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3-aem · 8 months ago

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fem stsg with……with…….. ᵈᵒᵍ ˡᵉᵃˢʰ involved TASTEFULLY-

#IS THIS OKAY AM I ALLOWED #I WONT ASK TO HAVE THIS ONE BUT I W #I DO WANT I ALREADY HAVE IT IN MY HEAD #DELETE LATER IM GONNA DELETE THIS IMMEDIATELY

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dandyshucks · 8 months ago

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blinks tiredly. i decide "hm maybe i should try to expand my circle and step outside of it a little, lets go look at the main community tags" and im just greeted with a bunch of edgelords who think saying "fiction doesn't affect reality, don't like don't read" is peak activism and "fighting censorship". head in my hands. this is partially why i do not ever go into the community tags, my nervous system cannot handle blocking fifty weirdos every single day just so i can have a normal experience in the community tags hfdsjkl

#I HAVE SO MANY PEOPLE BLOCKED ALREADY. i am TRYING to curate my experience 😭😭😭#and i have so many tags blacklisted fjdsjkl like. so many. every single variation of tag to do with those chuckleheads #which helps avoid them a lot of the time tbh bc it'll flag posts that ppl rb if the original post was tagged w any of those #so i can avoid rbing posts that have chuckleheads as the op most of the time #i also usually double check OP's blog before i rb stuff now bc man this place is rife with these weirdos #ANYWAYS. yes i want to try to engage w the community but i do not think i can handle it if theres gonna be so many edgelords jkdslfl #the only way i follow new ppl now is when yall do promo hour and i sometimes see a new face pop up fdsjkl #every now and then i have energy to try to engage with new ppl but its so difficult when so many ppl are such insufferable edgelords !!!!#''im the nasty pr-sh-pper your parents warned you about 😎'' cool man you sound like the most insufferably obnoxious person ever. :/#''if you like CENSORSHIP-'' i am hitting block immediately bc u have a fundamental misunderstanding of what censorship actually is 👍#I'M TIREDDDD WHY ARE PEOPLE SO DUMB ABOUT THIS STUFF. ''fiction doesn't affect reality'' I GUESS PROPAGANDA DOESNT EXIST THEN ????#what a strange world they live in honestly. they dont understand how stories have served humans since the dawn of time. sighing loudly.#vent //#SORRY FOR THIS ONE IM JUST. ARGH. ppl talk abt encouraging community but i think maybe im not cut out for community #i want desperately to partake but i cannot handle it if it means dealing w all these bozos #it frustrates me to no end fdhsjkl and it upsets me so much and i wish i could deal w it better but. my nervous system is broken fdsjkl #i will try to expand my circle every now and then but i cannot do it often bc of this 😭 im not going to give up entirely though fdsjkl #(also this is partially why i dont tag my posts w community tags anymore bc i am just. so scared of these freaks getting their hands on it)#(the most i'll do is s.afeship or variations every now n then bc supposedly they're not in those tags fdsjkl)#delete later #dandyshucks

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amrv-5 · 8 months ago

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survived Badly (argh) but going to work on fic for as long as I continue to enjoy doing so then switch over -- see if I can find somewhere to watch The 400 Blows and probably cry forever and dehydrate and feel soooo sad and then feel better after. Thank you French New Wave

#boooo whatever saying nonsense nothing matters delete later #somebody should invent a proximity to your parents that doesn't immediately make you so emotionally weird forever #overdramatic. Im feeling fine im eating some crackers and lying around chilling. Just. Weird. Off Balance..#Mild Disturbance in my Year of Exceptional Emotional/Mental Chill #not gonna let it break my 2024 streak of feeling generally Pretty Freakin Good and mostly Recovered From The Lost Year #Which btw. can I say... have i said...? Genuinely having one of the nicest years of my life so far... feeling really pretty good #mfw having more control over your life + surroundings + choices + living circumstances means you can genuinely #meaningfully improve ur day-to-day lived experiences and find what works for u to keep u happy + healthy + excited about life... magic #anyway. brief Huh I Feel Kind Of Bad And Sad In A Deeper Way Kicked Off By But Unrelated To Events Of The Day moment earlier #really made me realize how exceptionally good I've had it so far this year... i think... it's possible... things Do Get Better #anyway. ok done Tag Blogging now. just hope everyone enjoys a nice treat or something. get good sleep enjoy ur time change if it applies #watch a movie or something. idk have fun guys have a good night

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gaythreadrunner · 6 months ago

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my brain decideding to wire itself into waking up at 5-7 am when my partner and friends are all deep night owls is . Not fun i don't think,

#will prolly delete later im having a 4am conniption bc the brain demons immediately attacked me #i miss hanging out with Everyone tails. i miss halo nights tails. i miss it a lot. ill be back #eugh. gonna try taking my concerta later in the day. maybe that'll shift my shit around #ive been starting to feel way more soul crushingly lonely during the day if i don't spend my hours distracting myself and subsequently --#losing all my energy for nighttime. it's not good on my brain i think ive been for real a lot more unstable and im not sure how much --#longer im able to keep a can on it. :hep:#vent

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wiredsmi1e · 5 months ago

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do you ever try & find something to watch/listen to while working but just sit there getting annoyed after a few minutes at EVERYTHING you attempt to turn on ??? thats been me for the past

two hours .

#( sighs im TRYINGGGGGG im trying my brain needs SCRATCHED I NEED STIMULATION !!!!! )#( i listen to the HH soudtrack twice today . everything else minus a couple videos i watched about hereditary has just left me groaning #& immediately going to try & find something else & spotify is buffering evry two god damn SECONDS on me when i listen #so THATS not happening . ik its probably also due to me not having smoked but ONCE TODAY bc of my parents that i cant relax & just vibe . )#( they say we won't be able to smoke at ALL this week except for my dad & i just knownit already that this week is gonna be HELL for me )#( save me pls someone I JUST WANNA WORK IN PEACE & RELAX IS THAT TOO MUCH. )#˚₊·—̳͟͞♡ i. 𐙚 ooc. ᝰ .ᐟ . . . abi speaks ౨ৎ ˖ ࣪⊹ .#˚₊·—̳͟͞♡ i. 𐙚 ooc. ᝰ .ᐟ . . . mobile post ౨ৎ ˖ ࣪⊹ .#delete later.

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harrowharkwife · 2 years ago

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swear to god if i open a fanfic ONE MORE TIME only to be greeted with an author's note saying "i asked chatgpt to tell me a story about-" i am going to go fucking NUCLEAR

#it's NEVER tagged!!!#i am so sick and FUCKING tired of hearing about chat bot shit. it's irresponsible tech that is only gonna help spread misinformation #/be used as a tool by corporate America to crank out shitty computer generated content #bc anything is better than having to hire people and pay them what they're worth am i right guys!#my job won't shut up about chatgpt i don't wanna have to see this shit on AO3 dot gov! please! is anything sacred!#I've already started running into endless variations of the same regurgitated paraphrased clearly AI-written garbage misinformation article #half of the time whenever i try to google something! i just keep getting AI generated garbage instead of any actual helpful information #side note: is Google like... super fucking broken for anyone else in terms of 'i can't find any useful information about anything anymore'?#or is it just me?#but AUGH. tech bros will be our downfall i swear to god #keep the AI shit out of art and creative endeavors it's a slippery slope and it's not leading anywhere good #this is fucking nfts all over again #or at LEAST if you're gonna be posting chat gpt prompts to ao3 fucking TAG THEM AS SUCH #I'm at the point where i hear someone say AI or chatgpt in an excited tone of voice #and i just consider it an immediate red flag #I'll delete this later it's unnecessarily cunty and i realize that but my GOD im sick of it #is it not enough that all of these writing bots are training on ao3 fics without the authors consent or permission?#now we have to encourage it by putting AI shit on there to begin with?

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steampoweredskeleton · 9 months ago

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I'm such a whiny little fuck when I'm ill but ALSO I FEEL LIKE DEATH AND I HATE IT

#delete later #tgr only positiom that i can properly inhake through my nose is lyinh on my front and that hurts my ribs #i want to sleep but i caht sleep in that position #its also the position that causes the leadt anoibt of pain when i cough #ebery time i get up to do anything im immediately exhausted abd feel out pf breath #i want a ahower but i am concerned the heat will make me more dizzy so gonna have yo wait til tomorrow #im paranoid about getting the cat sick so im keeping my door closed #and i miss her. and im paranoid immpissing off ky flatmates with loud gross coughs even though its not my fault #misery #managed to eat two actual meals today though. soup and bread and it didnt make me feel horrifically nauseous so thats a win #death to viruses

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bunnyb34r · 9 months ago

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Idk why people underestimate my stubborness/willingness to stick to my guns ab something like you're gonna find out and you will not be happy bitch. Don't play chicken with me, I'll take you out. I'll take us both out before I even THINK ab conceding.

#marquilla #my moms niece has been bouncing around who's address she sends her mail to (without asking) bc she doesnt have an address #(it's voluntary homelessness. she is perfectly able to obtain an actual place to live but she gets gofundme money from scammers this way)#anwyay im firm ab her not sending it here so im sending back everything to the post office with a 'return to sender. adressee does not live #here' written on it and im going to be doing it IMMEDIATELY after getting the mail so my mom can't take it and enable her #like im not fucking joking idc if it's bills if it's w-2s or whatever i did not give consent for you to use my address. get a po box #fuck around and find out you fucking murderer. i do not enable nor associate with the people who are responsible for the death of 3 #of my closest family members. i do not reward them i do not enage with them. i dont fuck around #and i get home before mom so i have the full ability to do this too. i told her to tell her she is not allowed to do this. im following #through.#ive done this at work when FGM wanted to change my shift. when he wanted me to work another area. when he decided to fuck with me.#him and bratboy learned real quick not to mess with me.#im probably gonna delete this later im just mad #i know mom isnt happy with my plan but well if you allowed her then YOU did not ask me and I do not consent to this.#malicious compliance too bc she does NOT live at my address so im not lying. im merely stating a fact. im merely returning mail that should #not have been sent to me.#fuck around and find out bitch. ill burn us both before i even think ab helping you. get fucked #just bc im quiet and nice does not mean im passive

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north-wilkesboro-moonshine-cave · 1 year ago

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I actually really fucking hate how anything in my schedule not going the way I initially Intended For It To just automatically makes me a massive fucking crybaby and or a raging bitch. Like dude. The grocery store does not hate me. It sucks that my schedule requires me to get there an hour earlier no matter what but like. They didn’t do that to me. Why am I always so upset whenever I have to change plans. I change plans too! I’m a living person!!! Why am I so fucking upset about this!!!!!!

#personal #im gonna delete this later I’m just venting #I’m also fine I’m just having a rough day and I can’t figure out why my emotions have been so fucking volatile. It’s so frustrating that #I can’t figure out how to get a handle on my emotions. I know I need to feel things but the problem is if I let myself feel them too much #Then I’m going to spiral or lash out at some random bystander and both of these make the initial feeling worse #I just can’t pull myself out of that quickly enough recently. It’s not an issue of ability bc I can. I just can’t do it.#wait that’s contradictory. I’ve been really struggling too recently. There we go. There’s accuracy.#Either way. Didn’t I spend all year in therapy last year trying to get this shit together? What the fuck.#Why is it the second I show a modicum of progress I immediately hit a single pebble on the road and get sent ass over teakettle #Progress isn’t linear but it also sure as hell isn’t meant to be a time loop. That I’m pretty sure of.#God everything’s just been so difficult this year. Shit that used to be almost instinctual to me now is a nightmare.#Maybe it’s growing pains and I guess that’s valid but how long do I have to have them #The good news is that thus far I have not snapped at anyone so at least right now we don’t have any casualties of my bad attitude #I feel so bad being so worried about that but like seriously no one needs me to be snapping at them. Even if I feel catharsis in the moment #We all feel bad immediately afterwards #It’s literally not even been a bad day today. I cannot emphasize how this has been the only problem today. Literally so much good happened #Ugh #dont look at me

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moonysmayhem · 1 year ago

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i sometimes wish i cared less. that i wasnt a good person. and yet i do. and i am.

#the worst part of being a good person. ive got all the power to doxx them destroy them #and yet here i am. Not Doing That. moving on.#have i thought about it? yeah of course #but thats not the type of bastard i am. instead i’ll just talk about them without naming them #even though everyone can definitely tell who im talking about #fun fact they blocked me immediately after breaking up with me #said they hadnt cared about me for months #its been almost a year and that fucker gave me no chance for closure. so i still think about it sometimes.#its been a melancholy day and im tired so its been on my mind again #probably gonna delete this later <3

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sgt-celestial · 1 year ago

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#genuinely i forget how draining it can be for me to reconnect with certain old friends like.#genuinely i have such a low tolerance for drama it scares me a bit because im exposed to ONE heavy story and im immediately slammed into th #ground even tho its not my problem #and it probably doesnt help that certain people around me make it feel like it IS my problem. like this morning i was totally fine knowing #all these things but then someone was like DO NOT GET INVOLVED!!!! and i was like im just reconnecting i am literally just wishing them wel #but now its plaguing me and i feel like i got involved when i should have even tho i literally have not said anything other than like. hi #anyway ive turned off do not disturb and its gonna sound mean but im just gonna keep my distance for now cuz i genuinely dont want to be #stressing about these things RIGHT at the moment that im starting this phase of my life.#sigh.#anywayyyyy i need to buy a new guitar saddle cuz the one on my acoustic guitar broke LOL so thats my homework for today #delete later #*shouldn't have

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idiotsonlyevent · 1 year ago

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kind of frustrating how a lot of the 'criticism' ive seen of csm part 2 either boils down to 'its not exactly like part 1 so it sucks' or 'i don't know where the story is going so it's messy and it sucks' when we are like. maybe a third of the way through tatsuki fujimoto's dick smasher 2: electric boogaloo

#it feel slike doomposting to me and while some of the criticism of p2 is warranted a lot of it is so......#i guarantee if u re-read part 1 and stop at ch. 40 (reze intro) you would probably not be able to predict what happens next!#part 2 is 'suffering' from being a (bi)weekly release bc a lot of ppl want answers immediately and when they dont immediately get them in th #following chapter they start calling fujimoto a bad writer. :// like i thought we Liked the plot twists and unpredictability??#not even gonna tag this. might delete later.#bc im not saying u cant criticize p2 or fujimoto's writing...#but i am saying that calling some of these opinions 'criticism' is e v generous wayvto interpret them #L.txt

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wp100 · 4 months ago

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i remember years ago on here i followed a cool artist and i loved their cute art.

i remember they messaged me about drawing something for me for free and i kinda declined it. i still regret it to this day. i didn't intend to be mean or uninterested. i was an awkward teenager and didnt know how to react, and i didnt feel like i deserved getting 'free' art so i politely declined.

Still feel bad about it to this day. I hope that didn't make them feel bad. they sadly dont have much of an online presence anymore. I miss their art.

#im not gonna say who this is for obvious reasons but yeah #delete later #pretty sure ive talked abt this before on here but i might as well get it off my chest again #bc i remembered this person and then immediately felt bad about this whole thing. Again #i know i shouldnt feel bad about it #it was the first time this sort of thing has happened to me #i cant imagine getting something drawn from me from someone whos got cool art!#especially these days!#the 2010s were a crazy time for artists. you had artists taking requests #and drawing shit for free... my my how the times have changed #and that's a good thing btw. artists shouldnt undervalue themselves

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yumenosakiacademy · 7 months ago

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so kind of greII pfps 2 display such a big red flag (quite literally in this case, cuz she's red lol) so ppl instantly kno 2 stay away

#i kinda like greII but by god r the ppl who stan her ALWAYS assholes. or stupid or both lol.#like. i see a greII pfp n im like 'im gonna hav 2 block em arent i' n every time im proven correct immediately. or i see bs n its from 1.#delete later

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transgenderprototype · 1 year ago

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This vegan bitch was screaming at me at how im gonna go to hell, im an abuser who will eventually become some kind of serial killer and im just starting out by gutting an animal. Jfc.

The animal?

A very dead fish.

Lady. It's head is cut off. Before i even chopped it off, I smacked it's head with the other side of my knife before i even started. It's very fucking dead. If there is a heaven and hell, this fish's fate has already been decided and it's already there.

What are you TALKING about

#I caught this huge ass fish with my bare hands. im gonna fucking eat it Lady.#tasted very good btw. managed to cook something without things immediately going to shit.#delete later

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lumiilys · 1 year ago

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Me trying to remain positive in the notes of that wang/xian vs black/bonnet poll cause I genuinely respect wang/xian but man the notes are annoying as hell. People making fun of that person who didn’t know wang/xian is canon just rlly rubs me the wrong way idk idk, that person was corrected and then genuinely apologised but people are still being weird about it??? Not every misunderstanding needs to be met with aggression guys jfc sometimes you just need to calmly explain and then everything will be okay

#cant believe I’m talking about stupid poll discourse on main lmfao #I don’t comment when people are being rude about a fandom as a whole #but when it’s directed at one person it really pisses me off #like calm down they just misunderstood #I hate the internet and how people immediately jump to conclusions and shit and then try to paint a whole community as bad cause one person-#misunderstood something. or maybe jsut didn’t phrase something quite right #and send anon hate over it????#I got anon hate in round one just for rooting for eruri lmfao #like hello??? how do you have so much hate in your heart #I’m not gonna say touch grass cause only a terminally online person like me #would get annoyed by ship polls lmao #ANDWHD IM FILTERING THE SHIP NAMES CAUSE APPARENTLY THE DEFAULT TUMBLR SEARCH ISNT JUST TAGS #So even if I mention them in the post it might show up when people search… scary…#fandom wank #Ollie rambles #might delete later

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