#DAYUMM HELLO?!!

[acupofqueercoffee]

Hi, Hello👋🏻

It's been, uuhhh, quite a while😅 (I'm so sorry)

I still have some days off school before the next term starts again. My mental health's doing pretty alright right now, too.

So, hi👋🏻

[Again, I'm sorry for just going *poof*. I really really missed you. I love you, okay? (platonic, of course) Okay.]

Remember the Angst idea I had but never actually told you about in detail because my mental health was too f'ed up to handle Angst?

Great. So our pretty pretty dean of evil, right?

Lady Lesso has a relationship with Reader. Reader is, however, dead. Will she blame herself for Reader's death? Will she start hallucinating Reader's ghost because she can't handle the pain? How does Leo cope with Reader's death?

(I've seen you have a few requests you're already taking care of, so don't force yourself into writing that in a short time, okay?)

hello there 👀

ah don’t be! but honestly, i’ve missed you! truly.

ooooh i hope you’ll have a fun holiday! and i’m happy to hear that you’re faring well.

mmhm mmhm our handsomely gorgeous and wickedly beautiful dean yeah 🌝

ah dayumm okayyyy alrighttt you just decided to go all in, din’t ya! i do indeed have a couple of requests on my plate but lemme tuck this idea into a safe corner of my brain until my motivation really strikes. i might need to take my sweet time with it, yeah thank you for understanding 🥹

[sosrantings]

Dayumm what happened to hello? how are ya? my name is what happened to thattt

[kitten4sannie]

bby I had the hottest, horniest dream with yungi and I ran here super fast bc I needed to tell you 😂 because the version of yunho that appeared in my dream was your night city fic yunho with the grills and everything (I watched the unit mvs teasers before sleeping and I think my brain mixed matz looks with yungi lmao) and bruh yunho had so many tattoos 💀 and basically idk what happened but they were both all over me at the same time and it was SO DIRTYYYY PLEASE GOD

(omg I love your new profile pic too 🥹)

nyannn whhw gonna pretend i didn’t twirl my hair just now but omg i love that you decided to come and tell me about it ksksj i love hearing about dreams and that one sounds intense dayumm 👀 NOT NIGHT CITY YUNHO WITH THE GRILLS HSKSSH AND THE TATTOOS ??? HELLO???? getting sandwiched between yungi is crazyyyyy tho im glad you were able to have such a nice naughty dream <333 here’s to more!! i’m gonna try watching the it’s you mv before i sleep next so hopefully i’ll dream about getting wrecked by woosansang uwu wish me luck 💞 the pic omg 😭 that cats so cute fnrrr :(( awwh thank youuu >< i saw it on pinterest and then added the little heart overlay to it hehe. i hope you’re doing good and having a lovely week nyan my love 🫶🏼✨ here’s a flower mingki delivery just for youuuu~~

[childotkw]

Hey Jordan! How are you?

I was watching reviews of Shadowhunters which made me stumble upon the author Cassandra Claire which further made me search about her controversy regarding her Harry Potter (Dramione?) fanfiction. THAT then lead to discovering one of your older asks regarding publishing original works (and what if someone judges you on the basis of your fanfic content). And dayumm girl I salute you for the positivity you put in it along with honesty.

I've read your tomarry fics on ao3 but I've never used tumblr. I made an account just so I could send you this ask.

Lots of love <3

Hello, darling! I’m quite well, thank you!

What a rabbit hole you went down 😂 I’ll be honest, I don’t really know much about Cassandra, or her fanfiction controversy, or her original works. I was like 8??? when all of that stuff went down, and I don’t really know much about The Mortal Instruments other than a few Malec-related bits and pieces. But I know there was a lot of stuff about plagiarism and potential bullying?? Idk.

I’d hope my transition from fanfic writer to professional writer would be a lot smoother than that mess 😂

Thank you for reaching out though to talk to me! That’s so sweet and I hope you enjoy this hellsite 😂😂

Lots of love right back to you 💕💕💕

[akascow]

hello yes i was rereading the fuku-muji match again and "feeling like envy and admiration have no place in a game" could become "feeling like yearning and love have no place in an office" post time skip

dAYUMM okay i see you

[asteroidtaker]

Music Shuffle Tag

》It’s easy! Put your music library on shuffle and list the first ten songs. Give a few personal liner notes, if you’re inclined.《

Tagged by @its-mew

Based off my Liked Songs playlist on Spotify

1) Count On You (feat. Jordin Sparks) by Big Time Rush

Thinking back on Big Time Rush it was kinda... a mess but hey Logan was cute. This song tho legit good. It has them good harmonies.

2) I Wouldn't Mind by Kyle Olthoff, Courtney Curdy

I didn't remember this song so I had to listen to it again but yeah its a cover song I think? Makes me emo.

3) Play That Song by Train

One of the songs I played on repeat for a while and sing to myself cuz it's kinda slow but not boring (it can kinda repeat a lot but whatever)

4) Feels Right by Carly Rae Jepsen, Electric Guest

Carly Rae Jepsen has some actually good songs. I think Guitar String/Wedding Ring is my favorite from her.

5) Had Me @ Hello by Luke Benward

Disney makes good songs part 1. The movie wasn't that good though xD

6) Eyes, Nose, Lips by Jung Min, Daeho

Prob my fave Korean song next to like Some by Junggigo & Soyou cuz that shit is catchy af. This is the cover ver but like any version of it is really good. Thanks David So for introducing it to me (his cover of it is really good too).

7) Hero (Unplugged) by Christopher Wilde, Stubby

Disney makes good songs part 2. Prob not my fave song from the movie but idk I like hero types so I think the song is cute.

8) Ichi Ni Sankaku by Ikaruga Misumi (CV: Daisuke Hirose)

This song is about triangles but I'm not ashamed as a member of the sankaku cult. Listen to Susume Pirates if you want to tell the range of this voice actor cuz dayumm.

9) Bad Boys by Victorious Cast, Victoria Justice

This show had so many good songs why was it cancelled 😭

10) We Don't Talk Anymore (feat. Selena Gomez)

One of my fave duet songs of two of my fave singers.

Tagging: @golden-redhead @nana-shiros @ibblescribbles

[misseffie]

while Arya is away on her trip Gendry thinks they’ve broken up and is a bit of a mess and bisexual icon Prince of Dorne is like “dayumm... hello Lord Baratheonnn” and he offers to help him with his lordly duties and there’s a lot of seduction going on that Gendry doesn’t get at first he’s like “haha yeah bro no homo”.... but then he realizes what’s going on and he’s all flustered like... o k ... .. maybe like... just a lil’ homo, and so he has a summer fling with the Prince while Arya is away. send post

[vignetttes]

let’s do thissss

my procrastination level is high this holiday season.

still, I owe myself a lot of time for reflection and introspection. a little too much consumption. I could have written much more. I cannot and must not drown in the amount of information that I feed on every day. 

hello last day of 2018. It’s past 9pm. I’ve had (sort of) my favorite food downed and laundry is waiting for me in the machine. But I shall force myself to get thoughts penned down here. Feels like my thoughts are everywhere and they’re just shooting themselves out into thin air, leaving me little content for penning down.

So yes, I rather be alone with my favorite food and some down time to reflect (yes, hopefully I get this out) and hopefully squeeze in a TV show episode or some reading - than to be out partying. FOMO doesn’t apply to me here. People can be partying all night- I value comfort over over-stimulation the senses without loud music and big lights and all the chaos that is seemingly fun. HAHA. Dayumm I sound like a party pooper! Close friends aren’t meeting up, closest bestie these days/most of the year is out working and watching over the nation while they party on the rest of 2018 - yes I rather be resting after sadly, a full day’s work. Energy levels these days are, sadly, on the low side. 

Yes I haven’t been running. Cutting the gym bill has help me with savings - sort of caught up with the massive saving deficit of the first year. But I do need to be more active or else this is gonna cost me a long term health deficit... I need a kick in the butt to be disciplined! Sleeping and waking up when it’s time to. Doing things when it’s time to. I’ve definitely made more connections this year (yay PTL!) but that also means I should making meaningful conversations and not mindlessly scrolling thru the gram..

Much backlogging to be done. A lot of bible to be read. Journaling to be done. But I’ll take it step by step. Baby steps to a better self - good thing that certain backlogs aren’t really backlogs because they are timeless. I might have already lost out on health a bit because of the year or little exercise - but I pray God restores full health as I look to improve my activity levels.

Many things could have been done better, but much to be thankful for as well. Decluttering has been, well, running well - although I do need another decluttering sesh coming up 2019. I certainly gave more of my time for others - although I feel that my own faults have clogged up my life and made me feel tired from time to time - leaving little space to serve another. But pulling myself together and giving has paid off - people do the same for you. I guess that’s what friends are for. :) Definitely, Ben filled a big space - although I consciously need to make space because humans need space for one another. Space for faults and space for growth. Not to say, an infinite space, bottomless sea for happy moments. 

Well I guess things are simple.

Filling myself up with God’s goodness will bring me to an overflow. Easier said, but it’s the only fact and thing that is worth pursuing first. Now the flesh has to die and crucified before anything else. Not succumbing to distractions and the noises of the world. Eyes fixed. I speak God’s grace over my life and people around me. And Your hand to Lead me on the path that is leading to a good life. 

[leisuerte-blog]

Hello, Tumblrs!

I’ve been to so many walks of life, be it hard, be it subtle, be it funny, be it harsh, what matters most is that: Kaite Leen, stay strong.

And so I am opening up this chapter of my life to share you the wildest ideas of mine, heartaches, lifetime experiences, adventures, sexy photos (dayumm!) if you may :D so sit back, relax and let’s embark to this crazy world.

Welcome to my tumblr,

 Kaiteleenstaystrong

[imsarabum]

Responses to {Part 19} I Won’t Stop You // Jeon Jungkook, Vampire!AU Asks~

Please ‘Keep Reading’ to find my response to your ask ^^ As always, I have copied and pasted all asks into this post in regards to last night’s chapter to avoid clogging up people’s dashboards and to avoid spoilers for those who may still wish to read the chapter. Thank you ^^ 

@jynxy24 said: I CANNOT WAIT FOR YOONGI'S AND READER'S INTERACTION OMG THE ANGTS WILL BE COMING! Will there be gore tho? @-@

Although there wasn’t an interaction between Yoongi and the reader last night...there will be blood!

Anonymous said: I feel like Jungkook's mum will laugh at her saying 'its dracula'

It more so bothered her because it gave her an incline that the reader knows something or has a preconceived idea^^

Anonymous said: A small part of me hopes the series never ever end (even tho i am shit at suspense) because currently , tuesday is the highlight of my entire week

Well it won’t be ending soon! I can promise you that ^^ There is still a LOT to happen ^^ hehe, thank you so much my dear :)

Anonymous said: IT IS TUESDAY AND IM READY!!! I have my tissues just incase!! I also have some alcohol just incase 😐

Yay I hope you enjoyed the update! :D

Anonymous said: What to do when your crush lives your friend?:'-' I'll die. Anyway, sooo looking forward to tonight's chapter like omgggggggg in what time will u update?

I’m probably the worst person to ask for advice on that because I would just cry haha >< I always update between 9-10pm UK time ^^ I hope you enjoyed the update if you read it! Thank you so much :D

@kamcia12323 said: Omg can't wait for today's chapter. I have been waiting the whole week wanting to know what's lext! Thank you for the wonderful story, i have been following it from chapter 1 and love it. Hope you have a lovely evening.

I hope you enjoyed it if you got a chance to read it! Thank you for following since the beginning :) I hope you have a lovely evening/day too!

@pineapple-in-a-dress said: Im so excited for the new Junkook vampire au chapter, I love the story so damn much! it sucks so much that im in CET time, I'll think its time at 10pm but its 9pm at your place--

I hope you enjoyed the update if you read it! Thank you for loving it and staying up so late to read it! ^^

Anonymous said: Mom it's gonna be party lit af tonight with this update. Like my body is ready. I'm so excited 😊. I can't wait. DID YOU LIKE NOT TODAY? The video was so goooodd. And we best the record! I'm so excited. My albums are coming and it's just a BTS party this week. I'll be back later tonight with my thoughts on your lovely writings. ~LilKookie Anon

Litty titty party yay! haha I hope you enjoyed it Lilkookie :D And yes I LOVE Not Today! I’m listening to it right now actually ^^ I got my BTS albums yesterday and I got Jin and Hobi yay!!! Their cards are so cute :3 Both photos in the pink and blue albums are so wonderful, I’m really glad I got both now! (and yes - I have answered your second ask below so I hope you can find it!!)

Anonymous said: Omg life.  I'm going out tonight and I won't be able to read I won't stop u until I get back.  Pray for me. I don't have a lot of patience either. Luv ur work xx (and u xx)

Ahhh that’s okay you can always just catch up when you get home my love! I hope you enjoy it when you get a spare moment to read it, thank you and I love you too!

Anonymous said: Serrena has zero chill and I love her for it. Also Yoongi is my bias but honestly he might need some ice.😂 The only reason I can think of as to why Yoongi would need y/n is that he plans to turn random (or not so random) people and have her mature them quickly so he can make an army but I just remembered that he was surprised that Jimin was not a natum lamia anymore so he can't have known about that so I have no other theories😪

Ahh thank you so much for loving her character! *giggles* what an interesting theory though, I like that! muahaha~ Thank you for reading it and I hope it didn’t disappoint ^^

@omelys-space said: The new update was bomb ❤ Serrena is such a bad ass and I love her for it 😍😍😍 The way she handled Yoongi was gold I am so excited to see some more backstory on Jin, Hobi and especially Joonie as he seemed so different from the other two and what kind of human or whatever y/n is and how she will react upon hearing that her lover is a vampire  Looking foreward to next week 😊 Thank you for your hard and amazing work ❤

Thank you so much for liking it and Serrena’s character! And yes, I really loved the way she handled Yoongi too - it truly was a silent battle haha ^^ In future chapters, there will be more backstory on the other Rogues, but it will go MORE in depth with Namjoon I suppose ^^ Those three are truly side-characters in this series, but Namjoon is the more dominant character of the three I think ^^ Thank you so much for reading and I hope you’ll enjoy the next one too!

@kookies-hoe said: ASDFGHJKLZXCVBNM DAYUM THAT CHAPTER MADE ME STAY AT THE EDGE OF MY SEAT, I LOVE YOUR WRITING SO MUCH!!!

I’m glad it kept you on the edge of your seat yay! Thank you so much for reading it, it means a lot to me! ^^

Anonymous said: MAMA SERENA FTW!! Also if Yoongi DOES know what I am (which I can't to find out next week hopefully), wouldn't he know ALL my powers, like how I turned Chimchim into a full vampire? And I love how Yoongi legit walked in there without a plan. XD ME

It appears that EVERYONE seems to know SOMETHING about her. The question is; are they all correct? Is each person missing a vital piece of information? Will Serrena be able to provide answers? Who knows :3 hehe AND HONESTLY SAME THAT’S SOMETHING I’D DO haha. He didn’t plan on the reader recognising him - that was the flaw in his plan. ^^ Thank you so much for reading it dear!

Anonymous said: How long are u gonna keep me waiting author nim?:( I need to know what she is!Your weiting gives me chills... I feel so frustrated I WANNA KNKWWWW

I will keep teasing you until you can’t take it any more ;D Hehe~~ Thank you for reading the new chapter!

@deangetoutofmyspleen said: it's tUESDAY I DABBED

*dabs with you*

Anonymous said: I FORGOT IT WAS A TUESDAY WOW HOW COULD I OMG OK I'M READY - silent anon

Hello silent Anon! I hope you enjoyed the chapter :3

@idilnuur said: OMG THE UPDATE KILLED ME!! KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK GIRL

Thank you so much my darling!

@jimiinie-cricket said: Hello! I just wanted to say that I've been having quite a hard time recently with stress, among many other things, and how much your Vampire Jungkook fic has helped me take my mind off of them. Once I found the first chapter I binged on everything you had published. Today was exceptionally difficult and I nearly started crying when I got home, but then I got a notif saying you updated!!!! I love this story & your writing. I get so excited for Tuesdays!! Keep up the magnificent work 💕💕

Ahh your message made me tear up a lot >< I’m feel so grateful to be able to provide a source of happiness for you in times that you feel that life is too much for you or things become a little too unbearable. I’m really sorry that you cried >< I wish I could give you a big hug and tell you that you are beautiful and everything will be alright ^^ Thank you for reading and thank you for sending me this message and remember that you are strong and you can accomplish anything. ^^

@noceurash said: I clicked on it as soon as the notification for I won't stop you popped up haha,, I'm excited for the next part!! Thank you for always updating!! I really enjoy your writing ily!! <3

Thank you so much for having notifs on and for reading the chapter my dear! You’re so welcome for the updates and I hope you enjoy the next chapter too :D I love you as well!

Anonymous said: SLAY SERRENA SLAY LOVE HER SO MUCH~ also hi mom how have you been? I hope you're not as stressed anymore *infinite amount of kisses* -panda anon

Truly the definition of ‘Slay Queen’ haha given the circumstances :D lolol Thank you panda anon - I’ve been ok ^^ Just continuing on with life and trying my best I suppose :D I hope you’re doing well too panda and thank you for reading the chapter :D

Anonymous said: Ok I'm finished! Absolutely amazing as usual 💝 and I'm so happy now that we're finally going to find out what the OC actually 'is'. Also that scene between Yoongi and Serrena was just fabulous 👌👌👌 and I love the way you're writing Namjoon so much wow 😄 thank you so much and I can't wait for next week !! - silent anon

Hello again silent anon! Thank you so much for loving the scene between Yoongi and Serrena, and for loving Namjoon’s character too! I’m happy to know that you liked the chapter and thank you so much for taking the time to read it! ^^

@koreaisanaddiction said: SARA OH MY GOD!!!! i though i knew what reader was but now im questioning! like fuck and now im really worried about namjoon!!!! like sara!!!! oh my God!!!!

Hehehe did I cause doubt for you? c: GOOD! ^^ And I know right? Poor Namjoon >< Altho, the thought of Namjoon calling Yoongi ‘master’ does things to me hahaha c: I’m dirty, sorry :P Thank you so much for reading lovely!

Anonymous said: Ohmaigawsh... Serrena in IWST part 19.... #momgoals... Usually, I'm a faithful jungkook stan, but gurl after this part, Namjoon's becoming a bias wrecker. That was beautiful. I hope you can hear my applause all the way from the US. <3

She is mum goals for sure! She actually reminds me a lot of my mum - that’s exactly her personality sometimes lol UH OH HIDE YOUR KIDS HDE YOUR WIFE NAMJOON’S COMING TO WRECK YAAA~ lolol ^^ Thank you so much my love, I’m really happy that you enjoyed the update ^^

@audreymv said: I am so freking like what?? Yoongi knows something and poor Namjoon, i hope he doesnt get hurt. Such a sweetheart. Dayumm Mom got sass, the queen i bow down to. Amazing as always. This is just too much and i love this so much. I hope we can see who (y/n) really is like what is the specialness. Gosh like i am getting answers but im not. Sara you are a art piece in itself

I think everyone thinks they know a little bit about her (as in, the characters in the story), but ultimately, they are all missing pieces of information. But with Serrena’s knowledge, hopefully she can set the record straight! As always, thank you so much for your amazing words, you really made me smile so much with that ^^ haha thank you for reading and I hope you’ll look forward to next week!

@mysr3 said: Saraaa!! what have you done! You just dragged me and left me hanging craving for more again! But this time the craving is so strong OMG! Breathtaking the whole chapter 19! Serrena is a badass Queen; Love Jungkook and Taehyung protectivness >< so heartwarming; Yoongi's smart ass character supposed to be hated but I just fell for it with a sympathy for him somehow ><, but tons of sympathy for Namjoon. Ahh so many feeling! Cant wait!! Sara well written and well detailed! Thank you Love ღღღ (cont.) PS Love the way you carried on the story even if it torture me to wait to know all the secrets. Its just so hard to guess or pin point what is the real reason behind the whole things. I just feel there will be big reveal of some sorts that will surprised everyone! Right??

I think there is an element of sadness for both Yoongi and Namjoon, because it’s kind of like the souls who lost their way a little? At least that’s what I feel sometimes ^^ And you’re 100% right! There will be a big reveal, but even at that - more will be revealed as time goes on because....well, you’ll see ;D hehe! Thank you so much for reading and I’m really happy you enjoyed it!

@fashionkilla124 said: Honestly Serrena is the most savage female vampire I have ever read about and I LOVE IT . I'm ready just to die and be revived for the next chapter because this is some next level shit going on and Im not ready . I had a stroke mid story and I had to collect myself. You are a really great writer and if you ever published a book and had a fan signing I would be first in line cuz yo stories be LITTT AF☺️☺️☺️😏👌😘😘

Ahhh thank you so much for loving her character! I’m sorry you experienced such health issues while reading hehe :P Thank you so much for your amazing compliments, they really make me smile and make me feel very happy ^^ Omg fan signing IN MY DREAMS lol but thank you for reading and I’m happy that you enjoyed the chapter :3

Anonymous said: AHHHH FUCK THIS CHAPTER WAS SO GOOD I'M CRYING???? SERENA IS AN ACTUAL BAD ASS OMG SHE'S ONE OF MY FAVE CHARACTERS NOW I LOVE IT SO MUCH GOOD JOB ON WRITING OMG

Ahhh thank you so much my dear!^^ I’m so happy that you love her character :3 Thank you for reading and enjoying it so much!!

@theninjachan said: Your updates for "I Won't Stop You" are always on time and the latest update was amazing as always. You are now my favorite Tumblr writer. 💘

Thank you so much for that, I feel honoured that you think that about me and I hope to continue making stuff that you find exciting and enjoyable to read my love ^^

@pandafish said: I loved the pettiness between Serrena and Yoongi!  Poor Namjoon is an intelligent stuck with the wrong crowd :(  I wonder if he'll be able to get away from Yoongi.  Your Tuesday story updates always make me excited for Tuesdays!  Like, I'll suddenly realize it's Tuesday which means IWSY update!!!

(I tried to tag you in this but I wasn’t able to, so I sent you a private answer as well in case you can’t see this!) Thank you for loving the petty scene between them both! And yes - the sympathy for Namjoon is real :c Thank you so much for reading the new chapter and I’m so happy that you get excited for Tuesdays!!

@jynxy24 said: SARA YOU ARE SO GREAT HONESTLY! IWSY was angsty bit it didn't make me feel mixed like I usually do😂😂 THE CHAPTER WAS GREAT LOVE KEEP IT UP PLEASEEEE :3 Stay Awesome, Sara😇😇

Awh thank you so much Jynxy :3 Thank you so much for reading and I’m glad you thought it was great! *hugs*

Anonymous said: When you wrote that Yoongi wanted the reader, like COMPLETELY, did you mean he also wanted to..."mate" with her too 😳 that is a really scary thought 😅 also will it be explained how yoongi knows about the reader and her abilities? Also, ALL HAIL SERRENA DAMN SHE IS THE QUEEN!!! So badass!

Hehe, you can take that whatever way you wish, but as with everything - all will be explained in due course! Everything will be revealed in time :3 And she is a badass queen! I wanna meet her in real life hehe =D Thank you so much for reading!

Anonymous said: GURLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL O. M. F. G. IM SO JUNGSHOOK. LIKE CAN SERRENA BE MY MOM? Like I'm so in love with her cuz she is the baddest bitch around. Omg. I'm shook. I love it. BUT THIS ANTICIPATION IS KILLING ME. MY LIL HEARTU 💜 Another wonderful chapter from a wonderful person. I love you. 💕 ~LilKookie Anon P.s. I have a routine dedicated to just this story. I wait until I'm in bed at 9 or 10 my time to make sure I can read uninterrupted can't have my mom talking while VampKook is stealin my 💜

She would make such a badass Mum! (well, she is in the story :P) hehe ^^I love you too lilKookie ^^ AWH YOUR ROUTINE IS SO CUTE c: And yes, we need as little distraction as possible to let VampKook make you Jungshook :3 lolol Thank you very much for reading it cutie ^^

@lostheretics said: to use her in wHAT WAAAYYY *silently cries, throwin myself into the fire* tbh queen Serrena is the best queen ever tho she's badass i love her<3<3 I CANT WAIT WHAT'S Y/N'S REAL IDENTITY? metaphorically i'm dying technically im dead while having a heart attack istg im waitin ily u da best bc u mixed up my feelings well<3

Nooo do not throw yourself into any fires! *pulls you back* hehe ^^ Thank you so much for reading and enjoying the chapter and I love you too! I’m glad I could mix your feelings up nice and good heh c:

@ananyak26 said: "Checkmate"xD ah.. Serena's sass nearly killed me! It was awesome!!!

Yes, checkmate indeed! She did a good job at roasting him lolol :3 Thank you so much my dear!

Anonymous said: tuesdays are my downfall thanks to you ㅇㅅㅇ thank you thank you thank you

Hopefully this downfall is a good thing! Hehe, thank you for reading my love ^^

@animeimmortal said: WHYYY DOES IT END LIKE THAT I WANT MOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Because...it does :P YOU SHOULD KNOW ME BY NOW THIS ISN’T SURPRISING ANYMORE i’M AN ASSHOLE WHEN IT COMES TO THIS LOL c: ily tho ^^ :3

Anonymous said: It gets better and better lmao and Guess who's 1004% stanning got7 now 😏 -eggyook anon

Thank you for reading eggyook! AND YAY I’M SO HAPPY TO HEAR THIS! Thank you for stanning GOT7 now :3 ahh I’m smiling so much!

Anonymous said: Damn it Sara 😂 I thought you were finally going to reveal what y/n is and what yoongi wants with her LOL. Uggghhh gotta wait another week now 😖 STILL GREAT AS USUAL THO 💕💕💕  -7:45 anon

You thought wrong! You’ll just have to be a little more patient my dear :3 Hehe, thank you so much for reading and I hope you enjoyed it nonetheless!

Anonymous said: On a level of 0 to serrena how savage are you?

LITERALLY lol she has no chill whatsoever but hey, she’s the Queen. She can pretty much for whatever the heck she wants :P

@doubletroublesince1994 said: OMG WHY DO YOU ALWAYS LEAVE US WITH A CLIFFHANGER 😭😭😭😭😭

The chapter has to end at some stage! lolol Would you prefer it if I left the chapter off during some mid-sentence? xD It’s better to leave it on some kind of a cliff hanger to gauge curiosity and elicit desire for more ;) Hope you enjoyed it anyway! Thank you very much for reading :D

@aogintsu said: Omg. I completley forgot about tumblr for a while and youve reached chapter 20 already, i must read them all now

Ahhh welcome back lovely! And yes c: Chapter 20 will be out next week! :3 I hope you will have fun while catching up on the story! :3

@rachelsmusicallife said: I completely binged "I Won't Stop You" last night until 5am. And it was just so amazing I had to tell you.  Your writing a so beautifully done, some parts honestly make me wanna cry.  It is so well written and gripping it amazes me.  Keep going girl. I look forward to so much more 😊

Ahh I’m so happy that you’re enjoying it! I’m so happy that you think it’s beautifully written, that makes me so incredibly happy and you made me smile a lot. I hope you’ll enjoy the future chapters and thank you very much for reading it and messaging me to let me know ^^ I hope you have a great day!

[vignetttes]

it could be scary close.

Hello May. April flew by. 

The latest would be that I got annoyed with aunt who made her preps with some guy in the cloud to meet up with me. And then not. And I don’t wanna be part of all that awkward space created by concerned parties. And so I went out of my mind and created a cmb account in 5 mins. Dayumm I was excited, cute guys everywhere, seem to be all out of my league. Excited and afraid of all these gym selfies and perfectly gelled hair. I won’t deny that these guys are high quality. Cute faces. Company CFO. Lawyers. Doctors etc. 

And in the last decade having another person heavily involved in my life wasn’t part of the plan. Yes I planned for 10 years and then I couldn’t see ahead. It freaks me out so much. Maybe it’s finally time where I let go, literally, going without a plan. It’s so scary, but many people managed it. People fall in love and start relationships and its work. Here I am, haven’t figured anything out so I never opened up to let anyone in. And the habit kept for a decade. A little here and there but nothing into the deep. 

So here’s the story: I think this one is legit. Quite, I think. I shall know soon, in less than 24 hours. If it’s another let down, I’m more than used to it. If it’s heading somewhere deeper, I’m actually terrified. Terrified that someone will see my layers and not accept me. And how good am I in putting a stop at infatuations! It was just a lil sad melancholy time when it was a one sided thing, it passes. Its alright. Its all what ifs but no hurt. How will it be when someone comes in and then rips your insides out? oh crap, how bad will it be? feel like you’ve lost it in life? lost control? I’ve hardly realized that I wasn’t growing in the relational part of myself, having so ‘successfully’ compartmentalizing my life. I don’t let things mix and mess up each other. I think God is finally giving me a lesson on a new area to grow. I might be late with it, but a lesson is still a lesson I need to take. 

This feeling, similar to stress, I can’t quite fathom. Well I guess being stressed up to me is like you’re feeling like you’re losing control of things. Like how I can’t handle the situation because I’ve lost control; letting someone into your orderly life will feel exactly the same huh. I’ve gotta stop being selfish. My schedule and what I want to do isn’t the most important thing. When someone comes in and shake things up, how am I going to love the person all the same. 

Sometimes I can’t believe how God of the universe went out of the way just to save me. Like crazy, Jesus had to come out of the comfort of heaven and live as man and die at 33. What! That’s just a life without your own control. God help me live like that..... lead me so much that I don’t need to feel like I need to control my life..... help me trust you so so much. I know you are infinite. That I am always secure in your love. Lead me. In many areas, especially when letting another one into my orderly, ‘boring’ life. Help me see thing like you do. Help me let go of my selfish desires. Help me know your future and plans for me. Tell me if it isn’t right. And nudge me to act if its right. 

xx