#Christopher Kolk

[doyouknowthisbook-poll]

welcome to do you know this book poll!

about:

This blog was inspired by RecommendMeABook.com—which posts first pages of novels before revealing the title and author—and by poll blogs such as doyoulikethissong-poll. The main goal of this blog is to expose people to books that they might like and read through posting snippets of different books.

how this works:

I post polls with excerpts from books—occasionally I post excerpts from novellas and short stories. Polls run for one week, so results are posted eight days after the original post date. Part of the fun is guessing/trying to figure out which book the excerpt is from, with some excerpts being more obvious than others. Feel free to leave suggestions for books you want to see posted (or suggestions for the blog in general) in the replies of this post 😊📚

I am one person running this blog so please be patient and kind. I currently post 1-3 polls per week.

submissions are now open, submit a book here!

current voting options:

A) I’ve read this book before, and I like it!

B) I can tell which book this is from based on this excerpt, but I haven't read it

C) I started reading this, but didn’t finish it (or I am reading it currently)

D) I haven’t read this book, but I like this excerpt!

E) I’ve read this book before, and I don’t like it

F) I haven’t read this book and I don’t like this excerpt

tags:

open polls you can still vote on: tagged/open

closed polls/revealed: tagged/results

all of this blog’s polls: tagged/poll time

fiction polls only: tagged/fiction

nonfiction polls only: tagged/nonfiction

all polls (includes polls from other blogs): tagged/poll

all posts that are not a poll: tagged/not a poll

resources to free reading, libraries, and posts about libraries: tagged/library

additional tags not listed here include names of titles and their authors.

a list of all excerpts that have been posted and revealed:

Snow Flower and the Secret Fan by Lisa See

Invisible Man by Ralph Ellison

Speak by Laurie Halse Anderson

The Glass Castle by Jeannette Walls

Jurassic Park by Michael Crichton

A Tale for the Time Being by Ruth Ozeki

Six of Crows (part of the Six of Crows duology and the Grishaverse) by Leigh Bardugo

Beloved by Toni Morrison

“The Metamorphosis” by Franz Kafka

Gone Girl by Gillian Flynn

If I Had Your Face by Frances Cha

If Beale Street Could Talk by James Baldwin

Their Eyes Were Watching God by Zora Neale Hurston

The Last Unicorn by Peter S. Beagle

The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath

A Clockwork Orange by Anthony Burgess

My Immortal fanfiction — this was posted for April Fool’s Day

The Body Keeps the Score by Bessel von der Kolk

Bud, Not Buddy by Christopher Paul Curtis

Love in the Time of Cholera by Gabriel Garcia-Marquez

Silver in the Wood (part of The Greenhollow Duology) by Emily Tesh

Hang the Moon by Jeannette Walls

Holes by Louis Sachar

1984 by George Orwell

Life of Pi by Yann Martel

“I Have No Mouth, and I Must Scream” by Harlan Ellison

A Dowry of Blood by S.T. Gibson

Anne of Green Gables by L.M. Montgomery

The Island of Dr. Moreau by H.G. Wells

I’m Glad My Mom Died by Jeanette McCurdy

The Giver by Lois Lowry

If You Could Be Mine by Sara Farizan

“The Yellow Wallpaper” by Charlotte Perkins Gilman

Felix Ever After by Kacen Callender

The Invisible Life of Addie LaRue by V.E. Schwab

All Systems Red (part of The Murderbot Diaries) by Martha Wells

The Music of What Happens by Bill Konigsburg

Sister Outsider by Audre Lorde

The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde

This is How You Lose the Time War by Amal El-Mohtar and Max Gladstone

Aces Wild by Amanda DeWitt

Ripe by Sarah Rose Etter

Red Queen by Victoria Aveyard

Some Desperate Glory by Emily Tesh

The Adventures of Amina al-Sirafi by Shannon Chakraborty

The Heaven & Earth Grocery Store by James McBride

Geisha: A Life by Mineko Iwasaki (the results also discuss Memoirs of A Geisha by Arthur Golden)

Nettle & Bone by T. Kingfisher

The Alchemist by Paulo Cuelho

Mistborn: The Final Empire (part of the Mistborn trilogy and universe) by Brandon Sanderson

Braiding Sweetgrass by Robin Wall Kimmerer

Eve by Cat Bohannon

The Bluest Eye by Toni Morrison

Fingersmith by Sarah Waters

Ninth House by Leigh Bardugo

Carrie by Stephen King

Frankenstein by Mary Shelley

“The Tell Tale Heart” by Edgar Allan Poe

Silver Nitrate by Silvia Moreno-Garcia

Sharp Objects by Gillian Flynn

Interview With the Vampire by Anne Rice

We Have Always Lived in the Castle by Shirley Jackson

Carmilla by Sheridan Le Fanu

Lovecraft Country by Matt Ruff

The Forests of Silence (part of the Deltora Quest series) by Emily Rodda — submission by @/pearlhoardingdragon

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Academic Article Citations

Beswerchij, Andrew and Dominic Sisti. 2022. “From Underground to Mainstream: Establishing a Medical Lexicon for Psychedelic Therapy.” Frontiers in Psychiatry 13.

Dyck, Erika and Chris Elcock. 2020. “Reframing Bummer Trips: Scientific and Cultural Explanations to Adverse Reactions to Psychedelic Drug Use.” The Social History of Alcohol and Drugs 34(2):271–96.

Exline, Julie J., William A. Schutt, Kathleen C. Pait, and Joshua A. Wilt. 2022. “Do Psychedelic Trips Open the Door to Messages from God, Spirits, Transcendent Realities, or the Devil? Links with Attitudes about Psychedelics, Opinions about Legalization, and Interest in Personal Use.” The International Journal for the Psychology of Religion 1–19.

Gardner, John, Adrian Carter, Kerry O’Brien, and Kate Seear. 2019. “Psychedelic-Assisted Therapies: The Past, and the Need to Move Forward Responsibly.” International Journal of Drug Policy 70:94–98.

Mitchell, Jennifer M., Michael Bogenschutz, Lilienstein Alia, Charlotte Harrison, Sarah Kleiman, Kelly Parker-Guilbert, G. M. Ot’alora, Garas Wael, Paleos Casey, Ingmar Gorman, Christopher Nicholas, Michael Mithoefer, Shannon Carlin, Bruce Poulter, Mithoefer Ann, Quevedo Sylvestre, Gregory Wells, S. Klaire Sukhpreet, Kolk B. van der, Tzarfaty Keren, Amiaz Revital, Ray Worthy, Shannon Scott, Joshua D. Woolley, Marta Cole, Gelfand Yevgeniy, Emma Hapke, Simon Amar, Wallach Yair, Randall Brown, Scott Hamilton, Julie B. Wang, Allison Coker, Rebecca Matthews, Boer A. de, Yazar-Klosinski Berra, Amy Emerson and Rick Doblin. 2021. "MDMA-Assisted Therapy for Severe PTSD: A Randomized, Double-Blind, Placebo-Controlled Phase 3 Study." Nature Medicine 27(6):1025-1033.

Smith, William R. and Paul S. Appelbaum. 2021. “Two Models of Legalization of Psychedelic Substances.” JAMA 326(8):697–98.

Williams, Keith, Osiris Sinuhé Romero, Michelle Braunstein, and Suzanne Brant. 2022. “Indigenous Philosophies and the ‘Psychedelic Renaissance.’” Anthropology of Consciousness 33(2):506–27.

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Aaliyah, Photographed by Christopher Kolk (April, 2000)

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Charlize Theron / Christopher Kolk Photoshoot 1997

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Philip Seymour Hoffman photographed by Christopher Kolk, 1998

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World Mental Health Day 2021 Resources

Books, text posts, & articles

The Body Keeps the Score by Bessel Van Der Kolk

Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving by Pete Walker

Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents by Lindsay C. Gibson

Shrinking the Inner Critic by Pete Walker

Flashback management by Pete Walker 

Your Guide to Self-Parenting

Coping with Trauma-Related Dissociation by Suzette Boon

Trauma and Recovery by Judith L. Herman

Toxic Parents by Susan Forward

Depressed and Anxious by Thomas Marra

You Can’t Just Snap Out Of It: The Real Path to Recovery From Psychological Trauma by J. Douglas Bremner

Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents by Lindsay C. Gibson

The Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder Sourcebook by Glenn R. Schiraldi, Ph.D.

Why Does He Do That by Lundy Bancroft

A guide to Dental Care

A guide to conquering executive dysfunction

Books on procrastination / making the most of your time

Books on ADHD

CPTSD and Procrastination

Running on Empty: Overcoming Your Childhood Emotional Neglect

Dialectical Behavioural Therapy (DBT) Books

How to Support Someone Experiencing Psychosis

A Guide to Health Insurance Terms

The Complex PTSD Workbook by Arielle Schwartz, PhD

The Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT) Skills Workbook by Matthew McKay, Ph.D.; Jeffrey C. Wood, Psy.D.; and Jeffrey Brantley, MD

Life After Trauma by Dena Rosenbloom, PhD and Mary Beth Williams, PhD with Barbara E. Watkins

The Mindful Self-Compassion Workbook by Kristin Neff, PhD and Christopher Germer, PhD

The PTSD Workbook by Mary Beth Williams, PhD, LCSW, CTS and Soili Poijula, PhD

We Believe You: a colouring book for survivors and supporters (compliments of Ryerson University’s Office of Sexual Violence Support and Education; 27 pages)

A guide to various mental health resources based in the UK

Apps:

Calm Harm - helps people resist the urge to hurt themselves.

Booster Buddy - journal + med reminders

Reflectly - a journal app centred around mental health.

Amaru - an app meant to help with anxiety

Calm - An app meant to help with anxiety / sleeping

Headspace - basically the same as Calm.

Daylio - same thing as Reflectly.

A masterlist of different apps

[hompunkulus]

15. What books do you think are valuable for other Luciferians/Satanists to read?

Raising Hell by Robert Masalo. It is an historical account of Satanism and dark magic through the ages. It talks about the origins of the obscene kiss (osculum infame), black mass, the evil eye and the horned fingers (the Metal hand sign). It also delves into grimoire tradition magic and goetia.

Rebels and Devils edited by Christopher S. Hyatt. Philosophies and practices from Luciferians to Chaos Magicians, this book is an excellent anthology for Satanists that follow a chaos magic based philosophy of magic.

The Invention of Satanism by Asbjorn Dyrendal, James R. Lewis, and Jesper Aagaard Petersen. A very well written academic and sociological look at Satanism, particularly the modern movement.

Paths to Satan by Martin McGregor. A short read on the various philosophies and practices of Satanists.

Spiritual Satanist Prayer Book by Venus Satanas. If you are theistic, it is a chapbook with prayers and poems dedicated to the various forms of the Devil, particularly Lilith, Lucifer and Satan. Belial makes a guest appearance as well.

Out of the Shadows by John J. Coughlin. This is a book on dark neopaganism and witchcraft. He goes through ethics, Jungian Archetypes as well as shadow work and a touch on the fundamental aspects of magic.

Dark Archives by Emily Rosenbloom. An excellent book about the history of anthropodermic bibliopegy, or books bound in human skin. It's well written, well researched, and personal anecdotes are wonderful. Just enough humor to go with such a macabre subject. She is a member of the Anthropodermic Book Project, so it is an insiders account of the research.

Nocturnicon by Konstantinos. A simple grimoire for the modern dark arts practitioner. The rituals are simple and to the point. It's the third and final book of the Nocturnal Witchcraft Series, but is perfectly good as a stand alone book.

A few suggestions for psychology and consciousness: The Body Keeps the Score (Besel Van der Kolk), The Mind and the Brain (Jeffery M Schwartz), Buddha's Brain (Rick Hanson).

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Books I’ve read in the past three months that are relevant to my cult/religious trauma/deconversion research:

Why I Believed: Reflections of a Former Missionary, by Kenneth W Daniels

When The English Fall: A Novel, by David Williams

Captive: A Mother’s Crusade to Save Her Daughter From a Terrifying Cult, by Catherine Oxenberg

1984, by George Orwell

Mind Control Manual: Vital Concepts About Mind Control, Cults, and Psychopaths, by Dr. David Mc Dermott

From Apostle to Apostate: The Story of the Clergy Project, by Catherine Dunphy

I’m Perfect, You’re Doomed: Tales from a Jehovah’s Witness Upbringing, by Kyria Abrahams

Stolen Innocence: My Story of Growing Up in a Polygamous Sect, Becoming a Teenage Bride, and Breaking Free of Warren Jeffs, by Lisa Pulitzer

Mennonite in a Little Black Dress: A Memoir of Going Home, by Rhoda Janzen

Growing Up Amish: A Memoir, by Ira Wagler

Beyond Belief: My Secret Life Inside Scientology and My Harrowing Escape, by Jenna Miscavige Hill

Out of Deception, by Nathan O. Miller

Why Does He Do That?, by Lundy Bancroft

The New Way: Protestantism and the Hmong in Vietnam, by Tâm T. T. Ngô

The Cult of Trump, by Steven Hassan

U-Turn: What If You Woke Up One Morning and Realized You Were Living The Wrong Life?, by Bruce Grierson

Becoming An Ex: The Process of Role Exit, by Helen Rose Fuchs Ebaugh

The Very Worst Missionary, by Jamie Wright

A Pilgrim’s Wilderness, by Tom Kizzia

Cult, A Love Story: Ten Years Inside a Canadian Cult and the Subsequent Long Road of Recovery, by Alexandra Amor

Comforting Thoughts About Death That Have Nothing To Do With God, by Greta Christina

Broken Faith: Inside the Word of Faith Fellowship, One of America’s Most Dangerous Cults, by Mitch Weiss

My Amish Story: Breaking Generations of Silence, by Rebecca Borntraber Graber

The Body Keeps The Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma, by Bessel van der Kolk M.D.

Rejected, Shamed, And Blamed: Family Scapegoat Dynamics, by Rebecca C. Mandeville MFT

Deconversion: Qualitative and Quantitative Results from Cross-Cultural Research in Germany and the United States of America, by Heinz Streib, Barbara Keller, James T. Richardson, Ralph W. Hood Jr., and Christopher F. Silver

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Charlize Theron photographed by Christopher Kolk - 1997

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Aaliyah, 1999

📸: Christopher Kolk

[riseofthecommonwoodpile]

I think the largest round so far? Who can say. I’m incredibly tired. I’ve worked 7 hours so far of a 12 hour shift, i got no sleep last night, and i’m depressed, so you can’t get mad at me.

Andy Stott- Luxury Problems (9.0/10)

Anna Pest- Forlorn (9.0/10)

Arovane- Tides (8.5/10)

Babyfather- UK2UK (8.0/10)

The Body- Christs, Redeemers (8.0/10)

Bohannon- Summertime Groove (7.0/10)

Brendan Murray- Resting Places (7.0/10)

Carl Craig- Land Cruising (8.5/10)

Caroliner Rainbow Customary Relaxation of the Shale- Sell Heal Holler (8.5/10)

Charli XCX- True Romance (8.5/10)

Christoph Schiller and Birgit Ulher- Kolk (6.0/10, deleted from library)

Coalesce- OX (7.5/10)

Creation is Crucifixion- Automata (8.0/10)

D/P/I- MN.ROY (8.0/10)

Death- Leprosy (9.0/10)

Diamanda Galas- Diamanda Galas (8.5/10)

Discordance Axis- 2.0b Jouhou (8.5/10)

Ellen Allien- Berlinette (7.5/10)

Ellie Goulding- Halcyon Days (9.0/10)

Erik Satie- 3 Gymnopedies and Other Piano Works (9.0/10)

Farben- Textstar (9.0/10)

Floor- Dove (9.5/10)

Fred Firth- Guitar Solos (6.5/10)

Holy Other- Held (8.5/10)

Hype Williams- Junt / Deez Ruins You See (8.5/10)

Incapacitants- Ministry of Foolishness (8.5/10)

Isis- Oceanic (7.5/10)

James Ferraro- Last American Hero (7.0/10)

Jason Lescalleet- Music for Magnetic Tape (4.5/10, deleted from library)

John Coltrane- Coltrane (7.0/10)

Karlheinz Stockhausen- Elektronische Musik (8.5/10)

Kepler Quartet- Ben Johnston: String Quartets Nos. 6, 7, & 8 (10/10)

Khanate- Khanate (8.5/10)

Kode9 + The Space Ape- Memories of the Future (8.0/10)

Meredith Monk- Songs from a Hill / Tablet (8.0/10)

Metro Area- Metro Area (8.5/10)

The Microphones- Song Islands (8.5/10)

Morbid Angel- Blessed are the Sick (8.0/10)

Necrophagist- Onset of Putrefaction (7.5/10)

Neurosis- Through Silver in Blood (9.0/10)

Nine Inch Nails- Bad Witch (7.0/10)

Nine Inch Nails- Further Down the Spiral (7.5/10)

Nine Inch Nails- Hesitation Marks (8.0/10)

Olivia Block- Aberration of Light (8.5/10)

Olivia Block- Change Ringing (7.5/10)

Passion Pit- Manners (8.0/10)

Peter Sotos- Buyer's Market (10/10)

Pig Destroyer- Phantom Limb (8.5/10)

Sadness- The Rain that Falls Alone... (8.0/10)

Steve Reich- The Desert Music (8.0/10)

Sunn O)))- Live White (8.0/10)

Sunn O)))- Monoliths & Dimensions (8.5/10)

Sunn O)))- ØØ Void (8.5/10)

Taj Mahal Travellers- July 15, 1972 (8.5/10)

V/Vm- Sick-Love (8.0/10)

Yuria Hidaka- Tokyo Tower (8.5/10)

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Aaliyah, Photographed by Christopher Kolk (April, 2000)

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Aaliyah photographed by Christopher Kolk, 2000.

[abusednotraised]

Free Resources - Updated List

Hope everyone's having a good weekend 💜 I got a chance to look for more books today, so I went ahead and updated the google drive. There are now free books, workbooks, and other miscellaneous resources. I even found a cute little coloring book! Its target audience seems to be sexual abuse survivors, but I think it could also be helpful to survivors of other types of abuse (such as psychological).

Books:

Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents by Lindsay C. Gibson, PsyD

Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving by Pete Walker

The Tao of Fully Feeling by Pete Walker

Waking the Tiger: Healing Trauma by Peter A. Levine with Ann Frederick

The Body Keeps the Score by Bessel Van der Kolk

Toxic Parents by Susan Forward, Ph.D. with Craig Buck

Workbooks:

The Complex PTSD Workbook by Arielle Schwartz, PhD

The Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT) Skills Workbook by Matthew McKay, Ph.D.; Jeffrey C. Wood, Psy.D.; and Jeffrey Brantley, MD

Life After Trauma by Dena Rosenbloom, PhD and Mary Beth Williams, PhD with Barbara E. Watkins

The Mindful Self-Compassion Workbook by Kristin Neff, PhD and Christopher Germer, PhD

The PTSD Workbook by Mary Beth Williams, PhD, LCSW, CTS and Soili Poijula, PhD

Miscellaneous:

Flashback Management in the Treatment of Complex PTSD by Pete Walker (3-page resource)

Shrinking the Inner Critic in Complex PTSD by Pete Walker (5-page resource)

We Believe You: a colouring book for survivors and supporters (compliments of Ryerson University's Office of Sexual Violence Support and Education; 27 pages)

Again, let me know if any of the links don't work!