#Downward Spiral

[orioncals]

[american-boyboss]

[wilberwrites]

I am making myself digestible, I am removing myself piece by piece,

I start with my eyes, i remove the spark, the fire and passion,

Then i move to the hair, i take away my expression, my creativity

Next to go is my smile, my teeth and my tounge, along with them goes my cheek and my wit,

I am trying to make myself easy to like, to be around,

I take away my heart, my soul and my sadness,

Those get escorted out by my withering happiness,

I am making myself digestible,

I am making myself a good person.

[trentreznorfanboy]

Live Reznor

[archer-angel333]

Dont forget to take your meds! ໒꒰ྀིᵔ ᵕ ᵔ ꒱ྀི১₊˚⊹♡

Also I keep changing my aesthetic so my page looks so chaotic (╥﹏╥)

[momentsbeforemass]

Worry

(for someone who’s struggling)

Trusting God is hard.

Experience teaches us that, no matter what we’re doing, the odds of it working are a lot better if we know what’s going to happen. If we know how it’s going to work.

Then we can plan. We can prepare. We can set ourselves up to succeed. Before we start.

The thing is, we don’t always have the luxury of knowing what’s going to happen, or how it’s going to work. There are a lot of situations in life where it’s just not possible. Where there are so many variables, so many unknowns, that planning can quickly turn into what-iffing.

That powerful, downward spiral of second guessing and worry.

There’s only one thing that’s more powerful that that downward spiral. God.

God isn’t like us. God isn’t limited. There is no situation in life where there are too many variables, too many unknowns for God. There has never been, and never will be, a time when God says, “wow, I didn’t see that one coming!”

God has our best interests at heart. Always.

God loves us. Too much to leave us to helpless.

Because God loves us, He gives us His peace. Through the alternative to that powerful, downward spiral of second guessing and worry.

Trust. Letting go of worry, and trusting God to guide us. Especially when we can’t see what’s coming.

But even though trusting God makes perfect sense, we struggle to let go of worry. I know I do.

There’s a reason for that. Francis Chan put it well, “Worry implies that we don’t quite trust that God is big enough, powerful enough, or loving enough to take care of what’s happening in our lives.”

I’m afraid. In my heart, I struggle to believe that God is who He says He is. So I turn to someone who has failed me time and again. Me.

Before I know it, I’m back to that powerful, downward spiral of second guessing and worry.

The only way out? By God’s grace. A grace that God will give to anyone who asks.

Today, pray for peace.

Not out there, in some troubled place somewhere. Pray for peace in that troubled place in you.

Pray for peace in your heart. Ask God for the grace to trust Him.

Because trusting God is the beginning of peace.

Today’s Readings

[spaceghostswim]

this is a personal life long project, i call it "the show". not sure if this is a movie, an album, a zine or simply a poster representing something, but it feels magical being able to actually create the ideas that bounce around in my mind.

it's 2017 again!! that being said, the show starts tomorrow.

[jasondeansgothwife]

sister @mostlytins accidentally shipped trentrick tonight incident

[thedist0rted]

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[orioncals]

[american-boyboss]

[wilberwrites]

If you could change,

Would you?

If you could change any little detail about your miniscule life,

Would you change your height, your weight or any other of those superficial things?

Or would you dig, dig really deep,

Would you crack each finger nail, and bloody your knuckles,

And dig,

Would you change the way people saw you?

Would you change your mother?

Make it so every act of love she shows you isnt backhanded and doesnt bring you down more?

Every "you will always be my daughter, and i love you"

Would you change it to

"I will always love you"

Or would you maybe scratch and scrabble and the hole youve dug,

Wanting out,

You dont want to stay the same,

But you desperately dont want to change,

Maybe the change is for the worst?

Maybe if you changed it so everyone saw you for you,

They still wouldn't like you,

Could you handle that?

No, no you dont rekon you could,

Maybe you should change it to be stronger,

To be better,

To be what you want.

[trentreznorfanboy]

photos of Trent Reznor live i love

[momentsbeforemass]

Worry

(for someone who’s struggling)

Trusting God is hard.

Experience teaches us that, no matter what we’re doing, the odds of it working are a lot better if we know what’s going to happen. If we know how it’s going to work.

Then we can plan. We can prepare. We can set ourselves up to succeed. Before we start.

The thing is, we don’t always have the luxury of knowing what’s going to happen, or how it’s going to work. There are a lot of situations in life where it’s just not possible. Where there are so many variables, so many unknowns, that planning can quickly turn into what-iffing.

That powerful, downward spiral of second guessing and worry.

There’s only one thing that’s more powerful that that downward spiral. God.

God isn’t like us. God isn’t limited. There is no situation in life where there are too many variables, too many unknowns for God. There has never been, and never will be, a time when God says, “wow, I didn’t see that one coming!”

God has our best interests at heart. Always.

God loves us. Too much to leave us to helpless.

Because God loves us, He gives us His peace. Through the alternative to that powerful, downward spiral of second guessing and worry.

Trust. Letting go of worry, and trusting God to guide us. Especially when we can’t see what’s coming.

But even though trusting God makes perfect sense, we struggle to let go of worry. I know I do.

There’s a reason for that. Francis Chan put it well, “Worry implies that we don’t quite trust that God is big enough, powerful enough, or loving enough to take care of what’s happening in our lives.”

I’m afraid. In my heart, I struggle to believe that God is who He says He is. So I turn to someone who has failed me time and again. Me.

Before I know it, I’m back to that powerful, downward spiral of second guessing and worry.

The only way out? By God’s grace. A grace that God will give to anyone who asks.

Today, pray for peace.

Not out there, in some troubled place somewhere. Pray for peace in that troubled place in you.

Pray for peace in your heart. Ask God for the grace to trust Him.

Because trusting God is the beginning of peace.

Today’s Readings

[howifeltabouthim]

I have broken every rule I ever set for myself. And now I am busy, so busy, day and night, ruining my life.

Catherine Lacey, from Biography of X

[the-fragile-joan]