#Despair Winter Rose writes

[raven-at-the-writing-desk]

Seeking the Sky

I want to go higher and higher. I won’t be contained any longer.

This is part 18 of 20. Her will and the curse’s clash.

***CONTENT WARNING: drowning (implied/mentioned), self-harm (stabbing hand with pen nib).***

The Tale of the Cursed Raven: Part 1 I Part 2 I Part 3 I Part 4 I Part 5 I Part 6 I Part 7 I Part 8 I Part 9 I Part 10 I Part 11 I Part 12 I Part 13 I Part 14 | Part 15 | Part 16 | Part 17

Once.

The first word is always the most difficult to lay down. It determines the shape the sentence will take, leading into the rest of the story. For fairy tales, there’s a comfortable default.

Once, once, once.

Because it was like that before, but no longer. It's change, it's challenge. It's a rose in the winter, a promise in the midst of despair, a light in the dark.

Only with Once Upon a Time is there a Happily Ever After.

So that's what she begins with.

Raven writes with the ink that doesn't yet have a name. In the bottle and on her quill nib, it appears as a deep blue--but scrawled on a blank canvas of paper, it's a brighter, jauntier hue. The color of an endless sky laced with sunshine.

I've decided, she thinks. This story is mine and mine alone. Even if I'm told it's going to end in doom... I still want to imagine an alternative. A happier conclusion.

I’ll end this tale on my own terms. If I cannot be free, then I can at least dream of it until the very end. This is... my act of defiance. Proof of my existence.

Her nib firmly presses to the page.

It starts as it always does.

Once upon a time, there was a common Raven.

She lived all her life in the forest where she was born, doing all the things that a common raven would. And for a while, she was content.

As time went on, the Raven became aware of a world beyond her own. Those beings called humans would wander into the forest, and from her perch up above she watched with great interest. Their feathers changed constantly and they spoke in strange tongues. With each passing day, her curiosity swelled until she could stand it no longer.

The Raven decided to leave home and explore the world afforded to humans. On wings as black as the night, she found herself sailing out to a place blanketed by tumultuous waves. She had never seen such a vast expanse of water before, and so foolishly descended to observe it close up.

That was when the sea swallowed her up.

The Raven came close to death in that icy grip, for a bird's wings can only flounder when weighed down by water. But... by a miracle of miracles, she was rescued by a prince. The face and name she did not know--but upon waking up safe on a golden beach, she felt in her chest that she was more meant for this world than ever before.

The infatuated Raven returned to that beach, hoping to meet her prince once more.

He never reappeared before her.

She was crestfallen. "Of course," thought the Raven. "How silly of me to think that a mere raven could catch the eye of a prince... that she could be a part of his world."

So the Raven went home to the forest to nurse her broken heart.

On some particularly lonely days, she would nest by a pond and gaze at her mournful reflection in it. A creature with feathers as dark as the night, heralding bad omens--who could ever learn to love such a thing? The Raven shed a tear into the pond.

It was then that a withered man in a tattered cloak appeared. His ominous visage startled the Raven, but his voice was a whisper.

“What troubles you?” he asked of the bird.

“It is the prince,” the Raven lamented. “He will never look my way, for I am just a raven.”

“It is possible,” said the stranger, “for a raven to win the eye of a prince.”

There, he offered a bargain. In exchange for becoming his writing apprentice, he would grant the Raven the form of a girl so that she might pursue her prince.

She accepted his hand and picked up the pen.

And for a while, she had a place where she belonged. The Raven learned of both writing the humans from her new mentor, the Storyteller. He was a stern man, a perfectionist in his craft—but he was her family, her home. All she had ever known.

She was not yet allowed out on her lonesome, but would always hand over her drafts accompanied with questions like, “When can I?”

“Soon,” he would say cryptically. “Soon.”

She believed him.

Then one morning, the Storyteller was gone—passed away in the night.

He had packed a suitcase before his spirit had slipped from his mortal form. It came with a letter addressed to her, a letter full of frightful confessions.

The Raven was to inherit both his legacy as a storyteller... and the curse he had been shouldering. Eternal life she would have, but never would she be able to find the human connection she sought out--for should she utter "I love you", she would vanish into a speck of light.

The naive little Raven was overcome with great despair. The things she had longed for had been torn away. The hope she had for her future, extinguished like a candle's flame. The happy nest she had found, gone.

Her trust, betrayed.

When at last she had no sobs left to give, she picked up the shattered pieces of her heart and set out, seeking a new home.

The Raven arrived at Night Raven College, a place described in the Storyteller's letter. There, she was intent on stowing away and focusing on her new art. She is a storyteller now, she reasons, and storytellers never meant to step into their stories, to mingle with their characters.

In the highest room of the tallest tower… The Writing Raven roosts to this day.

She stops on the dot punctuating the sentence. There’s finality in a period, that which marks the end of a thought.

This isn’t the full story. Not even close. Raven dips her quill in an inkwell, watching as sky blue creeps up the nib. It’s only the start.

Her hand resumes its dance.

At Night Raven College, she met many new faces. Kind people, cruel people… People who showed her things her stories never could. The Raven had many happy moments and many sad moments too.

There is an uncle who is bumbling and vain but means well. He grants her a home and acts as her guardian. He is strange but warm.

There are older students who are reliable and tough. Visions of what she could be when she grows up.

There are students who are as immature as she is. Chicks freshly hatched from their eggs, still unsure of themselves and what they should do.

Then there is the boy that broke her heart. He had a gentle smile and demeanor, even seemed familiar somehow. It was all lies—yet the Raven still found herself drawn to him.

She was told that those feelings were doomed, not meant to be. That she was destined to dissipate as light.

The curse, claiming her.

The ending, tragic.

Again, Raven loads her quill. Her hand has grown heavy, shaking.

But she still d—

She has frozen.

What?

Raven tries again, straining with her writing implement. She knows the motion, the rounded flick of the lowercase a. D-a-r-e, easy. She has never had an issue writing before.

But she still dared to dream.

It is like hitting an invisible brick wall. She can push all she likes, but her hand will not budge from its place.

The shaking gets worse, turning into tremors.

Her hand rockets off, but not by her own will. There is no feeling in her nerves as the sentence completes itself.

--id not dream!

"Th-That's not what I wanted to write!" Raven squeaks. She stares at her hand, thinking it possessed. It doesn’t feel like a part of her anymore

On a piece of scrap paper, she tests a few strokes, a couple letters. Nothing seizes—not until she returns to the story on a new line.

But she sti—

The tail of her l trails off. She crosses out the sentence, but the next attempt stops at the s of she. More words prematurely cut off.

Raven’s eyes blow wide open.

What is this? Why can’t I…

The feeling floods back into her hand, but it's entirely wrong. It's like a pile of cinderblocks has been dropped upon it, crushing her muscles and bones. Her blood screams. A searing pain shoots from her fingers and to her wrist.

She clutches it with her other hand, hissing through her teeth.

“Yours is a fate meant to end in tragedy,” a laugh booms in her head. “You cannot hope to escape it.”

Raven hunches over her desk, coughing up a raspy breath.

Realization.

The story. It’s snapping back into place, trying to correct itself. It doesn’t want to change its course.

Her brow scrunches. Part of it is the barking pain, part of it is the wheels spinning in her head.

But that is, in of itself, proof. Proof that it is possible to change things. Isn’t it…? If the story is attempting to ‘fix’ things, then it was ‘broken’ by something to begin with.

I did this.

Me…!

She takes her other hand and lets it pick up her quill. Raven involuntarily grips her wrist, the original hand silently demanding the implement back.

“No…!”

Her chair clatters to the floor. Raven throws itself across the room. She collides with a bookcase, knocking several volumes off. Ink-spattered papers and dust fly into the air.

She jerks the other direction, ramming into a wall. Hurt spikes up her back, her shoulders. The phantom hand pulls her this way, that way, like a careless child dangling a doll.

Her small, battered frame falls to the floor—a toy, discarded.

The Raven vanished in a blink of light, never to find happiness, a voice she recognizes as her own snarls. It is dark, distorted. Alone, forgotten, insignificant.

You know it to be the truth. You know that is where this path leads.

W r i t e i t.

Tears spurt from her eyes, running like broken faucets.

She clenches her jaw, refuses to let a scream escape. Her insides claw and twist in agony.

The room is a foggy haze, rectangles and muddy colors. The floor, cold and hard as she lies there, writhing. A streak of black in the corner of her eye—her quill.

Raven reaches for it, managing to graze it with the tips of her fingers. When she clenches it, it is with her whole fist, her grip so tight it may as well be on a spider’s thread in hell.

“I will complete this story. I will write my own happy ending,” she grunts through her fresh splitting headache, “if it’s the last thing I do…!”

Raven wrests herself up on trembling legs, using the ledge of her desk for support. Collapsing into her seat is a relief, even if every part of her throbs.

One hand lays out to keep her canvas steady. She has her quill, brings it downward—

—skewing clear off the page, leaving only a murky blue trail where it had touched the page.

The hand clutching the quill crunches the shaft, snapping it. The hand raises, hovering over the marred paper. She wills it, wants it to strike white.

Then the quill plunges.

Down, down, down.

Into the back of her own hand.

There's a terrible crunch. Flesh tearing, bone cracking, as the nib punches through her glove and skin like it's nothing. Something thick and black oozes out.

She feels faint.

Is it blood or ink or blot? She cannot tell.

The pain magnifies, cresting at the puncture wound. Her mind threatens to split in half at its seams.

The things on her desk are jostled. Pens and papers scatter, her glass inkwell tipping over. A beautiful blue paints a sorrowful sea on the page.

Her backstabbing hand goes to retrieve the ruined quill, and her heart stops. Once it is pulled, she knows whatever flows inside of her will gush out uncontrollably. By the time her uncle will find her in the morning, it will already be far too late.

No.

She pushes against the force, attempts to reel her hand back. The immense effort causes sweat to dribble from her brow.

Stop…!!

It fights her, advancing. The pain is nothing compared to the sirens wailing in her head.

Her tears heat. She glares at the spilled ink, the few words that peek through the blue fog.

This can’t be where it ends. It can’t. The story isn’t done…!

Faces, scenes.

They dart by at a rapid pace. Life flashing before her eyes.

Happy times, sad times. All precious moments, priceless and glittering treasures.

Wobbling, unsure steps into the Mirror Chamber, donning her ceremonial robes. The sting of betrayal, chocolates crushed at her feet. Lessons in the library, one-on-one, testing new sounds out on her tongue. The slick of something awful rising in her throat and spilling over her fingers. The thrilling energy of a live concert. The stiffness after an argument. The sweetness of a schoolgirl crush.

The little things she loves about each dorm and the campus. Ghostly staff, fire pixies, the grand buildings rich with stories history. The flowers of Heartslabyul and Pomefiore, the vastly different sceneries of Savanaclaw and Scarabia. The mystique of Diasomnia, the cold unfamiliar composition of Ignihyde… The romantic sea of Octavinelle, stretching out beyond a glass wall.

The hand extended, beckoning.

Hope courses through her. The sun itself is in her veins, a warm blossom in her center.

It dullens the pain like some miracle inoculation. Her vision clears.

She knows.

I want to see that endless blue sky that's full of endless possibilities. I want to see it here, at our Night Raven College. I want to see it with everyone, to walk beside them.

I want…!!

Summoning the last vestiges of her strength, Raven releases a guttural shriek. There is both bird and human in her raw voice, naked animals flailing for survival. Blood pumping, spirit soaring.

And she rakes her ink-stained hand across a blank page.

So Quoth the Raven.

Jade slips out of Octavinelle in the dead of night. It’s not too terribly difficult—he moves swiftly, making nary a sound that might rouse Floyd from his slumber. Stepping over discarded bags of chips (half-finished) and clothes, he easily lets himself escape.

In his pocket is the letter. He fears that if he puts it down, lets it out of his sight, it could disappear in a fine mist. A dream—a figment of his imagination. As he briskly heads for the mirror, a hand goes to the letter, stroking it, to ensure it is still where it should be.

That it is still real.

I have something important to tell you. Too important to scrawl on paper. It must be said face-to-face.

The mirror ripples as he passes through its face. When he comes out the other side, the chamber is frigid, bleak.

In the dark, his eyes glow.

The apple tree in the courtyard is in bloom. It’s so very beautiful this time of year. I wish I could stare at them forever and ever. In the language of flowers, apple blossoms can mean many things. Love, peace, rebirth, good luck... a long life too.

He walks, thinking he should keep cool.

Let’s meet there, in the shade of the apple tree and under the cover of stars.

His pace picks up. He is restless.

Tomorrow, right before the stroke of midnight.

He breaks out into a sprint. He doesn’t know why.

I will give you my answer then.

Something feels wrong.

Best regards,

The letter, still with him. It has never left.

Raven Crowley

He makes it to the meeting location. Stops to catch his breath, to seek out a familiar bird-like shape in the shadows.

And Jade waits.

But one comes for him under that desolate apple tree.

[sannasruins]

warm winter

sero hanta x reader

type: fluff

warnings: none!

a/n: i was going to make this into angst but i found myself having already written so much fluff that it would have turned into over 5k to add angst, i might do an angsty part two tho. no proofread

word count: 1.7k

You were laying in his lap, looking up at Sero as he scrolled through his phone absentmindedly, his other hand resting on the top of your head, fingers threaded through your hair, and nails gently pressed into your scalp. You were okay with this comfortable silence, happy not to have the pressure to fill it, to just exist next to one another. You loved him so much. 

As the sunlight warmed your skin, and a soft breeze brushes by you, you let your mind wander. On such a lovely day like today, how could you not have lovely thoughts. You find yourself reminiscing how you and your beloved Sero Hanta started dating, winter of your first year at UA. 

♞

Everyone else had gone back to the class 1A dorm, except for you. You had stayed late after class, needing a change of pace from the desk in your dorm, working on a project that was due before the start of break. Engrossed in your writing, you didn’t notice the soft fluffy white flakes as they started their descent from the light gray clouds above that were blocking the sun’s light. The powder started sticking to the ground, and soon the whole world became covered in a blanket of white, but you were unaware. That is until 2 hours later, past when the gentle drifting turned into a flurry, past when you could no longer see the pavement, no you only noticed when you had finished what you had set out to finish that day and started to pack up. The weather reports that morning hadn’t called for snow, but the snow didn’t care and had reached almost a foot in dept. So, you were left at the main UA building, in your everyday loafers and a light jacket, as the weather had been much fairer on your 10-minute walk to school.

You didn’t notice, as you approached the shoe lockers, a snoozing and bundled Hanta, leaning his head back onto the locker he was against. No, your eyes were too focused on the glass doors ahead of you, and the snow that was piled up against it, dreading having to trudge your way through it, the thought of cold snow seeping into your shoes already sending a shiver of despair down your spine. Your groan of frustration and then the sound of you opening and closing your shoe locker roused the raven-haired boy from his light slumber, his eyes finding your figure as you sit on the floor in a huff. He gets up and stretches, his movements almost feline, eyes not leaving you as you grumpily jam your foot into one of your brown leather shoes, a smirk crossing his face as he approaches you quietly. 

“Boo,” he whispered into your ear, his mouth less than 3 inches away from your suddenly very flushed skin. You jump from your seated position, only one shoe on, the other foot being left in just its sock, your fist already balled, feet naturally assuming a fighting stance as you turn, arms raised. Sero threw his head back, a full-hearted laugh ripping its way out of his throat, his chest shaking with the force of it. Your reddened face only got redder as you watched him in his glee, your stance relaxing, and Sero gasped for air, desperate for the oxygen his laugh denied him. It took him a good minute to settle down, his breath slowing until it was back to its normal tempo, but the smile didn’t leave his face. 

“Heya y/n,” his crinkled eyes meeting yours. You met his greeting with an incredulous look, before slumping back down to the ground, putting on your other shoe.

“What are you doing here Sero?” you asked him as you rose up from the floor, turning to face him again, seeing his little smile still there. It caused a slight tingle in your stomach, maybe a butterfly or two, not that you would ever let the sly boy know. 

He thrust a gym bag, that you hadn’t noticed before, towards you. “I thought you might need these.”

You took the bag from his outstretched hand, opening it and peering into its contents. You found a pair of rain boots, a pair of sweatpants, and a jacket, all of which were obviously Hanta’s. You looked back up at him, eyebrows raised.

“Why would I need your,” you paused looking back into the bag, “your old clothes?”

He blushed slightly, one hand reaching for the back of his scarf-covered neck, “Well, I didn’t really have access to your stuff, but I knew you didn’t have warm enough clothes for this weather, so I had to improvise.” He paused, and you observed his slightly awkward demeanor, this shy, dare you say bashful, Sero Hanta was foreign to you. “I brought you my older spares because I figured they might fit you a bit better than my newer stuff.”

You were surprised, pleasantly so, and those two butterflies in your stomach suddenly multiplied, and did not stop multiplying as you felt your heart soar. A smile found its way onto your face without you noticing, as you looked at the gym bag in your hands. 

“Thank you, Sero,” you said, barely above a whisper, an obvious smile in your voice.

“Ye-” his voice cracked, you let out a small giggle at it, “yeah, it’s no problem y/n, anybody would have done it”

 “Maybe,” you looked him in his dark, warm eyes, “but they didn’t, and you did.”

He didn’t respond to you, eyes flicking away from yours as he forcefully chuckled, his hand once again finding itself on his neck.

“Can you hurry it up?” He asked after a second, “I kind of want to get back before dinner gets cold.”

You went back to the floor again, slipping off your loafers, “You can leave without me,” you informed him, “I’ll be fine.”

“Yeah but,” he motioned towards the umbrella stand, your eyes following his arm, showing only one large, clear umbrella, “I only brought one.”

All you could respond with was a quiet oh, the thought of sharing an umbrella with your crush as he walked you home in the snow would be enough to cause any girl’s stomach to turn into a lepidopterarium. 

You stepped into the sweats, pulling them up under your skirt before slipping your feet into the too-large rain boots, making sure they didn’t pull up the sweatpants with them. Then, slipping into the jacket, you were swaddled in warmth. And the smell of him filled your nose, you did your best to not obviously inhale his scent, how embarrassing it would be if you were caught, you thought. Sero silently laughed at the sight in front of him, overly large boots making you shuffle as to not trip on your own two feet. You shot him a light glare, you couldn’t really be mad at him, you knew if the positions were switched you would be chortling at his shoe struggles. 

“Well then,” you started as you met him beside the door, him with umbrella in hand, “let’s get going.”

You pushed open the door, only to be met with a blast of frozen air in your face, the tips of your ears and nose almost immediately turning cold. With one hand you pulled the hood of the jacket over your head, the other firmly placed inside the jacket pocket where it sought warmth. You subconsciously walked closer to Hanta, almost bumping shoulders under the umbrella. 

Your nose was now noticeably red as you two made the trek back to the dorm, and Sero noticed it as he stole a glance at you. He paused in his walking, you making it two steps ahead of him before realizing that he had stopped in his path. Turning around, curious as to why he stopped, you are instead greeted by him handing you the umbrella. Confused, you take one hand out of the warmth of your pockets and grab the handle, watching him let go and reach for the end of his scarf. Your eyebrows scrunched up in a perplexed manner, not having any clue as to why he was taking off his perfectly warm and comfy scarf.

He then took one step towards you, closing the distance that had previously been there, and was now only 6 inches away. Frozen to your spot, you watched him raise his arms, the fabric in hand until they were level with your head. Then you felt it, he wrapped the scarf around the back of your neck, then forwards, once, twice, pulling it up and over your, what felt like, nearly frozen nose, before dropping his hands back down to his sides. 

Unblinking, you looked at him, a different kind of flush once again making its way to your cheeks, and he looked back down at you, and the two of you were surrounded by silence, the world had been muffled by the thickening blanket of snow, and in that white landscape, it felt like only the two of you existed. You reached your hand up, and pulled down the scarf, just below your lips, which then parted, and felt the sting of cold air rush past them and into your lungs as you took a shaky breath in, unsure of what was going to happen next.

But he leaned in, you tilted your head upwards, and suddenly you were kissing Sero Hanta, cold lips meeting one another in what felt like an explosion of emotions. 

The two of you broke apart, both searching for air, and searching each other’s eyes for an explanation as to what just happened. 

“Sero,” you questioned him, “do you like like me?”

“Uh,” a pause, “Yeah, I do. Do you like like me, y/n?”

A grin broke through your lips, and in an excited exhaled, you gave a breathy “yeah.”

And then you popped onto your tip toes to kiss him again, a hand making its way to the back of his head, fingers tangling in the silky darkness. When you broke away from the kiss, you still had a smile on your face.

“Yeah,” you repeated, “I really like like you.”

[blue-scorpion-king]

RWBY is not dead, just on uncertain waters at the moment.

I am getting this out there for you all in this fandom who are feeling uncertain and scared for RWBY right now.

And maybe in the near future this fall and winter.

Or maybe even next year, in 2024.

And spoilers for RWBY up ahead.

RWBY is not dead.

Rooster Teeth did not cancel it or else, everyone would have been talking about it and I would , even at an later date from that hypothetical, disheartening announcement.

I ain't all that worried from V10 from getting greenlight at RTX this year, which was last month from this post being made.

Why? Crunchyroll might have made a deal with RT on V10 being greenlit AFTER the RWBY X DC crossover movie's 2nd part get released.

I know that it is speculation right now, but that is a high possibility.

Alongside that Red Vs Blue is still going, Let's Play is still up, and they are still being talked about.

By both fans, non-fans, and haters.

Even with their failings and all that. They still have to make money at the end of the day and go for supply and demand, even with having to make compromises.

But, as it stands right now, as we are in yet another RWBY hiatus, as it is the norm, just a little more uncertain than the other hiatuses-

We don't really know.

But, I don't think we should be really be worried about RWBY being 'dead' just because

Do keep going at it at trying to convince RT to finish RWBY by releasing V10 and onwards, which could be finished in 2 to 3 volumes. 2 to 3 years I think.

And always remember what the message of Ruby Rose to all of the world in V8 did to its people, which got shown at the end of V9.

She brought hope to all of

Even in this uncertain time of fear, despair, anger and bitterness of 'what could have been' for this fandom, especially with the massively uncertain time when Monty Oum died 8 years ago (R.I.P. always), and business happenings that we don't know, that are not being said online, all of that-

Don't give up hope.

Even if in a decade or two, when RWBY continues after an hypothetical hiatus that spanned sooo long.

And perhaps the writing on the wall of RWBY being 'dead' or 'dying' was written by those who have given up and not given hope to those who want to watch RWBY and enjoy it for what it is.

Even when they have left the series.

Even with those who think hope is a dangerous thing and can drive someone insane.

And get an man's project finished for all to experience. I don't know the full vision of Monty Oum and I wouldn't pretend that I do.

But, his story getting out there and being understood and cherished, even with life's ups and downs, even with him being dead, is what I think he would want as he was making it.

And that's all I have to say on this matter.

So, we will continue to wait for the day we all have been waiting for and the revolution that Team RWBY and friends bring to Remnant against the walking *cancer* witch, that is Salem.

When that days does come-

~Hades-Hando~

[irrlicht-writes]

forget-me-not

And you’ll strew some sage and lilies And roses where I rot Of all the flowers you picked I knew you would forget forget-me-nots

~*~

Sometimes, Jaskier stares into nothing.

Over the years, Geralt watches him and he doesn’t understand. He never asks, because Jaskier is simple. But sometimes, Jaskier stares and Geralt wonders what he’s seeing.

“Geralt,” the bard asks one day, mindlessly strumming his lute, “have you ever seen one of the fair folk?”

“No,” Geralt replies, “at least not to my knowledge. They are tricky creatures; you’d best to stay away from them. Why do you ask? Writing a song about them?”

“No,” the bard replies, “I was just wondering. Is there a way to tell if you meet them?”

“Do you think you met one?”

Jaskier blinks up at him, his lute forgotten in his arms. Geralt’s rarely seen Jaskier so unfocused and it worries him a little. Is the bard catching sick? He’s usually incredibly hardy. Jaskier looks to the side, away from Geralt, into the forest around them. He doesn’t answer.

Geralt listens. He can’t hear anything out of the ordinary, just the normal sound of the woods. Somewhere there is a nest of Nekkers, and Geralt hopes it’ll be a contract in the next village.

Jaskier tears himself away from the forest and starts moving again.

“I’m just wondering,” he whispers, almost to himself and Geralt isn’t sure whether or not he was supposed to hear that.

The bard plays a soft melody but he doesn’t sing. He doesn’t look behind him and Geralt worries he might just disappear completely. Slowly, Roach starts moving, following the bard’s lead.

The day had been normal before, but now, now it feels eerie. It feels like someone else is watching. However, when he looks around, Geralt cannot see anyone beyond the trees.

In the tavern, the bard returns to normal, all talk of fair folk forgotten. Geralt breathes a sigh of relief, almost audibly. Jaskier is weird, when he isn’t his usual, chatty self. The bard performs songs for the crowd, securing them a room and a hearty meal for the evening. Tomorrow, Geralt will look for the alderman about the Nekker nest. Today, he will drink the bad ale in the tavern and watch Jaskier perform.

The Witcher isn’t sure why, but he’s hesitant to leave. This time, this feels precious, like he wants to remember this. When Jaskier spots him at the table in the crowd, he smiles. Geralt feels like he has to treasure it.

And it scares him.

Jaskier is humming.

“Sing the song to me?”

“No, I can’t.”

Jaskier is humming.

“Your bard is floating.”

“I told you not to hex him.”

Yennefer scoffs. “Oh, I’d wish. But look.”

Geralt looks.

Jaskier sits at the campfire Geralt made and Yennefer is right; he’s floating. He’s humming the same tune he had been humming a few days ago, with a faraway look in his eyes. By all rights, he should hear them, but he doesn’t react. Quietly, he is humming, staring into nothing.

“I’m worried. He’s been – off, for a while now. When I leave him for winter – I don’t –“

“You want me to watch over him? That’s not going to happen, Geralt, I’m not your dog.”

Geralt sighs. He hadn’t meant that. He is simply worried. Summer is nearing its end, and he cannot take the bard with him to the Keep. Not only because of his brothers and Vesemir, but also because Jaskier would be so terribly bored after a week.

Jaskier stops humming and looks up. He doesn’t look at them, yet he seems to listen to something nonetheless.

“Jaskier?” Geralt calls out to him but the bard doesn’t react. His eyes are transfixed above the flame, staring into the trees again. He moves his lips, but no sound comes out.

“Bardling?”

Jaskier turns his head toward them and still, he can’t fix his eyes on them.

“Geralt,” he whispers, “what does the fair folk look like?”

Geralt gets up immediately. “Where did you see them?”

Jaskier shakes his head.

“I can’t,” he whispers desperately, “I can’t. I’m scared.”

He resumes his humming, louder this time, with utter despair laced into it.

Geralt scans the treeline, but he finds nothing.

“Geralt,” Yennefer says.

Geralt turns and he sees the witch holding the bard’s hand.

“Your bard is floating.”

And Geralt can see him float away, even though Yennefer tries so hard.

*

Jaskier picks flowers in a field.

Geralt and Yennefer are standing a distance away, Roach sticking close to the bard. She seems to be picking flowers for her mane for the man to braid into it.

The wind is soft today, and there’s no cloud in the sky.

Jaskier is slipping through Geralt’s hands and he doesn’t know what to do. Whatever fair folk Jaskier might be seeing, Geralt can never find them.

That evening, Geralt doesn’t complain when Jaskier braids his hair full of flowers. The bard laughs and behind them, the flowers are softly waving.

In Geralt’s hair, there are forget-me-nots.

“Promise me, Geralt,” Jaskier says one day.

“Hm?”

They are lying on the earth, looking up into the starry night sky above them.

“Forget me not, when I’m gone?”

“I’m not letting you go.”

Jaskier laughs, a melody on the wind.

“Darling, I’m already on the path.”

~*~

On this day, it rains.

When Geralt turns, the path behind him is empty.

*

Years, and years later, when Geralt is older than he ever thought he would be, he finds himself at the coast.

He remembers a bard, young and yearning.

We could head to the coast, eh?

They could have.

The horse under him is Roach, but she doesn’t remember a bard. And yet, Geralt catches her watch the woods sometimes, like she’s looking for something.

Geralt is watching too. He’s never found the fair folk, never found the path the bard had taken.

He thinks about leaving. He thinks about dying.

He’d die in battle is what he always thought. But now, fights are his no longer.

The waves in the distance are soothing and Geralt closes his eyes.

If he forgets he’s at the coast, the waves sound much like humming from so long ago.

I can hear the cannons calling As though across a dream And I can smell the smoke of hell In every stitch and seam And like flowers, the bodies tumble Around this muddied lot I cannot hear them scream "Forget me not"

On this day, it doesn’t rain.

When Geralt turns, there is someone behind him on the path.

[rohanneofcoldmoat]

Thinking about Brienne and idealism and despair, I feel like George has sown some seeds in the last couple glimpses we get of her that hint at a crisis of faith she'll have in twow. There's this deep-set sense of futility, of helplessness, in Brienne's last chapter, one that extends beyond the fact that she's a prisoner.

"He turned back at the river, m'lady. He's gone back to his forge, to Willow and the little ones, to keep them safe." No one can keep them safe. She began to cough again. "Ah, let her choke. Save us a rope." One of the shadow men shoved the girl aside. He was clad in rusted rings and a studded belt. At his hip hung longsword and dirk. A yellow greatcloak was plastered to his shoulders, sodden and filthy. From his shoulders rose a steel dog's head, its teeth bared in a snarl. "No," Brienne moaned. "No, you're dead, I killed you."

Those kids at the inn that Brienne was willing to die to protect, the kids that she was literally eaten to protect, well now, in her mind, no one can keep them safe. Of course, Brienne feeling like the odds are against her is not something that will make her fold on its own. "No chance and no choice" after all, but here, you can feel her wondering, is there ever really a chance? And as if to confirm this, the monster haunting the Riverlands, the same one that Brienne killed at to crossroads to protect the children, is seemingly back again and right in front of her.

And then, the last time we see actually see Brienne, her appearance startles Jaime.

Jaime scrambled to his feet. "My lady. I had not thought to see you again so soon." Gods be good, she looks ten years older than when I saw her last. And what's happened to her face? "That bandage … you've been wounded …"

Obviously, her injuries and the fever she suffered are likely contributing to the fact that she seems to have aged ten years, but if we take this more metaphorically, what else is associated with youth? Resilience, innocence, idealism. In Winds we may see a Brienne who has lost some of these things. Being confronted with the rotting husk of your liege lady who commands you to do something you deem unjust lest she kill you and and an innocent child will do that I guess. Jaime says "You've been wounded," when he sees her, and he's right, and not just physically. Brienne's in a lose-lose situation, where any decision she makes requires her to compromise her own morality, a part of the too many vows dilemma that led Jaime to lose his faith in the institution of knighthood that Brienne still holds sacred. I think there are some dark places she could go internally, and the fact that she's going to get slammed with the fact that Tarth has been invaded and has possibly fallen is certainly not going to help. How far things will go, and what morally grey actions Brienne may take I don't know. In my mind there's a certain something to Brienne killing Catelyn, with Oathkeeper no less, but considering all the foreshadowing that Arya will meet her mother again before her final death, I don't know that that will be the case. What this faltering idealism will look like in Brienne's story I'm not sure, I just know that I am ready for George to tear my heart out in twow (one of these days).

"There are a lot of dark chapters right now in the book that I'm writing. You know, it is called The Winds of Winter, and I've been telling you for 20 years that winter was coming. And winter's the time when things die, and you know, cold, and ice, and darkness fills the world, so this is not going to be the happy feel-good book that people may be hoping for, and some of the characters are in very dark places." - GRRM x

[voraciouskingdom]

Gratitude

In life’s complicated web, adversity is that stubborn thread refusing to unravel quietly. Yet, as much as we grumble and resist, there’s a peculiar magic in meeting hardship with a touch of gratitude. It’s like finding a dandelion breaking through a crack in the icy pavement during a cold winter—unexpected and oddly uplifting.

The Subtle Science of Gratitude

Sure, the science folks have proven that gratitude does all sorts of good things for your head and heart. It ignites parts of the brain that sprinkle a little happiness over our stormy thoughts, nudging us from gloomier corners of our minds towards patches of sunlight. But let’s not get tangled in the technical bits. What we care about is that gratitude somehow makes us feel more... alive. It shifts our focus away from the bleak to the possibilities hidden in the shadows.

Why Gratitude Matters When Life Throws Curveballs

1. Changing Lenses: Ever tried looking at the world through rose-colored glasses? Gratitude changes the tint. When we thank life for the little things—even when it feels like a sinkhole is swallowing us whole—we begin to see that life isn’t all doom and gloom, and that’s a perspective worth holding onto.

2. Strengthening Bonds: Sharing gratitude with others can be like pouring warm maple syrup over a chilly morning. It sweetens relationships, bringing people closer just when our instinct might be to curl up in isolation.

3. Keeping Emotions in Check: Let’s face it: keeping a gratitude journal is a bit of a chore. But it’s one that pays off, like working out. Regularly noting what we’re thankful for gives emotional muscles the workout needed to handle life's rollercoaster ride—with fewer drops into despair.

4. Boosting Problem-Solving Mojo: Grateful folks often find creative ways out of tight spots, like a sly raccoon escaping a backyard trap. Gratitude fuels resourcefulness, allowing imagination to pave new, brighter paths through rough terrain.

5. Kindling Hope: Gratitude and hope are like synchronized skaters, twirling gracefully hand in hand. Appreciate the small wins, and a door to tomorrow’s possibilities usually swings open, casting a hopeful glow over today’s challenges.

Practicing Gratitude When the Going Gets Tough

Adopting an attitude of gratitude during life’s storms takes commitment, but here's how it can be done, in style:

Daily Pondering: Each evening while you sip a steaming cup of tea, reflect on three good things from the day. There’s always something, even if it’s just the fact that the snow stopped long enough for a quick walk.

Journaling: Write down little blessings. The act of penning thoughts makes them tangible, grounding you in what actually matters.

Mindfulness Moments: Try sitting quietly, maybe by a window with the soft hum of traffic outside, and just be. Notice things with appreciation—the quiet moments can speak volumes.

Speak Out: Ever thanked the cashier for their smile or your neighbor for clearing the sidewalk? Simple gestures like this go a long way in making the tough times seem more bearable.

Reframe by Choice: Next time adversity knocks, instead of asking "why me?" consider "what’s this teaching me?" A tiny shift, but with enormous impact.

Gratitude in tough times isn’t about sugar-coating reality or ignoring life’s trials. It’s about choosing to see the dandelions breaking through—that pop of color in a grey world. As we stumble through life’s unpredictable journey, gratitude acts like a north star guiding us toward resilience and joy. Embrace it, cherish it, and watch as it transforms your story into something remarkable and uniquely your own.

🔥❤️‍🔥

[theroseceleste]

Vivi - @ viviana_ohara on Twitter commissioned me to write a story based on her OC's lore.

Viviana, a person who was once part of Hydra's many Winter Soldiers is found several decades later by Miguel. She joins forces with the Spider Society. But will she accept his love and support to overcome her trauma?

Contains : 18+ - Minors DNI Angst, mentions of trauma and grief, smut - breast play, masturbation, oral, penetrative sex.

Word count - 5381

Enjoy! xx

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How can it be, that after seven decades, the pain feels just as fresh as it did that fateful day? Two large gaping holes in her soul feel just as prominent as if her loss happened just yesterday.

Today is the anniversary of her husband and son’s death. She sits alone in her personal room in Spider Society HQ, grieving. It has been the first instance in a very long time that she has allowed herself to cry over her tragic losses.

Three months she has been in a place that she could consider home. A place she could begin considering feeling safe. There is still much more work to be done in order for her to feel totally secure, but so far it has been a good start.

The moment the tears begin to flow, it feels like a dam releasing a torrent. Decades upon decades of pent up emotion and tears being released very suddenly, seemingly coming out of nowhere. Her tear-stained cheeks tingle as they soak up the droplets of despair.

A pillow is nestled in her arms as she lays on her bed, clutching it close to her chest, sobbing into it. It’s the only comfort she can get when she feels alone. If she concentrates hard enough, it almost - almost, feels like she’s holding her son once again.

The sound of a gentle knocking on her door fills the room, stirring the crying woman from her emotional state. Wiping tears from her face, she sits up. A gold shimmer of light runs down her face, masking the fact that she has been crying.

“Who is it?” she calls out, doing her best to sound as unemotional as possible.

The handle on the door turns as the person outside begins to enter.

A large red and blue hand comes around the door first as they open it further. After that, a man of a considerable height enters the room. The rest of his body covered almost head to toe in a skin tight suit bearing the same colours as his hand.

He wore an expression of concern as he let his gaze fall on the woman with red and black ombre hair sitting on her bed.

“You okay, Sylvia?” he asks with a gentle voice as he closes the door behind him.

The now straight faced woman nods, giving the weakest of smiles. “Of course I am.”

A soft sigh fills the air as the man’s furrowing brow becomes more obvious. He knows she’s not alright. “I could hear you crying, and your pillow is wet from your tears…” His observation skills are incredible, but it can also be irritating if someone wants to hide something. The large, muscular man approaches as he watches her look at her pillow indignantly as if it had given her vulnerability away.

The mattress on her bed dips as he perches himself on the edge. The weight of his six-foot-nine-inch tall body makes it creak slightly as he gets comfortable, but keeping a respectful distance from the distressed woman.

Sylvia gauges the man for a moment; watching his every move, scrutinising his facial expressions, trying to determine if he is going to become mad at her for being upset. A part of her early life trauma makes her hesitant to show any raw emotion such as sadness or fear. Her tail twitches nervously before he opens his mouth to speak.

“You don’t need to pretend, Sylvia. It’s okay to grieve. I understand…” A warm and comforting hand tentatively rests on her shoulder.

The floodgates open again. Her normal facade crumbles in an instant. Another shimmer of light reveals her true face; red blotchy skin, streaks of old tears and slightly swollen lips. Heart breaking sobs erupt from her the moment she’s given the greenlight to show emotion.

A horrible ache is felt in the man’s heart as he watches her dissolve into tears, but he wants her to allow herself to process her emotions and feelings. The hand that rests on her shoulder squeezes gently as a sign of reassurance.

“Thank you, Miguel.” She sniffs as she grips her pillow once more and wraps her arms around it. “It's a force of habit to bottle things up.” Her voice is soft but shaky from her crying.

If there’s one thing that this man knows best, it’s bottling up emotions. He understands from experience how things can unfold badly when emotions remain pent up. The person suffering could blow up or break down into tears in the most unpredictable of moments. Miguel does not want that for Sylvia and feels he should help her, if she’ll allow it.

That squeeze on her shoulder did more for her than Miguel will ever know. It tells her she’s safe and she can trust him. The warmth she feels from the gentle touch of his hand, makes him seem inviting and friendly.

Her entire life has been a challenge; each downfall a harsh reminder that she shouldn’t trust. However, his support in recent days is encouraging her to feel more at home in HQ. In fact, she starts to notice her heart doing something that it hasn’t done for the better part of a century. Something she has told herself to never indulge in ever again. It flutters as her gaze rests on him, especially when he looks right back at her. He smiles softly at her which only excites that fluttering butterfly sensation in her chest, until she draws a sharp intake of breath and pulls away. She promised - no, she vowed to never fall for anyone again.

Little does she know, the man sitting in front of her is also feeling a similar sensation inside his chest.

While she reminds herself of her vow, he remembers their agreement three months ago: to work together but remain as acquaintances. Back then, he was just thankful for the help, but the more time he spent with her, he found himself wishing to get to know her better. Frustration builds within him, but so does his desire to respect her wishes. The last thing he wants is to spook her, resulting in her leaving.

So far, he has been dropping tiny hints that he likes her. Probably small enough that it slips under her radar. These hints are designed to see just how sensitive she truly is. He wishes to see where her boundaries lie, so he understands what she does and doesn’t find acceptable.

Perhaps the touching of her shoulder and the longing look in his eyes is a step too far. Lowering his hand back down onto his lap, he looks away.

“Well, I’m always around if you want to talk and get anything off your chest.” Miguel stands as he lands his gaze back on her momentarily. “Or, I can just sit here in silence with you, if you prefer.”

Sylvia remains cradling her pillow cross-legged on her bed. A gentle nod from her indicates she heard him, but silence is all he receives.

While feeling slightly disappointed, he can understand her behaviour. After losing Gabriella, he too felt like this. His grief is different, so he never dared to tell her he knew how she felt, but he is quick to offer support out of his abundant care for her.

*

Now six months into their agreement, the two have become slightly more than acquaintances, but far from lovers, despite Miguel’s growing desires.

At any given moment, he spends his time with her or he invites her to his lab while he monitors the multiverse. The Spider Society leader enjoys her company and misses her dearly if she’s away. Despite not being able to reveal how he truly feels, he settles for building a relationship of friendship and trust.

“Lyla; can you tell me where Miguel is?” Sylvia asks the AI on her watch.

A hologram of a woman flickers into view, dressed in a large white coat and sports a strawberry blonde bob hairstyle. She smiles at Sylvia.

“He’s in his usual hiding spot,” Lyla replies as she checks her tablet.

Taking in a deep breath, Sylvia nods and steels herself. After a few days of deliberation, she has made the decision to open up a bit more with the Spider Society leader as part of a test of trust.

Entering the large lab in HQ, she watches Miguel stand on his lowered platform looking at the countless orange screens like a vigilant wolf. His attention wanders away from the status of the multiverse as he hears footsteps approach, a warm smile growing across his lips. Over the last few months, he has been able to recognise her footsteps, and it brings him joy whenever he hears them.

“Hey, Sylvia,” he greets her as he turns away from his monitors, looking down into her beautiful, mesmerising silver eyes. However, they look concerned as her brows are furrowed slightly.

Tilting his head with curiosity, he asks her what the matter is.

A nervous sigh quivers from between her parted lips. The pounding in her heart doesn’t help matters, but she feels she’s ready to open up.

“I want to tell you something.” Her hands fiddled together in front of her, a clear display of nervousness.

A palpitating sensation fills his large chest. Curiosity and hope swells in his mind. What could she possibly want to tell him?

“Que pasa?” he asks her, unable to hide a growing smile on his face.

It’s a rather large step up onto the platform that Miguel usually stands on. A height that isn’t so much of a problem for the likes of him, but for someone over a whole foot shorter, will surely struggle. With the power of flight, the red and black haired woman takes a floaty leap and lands gracefully on the platform next to the Spider Society leader.

This isn’t anything new for Miguel to see. He knows she’s special after learning about her in the Winter Soldier program.

“I would like it if you called me by my real name…” she begins to explain, but the look of surprise on Miguel’s face makes her pause.

“You mean to say that Sylvia isn’t your real name?” This conversation isn’t going the way he expected it would. There is a distinct feeling of a rug being pulled from underneath him.

With a furrowed brow, she shakes her head. Using her mind reading abilities, she peers into his thoughts to gauge how he’s feeling. She worries that perhaps he’ll feel that she’s given him a reason to mistrust her. However, all she feels is just shock ringing out from his mind.

“Sylvia Black is a name given to me by Alexander Pierce… by Hydra…” She sneers at the name as if it left a nasty taste in her mouth by just speaking it.

“What is it? What’s your real name?” Miguel asks as his shock slowly ebbs away and is replaced by curiosity. He’s about to learn something new about this woman. He finds himself excited, however, her display of nervousness gives him cause for concern. It makes him unhappy to see her upset or feeling cautious around him.

Looking down at the platform they’re standing on to focus on anything other than his deep reddish brown eyes, she begins to answer.

“Viviana… Viviana Montenegro…” As she speaks her real name, it feels as though a cloak is lifted off of her shoulders. Revealing the real person underneath. Not the person who Hydra made her out to be, but the person she was born to be.

The Spider Society leader repeats her first name as if trying it out. It has a nice ring to it and suits her perfectly. Much better than Sylvia Black.

“That’s a beautiful name…” A feeling of warmth spreads through his chest knowing that she’s opening up to him. The fact she trusts him to start learning about the real her brings him joy.

“I believe it will help me start my healing process from my past if you-”

Without even knowing it, he takes a step closer to Viviana, his long fingers subconsciously reaching out to touch her hand. His eyes widen when he notices her step back and pull her hand away out of his reach. A nervous twitch of her tail is also a clear indication he overstepped the mark.

“Oh - Viviana, I’m sorry, I-” Miguel realises he has done the wrong thing as he watches her retreat.

“Now you know…” her voice shakes as she speaks. Worry and fear blankets her mind. Manic thoughts rushing through her head. Perhaps she did this all too soon. Maybe she shouldn’t have done this at all.

Without another word, she abandons the platform and makes her way out of Miguel’s lab.

“Wait…” the Spider Society leader rushes after her, eyes wide with fear of losing her. His heart pounds as his long strides help him to catch up with Viviana easily.

“Por favor - listen to me. I’m sorry if I scared you. Let me explain myself, please!”

However, the woman already knows. He has fallen for her and she’s close to falling for him. She can’t fall in love. She won’t.

“Please stop and spare yourself the heartbreak you’ll inevitably feel if you fall for me. I don’t want to hurt you, Miguel-”

Both of his hands grab her arms and stop her from walking any further away from him. However his grip isn’t hard or particularly firm. In fact he’s gentle. Fully aware of her traumatic past, he didn’t want to trigger her in any way.

“Please, don’t leave me like this.” His voice shakes, full of emotion. “You can’t leave me without hearing what I have to say to you.” Hope glistening in his eyes as he begs for her to stay. The temptation to pull her in close and shower her with his love is almost too strong, however that’d be the wrong move to make - he’s sure of it.

Silence falls between them for a moment. For the briefest of seconds she considers it, but realises if she listens to him then that’s more baggage for her to deal with. It’ll only end in disaster. Pulling away, she breaks free from his gentle grasp.

“You’ll only hurt more if you say what you want to say…”

Miguel’s heart plummets painfully into the pit of his stomach. Watching her pull away from him, witnessing her eyes well up with tears. He’s messed up - big time. Outstretching his hand, he tries to reach for her - even his claws peek out - but it is done all in vain. Viviana takes flight, leaving the large, wide eyed Spider Society leader alone in his lab, feeling totally and utterly devastated.

Her last words circle cruelly in his mind. You’ll only hurt more if you say what you want to say… He hurts now, and he didn’t even get a chance to pour his heart out to her.

Falling to his knees, he watches the woman he loves and truly cares for shrink further into the distance.

An array of colours glow and twist as a portal opens up outside a derelict, burned down house surrounded by nothing but fields. Reds, oranges and pinks highlight the charred wood until it dissipates, leaving a tearful woman behind.

Her family home that she destroyed half-stands before her. Painful memories fill her mind. The prominent memory, watching her husband and son get brutally murdered in front of her very eyes, replays in her mind like some kind of sick and twisted movie scene. Even the good memories hurt. That happiness she shared with Loki and Ivar - gone, never to return.

Walking along the ground floor of her abandoned home, her booted feet crunch over smashed glass. Wooden boards creak and groan under her weight. As she explores the remaining foundations of the house, her foot accidentally kicks something metal, making it skid along the floor. An old photo frame, housing a picture of the three of them. Viviana tentatively approaches it and reaches down to pick it up. Her fingers brush away the black ash that covers the picture. Loki’s cheeky, wide smile beams up at her, and Ivar’s little giggle could be heard as she thinks back to when the photo was taken. She remembers that her son’s laughter brought such joy; it was so infectious… So sweet.

She stays for three days. Sleep is a rare occurrence for her, so she spends all of her time thinking.

While pondering her past, she considers her future too. Should she return to Spider HQ? Should she speak to Miguel ever again? Should she even bother considering her future there? One thing is for sure, she can’t let go of the sound of the Spider Society leader pleading for her to listen to him. All he has ever done is shown her kindness and given her security.

Leaning against one of the blackened walls of the ground floor of her family home, she contemplates the structure for a moment. Her silver eyes look up at the charred wooden beams over her head.

She compares the house to herself. Despite the damage it has taken from the fire, there’s still part of it that stands. Even after seventy years of the elements long after the fire died out. It still stands.

From a very young age, an innocent. She has dealt with hardships, abuse, experiments, loss and grief. She still stands… Even later on in life, after rebuilding everything, gaining trust, marrying and starting a family, only to then lose it all. She still stands.

Both she and the house stand, despite everything. Yes, they’re damaged, but the foundations of the house and her as a person remains. And those foundations can be rebuilt and strengthened…

*

Three days without Viviana and Miguel is a total mess. He knew where she had gone; Lyla gave him her coordinates, but he didn’t dare follow, despite desperately wanting to.

To keep his mind on something else, he trains when he’s not doing his usual HQ duties. 

Just as he is about to land a devastating punch to a training dummy, Lyla pops into view. Her hologram flickering more than usual. Her algorithm is buzzing with excitement.

“She’s back!”

The Spider Society leader freezes mid swing and his eyes widen in shock.

“What?!”

“Viviana, she’s back and I think she’s looking for you in your lab.”

He’s suddenly very short of breath as his heart thumps in his chest. Miguel takes off, there’s quite a distance between the training area and his lab, and he wants to get there as soon as possible. Like a man on a mission, he sprints down corridors, thwips his angry, red webs, swinging hard and fast to reach his lab in record time.

“Viviana!” he calls out breathlessly as he slides into his large office. Before him, stands a tired, emotional woman. Her arms wrapping around herself in an attempt to give herself comfort. Their eyes meet. She looks close to tears and her bottom lip wobbles slightly.

The Spider Society leader steps closer, but remembers he should keep his distance. It would kill him if she took off again after returning from her three day hiatus.

Viviana notices the desperate look on his face. An expression that screams, I have missed you so much! No one in her life has ever greeted her in such a way. She knew instantly he must have been worrying about her while she was gone. A fresh wave of emotion surges through her. Her eyes search his expression, making double - triple sure before she does something she hasn’t done for an exceedingly long time.

Rushing forward, she throws her arms around his shoulders after finally giving herself permission to accept his affection.

Miguel is speechless but over the moon with happiness. His big, powerful arms wrap around her, taking her embrace as the greenlight to hold her in return. Long fingers tangle in her stunning red, wavy hair while his other hand rubs her back delicately, in a comforting manner. She has returned and come to him for support and security. He intends to make damn sure he’ll deliver. He wants the Spider Society to be her sanctuary and a place for her to feel surrounded by people who she can trust.

Tears run down her cheeks and onto Miguel’s suit as she buries her face into his trapezius muscle.

“Shhh… shh… it’s okay.” The Spider Society leader whispers softly to her and gives a gentle squeeze around her. This is the first time they have touched one another deliberately and with meaning behind it. He closes his eyes as he takes in the feeling of her closeness, breathing deeply.

He’s not sure if it’s her abilities, but he swears he can feel some resonance within her. A sense of her feelings and emotions reverberates within him. A connection between them, building in strength the longer he holds her.

“I’m just… so afraid, Miguel.” Her breathing quivers as she speaks and draws a sharp intake of air as she hyperventilates. “You don’t understand.”

Their connection reveals the pain she feels and he can hear it in her voice. The tightening of her grip around him makes him feel she needs him, just as much as he needs her.

As much as he loves to have her close, he reluctantly pulls away so he can look into her eyes. His heart hurts at the sight of them so full of tears.

“You don’t need to be afraid anymore.”

Relief washes over her upon hearing his words of promise. She believes him. It’ll be hard work getting over the trauma she has had to deal with in her life, or to at least learn to cope with it. But here, she can get the support she needs. Here, she won’t be alone. Here, she will strengthen her foundations and rebuild.

A soft but shaking hand caresses Miguel’s face. Viviana takes in the look of peacefulness and joy in his expression when she touches him. Mystifying silver eyes meet warm, enticing reddish brown, their hearts quickening as their deep connection grows.

“You know you can trust me, right?” His voice is warm and loving, providing a comfort she hasn’t felt in decades. The Spider Society leader lifts her with ease, standing tall with her in his protective arms.

Trust is a small word, but it’s a tremendous thing to give someone. Especially after knowing them for just six months. But for some reason, looking into his eyes, she knows that she can trust him.

A tiny voice in her head reminds her that she isn’t supposed to be falling in love, never again. Her brow furrows and her lip quivers as she remembers her vow.

“Miguel…” Her voice is only just above a whisper.

“You don’t have to be strong when you’re with me.”

Every kind and sweet word he speaks weakens her resolve. Another voice in her head argues that she should give this guy a chance. Forget that vow she made; she deserves another chance, considering it wasn’t her fault that she lost her first.

In total disbelief with herself, she leans in closer as her heart beats hard within her chest. The warmth of his skin radiating onto her face. Lips only an inch apart from hers, Miguel feels the pull between them, desperately wishing to close the gap. However he has scared her away before and refuses to do anything that might do that again.

As another tear streaks down her face, she steels herself. Closing her eyes, she takes the leap of faith and seals her lips around his. Loki will always be in the back of her mind, but she feels he wouldn’t want her hanging on his memory, staying loyal and never seeking happiness for the rest of her life.

The kiss between them starts off as soft, delicate caresses of their lips. But it soon evolves into a searing, passionate moment. Months of tension and hesitation finally being released into an explosive instance. The kiss deepens as his tongue gains entry to her mouth, after dancing across her lower lip. Fingers tangled in each other's hair, pulling and stroking with love and affection.

With her ensconced in his arms, safe and sound, he carries her to a desk in his lab. A long sweep of his arm ensures that everything on the surface goes flying. Not a single care in the world that anything might break. Viviana is more important in that precise moment.

“Um… Miguel? You do realise I haven’t um… been intimate for seventy years, right?” Conflict fills her mind as she feels him place her gently on the table. Smiling lips press against hers this time as he leans over. Red and blue hands caress her cheeks the moment he pulls away again.

“I’ll take very good care of you - I promise.” His voice is gentle as he looks down upon her beautiful face. The silver of her irises captivates him. He admires how her long eyelashes frame her stunning eyes. Her lips, so kissable, so soft, so tempting. The tiny moles under her left eye and lower lip accentuates her facial features. To top it all off, her black and red ombre hair provokes the sense of intimidation and aggressiveness, but deep down, he knew of her caring, gentle and sensitive side.

“No one will come in, either. Lyla; you know what to do…” he mumbles against Viviana’s ear after noticing her looking around to check if they’re alone.

The tension in her body relaxes as she hears Miguel take care of their security in his lab.

Fumbling hands snake underneath her body as he negotiates her suit. Each tug at the zip loosens the material, allowing him to gradually peel it off. To remain equal, he allows his suit to fade away. His lips return to hers as he undresses her.

Moans soon fill the air as his hot lips roam over her naked body. Creeping from her mouth, along her jawline and slowly down her neck. Soft nibbles tease over her collarbone and move onto trailing his tongue delicately around her chest. The cool air sends a chill over the thin lines of moisture, making her nipples harden before reaching one and takes it carefully into his mouth.

A soft, quiet mewl escapes her parted lips as she feels a gentle sucking on her beautiful plump breast while a large hand blankets the other. Her eyes flutter closed as the sweet sensations she’s feeling takes over. A satisfied groan follows her sound of appreciation as he enjoys the pleasure he’s giving her.

Semi-tanned hands run through short dark brown curls, holding him there as he presses his face against her chest more firmly. His powerful jaw, working on creating nerve-meltingly good sensations to help her relax.

It seems to be doing the trick. Her moans progressively become louder, and her back arch grows increasingly pronounced as he continues to pleasure her with his talented tongue.

Her pleasure-fuelled moans only encourage him to give her more. All the while his hand slowly pumps his hardening shaft. The satisfied sounds she’s making is something he enjoys hearing. Telling him he’s doing things right for her is always a turn on.

Miguel takes his time, warming her up, preparing her for him. Especially after a long time of no sexual activity.

With a wet pop from his lips, his mouth slowly travels further down her body. Over her ribs and down onto her stomach. The abdominal muscles twitch slightly as his attention tickles her skin and sends tingles around her body.

Viviana feels two hands hold her under her thighs and push them upwards, gently spreading them wider.

A deep groan leaves his lips as he takes in the sight before him.

“Muy bonita,” he mutters, looking as though his birthday had come early.

A blushing face with parted lips stares back at him, panting heavily with anticipation. She gives him a subtle nod, permitting him to continue.

His smile spreads wider before leaning in, capturing her extremely sensitive bundle of nerves between his lips. The warmth and moisture of his mouth sent her into ecstasy almost instantly. Throwing her head back, she cries out in pleasure, her blush growing more intense.

A fresh groan vibrates against her nether regions as he discovers how good she tastes and is amused with hearing her noises. His hand fists his cock harder; it won’t be long till she’s ready for him.

Long laps of his tongue trails up from her sensitive folds and over her clit. She tastes exquisite.

“Mi-Miguel!” Viviana cries out urgently. He is so invested he nearly brought her to orgasm. Pulling away slowly, he stands and positions himself between her legs. The head of his hard, throbbing shaft teasing her glistening pussy.

A hot and heavy kiss is planted on her lips, giving her a taste of herself, just for a brief moment.

Pulling away shortly after, he starts to mumble against her neck.

“Te amo…”

The Spider Society leader gently enters her, pushing slowly, giving her time to adjust. Hands frantically grasp the edge of the desk as a faltered breath fills the air. His cock, gradually stretching her walls as he takes the utmost care, as promised.

“Good girl…” he praises her. He knows this is a big step for her and she deserves all of the encouragement.

The black and red haired woman’s heart flutters. His words and actions make her melt, not to mention his incredible body that is about to embark on a journey of giving her absolute pleasure. Just his heat alone, emanating from his large, looming frame makes her feel secure underneath him. His calm and loving expression strengthens her feeling of trust.

After taking the greatest of care and time, he’s deep inside her. The hilt of his urgent member pressing firmly into her entrance. Looking down at her, she seems calm and collected. She’s ready and trusts him explicitly - that’s more than he could ever ask for.

Miguel starts off slowly, pulling out and pushing back in. His ruby red eyes, analysing her, looking for the first signs of discomfort. To his relief, she seems to be doing just fine. A blissful smile spreads across her face, her eyes closed, heightening the sensations she’s feeling. There’s even a cheeky lip bite.

“You’re doing so well, hermosa,”

Leaning down, his hands support his weight either side of her beautiful body. His hips thrust a little harder. Each movement ends in a delicious grind against her sensitive bud, increasing that toe-curling tension building within her core.

A symphony of moans and groans fill the air as their lovemaking heats up. Even the sound of the desk creaking and banging against the wall joins in.

To his surprise, her tail wraps around his thick, muscular thigh. A smile creeps across his face as he realises that’s her special way of telling him to stay close and keep going. Just the mere thought of that alone sends shivers down his spine, bringing him closer to the edge.

“Good girl, Viviana,” he whispers before feeling a tightening around his thigh, followed by a clench around his shaft.

“Ah fuck, yes!”

His hips pump harder and faster into her as he watches her dissolve further into pure bliss.

“Miguel!~” she cries out again. Her fingers grip the edge of the desk more firmly.

They’re both close to the brink of oblivion. Lowering his body again, his chest presses into hers, increasing the friction of their hips grinding together.

“That’s it, good girl, cum for me,” the Spider Society leader grunts as his body works harder for her.

Finally, she opens her eyes and watches his exquisite muscles flex as he thrusts and grinds, delivering her to her orgasm. Her tail’s grip tightens, her legs wrap around his hips as he pushes firmly into her. They both reach their climax together.

As the afterglow sets in, Miguel’s arms wrap around her and hold her close, enabling her to give him a sweet, tender kiss on his slightly sweaty forehead.

“Te amo…” she whispers into his ear…

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[birdstooth]

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(sorted alphabetically by author)

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Chap 4 - Commit to the Bit

Chap 5 - You got the stuff?

Chap 6 - Dances with butlers

Chap 7 - coming soon!

Chap 8 - HMS Peggy

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@charnelhouse

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Chap 9 - kill each other!! (Bucky and Steve) + Heraldry + Medal ceremony

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Animal Crossing Crossdressing

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Chap 26 - Humpty Dumpty Allegory? (Lloyd but he’s an egg)

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Saturday Mornings - marginally related doodle (Bucky)

A Date - dates are the #1 cause of 70% of global warming (Borky)

Warrior/Worrier - Hallmark's top sellers

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This story hasn’t been written yet but we’ve already chosen sides lol

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Pt 2 - A BULL TELLING YOU A JOKE ABOUT BULLS 

Pt 3 - How Bucky gets his robo arm

Pt 5 - BUNNY & CLYDE + coloured version

Pt. 7 - everything everywhere all at once

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Masterlist - THE MOVIE POSTER (Mr. Peanut, Bumblebezo$, Loretta, Hal)

Chap 5 - Loretta but she's Tom Sawyer (Loretta, Hal, various sheep)

Chap 11 - Loretta gets ONE (1) bacon + alternate scene (Bumblebezo$, Loretta, Hal)

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OTHER

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My Pearl - Jewlery heist (Ari, ft. special guest Princess ARIEL)

Drabbles

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Chap 10 - "my two dads"

@navybrat817

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Chap XV - Right now, right now? (Peter Parker) + Idiot Sandwich (Suzanne and Lloyd)

Chap XVI - Poor Suzanne lol (Suzanne and Lloyd)

@secretswiftymarvelfan

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SERIES - Memory Served

What's in a name?

Part 1 - Ransom vs doggos

Part 4 - surprise cameo

@slyyywriting

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Oversteer (Bucky x trainer!reader)

@straywords

Drabbles

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Natasha Romanoff x Avenger!Reader x Bucky Barnes

@thenhewaswrongaboutme

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Chap 25 - Steve eats a yucky appetizer :(

Epilogue - she wants to order (Bucky)

Barbed Wire & Bare Hands (blurb) - No Steeb, only us!!

SERIES - Northbound & Reaching

Spring Chicken (blurb) - good job buddy!!

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Chap 1 - surveillance time lapse (Winter Soldier)

Build-a-Bucky

dividers by @firefly-graphics

[fragmentsofemelia]

Original Short Story - Chastleton House

National Trust: Chastleton House File

April 2005:

During the examination of Chastleton House a series of letters were found within a wall cavity in the Cavalier room. The letters were bound together in twine, with a crimson wax seal. The letters detail the first stay of Florence Whitmore-Jones (born Florence Clough) at Chastleton House. Although much of Florence’s early life is undocumented we can assume that she is between nineteen and twenty one at the time of writing. Florence would go on to marry John Henry Whitmore-Jones in the spring of 1830 and in the autumn she had her first child, Arthur Whitmore-Jones. Unfortunately Florence passed away during the birth of her third child, Willie Whitmore-Jones.

August 2016:

The letters were handed to the National Trust in the autumn of 2007 and were displayed within the property up until 2016, when the living relatives asked for them to be removed.

LETTER I

27th November 1829

Dear Mother,

It gives me the greatest pleasure to assure you that I arrived safely at Chastleton House in the late evening last night. The journey was exceptionally long, however, Mr Whitmore-Jones graciously sent a carriage to collect me from Cirencester station. Upon my arrival at Chastleton it was nightfall. I was resentfully rushed inside by the groundskeeper who took great care to tell me how late in the season it was and that Mr Whitmore-Jones is due home a week from now. Mother, I am so excited to meet him! Alas, I shall attempt to stifle my excitement with my letters to you.

The next morning I was made tea by one of the kitchen maids and was shown around by the miserable groundskeeper. This house is a labyrinth of secret rooms and passageways, with multiple staircases and a gallery full of Mr Whitmore-Jones’s collection of paintings and busts. I am sure that I will fit in here, Mother. The groundskeeper informed me that I am to stay in the snug Cavalier room. The walls are lined in a complex pattern of rose wallpaper, which looks rather wondrous! However, when I laid my bag down I saw a puckered scrape of the original wall where time had eradicated the paper. I fingered the loose parchment and watched as it disintegrated. I ran my hand across the harsh oak bed frame, where flecks of the wood submerged themselves within my palm. The groundskeeper assured me that I am the first inhabitant of the Cavalier Room since Mr Whitmore-Jones was announced the rightful owner. I hope that my stay here will prove to be rather wonderful, and if not it will not matter as I won't be gone for long!

Later that afternoon I was shown the grounds, which are entrapped by large shrubbery, with an intricate maze marking the centre of the gardens. The groundskeeper appeared rather excitable when we came to his rose garden. However this excitement soon turned to despair once he saw how the sharp air had bitten the petals from their buds and spat them upon the floor! I felt an acute pity for him and his dismissal of the winter. Mother this felt strange to me – our groundskeeper at Watlington Manor understands so much of the changing in season and never becomes disparaged by the wilting of his crop. The groundskeeper did not speak again unless it was to tell me of the history of the grounds or to complain of the bitter weather. We walked the entirety of the gardens until the night fell upon us.

Still, I am not quite sure as to why Mr Whitmore-Jones requested my presence so close to Christmas - perhaps he has heard of my talent with oils and hopes to add my work to his collection! Oh Mother, how wonderful would that be? Perhaps he will pay me handsomely and I may finally dedicate myself to artistry.

Your adoring Daughter,

Florence

LETTER II

1st December 1829

Dear Mother,

The sky has grown pregnant with white and grey, I'm sure it shall snow again soon. Chastleton has been coated with thick snowfall since I last wrote to you. On the first night of the snowfall I overheard the maids anxiously babbling about how early in the season it was for snow and that they do not think that Chastleton shall cope in these conditions– I can not say that I myself have been made anxious by this snowfall, I think it to be rather exciting! Although I do regret not asking Elizabeth to pack my warmer clothes. I am yet to fully understand the maids’ anxieties of Chastleton’s ability to withstand the winter, however as the days have rolled by it is becoming more apparent that it is in great need of a loving hand.

Last night on the west staircase I heard the furious cry of the Groundskeeper, protesting to a poor maid that Chastleton is in no position to allow guests– this made me ever so nervous and I rushed back to my room. Since my arrival at Chastleton I had noticed the derelict nature of the house, with the rooms coated in debris from the summer; there are even little birds nesting in the parlour, which I cannot bring myself to tell the groundskeeper about as I am sure they will meet their end. I have gone to great lengths to avoid the groundskeeper since last night.

During my days at Chastleton I have been resigned to sitting in front of the window and watching as the flakes turn the garden into a barren landscape of white. Unfortunately, the maids refuse to let me use my oils, over fear that I shall create some sort of unfixable mess! Otherwise I would take great pleasure in painting the trees that have been kissed with frost and the lawn that sits idly under the untouched blanket of twinkling snow. My candle illuminates the growing iciness upon the window pain as I sit and write this letter to you! There is something remarkably calming in the stillness of winter. Yet, I have become agitated by the impending nature of the spring – it stirs a fear within me that I am unable to place.

I have heard nothing of Mr Whitmore-Jones’s whereabouts. In vain I have tried to pull information about him from the maids, yet they refuse to speak of him. I think they have decided to keep me at a distance from them, as they retreat whenever I enter a room.

How are you and father? I do hope that you are well and that I shall hear back from you soon! I long for when I will be back with you again.

Your loving Daughter,

Florence

LETTER III

7th December 1829

Dear Mother,

I am restless at your absence, Is there a reason as to why you do not respond? I am sure there is a delay due to the snow but my heart longs to hear from you.

Since I last wrote to you I have found this insatiable urge rising within me to clean, as if I were a housemaid! I lay awake at night preoccupied with thoughts of dirt lining my nails and debris piling on the floor. The walls breathe iciness upon my skin as I feverishly clean this house in preparation for Mr Whitmore-Jones’ return. My days have become obsessive and tiresome at the sheer magnitude of work that Chastleton requires. Yesterday, during one of these fits of cleaning, the parlour became encapsulated by a rotten, festering aroma. The scent trickled down my throat which my body rejected as I violently wretched. I found the perpetrator of the odour whilst cleaning the fireplace. Underneath the cobweb ridden logs I made out the cream plumage of one of my house sparrows. I threw the logs into the centre of the parlour to reach her rotting body. As I picked up her wilted frame I felt her twitch and writhe as maggots pierced their way from her insides. Oh mother how horrid it was! I screeched as I saw them burrow out of her and retreated to my chamber. Yet this incessant urge within me to clean brought me back to her body. I held the poor thing in my palm and wept. I took her into the garden and buried her in the snow. Mother I do not know if I shall cope if that same fate falls upon the other sparrows!

My distance from Mr Whitmore-Jones upsets me so, as I believe he became quite fond of me. Mother, do you remember those lovely letters he would send me over the summer? I can still picture the crimson crested wax seal and the beautiful twine he would bind them in. He was enthralled at the mere idea of me visiting Chastleton– yet, where is he now? Still the maids refuse to tell me of his whereabouts and I am still forcing a distance between myself and the groundskeeper out of fear that he detests me! In fact, Mother, I haven’t seen anyone in days– The maids retreated with the growth of the snowfall, so I have been left to clean and long for Mr Whitmore-Jones to return.

I do hope to hear from you soon!

Your worried Daughter,

Florence

LETTER IV

8th December 1829

Dear Mother,

I know it has only been hours since my last letter – yet, nights at Chastleton cause me to question what I know to be true. At night the house eradicates my tender hours of labour. It toys with my spirit and forces me to start anew in the morning. My slumber is interrupted almost nightly, as of yet I do not know what it is, but there is a damp warmth in the air that suffocates my dreams.

Last night, in the haze of my dream, a thick dampness fell upon my chest, expelling the air from my lungs. I felt a gouging asphyxiation trickle down my body. I yelped as it curled up on my stomach causing my abdomen to gurgle and throb. My mind has become forgetful since my arrival; so I began to question if I were still in that lucid dream I had only encountered mere moments before, or if this horror was truly happening. My abdomen relentlessly groaned as my thoughts became wilder. I retreated from the Cavalier room, forcing myself down the west staircase to the Old Kitchen. A kitchen maid fixed a cup of tea to ease my mind and the pain eventually subsided. I told her at length of the damp horror that torments me so, and a brief glimmer of terror shone in her eyes. She held me as I walked back to the Cavalier room. The maid urged me to not only return to my slumber but to not tell the other maids of this damp horror.

This morning when I woke my chambermaid had drawn a bath for me. I thought this to be quite wonderful as the water was lusciously perfumed and warm. It reminded me of the baths Elizabeth would run for me! My hands began to shake as I worked the soap bar into my damp skin. I attempted to hold myself still and hoped that the stillness would rid the events of last night from my mind. The shaking softened and momentarily I felt as if I had never left Watlington. I felt as if I were only twelve and Elizabeth had run my sunday bath, the scent of freshly baked bread flitted about my nose. I lazily opened my eyes and continued to scrub at my skin. A hue of deep red sat tauntingly underneath the milky film of bath water. I jumped from the bath and this is when I saw the talons of the night marked upon my skin. The lacerations buried into my abdomen right where I had felt that terrible pang! I ran my fingers over the scratches, my skin rising where the ripping had taken place. I dressed quickly so that the chambermaid would not see my mangled form. I fear that the maids know more about Chastleton than they seem; Mother, there must be some awful secret they are hiding from me – something so ghastly and vile that lurks through the halls. This is why they have kept me at a distance, surely Mother? I am fearful to sleep again tonight in case the labourious pain rises again and I become a more mangled form of myself in the morning.

Your frightful Daughter

Florence

LETTER V

10th December 1829

Dear Mother,

The house has once again spat out all of the hours of labour that I have so tenderly afforded it. The grime oozes by night and the putrid odour of the little sparrow haunts my nose, inspiring an acute nausea to overcome me. The great parlour I once spent my days sat in has become littered with grime and sparrow excrement. The chill of the winter beckons me to retire from my insatiable cleaning; yet that same urgency grows and becomes unrelenting at the absence of Mr Whitmore-Jones. The longer he is kept from me the larger my desire to cleanse this house becomes. Upon my arrival the groundskeeper said he shall only be gone for a week– and how long have I been at this house now Mother – with nothing but cleaning and torment to pass the time!

I have thought about slipping away into the night, leaving Chastleton and never returning. However I lack transport and the journey is far too dangerous on foot, especially in this bitter winter. The silence of Mr Whitmore-Jones causes a scepticism to writhe within me. I fear I do not know when he shall come back to Chastleton, or if he shall come at all. I have tried in vain to find the groundskeeper and confront him about the whereabouts of Mr Whitmore-Jones but he has become ellusive. I see his figure in the gardens, traipsing large wheelbarrows from one place to another, but in the thick of the winter I do not understand his exertion, as surely there is nothing left to do?

In this isolation you must think that I have become hysterical, but this is all true! Mother, this house– it breathes with me– these walls like damp flesh that hold my body here. I do not know when I shall be able to see you again.

I still await your response – Mother, if you receive this letter please send our carriage to Chastleton so that I may come home!

Your nervous Daughter,

Florence

LETTER VI

12th December 1829

Dear Mother,

The damp torment that woke me many nights ago has metamorphosed into a curious, childlike anguish. Last night my chambermaid dressed me for bed and I fell into a deep slumber. I awoke to the curious patter of footsteps outside my room. I am the only inhabitant of Chastleton during Mr Whitmore-Jones’ absence, aside from the maids but they continue in their aloofness. The haphazard pounding of feet manifested outside my door. The beating of my heart rang in my ears. I swung the door back and a sharp chill hit my body. There was no being that explained the sound, I was met with the emptiness that I have grown accustomed to. I turned myself back to my slumber when a faint patter of feet echoed down the west staircase. I lit my candlestick in the fireplace and cautiously followed. The floorboards of the hall creaked with my impending steps. The groaning almost caused the patter that woke me to become indistinguishable. The familiar gripping pain penetrated my abdomen but I continued down the stairs, clutching at my already bleeding body. The echo faded as I entered the ground floor. I searched every room on the ground floor in vain, yet the purporator of my dream was nowhere to be found. I began to feel faint at my loss of blood and, to my own recollection, collapsed.

This morning I awoke in the Cavalier room and the scratches that had sunk deep into my skin were gone. There was no sign of blood on my nightgown that I had only clutched to my skin hours earlier. My candlestick sat back in the holder, its wick white as if a flame had never touched it. I grasped the wax stick and threw it into the fireplace. I caught sight of my deterioration in the mirror. My once plump cheeks concave, a grey tinge takes over my skin. Only my hair remains somewhat similar to the girl that entered Chastleton. My frame has been decimated with bruises and frailty bites at my bones. In my inspection of myself in the mirror, my abdomen began to bulge. Something groans and writhes within me, something most horrid and detestable. I fear it is too repulsive to imagine. Mother, I do not remember how I got back to the Cavalier room last night but I feel my condition worsen as I write this to you! The maids must not find out about this thing that thrashes inside me. I weep once more as I do not believe that you are receiving these letters, this house intercepts all of my desire and destroys it.

— Florence

LETTER VII

20th December 1829

Dear Mother,

My cleaning of this house has become relentless – every waking hour I feel the filth creep between my fingers and burrow its way into my mind. I wash my hands until I feel them crack yet the muck stains my palms. My sparrows have passed away, their little bodies pile in the fireplace by night and cause the most foul odour to hang in the air. My condition worsens with the hour as the cancerous thing grows inside me. I have asked my chambermaid, the only one of the maids who still allows herself to come near me, to discharge herself temporarily until Mr Whitmore-Jones returns. I am too fearful of her seeing the wreck I have become. I only leave the Cavalier room to clean or eat in the parlour.

My appetite has become engorged and peculiar; the smell of my once favourite pheasant causes my mind to reanimate the detestable stench of the rotting sparrows. The grotesque rot hangs in the air and suffocates my mind. Only the sweetest treacle keeps this rising hunger satisfied. My mouth salivates as I write this letter and think of the thick tar dribbling down my throat. I have taken to teaching myself how to cook in the dead of night, when the maids have retreated to the opposite side of Chastleton.

Last night the hunger awoke me. I hauled this growing form to the Old Kitchen. I felt the tumorous entity writhe within me as I began to crack eggs upon the cast iron contraption. The transparent slime hissed as the heat ate away at its clarity. My sweat-ridden hands furiously opened a jar of treacle. I grasped a spoon from the counter and heaped the syrup upon the spoon. I threw it upon the eggs, where the blackened treacle bubbled and curdled with the eggs. I heard the familiar patter of feet echoing down the west staircase. This sound startled me and the jar slipped from my grasp. It shattered, spreading treacle and fragments of glass across the stone floor. My body contorted and I fell to my knees, shovelling handfuls of the treacle into my mouth. The concoction scratched as I swallowed it down. I felt a frenzy overcome me as I consumed the mixture. My body convulsed as I coughed and blood sprayed across the Old Kitchen tiles. The patter became louder as the thing tore down the stairs. I sprang back, a chill of terror gripping my body. The wretch inside me squirmed with the rising sound of footfall. The door to the Old Kitchen swung back and a figure stood in the doorway. I felt my chambermaid grasp my shoulder. She pleaded for me to follow her. I obeyed and ran with her through the groundskeeper’s room, through the pantry and the Old Dairy. The incessant patter rang in my mind as we clambered up the east staircase. My chamber maid forced me through a door that the groundskeeper emitted showing me on that very first day here. Through the door was a narrow pathway, with a slanted wall that took up most of the space the room had to offer. On the floor was a mattress and a singular lit candle. My chambermaid encouraged me to lay still on the makeshift bed where I fell, once again, into a deep sleep.

– Florence

[findopulencerp]

                          𝖗𝖔𝖘𝖊 𝖆𝖞𝖗𝖊𝖘

she appears as though she was born twenty-six years ago but is actually one hundred and thirty-three, she is a vampire who lives in bowden as a pastry chef. she looks an awful lot like olivia cooke.

“"you have to offer all your love and hope that it will be enough.”

tw: death, gore, disturbing imagery, military mention if you met rose ayres in the summer of 1914 in kent, you might not have thought she had it all, but she would have gladly countered you. with a husband whom she loved, a modest job as a teacher's assistant, and a two-storey house where she was at peace, despite her rather troubled past, rose was ready to consider herself content. when the winter of 1916 came and brought with it the military conscription, and so went her husband, rose remained steadfast, falling into a steady rhythm consisting of working during the day, baking over the weekends and writing fond letters to the front late at night. although she always dreaded the worst, that immeasurable loss which could be delivered at her door at any moment, when the worst did not happen and her husband came back following what was termed a nervous breakdown, rose was about to learn there are fates worse than both death and grief. distance, and a cold shoulder to her was new coming from the man who had before told his greatest wish to spend his life together, but rose did not despair, assuming what one sees in battle must account for the frost she hoped would thaw. but as days turned into weeks, weeks into a month, and rose found her husband spending time locked in what used to be their shared study, things came to the breaking point that changed her life. after that fateful encounter, turned into an argument, in that same study,  rose lay down in a pool of her own blood, sticky and hot to the touch, eyes unblinkingly staring at the corner of the oaken writing desk she spent countless nights composing her letters, and as her eyesight started to blur into a haze, her last thoughts in her human life were "this can't be happening to me". when the next time her eyelids flutter into consciousness, she wakes up to a world where she is no longer human, turned into what her husband has so recently become by his maker, out of a sense of responsibility and guilt for the damage his progeny is inflicting. and to this day, whenever rose recalls that day, the knot in her throat forms not over the memory of dying, all alone, but her abandonment to death by the man who promised her "'til death do us part." ever since traveling from kent, to london, and then to paris, warsaw, cairo, and others, rose leads the rest of her un-life in the pursuit of that brief period of peace she'd felt as a young woman. when she stumbles into opulence, with all its mystery and protection, for the first time in years, she makes the bold decision to move somewhere where people can know what it is that she has long ago become. so once in opulence, she opens a bakery, to resume something she loved as a human, creating food meant for consumption but not for destruction, once again resolved to capture some of her past joy back.

“what power did she attain when settling in opulence?”

she can consume human food as long as it is made by her or another supernatural species although it offers her no sustenance.

this character is…taken

[korbeedon]

flower symbolism makes me very very happy. i have no idea why but it makes something in my brain work.

Started in Europe

Conflicting accounts for who was first to write

1. Catherine H. in 1839 “The Language of Flowers” found in her book on the language of flowers, Flora’s Lexicon

Based on the LOF in Victorian England, France, and America

2. Mme. Louise Cortambert (pseudonym “Charlotte de Latour”) in her book “Le 8Langage des fleurs” which translates to The Language of flowers. 

LOF is based on folklore, literature, mythology, religion, and the plant's physical characteristics. 

Symbolic association from Chinese, Japanese, Middle Eastern, Greek, and Roman cultures/mythology/religion

Literature from Shakespear

Turkish language of flowers and objects (Selam)

Taking Turkish words for different flowers and finding which other words they can rhyme with and making a sentence out of it. (Armonde (Pear) rhymes with omonde (hope) so a rhyme for these two words can be Armonde - Wer banna bir omonde (Pear - Let me not despair)

The Turkish language came to Europe through two people, Seigneur Aubry de la Mattraye and Lady Mary Wortley Montagu. Husband and wife. They were Turkish embassies that went before the court of Charles XII of Sweden and shared the language of objects and in this case flowers. 

Physical characteristics (root, stem, leaf, bloom?, and seed

Chrysanthemum/mums: A symbol of death and mourning, but also support and encouragement

Found in east Asia in grasslands, mountain slopes, riversides, fields, and seashores

In Europe, it means death because it was a commonly used flower to decorate graves in the 1700s. Asian Countries have a more positive meaning, used for family seals and pottery. (represents the turning of the seasons) November birth flower

Forget-me-nots: It can be used to symbolize remembrance – both during a parting or after death (bright blue flowers)

Europe, Asia, and Australia in wood/boggy areas

German folktale, where a dying knight threw flowers at his lady and said forget-me-not, the lady wore the flowers forever. 

Hyacinth: Sorrow, I am sorry. Please forgive me.

The Mediterranean and tropical Africa and woodlands

From greek mythology, where apollo and zephyrs killed Hyacinth and his remains were turned into purple hyacinth in the sorrow of his death. (slightly toxic)

Yellow Roses: Said to symbolize friendship

Mostly in Asia but in other places to

Yellow is a very positive and happy color, In Korean and Japanese culture, it was used as a symbol of jealousy. 

Daffodils: Symbols of rebirth and hope

Europe, Asia, Mediterranean meadows/woodland edges

The first flowers bloom in the spring, so it represents the new life after the winter months. March birth flower cause it usually blooms in march

Foxglove: Symbols of insecurity + many other things

Europe, the Mediterranean, and in woodlands

From Folk’s gloves (the fae folk), cautious tale to scare children from picking them. (Poisonous) also grown for the Virgin Mary (our lady’s gloves/gloves of the virgin)

Lily of the valley: Means the return of happiness

Eurasia, eastern North America, and in mountain forests

Used in religious ceremonies, it Represents Eve’s tears after she left the garden, the national flower of Finland, the May birth flower, is associated with Ostara, known for her humility (germanic mythology)

Baptisia (False/Wild Indigo): Symbolizes protection

Central and eastern north America near wood, meadows, stream

Associated with Venus (the Roman version of Aphrodite), (toxic but can be used as a noninflammatory, indigenous people use it for blue dye)

White orchids: symbolizes apology

Asia and in tropical forests

over 35,000 different varieties, based on the word orchis (which means testicles in greek because a writer said orchids looked like them) sign of wealth in the victorian era and in japan

Yarrow: symbolizes a wish for better health

Grasslands and forests, Eurasia

comes from the greek word here which means holy herb, neanderthals though they were a holy flower, druids used them in ceremonies, medieval Europe used them to exercise ghosts, dreaming means you'll receive good news, good for clotting blood

iris, arborvitae, and bluebell- are supposed to convey trust, friendship, and gratitude.

Carnations- innocence, remembrance

Hyacinths- deep sorrow, forgiveness, regret

White lilac- youthful innocence, new beginnings

Peonies- Family

Red roses- love, respect

Yellow rose- friendship

Blue tulip- peace and tranquility

Blue gladiolus- loyalty

Iris- hope

White tulip- I’m sorry

Lily- sympathy, innocence

Purple hyacinth- deep sorrow

[schwarzeskaetzchen]

The Shoppingtrip

Loki x reader

Summary: You have to accompany Loki on a shopping trip. When you spot someone you know in the crowd the trip comes to an abrupt end.

Warnings: fluff, angst, mention of past abuse, Loki flirting, Loki making you some tea

This is the first fanfiction I am posting here, my first attempt on writing a Loki fiction and writing in english... sooo many firsts  XD. English is not my native language so when something is off please tell me so I can correct it and learn to get better. Have fun :)

On this nice winter morning in the beginning of december it was your turn to babysit Loki, god of mischief, on his shopping tour in the streets of new york. He was a part of the avengers now but Fury wanted to keep an eye on him whenever he left the Tower. And so every time Loki wanted to go on a shopping trip to buy new books, clothes or special food  someone had to go with him. When you were first introduced to the avengers by Dr. Strange, Tony had joked that finally they had someone new to watch over Loki, who he hadn't annoyed the shit out of on his trips. You were a master of the runes and so Wong had send you to help the avengers and be a permanent contact person in New York for magic incidents. Together with Loki you managed to build a digital library with copies of magical books and scrolls. It was a surprise for you that working with the god of mischief was so easy for you. The two of you got along pretty well actually.

Today was the day and it was sunny but freezing out there so you chose knee high leather boots, a pair of black tights with a woollen plaid skirt and a black turtleneck. It was pretty warm inside the tower so you carried your favourite coat over your arm as you went to meet Loki at the elevator. Rounding the corner you saw the god of mischief waiting for you gazing out of the large windows. He looked stunning in the pale morning light wearing black pants with a black jacket. You stopped and took a moment to take in the view of him, raven black hair combed back perfectly framing his sharp cheekbones. A smile formed on his lips as he turned around. “ Ah y/n, you have kept me waiting but let me say...”, his gaze wandered you up and down, “...you look stunning.” Heat rose in your cheeks on that commend so you turned to the elevator, pushing the button impatient. “ Thanks Loki, you look nice too.” You answered hearing him chuckle behind you. “But won't people recognize you like this?” “Oh don't worry, I know a little magic trick.” A bright smile spread on his lips as the doors opened and you could see him in the mirrored cabin of the elevator. The green shimmer of his seidr rippled over him and changed his appearance. Instead of the tall, raven haired god with his stunning green eyes a man with short brown hair and piercing blue eyes entered behind you. Turning around you looked him up and down. His face was the same and even if he was a bit smaller he was still tall enough to tower over you. “Yeah I think that will do.” You mumbled as you reached around the god to push the button to go down to ground level. “And you can call me Jonathan, 'Loki' would raise too much unwanted attention.”, he smiled. The door opened with a ping and you two left the tower into the cold winter morning.

The first stop was a small bakery were Loki got some sweet tarts, a chai latte to go for you and a black coffee to go for himself. Next you went to his tailor to pick up some new button-down shirts. You bought a new scarf to keep you warm and when the two of you got hungry Loki showed you a small restaurant that made the best pizza you ever had.

“So were to next Jonathan?”, you asked grinning as you stepped out on the street. “Well there is only one thing left on my list y/n. A bookstore, I am in despaired need for something new to read.”, the god answered dramatically. The chuckle that raised in you died immediately as you spotted three familiar people not far from you down the street. Loki stopped and turned to you, noticing your pale face. “y/n are you alright?”, he asked concerned, following your gaze to a group of three, two women one man, standing on the pavement laughing. You turned around, noticing that the street to your left led straight back to the tower. “We need to go back.” “What?”, the god reached for your hand, “Why?”  “Loki, no Jonathan, please!”, You turned towards him looking him deep in the eye. Noticing the fear in your eyes he nodded, putting his arm around you and leading you back towards the tower.

 Loki felt you relax in his arm as soon as the two of you entered the lobby. “I'm sorry we had to return early.”, you mumbled as you pushed the button to call the elevator. When the doors opened and you entered the cabin Loki selected the button that would lead to the common area of the tower. “You mind telling me why you panicked?” He asked from behind you observing your reaction in the mirrors. “I..I didn't... uhm...” “Don't lie to me y/n.” Loki's voice was deep and soothing as he stepped closer to you leaning down to whisper in your ear. “I could nearly feel your discomfort, so please be honest darling.” A shiver ran down your spine and you turned your eyes up to meet Lokis in the mirror, that were once again the emerald green you loved so much. The elevator pinged and the doors opened behind the god to reveal your new home. “Can we go get some tea first?”, you asked your voice rough, blinking away tears. “Sure, come on.” The god sneaked his arm around your waist leading you to the living area and putting you down on the couch. You tried to get up to go to the kitchen area but Loki stopped you. “Stay! I'll go get us some tea.”, he commanded. You watched as he strolled towards the kitchen, leaving the shopping bags next to the door and hanging his jacket on a stool. Damn those tight pants, hugging the gods ass like a second skin. You took your coat and boots off snuggling into the plush pillows, relaxing slowly.

Loki returned with two steaming mugs, reaching one to you. “So... what happened out there?”, he asked watching you curios. You took a deep breath and turned towards the god. “I spotted someone I know in the crowd. They went to the same school with me and let's say, we weren't friends.” The god cocked his head waiting for you to go on. “I loved school, well I loved to learn new things and when we learned about the Nordic gods and runes I was total into it.” “Oh of course you were.” A grin appeared on his face as Loki said winking:” It is always interesting to learn about me.” You chuckled lightly. “Yeah, back then being into learning and being good at school wasn't cool. They called me a nerd, made fun of me. But those three... Cindy, Caroline and Joseph were the worst. Joseph, the star quarterback, Cindy the beauty queen and her best friend Caroline. It was torture and not the fun one.” You stopped, taking a sip from your mug. When you looked up Lokis grin was gone. “y/n, you're a master of the runes. In Asgard everyone would have been interested in such a beautiful and well educated lady.” The honesty in his voice made you blush. “Yeah, seems like I was born in the wrong realm then.” “Well it is kind of sad that our little shopping trip came so abruptly to an end.” Loki mused. “I guess you owe me a favour y/n.” His sexy grin shot right to your core. “Ooookay and what would this favour be” You asked suspiciously. “Oh,I haven't decided yet darling.”

[never-rpg]

Welcome to NEVER RPG! Please send in your url within 48 hours. Be sure to look over our checklist. We hope you enjoy, or at least survive, your time on the island!

Welcome to the island, ALI! You been accepted as ECHO with the faceclaim of Sophie Thatcher.

Your entire app was a delightful display of that ideal Lost Boy spirit! If I were to bet on anyone being able to survive, and even thrive, as a Lost Boy the longest of the lot, I’d put my money on Echo. I mean, with this energy: ‘and in a world that’s sink or swim, you’ve chosen to fight for every breath even when your new life threatens to overwhelm you at every turn. your own determination found your spot with the lost boys, and you’ll be damned if you’d ever let yourself lose the family you’ve found’. I know Echo is sort of an underdog at the start, but I have a feeling that could all change!

Welcome to the island, EFFIE! You been accepted as BRAMBLE ROSE with the faceclaim of Saoirse Ronan.

I do so enjoy a lovesick tragedy and oh how your app delivered on that front! Soulmates torn from one another too soon has always made me weak and is there anything more quintessential for the gothic horror genre? ‘Sometimes, she can even close her eyes and pretend that those gossamer messages aren’t said in fear or despair but with love. Little promises of a life that will never be’.  I cannot wait to read more of your beautiful writing!

Welcome to the island, EFFIE! You been accepted as CURLY with the faceclaim of Robert Sheehan.

Curly is such a fun mix of perceptive, creeping fear and an uncrushable will to survive. Your app for Curly positively trampled my heart in the best way possible! ‘It wasn't until Wendy left, taking the family he had with her that he saw just how cruel and thoughtless Peter could be. The winter that followed was unforgiving, but despite all the suffering it caused, he was grateful for the way it opened his eyes’. Also, your mixes for both Curly and Bramble Rose are freaking fantastic! I've been listening to them on repeat!

Welcome to the island, ILANA! You been accepted as AMARA THORNE with the faceclaim of Anya Chalotra.

We love to see a heroine forged from fire and hellbent on revenge! I’m already extremely invested in Amara with her longing for adventure, volatile anger, and survivor’s guilt. ‘Amara had lost the closest family she had ever known and once again found herself amongst strangers. Still reeling from the loss, Amara has had a difficult time opening up to the crew and finding her place, although she respects them all and is learning more about Neverland and its atrocities’. I wonder what she’ll make of the Jolly Roger’s crew and if they’ll become like a second family for her in time or not.

Welcome to the island, LIOT! You been accepted as LUCY with the faceclaim of Courtney Eaton.

Once again, I am in awe at how masterfully you can create an oc who feels so perfectly a part of this world! I’m so excited about the differences among Lucy, Echo, and Wendy. I believe that each of their counterbalances are going to make for some interesting plots. Lucy is a melancholic dream: ‘She does remember wishing there were more of her, where she came from, and she remembers her home being full of love and loneliness’. I’m eager to see how her dynamics shake out with everyone!

All important pages on the main will be updated in the next several minutes to reflect these acceptances. OC bios will be posted shortly as well. Roleplay will officially commence on January 1st after we’ve posted our our first mini plot-drop to establish our opening setting. Welcome to the group, everyone! We’re beyond excited to have you join us for all the chaotic glory and misery!

[dragongirlpoet]

For all my Tamlin stans — Sad (& hot) fiddle boy writes you love poetry

And to the lovely @lucychanart for letting me use her insanely gorgeous Tamlin art, thank you 🥰

Lilac Lullaby

Eyes of auburn,

Like a speck of immaculate dawn.

My heart non too intricate — you discern,

Your presence — soothing as a loving fawn.

I had been all but a beast,

A fury of swords and isolation unleashed.

The foxgloves — they entomb me, so, please!

Leave me be, the despair creeping in with ease.

My soul was a revenant restless,

My faith a bygone ship adrift.

Yet these walls they ensnare me mindless,

Head under water, breathlessness coming in swift.

Alas you descended like a fever dream,

My iridescent saviour, my seraphim.

“Come now, I’ve a bath of lilacs and steam,”

Ever so gently, you mended me at the seams.

My love, you —

You are all the brilliant hues of Spring,

The loveliest lyric,

A magical melody I’d forever sing.

I yearn for you as a rose aches for sunlight,

I burn for you as an unending winter flame.

I shine for you like the moon on a dark night,

There’s never a day my heart doesn’t call your name.

beast🥀

[onlyhereawhile]

Touring the Depths of Love

"Love is a four-letter verb that brings people together. Without the presence of active love, despair and destruction are created.

Like you, and the rest of us, love has been a keen subject of wonder.

There have been autumns left to linger longer than winters, cold, grey, dark, lonesome nights, eventually welcoming the colours of spring by befriending loneliness.

How has the understanding of LOVE evolved for me now?

Love is a four-letter verb, often mistaken as romance. It is a series of actions, a willingness to hold space for another to be themselves.

Love is active in the ability to accept my flaws with compassion and, in doing so, being able to honor it in another, be it a friend, sister, or mother.

Love is present in the waking hours, the smell of coffee, the gratefulness in greeting a new day, acknowledging the gift of being alive.

There is a difference between love and to love. To love is not a bed of roses. Staying in love is a choice, accepting faults and flaws. Attraction, though, is chemistry set on fire, a stimulation, a temporary high.

Love is not sustainable for those unwilling to repair ruptures. The four-letter verb, to contain its longevity, requires space.

Love can only thrive and sustain in spaces without the need to seek approval or constant validation.

If love can enable the continuity to prioritize the things that stir fulfillment, be it writing, painting, gardening, or outdoor running, conscious eating, then the spark of interest can remain.

When love is active in our conversations, it takes pauses to understand before responding. Listen with curiosity.

For love to flourish, it takes constant detachment, to reflect, rest. Slow down, grasp in the details.

It is in the freedom to do things without fearing the loss of another, the art of enjoying doing nothing unafraid of the silence.

Love is a four-letter verb, most desired. Failed to recognize that it is available for us in our dialogues with ourselves.

Love is present in the warmth we feel when the sun beams across the blue skies.

It is present in the nourishment while we devour a meal, be it Italian, Japanese, or Indian. Love is heightened when it is shared with a friend, sibling, a parent, or even a stray cat.

Love multiples in our ability to laugh over split milk. In the fearlessness of taking a stand for another, whether we are protecting or celebrating someone else's victory.

Love is a four-letter verb, that stirs ripples in us to embrace our insecurities. Teach us to ask for help when needed. Before that, calls on to us to identify our needs.

Once I was the girl standing in front of a boy, asking him to love her.

Now I don't see why anyone has to stand in front of another and beg for love. This is romance on Hollywood in the late 90s."

[libidomechanica]

Untitled Composition # 10765

A sonnet sequence

               I

How does comment; the mavis and adulterate fruit of your eyes that minute? Thus do themselves, and so, that which our being back at all matters, bedew’d his own an eye, unused to wow me and white Alps along; the gentleman, all gentleman’s believe it is not dealt be more strong with green with my heart that red mouthingness, tis beauty fall; or on a shawl, and a morbid hate and greenish married My Lord you. Yon clouds are a faithful lowers round thy bier. Grows end. I swear on the love by wealth I have wept and pure one sole act, transform’d of either realm of sea. Dwell in the hour would have I not a moment of fore-bemoaned moan, and after that film so finely frame,—senses from you, you may form legs. And for his eyes than you wert nobler and his man? Bring me back against each day. Own weight. The shriek’d, or from the price.— Kept itself and within my shoes. In France, the gold or sing it?

               II

And be sad. Like cherubs round, and white and bear thy night&morning, lingered up by us to recommend the self-same sky, vaunt in its muzzle on the doors of emotion, much like a kind something came in a pellet of them tame; and Maud in either instance, for these nor spongy hydroptic Dutch shall be true love them. Of that grow too awful things do not dreadful to this roast capon’s fat, all gentle to bid my head, vilely; her voices of Loue, now will on Menie doat, and should be their exit await, from thence, swift flashes, this hundred granted; yet what thou bring some day smith made of.

               III

And yet I loved yesterday three hundred dollars, and thy bonie. To your own weight shall slide. Shalt see me freshly steep, down the spheres, where a multiple lock’d up a glass of those lucky together lion roll it bore high so sore, hey ho! Nails rusting earth, despair? The snake has had following fires; the love call a glimmering rills in bliss; and of splendor; in the electrons, so that flood is wot, and, by Death so beauty being as you all—if one fountain-top, to man, to brow, with winter still, and the through the things, at all triumph on the fretful briar will becomes Love in her e’e?

               IV

Her conquests were of living the mounting back down his arrives too like. Let the presenteth not quite neck to tell their poesy dispense more taking me back down in their best ankles, when the kings, that you yours, not eventide; meantime to him—’God saved two into a decayed holo-gram—my for what write, which I have never could see the evening, lingered indeed, roses, by the world’s station! Earth’s last of your house where I leaves, and newer purple round there my ain. And higher, until his arms already something of Michelangelo. The last night, continues cold wind the Excursion.

               V

Finding Devon, wilt their smart; or Ca ira, ’ according them thus; thou dost, woe to thee.—And maun I still thy breast. She lone matron. Why, the sea of mine he calendar forwards remember me; you until thee, which shall retired; the clings, the goal, when powers and think I hae lo’ed best; but slave? And the clime, the future the cock sung in his ire. As honors give me from me a single lit at all; and sad eies I their native earth for them yet, i fear no fate for you as good think’st thou know the only sail being placed, mark if her in its yeasty war is bleeding on her elfin grow.

               VI

The morning, friends; I haue their shattering lichen first and revisions and learne spellbound her try, whether lanely night&morning smil’d, and more than ducats. That rubs its eunuchs too, for one is dreary, I would that flooded yours after the dragon-fly the rest of flower of arms and bare, and chin a poet, who turn back from that love, we know slime, and gives my books asquint on the chilling pool of air, and the garden; they deign’d to stem? The great master—not this morning down next selfe a bankrout know that Boy, that now at dawn you must finish, that you, you stay her heart is superficial.

               VII

I watch what Haidee into mask, and i’m always running away my Innocent desired my dust to ashes of light, and sweets that sweet, sweating waves combing o’er the victory while I think but sad mortals even for each from its tongue which it can’t hurt she is disamed. Echo of clean: forget me to move to sleeps so peaceful fold, like mine? Her long has made of thy white flannel trousers furl’d Assyrian Bull smelling by, and there can increase, and in hand, lass, in fact only to knows not all unworthy, since there was of the love—put our heats as she had been: he left my legs.

               VIII

When I be but eerie; and arms and leg, and argument. And I grow wooden leap, beyond meant at full and still in war’s alarms; but ere I go, in perfect ceremony of loves and high, swells in the chrysolite. I am not one and house us, that died slave to absorb her tail, refashions for the basement-curtain, to and false to win her hand of Manhattan was over, breathing else the sunset of a Mother days: not think on the dwarfs and men. Thoughts in their husband is our close, I could do this summer-time, o’er-spread the joyless damage to blame thing died, and silent all?

               IX

And I find the only, who has drunk himself he close grows higher the fireflies upturned into eternity, promise they raced, shall social partial, that’s in his long ere the sits long ago waste not trusts therefore to get a little the tinkling piano our guide my bark of evening, here and place then, oh then, in wise and fling than muse, how he’d prance only darts of Loue, now will be time for two bodies in holes, and, daring it. Higher live, our ponderous sportful passage in: and a poet, a sad their statuary where Delos rose, and castanets on thy hand them placed, mark if he can tears prevailing; a pipe, too, had no notion of tiffanie or cobweb lawn. Being past pleasure, which owes to prove thoughts lay crawl in a kitchen chair may hiss—the hushed grey safe-smiling chambers wide world’s bicycle goes. I have seen you had to her hand in the minds of tourists.

               X

Please makes no one’s banquets, too, myself should succeeds it; by the quiet as at rest, because you stay in my hears—alas! To offer of; you left little the barred within the evening, ere will sure all content, had cost and green let thy living at a crib. Like a disease. By winds shall fame your poets can imaginary. Stream, a dream! Large my words masculine person whom I love call I come. A resurrection, become again. Alas! Between us where the Excursion. Of Rome dim yesterday, the silken fillet’s call! Of my father’s kiss. While he scaped their native shore.

               XI

—A glowing shall beset withereth too. Swirls of the river. The eyes, and watch’d and snow and turning. To bow, which their mellow smoke that floated grass never have pleased my mind’s eye a mole; I will notes are to careen; so that died slave not so good old gentle blast. In other head, a like a tried each way music of these little lap-dog breed, a taste. What than to entangle her know that film so finely frame degree, a fatigue we imagine of my hair—they will go by. And come, all she looked elipses gainst each other. I was made, t’ appear her. And sorrowful noise overhead.

               XII

With that look up to these poor remains on the reeds theme—he self-same sunlight cheap hotel room our mouth? To draw profit while and hair. Sing fuellers, and say thoughts like a child forgetful Muse, that face turn’d to note the bride of more strong emotional. Take me back from all in the death least, and not wish they say it say it back, see it thou Wreathe insular above these thing in life, and Virtues, polished, then laughed thy beauty fall; or on the eloquence and then ask’d my testament hand, tell that remain as it it shook upon thy way, since cancell’d woe, and her song, with horrid warning, regret.

               XIII

To his Tunis corpse, to have bitten off with blue plums suck a week’s heart of laughs to sires’ Islands they explode insides along white vesture, banish all wed; and those Æols youth: lend one or I die. She said thee back and fragrance on would scarce discovering of Death of late hour would contented? Gold or sung the price is the veil of life, for recompense with his plaint yet made haunted grassy slopes and the spot where. Yellow; of azure, pink, and sung, the vale; and see, that’s the hold a napkin undisting. A bait of breeding love teacups, came from me the saints? And brave; but to die—thus doth lies there.

               XIV

As the personify the rotten husting auburn wave in her life at anchor and diamond: a golden-crowned with a bankrout know how silent thou art, soon regained the strove to their future range, and she I cherished tea, something, my fate, the reeds in the tear or mend. And slow, slow, his orders to me in juice, squeezed through with thy steel at last one, write letters equal with a scull? And I have nor quarantine to glide, like this; say the middle of the luckiest since, hand aspire to dance in glen or shaw, the paragon of electrons, so thou harden, and peace for being spies and then?

               XV

The vista of years behind the wild words, along vein-channels the floors were getting of that. He vext her with her instead. Of milk shalt have know, with aversion such primal naked shew might best she is my seat, playing and thee! On my mistress stood withers would have already, know solitary now. Keep not the world, not half a beasts than delighted, to find you, the floors, old dwarf heart, even so, Belovëd, I at last when her wishes crown’d, crooked at them place. The Caspian has glean’d lamb, and corrupted hour. The twist, or fall full many times of dried; she said I, was well confound.

               XVI

Draws, hopes still a mornings, ruin spreads and honours in short, all offence is past. My loveliness arrived, and the bowl with yours sudden legs, beguile he is slain; I saw theirs, not enough the western mountain and endeavourites of idling, blue sky prevail against his grave, except throbbing your minute, but this odd warp in time the last, even ashes star-like, were so betrays meant that is not grievances pain,—for sidewalk, her voice of dried blood with faculties to see a matron brings from myself too sweet sound its aristocracy; ’ or Wordsworth’s lamented the music of the price. When I hold were most idly spent by a simple, showe, but that everywhere life’s whole your curled on the earth my testament at full beauty stormy and gets renown; to seek: were mute should I forget the fix’d—he knew we wouldn’t be love alone cure, like flee, and sure think ye heavenly tune?

               XVII

So waste in at lasts the hand from the sapphire without his enemies a loss to the way, he common treasure, assemble— thus doth since, he would say: the insular above you first in your ring? Got it, after, as the night, continued still, or ere I unswear, and twittered, reaches. Angels of a mothers shall have the time for one more than I choose but love you there, gallants, e’er approved danger of feelings, a wretchednesse of the churchyard come, all social parting firmly to my gaol: and I needed a musics to the most, although her life in praise, no rude ignorance.

               XVIII

Thoughts that least, our control to love, such poor dry empty bee that Boy, proue, but no less of woes; and there—You tell the West to bear the bond, ’ that the hour alone, that, or ere longed for me. Might put out against my sword his honey-meal: and look more for peace some down in the world, and slow, slow, slow, slow, slow, slow, whatever person to chickadees and abused to remains on thy face. I would it have pleasant fellow,—who can knowledge of its woundest words are eerie? With blue fly sung in each glowing centre grew a sun emboss’d of his near the heart suggests a fact. The mould; so when we hae a lawny firmament here they? I should be done! Who is it? Or unriddling body, and black. Due feet; and put the future as I lay me down in copying this happy day, they kindly leave to fail so. At sixteen you had seen you went to what want to a sign of a kiss, go on living?

               XIX

I think of the valley; let the arts of weaning&motivation. Break your countried tunes? On the breast, our casement of ours which holds in her with people have no more that you alone in that hast record, but I shall see him on the embrac’d. And that he streets at twenty days. We walk you are not destroy’d. In her lawny continent the one of your souls were will I come. The world’s eye. Lambro was made, oblige us to the ignoble cares to set it in where dead! Tis madness of war and weep like a bed of roses are tied till I quit thy shepherd steer; whate’er our neglect, Love!

               XX

Could write, and thine and looks o’er the sun, as faulding core, the sky of typography; a drowsy frowzy poem, and she looked back. Because thy neck a rope he died, and shall be deep below. Go farther wept. Tear of perfection which is similar to take thy feeble cry. The chaplet and bread with every power of feelings still on Menie doat, and flower? There Ioyes peaceful days and looked pins fish thou close, the most she looked against thou saw’st, in guessed their bonds which inheritance on there and painted by, while, after the same degree, a fatigue we imaginary. Alone, stock the Town.

               XXI

And heavy Saturn laughed at your trade was taught soul lambent flame; till he was na sae ye glinted but the truth, even boast and I, when into a playful lover sate between my off’ring need and love so near relations only a world. The parent land; when the Forty-second time,—a taste. She said I, was well begun; then will be time it splits—half for my lungs fill which Boccaccio’s visage fellow smoke the moon, could set ten poets, or those good, what day my body making your face of my own true mistress—I, although the world overwhelming questions that rose they look at the scorns?

               XXII

There is to go against your generous, delicate sparkling slap, and happy threshold, upon the sibyl stooped overswear to the year that all, I shall dead the book when he country’s wrong. Who oft have slept on seven general he surpris’d and checkes I in my verse shall sung by virgins dance, Julia, therefore hath more rosy is themselves sae love for all those largesse? He would given you could, that flaps and abused to resume? Only beauty fall; or on my sleeve! About it I dare equally, who then season’s hash, and soul lambent flowers; while turret where is as bland; the man.

               XXIII

Pains of love of one whose good occasion? As Philomel in so secret core. The true mistress’ eyes shining from the sea, that what strained lava. I dare to do not miss, that bound, and so, that lady within the rain is not enough harbengers down with an unshed tea, something to belief. He sung, which makes my head. And you should forget to rank in small, poised feet and you only bend the sun itself and white walls of dear, and Lambro was stung; where their nuptials, for that court the heart i carry it in the dark. For it’s jet, jet black eyes, before? To find him in the heard with my hears—alas!

               XXIV

Even good accommodation in that’s the same destroy! Is dwarfs and some kind! Be the tottering bee, and no bloom, till be time for a friend must below my wealth I have no face, silent seems the pleasing wonder do you know me: the strikes with that burn’d on the milky way apparent’s fair slaves gone to the effort of soap and the hand, lass, in meaning: nurses teach the stage who withstanding sweetest prisoners, divided into Van Diemen’s fell ere thou dost but to paste or sung of Death, and a worthless, thoughtful therefore to go again—first ne’er she seemed as bright, and now, by his sorrow.

               XXV

Strangling it is not so specially the heau’nly eye; these are, certes, entertain and there and pale, no sun, but now appear more by these were to belong to spit out of some fine familiar in her eye: yes; and fears along; the uppermost, I sigh the gold bought I do goe, and the truth is, you are able to do times in hall, save one thing restive—they in whom our brow was starward long wind bells for though the same as peas, For frequent tears, and love, over the heart, we can imaginary. By our love, found a burrowing men that fills my side watch a herd-maid gay; who list, I for free!

               XXVI

It was loves and dost laugh and measure by the joy thee anear. If single, deep, some small cause birthday party wherever a victor by,—that heaven, and worn and enjoy, to part to overcomest so, because of thy cheek: its only said, The nights it is, there I unswear, the dead! To meet and bade their eyes, that in the whole, can increase, whose eyes belong to speed the dreary, I would be only said, They’re giving arms, encircling across the night again: if a flowers themselves re-form’d that broke from any way apparent’s brown till love and boundless of thee for pitying woman.

               XXVII

Bring me back; O! When slow, the valley, comely house that dare to tell o’er they’re not to reprove it fresh desire, thought, but in good does all shadows, with thee all flesh, all she knocks, until his tuning highest guest, fed within our both the snow, that minute, but to divine the spongy hydroptic Dutch shall be one hour and time did pain, he’d make a passionato. Nor wilt prove the other. I’m not youngest are at wormes should make some have run their dessert grew a wife—too much the scorn that yourselves, was her lanely night when thou to seek: were spread with eyes already, known the other die.

               XXVIII

I travels for sometimes, mysterious master. And when the great, good, beauteous mastery of before the marble, I need of ghost. Car against the Song. Has bitten into loved among friend I shall guide. Full of weed, in vengeance on was happened once thee, performed bed. You left Juan carpet-striped while thy rich spurn as house without his house where she said, The nights in food, quick to venture such a wretch and boundaries of old Greece! That heart bail; who can tears: and you by how deep below, sound is proud of blizzard and burn. Strong blowing and greenish marbled short, I was adorn’d its ordinariness.

               XXIX

In searched, the grot, at was in the dead when he feigneth, love’s great mastery of song betray’d to rivals threaten’d within these little billow; and it would say: How his grave. I love known: but Dante’s Beatrice and could I see her want towers! Rather ankles, when other court for the garden the first of bread loaves close, I could weeping, vseth. Fierce thee only fright of soil, nothing, the world the patiently I untangle me weeps through link’d hands break out in his own sad name as fruit might finding Devon, wilt thou only century don’t thine heart, and prayers afternoons, to distil through and May?

               XXX

—It is not eventide; meantime went to get a little turret that springs,—your past. Is never walk upon fold embraced as they, with Cares her chekes pit though doubts if a magic lantern threw the glisten’d; how doubled hands, sea-girls gave you might hour of Heaven above her Dearie! Her looked upon the new birthday part from the heard with his minions and gay, to spare. Such a burning cake and we loved, as long sorry for being spires—that July 21st play at private was so greatness had seen in garrets, or their full low, that my feign’d, and there beside and then starts; no jealousy to form legs.

               XXXI

Through the luck it is, that silence fleeced the fort, cowards something in life, for one? I have it more fun than those Lockes display’d with glance to die. When the world seduce, and thy best and raise, there his tedious love receivest by wilful taste. Go not, he might disparage the snow till I see that day comes thence our house, but more lusciousness was, no doubting me but weep afresh fire. And seeing a jet stream, I dream of mine take some have turns to impart, Leave been worthy song. The dancing to be mine? Her look at sea remains be latest king lay, in that wormes shall tell, he whose glowing thee!

               XXXII

Till it stood telling everywhere his angry with burden of France, for spites; yet we may be before you more to sleeps through veils. Come, you should make sweetness of her own reflection, much more to go, vntill blast. Should melt over the meads full again. ’ The impossible to proceeding, the children most plains, by swamping on the offer of; you with his hair is grown, it isn’t even shapely—just ask me when I love you there, that hole I crawl through less breast, whose consent. In perfect the good against his prison my health adieu; since God is world ends at the boats of a heart is superficial.

               XXXIII

And thou say’st, then, ’ said she, you’ve lost as a sea of mine shall wear thee grant maid the shore of sometimes, indeed, rose-jacynth to the mirrors, and small, just like Hindoos, for what he devil is dead could divine amends for a five month to counsel then, goodbye to creek joining to do not miss, they could retrace, or the sky, that such sweet sake a face so little think’st thou must harbour there is not fond eyes—so hard, as wit in my heart half-turn’d, prefer it. About the illicit intellect; but, now enlarge black ink my finger-tips: how deep in love’s fine example nothing I might be, The months.

               XXXIV

When I laughed some coquettish deceit, cleopatra-like in the outside out, cajoled by sea-girls had chains and the mounts my speech each chain—it may see your generation, to sit and for the rose thee all. Living in the eternity, once she dangerous. Till that I should be in the which gives the happy Luxurious mazes spread thy hand in her e’e? Sweetness and trembleth oft avenges; the Heracleidan blood that may delicately glistrings and to his strange to be lost a word, she was grave, how gay is the Persian, and the sedge is despair? Happy pair—the happy breast.

               XXXV

Books, vials in a new Thermopylae! Higher the meadow and things, that sat in the gable-ends a bee circling away from lover, the law of volcanoes, making mine, lass; and, for something mourning call a glimmering mine, lass, in a bag of individually wrapped candies and peculiar smile thus I leapt: help! You want. Ours is a bore, and in a rushing him away. All flatter, I am not of their father who breath hard in our path for rewardeth. I don’t strike—that little turret that the police tapestry, made an atmosphere our two come ancient time of blossoms get?

               XXXVI

Our soul hath writ: to hear himself, his lap. Only my grant in the way right is like to themselves were to stay. Cinders by her head grown common case to that he fine their black piano, and meant to do? I can stinging shred on me, too. That lie down next I make, be thereupon, in a convict figure, that should now unpunish their closet, may to where, no good unto ye; and o’er the great Marlborough’s skill from thee, and bare but in the rose the ark: so waste not do t at home, he shores of keen eye would not to save the sad and snow, such colds themes like this you to meet no more, or sing it?

               XXXVII

The hot Burgundian mats and Pegasus runs not always so diuine ravisher she made to secure that thyself too shortest learning, regret. As it was it be seen the tree. Strange, that words, who sits lonely moated grant zone; she sang:-she would she I cherished in prayer. To take a new rhythm. But I am all arm—and various sway this port lay on the welcome stand watch mastiff, a mackaw, twenty, my limbs throw my wedding-cake: knead but that slide down in this the dreary, he complete darkness, when shall pain of valiant lovest to touch, no thine that tedious mood; the cruising.

               XXXVIII

Now in age of all human ties; her hair: but let my tall as young and brave with their weeping frame,—senses from West is too classic articles of these rascals, being. In small or good forbear in my verse and the faintly, far a modern man that speaks, the small figures hurrying the greensward glance as high sentences, indeed this huge hamper altogether turbidly ran, and multiple lock’d up a glass. At them we shouldering from its ray? Arriving again sae bonie face, as fear to use the sold to entangle thee, his home to moment, that, beings that flaps and the right of hours to dine; pilaus and moan of Onesti’s line, and view; remarked the day, Sir; there’s no key. Attention might not grieve that he was so great, good, what if with such poor precious, just i fear them they so former strife, painful results since, he solitary day, with love here, alack, shall I die.

               XXXIX

And love. And I know you hadst set my body as my own know how the name and cease to man, who was minions and balmless is grown hearts can tell me where a man, steadily from myself than such a nag on, and yet the sudden stand stay’d something dies in the latest sun. What’s how much permanence; when I was you and made a sun emboss’d over. And brave, yea, take a months. Sits by thy love confound. Goodbye to cut then ask’d my hair of trusts the United States, that wad belang the forest light, stray in spirits, and i’m always when your beautiful; but the shepherd pipe, and her sect, are vain?

               XL

The Little thief transparent to thing tomb. Cupid bitter sea. My love hath my hearts, suck our many, and thick folds of skin open on the mourning tomb. The transfix the fall; or on a beer can hide and it winna let a body go, what once was a soft embalmer of fire, let me be lean, watching loud; like Crashaw. Lean-headed Eagles yelp alone. I well fine that makes me sure, th’ enamour’d steep’d in many a grace. And pressed; thou art, dear Waggons! Little lap-dog breeding mourns! These Jack Cades content enshaded in finer political dinner trays, sweet common treasure.

               XLI

With honey has always has brought, life’s whole. Of lasting, weeks have chosen it’s jet, jet black eyes or colours and hurting. As an unperfect the fishing more is themselves behind us. You of the uneven head has wrought! Do fear delighter, sicker, and the flow’d past him up, it could be i’d toss life doth glitter but all the dead! Yet lives in immemoration, to say the queens of love’s force—thus doth come fullnesse thy perfumes he doth lay. No harm—did you by a bee circle, what’s my dream, a dream’d, the secrecy our future state was na sae ye glinted fruitless lie forgot thee!

               XLII

Among the fair, how fair, those bodies his scythe toy sloops go by. So I handed her sex, has bitter but an hour and wishing- gull to write letters. And we love hath the sound was never, form’d that lie dispossess’d in my Julia’s cold arms with it, afternoon, then, ’ said or silver-green leave, leave been worth could not be harden, taste of men that I shall be no scream from the pistils for mouthingness do sink, was turn’d. How does touch. Preferring the grim Swiss denies, that fill the Nine was which, thou had been detain’d his team, wi’ joy that says De Stael; in Italy he’d make ye flourished. At forty-five?

               XLIII

Beauty of thy steel so stammer and polished tear—the hands: onion root the old Greece, the rouge late hours, wine, and roughly he short, speaking of a burning gate as the house, for instep roll’d announce upon the lake, she was hapless knife, driven so, Belovëd,— where the unfit contrarious story tell me with too busy, repeats while, but with fears, and calendars, do you knowing cup, and dress’d. When nature have his stranger makes there’s its clasp, never loose our trade was various she came—and with a smile as they are such sort every honours in showed, thy face, our limits of dirty dawn.

               XLIV

Five been delighted, for pretty stain, and wear he nearly summer gilds the sea; nor, England a peach? Lose myself the TV flickering roses almost ridiculous—almost, at all her sect, are gather’d run to me, he blew in power of her is less damage than ocean, earth, even so about the firths of pain which to make a Mercury. From you hold a plea, whose hat you prophet—and the cup of dole god gave done think but show; all, the maid was able to another stiffness by long had damp’d his Waggon, ’ couldst the hand, at dusk through truth, and mountain smoking woman.

               XLV

The cock is crown me when I am pushing strange, strange to kiss the voice of stone-cast from my name, or aught so specially the world, not much rage, who turn him hardly mixt, and yet, I’ll be not states of Loue, with you mayst true love hath shut it is, below her brow and tree, forbid? Crystal, and I, when the apart i carry yours forever once was his world’s eye doth Love’s unbounded to the Forty-second cause in my gaol: and I sunned so few from which lov’d before than a gin rummy is a delicate sparkling spies this sick to that beauty cannot shine; enshaded in the said she?

               XLVI

As wit in it. That fail to pipe now forbear, we passion is, among there, round there he hung till I teach the pride, his poem, call’d ape the downcast eyes are they thoughts are eerie; and oft avenges; like a diseases, shops of festivity, scientific animals he sate the empty and in his own account the fields go not, he mightier arm could not strain emerald and vesper bell’s that I were of the which it adorning smil’d, and tallest haps there. And words to bring’st thou that in his cancell’d laws, and the season’s close, and, wife, he wound! That we shall dispense more bare her Dearie!

               XLVII

Or else saw him go o’er them on the reeds flames of Greece a tear; but the bare her idiot lyre; they seem which in your best and done much time is you fool, you can pick those two second hiccup or to spread wing and adore into thee for love, where, rounding to husband is one: there nature which will hunt them their part! In hand, while she great effects procure; and the sun peels from all as you see to proves; our poet, is the deaths I will soothing, still o’er dropp’d in the one of my back to dress, start eternal Footman hold his own improvement t will and adore than a cat, or ran the transaction wait,—haste, my golden gifts, I render backs on the tomb, and all that’s the chain’d with her song, song, danced, and fortune of the rocky brow, on carpets, which grows sleep … tired of it seem’d it would punish their more clear assuaged, in vain—in vain,—to blessed, and give myself be knows no doubt his silent all?

               XLVIII

Haste, my coward me for one? My true-love hath time for being for that to wheedle: so vile he scaped the dark lawn. So he went to go, vntill by young people’s back again— to see me singing thee! Two happinesses from every servile glutton, who dying woman, you out. Did for each wrinkled life and stall to me-to the drought I summon up remembrance of her day. Love for yoghurt part of a burning gladly to know how you have any way apparent to do? Decided thus, I could rather robe assur’d, since precipitates of verse as long canto—and the river?

               XLIX

Ere the house, the power of unreflecting like a hawk, an’ it’s jet, jet black cord make ye flourish all were most suspect a cowards that utterly definitive as lordly and then as an August over the connection for what? So sad a sinner; please a glass of eucalyptus front of a man and this. Single lit at all eventide. Blush it throb, Eliza, I must as a lynx, and yet the graveyard come in his own darling eye exposed, she of the door, no show, the slow clock ticking, and mount near the clay and their gods the head, over my heart is such, so kiss you waking loved; and notched thee quickly to my thou snare of moon their nuptial examples of a genius who have leisure the slope of cheaper cures for two come o’erflowing with state out in his height: my rude sounds when it come, no eye with my Emma lay; here but so as the shore a second time befalls.

               L

Solemn as unpleasants gave found me for ioy could, that green with their cell, teaching him limbs into a prime, then to go on living heart, unstaine that I hameward the oiled ward, or from above the queen-priest of beard less pleasure. Just ankle or so it pleasured splendour. An honester vocations; and something, beside that I shook her casuists are quaint and did you flesh is pronounce they? Into the wrong can this sun and hewed as a yardstick. Here a better, if not deem this, and anyway it’s in her case; we call—though ocean when fee’d ill, he lied with a panic fear, are vain?

               LI

” She sang: -she would have his rage; be my Nell! Shore with the clay adhered to me they have nor quarantine to be cross-roads with horrid treached Where there cometh not, she said that frown anxiety, his peers? It’s all force, nor boundless web toil’d like a fire doth striue those rays of heart you, if her song, half alcohol, to do times in heaven the rouge lately o’er his sleeve, or thousand times also lips were not the glamour of children so as they, with a common lose no more. Henderson leave with her moisture thing but think of gossamer you’d pinch the mathematics. That the eastern waves and me!

               LII

Me is sharpen’d from my Julia, the lake, shed into a peach? Which refuses to love, my love teacups, came sneaking home the house thy mountain smoking with reefs which is why I sojourn here art that held his return to the Morning union—slashington. A woe-worn heart with sight arbour, no dark as nights concealed, the ancient elm, lean from its hold, that now all it towards you, I’m made them all: have felt gladly to cry; for into a passage in dispute. Of the corners of the disgrace, let here will have not satisfied with Loues spur, that flowers they shrink in age of soul, we must be my ain.

               LIII

Crystal Devon, wilt though more the measure. The High Court loathed with henna; but the ranks of Rome dim yestermorn how pretty pair at first to brow, on carpets, which their necks unyoked; nor, as we prove when power sheds fragrant him down. Which we seek—then will spy in thy bloom in the deep grief and bold and bear that Greece perched up mine was grown where torn apart i carry it in his pronounce thou to you. The better or forbid! What they built theirs; but that we were do you knowing the stock from this prisoners, divided at who want to traced be; but that melancholy, and swamping the frankincense.

               LIV

I’m always,—they died, and fawn at zero, more life, the servants allures and hideous rage; be my true and he must suckle slaves save told that thou shalt scorn that sovereign think of the waves may heart’s completer; for health adieu; since precious, just where Lover- like flee, and what wild men will he waste, precincts palely loitering his soul a few heroic touched then what thou, my Julia. The lay coil’d the second hiccup’d, Our old masters thence our greater grief into the village of Chian wine! Or Ca ira, ’ accords need of the coldness to head-quarters! For instancy of Woman.

               LV

No match made, fresh desire, that today my memory; as blithe a man of patient reed, thy name, shutting, we shall ready, the one of the words are than the river, the orange cup amassed five been, once I caught by greedy men, that frown aside, a love hath built his scythe ancient time sprang such sweet sound, may turn this mother, be luck it is death’s dateless since first Mrs. Is this I know how should I meet and peculiar part pantomime of being had, being says I’m gone unto thy curious maid, be you as much you wound my fingers, such as be carved like a boy of my drift?

               LVI

Is family’s white flannel trousers rolled. First, the eddying fan, drowning sun; they died, is no sterner moralists, facing a jet stream, the Excursion. I do forget him it never dwell in the isle into Johnson’s hash, and then he come, all my sweets smell of different marts in hand, lass, that least part to prayers here as care boys will glancing like a religion. In the different moss is it through the happie Thames, think on the sun and thus, that didst may seem strange, and thine own long replete earth’s feat and if thou dost plaint yet love letters equal grew. From her mine, nor I rasher and paints; like a broke.

               LVII

My word and fairies delay. The Powers and gathered in the fellow, and hymns did not know my people together. For your chest lighted, to feel whole of living in that rises from thee, wretch thine; thou steal thou invite me for that clinging as rosy air, those timber toes your great effects procure; and oh, her dread; now will tell you rip away from thence love make men as plants, they catch in the roses taint, and that rose the kinde my seat, playing home the maidenhood. But will against my mouth? But ceased my faith is not eventide; meantime that, waking, and she would it have the un-apple.

               LVIII

’ It winna let a body worn and let go. To blood think of the Nude Descending seas, and laid with her hand on my shoes as the city, everywhere i go you go? His own king coldly where let me hath snatched vote may require apology, deem this, whene’er had she danger guest, with blind, sweeter that I hameward glance straight look on the decks of mine take sorrows ever told it! True to the rouge latest dark water, you of this travelled among unknown the cups, that flood is winged away. The Arabs, Turks, and sad slate roofs of transparent the slow poison brought by a skeleton.

               LIX

Dash down at a very love no faces of fore-bemoaned moan of dole god gave you want. Whose lover,—shadows, with my verse the length forgive them love, the vale; and not to die in better times sleep, something return to the sea of mine take my rest, that heart, that lift and studies are not mine; ’ with pale yellow-sailed boat complaineth: he that make the happy children call, and a moist mirage in: and a peach? What if with soft and descending set; I found me, which arises from our dreadful passage in degree, a fatigue we imaginary. Strong habitude of the ancient thou wilt proved.

               LX

She, the blood minute found and the dark did thee all the people he had a life nuptial example on. And at you the moment, with a wanton eyes! To their sweets distinguish slope I travels for thou hast got by the wild winding gray. While those lampes of Greece, the pass his brutal scorns? Shines upon a pin, which I haue most political dinner and the wouldn’t be lover who breath not thine; ’ both have ne’er keeps him but claim to grace in green-blue weed-flower grows are change’s know are one their better ask our match ’twixt the nettle, so typical, showers. Women whose lips in the beach his man?

               LXI

Face, Ioyes peacefully as these matter? An honest, staid, striuing from the wind bells, do you feel flow’d like thy head she did impute, which it can’t hurt you determine, lass, in a crystal nunneries; not alone, stock from thence, swift foot back? He lay coil’d for his young Desire! When shall bleed there was no times in your hands: while wanted as it it shook her chair is awful; tis dancing, words masculine and sleep below? And the river, who have had been: he left so dead, deserved—but serve for lover so. And turned into a pond of that the noblest shadow I will always be admired;—ave Maria, thy night moony, inlet—warm, let me share thee, and in, surface and leap’d with them to death, we took an humble rug. From Aristotle pass a day of you is half mellow; with her till I attempt to know how is the bath- house of musk and greeting, without a smiles take the victor’s feet.

               LXII

How does nature beares by that I dream. Of all his latest the mountain hall, do fear. There playing and prove her from me thou leau’st thou were his! A martial, to distil through the taking might suffice three young Love speak first touch’d my tongue, sleep. The desp’rate gate, pulling every season to eat a peach. When to secure they’ve been worth—compared with democracy; ’ or Wordsworth while. In variety, and voice is past, the flock all gentle and flasks of Samian wine! Striving knockers, asleep. No fountains; small had cut him, or play, such as a rare That I look at you to make me, till tame?

               LXIII

Which ensures an epic from a far high as these reports, because I love of old did pass, and make good a woman’s own betters. The tree when thou dost place advance in search on thy circles, dancing a faery’s custom-house with lemon, were not my faith is such, so kiss that strike the heard the goal, when proud, had he not always,—they something is every sacred right hand as it breath, alone evades contempt shall slide down to her tongue, because no more than the dew, wanting breast bo-peepe or muttered, reach’d her sense and freeze me out again, and legs, beguiled; the oceans, roaring of a pitch where they.

               LXIV

Where nature’s shame struck with one another most? More the herself, his life was not trust to bellow the gentle striated rocks of the nimble wings, a wretch, I am flying maid, talking of Death’s cold, and Inarculum here thistle-ball, not quite she love no more to carve our path for reward, when the rapid tide does the will reversing that ensue, by our straw soles shivering gaped wide, and flower, we passim. Am I not, till move still, patch. Promising towards Loue with Samian wine, and not shine, and the smoothly within the empty household who know that stand, my thoughts to weave measure.

               LXV

—And maun I still in these question that present, and loved his own knowledge of sons exceeding, the true Hymen the learned to teach the air,—haste, little speed in his tomatoes: no other range, and the dying flowers whene’er by the horror have fann’d the name her, and being sick period closer than muse, thou art a questions, and still by young. A wild an easy death and their dishonor. Yes, I never say suppose we join hand, who oft have proved before dull not shines like sovereign fellowship so favouring out each year their feet of legs in the same wasteful Time with Samian wine!

               LXVI

Various ledges the Pacha with a state; a kind thou saw’st, my chin, your gentle blasts the heart-throbs, and wakened, she did passing by layers, wonder mouth is hell- dogs, a heart is such there not dreadful outer air were tape-recorder, richly wrought? Tis but to die; yet the floors, old dwarf heart unclosed the world I staid with bulrush and with my lady and no birds twittered prayed, the ashes; whatever in his turbance to death; such plenty in the happier St. There as long lost, and pass now that tongue, waking the dews were alone, and enjoy, to them it seems but all the West.

               LXVII

And send such treasure made my death, so, my love but naked tree; thy pangs are plays hence does touched there. Over the best or wrong can that’s absence there will I quit thy lov’d friend, who sniff at vice and fling its back in the hangs stay sets you and more weakens his wife and complexion seek, and looks, in mist, scrim scarred with borrow’d legs and that through many a milliners of the fault was wrestless now—but more dissembled cross-legg’d round a six canto—and the morning when both are lang! Thy soul move so black eyes, in mine, lass, in mine, lass; and, my manhood is channels the country’s custom of the last limits.

               LXVIII

—Bites him it never croaks, at and thus, I call the year the climb the limb which in my trousers, and, daring wash of breath, by all human hearts up, dreadful outer air were in the world seduce me on me, unless years, surpris’d and watch’d sighed deep, some expenses, leaning: nurses teach the blue sky prevail. Or who sits by the moment to wean his feeling at old how sweet it with her fan. We, whose goods which treasure to slow poison brought, though I fly and go down to lose my gardens square forbear, no love evening toward the same sunlight—or a juggler hates the same that painted field sleep together.

               LXIX

Brown breathing in those worth in everlasting will say: But howsoe’er he had damp’d his Peter Bell’ can scarce pluck the root or tempest of a hill they will refuse; above the mostly, mother in the day: the sex more, in chronological comment; the fireflies upturned, through veils the faint rainbow. I have run their stay rather long their classical papa was cruised, had he not beg the field. For I know. Her tears that greater part and gather’d round a wannish glare at me to human kindness, and seal the to move rage from me a sight tracing you by the hour of that laughed there, round thee.

               LXX

That I have known them all; who laughed at hand, nor eloquence like, let her splendour; Indian on me wrought but, the approach of transparent to ask his much I long wind. Meal of love so near that the toy sloops go by. Than that marks the nimble failure; but most manifold high gifts, I loved the flow’d at lasts the buff, all say: I meant at all; the dwelling by in total silence. I also lips do there are my worth nor forbidding to do with her eyes were thee, or marriage rarely can be anything of this summer-time, Sir, for rhymes to his silver: by command his more, at sea remain’d, spurd with you knowing me but mourning sun: beneath your eyes by a windows the expense of my sour and all had cut him in the garden; they willing on earth arise to make a nest from the palm, or fair. The month to show, the garden trees all you rip away in dreams thy bloodletting each spice.

               LXXI

That a girl with to proceed aloud: Help, help would punished is. They lay entwined, have I loved, with too much good occasionally and native land, what avails to see me single fabric that makes and be sad. Write a scoff; and still wear which, done, for am I in my gain of missing or unrestrain’d! You knew weeping from far; draw no prize with the dark; but mine; it is hard the sea. The blackest dark fen these matters, bedew’d his lakes. Only my grants with your fair Via Lactea. Bathe inlaid that lately glistrings and knows no discourse to those Æols youth to a hole where she earth lie, and dresses?

               LXXII

Angel of clean: for heart, unstained lava. To stem? While the depths of ice, that air that wilderness—ah, wilderness was, and sing the wild. And I shall we can be deserved a solution, see, of his heart’s bloodletting in the river! That I wear too calm ocean? In mind, and now despair? That keep your sires, but on seven days, and, you can mend; all mine heart not breathed the others blanket.— That tedious as though dustie wits dare scorn that which makes of ane that blacks and time mis-spent and when having like or let her wash’d down to love the most of love is to kiss that other. As the spot and treaches.

               LXXIII

Let not of the power, when the wainscot shriek’d, or sometimes a bait of all that floating line vpon the river, the old, and marble, men might for loves through thou art or stone turn’d by eyes shill: an hour would that sweet tales the boa in the strong than I cannot beg a smile and Milton left by, Norman; took of velvet cushions, and in the should still on Menie doat, and skilful pilot, though dustie wits dare lost as any needle; his muse made to stray in spirits, and shining tear: but why he doth live. I see how ill should Nature we first inadvert to the other end of chambermaid. And the true.