#DO YOU UNDERSTABND ME??????????

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once again going insane over homecoming

[jeevaschrist]

i was hoping to ask for a bad matchup if your still open!!! if not it’s fine:>

you can call me m!

some things about me include^^

im 5’5, she/her, scorpio/infj, i struggle a lot with my sexuality:(( i also have bpd if that helps<3

i tend to be quite a quiet person if you don’t know me and it takes me a while to warm up to people. i like physical contact but only when i initiate it bc it scares me so much:(( but then im also a pussy LMAO

i have a sarcastic personality and ive always been told im a bubbly girl. i do have bad trust issues and have had quite the rough upbringing, due to that i have quite low self esteem and body image. i would also say im quite a compulsive liar, it sounds bad but it’s something i can help.

some things i actually enjoy would be reading, baking/cooking, health/biology, psychology, orthodoxy/catholicism and i am taking law in college which could be a good pointer!!! i have quite a morally grey stand on things and criminology has always interested my morbid curiosity.

look wise!!! i have short black dyed hair, brown/blue eyes (i hv heterochromia), a bumpy nose!!!, very pale skin, im rather slim but i am honestly built like an airpod😭 further on both my arms and legs r a quite scarred, ive learned to live with it but they never go unnoticed yk:( i also tend to dress rather modestly? long dresses/skirts. sometimes ill wear jeans or baggy trousers though!!!

THANKYOU SO MUCH^^

I HOPE THIS ISNT 2 MUCH😭😭😭🫶🏻

hi m! i am still open! here's that matchup :)

tbh i think yosano and you would be cute together

i've actually seen people not liking her and tbh i love her and think she's an icon, and i think you two would be so iconic together! she would take such an interest in your hobbies/interests and tbh i think you both would be up into SUCH late hours of the night discovering all you can about them. she'd understabnd the trust issues and tbh she has them too, so nothing owuld be pushed or rushed unless you both were cool with it and had talkjed about it beforehand. she'd think you're cute and would ast first struggle with the physical contact, wanting to hug you and kiss you and all that, but as soon as you state you aren't comfortable with it and she understands, she'd be the type to be super respectful and scream at ppl who get too close but don't touch you. yosano can see through lies like she can see through windows so lying to her and getting away with it would be hard. and she'd be the type to hype you up a bunch so she would definitely support you there as well! i think you two would be cute together <3

a/n: BUILT LIKE AN AIRPOD PLS THAT'S SO CLEVER- njsnnf i love this sm

[ntoraplayschoices]

Duskwood after episode ten(Spoilers)

SPOILERS FOR EPISODE TEN!DONT READ THIS IF YOU HAVENT PLAYED IT YET,THANK YOUUU

 Author's note:Hello everyone!I hope you're all doing well!

The finale left me speechless man :') there's also a lot of angst and feelings going on with the identity of who the man without a face is,and eventhough most of us were suspicious of Richy,it still hurt :')

So I wrote this!Hopefully you'll enjoy.

 A you can probably understabnd,titles aren’t my forte.

Richy's relationship with MC can be both platonic or romantic,and  MC is gender neutral.

Enjoy! :)

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   Your eyes stared at the screen for what felt like hours.You could hear your heart pumping loudly and your fingers hurting from how tightly you held your phone.You tried to swallow but you barely managed-the lump in your throat was to thank.

Too much was happening too fast and you found it difficult to manage.Richy being the man without a face and also having to watch Jessy-a person you grew to care for and love- sob at the revelation.Richy's words and Jessy's cries echoed in your mind.The screen had gone black.

Nothing.

You found yourself looking at your reflection briefly.What were you supposed to do?This time you had no "lead" and no one to follow.You were truly on your own,as you guessed Jessy wasn't in a position to explain-but neither were you .

Richy.Richy.A person you grew to laugh with,to talk with,to care for...A person you'd trust with your life.

You bitterly laughed at the irony.The person you would trust with your life was probably the same person who wouldn't hesitate to take it.

"God," you mumbled as you buried your head in your knees.

How could he do such a thing?How could he lie to you like that-God all those lies...

How he trusted you,how he cared for your wellbeing-how he felt sorry for you.

You laughed bitterly once more,throwing your head back.

How he faked his death.How you felt responsible,how you cried and cried for what seemed like hours.

How easy was it for him?

A sour expression took over your face.

You raised your hand and looked at the screen.

You wanted to open it and give Richy a piece of your mind-he made you feel used,betrayed and overall like a piece of trash.

You wanted to make him feel like you did.

You wanted to degrade him,to insult him,to make him feel as horrible as you did!

But something held you back.You cursed at yourself and threw your head back again,closing your eyes.

You felt your eyes burn and your throat tightening.You tried to take some breaths in but that didn't help.Soon a sob escaped your mouth-and then another.The tears flowed freely.

How could he do this to you?

You thought you were friends.

Did he ever even consider you his friend?Even for a minute?Did he care about you?

A loud sound left your lips as you found yourself leaning on the floor.

He must have hated you since you joined and started investigating.

You winced and shut your eyes,more sobs escaping your mouth.

He never cared about you.It was all fake.The only way to characterise his behaviour is to call it sadistic,maybe he enjoys hurting people and that's why he befriended you.So he could see you fall apart.

That was the only reasonable explanation.

You threw your phone across the room.It made a loud sound as it collided with the furniture-or the wall,you didn't really pay any attention to where it fell.You were more focused on calling Richy any name that existed on earth,from "traitor" to other words that had never left your lips before.

You wanted to hate him so much but for some reason you couldn't.

You leaned on the floor,sobbing as the tears fell from your eyes freely.

Richy was someone you loved to joke around with,to talk with,to care for.He grew to be someone special to you,he made you care about him,just so he could make this hurt much more than it should!

You tried to breath properly but it just wasn't happening.Your breaths were short and uneven.

How could he do this to you?How could he lie like this to you?To everyone,to Jessy-Oh God Jessy!

You groaned and placed your head in your palms,rubbing your cheeks and forehead.You crawled across the room-not feeling like standing up- and grabbed your phone.You cursed under your breath at the shattered screen but unlocked your phone and tapped on Jessy's contact.

"Why is Richy online?"

You shut your eyes as a wave of new tears tried to spill and put a hand over your mouth in an attempt to hold back your sobs,however nothing worked. Jessy's last text,her reaction and her words returned.Your phone fell next to you.

You were sobbing and shaking,at this point not caring how loud you were.You imagined Jessy to be in the same state as you,something that hurt you even more.Jessy didn't deserve this-none of them did.

You breaths were unsteady and short.

How would you manage to tell them?

Another sob left your lips as you leaned on the floor.

You could imagine countless conversations with you revealing the man without a face's identity to your friends and your heart clenched more and more thinking about it.You didn't have the strength to do it-at least not now.

The idea of Richy-your sweet friend Richy being behind the kidnapping,the threatening phone calls,the fear and anxiety while he was also the man who eased your fears and worries,the one who could put a smile on your face was something you struggled to understand,even after seeing him take his mask off in front of you.

Maybe he was threatened by the man without a face to say everything?

You quickly shrugged the thought off,even now you tried to find a way to excuse him.

His lies and hypocrisy made your stomach turn once more.

The thought of him hurting you made you freeze.He had invited you as the man without a face to see him.What would he have done?

You felt your throat tighten once more and continued to cry uncontrollably.

It was clear to you that he didn't care about you one bit,everything was an elaborate lie to get you to like and trust him.Thinking back to your conversations,as painful as it was and despite how thoughtful he appeared to be,you could now see everything was obvious.You just did not want to believe it.

You rubbed your nose with the back of your hand,trying to calm yourself down.You took a few breaths and felt your heartbeat slowing down,beating in a much more natural rhythm.

However,as soon as your phone's screen started to lit up,everything changed.

 Dan

Hey uh...I called Jessy and she said something about Richy but couldn't really finish her sentence?You know anything?

 Your hand trembled as you tapped on his contact.

What makes you think I would know?

You stalled.You weren't sure you were ready to say it to anyone,it would feel much more real that way and you definitely weren't ready for it to become a new,accepted reality.

Dan's message made your lips curve up ever so slightly.

Come on boo,you always know everything

As soon as the fact you'd have to reply  came back,you took in a shaky breath.

I'm sorry.

That's the only thing that came out.Dan's response was simple,just a question mark.The answer though would have to be much more complicated to type out than a mere question mark.

It was Richy

Your eyes started to hurt.For a few seconds,silence.

Then,you heard your phone ringing.With a deep-and trembling- breath,you accepted the call.

"Hey Dan," you didn't know what else to say but hey.So you smiled,not bothering to make it look like an actual smile.

"What do you mean it was Richy?" he was unconsciously -or not- pretending to not understand and that made your work much more difficult.Yet you didn't blame him.You would have done the same if the man hadn't called you himself.

"He was the one behind everything Dan" you gave up,fresh tears started building up in your eyes and your shoulders fell."He kidnapped Hannah,stalked you,the one who followed Cleo,the one who-" you found yourself stopping,your throat tight as ever.You looked upwards,trying not to cry in front of the man.However your voice betrayed you.

"He's the one who attacked Jessy and threatened us and-" you couldn't speak anymore,your hand covered your face.Dan didn't react,not in a way you could hear him at least.

"That bastard," it came out what felt like hours of a long silence between you and for some reason,you chuckled while wiping your tears and finally looking up at him.

"Yeah,"

He was looking to the side.You guessed it was because he was trying to understand every word you said,and you thought there were tears in his eyes.

Aha.When he turned towards you,there was an unnatural glint to them.

"He's the one who messed with my car?" he asked,his voice low yet small and fragile.You shook your head."No,he said he didn't mess with your car.He didn't kill Amy either.At least not directly,he-"

Dan punching something next to you made you flinch and stop.

He cursed under his breath repeatedly before remembering you're also there.

"Sorry MC.I need-fuck," he chuckled dryly. "I don't know what.Probably a drink or two or twenty to-" he swallowed,"-to ...yeah," with that,he hang up.

You remained there,staring at the screen again.However this time not for long.You got a text from Thomas,which you opened hurriedly.

"MC.You have to see this" you read.You frowned,did he wanna show you something about Richy too?Anxiety settled again.

The picture that came soon after made you breath short breaths again.It was the mine,you thought.On fire.

I'm sorry.

Your immediate reaction was to text Jake,rushing to let him now and to get out of there quickly.However nothing went through.You run your hand through your hair and started kicking the floor with pathos.

After a while you thought to text Richy.Maybe a wrong  move,stupid even,but you felt like you had to.

No response.

You shut your eyes,wishing for everything to be a very realistic nightmare.

Minutes felt like days passing as you sat there,on the floor,leaning on something-you hadn't noticed what it was- behind you.However,your screen lighting up and your notification pulled you out of your state of... yeah,that.

It was Thomas again.

He's fine,he got out.

Your heart jumped and you grinned at the news.

Jake?, you asked to confirm.Thomas's text came almost immediately after.

Yes.

You grinned and thanked everyone out there for Jake's safe return.

However,Thomas's next message left you with very mixed feelings.

Richy too.

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P.S. word decided to crash :') it's fine now though,thankfully I just had to rewrite certain parts and not the whole story.

I do not really believe the "Jake saved Richy" theory but  it would be -really- cool if it's true and it serves my idea better so :') I hope you enjoyed.

Go listen to walls-not like actual walls,like  go listen to the song-,snack and drink water now :)

Thanks for reading!

Have a good day/evening/afternoon/night !

[multiversekieranb]

feedback week 5

for the start of my review i provided the discord chat with my video with my finished star wars clip , in which i made . so that they can watch it and proceed to fill in the review sheet. as seen in the picture below.

for my feedback I provided and filled in a google forms sheet this really helped me during the situations and work placement for this year as due to covid alot of things changied as i can get verbal feeeback from teachers and i cant speak face to face to get people to review my work , so using google forms this was accentual  , I originally went with just getting some friends to write about it on notes , but my friend recommended and informed me to do a google forms quiz as this was the easiest way to share and provided a professional way to provide feedback. once i thought about some questions to ask my fellow friends i began to write down my ideas , and when completed i began to share and copy the feed and shared it in my discord chat , in which allows a lot of friends to give there feedback. so far i only got two friends to give feedback on my clip. 

as you can see only one of the two anwsers were genuine and took seriously , this is why i dont really provide people to fill in a work review form as people will mess about and not take my work seriously , but im happy somneone actually awnsered properly.

after reviewing the feedback in which was given I can see that I could have defiantly provided the reviewers with more questions so that I can get a more of a variety of wrongs and rights involved in my clip. as looking back i feel like i should have included alot more as i only provided three at the time , i could for sure add more questions in future projects or just generally in the future as ill get a better understanding of what people really though of my design.

as i provided the link within discord , i could only get feedback with people who wanted to contributed to my review , as i didn't want to beg people to do so , even though.

it was easy to get friends to fill in a form , as i can send them a easy link in the discord chat for them to proceed to click the link , which will take them straight to my form site , ready for them to fill in the short quiz. i got this idea as ive worked on google forms in the past lessons in college and really learnt how easy and well thbey work to quickly get feedback straight aways , as it can be shared to the class or to anyone from a link , in class we got people to come a view your work and move arounf the class filling in everyones forms so we could get a real understabnding of whjat was good and what needed changing if there was any faults inj the work. this is the best possible way to get feeback and i will be using it for uni or just genrally in the future.

[mylockholmes]

Reclaimed Crown  ~ Part 7

Part One   Part Two   Part Three  Part Four  Part Five   Part Six 

Author’s Note ~  Hawk Lane is my my second favorite character from the show The Path. i didnlt want to use Cal Robert (my number oen favorite character) because he’s played by Hugh Dancy and I already Use Hugh Dancy as Charlie’s Dad image is from google it wouldn’t post as a gif for some reason

It had been 6 weeks since she was shot and Klaus had ultimately ended up being traine to be a body guard specfically Lucy’s Body Guard for those times whe her brother Declan was doing other things.  Charlie had just gotten off from work and they were walking through the park towards a news Stand “Oh dear lord. I told you we should have submitted the engagement to the paper ourselves.” she said as she went through the paper after buying it. 

On the front page of the society section taking up the half the Page was the weddign announce with the title 

The Holmes Family would like to announce the impending nuptials of their Beloved Lucero Olivia Anastasia Harridge Holmes to Mr. Charles Alexander McDaniel.

After they get back to their flat “You are the only well adjusted female Holmes.”  he said with a laugh as he looked at the wedding announcement.  he takes her and spins her around and spins her around as Mine by Taylor Swift plays “You are the best thing that’s ever been mine.”  he sings 

She laughs “Charlie you are so friggin adorable sometimes.” she she says the last word teasingly

“Sometimes? i am damned adorable everyday.” he sad 

she laughed “Like when you gave a tour of the morgue to new premed stuudents the other day.” 

two days earlier....

As another person started explaining how the lab worked charlie cut in with “basically run by me and i do everything.”

lucy started laughing as Charlie claimed to be hte one who ran the lab “You’re Molly’s Protege dear. at best when she’s on maternity leave you will be cleanign the equipment.” she stood up “Charlie is just trying to break the tension he;s second  year medical student and he is debating becoming a forensics expert like Dr. Hooper-Holmes. Who isn’t present at the moment because she’s at doctor’s appointment.”  she looked at him “Now let Xavier finish the tour you and i are supposed to be having lunch.”

Xavier smiled “You are hte only Holmes who even bothers to remember my name.”

When they stepped outside they saw Mycroft’s Car “I am taking you out to Lunch.” he stated simply and rolled up the window

They got in his car and she rested her elbow against the window “YOu will not go overboard with my wedding.” she stated 

(gif from @lucy-griffiths-love)

Mycroft sat back “Very well. Just remember because of who we are you only limited by your imagination.”

Charlie looked at him “as long as you donlt take over our wedding.” he said “you agreed not to have us watched.” 

“I agreed to not have you watche when Lucero has body guard. unfortunately Declan and Klaus are both busy with training so I have someone watching Molly and Lucy. Because Molly is  carrying my brother’s child.”

“Lucy, you look a lot better.” Anthea responded 

“Thanks Anthea.” she said “are you still single?” she blushed. “sorry that wasn’t....”

She placed her hand on lucy’s kne after puttign her phone down “Sorry i was just checking your dad’s schedule.  Because he runs background checks on everyone he tebnds to scare them off.”

Lucy giggled “that kind of made charlie a little paranoid when he first found out about it.”  she looked at the two men in her life. her father nad future husband. “Now they get along very welll considering.”

“Considerign the whirl pool of crazy that ios beign a Holmes.” 

“I;d be insulted Sharles. if that wasn’t true but i created my own trouble long ago. in the name of protecting others when i was really protecting myself.”

Mycroft rolled his eyes “this wasn’t my idea.”

“surprise engagement party.”  Lucy said 

Meanwhile at Miranda and Carlton’s House.......

Declan “this idea is insane how do you throw a surprise engagemtn party for one of the smartest people in london.” 

“how did you get those stitches in your forehead.”  

“thatls kind of embarassing.” declan replied “I was assigned to train Klaus and i hit my head on the car door when we were goign to speedy’s for chips and sandwiches after training.”

Klaus “Running his head into a door is the true statement.”

“Pplease don’t tell them the real reason i hit my head on the door Klaus it is embrassing.” Lucy and charlie enter “Hey the guests of honor are here.” 

Lucy “Klaus! Declan!” she hugged them and whispered Klaus “Just ask him out already it so awkward watching you try to pretend you’re not attracted to him.”

Klaus blushes “how did you even know i thhought i was good at hiding it.” 

“Dear. I knew you were different when you kised me in Copenhagen. I just never knew what it was until i saw you i nthe same room with my brother. You two deserve to be happy.” she whispered “sometimes all you need for hte net to appear is to take a leap.” 

Charlie wrapped his arms around her froom the back and rested his chin on her shoulder did you just encourage your friends to aks your brother on a date.”

“yes I did.”

as hte party got wolling Charlie grabs a video camera “Come on Declan, Lucy shows up your pas des deaux. Klaus doesnlt believe that you came in second in charity dance showcase.”  he smiled and kissed her “I love how you want everyone waroudn you to be happy.” 

Her phon rings “wait that;s my phone on three people have the number one of them is here.” she looks at her phone. “i will be right back charlie. “Dad,  the special phone i was given is ringing we need to go outside now.” She amd mycroft step outsid 

1 year ago lucy had been enlisted to assist with an investigation into a a religious group. but it had become obvious that most of the belieers were unaware the leader was putting the group in debt. 

“Jarod, you canlt raid the compound you promised you would wait until i was there. No!” she stated she had promised one of the teenagers i nthe compound she would protect his family. “The Lanes are under my protection.” she texts him photos of Hawk Lane and his little sister. “their mother is the second in command to Cal Roberts and doesn’t agree with what he is doing.”

FlashBack somewehre in United States......at a Meyerism Compound 

“Hi My name is Lucy.” she had been enlisted to make constact with someone in the group but she had sense something bad was about to happen  “Yopu look like you need someone to talk to.”

Hawk looked at her  “I need an objective opinion. You must be from out of town what is that accent?” 

“i have no idea what to say my accent. I grew up, In Maine, i was taught french by stepfather’s mother and i;ve been living in london with my biiological father for a little over a year.” they spent the next two hours talking “Hawk,  I know how it feels to have two sides arguing abour path in life.  My uncle wants me to what he does, my father wants me to do what he does.  All i know is i enjoy taking pictures and I like to travel. Choose the path that makes you happy your family may not like it but they will accept it.” 

While Lucy was undercover at the community sherlock was analizing hte information from Peru. He had already deduced that Eddie Lane was, in fact, telling hte truth when he told Jarod that Steve Meyers jumped off the cliff. 

“Mycroft, it would appeard from my on site analysis that the witness in the village didn’t understand what he saw. because he couldnlt see edward lane. my deduction is that he chose his own death rather than being killed by cal roberts or having the cancer kill him slowly.”

Mycroft “Sherlock, no over reaching. work with only what we’ve been told.” thinking to himself that’s exactly what Lucy said when i had her analyze the information a fortnight ago. I believe she has somehow inherited our deductive reasoning.

Sherlock “Okay. are we goign to call Lucy?”

“no. we’ll blow her cover we need to wait for her to call us.” 

Present Day...... 

IN undisclosed locastion neat london “So, LUcy was tellign the truth you Steve stated you cshould have been the chosen one and jumped to his death.”  Hawk said to his father “I didnlt want to join the movement. I wanted to date ashley and listen to modern music and be happy.” 

He looked over as Lucy walked up “So you were tellign me hte truth but you managed to do withoug telling me everything. Whioch i understabnd.” 

“You;ve only been out of highschool for six months. the testing we gave you, shows you are intetlligent enoiugh to catch up. Your dad agrees that you should be allowed to choose your own path.”

“I am genuinely sorry for the incident involving your mother. My deductions didnlt factor in the possibility that she would jump in front of Cal Roberts. she made it through surgery and she should be fine. IN a few months.” Lucy said

Hawk looked at her “Lucy, it is not your fault stop apologizing for it. I was born into the group and you’re right i should choose my own Path. why are those particular level one agents watching me?”

“Declan volunteered because he knew this was my case. and Klaus is here because he’s my bodyguard when my brother is busy.” 

“but Declan was there when we met last year.”  Eddie looked at Hawk “Declan is your brother.” he said

“How did you figure he was a level one agent. Usually non agents under our protection canlt figure out hte security clearance.” she paused “By the way. i was looking for your ex-girlfriend Ashley and it turns out she qualified for an academic exchange program.  She’s at a school in Callais. Once you are ceared to leave the sae house we can take you to Calais if you want to see her.” she hand him a note.

“this is her handwriting.” his mind drifts back to the first time he saw Ashley. “Thank you.”

“Everyone deserves to be loved for who they genuinely are. Charlie loves me in spite of my  eccentric and troubled family.” 

“I would like to meet Charlie. why isn’t he here.”

“He;s at work and he doesnlt have securty clearance for this safe house. the house i live in with him also Qalifies as a safe house since Klaus is livign there until he finds his own place.”  as a holmes she had learned how to find the loopholes in laws. She hands Eddie and Hawk each paper bags “I know you may not be hungry but these are sandwiches from best sandwich shop in london. Below my uncle’s office at 221B Baker street.”

Eddie “thanks,  i am kind of hungry. If we are exiles i will need work.”

Lucy “as soon as you ar allowed to leave the Safe House Anthea will take you to 221b Baker Street. if i recall correctly Uncle Shezza’s offsice was trashed again and needs to e rebuilt and your file says you’re a carpenter.”

Two Weeks Later “Damn it looks like a bomb went off in this place.”

“You’re probably not too far off on that one Mr. Lane. this place has been bombed three times if  i remember correctly. Sherlock makes quite few enemies in his line of work.” she paused “Once you have estimated the ammount of work. My father will be glad to get you the supplies you require and if you need any sandwiches or place to rest. Mrs. Hudson. the owner of this place is under them.” 

“No need ot pay me, You and your family have done so much for me and mine already.” eddie said as he  popped a buite of food in his mouth. “why is your uncle not here?”

“Because he and his wife and daughter have a house near scotland yard.” 

it woudl take two months to rebuild the flat.... “Good job, Mister Lane. If you want o go back to the states you are welcomed to. and lucero is sorry she couldnlt be here. she and her future husband are tasting cake samples.” 

“Just call me Eddie. Lucy is quite the remarkable Young Woman.” 

“You don’;t need to tell me that. She is my Sister.” Declan Said he checks his Phone and finds he receved a text from Lucy... Star Child is out wandering the city. Find him before Charlie sees him!!

To Be Continued......