#Cherrymentalhealthtag

[cherryaire]

"That's a Board AF rule! You don't ask if you love yourself. We're disassociating up here."

[cherryaire]

People without ADHD do not comprehend how stressful it is to forever not remember where anything is, or what's coming up, or even what day it is. You are constantly being confused and frustrated and it never stops. You go to remember where you put something and it's just a void.

[cherryaire]

at one point does superstition become undiagnosed OCD

[cherryaire]

They're putting me back on an anti-psychotic to try and help with the OCD. I'm also very sure I'm schizospec and I'm hoping it'll help with that, too. If the paranoia and near-delusions I have to counter fade even a little bit, I'll be happy.

[cherryaire]

people who don't experience RSD really do not understand how much it can fuck up your entire mood and your emotional regulation.

[cherryaire]

If someone tells you it feels like you're trying to send them into a meltdown and your response is "I'm not necessarily trying to", you're a cunt. That means you absolutely don't care if that's the outcome!

[cherryaire]

To be autistic is to be constantly misunderstood because you don't talk the way people want. You don't smile the way they want. You don't go along with hierarchies like a sycophant. You don't have 'open body language' the way they want. We don't give false platitudes to make them happy, and thus we're aggressive and rude.

[cherryaire]

I often feel like a terrible person for crying about animals and not people. But people know what's going on. Animals don't. You can't explain it to them, and it's like I feel their fear if I think about it too long. People are obviously terrified too, but they understand what the situation is and what to do.

[cherryaire]

I'm gonna go ahead and say my new antipsychotic med is helping my adhd since I haven't had it for several days and the Ocd spiral is back in full force.

my spirals are almost always so irrational. my brain has latched onto the idea that the boiler on the other side of the wall is going to fucking explode or one of the other tenants in the building will start a fire somehow. I know the chances are so, so low, but my brain loves to take a "What if" and turn it into a crisis and I am so, so tired.

[cherryaire]

It probably should have been evident that I have an OCD issue when I was much, much younger with the horrific ruminating thoughts I've always had. As the crow flies, I'm <6 miles from a municipal airport so I hear planes descending almost every day and I have to put my brain on repeat that it isn't crashing, it's LANDING.

Ive lived here my whole life so it's been 25+ years of it. 😔

[cherryaire]

Fire is such a huge trigger for my OCD so coverage of wildfires in Cali set off the spiral of worrying about the youtubers I watch because they're almost all in LA.