily feels. "You are so brave. You are just like your dad." "I am so sick of people saying that." 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

"I'm so sick of missing you" goddddd

"Just keep breathing" hahhhhhh I'm like is it the captors giving instructions, or Emily's ghost keeping him fighting.

The way hoyt and emily are the only ones beside cordi when august starts his speech

Goddddd kale's tears 😭😭😭😭

Stella's arm on augie. God he's so tall

Liam 🥺🥺🥺 and hoyt helping him through

Stella wearing red in this group of black and emily's lightcolored dress (cuz she's the ghost)

MY STELLACORDI AMBITIONS

Have i ever told you you're my best friend -- felt like they should've kissed or something tbh lol

Also i didn't mention it earlier, but the way the chairs changed from white to black 👌

Goddd "i made promises and then i left" *looks up like he's surrendering to god tbh* show us your vulnerable neck, boy

Goddddd the way luna gets caught right after cassie DOESN'T say ilu

"You were always afraid of the quiet" "cuz i was afraid of what it meant" *opens casket like he's about to accept death*

Emily telling him to fight istg it's her ghost

Also, they brought digoxin antidote but not a shovel? Lol

CORDI'S MOUTH FULL OF DIRT 👁👄👁

The way cassie's words to luna echo Emily's to cordell, and luna dies 👀👀👀

God i can't believe I have to wait another week. There are only 2 left goddd 😭😭

[winchesternova-k]

​i’m glad rufus was mentioned bc his potential was absolutely squandered but the plot line of putting an abuser in heaven? fuck u

it makes sense to mention rufus just bc he’s bobby’s best friend and mary bc she’s dean’s mum but john shouldn’t have been in heaven and not showing cas was simply homophobia u cant change my mind

deans heaven sure is perfect and not missing anything!

[heavenlyclaire-blog]

dont do it dont do it dont you dare fucking do it

[hurricance]

I liked this episode because it didn't make me cry.

[goodnightpond]

Oh my god I feel so bad For Sam

[winchesternova-k]

hey where the fuck was cas and uriel’s reunion wasn’t that like confirmed? and the beer being el sol when el sol always means smth is wrong? and the 180 on every fucking character arc??

the writers once again prove themselves incoherent and homophobic

*WINC*ST SHIPPERS DNI*

[heavenlyclaire-blog]

so he's a timelord is that what you're telling me

[tatiana-maslany324b21]

hey im sam. were you there when this person died. tell me all about it. everything. all the details about his death i am very interested in death. no one suspects anything.

[deartvwithlove]

That's it. E.T. goes home.

Castiel doesn't even have to tell Dean he doesn't understand the reference DEAN JUST SHAKES HIS HEAD TO HIMSELF

[hurricance]

It's already almost over :(

[tenderleaftea]

Okay I think in most upset about Cas and his grace because wings and him not being able to hear Dean call for him anymore Like I just really liked those two things

[winchesternova-k]

i’ve decided that 15.20 didn’t happen.

dean, sam and jack got cas out of the empty. sam reunited w eileen. and jack went home w his dads (+ new mom) to the bunker. he can be God from there or whatever. dean told cas he loves him. they still kept the dog. they looked for his humans but miracle is a stray. everyone lives happily ever after (including that v boring ending for sam if u want but yuck personally)

see writers? it’s that easy

*WINC*ST SHIPPERS DNI*

[mournwatches]

MY MOM CALLED CROWLEY A LEPRECHAUN

[heavenlyclaire-blog]

wait one second are you telling me crowley speaks guinea pig

[tatiana-maslany324b21]

oh shit something did go wrong