#Do not do this! Holy shit! I thought this would be a funny aha post but I think it’s time fo r me to close my computer now

[jonahmagnus]

Hm!

Excited to see what I find

[theresa-of-liechtenstein]

@lavstar i was so incredibly stupid and i deleted your ask while i was drafting it… i swear i didn’t forget to do it 😭 anyway i’ve FINALLY finished it so let’s jump into the compilation of the most planes i have ever brainrot ❤️ because no ❤️ you cannot expect me to pick one ❤️ it is impossible ❤️

two airbus A320s taking off from parallel runways, five nautical miles apart ‘cause they’re not gay!

btw i genuinely do not care about military aircraft (never have, prob never will) so these are all to do with civil aviation. also huge disclaimer i did all the commentary off the top of my head (i did have to wikipedia some of the stats im not martin fucking crieff) so if i mess up a term or something that’s on me

of course no post about my favorite planes cannot leave out the OG. my first love, the most plane i have ever ridden; the one, the only, the increasingly irrelevant due to industry shifts, the beloved Airbus A380.

(L) just look at this big beautiful girl! + (R) a view of i believe scotland? as approached from the north

i don’t know why i love this plane so much, because lots of other people certainly don’t for a lot of reasons. her size makes her the main character out of necessity at every airport she comes across, and she’s an inconvenience for air traffic controllers for that reason. her origin story is [twitter stan account voice] a bit problematic. given changes in industry trends, she is also quickly becoming irrelevant. airbus my beloved please just admit that the four engines thing was nostalgia and go. she’s a marvel of engineering sure, but when all is said and done…the B747 came, she served cunt, and then she got phased out. the A380 was made with the intention of doing the same…unfortunately, she didn’t really complete the second step.

wait holy shit. i know why i love this plane so much. it’s because this plane…is me ❤️

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and now for thee og in terms of famous big-ass planes that everyone loves: the B747. everyone loves the 747. even if they say they’re not into planes, they are. for me, not gonna lie: a very big reason for why i love the Queen of the Skies so much is mark vanhoenacker’s book, skyfaring. he flew the 747 for bri’ish airways (when they still had them) and loved that plane so much and man who am i to blame him.

(L) i think i teared up when i saw her through the big windows for the first time bc i was like oh my god. i am going to be on her. this icon of aviation, the arguable symbol of commercial aviation. so much history, so much significance… + (R) the past, the present, and the future of british airways in one image 🥺

i was on a 747 twice in my life. once on a cathay pacific flight to the philippines, and on my last flight abroad, on a british airways flight to heathrow. little did i know i was flying one of the last of their 747 flights—they phased them out completely the following year, a bit earlier than anticipated due to the pandemic.

as enzo ferrari once probably said, “ask a child to draw a plane, and certainly he will put a hump and four engines on it.” in terms of sheer iconic power and energy, the Queen (and she is the only earthly being to whom I shall ever refer as such) would far and away be the top on anyone’s list, save for the fact that i don’t have a top to this list and i have other planes to get to dear god this is getting long do you know what you’ve got yourself into!! the Queen really said “flight belongs to the people now” and the airlines just had to shut up and listen!! she is truly the main character!!!

genuinely don’t remember what river this is except that it’s in the UK… 🙈

i feel like everything else i say about her is just going to be a pale imitation of how evocative skyfaring was, so honestly i really recommend the book it’s so good and it’s one of my favorites. my copy is sort of falling apart now bc i kept bringing it around to places 😭 anyway, the number of airlines using her for passengers is decreasing, but you know who still use converted versions of her as well as purpose-built models? cargo airlines! anyway, ups and their brown planes my beloved 🤎

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this slot was going to go to the B767 and 757, and i was going to rhapsodize about how aesthetically the 767 looks like a nicer plane to me because of Chonk, but the 757 is really endearing because it’s a narrowbody jet and it’s got landing gear that is long in a useful but unusual-looking way, which in essence what i’m trying to say is that if the 757 were a person, it would be esteban ocon.

so i was getting ready to write all of this down in much more words than i needed, but i remembered suddenly the very reason i was making this post in the first place. and that, my friends, is the B777.

honestly you don’t fully understand how big the 777 is until you see it in person. because we are all acclimated to think of like the 747 when we think of ‘big plane.’ but the 777 is massive. even i forgot about it when i wrote That Fanfic.

the 777 and 787 are the future of long-haul commercial aviation (and i say this as an A380 stannie). widebody jets with 2 big-ass engines are most likely what we’re going to see in the sky going forward when it comes to long-distance travel, and the pandemic pretty much confirmed that.

that aside, i love the 777. so much that i wrote a whole fanfic around one making an emergency landing ❤️ i really pretended ETOPS (the thing where a plane can fly for a long time on one engine) did not exist for six chapters and an alternate ending and i think that’s just very quirky of me aha 🤪

dear god do not mind my hat i literally bought it because of fred fucking thursday of endeavour… what the FUCK was teenage me on 😭

the 777 was supposed to be a trijet (one with three engines, two under each wing and one built into the vertical stabilizer) but as the mcdonnell douglas and lockheed martin trijets (cba to look up the numbers) were not projected to continue to be successful, they got rid of the trijet 777 idea and instead made it have two engines. another thing i think is neat is that all the examples of the 777 that you will see in the wild right now don’t have winglets bc the wings themselves are so long and raked back that they’re not necessary. which would be a weird thing for me in particular to find neat, because if you know me well you know i have a thing for winglets. (the 2022 f1 car’s front wing my BELOVED WAKSKDKSJSJ!!!!!) i also think the way the wingtip lights are incorporated into the wings are so neat. the upgraded version they’re trying to make now, the 777X, will have foldy wingtips so you can DIY your own winglets and i think that’s hilarious (and also cool).

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genuinely i think i’m the only plane person that likes this last aircraft: the Embraer ERJ-175. i like her for purely nostalgic reasons. she reminds me of how i returned to my roots and decided to pursue engineering.

so okay this is going to have nothing to do with the plane, but i was lucky enough to be given a visit to the flightdeck after landing back home from a weekend trip. i was so excited to be allowed to sit in the first officer’s seat, and got to poke around the flightdeck for like ten minutes. which was cool, but all this was with the sinking realization that even operating a regional jet might be too physically demanding (read: unsafe) for someone of my… [exhales knowing EXACTLY what i’m about to walk into] height.

that is one fully glass cockpit. also those yokes are specific to embraer, boeing’s look more like f1 steering wheels with stuff cut out of them i think, and airbus’s are operated by side stick. it’s almost funny especially when watching flightdeck videos of the a380 cause it’s like… you’re doing All That *gestures vaguely at plane* with THAT *gestures at thing that looks like a chicken drumstick with semiconductors implanted in it*

so that was piloting as a career done with for me (much to my family’s relief.) and then i thought “hm i don’t have to be flying planes all the time to be working around them…why don’t i work on developing them instead?” and i was passively interested in matsci already, so that’s how and when i decided to pursue engineering, with hopes of working for airbus or boeing and in civil aviation.

we’ll see how that pans out, i say as i side-eye the exponential growth of my interest in motorsport.

thanks for the ask! i’m so sorry i was stupid and deleted it but i hope you like this very long, drawn out, and frankly deranged response 💚

[jrwiyuri]

hello i saw your tags on my post and i'm new to jrwi as a whole, i'm only on ep 16 for riptide but i am begging you to infodump to me about riptide tell me everything you've got ping me talk to me who's your favorite character

aHSKjd Okay so honestly I don’t even have a favorite?!!

Like I’ve tried to think about one but I love them all so much equally and they’re so great!!

Chip is such a god damn bastard but I love him so god damn much (he is trans. I know this for sure 100% it’s real Bizly literally told me <3)

He’s so loyal and kind and loving and omg;; his relationship with Ollie?? Fucking lvoe rhat holt shit catch me crying I love the fact he loves kids man ajfkajfksbf

I just rlly like his personality and I also think his morals are a bit interesting. From what I can tell he is very loyal to friends, strangers are a no go and he’s willing to put them in danger over his fitness & himself, and he has a strict no kill rule even with villains (for the most part anyway,)

Plus his entire thing with Arlin? Love that- <3

Gillion is very interesting and I’m so invested into him! Like besides his whole being clueless about the over seas, his entire moral guidelines are very strict and can put the crew into a lot of situations. (But he’s also very self sacrificing so like aha holy shit don’t die 👉👈)

I want to see what happens if a situation presents him with two choices that both seem morally wrong to him and whats he do. I’m just intrigued on his moral guidelines in general

I’m ALSO intrigued on his prophecy and in general culture and I wonder if that’s going to also cause conflict and if he maybe eventually with defy his people / prophecy? Perhaps he feels / realizes that maybe the prophecy is actually shading his moral beliefs or maybe it’s something else Idk!! I have no damn clue but it’s exiting!!!

Also his entire deal with the Dream guy? So god damn scared!!!! (If I had a nickel for every time a dnd character played by Charlie slimecicle made a possibly reckless and not well thought out deal with a more powerful entity & gained a symbol on their body I’d have TWO nickels which isn’t a lot but it’s weird that it happens twice and based upon the first nickel I’m very scared <3)

But like I do also really like goofy Gill. No serious moral dilemmas, no trying to kill ur friends for honor, just him being him- even if he’s fuckin clueless ^^; (also he’s pangender and Pansexual. It’s real I swear charlie slimecicle sent me a dm I have proof )

And jay!!! The one brain cell (and cannon bisexual?? Fucking hell yea! Also she uses she/he/they pronouns because I condi literally told me on a phone call I had with him it’s totally real I swear)

I feel like I don’t have much to say about jay and I feel very bad but like I’m super interested into her backstory and overall goals more!!!

Her past with with navy is very interesting with the navy and shit?? Like that’s so cool and please tell me more Jay!! You want to open up to ur possible probably trauma and dealings so bad ooOk

She’s is very much a middle child out of the group both literally and physically.

Her dynamic with chip is fantastic and I hope one day she bears the shit out of him just for fun (I mean, Gill already got to- its jays turn now! /hj)

Some other people I’m very excited for are the Lizzie girl who is like the biggest pirate?? I find it very funny that chip is jealous of her but I also just would really like to know more about her 👀👀

And like I already said I want to go more into each of their backstories (well I guess not chips since we know his backstory) & also just to see what the future holds!! Especially with jay since out of the three we know the least about her and what her biggest goal would be (chips is obviously to find the black rose & we can assume gillions is for him to fufill his prophecy)

I think I just- I am excited for the world building snd what other cool secret shit is to come from all of this! I want to know how deep this shit goes and if things like the navy, the thing with the black rose, and gills prophecy could be connected OR clashing in some way?!! (And maybe Lizzie? OH and of course mr Dream daddy- I’m so damn afraid for him)

[hongnanglen-arina]

See You On Monday | SVT Interactive AU

01: Aren’t ghosts always mean?

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Warnings: none Words: 1.611 A/N: Hey there! Here’s the first chapter of my little experiment. At the end of each chapter you have to decide for the next move (please leave a comment on the chapter’s post to vote) On November 10th the first ‘voting’ will be closed. Based on the result, chapter 2 will be posted on November 15th. After that, each week you have 3 days for making a decision until the next chapter comes out on Sunday. I hope you will like it… and as always, please remember that English isn’t my first language so excuse my grammar ♡

I may make a taglist :) tell me if you’re interested to be added

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“Who are you?”

Your eyes slowly adjust to the bright room, finally finding the owner of the new voice.

“I asked you who you are!”

His loud voice echoes through the room and you flinch. Trying to form an answer. This was a game. So no need to be scared y/n! But what was your characters name again? What role do you have to play? You curse under your breath. Some more research about the game would have been better than just hopping straight in.

“I-I….. I’m…” You stammer as he suddenly rushes in your direction, causing you to shriek in confusion, crossing your arms in front of your chest almost instantly.

That’s when he runs through you and you inhale sharply, your eyes growing wide. What? You turn around to see a person jumping out of the window, the boy following him but stopping in front of it. “Fuck… what the hell??” He brushes his fingers through his hair and stomp on the floor.

You look at him all confused. Are you a ghost? He clearly ran through you. Does that mean his question was towards that intruder? Taking a better look at him, you suddenly recognize him from the game cover. His turquoise-greenish hoodie looked so nice and soft and was a nice contrast to the other boy’s clothes.

“Jeonghan! We heard you scream! What’s wrong??”

Your head turns to the door where 3 other boys appear, seemingly out of breath. They make their way over to the other but before they walk through you again, you quickly get up and stand with your back against the wall, watching the people gather in the room.

“Cheol, I told you there was something off! And I was right! There was a weird guy dressed in all black going through our stuff! He probably took some things with him!”

“Damn… we should check our belongings. Jun, tell the others so that they can go to their rooms and hopefully everything’s still there. Vernon, let’s check if he took something from us.” Jeonghan is still in front of the window, looking outside, lost in thoughts when the boy with wavy hair joins him, placing a hand on his shoulder. “You okay?” The other boy sighs. “Yeah..”

Without a word, you watch how the two at the window join the other with the cap, going through their bags and the things that are scattered all over the place. While they are stepping over the futons, you are unable to move away from your spot. They don’t see you. They didn’t hear you.

“Hello?” You try again.

No reaction.

“Seems like I’m okay. Gonna check on the others.”

“Okay Vernon. We’ll come too…. in a bit.” With that said, one of them leaves the room and you give Jeonghan and Cheol a quick look before following Vernon. Carefully walking behind him, you study your surroundings. “This looks like some kind of guesthouse… maybe one near the beach?” 

You enter a room and see Vernon sit down next to someone who was wiping his tears, patting his back.

“He got Seungkwan’s wallet.”

“Shit.”

“Besides that, our room is fine though.” A smaller boy announced and Vernon gives him a nod.  

Someone with very sharp features enters the room. Another new face. “My room is okay. What about you?”

“My photos! My credit cards! My money! Also my cards from the coffee shops! They were already full!” The boy beside Vernon whines and Vernon continues patting his back but looks at the other and mouths ‘wallet’. The boy in the door makes “Ohh” and leaves the room after looking around the room and for a second you think he saw you.

“What… am I supposed to do here?” You ask yourself out loud and the boy in the door stops in his tracks, turning around. 

“Did you say something?”

The boys all look up confused and shake their heads. “No… why, Wonwoo?”

Wonwoo cocks his head to the side. “Just….” But then he shrugs after a while and leaves.

You catch yourself covering your mouth, carefully looking at the three boys on the floor. So it was possible for them to hear you? Maybe your mission was to catch the thief? Recalling the words from the mysterious voice, you let them circle in your mind. I have to… join the group… as a ghost I suppose… and what? Make it out alive? You can’t suppress the laughter but quickly cover your mouth again, making sure they didn’t hear you.

How am I supposed to ‘make it out alive’ when I’m here as a freaking ghost? What a stupid game.

Suddenly loud voices can be heard from the floor below you, causing everyone to stand up and leave the room in a hurry. You follow them without saying anything, scared of being caught although you aren’t sure whether they should know that you’re there or not.

Finally down in the living room, you see 4 boys discussing loudly, maybe even arguing. 

“Dino, think again!”

“We locked the door twice, I’m super positive!”

“Maybe he came through a window?”

“But we made sure they were all closed except the ones in the living room and we were there so how, Joshua?”

“We just arrived, guys. Maybe there are rooms we haven’t seen yet?”

“We are 13. And we arrived like 4 hours ago. That can’t be.”

“But we’re all hella tired, Hoshi, so I’m sure we haven’t explored the whole place yet.”

“Again, we are 13! No way a stranger can enter without us noticing it!”

“Seokmin, Dino, Joshua, Hoshi, enough!” All heads turn to the voice. It’s Jeonghan and Cheol.

“Seungcheol is right. You should stop yelling. All we can do now is to see what we’ve lost and what we can do about it. What does it help to find the person who forgot to lock the door or whatnot? The things are still gone.”

Oh his full name was Seungcheol. You make a mental note. “I’m with Jeonghan. Have you already checked your belongings if there’s something missing?” Seungcheol asks and the one from before starts. “My wallet. Gone. Poof!” “Okay Seungkwan, that’s not good… anything else?” “My camera.” 4 more boys enter the living room and you can’t help yourself but to count.

Aha! 13! Okay these are the boys from the cover!

Following their conversation a little halfheartedly, you study your surroundings again for a moment. Even in the living room, some things were all over the place. Some pillows, some jackets… you see a picture of a beautiful pastel colored painting laying on the ground. Slowly making your way to it, you hear the boys still talking. 

Picking up the painting, you look around to find the spot where it belonged to. 

“Oh there!” Standing on your tiptoes, you hang it on a little nail in the wall, stepping back a bit to see if it’s okay but then adjust it a little bit until it was perfect.

It was strangely quiet in the room. You blink and turn around to the boys, just to see them all staring at you with shocked and confused expressions. Oops…

“Okay y’all.. u-uhm I can explain… Well, I’m playing a game. Not sure if I can say that but-“

“JESUS DID YOU SEE THAT!? THAT PAINTING MOVED ON ITS OWN!!”

“Am I dreaming???”

“That’s definitely not a dream.”

“It moved… not the other way round! It didn’t fall down though!”

You stand there, mouth open but nothing coming out while you are still holding your hands as if you are going to explain the situation. Telling them that you are all in a Play Station game and you are the holy ghost who has to help them somehow. Ridiculous.

A very skinny boy walks over to you, super brave. Not like the others who are going wild on the other side. You watch the boy inspect your spot and also the painting on the wall, making ‘mmh’ and ‘ahh’ noises from time to time. He stands really close to you and you feel the urge to try and touch his arm when he turns around to state “There’s nothing here. If anything, a ghost.”

One of the taller boys choked at his words. “G-ghost…. ?? A real ghost… y-yah Minghao… no funny. Nope.”

“That’s the only logical explanation, Seokmin. I think Hao is right.” Wonwoo says.

You swallow hard. Is it a good thing to show yourself just half an hour into the game or so? Or does that mean game over? Cursing at yourself for not making any research before starting the game, you yeah the youngest looking one whisper “It just happened….. m-maybe it’s still here? I…. heard about people asking them to move something to show their presence…. like in movies….”

“We could try it.”

“H-hey.. what Dino just said… you don’t wanna-“

“It literally just hung a painting back on its nail. What mean ghost does that??”

“A… not mean ghost?”

“Exactly!”

“Aren’t ghosts always mean?”

“Says who?”

“Guys! Stop…..” Seungcheol rubs his temples when Jun grabs a glass of water from the coffee table, walking over to a closet and placing it on it before joining the boys again. Minghao is back besides them as well.

You stand next to the painting, looking back and forth from the boys and the closet.

“So if you’re there. Show yourself by moving the glass.” Vernon says into the room which is awfully quiet. Everyone looking around, waiting for an answer.

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What are you going to do?

Give them a sign by lifting the glass OR stay where you are without giving a sign?

You can decide.

[letterstothemidnightsociety]

And I’m back from my midseason finale, continuing my journey to decipher how and why a show about two sexy brothers who hunt ghosts aired on television for over a decade. It’s Supernatural! 

Back in 2009, when I rushed head long from “Salvation”/”Devil’s Trap straight into “In My Time of Dying” (Kripke, you’re being a real bitch with these titles), I was not the TV connoisseur who writes tumblr posts about ancient shows that you read before you. The cliffhanger at the end of “Devil’s Trap” is good enough that it didn’t matter that I’d just crossed the threshold from the first season into the second season. What mattered was that Dean was dying in the back seat and holy shiz, they crushed the Impala?? So I popped out one DVD disc and happily plugged in the next without stopping to think what a new season might mean.

Of course, I knew second seasons were precious. You watch Firefly ONCE and you know the fear of a Show Cancelled Too Soon. Supernatural, apparently, was on the edge of cancellation after season 1, but it’s renewal coincided with the birth of the brand new CW, a network built from the ashes of The WB and UPN respectively, that was in need of nightly programming to fill up the air. So Supernatural was saved (aha) from the Cancellation Bear and remained in it’s (primo) Thursday night time slot, 9pm warning label in-tact. 

What do we say to the Cancellation Bear? Not Today!

That’s not to diminish the importance of it’s renewal for season 2! Depending on what network or cable channel (or year), only something like 20 - 30% of freshman shows get renewed for a season 2. To be fair, if every show that aired in the fall got renewed in the spring, there’d be no time slots left for new freshman shows the following fall, so something’s gotta give. SPN getting a season 2, even if the odds were a little more in their favor than they might want you to think, is still pretty miraculous, especially for 2006. Remember, this is pre-streaming services acquiring original content. In 2006, Netflix was a rental service that focused on mailing you DVDs. Via the U.S. Postal Service. And they wouldn’t officially start acquiring distribution licenses for broadcast shows (let alone their own content) until 2007 - two years after SPN started airing. In the early 2000′s, there were fewer opportunities for television shows to make it in front of an audience because there were fewer options for watching television. I’ll say it a hundred times - Supernatural is a DINOSAUR. 

So what do you do when you’re gripped tight and raised from cancellation after your first season? Well if your Supernatural, you start off with one helluva bang.

Maybe more of a wallop. 

As should be obvious by now, I watch a lot of supernatural and Supernatural-Adjacent television. I love a Season One, but very often those shows start to go downhill in Season 2. Why? For the simple fact that your characters are too good now. They’re too powerful. They’ll never be as vulnerable as they were in season 1, and if there’s no vulnerability, there’s less concern about their survivability. I’m not as invested in these characters because I’m not worried about them anymore. There’s not tension of will they/won’t they - you know they will, in the end, overcome. Of course, the solution to this conundrum is to level your villains up alongside your heroes. The trouble with that strategy is you end up with ludicrously, laughably super strong villains that lose their grounding in reality. This is a problem I foresee for SPN post season 5, but I haven’t gotten there yet, so I’ll leave that alone for right now.

So for me, what Supernatural does at the start of season 2 is genius. Think about the end of season 1 - our boys lose. They straight up failed. They had one goal - kill the demon that killed their women mom/wife and girlfriend - and they did not even remotely do that. They’re beaten, they’re bloody and now, just when we think they can’t lose any more, they lose some more. 

I’m gonna be real honest here, this was a real turn on for me Sammy.

First it’s Baby. For two boys who hop from cheap motel to cheap motel, I think it’s safe to say that the Impala is basically their home. They lose the fight and then they lose their home. That’s rough.

Also, Bobby, I love you, but WHAT DO YOU MEAN IT’S SCRAP?!?!

Next, they almost lose Dean. Dean is the only thing that’s keeping this family together and he is donezo. He’s so gone, a Reaper is concocting an elaborate hallucination to get him to come to terms with his imminent demise. Which honestly, is a very nice thing for this Reaper to do, but also bb, don’t you do it!

You gotta hand it to this Reaper, she really knew allll the right buttons to push.

Next, we lose the Colt. They have one (1) weapon to use against the Yellow-Eyed-Demon and John gives it away. Is he also finally acknowledging that his children require his love and care? Yes. Is this the shittiest decision he’s ever made, even if it is to save the life of his firstborn? ALSO YES.

Pretty damn stupid, JOHN.

And finally, in the last 5 minutes of the episode, we lose John Winchester himself. And this bitch ain’t coming back. He’s gone. He’s gone for good. Sam and Dean spent months searching for their father, building up this legend of a man, and we as an audience spent months right along with them, only to watch him die in the first episode of season 2! Sam and Dean don’t start out season 2 back at square one, they’re back at square -10. Sure they know who the bad guy is now, but they don’t know how to find him, don’t know how to kill him, and the only person who did know can’t help them anymore! And to top it all off, they don’t even have a ride back from the hospital!

JK, we all know Bobby came and picked them up and took him back to his place, he’s the Real Hero of this show. 

Also, I’m getting ahead of myself here but I’m on a roll - John’s last words to Dean are basically a threat that oh yeah, you have one more thing that this war on hell will steal from you. If you can’t save your brother, you’ll have to kill him. Sure John. Sure. Dean’s definitely gonna do that, John, you bitch.

And they don’t just write this loss off. Over the next three episodes we see how deep this failure goes. Sure, our guys are still out there, doing their thing, killing evil sonsabitches, but damn they are torn up and they are not handling it well. 

Listen, I don’t know what your viewing experience is like, but the recaps on my dvd play this scene every episode for the next, like, five episodes. 

“Everybody Loves a Clown” is a very clear attempt to get back to normal. So clear that they even say it in the episode somewhere, but they have a lot of climbing to do before they get anywhere near normal. They’re driving around in a minivan, they’re taking cases from strangers, they’re living as carnies - their whole world is upside down.

We get another low blow in “Bloodlust.” Dean learns that a) no one can replace his father and b) that Monster doesn’t necessarily mean Evil. So at the end of the episode, when he asks Sam, “What if we killed things that didn’t deserve killing,” you feel it like a gut punch. Dean doesn’t even get to keep his own faith that he’s doing the right thing anymore.

Hey buddy. While you’re down on the ground, we thought we’d kick ya a little bit, OK?

And then we round that out with “Children Shouldn’t Play with Dead Things,” a nice zombie episode that is definitely not about the zombies. Sam and Dean are still grieving the death of their father in a very real way and I actually think Sam’s idea to visit their mom’s grave is really nice. He obviously took several psych courses and is handling grief in a much healthier, mature way than Dean. That being said, when he starts to go all Psych Major on Dean, even I want to slap him in the face. And then that whole attitude really bites him in the ass when Dean finally does open up and he realizes he’s not qualified to therapize this shit.

Oh no, it OK, don’t be cry!

See, we as the audience know that John Winchester traded his own soul to save Dean’s life, but Dean was in a coma with a Reaper, so there’s no way to know what Dean knows. But that bitch is astute and he figures it out. The Colt gone, their dad gone, and that horrible wrong sensation when he woke up in the hospital all point to the fact that John’s final gift to his son was the crushing weight of guilt. Dean knows that John should be here with Sam, would be here with Sam, if it wasn’t for Dean. And since a demon was involved, Dean probably suspects where John is right now. And that is something that he is just gonna have to carry for the rest of forever. I mean, I love Dean and I’m glad he’s still here, but that’s a real dick move John. 

John Winchester. Ruining Lives from Before and Beyond the Grave. 

Notice the change in this season - with the exception of the Yellow Eyed Demon, these first few episodes are not about the monster. These are Feelings Episodes, ooey gooey Feelings Episodes, that just use the monster-of-the-week to get characters to deal with their inner traumas. This is SPN saying they’re not gonna stay on the surface of this show, they’re gonna dig deep and focus on Character Substance over the Horror FX Style. And in season 2, that still feels fun! As an audience member plowing through these episodes, I was thrilled that this was the direction the show was taking. I was also thrilled that all these episode end with Dean staring dramatically into the middle distance, just some A+ cinematography there gentlemen, great job. 

In order, Ep 201, 202, 203, 204. I was not kidding. 

I’m also noticing, having written all this down, that these are some very Dean-centric episodes. Like, it’s very heavy on the Dean. Which I’m not mad about, but I just think it’s real funny considering that Sam was definitely our lead protagonist/entry point into season 1.

Now though? This is honestly my biggest fear as I continue my quest to make it through the entire series. I know how it ends. I have a tumblr account and sometimes I like spoilers to prep me for what’s coming, so I know how this all shakes out. And I think the reason that I sort of gave up on the series was because at some point, these Feelings episodes get too heavy. If all your characters are always bogged down by grief and guilt and loss, at some point that’s not enjoyable to watch anymore. You’ve gotta give them a win at some point. A real win that doesn’t come with caveats like Dean sold his soul to the devil, or, Sam’s locked in a cage with the devil, or really anything involving the devil at all. 

So while I’m enjoying season 2 still, I am worried that my enjoyment level is gonna sink as the series goes on. But that’s still a ways down the road, so in the meantime, have more of Dean staring dramatically into the middle distance.

[onepunchmiss]

OPM s2e10 Live Blog

“Justice Under Siege”

ALRIGHT so despite the fact that it is the 1 week anniversary of my death, OPM has forcefully wrenched me from the underworld to come continue with the season. So here I am and I’ve already posted my guess for what this episode will entail so lets see how well I handle it! (see: how much I scream) As always, I’m watching as someone who is up to date on both the Manga and webcomic

ASDFGHJKL I OPENED OPM ON HULU AND IT IMMEDIATELY PICKED UP WHERE I LEFT OFF AT REWATCHING THE ZOMBIEMAN BIT HOW DARE I WAS NOT READY

lets try that again ok

AHA YES OMG we’re starting with this!! I was totally expecting to pick up exactly where we left off, with Destrochloridium at the HA but OK throw me for a loop! Mix it up! “ORA ORA ORA ORA” I love Saitamas VA, I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again I laffff oh my god it keeps going in the background as Kind talks I can’t

This is the scariest Saitama face I have ever witnessed wtf??? Why does it look so creepy?? Also, they added quite a bit to this scene huh? I guess They have to amp up the jokes since shit is getting pretty serious otherwise at this point in the series. OH SHIT THE DING ‘NO OTHER WORDS CAME TO MIND” OK Excellently done that got me I cackled fffffffffffffffff

OH MY GOD KING THAT SICK BURN?!?! I dont remember that I guess they’re really making it a point to be like ‘HEY LOOK THIS IS GONNA BE USED!!! IT EXISTS!!!’ but like I dont care cause it was worth it for the joke hhhhhhhhhhhJUST

Yanno, I just realised I think I know where every sing scene in the whole opening comes from down to the omake. Also just realised we are definitely getting Genos/Bang/Bomb vs Centipede cause that joint attack Bang and Bomb use is in the opening. Huh why did that only just now click anD OH MY GOD BB GENOS IM DYING NO

Ok now we’re where we left off and oh dear god I HATE that squish noise please stop no OK Gyoro’s weird Eye twitch was a cool touch. Oh wait Narinki is the highest ranking executive now? I thought he was just the top donor of funds or something? eh anyway- lol wow Gyoro puts on a convincing sob story voice this is so funny?? Cause its Complete BS and I wonder what my reaction would be if I didn’t already know that AHH OK BUT THAT ‘HEHIHIHIHIHI’ LAUGH THO OMG SO GOOD

WHEW ok but seriously just the MENTION of assembling all the heroes is raising my blood pressure asdfghjkl if I may have one thing in life PLEASE LET IT BE A THIRD SEASON PLEASE IM BE G G IN G

AHH YESSS!!!! YYYEEESSSS!!!!! DARKSHINE MY DUDE MAN BRO GUY YESSSS!!!!!!! I LOVE!!!!!!! I JUST!!!!!! HAVE A SOFT SPOT FOR THE OTHERWISE NORMAL GUYS WITH OBSCENE MUSCLES LIKE DARKSHINE AND TTM!!!! AHHHHHH!!!!!!!

ASDFGHHJKL Did Destrochloridium just shout Itadakimasu?? HULU y u no translate that??? DOI as he gets smooshed pfffffftttttttttttt omg the sound pls ohmigod everyone knows steel is no match for a hardened body i just fukken HEKK I love this show so much pls he sounds so concerned that destro DIDNT know that

“Better step up” OH MY GOD YES DO THE THING

OK WAIT This is actually badass and not just a joke?? Darkshine, er, Blackluster(??) stop u r 2 good I cant handle it rn

oooohhhhHH OH OH OH OH PLS SHOW EVERYONE I WANT PLS THE MONSTER ASSOCIATION!!! PLS!! SHOW ME WIFE?? CADRES?? PLZ?? yo total side note but I LOVE Murata’s monster designs?? Every time I reread opm I just oogle at a new one I never noticed before they’re all so unique and good. Also At least 3 of them in this sequence look like pokemon i swear- lol the silence no applause, if that was a joke in the manga i totally missed it uuuuwaAAAAAAAAAAA SCREAMING SCREAMING I AM SCREAM CADRE YES YES ASDFGHJKL ARE YALL READY TO SEE T H  A T FACE FOR THE REST OF THE SERIES THUS FAR???? HUH????

ew oh wait I actually feel bad for Awakened Cockroach, and he twitches after getting eaten oh noooooonono ew oh no dude im sorry no AAAAAAAAA WIFE HELLO oh their voices are so sad when they’re terrified for their lives I dont like it :[ ITS OK UR SAFE 4 NOW ILY PLZ BE CAREFUL AND STAY AWAY FROM PRETTY MEN 

YES THIS EPISODE IS GIVING ME EVERYTHING IVE  WANTED SO FAR THANK YOU SO MUCH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH LOOOOOOOK AAT THEMMMMMM

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMY TRASH SON I HAVE MISSED YOU OH NO MY EYES THERES WATER IN MY EYES HELP ILY

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMYCYBORG SON MY HEART I WEAK GENOS BB PLS BE CAREFUL ILY TOO hey heres a WACKY  and TOTALLY LoOnEy IdEa, what if,,,,,,,,,,,,,,WHAT-IFF,,,,,,,,,,, everyone was HAPPY???? Crazy I knowww I just want the best for my sons and babies and children boys wives daughters loves and husband, is it so much to ask???

Oh my god he looks so Sad here please no Genos everything will be ok please don’t be reckless do not be reckless listen to Dr. Kuseno you fool 

[SCREAMING] ASDFGGHJKL LOOKIT HIM EATING OH MY GOD MY BOY MY DELINQUENT SON GET BETTER SOON oh my god i started out fine this episode but its KILLING ME there are TOO MANY PEOPLE AT ONCE i CANNOT BREATH

CHILD EMPEROR MY SON I LOVE YOU TOO BOFOI UR AN ASS oh my god please can you even TRY to be a good mentor for the kid???? Thats it Zombieman adopt him pls remove shitty Bofoi influence replace with Best dad man influence. ANYWAY ok that was a tangent huh oops sorry. Ok but look at him. Child Emperor is genuinely adorable and a sweetheart poor kid don’t lose your faith in adults.

Uh, the episode is running late still not to Garou yet either?? hmmmmmmmmm again I’m getting nervous are they gonna rush it?? lol the saitama throwaway OH OH FINALLY OMG MY HEART ISNT READY MY FAVORITE GAROU IN THE WHOLE SERIES OH MY GOD

im… im screaming… i love these two so much it hurts it does really. I was not prepared for how adorable it was possible to make Tareo either can I hug?? I must hugg?? And Garou’s voice is so calming and he’s being so sweet? I was really expecting to sound more… i dont know, whiney? Every time he shows up on the screen I love him more and more ffs

This is such a good shot. Desktop wallpaper material right here.

Oh my god, this moment. And the music is just yanking my heart strings stop.

Oh yeah, they interrupt right. I like these heroes and all, but none of them are particular faves the fact that I think SO MANY OTHER FAVES were are RIGHT before them this ep just kinda overshadows their existence for me. I think this is the ONLY time in the series where Garou goes up against heroes and i cheer for him 110%, don’t even feel a little bad about who he’s beating the shit out of, and that’s kinda messed up of me but thats how impartial I am towards all these guys?

Back to Garou and I love him. hhhhh.

He smak the table

He laughs. Oh no his laugh. OPM forcefully dislocated me from the underworld to watch this episode and has thusly YEETED ME TO HEAVEN THAT LAUGH. I really need Garou to be happy.

Do you see this man? Do you see him? I do and I’m crying thank you

Omg I got really caught up it watching them talk but the sparkles around death gatling whe Tareo was looking at them snapped me out of it. oi I cant handle this. Garou I want you to know that you have successfully turned the bad guy into the one everyone wants to win. You did it boy you did

WOAHMYGOD THIS IS BEAUTIFUL

OH MY GOD AND THE MUSIC IM SCREAMING

GAROU

YOU

ARE  

AMAZING SON

like I know how this goes but I’m so anxious anyway the hhhhhhhhhhhhh the fight choreography is a little clunky but I don’t care OH ok cool Glasses actually kept his little spotlight nice but Garou GAROU PLS B CAREFUL OK except WHAT THE FUCK IS HIS MOUTH DOING THAT LOOKS SO STUPID WHAT THE HELL?? HOLY SHIT IM GETTING DIZZY STOP wh- wh- wait no. NO IM NOT DONE WITH YOU YET COME BACK PLEASE I NEED MORE WAIT NO UHG this is my reaction at the end of every episode when will I learn?????????????? never. The answer is never.

NO POST CREDITS STINGER and AS MUCH AS I LOVE GENOS’S FACE I already knew he would be in the episode next week. Yall I am so lost as to where the final episode will land. WTF.

This ep was a roller coaster oh my god. Non stop plot not that the tournament is done, and we saw like EVERY CHARACTER my feeble heart could not keep up. The ONLY thing that bothered me was part of the fight sequence at the end, like it was half drawn beautifully half animated so stiff and blocky ??? Threw me for a loop. But next week is only gonna get more intense??? I’m gonna guess we’ll get through the Elder Centipede fight??? But then what does that mean for the last episode??? I am full of SO MANY QUESTIONS??? I really don’t want the season to end yet, 12 eps is not enough. There’s only 2 more. Just. I’m not ready to let go of my bbs it feels like I only JUST got them… Well! Before I devolve into more of a blubbering mess, thanks yall so much for reading!!! As always, see yall next week!

[saviormysticmeme]

Hello! Can you write about MC who is a popular you tuber and is live streaming a horror game. They then get jumped scared, shrieks, and Jumin/Jaehee/Yoosung run in to see what's wrong and MC's like "oh hey babe" and the comment section goes WILD when they discover that they have a lover. How would they each respond to the shriek and the comments is basically what I'm asking. Sorry that this is long af I'm just excited to see what you'll write! :D Thank you a million times

I love this ask so much tbh. I tried writing for it before and just didn’t love it so it never got posted.

Yoosung/Jaehee/Jumin with a Lets Player MC

Yoosung:

“KYAAAAAAAAAA”

He heard it from downstairs and nearly fell out of his gaming chair. The second he heard it, pure adrenaline pumped through him and as he tumbled to the floor in attempts to get up so fast, he pushed off and used it all as momentum, sprinting for the stairs.

“MC!?” He shouted as he bear ran up the stairs and thrust himself into your occasionally shared bedroom. 

Hearing the door open behind you, in addition to the monster on your screen, only succeeded in scaring you more, and thus you let another “AHHHHHHHHH” rip from your mouth. This violent reaction from you in turn scared Yoosung and he “WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH”.

There was a few seconds of the both of you screaming before, suddenly, almost in unison. You both stopped.

“…MC?”

“Is everything alright Yoosung?”“Me?! I should be asking you! I heard you scream.”“Oh…yeah I’m playing.” To which you rolled your chair a little sideways to point at the many zombies swarming your computer screen. “Wait are you…streaming!?!? You never told me!!!” Yoosung looked surprised, which quickly turned to a bit of deflation at the thought you were hiding this from him.“Well I usually just do horror games…and like weird dating sims. But I never wanted to make you feel obligated to wat-” and with that you noticed the streeeeaaaam of comments popping up in the video feed

Who is that

Omg is that MCPlays boyfriend??

He’s so cute!!

Wait a second that looks like a guy I play LOLOL with….

They’re so cute

YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND

Stream together? Please? You guys seem cute.

Oooooo Lovers quarrel 

Omg he’s so cute.

KISS, KISS, KISS

You saw all the comments and started twiddling your hair between your thumbs. “Aha, Yoosung, I think we have fans.”

“Wha…” As Yoosung began reading over your shoulders, he began turning very, very, red.

Jaehee

“HELP!” Jaehee’s eyes went wide as she heard the shout. She put her coffee and book down and began hastily walking towards your door. Last she heard you were playing video games, so shouting wasn’t out of the ordinary, but this one made her a little anxious and she felt she had to check.“MC?” She cautiously stuck her head in. You turned to look at her from your computer.“Babe! Sorry! I tried to keep it down but this one hoard took me by surprise…” You shot her an apologetic look. 

Jaehee gave you a soft smile, assuring you that she wasn’t upset. In case you weren’t positive, she followed up with “Can I get you anything? Water? Coffee?”

“Ooooooh! Coffee please?” You got excited at the prospect of her home brewed coffee. 

Jaehee nodded and slipped back out the door.Once she had the coffee ready she brought it back upstairs, but this time you were mid round, she could tell by the look on your face so she walked over to you to set the coffee down, and that’s when she noticed the endless stream of comments. “MC? Are all these people on your team?”“Huh? Haha, no! They’re just watching me play.”“People…just watch?”“Yeah. Viewers, this is my girlfriend Jaehee, Jaehee, these are the Viewers. Say hi!��The brunette leaned over your shoulder, a bit of a deer in the headlights look as she saw her face pop up on screen. She hadn’t even realized you had the face cam on. Then she really started noticing what the comments were saying.

DID MC JUST SAY ‘GIRLFRIEND’

Whoa wait youre….?

That’s so cute! You two are so cute! And she brings you coffee? Ugh. Goals.

Does she know anything about video games? You guys should play together.

UGH THEYRE BOTH SO HOT IT ISNT FAIR

Hi Jaehee! Nice to meet you!

She has a really soothing voice…is that weird to say?

Both of you look so good together ahhhhh

“O-Oh.” Jaehee raised a light hand. “Hi Viewers.”Only to chuckle as the chat exploded even more and blush when she heard your charming laugh.

Jumin

“OH GOD” followed by what sounded like a muffled string of cusses assaulted Jumin’s ears from within his home office. His eyes shot up, but he was frozen for half a second as so many scenarios ran through his head. He shoved his chair back and briskly walked to your room, asking “MC? Are you alright?”The cusses sounded more angry than scared, so he wondered if you hurt yourself. However, you didn’t seem to hear him and thus didn’t respond, putting a little more pace in his step.

 He swung the door to your computer room open, and you didn’t even seem to notice thanks to those damn noise cancelling headphones you got. Hell you didn’t even seem to notice how dark it had gotten. The room was almost entirely dark aside from the computer glow illuminating your sides from the front. He sighed, at least you were ok. Though you still were muttering swears like a sailor under your breath.Unbeknownst to you, your boyfriend stood behind you, about to stride up and tap you on the shoulder.Unbeknownst to your viewers, the man behind you in a black suit was not about to kill you.

MC THERES SOMEONE IN YOUR ROOM

MC TURN AROUND

Who is that guy??

Is this a joke or something…MC this is scary

MC turn around

Should someone call the police

You caught a few of the comments out of the corner of your eye, and at first you thought they were yelling about something in the game, but when your eyes trailed to your camera feed…

“AH HOLY SHIT “ You jumped up and whirled around on the man behind you, doing it so fast the headphones were pulled off your head, your chair was nearly knocked over, the whole desk rattled, and-

Click.

Jumin flicked the light on, his face also showing he was mildly jarred by the last couple seconds.

You just held your hand to your heart for a moment and leaned against the desk. “Oh my…oh my god Jumin. Don’t sneak up on me like that.”

“Sneak up on you?” He approached you slowly, any irritation he had before about you not hearing him melted as he saw your scared face. He just wanted to comfort you now, and he tried by sliding his hands onto the sides of your face and steadying you. “I was just coming to check on you and you were here in the dark. And yelling.”Looking into his eyes, you felt the previous tension in your body start to relax, and you let yourself lean into your boyfriend’s hands as a smile crawled onto your face. “I’m sorry. I must have gotten carried away playing the game.”

“The game?” Jumin looked at your computer to see it had a game on screen….but it also had video feed of you two right now! “Are you recording your reaction?”

Him saying that snapped you back into the reality that there were a few tens of thousands of people watching you two right now, and you pulled away from Jumin, a little embarrassed by the accidental PDA. 

“Oh, yeah sort of. I’m live streaming. So people are watching me play right now and commenting…. They also probably saw everything that just happened haha.” You turned from Jumin and leaned closer to your camera “Sorry about that everyone! Didn’t mean to scare!”And your eyes trailed to the commentsIS THAT JUMIN FUCKING HAN

MC ARE YOU DATING HAN JUMIN

no fucking way

iz thiz a collab??/?/

Is…Is C&R promoting themselves on a Lets Play channel?

WHO IS THAT HES HOT AS FUCK

this is the hottest couple alive and im glad im bi

so this wasnt a prank?????

Omg this whole scare was so funny

He seems so serious…please make him play with you.You couldn’t help but laugh at the mixed reactions. 

[daphstans]

Reddie’s realization

This is a prompt I saw on http://otp-imagines-cult.tumblr.com/post/133309701572/30daychallenge1 and it looks fucking cute so let’s do it??? Btw I start at day 2 because… Well-

Let’s fucking do it.

It was a chill day when the losers decided to hang at the Barrens. As usual, Richie wouldn’t shut the fuck up with his mom jokes especially since Eddie just told him to stop doing whatever he was doing.

“Stop? You sure? Well let me tell you Eds, that totally wasn’t what your mom was saying last night-”

“Just shut the fuck up Richie. Jesus.” Eddie groaned and smacked Richie’s hands off his face.

To put it simply, Richie was currently pinching Eddie’s cheeks to the point where it turned slightly red, and Eddie was not having it. The others just sat there watching them casually as if this happens everyday.

Well, it does happen everyday.

Richie threw a shit-eating grin and flung his hand towards Eddie’s cheeks again. He quickly failed as a certain fannypack flew and slammed his face. Eddie couldn’t help but laugh at that. The others did too, as they shake their head on the view of their two friends.

“Eds that wasn’t funny. It hurts like shit.” Richie wheezed as he held his face, though his lips curved a little, forming a small smile.

Eddie was still laughing, but stopped and pulled a straight face. “Don’t call me that, dipshit. My cheeks hurt too you little ass.” He said, taking his fannypack back from the ground and started dusting it off. When Richie pulled his hand away from his forehead, a huge red mark was left there and Eddie started laughing again.

“You little shit! What happened to my face? I need a fucking mirror, Bev you’re a girl give me your fucking mirror.” Richie panicked, well, not really, but he did anyways just for show.

“Just because I’m a girl doesn’t mean I have to have a mirror you asshole.” Beverly said as she continued cackling, once in awhile smacking Ben’s back from laughing too much.

“Bill? You must have a mirror, right? Your little perfect hair must need some fixing after some time.” Richie said, ruffling Bill’s hair slightly.

“Shut up, r-richie. Though my hair being perfect is not quite a q-question.” Bill said, fixing his hair right after.

Eddie pulled Richie back, taking his glasses off his face. “Look through your glasses, you dumbass. Not that hard.”

Richie scoffed but looked anyway, and ended up laughing himself. “Daamnn I look like Richie Tozier with a kiss mark on my forehead. I look like Luckie Tozier!” Richie said, now laughing alone.

“A kiss mark? Ha, better wish harder next time, trashmouth. A kiss from a fannypack- well- sounds understandable for you.” Eddie rambled, putting Richie’s glasses back on his face. His fingers grazed Richie’s cheeks and it made him shiver a little, and he doesn’t know why.

“You’re saying I wouldn’t be able to get a kiss? Is that what you’re telling me right now, Eddie spaghetti?” Richie frowned, the little nickname made Eddie frown as well. “A true, true men like me, thou say, shall not receive a good'ol kiss, thou say?” He said with a weird accent, though to be real he just sounds like himself.

“Yes Richie, that’s what I’m saying.” Eddie monotoned.

Richie took a step forward, keeping eye contact with Eddie. “You sure, Eds?”

“I’m sure, trashmouth.” Eddie stepped forward.

“damn, it’s getting interesting.” Mike whispered from behind them.

“you’re right.” Stan agreed, slowly nodding as he just continued watching.

“Well, I’m gonna bet my comic s-” Richie tripped before he could even properly end his sentence, as some miracle made his lips crash onto the shorter boy’s. Everyone’s eyes went wide, including the two of them. Stan had his mouth hanging open.

Out of instinct, when Richie fell, Eddie let out his arms to catch his friend.

So now, stood both of them in the middle of the crowd, kissing in an awfully awkward position.

Richie couldn’t help but think about how soft Eddie’s lips felt-

He jumped back and stabilyzed himself back on his foot, face turning beet red.

Eddie’s face is slowly turning red too, but he was just standing there with no movement at all. It all happened too fast.

After Richie processed everything that just happened, he started thinking fast: wh-what-w-um- uhh-what-um- WHAT THE FUCK JUST HAPPENED?! Use that fucking dumbass fuck mouth of yours, Richie. The mouth that everyone keeps telling to shut up should really start sPEAKING up. Don’t make it awkward, don’t make it awkward-

“aha! See? I-i could get a kiss, you dipshit. What did I say, am I ri-ight?” He said rushedly. His voice cracked a little, and after hearing no reaction at all he knew he fucked it up. He even had to admit that it was worse than the mom joke he made yesterday, which not a single person laughed to. And he thought that would be the most embarrassed he’d feel for awhile.

Richie looked up, noticing how Eddie’s face is probably even redder than his. Cute. Wait, no. Nonono. He’s my friend, i- his face is so red, it’s cute. Nonononono. Richie what the fuck are you doing? And his lips felt-

“Look, Eddie, I’m-”

“Your lips was so smooth,” Eddie whispered, his eyes still a bit wide and his face still a whole lot of red. Again, it all went s.i.l.e.n.t.

“what?”

“what?”

“…”

“HOLY SHIT DID I SAY THAT OUT LOUD? DID I FUCKING SAY THAT OUT LOUD? SHIT I’M FREAKING OUT RIGHT NOW I’M NOT OKAY-” Eddie reached for his inhaler, took a deep breath and started fanning himself. “LOOK RICHIE, THAT WAS MEANT TO BE FOR MYSELF AND MYSELF ONLY. JESUS CHRIST.”

“wow.” Richie was left speechless. He was now staring at his friend, feeling something turning and twisting in his stomach. Is this even normal? What the fuck is going on? “You look super cute right now Eds.” He choked out, still staring at the boy.

“don’t call me Eds- wait that’s not….really that important right now.” Eddie managed, still inhaling from his handy inhaler.

“you’re so cute.” He whispered another one, this time without even thinking properly.

Richie snapped back to reality after hearing Beverly’s giggles which quickly turned to a hysterical laugh. She fell backwards, causing the others to start laughing too.

Well, except for 3 people.

Eddie and Richie was standing there in the middle, still staring at each other, both pair of cheeks flushed red.

And then there’s Stan, mouth still hanging open because he could not believe this finally happened.

———————xx

This is my first post and… It sucks. I’m planning to do the other prompts as well because it’s interesting, but is anyone even reading this lmao. Anyway, if there is someone reading this, please tell me if you’re interested???

[readandmisunderstand]

Redefining Love: Upside Down - Log 19

plop.

It's funny how a single drop of water somehow manages to convey silence in a cavern, perhaps a room, for so many minds who are able to perceive. But that's a consequence of empathy isn't it? Is it? What do you call it when you recognize what someone else is capable of empathizing with and adjust your explanation to suit that spectrum to enable effective communication? But I digress. As usual. Silence. Solitude. Prolonged, it features loneliness. Exacerbated it emanates fear. Repeated it creates an eerie feel. Stopped it allows one to think, as if you couldn't before. Have you been to the upside down? Have you loved where no one did? Have you felt your brains stripped from you? Have you lost your faith?

I have a superiority complex. It's funny, no one ever talks about pitying those. I guess it comes with the whole hate thing. Inferiority complex seems to be much common hence easier to relate? The former seems relegated to merely being cocky. What a pity.

Who am I? I was a jumble of identities and possibilities but now I'm collapsing inwards. A hollow shell that bears no substance? Or my true self buried amongst the rubble. Then what about what I am? Is it real? Or a mere fabrication of my self-hate that plonked together the worst traits to be mixed such that it is so easy to hate, so difficult to relate and completely and utterly devoid of things to portray?

I'm not sure what's going on. It seems like a breakdown. Words free-flowing, I sense a seeking of relief. But that's just it isn't it? With such a refined sense of introspection, I can see what I otherwise wouldn't see of me. And I can punish me, I can limit, me. All things capable of hurting me. Awareness. You think being ignorant of what you're doing to yourself is hard. Try watching yourself deny yourself of

I am flailing in the dark. Cold. Alone. Is this real? Am I...lost? It's funny how losing love meant losing a part of my self-love.

help.

but you can't help me hahahahahhHhahhA

shit.

Are we doing this now?

So here, comfort. Is foreign. It's been so long. At least 4 years. Of no external comfort. Save perhaps one instance. Humans are so...predictable. I am so unappreciative. But is it really being unappreciative when I have to adjust my identity such that I'd feel comforted by what you're saying? It's ridiculous. Nearly never. Let me go. Since when has there been a person who could comfort? Pathetic attempts. Useless honestly. What ends up happening is me talking to me and thanking them for their words of 'comfort' hehe. Wow I am losing it. We all need this sometimes I guess. A mirror that can reflect our inner turmoil. I guess for me that's through the written words. I guess I used to be the mirror for people. Used to be. Why is it so hard to be comforted by people? I mean, yeah sure you can predict what they'll say and yeah sure you could've run the simulator in your brain a billion times and yeah you could be highly introspective and dissect your worries so thoroughly that any outside perspective would be as a child who reads shakespeare and attempts to analyze it but really though don't people find comfort in those they love? How come, even when I loved, how come the fear of the future, the horror of the past and the future and the present were never dimmed by their words or their presence? How come? Isn't home supposed to be of some comfort? Aren't parents supposed to sap the worries from your soul? Ah yes, perhaps those concepts were westernized too. Only once.

Can you believe that the only reason I'm posting this is because I don't love you enough to withhold such raw pain and confusion? omg. screw all of you. stop reading my blog.

I have so far to go. So far.

hahaha I remember when I diluted my problems so they were relatable ha good times like omg it's so easy? to throw someone off? All I have to do is just take a fraction of what is perpetually bothering me and it's like a pre-planned scenario. Slightly difficult to respond to so uses quite a bit of brainpower, room for personal sharing so it feels intimate, adequate epiphany-esque materials so I can nod and agree with slowly and enthusiastically, and thus they feel useful! Wow, I was so loving. What a mess. Ridiculous.

I guess it helps that my introspection features multiple personalities. That's where I got insights to your souls.

Losing it. So much to do.

Remnants. of past. self. Irritation. Hampering. complete. hateful. solitude.

Perhaps true love is when you are comforted. I guess that's when I'll know huh. Then I didn't need to descend to this dark, dark world to figure that out now did I? Or perhaps it wasn't my choice?

Why do I write? Out of spite? Not out of love anymore clearly. feelsbadman. And there's this whole collection that will never be added on to. For attention! aha yes of course. That's what the JC teachers told me now isn't it? I'm an attention seeking bitch. Oops. Can't say that. Promise still holds apparently. Got to get a renouncement. Let me go.

Actually not being in love is like not enough. I kinda need to not care too. Then I can be completely like, lost in my work/field of study. IQ and EQ. It is said that diminishing one allows the other to flourish. Perhaps if I lose the care part my IQ could shoot through the roof. I mean then I won't spend about 10 instances in a day checking up and analyzing the state of people I once used to know. Loss of self-control? Maybe if I post this. Maybe. But as of right now it is controlled. Oh yeah, I have a few posts similar to these huh? Deathnotes being a large part. Ooh control. But I haven't read those in a while. Perhaps I don't mean them anymore.

There was a clause in my identity matrix that allowed me to identify when I was no longer me anymore. I can't seem to remember it. A clause that enacts the act to dissociate from me completely. See I thought this through idiots. I'm not as simple-minded as you fools. With your flawed logic and circular arguments that you stubbornly hold on to. At least torture yourself with what's real ugh. Pathetic.

You see, this is but a meaner side of me. At least I'm talking. A bit more and I'd just kill you. With elegance. Or perhaps brutality. Your death need not be an art.

HOLY STOP ME.

can you just lock me up? honestly I feel maybe I could do better if I didn't have the choice of freedom.

Who knows.

Eee screw off stop reading me

Argh.

Absolutely disgusting.

I am actually quite a nice person. Like I don't actually mean all I say.

Seriously?

Oh yeah yknow some say mental illness is like a condition but actually I explored the idea because yknow science. Ha stop stealing MY IDEAS. Copycat. But you wouldn't even know now would you? Mind manipulation, subtlety and discretion, inception and influence. All real things. Easier when your mind is fogged and your introspection flawed. Easy. To. Screw. Up. Your. Mind.

STOP READING.

me.

lost underneath the seven seas. bathed in the twilight, azturpealean glow. the sea is the sky, shining light through my eyes. drowning. sinking. further into the deep.

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Day 79

soooooo i went to bed at 8 am in the morning today. Cause i was on the treadmill. with breaks after 30 mins. for a total of 3hrs. so i started at around 3 am and ended around 7 am almost 5 hours for an actual 3hr workout Oh great! 

oh now i put a sticky note on the webcam thingy on my laptop. Lol now ik for sure why almost everyone at uni puts an ugly sticker on it. cause someone might hack into it and stuff. saw it in mr robot. 

oh yesterday we went to a mall and dad had to park and come later after we already entered the mall. so when he was entering he saw some lady lying on the floor having a nose bleed i think. anyways so later in the car he was talking about it and telling how when he saw that he was almost about to call me and then he saw that the ladys like surrounded by more than enough people so theres no need to but then he was like i came to his mind right away. idk what he thinks about me but im sure i havent thought as much about myself for sure lol. hmph. But i wish to live up to his expectations one day inshaAllah. 

so my doctor has been telling me for months now, and once again from my most recent lab investigations results i am supposedly having a very bad bacterial infection. And i have no idea where the hell it is :) so i have to go to the hospital agaaaaaaain to see a nephrologist or urologist after doing an urine culture & bleh not looking forward to it but gta go. maybe tomorrow 

so my mom is really cool. i mean she knows so much about medicine. ‘clinical stuff’. A lot of it. Tbh she knows more than me. ever since year 2 and 3, whenever i find out some interesting clinical management i always ask her about it only with the intention of telling her about it once she didnt know the answer WHICH i only assumed everytime. She mostly answers them right and on top of that i end up learning a thing or two from her esp the medicine names cause like in med school they dont teach us the brand name but the generic name. she knows a lot of brand names too. i mean shes just awesome mashAllah.  Anyways so why im mentioning all these is cause, she freaks out every time my results are out and the doctor goes like i have a bacterial infection. So from urine analysis. Normal level of ‘pus cells’ should be ZERO to 4. Even SIX pus cells means infection and i have like around 26 Pus Cells. Oh Holy

So after hearing that mom who id expect to not say silly things comes up with all weird theories Ughh! she tells about how im so dirty and i dont wash my water flask so it has lipstick stains on it and maybe thats where i got infected from “-” AND once i laughed it off she suggests maybe its from all the ‘burgers’ i eat from outside “-” “-” and how the fast food chains dont maintain hygiene and all Ughh. 

Btw ik my posts are usually really long and all but then its actually funny sometimes. I mean i hardly write anything. There is just SOOOO much stuck in me. i mean you can say i write 1% of it. And if you think im just bluffing, ill raise it to a 3%. But if i say i write even 10% of whats in my head then Ill call myself a liar! See, the thing is. I dont like talking to anyone about these. “except” for him. And that is because i ‘chose’ to. Like its not that i dont have people to talk to, more like i dont even need people to talk to. Cause i dont want to. Its just me ‘wanting’ to open up to him. to trust him. to let him be a part of my life. What im trying to say is. The reason i have so much stuck in me is not because i cant talk to anyone but more like i dont want to. And theres just one person I want to talk to with. Other than that, I find more comfort in my own company rather compared to anyone elses tbh. 

Now i remember in one of my post i was talking about our last conv where he told me to wait for him and he’ll come for me one day inshaAllah and i was talking about idk how much i can do with regards to that to make things easier for us! Idk i think theres more to what i can do. I keep thinking about it and, i believe that i need to be stable and successful enough too. And not just simply stable financially but like, I need to be at good place. A marriage is a two person thing and you always need to lift each other up as much as you can.

One way or the other, this thing always just slips whenever i sit to blog but it entered my head and scared the shit out of me quite a few days ago. So i was thinking of us, life.. Btw when i say ‘life’ it still means ‘us’. Its the same god damn thing “-” Aha! So i was thinking about us, and how times passing by. i really cant say if its going fast or slow. so no comments. i honestly dont know! BUT i feel like there is so much to come yet. i mean.. and then i was thinking.. i mean some day itll be the 100th day. cool And then months will pass. AND suddenly it hit me! NOW if theres some month i really wna skip, like s.k.i.p. like God, can you like pause my life or like fast forward it to the next month or something please? THEN, that would be January! Yesssss. Like, i totally have no. freakin. idea. how ill spend that month. Im like -blank- Like idk how ill be breathing in peace. its that much of a killer for me. im not even exaggerating, idk if it sounds stupid but then maybe i am stupid Ugh. But like honestly, im more okay with feb, than i am with jan. i really have no idea what ill do or how ill pass the time :) 

Ill talk more about it prolly tomorrow. but enough for today i guess! 

OH ANDDDDD - “I’m here, and I’m not going anywhere.”  ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ I read that in one of his posts & words cant say what it pulled me out of... Tada b’bye c: