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Run To You

Chapter Two

February 2023. 

The mix of sadness, joy, and exhaustion overwhelms Elle currently. The defense of the thesis she has led since January of last year went well two weeks ago. She waited for that moment, and when the panel congratulated them, she almost floated in joy. She felt the exhaustion creep all over her body as her brain started to absorb that she was done with the most critical undergraduate requirement a college student would make. They only had to make minor revisions, which she gladly accomplished with the group within the week. All of that while reviewing for the exams she took this week. 

“Congratulations, Elle! Thank you for leading us for the whole year,” Leila, her groupmate, said as she handed her a bouquet. 

The surprise brought tears to Elle’s eyes that day. She was not precisely the perfect leader for her team, but she did her best. She struggled when two groupmates went missing in action for a while. She had to run after them to make sure things were done while making sure deadlines were met at the same time. She had no intention of excluding their names from the paper as she wanted everyone from her circles to graduate, even if it meant more work for her. 

At least one thing from her endless list of things to worry about is done. 

“Ate ko! Asan ka na ba?” Lee asks once Elle answers her phone. 

“Pababa palang ako ng jeep sa may bandang Katipunan tapos maglalakad na papunta diyan,” she answers. 

“Okay. Nandito kami sa may pinakaharap ha?” He tells her. 

“Sino nga ulit mga guest na drag queens?” She asks. 

“Mga queens from RPDR PH at Drag Den,” he answers. 

“Alright,” she coos, excited as she knows two of her favorites will be at the show she’ll attend. 

“Kaya bilisan mo!” Lee exclaims. 

“Opo, ate ko,” she chuckles. 

Deserve ko naman ito diba? 

She sighs. While her group was able to defend their thesis, Elle knows she failed her first set of comprehensive exams. Despite the good news and the event she’ll be attending for the night, she can’t take her mind off the tests this week, especially the last one she took the day before. 

A comprehensive exam of the department comprises one hundred items. Half of that is multiple-choice questions, usually about the theories of the topics they discussed, while the remaining are problem-solving questions. The time allotted for the exam is only three hours, and completing it on time is hard with the number of problem-solving items. Elle failed to answer the last twenty items during the exam the day before. She shaded the letter ‘C’ on her scantron defeatedly. 

“C for Christ na lang. Catholic school naman ito eh,” she blurted, drained. 

Jun, who was beside her throughout the exam, laughed. 

“Pinagpasa Diyos ba naman eh,” he replied, chuckling while passing his scantron to the person before him. 

“Wala eh. Anlabo ng 129. Tangina,” she told him. 

He nodded in agreement. 

“You did well, Elle. Ilang araw ka na nga walang tulog. Magpahinga ka pagkauwi, ah?” Jun said to her. 

“Ikaw rin. You did your best,” she replied with a smile. 

The jeepney Elle is riding stopped in front LRT 2 Katipunan’s north entrance. She quickly exits the vehicle to start the three to five-minute walk from her current location to Pop Up. Her earphones are blasting the playlist she curated to set her mood for the event. She’s currently listening to Magic by Kylie Minogue as she anticipates seeing Minty Fresh tonight at the event. The song reminds her of Minty’s performance, which Elle finds so iconic up to this day.

Elle reaches the venue, walks along the stores, and looks towards the spots near the stage to find Lee and whoever he is with. It’s usually like this with her and Lee. They’ve been friends since they were teenagers when they followed One Direction online and had fan accounts. The two of them bonded when they also started supporting Ariana Grande. They have known each other for years, but after the pandemic's restrictions went lenient, they started having their meetups for drag shows. 

Elle has always been fascinated by drag. It started when her gay friends, who would spend time with her on lunch breaks, treated her like a drag queen, even giving her a drag name that she can’t remember now. Yet, Lee introduced her to drag completely, especially the local drag scene. 

Lee waves at Elle from afar with a wide grin on his face. He came from the South and went to Pop Up to watch the free drag show organized by the local government and an NGO to raise awareness of HIV/AIDS. The cause of the show is what enticed Elle to attend in the first place. As the internal vice president of a health-centered student organization in her college, topics like this pique her interest. 

“Bakla ka! Akala ko hindi ka na makakarating,” Lee complains as he initiates a hug with Elle. 

“Sus, ‘di pa nga simula oh!” She replies, chuckling as she embraces her friend. 

“Akala ko nga ‘di ka magpapakita. Puro aral kasi. Awra rin pag may time,” he shoots. 

“Ito na nga, diba?” She tells him. 

Elle looks around the place. There are many people, most of them here for the show. She’s proud of the local drag scene here in the Philippines. It has come a long way, especially with the fact that it has existed for decades now. There is more mainstream media visibility for the community, which makes it hard to secure tickets for some shows now, but she’s happy that the queens have more gigs to perform at. She knew how hard it was for them to earn during the pandemic. They had online shows and live selling when restrictions were strict, and they only had a few live shows at clubs when the quarantine levels were relaxed. 

“Makikita mo na si Misis today, Elle,” Lee gushes excitedly. 

“Oh my god! Performer siya?” She asks. 

He nods only. 

This is one of those rare weekends she gets out of her usual routine. She’s not the family’s runner or the family member who misses out on family dinners because she has to study. She’s not the student leader she is known for. She’s Elle, the girl who likes drag and music. She’s a fangirl who splurges her savings on drag merchandise and tips for queens. It’s one of the few days she experiences the thrill of living. 

“What time lalabas si Minty at Shewarma?” Elle asks Lee. 

“Mga bandang dulo na ng show mga ‘yon, Ate. Siyempre mga big time na eh,” he replies, eyes on the screen as the hosts start to introduce the first performer for tonight after the mayor gives her opening remarks. 

Elle sits on the chair, grinning widely. It’s indeed a good way to spend the Saturday night rather than groveling over the fact that she’s sure of not reaching the seventy-five percent grade minimum to pass the first set of comprehensive exams she took this week. 

The performances over the next two hours were breathtaking. Elle was singing along to the lipsynced pop songs by the drag queens, and Lee would film the two of them to post on his Instagram stories. They both knew the songs by heart already as they frequented some drag shows, especially the ones hosted at Butterboy. 

In the parts of the show where Minty Fresh and Shewarma Rise appeared, Elle screamed her heart out, especially when NAIA and Minty did a duet. 

“Ate ko! Ang saya-saya talaga,” Lee exclaimed. 

Elle only nodded. Just like her, Lee also has used drag as a form of escape from his life. He’s the eldest child while she is an only child. Both are bound by responsibilities in their daily lives. 

“Madam Elle!” 

Elle shot her head in the direction where the voice was coming from. Mingyu, along with Vernon, was trudging towards her. 

“Andito ka pala. Tamang tama kasama rin namin yung iba nating ka-org. Tara sa Tipple & Slaw,” Mingyu invited her with a smile.

She wanted to turn down the invitation but she needed to keep her mind off the exam that had just ended. 

“Alright. Sunod ako. Samahan ko lang yung friend ko saglit,” she replied. 

They nodded and left. 

“Ate ko, thank you ha? Namiss ko ‘to. Grabe, two months din tayo hindi nagkita,” Lee said. 

“Kaya nga, Lee, eh,” Elle smiled. 

“Kailangan ko pa umuwi sa Laguna, mhie. Sa next na Butterboy na lang?” He asked. 

She nodded. They both got out of the area as Lee’s ride was about to arrive. They did some beso before she watched him get in the car. 

Elle got inside the venue once again, going to the left while texting Mingyu. He waved his arm in the air while smiling at her as she approached them. 

““Gago, si Madam Elle pala ‘to!” Minghao immediately exclaimed once she got to where the group was. 

She hugged him back. It’s sort of a culture in their college to hug one another. Minghao still observes this despite leaving Accounting for Fine Arts in their sophomore year. The hug culture is prominent as students would run to each other after exams with long faces. They are usually tired and nervous about the results despite spending hours of their lives studying to get passing remarks. They hug to greet and comfort each other. 

“Musta buhay, Madam? Parang hindi ka na nakakakanta ah?” Minghao asks, pertaining to the lack of videos of her singing online for organizational events.

She swallows to lubricate her drying throat as she hears the questions. Elle is surprised to hear that—let alone be called madam. Those days are behind her. She’s no longer the org girl. She is just a struggling student. 

She feels her throat tighten just thinking about the comprehensive exams she finished this week. Elle feels like a fraud because she has managed to make them believe she’s smart and she’s great. In her head, she’s just dumb—an impostor. 

“Ah, ito. Buhay pa naman,” Elle replies with a thin smile before Minghao pulls her in a hug again.

On the other hand, a lad who’s drinking with them notices the newcomer. 

“Pre, sino ‘yan?” He aks. 

“Ah, si Elle. Kaibigan namin sa org. Siya kasi VP-Int namin dati,” Vernon responds.

“Type mo?” Chan asks. 

The lad doesn’t respond. He drinks his beer while watching Minghao and Elle talk. 

“Ewan ko lang kung may oras sa’yo ‘yan kasi busy lagi ‘yan. May bumabakod din diyan eh,” sabi ni Chan. 

He doesn’t pay attention to the younger’s remark. In the lad’s eyes, Elle looks intimidating. He can observe that she carries herself well and knows what she wants and needs. Their eyes meet and Elle gives him a little smile. 

“Seungcheol, meet Elle. Sikat ‘to,” Mingyu says, introducing her to the lad.

Elle only gives Mingyu a funny face before facing the lad. 

“Nice to meet you, Seungcheol,” she says. 

It didn’t take long for the group to dance to the music blasting over Pop Up. Mingyu’s other friend, Soonyoung arrive with his girlfriend.

“Madam Elle, ito oh!” Chan exclaims

Elle opens her mouth to let the alcohol from the bottle into her mouth for five seconds while the group cheers and takes some videos. 

Finally, she’s relaxing as the alcohol kicks into her system after some bottles of beer and the vodka she just downed. 

“Kaninong sigarilyo ‘to?” Elle asks. 

“Sa akin. Kuha ka lang kung gusto mo,” Vernon says. 

She lights up a stick as the music changes. Elle smokes whenever she wants to let the alcohol have a maximum effect on her or whenever she needs to calm down. At this moment, she needs both to happen. 

After some games and shots, Elle feels a little dizzy. She knows she has to slow down so she sits on the table. 

“Okay ka pa, Elle?” Seungcheol asks the lady, who looks a bit buzzed and on her second stick for the night.

Elle makes a mental note to give Vernon a pack of cigarettes the next time they see each other.

“Yeah, okay naman. I don’t see you around the hallways, ah? I would assume na di ka taga-accounting? Educ ba or Conservatory?” Elle asks. 

“Taga-Ruano ako,” he answers with a smile on his face, making his dimple visible. 

“Ah, yung mga sagabal sa daanan,” she scoffs, earning a chuckle from the lad. 

“Mga first year lang ‘yon. Ikaw siguro yung isa sa mga tumatakbo sa umaga kasi late,” he teases back. 

“First of all, panghapon ako. Second, oo late ako kaya huwag kayong haharang-harang,” she shoots making Seungcheol laugh again. 

A girl with a strong personality, he mentally notes. Elle takes a swig of her beer in silence afterward. It is one of those moments when she forgets how to socialize as she has let her life revolve around her program and studies. 

“Okay lang naman ‘yan, nak. You are working hard for the future. You have all the time in the world after college to have fun.”

Her mother’s words but Elle feels like she’s slowly wasting away, exhausted from everything. 

“Uwi na ako,” Elle says. 

“Hatid na kita?” Mingyu asks. 

“Nakapagbook na ako ng Angkas. Besides, if ihahatid mo ako, it will take long. Magpapatanggal ka pa ng amats,” she says. 

“What if ako na?” Seungcheol asks.

She shakes her head. 

“You go on and have fun. One minute away na rin lang rider ko,” she says. 

She bids goodbye to everyone and exits the establishment. It will take her another month before she can go outside like this. 

[jopetkasi]

you know you are legit old when your friend's concept of a road trip is to visit Manaoag for a pilgrimage and lunch at a friend's rest house in Pampanga.

not that I am complaining. i mean I will make time for Mama Mary. I do love her. and I try my best to say the rosary everyday. kalurks, sa dami ba naman ng kasalanan at pagkukulang ko, eto minamahal pa din ako ng Diyos? ano ba naman yung tiisin yung init ng Pangasinan for a pilgrimage diba?

then we had lunch sa pampanga. again, signs of aging, kumakain na din kami ng durian lol. my friend, Del short for Rodelio inherited his parent's house and the adjacent manggahan. we are of the same age but man, this guy is 4x hardworking than I am. like he would be out there looking for opportunities to earn. biruan nga namin, kung me pera lang sa basura, papasukin nya yan eh (teka me pera ba sa basura talaga?)

so the convo shifted on me, much to my dismay.

Del: Oh Jopet, wag kang tanga sa lalake. kumuha ka ng bobo. yung mahirap. yan.

Me: ang racist mo naman. kaka pilgrimage lang naten.

Del: hindi mo gets. yung mga medyo mababa ang IQ mga inosente yan. pakisamahan mo, alagaan mo, mamahalin ka nyan. tignan mo ko yung lalake ko ngayon sya nagbabantay ng mango farm.

Me: (shakes head) hindi ko kaya, mother.

Del: Ayaw mo maniwala? (bites off from the durian and calls on the boyfriend"

Del: Asawa ko, mahal mo ko diba? kiss mo ko dali! (Del and the boyfriend smooched infront of us bewildered friends)

Jay: Power!!! mayora levels! Sige sarhento hubaddd!

Leo: lol gobernadora kamo, yung hacindierang mahilig manira ng pamilya hahahahaha

Cris: teka My Day ko to ha? lol

Me: speechless.

Del: O diba? walang palag? kaya nga banat ang mukha ko di nyo pansin? fresh diba? laging me dilig. Oh ano, madaming tropa yan dito, magsasaka tapos yung isa tanod. mga borta. pakilala ko kayo?

Me: bigyan mo nalang ako ng mangga, mother. samahan mo na din ng buro please?

[apopcornkernel]

i have a lost days playlist that has way too many florence songs in it btw ^^

special highlight of the first song, SA HINDI PAG-ALALA, by munimuni: i believe this one is the most jason lost days core of them all. i also believe that sharing is caring so i will translate it for you guys below the cut. so that u can agree with me

[Verse 1] Kakalimutan na kita (I will forget you now) Siguraduhin mong hindi talaga pwedeng tayo (Please ensure that we can truly never be together) Napagisipan mo na ba (Have you thought about it yet) Dahil kakalimutan na kita (Because I'm going to begin forgetting you now) Ito na (Here I go) Ito na (Here I go)

[Verse 2] Kakalimutan ko narin (I will forget as well) Mga sinabi mong wala palang ibig sabihin (All the things you said that never actually meant anything in the end) Pati narin ang 'yong ngiti (I will forget your smile) At mga luha sa 'yong paghikbi (And the tears you cry in the midst of your sobbing) Ito na (Here I go) Ito na (Here I go)

[Verse 3] Buburahin na sa isip (I will erase from my thoughts) Ang hugis ng iyong mga mata sa 'yong pagtawa (The shape of your eyes when you laugh) Kung pano ka ba manamit (How you dress) Pati kung pano ka ba umidlip (How you slip into naps) Ito na (Here I go) Ito na (Here I go)

[Bridge] Paalam na nga ba? (Is this goodbye, then?) Kung hindi na tayo magkikita (If we shall never see each other again, then) Nawa'y mangyaring (May the hand of God) Hilahin tayo ng kamay ng Diyos (Pull us back to each other) Sa isang pagkikita (For a single encounter) Sa isang pangitain (For a single vision)

[Outro] Kakalimutan na kita (I will forget you now) Siguraduhin mong hindi talaga pwedeng tayo (Please ensure that we can truly never be together) Napagisipan mo na ba (Have you thought about it yet) Dahil kakalimutan na kita (Because I'm going to begin forgetting you now) Ito na (Here I go)

:)

[sassycolorgentlemen]

The Challenges and Moments of Satisfaction of a 21 Weeks Pregnant: A Journey of a Second-Time Mother (A Narrative Report) 

Josie: “Sige, magpabuntis ka! Tingnan ko lang kung respetuhin ka ng anak mo, kapag asin na lang ang inuulam niya at nagpapaka-puta ka na lang para may isasak-sak ka lang sa sikmura niya! Alam mo, nagpapasalamat ako sa diyos at hindi isinilang ang dalawang bata na galing sa isang babae na iresponsable at makasariling tulad mo!”

Carla: “Kung magkaka-anak man ako, sisiguraduhin kong magkasama kami sa hirap at ginahawa! Hindi ko siya ipagpapalit dahil lang sa pera.”

This dialogue is from the most dramatic Filipino film of all time “Anak” (2000) played by Vilma Santos as Josie and Claudine Barreto as Carla, It captures the responsibility, sacrifices, and parental commitment. Josie criticized Carla, saying that she won’t be able to take care of a child properly and that the child might suffer because of it, However, Carla replied, that she will never leave her child no matter how tough the obstacles and challenges she gets. 

Just like the movie, it portrays a real story of a tough and emotional discussion about the struggles of being a parent and the responsibilities that she may face. No matter what really happens in her journey she will never leave her child for the sake of money.

This is the story of a woman who deals with harsh criticism about her ability to be a good mother, while she insists she will do her best to take care of her child despite any challenges in life. It reflects the struggles of being pregnant and worries about what the future might bring.

On September 02, 2024, Monday morning, at 10:30 a.m., a pregnant woman, with their guy waiting for them outside, was gathered at Talomo Health Center for their prenatal check-up. We were already there at 8:30 a.m., since when we went there last week, well you can actually know in the Infancy part, there is only one mother, with her newborn baby, remaining. So we make sure now that we need to go there as early as we can so that we can still meet, and interview a pregnant woman named Angelyn. 

We were guided by the mother of  Mr. Fernandez because her mother is a Barangay Health Worker (BHW) at the said health center for the interview. We patiently waited there for a minute. After the mother sat in front of us, we already conducted the interview, but first, we introduced ourselves, prepared the questions, even informed consent, if it was okay for her to interview, and asked for her personal details. But before that, we make sure that the mother is comfortable in her seat. Since Mr. Ando can’t speak and even understand Bisaya, Mr. Fernandez tries to translate it to make the question understandable and to make the interview engaging. 

Angelyn, a 20-year-old, 21 weeks pregnant, and a second-time mom, currently residing in Davao City, happily shares her stories. As a mother raising a child, she still wants to try for a baby boy the second time.

Carrying and taking care of a baby while still in the womb is not as easy as it seems. Physically, she gains weight (51 kg), which is normal as it supports the growing baby and prepares her body for childbirth. However, she feels anxious about what people, including her live-in partner, might say about her appearance. One of the most challenging physical changes she experiences also is stomach pain. Every time she lies down or sits, her stomach continues to hurt. To manage this, she uses effective oil on her tummy to help reduce the pain with its cooling effect.

In her cognitive studies, she said that she finds it hard to focus on tasks at work and around the house because of her continuous stomach pain. This pain makes it difficult for her to do things efficiently and affects her productivity. Despite her best efforts to manage, she frequently feels overwhelmed and frustrated. To cope with this she has started asking her husband for more help and is more demanding about his support with household chores. She feels that this help is necessary to balance her responsibilities and discomfort. Her struggles to stay focused and her increased need for support have become a significant part of her daily life

In terms of socioemotional, she mentioned that her relationships with family, friends, and her partner have changed significantly. They have become more caring and supportive throughout her pregnancy. Her husband, who had hoped for a boy, was especially happy when they learned the baby’s sex was indeed male. His happiness made him more willing to help with daily tasks. She also said that they support each other by checking if she’s okay, asking about her needs, and finding out what she wants to eat, which made her feel very supported. And also they assist her with tasks she struggles with, especially when her stomach pain is severe. For example, they help by serving her food and water, among other things. These actions have made her feel that she is well-supported.

When it comes to her challenges, one of the most difficult challenges she experiences is first sleep, she is always sleeping. Though it was in her progesterone hormones as a pregnant woman still she wanted to help and do her work as a mother since she has a baby too. But she is always sleeping. And also always dizzy, especially when she was exposed to radiation like cell phones or TV. And also whenever she stands up that is what makes her dizzy. Stress and anxiety in a pregnant woman are normal yet it shouldn't be normal since she is carrying a baby to reduce that issue she just wants to eat especially fruits that can help her to be healthy. 

The most joyful experience she has had during her pregnancy is finding out that she is having a baby boy. Both she and her husband had really hoped for a boy, and learning that their baby’s sex is male has brought them happiness. They feel fulfilled and excited about this new journey. To celebrate, they throw the occasion with a party, just like a birthday celebration. They invited family and friends to join in the joy of learning about their baby boy and shared their happiness with loved ones.

Her story really reflects the ups and downs of her pregnancy, the challenges and happy moments. Through it all, she finds the strength and the support of her loved ones and the celebration of welcoming her baby boy into the world.

[lilithaban]

an art

pairings: taeyong x oc

— filot settings

🖋️: fluff, smut!

warnings: mature content, profanites, 🔞, unprotected sex

dni minors!

RAW AND UNEDITED!

posted: february 03, 2023

happy reading!

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“Babe doon oh picturan kita!”

Agad ako pumwesto sa tinuro ni taeyong at nagpost. Kung nakakapunit lang ang ngiti siguro kanina pa napunit itong sakin. This has been one of my favorite days since me and taeyong hasn't seen each other for two weeks because pf work and hectic schedule. So we’re lucky enough to find this perfect time.

“You look so gorgeous, i love you”

Halos mangamatis na siguro ang mukha ko sa sinabi niya dahil malakas ang pagkakasabi niya nito. Kaya naman hinampas ko siya sa braso. “Magtigil ka nga! may nakakarinig”

He pouted “Where’s my I love–” hindi na nito natulot ang sinasabi niya dahil mabilis ko siyang hinalikan sa pisngi.

“I-i love you too” mahina kong bulong

Niyakap ko siya’t sumiksik sa kanyang dibdib. Ramdam ko naman ang pagtawa nito at gumanti ng yakap.

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Kasalukuyan kayong nasa isang basilica kung saan open for tourist at sa mga nais maghayad ng dasal. Kinukuhan mo ng litrato si taeyong kaya’t hindi matanggal ngiti mo sa labi.

Noong hindi pa naman kayo ni wala kang maramdaman na katiting para kay Taeyong syempre nga nagkalilala lang kayo dahil sa kaibigan mo na kaibigan niya rin pala at dumalas na yung night out mo with your friends nung college at tadhana nga naman, paulit-ulit kayong pinagkikita. Hanggang sa magkayayaan kayong lumabas para mag coffee at napapadalas na rin ang paglabaa mo kasama siya.

Kaya one time hindi ka makapaniwala na magconfess sayo si Taeyong.

Oo si Lee Taeyong

Nung una hindi ka pa makapaniwala dahil maraming nagkakagusto rito na di hamak na maganda pa sayo pero sayo pa rin siya nahulog. Iniwasan mo siya ng halos isang buwan pero sa mga oras na yon dyan mo lang din narealize na hinahanap-hanap na siya ng loob mo, naninibago ka kapag hindi mo siya kasama.

And truth to be told,

he fell first but you fall harder

“Ano pinagdasal mo babe?” nakangiting tanong nito sayo habang nakain ng corndog sa labas ng basilica.

“Hmm secret”

“Ako alam mo ba?”

Napailing lang ako at hinihintay ang sagot niya.

“Sana hindi na bawiin ni lord to sakin, baka hindi ko kayanin kapag nawala ka pa sakin.”

“Na kahit hindi tayo itadhana ng diyos ako ang gagawa ng paraan, gagawin ko ang lahat. Makikialam ako sa plano ni kupido para lang ikaw at ako ang matagpo. Kahit pa sa susunod na buhay ikaw lang nais kong piliin,”

Nakaramdam ka ni kirot sa puso. Luha’y nagbabadya. Nanginginig kang lumapit sa'yong nobyo at hinapit ito para sa isang mainit na yakap.

Umiyak ka rito habang marahang hinahampaa ang dibdib. “Nakakainis ka naman!” naiiyak mong sinabi

“Bakit naman? wala naman akong ginawa ah!” kahit pa tunog nang-aasar to ay mahigipit pa rin itong niyayakap ka pabalik at hinihimas ang likod pa.

“B-bakit mo naman sinabi iyon sakin! h-halos hindi na kayanin ng puso ko yung saya at galak”

“It's true though. I’ll meddle in cupid’s plan and do the gods work. I’m inlove with you, so damn much”

“And I think I can’t get out of this love trap. Because I’m going to make this my home. I’m so inlove with you to the point that I don’t wanna be save”

“I love you so much, baby.”

“Can you marry me?”

—

“Hmm oh my god! yes please right there!”

Hindi mo alam kung paano kayo nahantong dito. Kanina lang parang halos mawalan ka na ng hininga sa mga sinabi ni taeyong sayo. At lalo na dahil nag propose to sayo out of nowhere.

“Did I fuck that hole so good baby?”

Kung kanina sobramg gaan at soft ni taeyong sa mga sinasabi niya sayo aa basilica, ngayon ganun pa rin naman pero may halo na gigil at sarap.

Naghahabol ka pa ng hininga nang biglang umibabaw to sayo at halikan ka. Napaangat ka naman dahil naramdaman mo ang pagpasok ng ari nito sa loob mo.

Pasensya na lord hindi ko po kinaya yung tukso

Napapikit ka na lang sa sarap at nagpapakawala na lamang ng mga halinghing na tila musika sa pandinig ng nobyo mo. Napadaing ka pa lalo dahil natatamaan na nito ang g spot mo.

“F-uck oh my god!”

Sunod-sunod na mura at ungol mo dahil bumibilis na lalo ang pagbayo sayo ng nobyo mo. Para kang mababaliw sa sobrang sarap na hatid nito sayo.

“T-aeyong lalabasan na ako,”

“Hmm aa-aah shit this feels so good fuck. sabay tayo baby”

Ilang bayo na lamang ay nilabasan na kayo parehas. Ramdam mo na pinuno nito ang ari mo. Yumakap siya sayo at hinalikan ka. Nakapasok pa rin ang ari nito sa loob mo kaya ramdam mo pa rin na matigas at matayog pa rin ito.

“I love you so much, baby. I can’t to see you at the church wearing white dress”

Tumango ka lamang dito at hinalikan ang mukha nito.

“Mmhhmm pwedeng isa pa?”

[hindiakotanga]

Hardest question to answer: Okay ka lang ba? Kamusta ka na?

My life has been a roller coaster ride for a couple of months. Minsan, I’m asking myself, kamusta ka na nga ba Angelica?

We have our own silent battles and traumas. Lahat tayo may unsaid thoughts, and unsaid feelings. Karamihan sa atin, gusto ng sumuko kapag naiisip natin na bakit sobrang daming struggles at problema, kapag pinanghihinaan tayo ng loob at nasasaktan, kapag sobra ka ng naging strong for a long time at sobrang napagod ka na. I admit that I am one of those people before. So whenever someone is asking me: “Are you okay?”, I tend to avoid the question and laugh.

But I realized something, you cannot run from your problems, you need to face it. You can hide the pain, and smile, pero at the end of the day, you need to feel it in order to grieve. Admitting that you struggle isn’t an admission of weakness. Give yourself the time to heal, forgive yourself, and appreciate all the blessings that He gave. Minsan kasi, hindi natin nakikita na mas madami ung blessings kesa sa problema natin, na mas madami ung nagmamahal sa atin kesa sa mga umaalis. God is bigger than our problems.

Whenever we feel alone, always remember that He is with us, talk to Him, cry to Him, pray, and He will always listen. Surrender it all to God. Lahat ng bigat na nararamdaman mo, gagaan. When you accepted Jesus, and chose to follow Him, you will never be alone. God's love is beyond our imagination. He isn't just loving; He is love itself. When we experience His love, we learn to love others genuinely, and because of His love, we need not fear anything.

As the bible says, “The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.””

‭‭Deuteronomy‬ ‭31‬:‭8‬

At sa lahat ng patuloy na lumalaban sa buhay, may pinagdadaanan, nasasaktan, at nagheheal, everything will be alright in time, trust in Him. Hindi ito mabilis na process, but one day, tatawanan mo nalang ung mga pinagdaanan mo, at masasabi mo na, “Thank you Lord sa lahat. Some were blessings, and some were lessons.” You’ll find your peace, love, and comfort in Him. Iwanan ka man ng mundo, hinding-hindi ka iiwan ng Diyos.

Kapag may nagtanong sayo ulit ng “Okay ka lang ba?”, you will be confident while answering na, “Yes, I am joyful😊”

“And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in them.”

‭‭1 John‬ ‭4‬:‭16‬

“Don’t be sad! Because God sends hope in the most desperate moments. Don’t forget, the heaviest rain comes out of the darkest clouds.”

— Rumi

[emmcalosa]

Dear Marco,

It has been 3 years. It should have been 3 years. First of all, I wanna say sorry to all the things I said, and done to you— that hurt you. Sorry sa shortcoming ko. I know marami. Sa mga araw na tinake for granted ko because you were there. Patawad kasi napagod ako. Sumuko ako.

Patawad kasi napako yung pangako kong papakasalan kita. Kasi ikaw dapat yun talaga. Willing akong pakasalan ka, pero napagod ako. Akala ko ikaw na. Maraming mga araw pinapasalamat ko sa Diyos na tinupad niya ang hinahanap ng puso ko— ikaw yun.

Ikaw ang una kong minahal ng ganito. Malalim. Na hindi ko alam na kaya ko palang magmahal ng ganito or I am even capable to love.

Love.

Ikaw lang yung tanging minahal ko ng ganito.

Akala ko pamilya at kaibigan lang yung kaya kong mahalin ng ganito. Pero ikaw, ikaw ang nagpakita sa akin na kaya ko ding magmahal, at mahalin.

Maniniwala ako na minahal mo ako. Kasi naramdaman ko yon.

Sobra.

Maraming, maraming salamat Mahal ko.

Maraming salamat dahil pinakita mo sa akin na kaya akong tanggapin, na kaya akong mahalin.

Akala ko kasi— hindi na.

Akala ko, hanggang isang gabi lang.

Pero ikaw, tinanggap mo ako ng ilang taon.

Baon baon ko lahat lahat ng mga pinuntahan at pinagdaanan natin.

Marami.

Masasayang ala-ala. Marami akong natutunan dun. Marami kang tinuro sakin.

Alam ng Diyos utang ko sayo kung bakit nandito ako ngayon.

Maraming salamat, Mahal ko.

Baon ko lahat ng masasayang alaala, masasakit at mga tagumpay na pinagsaluhan natin.

Masakit sa akin na ginawa ko iyon. Pero nararamdaman ko na iyon ang pinakatamang ginawa natin.

Kailangan natin maggrow.

Masakit na palagi tayong nagkakasakitan.

Palagi tayong may hinahanap.

Palagi tayong nagtatanong.

Masakit sakin iwan ka,

Kasi ikaw na ang lagi ko,

Ikaw na halos ang buhay ko,

Ikaw na nakaraan, pinagdadaanan at pagdadaanan,

Akala ko handa ako tanggapin at tiisin lahat ng sakit,

Pero napagod ako.

Mahal ko,

Napagod ako.

Sobra.

Maraming beses.

Wala na ngayon nagtatanong sakin kung okay ako.

Kung kamusta ako,

Kumain ako,

Na kaya mo yan!

Naiwan nalang ay ako.

Pero mahal ko,

Maraming salamat kasi tinuruan mo ako kung paano makiramdam,

Umunawa,

Maghintay,

At magsakripisyo.

Napagod lang ako.

Kaya ngayon,

Ito na marahil ang huling liham ni Apollo sayo,

Dahil simula ngayon,

Iiwan ko na ang karakter na tumago sa akin ng sobrang habang panahon. Mag-uumpisa ako.

At uumpisahan ko nangmahalin ang tunay na ako— Emmerson Calosa.

Ako na ito. Kwento ko naman.

At sa ating paglisan,

Lagi mong tatandaan,

Sayo ang palakpak ko,

I am so rooting for your success. Kasi naniniwala ako magaling ka. Maniwala ka. Magtiwala ka. Hindi pa huli ang lahat. Kaya mo pa.

Maging masaya ka Marco. Yun ang isa sa mga kasiyahan ko.

Ps. Mahalin mo si Toffu. Deserve niyo ang isat isa.

Apollo

[for-d-win]

Wednesday of the 27th Week in Ordinary Time | 11 October 2023

May the misery of others move us to mercy and not to be happy! I believe, no one here is spared from any experiences of pain or difficulties.

Each one of us here has his / her own share of misery. Lahat tayo, in one way or another, may pinagdadaanan. Mayaman o mahirap, bata o matanda - walang takas - lahat mayroong pinagdadaanan.

And to all these baggages, we learned how to adapt by having different coping mechanisms, i.e., ways as to how we will curb / lighten its effects in our lives:

yung iba, bwelo muna - isolate o hiwalay muna sa grupo para ma-solo ang iniisip at nararamdaman;

yung iba naman, konting shot-shot muna para mag-numb ang pakiramdam;

yung iba naman, shopping spree - bili-bili na lang ang stress reliever;

yung iba naman, mag-travel - local or international;

sa mga banal, mag pray or mag pilgrimage;

at yung iba naman, diretso agad sa solusyon para matapos na ang problema.

But there is one coping mechanism, which for me, stands out from all the other mechanisms - yung gusto mong makinig sa lungkot / problema ng iba, hindi para makiramay o makiisa sa pinagdadaanan nila - pero para pagaanin yung kalooban mo at masabing - "Ay, okay pa pala ako - mas mabigat pa pala pinagdadaanan niya! Buti na lang!"

Minsan ganun tayo eh noh... imbis na makiisa sa pagdadalamhati / pagluluksa / paghihirap ng iba - nagiging masaya pa tayo kasi meron pa palang mas kawawa sa atin.

We find comfort in the misery of other people.

Just like Jonah in our first reading - Nung Monday, he was appointed by God to tell the Ninevites to repent lest God destroy their town.

Kahapon Tuesday, he preached about repentance and going back to the Lord which the Ninevites whole-heartedly done!

Today, nagbago na ang mga tao kaya hindi sinira ng Diyos. BUT Jonah is expecting na hindi na sila magbabago, kaya pala sa first reading today - gusto na ni Jonah masira ang bayan nila.

Ibig sabihin, kahit pala na nagpreach siya ng repentance to save the Ninevites, he was half-expecting them not to change so that God may destroy them, so that they will be more miserable than him.

Mga kapatid, hindi po natin ikinasisiya o ikinagagaan ng loob kapag may pinagdadaanan o problema ang iba... hindi po sila coping mechanism.

Rather, our Lord is teaching us that the misery of others should moves us to compassion and mercy - kung malungkot sila, lumungkot din sana tayo bilang pakikiisa.

Diba ganun naman, 'pag nagkwento tayo sa iba, ayaw mo naman na nakangiti sila. Wish natin, sana mag-sad face din po sila. Because in our difficulties, we do not wish good advices, we do not wish wise sayings of other people.

We only need someone who can feel what we feel diba...

Kaya nga po nakakalungkot kapag ang turing natin sa iba, "Hay mas mabuti pa pala ang kalagayan ko, may mas kawawa pa pala sa akin. Buti nga sa kanya!"

So, what is the challenge for us today?

May we give to others what we ask God to give us.

In our Gospel today - the Lord's prayer, a prayer that is very familiar to us - we take for granted the lines, "Forgive us our sins for we ourselves forgive everyone in debt to us."

If we are asking God's mercy and forgiveness for our miseries and wretchedness - may we also give to mercy and forgivness to those asking it from us.

Gusto mo pala kaawan ka ng Diyos sa pinagdadaanan mo, eh bakit masaya ka sa pinagdadaanan ng iba. Ibigay sa iba kung anung hinihingi natin sa Diyos - and soon enough, you will see how God will let you feel his graciousness and love for your life.

Amen.

Year I Readings:

Jonah 4: 1-11

Luke 11: 1-4

[sikmurangmaingay]

Prince charming. Do you even exist? O hanggang fairytale ka lang? Ano ba talaga ang definition nun? Gwapo? No. Para sakin, mabait, humble, maka-Diyos, family oriented, marespeto. Kumbaga, bonus na lang sakin yung hitsura eh. As I was browsing through my facebook, bigla kong nakita yung profile nung isang lalake. Tawagin nalang natin siyang si Prince. Haha. Anyways, I actually met him already when my aunt introduced me to him. He smiled and I smiled back of course, I really felt that he has a good personality. Although, he's 20 years my senior, but, who the fuck cares... lawyer sya, and, he's already a government official right now (although that's not what i'm after). I really got curious about him since napaguusapan siya ng parents ko minsan, tsaka kilala din sya ng tiyahin ko, and yes, I feel like, he is indeed a good man. Hindi ko alam kung pinapairal niyo ba ang intuition nio, pero para sa'kin, sya yung tipo kong lalake. I'd have to say that he's a total catch to any woman, he's a rare gem, but of course, ang mga ganung klase ng lalake hindi madaling mapasaya, why? They have high standards, matatalino sila, probably the reason why he's not yet married until now, at wala pa ring mga anak. Or siguro, they're too occupied with their job?

He seems to be a people pleaser, which, I guess is a common type of personality sa Pilipinas. Para bang, all his life, wala siyang ibang ginawa kundi ang pasayahin ang pamilya niya, to the point na hindi niya pa natanong kung masaya ba talaga sya sa ginagawa niya? Or ginagawa lang niya yun para sa kanila? Pero tingin ko, wala na siguro sa isip niya ang pag-aasawa. Why? He already has established a good image and career, mukha namang masaya siya kasama ang mga kapamilya at kaibigan niya, so siguro iisipin niya eh "bakit pa ko mag-aasawa? Eh, akin ang oras ko, pagkatapos ng trabaho, magagawa ko kahit anong gusto ko, pag nagkaasawa ako, isa pa yang iisipin ko, at papakainin ko" kaya siguro wala na siyang balak mag-asawa

I really want to get to know him. I don't know but it seems like I can relate to him despite the fact that i've only met him once. Funny right? oh, Prince... langit ka, lupa ako.. apoy ka, tubig ako, ginto ka, bato ako. why does it have to be this way? Why oh why?

[sincerelyjea]

I Left The Church And Here Is Why:

When I was a child, I was baptized as a Catholic. We usually go to church every Sunday, but I honestly don't feel like it.

Don't get me wrong ha; I have high respect sa lahat ng religion except sa mga naniniwala kay Quiboloy. This is just based on my own PERSONAL opinion.

I remember that during my early days I always wanted to be part of "Salubong," Pero alam ko sa sarili ko na it won't really happen because I am really scared of religious figures inside the church, especially the statues of saints. I don't know why, but I can't even stare at the small Santo Niño we have in our house (May superstition kasi ako noon na naglalakad 'yon tuwing madaling araw lol).

As someone who was born into a Catholic family, we are always encouraged to attend Catholic events such as the "Simbang Gabi," "Alay Lakad," and more, but never did I get the point of worshipping or praying with religious figures (No offense meant to those who are doing it) Maybe it's just their way of remembering God and His sacrifices; I don't know.

Before I graduated from primary school, I can recall that I talked to my mom and said that I do believe in God. I really am, but I don't want to join them anymore in church because I am trying to figure out myself. Pumayag naman sila maybe because they are confident naman na they raised me and my brother right.

During first year highschool, I have a teacher who is so kind talaga hindi lang sa akin kundi sa aming lahat. And then one day, they invited the whole class to attend campus ministry (Sa Apex ako nag-secondary btw and mayroong campus ministry doon every week handled by a preacher from CBBC. I don't know kung anong tawag sa ibang religion pero parang "Bible study" s'ya or "Cell group" ganon.)

And yeah, that's the start of everything. Naka-balik ulit ako sa church pero this time hindi na sa Catholic. Wala ng mga santo and everything. Literal na building lang with a pulpit for preaching and Sunday school rooms. Everyone brings their own Bible (unlike Sa Catholic na usually Pari lang ang nagbabasa).

I became active in praising and serving the Lord. I tried my best not to miss any fellowship inside the campus, area, church, or Sunday school. Literally, the involvement is there. Masaya ako. At the same time, grabe rin talaga yung character development ko doon kaya rin pinayagan ako ng magulang ko to be baptized there and change my religion. After several years, I was practicing piano na kasi I really wanna join the orchestra. Hindi lang natuloy kasi nga I decided na to left the church. Pinag-isipan ko siya nang mabuti at matagal. Mahirap syempre but it's for my own good na rin kasi a lot of things aren't aligned with my principle na.

Listed below are the reasons why I won't go to church again:

• Maraming misogynist which is a big NO for me kasi sobrang laki ng respeto ko sa mga kababaihan and naniniwala ako sa kanilang kakayahan, likewise sa mga kalalakihan.

• Maraming homophobic. Siguro pinaka-worst na narinig ko ay ayaw daw ng Diyos sa mga bakla kaya daw si Adan at Eva lang ang unang ginawa. Tapos kapag bakla ka daw, magdudusa ka sa impyerno. Like kailan pa naging basis 'yon??

• Marami dyan didiktahan ka. "You cannot say this", "You have to do this", "You have to wear this" and "You have to be like this". Ako pa naman yung tipo ng tao na kapag ayoko, ayoko. Hindi mo ako mapipilit.

• Para sa akin hindi puwedeng sunod ka lang ng sunod. Hindi porket sinabi, gagawin mo. Hindi porket ginagawa ng isa, gagayahin mo. Truth hurts pero some members of a church are blind followers. They are selfish. May mga times na hindi nila iniisip ang kapakanan ng iba.

• Some people think they are always right. They are manipulative and narcissist.

• Biggest pet peeve ko talaga ay yung mga taong masyadong religious pero ang contradicting ng ugali. Practice what you preach ika nga.

Siguro nga, too much religiousness is toxic. Tho I am aware naman that a church isn't a place for saints but for sinners to repent. Still, I would rather keep my relationship with God private na lang than be surrounded by this kind of people.

Hindi man na ako pala-church, hindi naman ako nakalimot. Palagi pa rin akong naniniwala at nagtitiwala. I'm still listening to worship song. I'm still reading my Bible. I'm still praying and trying to be a good example.

Lahat ng mayroon ako sa panginoon pa rin. Sa kaniya palagi lahat ng papuri.

[ae-diaries]

2022 in REVIEW

Had this in my drafts for so long. I'm a list-type-of-girl so I listed what God has done in the past year. Para mayroon din naman akong good memories and lessons na babalikbalikan. Now, I finally have the time to post it.

My birth month is already over. It became my favorite tradition to write my year-end reflections but I didn't have time doing this last December to February because I put my focus and energy on my loved ones, constants, and work.

Looking back, 2022 was tough, but I was tougher. It wasn't easy. At least for me. Madami akong iniiyak sa year na ito: my family's health issues, quarter-life crisis, and silent battles. They were too much to handle. Yet in those unbearably hard times, I never give up and lose hope knowing that God was holding the other end of the rope. Indeed, it has always been His grace and the people He used that saved and buoyed me to the surface that I will always be immensely grateful for.

Despite the stormy sea, God has won more victories in my life through and through. Those tough times gave me the opportunity to exercise my tenacity and draw me closer to God.

I LEARNED na may baon pa pala akong lakas kahit feeling ko ubos na ubos na ako, may bigla na lang dumarating na tulong at malasakit kapag feeling mo walang wala ka na at may Diyos na yayakapin ka at hindi ka pababayaan kapag feeling mo hindi mo na kaya.

I REALIZED that uncertainties will come along the way, but one thing is certain - He is always faithful to his promises. And that's what I want to fix my eyes on this 2023: the lens of 3Gs (Gratitude and God's Grace).

Ended the year with inner peace and gratitude.

I could say lahat ng pagsubok na pinagdaanan ko at ng pamilya ko ay may magandang kapalit. Photos (with caption) below wrapped up the higlights of my 2022. #SKL 😜

1. TATAY'S HOSPITALIZATION

(Me in the photo..after humagulhol to surrender Tatay's condition to Jesus...and to his doctors.)

The first quarter was truuuuly a turbulent period for our family. I was drowning in fear because of so many terrifying episodes during my father's hospitalization. And the worst part of it is when the doctors offered immediate intubation for tatay on the night of Feb. 13 because of his decrease in sensorium. At this moment, I exploded in tears as I/we prayed and surrendered his condition to Jesus. But what happened next was a testament of God's miracle: Tatay slowly opened his eyes a few hours before his intubation! Truth be told, you will never know that God is all you need, when God is all you have. Sa panahong hopeless kana, dito mo malalamang may Diyos ka nga pala na kumikilos. You just have to place your full trust and faith in Him. He is way maker, promise keeper and miracle worker. I also met the best and the most compassionate doctors He used as instruments.

It's humbling to say that serving my father is what I considered my biggest achievement in 2022. Nothing else comes close.

It was also in this season that my elder sister and her fam abroad got Covid-19. But then again, they made it through by God's grace.

2. ELYU TRAVEL

In April, a week after my father was discharged, I went on an unexpected solo trip to SFLU out of necessity. I felt God also brought me here to breathe, clear my mind off things, calm my storms, and somehow, reward me for what I'd been through. Dasurv? 😂

3. BABY MEGAN WAS BORN

3. In July 21, my sister gave birth to Baby Megan, my third niece. She's a rainbow baby. A new bundle of joy to our ever growing family.

However, it was also the month where Tatay got Covid-19 and I fell ill, too. My anxiety was kicking in again, but later on I realized, "Kelan ba kami pinabayaan ng Dyos?" He has always been faithful to us. We wouldn't survive this without Him.

4. THE RETURN OF F2F CLASSES

And then come August, the return of F2F classes. I feel blessed to have met a new breed of awesome learners under my care. They have brought context to my world.

5. A MASTER'S DEGREE HOLDER

And I never thought that despite my busyness and clutter at work, I would be able to have my thesis completed and finally received my master's degree at the Philippine Christian University at the same time. One for the books!

6. ALYESSA'S MILESTONE

In the same month, Alyessa, my younger sister, finally started her career abroad. I couldn't be more proud of her milestone. Pautang naman sis. 😂

7. BABY GIA'S CHRISTENING & 1ST BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION

We also celebrated baby Gia's (my second adorable niece) first birthday and christening last September. It was way memorable! (without lockdown and less restrictions, too)

8. ONE OF MY BIGGEST DREAMS WAS GRANTED!

Last October 24, I received an email - this I considered an early xmas gift from God - an answered prayer that I'd been longing to hear! All of my efforts and hardwork were all worth it.

9. A WELL-SPENT FAMILY VACATION

And last December became one of the most memorable Year-End parties we had in our fam. Plus, my eldest sister and her fam had finally spent their Christmas vacation in PH after 13 years. Everything was surreal. ❤️ Grateful is an understatement.

An dami kong drama, nag-bday lang naman ako. 😅

My wish? I didn't have anything in particular because all of the things that I'm experiencing right now are my answered prayers in the past. I put 2023 in Your hands.

#HERYear #Januarygirl #post-bday

[ghostlywriterspeaksbruh]

Padasal dasal ka pa jan ng di maganda, tapos bubungad ka about sa readings mo di ka nag iisip bat ayaw ko kasi baluktot mangatwiran ha ? 😂🤣

Kahit pa kung sino mang Diyos ang nag allow nyan sainyo, pag alam kong unfair at walang disiplina ang babaeng yan, I'd still say No 😂😂😂

And ikaw ? sino kaba sa tingin mo ? kakampi ka nalang baluktot pa yung taong kinakampihan mo 🤣😂😂

[484262]

October 12, 2024

Minsan nagtataka ako kung ang mga hirap at pagod na dinanas ko ay may silbi lang din sa huli. Naiisip ko na baka isang paraan lang to ng mundo bilang kapalit sa aking mga pagkakamali.

Bakit ba kahit hindi ka naman sumusuko at natitinag ay hindi pa rin pumupunta sa tamang landas ang iyong mga nais? Bakit kahit ilang beses ka nang umulit at nagtiwala ay hindi pa rin nagbubunga sa dapat na resulta? Bakit kahit libo-libong dasal kada-araw ang iyong naisasagawa ay palaging sa kabiguan pa rin napupunta? Bakit kahit ilang bakit ay wala pa rin kasagutan?

Kailangan lang nating tandaan na hindi kaagad nasusunod ang kagustuhan ng isang taong hindi matiyaga. Hindi man ito agad-agad, ngunit ito ay paparating pa. Mahirap danasin ang tunguhin ng isang bagay na kailangan ng pagsisikap. Hindi palagi ay nariyan upang pasiyahin tayo nang tuluyan. Maaaring dumating ito nang maaga, maaring dumating ito nang huli. Time will always tell and the time will always come. Hindi sayang ang dugo, pawis at luha mo. Hindi sayang ang pagod mo. Hindi sayang ang oras mo. At higit sa lahat, hindi ka sayang. Nariyan ka bilang pag-asa. Nariyan ka bilang regalo ng Diyos dahil nagtiwala ka. Tiwala lang.

Kung mahal mo ang ginagawa mo, walang mas hihigit pa sa taong hindi sumusuko. May oras na malulungkot ka dahil sa napakaraming subok. Pero hindi ka nagkulang. In the end, everything will work out to a person that trusts. Everything will work out to a person that has faith. Ang pinakamahalaga ay ang sinubukan mo ang lahat ng iyong makakaya. At hindi dapat to huwag pansinin. We should be grateful to those whose faith reaches the roof, rather than those who collectively agrees to settle. Mahirap pero kakayanin. Ganon dapat.

Ang lahat ng pagod ay may silbi dahil hindi ka nagpapahuli.

[fortunetellersdilettante]

jadhen zindagi aawhaan kee mathahoon ۽ khushk chhadi nadi ahi maan ajj rat tunhanji dar tay rahandes jekadhan tohan kee madd jee zaroorat aheen jekadhan tohan kee madd jee zaroorat aahe maan shahr june roshaniyoon band kare chhadendos aaun kor galayeindsa dhoko deendasi aaun darkhwast kundos ۽ rashut deendas aawhaan kee chago karan laae aawhaan kee chago karan laaa jadhen dushman tunhenji dar tay honda ahan aaun tokey jang khaan restoux khani weendas jekadhan tohan kee madd jee zaroorat aheen jekadhan tohan kee madd jee zaroorat aahe tunhanji umeed hik tar saan lutki rahi aahe aaun tunhanji dikh ۾ shareek theendas aawhaan kee chago karan laae aawhaan kee chago karan laaa moon kee iman aanen jaa sabb diyo the ton moon laae beh aeen ie kandeen ۽ aau aawhaan laaa in kee aawhaan laaa kando, aawhaan laaa beebeyee aaeon aggati neh wadhee rahyo ahyan tunhanji wajan khaan ghano poe tusan piyar kundos tunhanji laae tunhanji laae ton kadahan beh akelo nand neh kandeen tunhanji wajan khaan ghano poe tusan piyar kundos ۽ aawhaan jee wajan khaan ghano poe, waya, waya jadahan ton mujasmi wanger paijee wenden aaeon tohan kee pakran laaa ati ahyan tokey piran tay rakhiye ton piran tay ۽ jekadhan aawhaan jo koh khali ahi. ka shea moon kee rooki neh saghandy moon kee badhayo the tohan kee chha ghurje tohan kee chha jee zaroorat aheen maan emandari saan hawali karyan tho tohan hamesha moon laaa sagyo kiyo aahe tanhan kareeye aau aawhaan laae aawhaan laaa kando beebeyee moon tay moween neh ahyan maan tusan ghano poe piyar kundos

jevitha obbev ihalat ha villiv thabon vit mamma ad ra t yougae door gavya innam. obbott udav avash name, obbott udav avash name mamma nagara viduli pahan vasa damomy mamma boru kinnam, vancha karanava, mamma illenava sah allas dennam obbev hocin kirrimate, obbev hocin kirrimate sathuran obe dorakad sitin vit mamma you yuddhanan aran yannam. obbott udav avash name, obbott udav avash name nulakin ellen obe balaport mamma obe duke vedanna valet havul vannemy obbev hocin kirrimate, obbev hocin kirrimate mate vishvasa karanna hethu kianne obath ma venuven a dem karan buv mamma ake you venuven, you venuven karanava. baba, mamma idiriat yanne nah. mamma whaaat aderai you nathi vunat passa. ob venuven, ob venuven whaaat kavadavat thanium nidaganna ba mamma whaaat aderai you nathi vunat passa. a vagam godak kalekate passa you gua, gua, gua. ob pilimek mane vaten vit you allaganna mamma innava. obbev obe depa math thbbann, ob obe pad math obe lih his name kisim dayak mav valakvanne nah mate kianne whaaat monavad one kiala whaaat monavad one? mamma avankavam yatte vemi ob samvitam ma venuven ekem dae ker ath a nisa, mamma e ob venuven, ob venuven karannam baba, mamma mocketa na. mamma obbott boho culektel puss obbott ader karamy

Wakati maisha yanakuacha juu na kavu Nitakuwa kwenye mlango wako usiku wa leo Kama unahitaji msaada, kama unahitaji msaada Nitaweka taa za jiji Nasema uongo, nitakudanganya, nitaomba na kutoa rushwa Make You Beautiful, Make You Well Adui anapokuwa mlangoni mwako Nitakuchukua kutoka kwenye vita Kama unahitaji msaada, kama unahitaji msaada Matumaini yako yanafifia kwa kamba Nitashiriki katika mateso yako Make You Beautiful, Make You Well Nipe sababu za kuamini Ungefanya vivyo hivyo kwa ajili yangu Na mimi kufanya hivyo kwa ajili yenu, kwa ajili yenu Kid, I'm Not Walking Nitakupenda sana baada ya kuondoka Kwa ajili yako, kwa ajili yako Kamwe usilale peke yako Nitakupenda sana baada ya kuondoka Na muda mrefu baada ya kuondoka, umeondoka, umeondoka Ukianguka kama sanamu Ngoja nikupeleke hapa nikuone Weka miguu yako, wewe juu ya miguu yako Na kama kisima chako ni tupu Hakuna kitu kitakachonizuia Niambie unahitaji nini Unahitaji nini? Ninajisalimisha kwa uaminifu Umefanya vivyo hivyo kwa ajili yangu Nitafanya hivyo kwa ajili yako, kwa ajili yako Mtoto, mimi si movin' juu ya Nitakupenda muda mrefu baada ya wewe

Cuando la vida te deja alto y seco Estaré en tu puerta esta noche Si necesitas ayuda, si necesitas ayuda Apagaré las luces de la ciudad Mentiré, engañaré, rogaré y sobornaré Para curarte, para curarte Cuando los enemigos están en tu puerta Te llevaré lejos de la guerra Si necesitas ayuda, si necesitas ayuda Tu esperanza colgando de un hilo Compartiré tu sufrimiento Para curarte, para curarte Dame razones para creer Que tú harías lo mismo por mí Y lo haría por ti, por ti Cariño, no voy a seguir adelante Te amaré mucho después de que te hayas ido Para ti, para ti Nunca dormirás solo Te amaré mucho después de que te hayas ido Y mucho después de que te hayas ido, te hayas ido, te hayas ido Cuando caes como una estatua Voy a estar ahí para atraparte Te pongo de pie, tú de pie Y si tu pozo está vacío Nada me lo impedirá Dime lo que necesitas ¿Qué necesitas? Me rindo honestamente Siempre has hecho lo mismo por mí Así que lo haría por ti, por ti Cariño, no voy a seguir adelante Te amaré mucho después de ti

Marka nafi kaa dhigto mid sare oo engegaaga Caawa waxaan joogi doonaa albaabkaaga Hadii aad u baahantahay cawinaad, hadii aad u baahantahay cawinaad Waan xiri donaa nalalka magaalada Waan been sheegi doonaa, khiyaameyn doonaa, waan baryi doonaa oo laaluushka inaan ku caafimaad siiyo, si aad u caafimaadsatid Marka ay cadaawaadu albaabkaaga joogaan Waan idin xambaarsanayaa dagaal wado aad ka soo dagaal Hadii aad u baahantahay cawinaad, hadii aad u baahantahay cawinaad Rajadaada dangling by xadhig Waxaan la qeybsanayaa dhibaatadaada inaan ku caafimaad siiyo, si aad u caafimaadsatid Ii sheeg sababo aan ku rumaysanayo In aad sidaas oo kale ii sameyn lahaydeen Oo waxaan jeclaan lahaa in aad aad, aad u Ilmo, Anigu kuma dhaqaaqayo Waan ku jeclaan doonaa muddo dheer ka dib markii aad tagtay Waayo, waxaad tahay Waligaa keligaa ma seexan doontid Waan ku jeclaan doonaa muddo dheer ka dib markii aad tagtay Oo muddo dheer ka dib markii aad tagtay, way tagtay, way tagtay Markaad sida taallad u dhacdid Waxaan ahay gon' waxaa si aad u qabto aad Cagaha ku saaro, cagahana isku saar, Hadduu ceelkaagu madhan yahay. Ma aha wax igu hor istaagi doona Ii sheeg waxa aad u baahan tahay Maxaad u baahan tahay? Waxaan si daacadnimo ah isu dhiibaa Waxaad had iyo jeer sidaas oo kale u sameeyo aniga ii Markaa, waan kuu sameyn lahaa adiga, adiga waxaad Baby, Anigu ma ihi movin' on Waan ku jeclaan yhay waqti dheer ka dib

Ko te življenje pusti visoko in suho Nocoj bom pred tvojimi vrati Če potrebujete pomoč, če potrebujete pomoč Ugasnil bom mestne luči Lagal bom, goljufal, prosil in podkupoval Da bi te naredil zdravega, da bi te naredil zdravega Ko so sovražniki pred vašimi vrati Odnesel te bom iz vojne Če potrebujete pomoč, če potrebujete pomoč Vaše upanje visi na vrvici Delil bom tvoje trpljenje Da bi te naredil zdravega, da bi te naredil zdravega Daj mi razloge za verjemanje Da bi enako storil zame In to bi storil zate, zate Dragi, ne grem naprej Ljubim te še dolgo po tem, ko te ne bo več Za vas, za vas Nikoli ne boste spali sami Ljubim te še dolgo po tem, ko te ne bo več In še dolgo po tem, ko te ni več, ni več, ni več Ko padeš kot kip Tam bom, da te ujamem Postavite se na noge, vi na noge In če je vaš vodnjak prazen Nič me ne bo preprečilo Povejte mi, kaj potrebujete Kaj potrebuješ? Iskreno se predajam Vedno si delal enako zame Torej, to bi naredil zate, zate Dragi, ne bom se premikal naprej Ljubila te bom še dolgo po tebi

Keď ťa život nechá v suchu Dnes večer budem pri tvojich dverách Ak potrebujete pomoc, ak potrebujete pomoc Zhasnem svetlá mesta Budem klamať, podvádzať, budem prosiť a podplácať Aby ste sa uzdravili, aby ste sa uzdravili Keď sú nepriatelia pred vašimi dverami Odnesiem ťa z vojny Ak potrebujete pomoc, ak potrebujete pomoc Tvoja nádej visiaca na šnúrke Budem sa podieľať na tvojom utrpení Aby ste sa uzdravili, aby ste sa uzdravili Dajte mi dôvody veriť Že ty urobíš to isté pre mňa A urobil by som to pre teba, pre teba Zlato, nepohnem sa ďalej Budem ťa milovať ešte dlho po tom, čo odídeš Pre vás, pre vás Nikdy nebudete spať sami Budem ťa milovať ešte dlho po tom, čo odídeš A dlho potom, čo si preč, preč, preč Keď padáš ako socha Budem tam, aby som ťa chytil Postaviť ťa na nohy, postav sa na nohy A ak je vaša studňa prázdna Nič mi nezabráni Povedzte mi, čo potrebujete Čo potrebuješ? Úprimne sa vzdávam Vždy si pre mňa robil to isté Takže by som to urobil pre teba, pre teba Zlato, nehýbem sa ďalej Budem ťa milovať ešte dlho po tebe

ජීවිතය ඔබව ඉහළට හා වියළිව තබන විට මම අද රෑ ට ඔයාගේ දොර ගාව ඉන්නම්. ඔබට උදව් අවශ්ය නම්, ඔබට උදව් අවශ්ය නම් මම නගරයේ විදුලි පහන් වසා දමමි මම බොරු කියන්නම්, වංචා කරනවා, මම ඉල්ලනවා සහ අල්ලස් දෙන්නම් ඔබව හොඳින් කිරීමට, ඔබව හොඳින් කිරීමට සතුරන් ඔබේ දොරකඩ සිටින විට මම ඔයාව යුද්ධයෙන් අරන් යන්නම්. ඔබට උදව් අවශ්ය නම්, ඔබට උදව් අවශ්ය නම් නූලකින් එල්ලෙන ඔබේ බලාපොරොත්තුව මම ඔබේ දුක් වේදනා වලට හවුල් වන්නෙමි ඔබව හොඳින් කිරීමට, ඔබව හොඳින් කිරීමට මට විශ්වාස කරන්න හේතු කියන්න ඔබත් මා වෙනුවෙන් ඒ දේම කරන බව මම ඒක ඔයා වෙනුවෙන්, ඔයා වෙනුවෙන් කරනවා. බබා, මම ඉදිරියට යන්නේ නැහැ. මම ඔයාට ආදරෙයි ඔයා නැති වුනාට පස්සේ. ඔබ වෙනුවෙන්, ඔබ වෙනුවෙන් ඔයාට කවදාවත් තනියම නිදාගන්න බෑ මම ඔයාට ආදරෙයි ඔයා නැති වුනාට පස්සේ. ඒ වගේම ගොඩක් කාලෙකට පස්සේ ඔයා ගියා, ගියා, ගියා. ඔබ පිළිමයක් මෙන් වැටෙන විට ඔයාව අල්ලගන්න මම ඉන්නවා. ඔබව ඔබේ දෙපා මත තබන්න, ඔබ ඔබේ පාද මත ඔබේ ළිඳ හිස් නම් කිසිම දෙයක් මාව වළක්වන්නේ නැහැ මට කියන්න ඔයාට මොනවද ඕනේ කියලා ඔයාට මොනවද ඕනේ? මම අවංකවම යටත් වෙමි ඔබ සැමවිටම මා වෙනුවෙන් එකම දේ කර ඇත ඒ නිසා, මම එය ඔබ වෙනුවෙන්, ඔබ වෙනුවෙන් කරන්නම් බබා, මම මොකටේ නෑ. මම ඔබට බොහෝ කලකට පසු ඔබට ආදරය කරමි

جڏھن زندگي اوھان کي مٿاھون ۽ خشڪ ڇڏي ندي آھي مان اڄ رات تنهنجي در تي رهندس جيڪڏهن توهان کي مدد جي ضرورت آهي، جيڪڏهن توهان کي مدد جي ضرورت آهي مان شهر جون روشنيون بند ڪري ڇڏيندس آءٌ ڪوڙ ڳالهائيندس، ڌوڪو ڏيندس، آءٌ درخواست ڪندس ۽ رشوت ڏيندس اوھان کي چڱو ڪرڻ لاء، اوھان کي چڱو ڪرڻ لاء جڏھن دشمن تنھنجي در تي ھوندا آھن آءٌ توکي جنگ کان رستو کڻي ويندس جيڪڏهن توهان کي مدد جي ضرورت آهي، جيڪڏهن توهان کي مدد جي ضرورت آهي تنهنجي اميد هڪ تار سان لٽڪي رهي آهي آءٌ تنهنجي ڏک ۾ شريڪ ٿيندس اوھان کي چڱو ڪرڻ لاء، اوھان کي چڱو ڪرڻ لاء مون کي ايمان آڻڻ جا سبب ڏيو ته تون مون لاءِ به ائين ئي ڪندين ۽ آء اوھان لاء ان کي اوھان لاء ڪندو, اوھان لاء بيبي، آئون اڳتي نه وڌي رهيو آهيان تنهنجي وڃڻ کان گهڻو پوءِ توسان پيار ڪندس تنهنجي لاءِ، تنهنجي لاءِ تون ڪڏهن به اڪيلو ننڊ نه ڪندين تنهنجي وڃڻ کان گهڻو پوءِ توسان پيار ڪندس ۽ اوھان جي وڃڻ کان گهڻو پوء, ويا, ويا جڏهن تون مجسمي وانگر پئجي ويندين آئون توهان کي پڪڙڻ لاء اتي آهيان توکي پيرن تي رکي، تون پيرن تي ۽ جيڪڏھن اوھان جو کوھ خالي آھي. ڪا شيء مون کي روڪي نه سگهندي مون کي ٻڌايو ته توهان کي ڇا گهرجي توهان کي ڇا جي ضرورت آهي؟ مان ايمانداري سان حوالي ڪريان ٿو توهان هميشه مون لاء ساڳيو ڪيو آهي تنهن ڪري، آء اوھان لاء، اوھان لاء ڪندو بيبي، مون تي مووين نه آهيان مان توسان گهڻو پوءِ پيار ڪندس

Apo upenyu hunokusiya wakakwirira uye wakaoma Manheru ano ndiri pamusuwo wenyu Kana uchida rubatsiro, kana uchida rubatsiro Ndichavhara magetsi emuguta Ndichanyepa, kubiridzira, ndichakumbira uye chiokomuhomwe Kuti uve noutano hwakanaka, kuti uve noutano hwakanaka Apo vavengi vari pasuo rako Ndichakutakura nzira kubva kuhondo Kana uchida rubatsiro, kana uchida rubatsiro Tariro yako yakarembera netambo Ndichagoverana mukutambura kwako Kuti uve noutano hwakanaka, kuti uve noutano hwakanaka Ndipei zvikonzero zvekutenda Kuti iwe waizondiitirawo saizvozvo Uye ndichakuitira iwe, nokuda kwako Mwana, handisi kuenderera mberi Ndichakuda nguva refu mushure mekunge waenda Nokuti iwe, nokuda kwako Hauzomboregi uri woga Ndichakuda nguva refu mushure mekunge waenda Uye nguva refu mushure mekunge waenda, waenda, waenda Paunodonha sechifananidzo I'm gon' be there to catch you Isa pamakumbo ako, iwe pamakumbo ako Uye kana tsime rako risina chinhu Hapana chinhu chichanditadzisa Ndiudze zvaunoda Chii chaunoda? Ndinotera nokutendeseka Makagara muchindiitirawo saizvozvo Ndinozviitira iwe, nokuda kwako Mwana, handisi movin' on Ndinokuda nguva refu mushure mako

Fa botshelo bo go tlogela bo le kwa godimo le go omile I'm gonna thrill ya tonight i'm gonna thrill ya Fa o tlhoka thuso, fa o tlhoka thuso Ke tla tima mabone a motse. I'm gonna trick, i'm gonna go gaga Gore o tle o dire sentle, gore o tle o dire sentle. Fa baba ba gago ba ntse ba le fa kgorong ya gago Ke tla lo ntsha mo ntweng Fa o tlhoka thuso, fa o tlhoka thuso Tsholofelo ya gago e e tshamekang e e tshamekang Ke tla go thusa ka bohutsana jwa gago. Gore o tle o dire sentle, gore o tle o dire sentle. Romela Romela Mabaka a go Dumela Le wena o nketsetsa jalo. Le nna ke tla go direla. Baby, i'm not gonna move on ya ya I'm gonna love ya long after you're gone gone kwa go wena, ka ntlha ya gago Ga o robale o le nosi I'm gonna love ya long after you're gone gone Long After You're Gone, Gone, Gone fa o wela jaaka sefikantswe I'm gonna go there to catch ya Go go gadget legs, you're on your legs If Your Good's Gone Bad Nothing's Gonna Let Me Go Tell me what ya need ya O tlhoka eng? Ke ne ka itepa ka boikanyegi Le wena o ntiretse ka metlha. Le nna ke tla go direla. Baby, I'm Not Gonna Go On I'm gonna love ya long after ya

Ge bophelo bo go tlogela bogodimo le go oma Tonight I'm gonna be a gate Ge o nyaka thušo, ge o nyaka thušo Ke tla tima mabone a motse I'm gonna be a lie, i'm gonna be a bear To be good, be done Ge manaba a gago a le dikgorong tša gago Ke tla go sepetša go tšwa ntweng Ge o nyaka thušo, ge o nyaka thušo Y yo ya no espero a la y a la Ke tla go šadiša ka ditlaišegong tša gago To be good, be done Mphe mabaka a go dumela Le wena o tla dira se se swanago le nna Gomme ke tla go direla tšona, ka gobane Baby, I'm gonna be a no go I'm gonna love ya long after we're gone By Lena Lena O ka se tsoge o robetše o le noši I'm gonna love ya long after we're gone Go long, go, go, go Ge o ka wela bjalo ka lešela I'm gon' be there to catch ya Go Go Gadget Legs, You On Your Legs If ya wanna be naked Ga go na selo seo se ka n thibelago Mpotše se o se nyakago O hloka eng? Ke bea ka potego Le diretše nna ka mehla Le nna ke tla go direla ka baka la lena Baby, I don't be a go I'm gonna love ya long after ya

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HUWAG MONG HAWAKAN

Sa panahon ngayon, madalas hindi na pinaniniwalaan ng mga kabataan ang paniniwala ng mga matatanda lalo na kung hindi nila mismo naranasan. Ngunit, wala namang masama kung tayo'y makikinig at susunod sa kanilang paniniwala.

Sina Jacob at Alex ay matalik na magkaibigan simula noong sila'y nasa elementarya pa lamang. Lagi silang magkasama lalo na sa mga importanteng araw ng kanilang buhay. Isang araw, inimbitahan ni Jacob ang kaniyang kaibigan na si Alex sa kaniyang kaarawan. "Pre, punta ka sa amin mamayang gabi upang ipagdiwang ang aking kaarawan," wika ni Jacob kay Alex habang sila'y pauwi galing paaralan. "Oo naman," masayang sagot ni Alex.

Noong makabihis na si Alex, agad nitong inandar ang motor at umalis na. Habang nasa biyahe si Alex, napansin niya na parang paulit-ulit lang ang kaniyang dinadaanan. Tinawagan niya si Jacob at sinabing, "Pre, naliligaw na ata ako". "Sabi ng lola ko, baliktarin mo raw ang iyong damit," wika ni Jacob sa kabilang linya. Si Alex ay naligaw sa daanang maraming mga puno at kaunti lamang ang ilaw. Hindi siya naniwala sa sinabi ni Jacob at nagpatuloy pa rin ito kahit na alam niyang naliligaw na siya. "Huwag ka na munang magpatuloy, susunduin ka na lang namin," wika ni Jacob na nag-aalala na.

Habang nasa kalsada sila Jacob at ng kanyang pinsan, may nadaanan silang naaksidente. Ang lalaki ay nakahandusay sa kalsada kasama ang nawasak na motor. "Parang si Alex yun ah," usisa ni Jacob. Tinignan ni Jacob ang lalaki at kinilabutan siya noong makita niyang si Alex nga ito. Laking gulat ni Jacob noong biglang tumawag si Alex sa kaniyang telepono. "Pre, may nakita akong motorsiklo na nabunggo sa may malaking puno malapit sa akin. Duguan yung dalawang lalaki," natatakot na wika ni Alex. Hindi makapagsalita si Jacob dahil kitang-kita niya si Alex na nakahandusay sa kalsada. "Pre, Pre? Nandiyan ka pa ba?" tanong ni Alex. "Ha? Alex? Paano ka nakatawag eh nandito yung katawan mo nakahandusay dito sa kalsada," naguguluhang sagot ni Jacob. "Hindi ako yan pre, buhay pa 'ko," wika ni Alex. Binuksan ni Alex ang kaniyang camera at ipinakita ang mukha niya kay Jacob. "Oh diba ako 'to, ang gwapong kaibigan mo," natutuwang wika ni Alex.

Tinawagan ni Jacob ang kaniyang lola at ikinuwento ang nangyayari. Sinabihan siya ng lola niya na huwag nilang hawakan ang mga ito dahil ito'y gawa ng demonyo. Kinikilabutan na sila Jacob sa mga nangyayari kaya tinawagan niya ulit si Alex. Pagkasagot ni Alex sa video call, pinakita niya kay Jacob ang paghawak niya sa dalawang lalaki. "Pre, kamukha mo naman itong isang lalaki na nabunggo," gulat na wika ni Alex. "Huwag mong hawakan! Mga demonyo ang mga yan," sigaw ni Jacob kay Alex. Agad na tinanggal ni Alex ang kamay niya sa lalaki. Pagkatanggal niya, biglang gumalaw ang lalaki. Dali-daling inandar ni Alex ang kaniyang motorsiklo at natatarantang umalis papalayo sa lugar na iyon. Siya ay nagdarasal habang pinapatakbo ang motorsiklo. Sa kabutihan ng Diyos, siya ay nakauwi ng ligtas.

Pagkauwi niya, biglang tumawag sila Jacob at kaniyang pinsan. Pinayuhan nila si Alex na sunugin ang kaniyang mga damit. "Sayang naman pre, regalo sa'kin to ni mama," wika ni Alex. "Makinig ka nalang Alex, para sa ikabubuti mo rin naman 'to," pagpupumilit ni Jacob. Hindi nakinig si Alex sa payo ni Jacob. Hindi niya ito sinunog dahil mahalaga ang damit na iyon sa kaniya.

Kinaumagahan, tinawagan ni Alex si Jacob. Kinuwento niya na hindi siya nakatulog kagabi dahil mayroong maitim na anino na pilit siyang sinasakal. Halata sa mga boses ni Alex na siya'y natatakot. "Sinunog mo ba yung damit mo kagabi?" tanong ni Jacob kay Alex. "Hindi, Jacob," natatakot na sagot ni Alex. "Naku! Dapat sinunog mo. Dapat nakinig ka sa'kin Alex," nag-aalalang wika ni Jacob.

Makalipas ng ilang araw, nabalitaan na lamang nila Jacob na binawian na ng buhay si Alex habang nasa biyahe papunta kila Jacob. Naihagis ang kaniyang katawan at sa kasamaang palad, nagulungan ito ng malaking truck. Hindi matanggap ni Jacob ang nangyari sa kaniyang kaibigan kaya siya ay na-depressed at nawalan ng gana sa kaniyang buhay.