#Dan is a terrible influence

[howlsmovingmind]

I am a huge Dan Howell fan. Really just a huge Phannie in general. Have been for at least 8 or 9 years. So, naturally, when Dan came out with “We’re All Doomed” I bought tickets to the first online showing. With the Dan Q&A after and everything. Not a brag at all, but just to give context.

The first time I saw it, I laughed so hard, I could feel myself become faint. By the end, I was sobbing. And I was just wishing I could buy it in DVD or something.

Today, for the first time since it was released, I rewatched “We’re All Doomed” on YouTube.

I have, “Embrace the void and have the courage to exist.” Written on the side of my converse. I am a dork and a half about these two.

I have the potential to live to my 80s or die before I’m 21 because of my cancer. And that can be extremely discouraging some days when I know I need to do things and be a human. Because, If I’m likely to die so young, why do anything at all?

But Dan said something that we all need to hear when we feel like that- for any reason.

“We may all be doomed. Death may be inevitable. But first, we get to live.”

I often forget that before I die, I get to live.

There are things worth fighting for and worth living for. Relationships, education, careers, or really even just the planet itself. Life is a miraculous thing and we are surrounded by it.

Life is worth living. Every single day is worth embracing and enjoying to the fullest. Some days you can’t get out of bed, and you can still enjoy that day to the fullest.

Being sick can make it hard to live before you die. But everyday is worth embracing for what it is.

I doubt Dan will ever see this, but if he ever did, somehow, miraculously, I would want to say:

Thank you, Dan, for reminding us of these things. And thank you for making my childhood as bearable as it was- even through my first bought of cancer treatment. I, at 14, would rewatch your old videos and watch the Undertale play through just to remember that friendships are worth staying alive for and that there is a light at the end of the tunnel if I only kept trying. So, yeah. Thanks for reminding me that life is worth living, even when you yourself felt it maybe wasn’t.

Forever a phannie, finding the courage to exist,

Howl

[heyybeach]

Growing up is actually just enjoying the exact same things you enjoyed at 14 years old, but in a more gay way

[amazingphil]

DAN AND PHIL - THE TERRIBLE INFLUENCE TOUR

TICKETS ON SALE FRIDAY 12PM LOCAL TIME danandphiltour.com

[phregnancy]

[anacarolinaflr]

no but seriously imagine it

[its-emimi]

💙💙💙💙💙

[ahappyphjl]

older and gayer <3

[danielhowell]

DAN AND PHIL TOUR BEGINS IN 5 DAYS

IT’S GONNA BE THE BEST TIME OF OUR LIVES SEE U THERE danandphiltour.com

[phrumbs]

THE TERRIBLE INFLUENCE TOUR 💥

[reunitedinterlude]

do you think you and phil will be best friends forever? that's the plan

[redbonemarrow]

For all my phannies out there, here are digital scans of all my dan and phil TIT photocards! Free 2 use but credit is appreciated :D

here are the backs! dark design for regular cards and light design for holographics! VIP package has 100% 1 holographic, but the once you buy as merch only have a small change of having one

more card here !!!

[blossoms-phan]

whatever. whatever

[8jui09]

idk how to get this on onto dnp tumblr

[lobotomist-at-claires]

terrible influence tour idea. leading up to the tour beginning there's a lot of wedding related hints being dropped. the phandom thinks it's a hard launch. but instead dan and phil become ordained ministers and at every show two people in the audience get married whether they want to or not. phan ships back

[bottomsonlybar]

your gay uncles when you give them your life update at a family gathering (x)

[filmnardo]

Dip & Pip redraw 🙌