#Chef johnny Lee

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comfort cuisine

🌙 starring. Johnny Suh x afab!Reader

🔮 preview. You’ve never felt a feral need like this before, but it’s not necessarily the primal type of drive. Instead, it’s a feeling of wanting to be close to this man- who you’ve been next to for so many years, but unable to touch. Except, he’s touching you now, and you want more.

tw/cw. unprotected sex, breast worship/massaging, big dick Johnny, fingering, pussy stretching prep, 'it's finger licking good,' praise, dirty talk, masturbation, multiple reader orgasms, cumming together, creampie, soft sex, longing, fluff, etc… I pet names: (hers) honey.

👹 rating.18+ explicit I wc. 10.8k

🍭 aus. aged up/widower dad!John, best friends to lovers, Chef!John, etc…

☀️ mlist + an. I'm so happy that people loved Line Chef Mark in my fic Real Talk, I received so many messages about giving Head Chef John his own love story, and this is what I came up with in the past four months :) it's a little different from what I normally do, but I wanted to continue with that 'slice of life' theme and venture into a plot line I've never tried before with widower/single dad John :)

Prologue

“I’m so sorry about this,” Johnny’s voice distracts you from the breakfast you’re making, and you turn around from the bacon to look at your friend. “I really wish I didn’t have to keep calling you and asking for favours like this-”

“Johnny,” you shut his rambling up with a pointed expression, “stop, it’s okay.”

“It’s not-”

“John,” you repeat, “seriously, we’re good. Given… the circumstances, I honestly don’t mind.”

The circumstances… neither of you can bring yourselves to say it. You know that if you say it… if you say ‘I don’t mind helping out since the death of your wife’ Johnny will just about break down, and he doesn’t have time to do that, not when he’s got to be at work for seven am, prepping the kitchen and getting ready for the day.

Even by calling this situation a ‘circumstance,’ you can see a half glazed expression overtake Johnny’s face. He’s frozen for a moment, and you take the time to study him.

You think it’s safe to say neither of you expected any of this to happen. 

You’d met him in culinary school- he’d been a young guy, a new dad who’d had a daughter at nineteen, with dreams of opening his own sandwich food truck, ‘like Subway, but gourmet,’ he’d always explained. 

Now, he’s a twenty four year old wreck, doing his best to climb the ladder in the food service industry, mourning the loss of his late wife, struggling to take care of his daughter, his dreams of a food truck long since forgotten in favour of chasing a head chef status to earn him enough of a salary to pay for everything in a one income household-

“Seriously,” your words snap the single dad back from his zone out, “we’re good. I’m making breakfast for Soonbok, I’ve got her lunch packed, I’ll take her to kindergarten, pick her up after- you just have to remember I have a night shift, gotta be at my own restaurant by five at the latest.”

“Five, yeah,” Johnny nods, swallowing thickly and toying with his daughters small pink backpack. “One day, I’ll be higher up on the food chain, and I’ll have better hours- I promise this isn’t a forever thing.”

“It’s an ‘as long as it needs to happen’ thing, okay? Don’t sweat it,” you assure him. “Here,” you take some of the crispy bacon out of the pan, putting it onto a scrambled egg bagel you’d prepared, “you need breakfast too.”

Johnny just about melts looking at the food. “You’re so good to me.”

You offer him a smile. “That’s what friends are for.”

One

Johnny swears his age is catching up to him. It’s not even four oclock and he’s feeling tired, letting out a groan as he says goodbye to the nightshift guys and heads to change out of his head chef attire in the staff bathroom. He’d turned thirty this year, and as he looks at his face in the mirror, he thinks he’s starting to see it.

On his way out of the back door, Johnny bumps into one of his line cooks. Mark Lee is pressed to the wall where people usually lean to smoke, his girlfriend closing him in with her hands on either side of his head. Back when she was expo, everyone used to call her Sunshine, but in her dealings with Mark Lee, Johnny’s come to realize that he’s the angel, not her. 

“Aren’t you two on the clock?” Johnny jokes as he walks past.

Sunshine pulls away from Mark, offering the head chef a grin. “We’re on a vape break.”

“Sure you are,” Johnny laughs, shaking his head.  “See you two back in there, better only be five more minutes.”

“Aren’t you done for the day?” Mark asks, confusion written on his face, along with lipstick marks that he’s hurrying to wipe off.

“Grabbing happy hour with a friend, but be careful Mark Lee, I’m always watching. Just because I’m sitting at the bar doesn’t mean I’m not judging you.”

Johnny can hear Mark mutter something under his breath, and Sunshine is quick to try to calm him down, but as Johnny turns the corner to head to the front entrance of the restaurant, he hears the back door open and close, signaling the end of the little ‘vape break.’

When Johnny joins you at the bar, you’re chatting with Jeno, and the sight makes an unexplainable emotion tingle up his spine. Out of all the front of house staff here, Jeno might just be the biggest manwhore, and he’s had a thing for cougars for a while, although there’s only a handful of years difference between the two of you-

“What are you guys talking about?” John asks, taking a seat on the dark green leather hightop stools surrounding the bar.

“Which virgin drinks are the best,” you respond casually. “I was going to get an iced tea, but Jeno convinced me to try one of your new virgin lemon ginger fizzes.”

“That’s called upselling, honey, you should know that, seeing as you’re in the industry,” Johnny grins.

“Yeah, well, you’re the one who invited me here, so I figured you’d be paying.” You take a sip of your straw, looking at Johnny with a smirk, a playful glint in your eyes. 

“Are we getting food?” Johnny asks. “I might as well take care of that for you too.”

“I’ve got time,” you respond casually. “Don’t work for an hour, lets get our ‘nosh’ on.”

Johnny can only laugh at your antics, turning to Jeno, who’s watching with an amused grin. Everyone here knows you and Johnny are close, you come here often enough to see him, the two of you catching each other for a half an hour here or there between his day shifts and your night commitments. 

Johnny orders three appetizers off the happy hour menu, two things he knows you like, and one that’s more up his alley. “Make sure Yuta isn’t back there slacking off,” Johnny warns Jeno, knowing that two of the items will be coming from the ‘bottom end’ of the expo line, which is where Yuta runs the show after Johnny’s off.

“I’m sure he’ll pull out all the stops for our MVP,” Jeno grins, typing the order into an ipad. “Do you want a beer? We’ve got new rotators.”

“Don’t bother trying to upsell me,” Johnny scoffs. “House Lager, and don’t fuck around with the foam.”

“You run a tight ship here, captain,” you tease, bumping Johnny’s elbow.

“Speaking of-”

“Don’t try to recruit me to work here again,” you’re quick to warn.

“Damn it,” Johnny shakes his head, pretending to be quite upset about your rejection. He does feel it- he does think you’d be a great member of the team, and he’d love to offer you a dual head chef position, but it’s not in his power to do so, and that fact haunts him every day. Working for a company limits what he’s able to do, and sometimes, even at age thirty, Johnny still thinks about his dream to open a food truck, with you by his side. “No, in all seriousness, I wanted to talk to you about Soonie’s birthday.”

“Right, she’s turning eleven soon, that’s quite the milestone,” you grin, playing with your straw.

“I asked Doyoung if I could open early for her birthday, it’s a Sunday, I was thinking some of her friends and their parents could come in for a brunch an hour before we’re open for the public.”

“That’s a great idea!”

“Here’s the catch, Soonie was raised on your breakfast food. As much as I try to make things for her, and I hate to admit this, by the way, she always says your cooking is better. So I was thinking… maybe you’d want to come in that day and help me out with all of this. With your skills, I wouldn’t need Hyuck and Mark, it could be just us, and I’m sure we could make a birthday breakfast Soonbok would never forget. It would be like old times, like back when we were in culinary school.”

He loves the way you’re smiling at him, giving him space to rant. 

When he’s done, you cock your head to the side, only wasting one beat before you say, “I’ll do it.”

“Really? I don’t have to bribe you with money or anything?”

“Jeeze, have I ever asked you for money, John?” You smack at his arm, clearly slightly offended. “I’m doing this for Soonie… and maybe a little for you too.”

“Don’t go soft on me, killer,” Johnny teases. “Everyone around here’s too soft these days.”

“Says the softest dad I know,” you roll your eyes. 

“Shh,” he warns, “don’t say that loud enough for Jeno to hear.”

“As if everyone doesn’t already know.”

The two of you continue to chat and joke, a short while later, the head manager, Doyoung, shows up carrying food. It’s funny for Johnny to see Doyoung balancing two items on one arm, the third in the palm of his hand, but he supposes Doyoung started somewhere too, the same way John had. 

“VIP happy hour appetizers,” Doyoung sighs, setting the food down. 

“As opposed to regular happy hour appetizers?” you grin, immediately reaching for a fry.

“These are special,” Doyoung insists, “pretty sure Yuta spit in them.”

Doyoung is a pretty regal man, he’s not one to joke around- but for some reason, when Doyoung is in your vicinity, he loosens up a little. Everyone loosens up around you, you radiate a safe space kind of energy, the kind of energy that makes Johnny’s tense shoulders relax, his smile softening.

“Then I’ll be sure to eat all of this,” you respond. “Tell Yuta more spit.”

Doyoung shakes his head at you. “I’m sure Johnny’s tried to poach you already, but if you ever want a job, you can have his.”

“Hey!” Johnny laughs.

“I’ll consider it,” you grin.

“And I expect a plate of food for this brunch thing,” Doyoung continues. “I’ve heard nothing beats your breakfasts, even though you work nights.”

“Someone has been talking about me again,” you muse, eyes shifting to John.

“What can I say?” He holds his hands up in defense. “I speak only the truth.”

“Your reputation precedes you,” Doyoung insists. “Anyways, have fun you two, I’ve got food to run, our new expo girl isn’t filling Sunshine’s shoes too well.”

There’s a glint in Doyoung’s eye before he scurries away, and Johnny turns to watch the new expo girl practically short circuiting with take out orders on the line. 

“Poor girl,” you sigh. “It takes a certain kind of person to work in a restaurant.”

And an even more specific type to do what the two of you do as chefs.

Two

You’ve been on a few first dates this year, and this one is definitely a bottom three. You’ve had one drink, and you already feel like finding a way to slip out early. 

Initially, you’d been intrigued by dating a man in finance, but it’s clear now that you’re in two completely different worlds- and to make matters worse, he mostly talks about himself. He’s oozing this obnoxious confidence that makes you grimace every time you sip your drink, and not from the alcohol.

Your date is in the bathroom when Johnny calls.

“Hello?”

“Hey, you!” His voice warms your heart. “So Soonie is at a sleep over tonight, and I was thinking about making a Soonbok style menu for her birthday, all Soonie style names for food and such, planning a menu just for her- are you up to anything? Can I go through it with you?”

“Actually…” your gaze shifts to the bathrooms, “I’m on a date.”

“Oh.”

“It’s going so bad, and planning Soonie’s birthday would be such a better use of my evening. Listen, can you come pick me up? I’ll text you the address, you can come and call me when you’re outside, pretend it’s a family emergency or something-”

“You got it, I’ll be there right away.”

Fifteen minutes later, you’re hopping into Johnny’s car, letting out a deep sigh of relief.

“That bad, huh?” he asks.

“I don’t even want to talk about it right now,” you groan. 

“Here, distract yourself,” Johnny hands you a piece of paper, and you realize it’s a mock up menu for Soonbok’s birthday. “This is just a prototype, I was messing around with styles on some fucking site called Canva-”

“I didn’t know you were good at this sort of thing,” you gasp, taking in the intricate fonts and colouring.

“The site did all the work, trust me,” Johnny scoffs, pulling out into traffic. “Read it over and let me know what you think.”

You begin to scan the menu. There’s Soonie Side Up Eggs, and Boken Avocado Bennies, Soonbok Style Slapjacks and Suh Family Breakfast Sammies. 

“I’m shocked you came up with this many names related to Soonie and Suh,” you say.

“I spent my entire shift thinking about them in the back of my mind while I worked,” Johnny admits. “They’re not cheesy or anything, right?”

“They’re definitely cheesy,” you confirm, “but Soonie is going to love them. You’ve always been cheesy, John, and she adores you for it.”

You notice Johnny’s skin turning a little red, and it’s not just from the reflection of the traffic light illuminating the inside of his car while you wait for it to go green. 

You continue to study the menu, thinking hard the entire way back to Johnny’s house.

He’s got a modest three bedroom townhouse, with his and Soonbok’s rooms on the top floor, and the guest bedroom on the main floor with the kitchen and living room. The kitchen is, without a doubt, the heart of the home, and the two of you make your way there as soon as you’re past the threshold.

“I have some thoughts,” you admit, setting the menu down and pointing at one of the items. “Soonbok toast,” you announce, a twist on french toast, “it says here that it comes with a berry compote. I can tell that this is one of the dishes more geared toward others, because if this was really for Soonie, you’d know that your daughter doesn't even touch berry or apple crisps. She picks at the oat brown sugar on top, but doesn’t like cooked berries or fruits.”

“Yeah…” Johnny leans next to you, scratching the back of his neck. “That was the only one I wasn’t sure on, but for brunch, you have to have a french toast option, right?”

“We can still do french toast, but I think every menu item should be something she’d actually love, don’t you agree?”

“A hundred percent.” 

“What if, instead of berry compote, we do an brown sugar glaze type sauce?”

“That could be doable,” Johnny admits. “Should we try to make one now?”

“Can we do it in the morning?” you ask. “Honestly, I had one drink at the bar, I’m tired after a long shift, and I’m ready to have a few more drinks then pass out.”

“Drinks are a good idea,” Johnny grins, already heading to the fridge. “It will give me more time to think about how to make the brown sugar glaze, and I’ll get on top of that in the morning.”

“Exactly. Chef hours are over, we can just relax,” you insist, heading to collapse on his couch.

“Chef hours are never over,” Johnny reminds you, cracking open a beer and approaching so he can hand it to you.

“It’s one of the reasons dating is so hard in our profession,” you sigh, taking a swig of your drink.

“The hours make it tough,” Johnny nods. 

“So does the mentality,” you remind him. “We just… we think a little differently than others. We’re all a little too committed to our work.”

“That’s not always a bad thing, you’ve just gotta find someone you’re compatible with, someone who will appreciate that about you.” 

“Says one single chef to the other,” you laugh.

Johnny clinks his bottle against your own before taking a large gulp. “Touche.”

Three

Johnny is doing his best to work quietly, aware that the guest bedroom is just a short distance from the kitchen as he whips up eggs for the french toast batter. 

He manages to get all the way through to the cooking before you sleepily putter into the kitchen, adorned in one of his spare shirts for when you sleep over unexpectedly. You look adorable, but Johnny can’t bring himself to focus on you as he perfects the brown sugar glaze, careful not to burn it.

“Almost done,” he calls over his shoulder, “take a seat then try this with me?”

“It smells good,” you tell him, pulling out a chair at the island kitchen counter. 

“Thanks, honey, I was up last night thinking about it- had to wake up early to try it out.” He lifts the french toast onto a plate, dipping a spoon into the glaze to coat the breakfast. “I hope I didn’t wake you up?”

“The smell did,” you muse, grinning as he brings the french toast toward you, setting it down and opening a drawer to retrieve two sets of utensils.

The two of you cut into the toast, and you lift your fork. “Cheers,” you grin, and Johnny touches his food to your own before you both go in for a bite. 

The french toast is cooked to perfection, and although the brown sugar glaze is a little sweet for his liking, Johnny knows Soonie’s sweettooth will appreciate this adjustment to the recipe.

But when Johnny lifts his gaze to you, he sees apprehension in your eyes. “Did you like it?” he enquires.

“It’s really good, don’t get me wrong,” you assure him quickly, “I just think… maybe it’s missing one or two things.”

“Like what?”

“Mmm…” you cock your head to the side, “we both know Soonbok is a fan of nuts, peanut butter is her usual go to but she likes others too- what if we finely chop some pecan or walnut and add that in somehow?”

“That could work,” Johnny nods. 

“Do you mind if I take a crack at it?” you ask. 

Johnny laughs. There are very few people he’ll allow to use his kitchen, and luckily you’re the one at the top. You’ve been cooking here for so many years that he doesn’t have to guide you to anything, you stand up and immediately go in search of details to make your french toast masterpiece come to life, and Johnny happily takes a back seat while he finishes his own creation.

You go for a bag of pecans, dumping a small amount onto a cutting board before you begin to finally chop, leaving an array of different sizes of chunks. Soonie has always been a texture specific child, and Johnny loves how you incorporate all the little quirks of his daughter into your cooking like this.

In a pan with some butter, you begin to toast the nuts, getting prepped on your bread by using the already made batter he’d created earlier. As you put the toast into the pan and check the nuts, you cock your head to the side again, an endearing trait you do when you’re thinking.

“What about oats?” you suggest. 

“Do whatever you think is best,” Johnny encourages you, heading to the fridge to grab some orange juice and a nearly empty bottle of prosecco he’d opened for a recipe two nights ago.

Johnny watches you add oats to the browning pecans while he makes mimosas, and in no time at all, you’re plating the french toast, with a spoonful of the newly toasted additions, and a few spoonfuls of brown sugar glaze.

“There,” you announce, bringing the food to the table. “I added a bit of cinnamon and brown sugar to the buttered nuts and oats while you were making drinks.”

“Cheers,” Johnny grins, lifting a forkful of your creation to gently touch it to your own.

As soon as he bites into it, Johnny knows that this is a winner. The crunch of the nuts, and the oats- the added fats of the butter- the slight taste of cinnamon on the toppings- 

“Wow,” he breathes, leaning back in his chair. “Soonie really wasn’t joking when she said you’re the best breakfast chef in town.”

“Stop it,” you laugh. “You made the glaze! We did this together!”

Johnny goes for a second bite. “This is the stuff that will stick to your ribs,” he muses, not caring that the calorie content was just inflated by the addition of butter and nuts, “Good ol’ comfort food.”

“No, John, you’re a head chef now, this is comfort cuisine,” you correct him with a grin. 

Johnny swears your eyes are sparkling as you smile at him, and it makes his heart skip a beat in his chest. It’s times like these that he realizes just how smitten he is with you. You’ve been there for him, through thick and thin. There’s no way he’d be where he is now without you, and he’s not even sure if you know the full extent of it.

But at the same time, because you’re his rock, Johnny doesn’t want to overstep. He can’t lose you, not now, not ever. Soonie lost her mom to a car crash when she was three, and there’s no way in hell Johnny’s going to do something that could potentially make her lose you too.

Four

“Hey, you,” you grin, finishing pouring your glass of wine while you put your favourite chef on speaker.

“Hey, yourself,” Johnny responds, and you can practically hear the smile in his own voice. “Listen, uh, I need to ask you for a favour.”

“Shoot.”

“Two of my line chefs called in today before dinner- pretty sure they’re both hungover or something. Anyways, I’m staying, and it’s a busier night than projected- Soonie is done Girl Guides at seven, and I know it’s your night off, so if you’re busy I can find someone else, but-”

“I’ve got you,” you interrupt him. “Girls night with my favourite girl is a better plan than I had.”

“Really? You sure?”

“A hundred percent.”

“I’d say I owe you one, but at this point, I probably owe you more like a thousand.”

“And don’t you forget it,” you laugh, pouring your wine back into the bottle. “Take care of work, and I’ll take care of our girl.”

A couple hours later, you’re in Johnny’s familiar kitchen, making spiced popcorn and virgin cocktails. Soonie wants to be a chef, just like her dad, and she’s getting better every day. You love giving her soft instructions and lending a helping hand on bigger jugs of juice that her tiny fingers can’t quite hold.

Soonbok has a love for all things disney and music, and although this is probably the third time you’re watching it with her, the two of you settle in for the live action Ariel.

While Johnny is primarily a chef, back when you were in culinary school, he used to sing to himself when he was working. He was always quiet, but loud enough for you to listen to his beautiful voice. Like her father, Soonbok has a way with music, and you adore watching the eleven year old belt out Ariel songs.

She’s tuckered out from Girl Guides however, and about halfway into the movie she cuddles up next to you, her eyelids beginning to droop.

When Johnny comes home as the film is ending, Soonie is fast asleep, and you quickly motion at him to be quiet as he steps through the door.

Johnny is careful as he sets his keys and bag down, kicking off his shoes and putting away his jacket. He tiptoes toward the two of you. “How long has she been out?” he whispers.

“Half an hour or so,” you respond in a hushed tone. “How was work?”

He lets out a sigh. “Could have been better, but I’m home now. Should I get this little one to bed?”

You nod, watching the way Johnny bends down to gently lift his daughter off the couch. She stirs in his arms. “Daddy?”

“Hi, Soonie,” he beams down at her. “Did you have a good girls night?”

“Can y/n stay longer?”

Johnny’s eyes shift to you, and a smile forms on your lips. “I guess I can’t say no to Soonie, can I?”

“Here’s the deal, Soonie, y/n can stay longer, but I’ve gotta put you to bed. You had a long day, didn’t you, sweet girl?”

“Uh huh.” Soonie yawns, cuddling closer to Johnny’s chest, and the sight makes you melt.

Johnny carries her out of the living room and up to the second level. He takes some time tucking her in, and then he comes back down to join you, holding two beers in his hands. 

“So two line chefs called in, huh?” you prompt, tucking your legs up and making room for the large man on the sofa.

“I expected it from Haechan, but Mark’s generally pretty reliable. His girlfriend was on shift today, so I know he wasn’t skipping to be with her- I’m guessing they got pretty messed up last night.”

“They’re young,” you point out, accepting a beer from him. “We used to be young.”

“Used to be,” Johnny laughs, taking a swig of his drink. 

Looking at this man- this father, you realize maybe he never really got the chance to be young. At twenty five, he had a six year old, he wasn't running around blacking out and getting hung over, he was working his way up the employment ladder, dreaming about a better future for his daughter.

“You mentioned Mark has a girlfriend, I think I’ve heard about her a few times now, it’s interesting that she was in and he wasn’t.”

“I’m going to be honest, I love Mark, he’s a great kid- but, he can sometimes be peer pressured into things. Haechan has a hold on Mark unlike any I’ve seen, they bring out… interesting sides of each other.”

You laugh at the description, and it’s clear there’s more on Johnny’s mind, so you wait for him to continue. 

“It’s nice that Mark is young and in love, I can understand that- but at the same time, I just hope he doesn’t make the same mistakes I did. Not that Soonbok is a mistake, of course- I just mean that… life is fragile. You think you’re going to be with someone forever, and then you’re reminded of how frail things can be.”

You frown at his words. Even after all of these years, Johnny still holds so much pain about his lost wife. You want to do your best to help Johnny in every aspect of his life, especially emotional, but this is a topic you never know how to approach. He’s right for grieving, his ex was his first love, his true love- how is there anything you could ever say to make him feel better about her passing?

You open your mouth, only to close it, and Johnny watches you intently. Sometimes he looks at you, the way he’s looking at you right now, and you wonder if he feels the same level of connection with you that you feel with him. You wonder if he wants you to kiss him, if a kiss would make him feel better, if it would - if even for a moment - help him forget about the pains he’s faced in his life.

But it’s because of the pains he’s faced that neither of you can close the distance, you’d like to think about it that way at least. Even after all these years, it’s still too early, so you simply reach out and gently squeeze his hand.

Johnny offers you a smile, and you’re glad that in some small way, maybe you’ve helped him.

Five

It’s a pretty slow day after the lunch rush, so Johnny is sitting in the back office with Doyoung while they pick at their food. They often eat together once things settle down, and today is no different. 

What is different, however, is the topic of conversation Doyoung brings up. “How’s y/n doing?” he asks, taking a bite of his salad.

“She’s good. She helped me lock in a french toast recipe for Soonie’s birthday, so that was pretty helpful.”

“That’s nice,” Doyoung nods, “but I’m more interested in what’s going on between the two of you.”

“What do you mean?” Johnny asks, looking up from his schezwan beef noodle bowl. 

“I mean, you two have been friends for a long time. There’s a lot of history there.”

Johnny’s shocked that Doyoung is bringing this up. Out of all of the chef’s coworkers, he had not pegged Doyoung as being the man to bring up relationship gossip, and the whole thing takes him off guard for a moment. 

“We’re good friends,” Johnny says finally.

“I know that,” Doyoung rolls his eyes. “What’s holding you back from being more? It’s clear how much you two care about each other.”

Johnny looks down at his food, using his chopsticks to play around with a red pepper. “We do care about each other,” he confirms. “She was there for me with Soonie when no one else was, and I’ll always be grateful for that.”

“So why don’t you tell her how you really feel about her?” Doyoung presses. “It’s obvious in the way you look at each other- a smart woman like y/n, I’m shocked she hasn’t figured it out for herself by now.”

“I think, because of our history, there’s this… invisible line,” Johnny tries to explain. “Things are good the way they are now, if I try to mess with that… I could lose everything. And I wouldn’t just be losing it for myself, I’d be losing it for Soonie too.”

Doyoung lets out a breath, turning to face Johnny. “I get that it’s hard, but, you’ve got two paths ahead of you. If you give it a try, it could either end well, or badly. But if you keep yourself in this weird middle friend zone place, it’s like you’ve created a house at the crossroads, and that will never lead you anywhere.”

“When did you become so wise about love?” Johnny scoffs.

“Sumi has helped me with it,” Doyoung admits. “I met her here, we started off as friends. I’m her manager, so I had my own reasons for never taking the leap. I had my own house at the crossroads.”

“What made you finally give it a try?”

“She was there for me when my dad died,” Doyoung frowns. “Anyone can be there for you when things go badly, but when a woman truly gives her all to making things easier on you- it’s not something that should be ignored. After everything you and y/n have been through, you both deserve to give it a try.”

“How are you so sure she’d want to give it a try?”

“Because she looks at you the way you look at her.”

Six

Cooking with Johnny might just be the easiest thing in the world. You’d thought that, due to it being Soonie’s birthday, maybe tensions would be high, but as the two of you collaborate in the kitchen, bumping hips and easily communicating, things feel as they always have: easy. 

Within fifteen minutes, the two of you have seamlessly cooked thirteen breakfasts for yourselves, Soonie, her four friends, and six adults… well, seven, if you include the Boken Avocado Bennies you’d whipped up for Doyoung.

While there are a number of staff puttering around doing pre-opening tasks, it’s Doyoung who takes the time to help you and Johnny bring all the food to the table. You love watching the stoic manager announce the Soonie-inspired brunch food names, and it’s clear that Soonbok is also enamoured by the shift in Doyoung’s countenance. 

Before everyone begins to eat, you take a group picture on Johnny’s phone, loving the massive smile on Soonie’s face.

As you’re about to sit down, Johnny asks one of the other moms to take a picture of just you, him and Soonie. With the two of you on either side of the birthday girl, you can’t help but think that this feels like a family picture. 

In a way, Johnny and Soonie are your family- but in the same breath, you’re cognisant of the fact that - had circumstances been different - it would be Soonbok’s mom in this picture right now, and not you. These are shoes that can simply never be filled, no matter how much you wish you could.

The thought isn’t one you like to hold on to, and it’s a thought that’s popped into your head innumerable times throughout the years. Taking your seat next to the birthday girl, you watch her try the french toast, her eyes lighting up.

On top of her own food, Soonie picks at yours and Johnny’s. Both of you are more than happy to share so she can taste more than just one of the special items Johnny had concocted for her. 

Brunch is full of laughter and girlish giggles that light up the deserted restaurant. It’s clear how important Johnny has made Soonie feel today, and that brings you more joy than you could ever express out loud. 

As things wind down, you and Johnny begin clearing plates to the dishpit. The two of you are shoulder to shoulder, and you’re overwhelmed by an odd sense of longing that you can’t quite describe.

Johnny turns to you, mouth opening as if he’s about to say something- but as servers pass behind you, it’s clear that there’s no room for him to say whatever it is that he wanted to say to you.

You clear your throat, watching a line chef pop up next to Johnny to stack the dishes for dishwasher prep. “You should go back to Soonie,” you tell him, “I’ll finish up with the cleanup.”

“Are you sure?” he asks.

“Of course, it’s Soonie’s day, go be with her.” You offer him a smile, and Johnny reacts by reaching out to squeeze your hand.

Without another word, he leaves you to your thoughts, and the feeling of need that’s growing steadier and steadier in your chest.

Seven

Johnny doesn’t know quite what to do with himself. Soonie’s birthday was yesterday, and today's day shift had been quite slow. He’s feeling restless with Soonie over at a friend’s place tonight, and he tries to drown himself in liquor- whether it be to chase away the loneliness or to gain courage, he’s not sure, but by nine oclock, Johnny finds himself dialing up your number.

“Hey, you,” you answer.

“Hey, yourself,” he grins. “Watcha up to?”

There’s a pause, and Johnny can hear people in the background. “I’m out actually.”

“Oh?” Johnny’s spirits dampen. “Out on another hot date?”

“Not so hot actually.”

Johnny bites at his lip. “I’ll let you go anyways.”

“It’s alright, I stepped out when you called. Do you need something?”

“I guess…” Johnny takes a breath. “I got into the liquor-”

“Say no more, I’ll be right over.”

Eight

“So…” Johnny grins as the two of you head into his kitchen, “how did the date go?”

You scoff, watching him pour a glass of wine. “How do you think it went? I’m here with you, aren’t I?”

“I mean… I am pretty hard to compete with,” Johnny flashes you a sexy grin… and proceeds to knock over the glass of wine. “Shit- fuck!”

“Listen, you go take a seat, and I’ll clean this up,” you laugh, watching him lumber toward the sofa. You make quick work of the mess, and when you’re done, you approach him in the living room.

“Come sit,” he prompts, patting the spot right next to him.

“Someone’s feeling awfully cuddly today,” you giggle when he grabs your hand to pull you down where he wants you, leaving no space between the two of you.

“What can I say? I’m a cuddly drunk.” 

“I can see that,” you note, assessing him.

His gaze dips to your lips, and your skin tingles. 

“Thank you for yesterday,” he says quietly.

“I told you, I was happy to help for Soonie’s special day.”

“It’s not just that,” he insists, “you’re always happy to help. I seriously-” he swallows thickly, “I seriously couldn’t have done anything I’ve done without you.”

“Don’t be so self deprecating,” you warn him, gently pushing his shoulder. “You’d have gotten anywhere you wanted, with or without me.”

“I still don’t have a food truck,” Johnny pouts.

You’d thought maybe he’d given up on that dream- although you’ve held onto hope for Johnny, more than he knows. “Now that you mention it, actually,” you say, pulling out your phone, “I’ve been looking at food trucks for sale online for a minute, and-”

Johnny’s gaze softens. “You’ve been researching for me?”

“Just a little,” you brush it off, trying to find the listing that you’d saved three days ago. “I found this decent looking one at a good price-”

“I think I love you.”

“Huh?” you freeze.

“I didn’t mean it,” Johnny says immediately, and your heart sinks. “I don’t think I love you, I know I do.”

“John, please, that’s the liquor talking.”

“Drunk words are sober thoughts,” he insists. “Look, you’ve always been there for me. We work together- and not just because we’re both chefs. Something about this,” Johnny gestures between the two of you, “it just works, and I know I’m not the only one who sees it.”

“Yeah?” You decide to play a little coy, seeing as this confession is coming from a drunk man. “And who else sees it?”

“Doyoung, for one.”

“Doyoung?” You let out a laugh. “Have you been gossiping about me with him?”

“I swear I didn’t bring it up,” Johnny defends himself. “Doyoung said I look at you with love, and that… that you look at me the same way.”

“Well… maybe Doyoung needs to get his eyes checked?”

“Don’t play with me,” Johnny begs, pulling you closer. “There’s always been a line between us, one we’ve both been too scared to cross… but, I think-”

“Now you’re crossing it,” you finish for him. “What made you want to do that?”

“Soonie’s birthday,” Johnny admits. “Our little family picture.”

“Our family picture,” you repeat, melting inside at the fact that he’d viewed the photo in the same light you had.

“Yeah.” Johnny nods. “Our family. Mine, and yours.” 

His hand finds your thigh, and you can’t help but reach out to cup his cheek, stroking your thumb across his angular bones. “I’m not sure what to say,” you admit.

“We don’t have to say anything,” Johnny assures you. “Just kiss me, and we can forget about the world for a minute.”

Your heart is racing in your chest as you hesitantly close the distance between your lips. It’s a gentle first kiss, but it soon grows hungry, and you’re not sure if that’s due to his appetite or your own.

His tongue swipes across your lip, and you open your mouth for him, letting out a soft sigh as you get lost in the feeling of the man who’s been your best friend for years.

His hand on your thigh squeezes, and before you know it, he’s pulling you onto his lap. Your knees dig into the sofa on either side of him, and you’re hesitant to fully sit down- a kiss is a kiss, but grinding on Johnny is something else entirely.

“Johnny,” you whisper, throwing your head back to look at the ceiling, wondering how you got into this situation.

“Yes, honey?” He presses kisses along your throat that have tingles shooting up your spine.

“You’re drunk,” you say finally.

“If I’d known you liked me too, I would have done this ages ago.”

“It’s not about that,” you laugh. “It’s about the fact that you’re drunk, and I want you sober when we do this.”

“Do what?” he teases, squeezing your hips, his tongue grazing over your jugular.

“You know what,” you retort with a huff. “Look, you’re right about the line neither of us wanted to cross.”

Johnny pulls away from your throat, looking up at you. “Huh?”

“The line. The unspoken line. All these years, something has been there, between us- but, we both respect your wife, we respect Soonie- I think… I think the time is right for this now, well, not right now, but, once you’re sober again.”

“You’re right,” Johnny concedes. 

“How about we watch a movie, then we can go to sleep.”

“You’ll stay over?” There’s a boyish excitement in his voice and it makes you melt.

“Uh huh.”

“Will you stay in my bed with me?”

“Just for cuddles, but only if you promise to drink a bunch of water before we sleep, I don’t want you hung over in the morning.”

Johnny grins. “You got it, honey.”

Nine

Johnny wakes up next to a warm body, and it’s the first time in years. Your presence is the only thing that proves to him that last night wasn’t a dream, some twisted fantasy- No, you’re real, and you’re here, and you’d kissed him back-

He stays cuddled with you for a while, basking in the glow of being in love, truly in love, and finally able to admit it to himself. It’s been so long since his wife, and part of him had forgotten the feeling- maybe that’s why it had taken years for him to realize how much he adores you.

After a while, Johnny decides he needs some water- and he wants to make breakfast for you. He wants to spoil you the way you spoil him.

Johnny is careful as he exits the bed, taking one last look at your peaceful face before heading down to the kitchen.

It’s easy for Johnny to get lost in the act of cooking, focusing on bacon at first before switching to eggs. As it was a few days ago, the smell of food wakes you up, and soon you’re joining him by the stove.

“Watcha making?” you ask, wrapping your body around his.

God, the feeling of you is- fuck, he can’t even describe how good it is.

“Wanted to make you breakfast,” he tells you, plating your food first. Once he has you settled and sitting, he quickly throws together a breakfast sandwich for himself.

“You and your sandwiches,” you laugh, digging into your bacon and eggs.

“How did you sleep?” he asks, coming to join you.

“So well,” you tell him, bumping your knee against his own, “even if someone snores.” 

Johnny can only laugh, he’s dealt with Soonbok complaining about his loud snoring for years. “How are the eggs?”

“Good!” 

You’re so chipper this morning, and he loves it. Johnny takes a bite of his sandwich- you’d cooked the eggs at the brunch birthday two days ago, and he realizes Soonie was right. “Your eggs are better,” he muses.  

“I’d planned on making breakfast for you, but you jumped the gun, big guy.”

“I wanted to pamper you for a change.”

“Cooking is my love language,” you tell him. “I’m excited to make you breakfast more often.”

“I like the sound of that,” he smiles.

“When’s Soonie come home?”

Johnny checks the clock on the stove. “In an hour or so.”

“As much as I’d love to see her, I think maybe it’s better if I’m not here when she gets home,” you say thoughtfully. “She’s a smart girl, I bet she’d be able to tell that something is up.”

“She definitely would,” Johnny confirms. “I don’t think I’ll be able to keep my hands off of you that much if you stick around.”

You giggle, reaching over to squeeze his knee.

“How are you feeling about last night?” Johnny asks.

“I’m feeling good, how about you? Still remember all of it?”

“In perfect detail,” he breathes. “Although… a little reminder wouldn’t hurt.”

“Oh, it wouldn’t?” you tease as he leans in, cupping your face so he can press his lips to your own. 

God, you’re such a good kisser. It just works. It’s hard for him to even pull away, but he doesn’t want to overwhelm you.

“Take me out on a date,” you say.

“Hmm?”

“A date,” you repeat. “Just because we’ve known each other for years doesn’t mean we can skip steps.”

“I respect that,” Johnny nods. “I’ve got a busy week, and it will have to be a night where Soonie is out, but… we’ll make it work.”

Johnny’s so certain it will work, because things between you have always worked, and he can’t wait to see where this takes you. 

Ten

It’s been a week, but finally Johnny found time for that date night. Soonie is out with friends again, so it’s the perfect opportunity to get some alone time with the man who’s been on your mind constantly.

He picks you up in his old Dodge truck, compliments your outfit, and refuses to tell you where you’re going or what the plan is.

When you arrive back at his place, you’re honestly not even surprised. “Let me guess, you took me to the best chef in town?”

“You know all my lines, honey,” he grins. 

“So, chef, what’s on the menu?”

“I thought maybe you’d take a seat and let me cook for you.”

“As if I’d take a back seat,” you scoff. “What are we making?”

Johnny had made hand made fettucini before he’d come to pick you up. You let him take lead in making a white wine, garlic cream sauce with button mushrooms, spinach and crispy prosciutto, but you insist on being his sous chef and taking care of the chicken.

The smell is heavenly, and as he finishes it all off with fresh herbs, you think you start to drool a little.

“For a guy who claims to specialize in sandwiches of all things, you’re pretty good with italian,” you muse as you take your first bite and nearly moan.

“I’m pretty good with a lot of things,” Johnny laughs. 

“Look at you being all cocky.”

“You love it.”

He’s so right.

The two of you chat and laugh together while eating. It’s one of the best meals you’ve had in a very long time. When dinner is over, Johnny suggests a movie. As the two of you settle on the couch, he prompts you to come closer, and soon, the two of you are cuddled together as if it’s the most natural thing in the world.

He’s so warm and comforting- you find yourself dozing off a little, although, maybe it’s something of a food coma from all the pasta.

Johnny brings his lips to your ear, and you shiver when he asks, “Should I carry you to bed, honey?” 

Part of you wants to tell him you’re not Soonie and you won’t be calling him daddy any time soon- but another part of you wants to lean into this. It’s been so long since you felt like you could be babied, and if anyone is going to bring out that side of you, it’s going to be Johnny.

“Won’t I be too heavy?” you ask, cognizant of the stairs he’ll have to climb.

“Have you seen my arms? I won’t drop you, honey, I promise.”

You allow him to scoop you up, and you feel like a giggling school girl again as he takes you up to his room. “Do you have a shirt I could wear to sleep?” 

“Choose anything,” he tells you. “When you’re changed, you can join me in the bathroom, I went and got a toothbrush for you.”

Before you know it, you’re cuddled in Johnny’s bed, wearing panties and one of his big shirts. He’s pressed to your back, his mint tinged breath warm on the nape of your neck. There’s no pressure for sex, no pressure for anything other than the situation at hand, and you can tell you’re both very content with it. 

Soon, you’re drifting off to sleep in the arms of a man who’s been a cornerstone of your life.

It’s a deep, dreamless sleep, and it passes in the blink of an eye. You awaken to light beaming through his window, a warm body behind you, and something hard pressed against your ass.

You laugh to yourself- morning wood isn’t something men can help. Even so, you stir a little, adjusting to get more comfortable.

Johnny releases a sleepy groan.

You stay still, not wanting to wake him, but it feels like the damage is already done when he wraps you tighter in his embrace. “Morning,” he whispers, pressing a kiss to your shoulder.

“Hi,” you respond lightly.

Now it’s Johnny’s turn to shift, and you feel his body tense when he does so. “Fuck,” he goes to pull away, “sorry, I uh-”

“It’s okay,” you assure him, grabbing his forearm so he can’t move away, “keep cuddling me.”

Johnny returns, flush against your back, his hard cock pressing even more firmly to your ass.

“Are you sure you’re alright with this?” he asks.

“More than okay with it.”

“Yeah?” He leans forward, pressing his lips to your throat. “Are you okay with this, too?” Johnny mumbles, his hot breath fanning across your skin.

“Uh huh,” you sigh, wiggling your bum back against him and arching your neck to give him better access.

His hand finds your hip, gently squeezing you through the shirt you’re wearing. His lips are soft against you, but there’s a need in his motions too, and he begins to grind against your ass.

You let out a groan when he finds the sweet spot just below your ear, and he licks at it, making you moan louder.

“Are we going to do this?” he asks, nipping at your earlobe.

“Fuck it, yes.” You can’t hold back anymore, you turn in his embrace, quickly mounting him and smashing your lips to his own.

Johnny grins into the kiss, holding your hips while you settle on top of him, grinding down against his clothed cock while your tongues begin to clash.

His kisses have you seeing stars, your mind going blank except for him.

Soon, his hands slip under your shirt, slowly grazing up your sides. “Can I take this off of you?” he asks.

You open your eyes to look down at him, studying his pretty lips and his chocolate eyes. 

Instead of responding, you sit up, grabbing the hem of the oversized T and lifting it over your head, tossing it to the side and baring yourself to your best friend for the first time.

“Fuck,” Johnny groans, gaze falling to your tits. His hands stay at a respectable location on your hips, and you grab one to lift it to your breast, adding pressure so he knows he’s allowed to give you a test squeeze.

Johnny begins to massage you, and you throw your head back, releasing a groan, swiveling your hips against him.

His thumb brushes over your hardened nipple and you mewl loudly, core throbbing from the stimulus.

“You’re so beautiful,” he whispers, propping himself up so he can take your nipple into his mouth.

You cup the back of his head, keeping him on your chest while he worships you. His other hand finds your neglected breast, gently pinching and massaging while he sucks on your sensitive bud.

“John-” You don’t even know what to say, you’re entirely wrapped up in him. 

You’ve never felt a feral need like this before, but it’s not necessarily the primal type of drive. Instead, it’s a feeling of wanting to be close to this man- who you’ve been next to for so many years, but unable to touch. 

Except, he’s touching you now, and you want more. 

Johnny pulls away from your breasts, cupping the back of your head and drawing your lips to his again. “We should take our clothes off,” he suggests.

“That’s the best idea you’ve had all week,” you laugh. 

He helps you off of him, and you lay next to each other for a moment, both fumbling to get naked. As soon as you’re fully nude, Johnny rolls on top of you, slotting between your thighs. His lips find yours again, and his free hand trails down your body, teasing through your pussy lips.

“You’re already so wet,” he muses.

“I’ve wanted this for a long time,” you admit.

“Me too,” he assures you, capturing your mouth with his own while he teases a finger into your hole. You push your hips up, wanting more, and you latch onto his strong shoulders, moaning into the kiss.

Johnny’s a big man, and his finger is enough to have you wriggling below him. “Easy, honey,” he grins, looking down at you with eyes full of adoration. “Gotta stretch you open.”

“Fuck,” you groan- does this man read erotica in his spare time? How is a thirty year old, single dad, this well versed in dirty talk even though you’re pretty sure he hasn’t been laid in forever?

He adds a second finger, curling them to find your gspot. As he pumps his hand, lips pressed to yours in a mad frenzy, you can hear your wetness with each motion. 

It feels unreal- have fingers alone ever done a number like this on you?

Johnny twists his hand a little, knuckles dragging along your sensitive inner walls. It’s like he’s trying to carve out a space for his cock, although, you know now that this won’t be enough. He’s thick and throbbing on your hip, his length so large you think he might just blow your entire back out when he slips it into you.

Even though you’re eager to be - for lack of a better word - impaled on him, Johnny takes his time kissing you, his fingers continuing their motions. “Wanna rub your clit for me?” he asks, moving his mouth to your neck. “I want to watch you cum.”

Your toes curl at his words, and you bring your hand to your pussy, drawing circles on the sensitive bud while he continues to stroke your inner walls.

Your core throbs around him, whimpers of pleasure escaping you. 

“You’re being so good for me, honey,” Johnny tells you, making your insides flutter even more from the sincere words of praise.

Cumming hasn’t always been the easiest thing in the world for you. There are many partners you’ve had who never had the wherewithal to get you there- but somehow, Johnny just knows you. Or maybe, it’s because he knows you- because you feel safe with him, that you feel yourself getting closer and closer to the edge.

It also helps that it’s your own fingers on your clit, you know exactly what you like, what pressure, what motions- the digits working you open are just an added bonus that have you seeing stars as you make your way to your peak.

“John,” you gasp, tits pushing up toward his chest when your back arches. “I’m gonna-”

“Let it out for me,” he encourages you softly. “You deserve it.”

“I deserve your cock,” you whine, shocked at your own blatant neediness.

Johnny only laughs. “After,” he assures you, “I promise.”

A few more circles of your clit has the cord in your stomach snapping, your orgasm washing over your like warm summer waves. Your entire body tingles with delight, gasps leaving you as your pussy fully throbs around his fingers, your clit pulsing with desire.

“So pretty,” he whispers, bringing his lips to yours.

From the way he smiles against your mouth, you can tell he doesn’t care that you’re moaning so much he can hardly kiss you.

It’s a closeness you’ve never felt before, and he helps you through your orgasm until you’re pulling your hand away in favour of grabbing his shoulders.

Johnny takes his fingers out of your core, and you watch under hooded eyelids as he brings them to his lips, sucking them clean and releasing a groan. “Everything you do tastes better than what I bring to the table.”

You laugh. He’s such a fucking chef.

“Some might even say it’s…” you stifle a giggle, “Finger licking good.” 

Johnny lets out a laugh, eyes lighting up. God, you love this soft, laughter infused sex- you’ve never experienced anything like it.

You grab the back of his neck, drawing his mouth to your own. You can taste yourself on his tongue, and there’s something so erotic about it. He moans loudly, rubbing his cock between your wet pussy lips.

The tip of his cock is stimulating your clit and it sends jitters through you. You can feel how soaked you are, and you wouldn’t be surprised if this ended with a wet patch on his bed from how turned on you’ve been throughout this whole experience.

Johnny seems intent with grinding against you, but you’re lacking patience today, and you reach between your bodies to grab his cock.

Johnny breaks the kiss, pressing his forehead against yours and looking down at where you’re gripping him. He doesn’t say anything, his gaze shifting back to your own. There’s a question in his eyes, and you’re both aware that this is the final line. Once you cross this, there’s no going back.

You bring his cock to your wet hole, and with very little effort, you help guide the head of his cock inside of you.

“Fuck,” Johnny groans immediately, fists bunching at the pillow on either side of your head. “You’re so tight- are you sure you’re good with this?”

“You’re just- fuck,” you whimper as another inch sinks into you, “you’re just big!”

“Maybe you’ll have to get used to it,” he grins, pushing deeper.

You moan loudly, clawing at his shoulders. “Maybe I will,” you gasp. 

He brings his mouth close to your own, until your lips are just brushing, eyes meeting when he says, “I’m looking forward to it.”

As he kisses you, he pushes fully into your warm, wet, throbbing core. His hips are flush to your own, and you swear no one’s ever been this deep inside of you.

Your legs shake on either side of his hips, body suspended in this odd purgatory-like place between extreme pleasure, and an uncomfortable feeling of being stretched more than you’ve ever been stretched before.

“Are you good?” he asks, lips moving to your cheek while you struggle to aclimatize to his cock.

“Yeah,” you nod quickly. “Just- fuck me, it will be easier.”

“If you say so, honey.”

The first thrust has your toes curling, eyes clenching shut with pleasure. A sound that’s never come from you before leaves your lips- a sound you’ve heard in porn, but always thought was an overexpression.

Your fingers dig into Johnny’s shoulders, and he holds you close, mouth finding your neck while he begins to fuck you.

Although, would this be called fucking?

The fluidity of his motions- the way you’re clinging to each other- it feels more like making love, and your skin tingles with the realization.

“Johnny?” you whisper.

“Yeah?”

“Tell me you love me again, like you did when you were drunk.”

“I love you,” he says immediately, holding you even tighter. “I love you so much that sometimes it hurts.”

Your entire body both relaxes and is set on fire by his words, your core throbbing desperately around his massive cock. 

“Johnny-” you whimper.

“Tell me you love me too,” he pleads.

“I love you too,” you whisper, threading your fingers through his hair and bringing his face close to yours so you can look up into his eyes. “I love you too.” 

Johnny’s hand finds your thigh, hiking it higher on his hip. Somehow, he hits even deeper now, and you wriggle below him, more sounds of pleasure escaping you and filling the room.

“You sound so good, honey- I won’t last if you keep squeezing me and moaning-”

“Then don’t last,” you gasp. “Want you to cum.”

“Where should I cum?”

“Inside- I’m on birth control, just- fuck, Johnny, cum inside.”

He groans, pressing his mouth firmly to your own, his tongue dancing along yours as his motions get even faster.

You’re clinging to him for dear life at this point, and when he slips a hand between your bodies to rub your clit, you nearly begin to cry from how good it feels.

“Love the way your pussy sucks me in when we play with your clit,” he tells you. 

Fuck, fuck, fuck-

“Do you think you can cum for me again? I don’t want to be the only one cumming.”

“Yeah, yeah- fuck, yeah, I can cum again,” you whimper desperately.

“Let me know when,” he instructs, adjusting his motions ever so slightly so each thrust has his cock dragging against your gspot.

You let out a squeal of delight, your thighs shaking around his hips, stomach muscles clenching almost painfully-

“Fuck, John, I’m there- shit, fuck-”

Johnny shuts you up with his lips against your own, and for a second time, your orgasm hits you.

Your core clamps down incredibly hard on his cock, and Johnny groans deeply above you, fingers twitching on your clit. He keeps his pace, and a moment later, you feel his cum filling you up, coating your walls with warmth.

The feeling of his large length throbbing in your own oversensitive hole has your entire mind going fuzzy, and you kiss him like a woman lost, like a woman so completely in love that nothing else matters.

You ride out your orgasms together, until you’re both shaking. Only then does Johnny come to a stop on top of you, kisses turning to a more gentle nature as he holds you close. 

“I love you,” he tells you again.

You smile, blinking up at your best friend. “And I love you.”

Epilogue

The two of you are in the kitchen cooking brunch. Johnny is pressed to your back, watching intently, asking all sorts of questions about how you cook eggs to make them so delicious and superior to his own.

“The secret ingredient is love,” you tease.

Johnny can only laugh, holding you tighter.

He’s so lost in you, that he loses track of time, and as the two of you are sitting down to eat, Soonbok walks through the front door. She stops in her tracks when she sees you, letting her little overnight bag slip to the ground.

“Oh, hi, baby,” Johnny stands up immediately.

“Hi, daddy,” Soonie says, allowing her dad to pick her up for a hug while her eyes shift to you.

“Did Sabrina’s mom drop you off?” Johnny asks, looking out the door to wave at Soonie’s friend’s mom as she drives away.

“As always, daddy,” Soonie laughs. “I didn’t know y/n was coming over.”

“Surprise,” you grin, also standing so that when Johnny sets his daughter to the ground, she can run to give you a hug of your own.

Once Soonie is done squeezing you as tight as her little arms can muster, she looks between you and Johnny. For some reason, Johnny feels his heart beginning to race, there’s a knowing in his daughters eyes.

“What’s going on?” Soonie asks finally.

“Y/N and I just had a little sleep over,” Johnny tries to explain, and the concept isn’t a new one, you sleep over frequently… in the guest bedroom.

“So…” a wicked grin appears on Soonbok’s face, “Does this mean you’ll stop trying to get me to call her auntie now?”

“What?” Johnny lets out a surprised laugh.

“You heard me, daddy,” Soonbok’s smile widens. “Does this… does this mean we’ll be a real family now?”

Johnny lets out a shuddery breath. In the years you’ve been helping raise Soonbok, Johnny has broached the idea of her calling you Auntie Y/N, as a respect thing, and his daughter has always refused. Had she seen the connection this whole time? Has this been something Soonbok has wanted ever since she was a five year old with an inquisitive mind and an even more discerning eye?

Johnny’s gaze shifts to you, and you flash him a warm smile.

“Yeah, baby,” Johnny picks up his daughter. “We can be a real family now.”

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🔮 preview. The man ordering can’t see you lying on the floor of the food truck. He has no idea what’s going on- and you feel like tempting fate a little. You bring your hand to your pussy, beginning to rub yourself through your pants, adjusting the vibrator ever so slightly as it buzzes inside you. Johnny nearly drops the tomato he’s holding, quickly tearing his gaze from yours. You’ve never seen him trying to focus this hard- and failing. What had been your torture initially, has just become his own, and you kind of love it.

cw/ tw. Unprotected sex, exhibitionism (fucking in a food truck), use of vibrator while helping a customer, vibrator as a makeshift gag ball, breast worship, fucking with half your clothes on, fingering, multiple reader orgasms, big dick Johnny, pussy stretching, dirty talk, praise, breeding kink, etc…   I petnames. (hers) honey

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🌙 starring. Johnny x afab!Reader

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You love working with Johnny. Sure, it had been rough at first, getting his food truck on its feet, but it’s been two years, and with some insanely good marketing, you’re now running one of the top trucks in the city.

It’s a joy to watch Johnny fulfill his dreams every day- his odd obsession with sandwiches of all things has only added to your connection. Watching him smile and charm guests makes your heart swell with joy, and on the rare occasion Soonie comes to do the register and take orders, it feels like you’re just one happy family.

Today, however, is a weather disaster. The forcast had mentioned light sprinkles, but cuddled next to Johnny looking out at the torrential downpour, you both feel a little bamboozled.

“You know what would make this more fun?” Johnny asks.

“Customers?” you suggest.

“Yes, but also… I got you something.” The chef flashes you a sly smirk, and you pull away from his shoulder to asses him.

“Am I going to like where this is going?” you ask.

He was single for so long- and there’d been so many sexual things he’d missed out on during that time, but the two of you are making up for it every moment you have alone. You suppose this is a moment alone, so you’re not really shocked that his mind is in the gutter.

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DRABBLES

|poison in my mind| idol!Jisung x afab older stylist Reader, 5.8k, smut

|Sit Down!| idol!Jaemin x afab Reader, 2.3k, smut

|road snacks| Haechan x afab Reader, 1.6k, smut

|scent| Jaehyun x afab Reader, 1.5k, smut

|Vibration| dilf!Mark Lee x afab Reader, 2.9k, smut

|of grocery lists and spilled (oat) milk| Mark Lee x afab Reader, 3.2k, fluff

|Grenade| toxic!Mark Lee x afab Reader (ft Hyuck), 3.1k, smut, angst

|sunflower dreams| Haechan x afab Reader, 3k, smut

|blue to orange| Jaehyun x afab Reader x Jaemin, 7.6k, smut

|i miss you more than i loved you| idolverse!Jaehyun x Johnny, 3.4k, angst

|Dive| religious!Doyoung x afab Reader (ft the rest of djj), 8.9k, smut

|was it ever really love| toxic!Taeyong x afab Reader (ft other neos), 1.7k, smut

|cookin' get dirty| chef!Mark Lee x afab Reader (ft Jeno), 3.7k, smut

xx serenity

[neoposh]

masterlist

Here you can find every work that I particularly enjoyed. All right to the authors, and a special thanks to them for the masterpieces they created for my slutty ass to be satisfied. I appreciate.

 NAVIGATION —

⤿ NCT DREAM

Netflix and Fuck part1 🠒Jeno & Jaemin x Reader 🙒 @jenoismydad

Netflix and Fuck part2 🠒 00′ line & Mark x Reader 🙒 @jenoismydad

Hot Sauce intro, Part1, Part2, Part3, Part4, Deeply Dip That, Can You Handle It? 🠒 00′ line x fem!reader 🙒 @neopuppy​

Universe Let’s Play Ball 🠒 Jeno, Haechan, Jaemin, Yangyang, Jungwoo x fem!reader 🙒 @neopuppy​  

smashing the six the short stop 🠒 Jeno x fem!reader 🙒 @yutaholic 

smashing the six the point guard 🠒 Haechan x fem!reader 🙒 @yutaholic 

smashing the six the left wing 🠒 Mark x fem!reader 🙒 @yutaholic 

the quiet boy has a big dick?! Part1, Part2 🠒 Jisung x fem!reader 🙒 @johnsuhsposts​

Dive Into You Intro, Part1, Part2, Part3, Part4, Final  🠒 brothers!Jeno/Haechan x fem!reader  🙒 @neopuppy

Quiet Down Part1, Part2, Part3, Part4, Part5, Part6, Part7, Part8, Part9, Epilogue 🠒 Renjun/Haechan x fem!reader  @neobubz​

Switch (prequel), Chain (sequel) 🠒 Johnny & Jeno x fem!reader 🙒 @neopuppy​ 

⤿ NCT 127 (Mark and Haechan links are on NCT DREAM or in their single names)

Universe Let’s Play Ball 🠒 Jeno, Haechan, Jaemin, Yangyang, Jungwoo x fem!reader 🙒 @neopuppy​ 

smashing the six the center forward 🠒 Yuta x fem!reader 🙒 @yutaholic​

smashing the six the middle blocker 🠒 Johnny x fem!reader 🙒 @yutaholic 

smashing the six the tight end 🠒 Jaehyun x fem!reader 🙒 @yutaholic

Switch (prequel), Chain (sequel) 🠒 Johnny & Jeno x fem!reader 🙒 @neopuppy

⤿ WAYV

Universe Let’s Play Ball 🠒 Jeno, Haechan, Jaemin, Yangyang, Jungwoo x fem!reader 🙒 @neopuppy​   

⤿ ENHYPEN​

Mixed Up: One, Two, Three, Four, Five 🠒 Heeseung & Sunghoon x fem!reader 🙒 @heeseungsslutsworld

SILENCED Chapter 1, Chapter 2, Chapter 3 🠒 Enhypen x fem!reader (not completely smut but there’s something... just read it cause it’s chef kisses) 🙒 @heesdreamer​  

more to be added... 🙒

⤿ MARK

rainy day 🠒 00′ line + Mark x fem!reader 🙒 @moonlit-jeno

Netflix and Fuck part2 🠒 00′ line & Mark x Reader 🙒 @jenoismydad

smashing the six the left wing 🠒 Mark x fem!reader 🙒 @yutaholic 

A MOVIE OF OUR OWN 🠒 00′ line x reader ft. Mark 🙒 @neochan​ 

⤿ RENJUN

Burning Jealousy 🠒 dom!renjun x reader 🙒 @jenonctcity​

rainy day 🠒 00′ line + Mark x fem!reader 🙒 @moonlit-jeno​ 

Netflix and Fuck part2 🠒 00′ line & Mark x Reader 🙒 @jenoismydad

Huang Renjun and the MUGGLEBORN ​ 🠒 pureblood ravenclaw!renjun x muggleborn ravenclaw!y/n  🙒 @taeghi​

One Foot in the Golden Life  🠒 rich kid!renjun x caddie!reader 🙒 @nsheetee​ 

Hot Sauce intro, Part1, Part2, Part3, Part4, Deeply Dip That, Can You Handle It? 🠒 00′ line x fem!reader 🙒 @neopuppy​ 

A MOVIE OF OUR OWN 🠒 00′ line x reader ft. Mark 🙒 @neochan 

Quiet Down Part1, Part2, Part3, Part4, Part5, Part6, Part7, Part8, Part9, Epilogue 🠒 Renjun/Haechan x fem!reader @neobubz​ 

bitch hunters high-waisted shorts 🠒 Renjun x fem!reader 🙒 @tyonfs​

⤿ JENO

Would You Rather...🠒 Lee Jeno x fem!reader 🙒 @sm-entertain-me

rainy day 🠒 00′ line + Mark x fem!reader 🙒 @moonlit-jeno​

Netflix and Fuck part1 🠒Jeno & Jaemin x Reader 🙒 @jenoismydad

Netflix and Fuck part2 🠒 00′ line & Mark x Reader 🙒 @jenoismydad

Stronger 🠒 Jeno & Jaemin x fem!reader 🙒 @neopuppy​ 

Hot Sauce intro, Part1, Part2, Part3, Part4, Deeply Dip That, Can You Handle It? 🠒 00′ line x fem!reader 🙒 @neopuppy​ 

Universe Let’s Play Ball 🠒 Jeno, Haechan, Jaemin, Yangyang, Jungwoo x fem!reader 🙒 @neopuppy​   

HUSH, HUSH. 🠒 Jeno, Haechan, Jaemin x fem!reader 🙒 @domjaehyun​

smashing the six the short stop 🠒 Jeno x fem!reader 🙒 @yutaholic 

A MOVIE OF OUR OWN 🠒 00′ line x reader ft. Mark 🙒 @neochan 

Dive Into You Intro, Part1, Part2, Part3, Part4, Final 🠒 brothers!Jeno/Haechan x fem!reader 🙒 @neopuppy 

can you handle it? 🠒 Jonny, Jaehyun, Jeno, Jaemin x fem!reader 🙒 @neowinestainedress 

Switch (prequel), Chain (sequel) 🠒 Johnny & Jeno x fem!reader 🙒 @neopuppy 

bitch hunters netflix and chill 🠒 Jeno x fem!reader 🙒 @tyonfs​ 

rock, paper, scissor 🠒 Johnny, Jaehyun, Jeno, Jaemin x fem!reader 🙒 @neowinestainedress

⤿ HAECHAN

rainy day 🠒 00′ line + Mark x fem!reader 🙒 @moonlit-jeno​ 

Netflix and Fuck part2 🠒 00′ line & Mark x Reader 🙒 @jenoismydad

Hot Sauce intro, Part1, Part2, Part3, Part4, Deeply Dip That, Can You Handle It? 🠒 00′ line x fem!reader 🙒 @neopuppy​ 

Universe Let’s Play Ball 🠒 Jeno, Haechan, Jaemin, Yangyang, Jungwoo x fem!reader 🙒 @neopuppy​   

HUSH, HUSH. 🠒 Jeno, Haechan, Jaemin x fem!reader 🙒 @domjaehyun​ 

the right one. 🠒 bestfriend!hyuck x reader 🙒 @starryhyuck​ 

make it fit  🠒 bestfriend!hyuck x reader 🙒 @haechaninmyheart​ 

smashing the six the point guard 🠒 Haechan x fem!reader 🙒 @yutaholic​

A MOVIE OF OUR OWN 🠒 00′ line x reader ft. Mark 🙒 @neochan 

SMILE FOR THE CAMERA 🠒 Haechan & Jisung x fem!reader 🙒 @lisired​

Dive Into You Intro, Part1, Part2, Part3, Part4, Final 🠒 brothers!Jeno/Haechan x fem!reader 🙒 @neopuppy 

paperclip 🠒 ex-fwb!haechan & new-bf!jaehyun x afab!reader  🙒 @smileysuh​

Quiet Down Part1, Part2, Part3, Part4, Part5, Part6, Part7, Part8, Part9, Epilogue 🠒 Renjun/Haechan x fem!reader @neobubz​ 

bitch hunters and they were roommates 🠒Haechan x fem!reader 🙒 @tyonfs​

⤿ JAEMIN

a hundred dollars 🠒 enemy!jaemin x fem!reader 🙒 @longassride

rainy day 🠒 00′ line + Mark x fem!reader 🙒 @moonlit-jeno​ 

Netflix and Fuck part1 🠒Jeno & Jaemin x Reader 🙒 @jenoismydad

Netflix and Fuck part2 🠒 00′ line & Mark x Reader 🙒 @jenoismydad

Stronger 🠒 Jeno & Jaemin x fem!reader 🙒 @neopuppy​   

Hot Sauce intro, Part1, Part2, Part3, Part4, Deeply Dip That, Can You Handle It? 🠒 00′ line x fem!reader 🙒 @neopuppy​ 

Universe Let’s Play Ball 🠒 Jeno, Haechan, Jaemin, Yangyang, Jungwoo x fem!reader 🙒 @neopuppy​   

HUSH, HUSH. 🠒 Jeno, Haechan, Jaemin x fem!reader 🙒 @domjaehyun​ 

A MOVIE OF OUR OWN 🠒 00′ line x reader ft. Mark 🙒 @neochan 

GO 🠒 alpha!jaemin x omega!reader 🙒 @neopuppy​

can you handle it? 🠒 Jonny, Jaehyun, Jeno, Jaemin x fem!reader 🙒 @neowinestainedress 

bitch hunters besties (gone sexual) 🠒 Jaemin x fem!reader 🙒 @tyonfs​

rock, paper, scissor 🠒 Johnny, Jaehyun, Jeno, Jaemin x fem!reader 🙒 @neowinestainedress ​

⤿ CHENLE something will be coming, dk if it’ll be smut... 🙒

⤿ JISUNG

SMILE FOR THE CAMERA 🠒 Haechan & Jisung x fem!reader 🙒 @lisired​

MORE THAN I SHOULD  🠒 dom!jisung x fem!reader 🙒 @dollyji​

Never Have I Ever  🠒 camboy!jisung x fem!reader 🙒 @iced-nct​ 

the quiet boy has a big dick?! Part1, Part2 🠒 Jisung x fem!reader 🙒 @johnsuhsposts

⤿ TAEIL coming soon... 🙒

⤿ JOHNNY

smashing the six the middle blocker 🠒 Johnny x fem!reader 🙒 @yutaholic​

can you handle it? 🠒 Jonny, Jaehyun, Jeno, Jaemin x fem!reader 🙒 @neowinestainedress 

Switch (prequel), Chain (sequel) 🠒 Johnny & Jeno x fem!reader 🙒 @neopuppy 

rock, paper, scissor 🠒 Johnny, Jaehyun, Jeno, Jaemin x fem!reader 🙒 @neowinestainedress

⤿ TAEYONG coming soon... 🙒

⤿ YUTA

smashing the six the center forward 🠒 Yuta x fem!reader 🙒 @yutaholic-main​

dress code 🠒 professor!yuta x student!reader 🙒 @lisired​ 

⤿ DOYOUNG coming soon... 🙒

⤿ JAEHYUN

smashing the six the tight end 🠒 Jaehyun x fem!reader 🙒 @yutaholic-main​

can you handle it? 🠒 Jonny, Jaehyun, Jeno, Jaemin x fem!reader 🙒 @neowinestainedress 

paperclip 🠒 ex-fwb!haechan & new-bf!jaehyun x afab!reader 🙒 @smileysuh​ 

rock, paper, scissor 🠒 Johnny, Jaehyun, Jeno, Jaemin x fem!reader 🙒 @neowinestainedress 

Trick? Or Treat? 🠒 switch(?)jaehyun x sub!reader 🙒 @127kive​

break up with your boyfriend, i’m bored  🠒 Jaehyun x fem!reader  🙒 @johnsuhsposts​ 

⤿ JUNGWOO

Universe Let’s Play Ball 🠒 Jeno, Haechan, Jaemin, Yangyang, Jungwoo x fem!reader 🙒 @neopuppy​  

⤿ MARK — every link is on the NCT DREAM category...

⤿ HAECHAN — every link is on the NCT DREAM category...

⤿ KUN coming soon... 🙒

⤿ LUCAS coming soon... 🙒

⤿ TEN coming soon... 🙒

⤿ WINWIN coming soon... 🙒

⤿ XIAOJUN coming soon... 🙒

⤿ HENDERY coming soon... 🙒

⤿ YANGYANG

Universe Let’s Play Ball 🠒 Jeno, Haechan, Jaemin, Yangyang, Jungwoo x fem!reader 🙒 @neopuppy​   

After Midnight 🠒 Yangyang x fem!reader 🙒 @neopuppy​ 

⤿ SUNGCHAN coming soon... 🙒

⤿ SHOTARO coming soon... 🙒

⤿ BAEKHYUN coming soon... 🙒

⤿ CHANYEOL coming soon... 🙒

⤿ KEEHO coming soon... 🙒

⤿ THEO coming soon... 🙒

⤿ JIUNG

ALL MINE 🠒 boyfriend’s bestfriend!jiung x afab!reader 🙒 @n1cholaswang

⤿ HEESUNG

Mixed Up: One, Two, Three, Four, Five 🠒 Heeseung & Sunghoon x fem!reader 🙒 @heeseungsslutsworld 

sharing is caring 🠒 Heeseung & Jay x fem!reader 🙒 @jencvnt 

swallow 🠒 Heeseung x fem!reader 🙒 @yoursjaeyun​

GAME OVER! 🠒 Heeseung x fem!reader  🙒 @svnoohe4rts

SILENCED Chapter 1, Chapter 2, Chapter 3 🠒 Enhypen x fem!reader (not completely smut but there’s something... just read it cause it’s chef kisses) 🙒 @heesdreamer ​

⤿ JAY

tutor for sex math 🠒 tutor!jay x engineering student!afab!reader 🙒 @hee-pster​

sharing is caring 🠒 Heeseung & Jay x fem!reader 🙒 @jencvnt

the boys next door hard 🠒 Sunghoon & Jay x fem!reader 🙒 @drunkhazed 

PRE BREAKFAST 🠒 Jay x fem!reader 🙒 @heetro​

SILENCED Chapter 1, Chapter 2, Chapter 3 🠒 Enhypen x fem!reader (not completely smut but there’s something... just read it cause it’s chef kisses) 🙒 @heesdreamer  

⤿ JAKE (smut coming soon)

SILENCED Chapter 1, Chapter 2, Chapter 3 🠒 Enhypen x fem!reader (not completely smut but there’s something... just read it cause it’s chef kisses) 🙒 @heesdreamer

⤿ SUNGHOON

ROSES ARE DEAD 🠒 Sunghoon x fem!reader ft. Jake & Jay 🙒 @heetr​

Mixed Up: One, Two, Three, Four, Five 🠒 Heeseung & Sunghoon x fem!reader 🙒 @heeseungsslutsworld 

the boys next door hard 🠒 Sunghoon & Jay x fem!reader 🙒 @drunkhazed​

love me, hate me 🠒 Sunghoon x fem!reader 🙒 @jaeyunsz

afterparty 🠒 Sunghoon x fem!reader 🙒 @heeseungrr​

DEEP END 🠒 Sunghoon x fem!reader 🙒 @robyn-core​

Cabin fever 🠒 boyfriend!sunghoon x girlfriend!reader 🙒 @rosesbxrry​

SILENCED Chapter 1, Chapter 2, Chapter 3 🠒 Enhypen x fem!reader (not completely smut but there’s something... just read it cause it’s chef kisses) 🙒 @heesdreamer  

⤿ SUNOO (dk if I’ll add smut about him)

SILENCED Chapter 1, Chapter 2, Chapter 3 🠒 Enhypen x fem!reader (not completely smut but there’s something... just read it cause it’s chef kisses) 🙒 @heesdreamer

⤿ JUNGWON (smut might be coming soon)

SILENCED Chapter 1, Chapter 2, Chapter 3 🠒 Enhypen x fem!reader (not completely smut but there’s something... just read it cause it’s chef kisses) 🙒 @heesdreamer​

⤿ NIKI (no smut, we love minors)

SILENCED Chapter 1, Chapter 2, Chapter 3 🠒 Enhypen x fem!reader (not completely smut but there’s something... just read it cause it’s chef kisses) 🙒 @heesdreamer

coming soon... 🙒

[missmaywemeetagain]

Dear Miss Madisyn,

What makes Elementary superior to the Cumberbatch Sherlock for you?

a fellow television enthusiast...

norah

PS X-Files was my first grown up appointment TV show....

My Darlin' Dearest Norah,

I want to preface this by saying I do like BBC Sherlock because I know there are some pretty intense camps out there on both sides and I don't want anyone coming for me lol. I definitely think there is room for both in the canon. I will also say it has been quite a while since I watched the BBC version, so make of that what you will...

However, I prefer Elementary for a few reasons:

One, while I think the highly stylistic "movie" sort of quality to the BBC version is interesting, it gives Sherlock this sort of superhero-esque quality that makes him so "other" it's hard to relate to him in any way. Like I think he's cool in an objective way, but I don't really like him much or find him very redeemable. And the attitude around him is kind of like, "Well, that's just Sherlock! He's just a brilliant asshole!" and it just...stays that way.

(Now don't get me wrong, I love all the actors in both versions for a multitude of different reasons! But the writing lends itself to highly different interpretations from an actor's perspective.)

I prefer the realism of Elementary more. I absolutely love the characterization of both Sherlock and Joan. They feel like dynamic, flawed but redeemable characters who are fleshed out in most every way. They learn and grow and change in crucial ways throughout the series. Sherlock's behavior and neurodivergency are explained but not used as cop-outs or excuses for his not-so-nice treatment of people. He faces very real consequences in his relationships because of it and because of his drug addiction, but the key difference is that he figures out he wants to do better, especially for the people he comes to care deeply for. He tries, in his weird Sherlock way, to connect, because he starts to realize that yes, he is brilliant, but his actions affect others, and that being totally alone is not all it's cracked up to be. And Joan is very much her own person who struggles with her own issues and relationships with people and with the direction she wants her life to go. She (unwillingly at first) learns these new things about how to look at the world and how to help people in a different way, and she doesn't take a backseat to Sherlock. After the first season, she becomes a true partner to him, not a sidekick, and I really appreciate that.

Part of it is there is just more time over 7 traditional seasons to explore character arc, versus the wonky "we put seasons out whenever it works for us" way of BBC. The nuances are much more developed over time in a more natural way for Elementary.

Not to mention that the gender-bending in Elementary is just *chef's kiss*. They did it so well, you'd hardly know it was any other way!

Back to character, I just think Johnny Lee Miller knocked that role completely out of the park. He was absolutely stunning in playing those subtle changes and emotional moments and showing Sherlock's growth over time. He was multi-dimensional and it made his growth heartbreaking and lovely. He should've won a million Emmy's for that performance. And honestly, as much as I like Benedict (and I do), I truly think Johnny is the better actor overall (side note--if you ever get a chance, watch both versions of the Frankenstein production that they did together for the National Theatre in London, where they switch roles, both playing the monster and Dr. F for different performances. It's brilliant! But I do think Johnny is much better as the monster. 😊) And Lucy Liu is just a badass and I love her, too, and the chemistry between them is just awesome. They play those comic moments so well, too.

And I'm not gonna lie, I'm 100% a Sherlock x Joan shipper, and the writing in Elementary was fantastic in this way, because it left it open enough for the audience to decide for themselves what kind of love we were dealing with there. But the shippy moments were soooo good, imo. You named a bee after me? We're just two people who love each other... Come ON. Beautiful. Fabulous. Fantastic. And the ending? I wept.

I also think Elementary dealt with the addiction piece much much much better. The realism of going to AA, dealing with the fallout of relationships, relapses, the ongoing challenge of always being an addict was just so much more poignant without being a crutch. Similar thoughts about how the neurodivergency and PTSD were handled.

Anyway, I could probably go on, but this is long enough already! TL;DR: I just think Elementary is better in all the ways: writing, acting, arcs, relationships...LOL

Thanks for the ask, my dearest!!

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Fictional Other (F/O) Imagines: +18, no names, they/them only.

Now that that's out of the way, here's the list of fandoms and characters i'm familiar with and will happily take requests on! (you can request others from these fandoms, but it will prob take me longer)

FNAF Movie: Vanessa, Mike, William/Steve. Turning Red: Ming Lee, Jin Lee. YOU: Joe, Love, Beck, Peach. Encanto: Isabela, Bruno, Dolores, Julieta. Regular Show: Mordecai, Margret, Eileen, CJ, Benson. (Human Ver) Attack on Titan: Armin, Eren, Mikasa, Sasha, Levi, Hanji, Annie, Historia, Reiner, Erwin. BNA: Michiru, Shirou. Stardew Valley: All Adult Humans. Total Drama: All S1 Contestants, Chris, Chef, Blainley. SheRa: All Adults (Except Rogelio) King Of The Hill: Hank, Peggy, Luanne, Nancy, Dale, John Redcorn, Kahn, Min. Shameless: Lip, Fiona, Kev, V, Tony. Riverdale: FP Jones, Jughead, Veronica, Hiram, Betty. Creepypasta: Ben, Jeff, Jane, Eyeless Jack, Laughing Jack, Slenderman, Masky, Hoodie, Toby, X Virus, Nina, Clockwork, Splendorman, Kate. Gravity Falls: Stan, Ford, Soos, Giffany Steven Universe: Jasper, Amethyst, Blue Diamond, Peridot, Lapis, Garnet, Rose, Bismuth, Greg. Adventure Time/Fiona and Cake: Princess Bubblegum, Marceline, Marshall Lee, Winter King, Candy Queen, Simon, Ice King, Fiona. COD: Konig, Ghost, Mace, Keegan, Krueger, Valeria. Desperate Housewives: Bree, Gabby, Edie, Mike, Lynette. DC: Batman, Harley, Joker, Ivy, Lex Luthor (Jesse Eisenburg). Slashers & DBD: Brahms, Ghostface (general), Michael Myers, Jason Vorhees, Pyramid Head, The Spirit, Wraith, Huntress, Trapper, The Trickster, Pearl, Carrie White, Jennifer Check, Stu Matcher, Billy Loomis, Tiffany Valentine, Thomas Hewitt, Bubba Sawyer, Bo Sinclair, Vincent Sinclair, Eric Draven. Nintendo: Link, Zelda, Peach, Daisy, Rosalina, Luigi, Waluigi, Bowser. Squid Games: Gi-Hun, Sae-Byeok, Ali, Sang Woo. Rick and Morty: Rick, Beth, Jerry. Stranger Things: Robin, Billy, Eddie, Chrissy, Hopper. Bee & Puppycat: Bee, Deckard, Cass, Toast. Princess & The Frog: Shadow Man, Tiana, Lottie, Naveen. Ratatouille: Collette, Linguini. The Nanny: CC, Fran, Maxwell. Full House: Danny, Jesse, Joey. BigBang Theory: Raj, Leonard, Amy, Penny. Spiderverse: Miguel, Hobie, Jessica Drew. Black Dynamite: Honeybee, Black Dynamite. Breaking Bad: Skylar, Jesse, Walter. National Treasure: Benjamin Gates, Riley Poole. Superstore: Jonah, Amy, Dina, Cheyenne. Spongebob: Man Ray, Dennis. Tangeled: Flynn, Rapunzel, Mother Gothell. Elemental: Wade, Ember. Lisa Frankenstein: Lisa, Creature, Taffy. Jane the Virgin: Jane, Michael, Rogelio, Petra, Xiomara, Rose, Luisa. Young Sheldon: Mary, Connie. Twilight: Edward, Carlisle, Alice, Charlie. Bistro Huddy: All Staff Members, Poppy. WWE: Rhea Ripley, Roman Reigns. American Animals: Evan Peters (Warren), Barry Keoghan (Spencer). The Batman (2022): Batman, Riddler. Little Mermaid (2023): Ariel, Eric. Bob's Burgers: Linda, Bob. Avatar: Jake, Neytiri. Frozen: Elsa, Anna, Kristoff. My Hero Academia: Dabi, Hawks, Aizawa. Futurama: Leela, Amy, Fry, Bender. Earth Girls Are Easy: Mac, Wiploc, Zeebo, Valerie. Supernatural: Dean, Sam, Castiel. Sherlock (2010): Sherlock Holmes, John Watson. Silverado: Slick, Rae, Mal, Paden. Dirty Dancing: Johnny, Baby. The Breakfast Club: John Bender, Allison Reynolds. The Golden Girls: Blanche, Dorothy, Rose. Hot in Cleveland: Melanie <3, Joy, Victoria.

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Nani Palekai (Lilo & Stitch) Paul Cable (Last Stand at Saber River) Ramona Flowers (Scott Pilgrim vs The World) Peter Mitchell (3 Men & A Baby) Randy Marsh (South Park) Charles Ingalls (Little House on the Prairie) Master Chief (Halo) Ian Hawke (Alvin & The Chipmunks) Poe Dameron (Star Wars: The Force Awakens) Linda Gunderson (Rio) Bruce (Beyond Therapy) Jack Harrison (Transylvania 6-5000) Peggy Bundy (Married… With Children) Kitten (Breakfast on Pluto) Scarecrow (Batman Begins) John Wick (John Wick 4) David Levinson (Independence Day) Jackson Rippner (Red Eye) Stevo (SLC Punk!) Mike (5lbs of Pressure) Santa/Babbo Natale (Violent Night) Dan Conner (Roseanne) Tate Langdon (AHS: Murder House) Lt. Robert 'Bob' Floyd (Top Gun: Maverick 2022) Francine (American Dad) Beverly Goldberg (The Goldbergs) Fujimoto (Ponyo) Thomas Magnum (Magnum, P.I 1980) Doug Remer (Baseketball) Ian Malcolm (Jurassic Park 1993) Rose Tyler (Doctor Who) Moe Doodle (Doodle Bops) Astarion (Baulders Gate 3) Trevor Phillips (GTA5) Shaun Murphy (The Good Doctor) Georgia Miller (Ginny & Georgia) John Doe (John Doe Game) Paul Blart (Paul Blart Mall Cop) Napolean Dynamite (self titled) Fezzik (Princess Bride)

[just-some-random-blogger]

nct masterlist

🍓 = fluff themes

❄️ = angst themes

🚧 = smut themes

🤸‍♀️ = slice of life / bish idek what theme this is

🚀 = crack fic themes

🎩 = dark and/or violent themes

🏩 = genre fic, i.e. mystery, horror, fantasy, etc

🍳 = slow burn

🦕 = personal favorite

back to main masterlist | back to kpop masterlist

Drippin’ Ice Cream | 🤸‍♀️ Chittaphon Leechaiyapornkul (Ten) x Reader

FINISH HIM! | 🤸‍♀️ Wong Yukhei (Lucas) x Reader

Noodle City | 🤸‍♀️🚀🚀🦕 Chef!Wong Yukhei (Lucas) & Noodle Master!Lee Sooman

A Twin Thing | 🍓❄️ Jung Jaehyun x Reader & Wong Yukhei (Lucas) x Reader

Cling Wrap | 🍓🤸‍♀️ Jung Jaehyun x Reader

Autumn | 🍓❄️❄️🚧🏩🦕 CEO!Jung Jaehyun x Reader & CEO!Kim Jungwoo x Reader Spring [Autumn II] | 🍓❄️🏩 CEO!Jung Jaehyun x Reader & CEO!Kim Jungwoo x Reader

Lollipunch | 🍓🤸‍♀️ Jung Jaehyun x Lee!Reader + Johnny Seo x Lee!Reader

That’s How It Is | ❄️ Jung Jaehyun x Reader & Nakamoto Yuta x Reader

Hurt Me, I Don't Care | 🤸‍♀️🎩 no specified pairing

Obra Maestra | 🚧🎩🎩🏩🦕 Art Curator!Nakamoto Yuta x Painter!Reader

Curse Of The Tiger King | 🍓❄️🎩🚧🏩🏩🍳🍳🦕 King!Jung Jaehyun x Zoologist!Reader

Death By Bagel | 🍓🍓 Culinary Student!Mark Lee x Fashion Design Student!Reader

Connecting Dots | 🍓❄️❄️❄️❄️❄️🚧🚧🚧🍳🍳🍳🦕 Philosophy Student!Lee Donghyuck (Haechan) x Statistics Student!Reader

Everything & Nothing | ❄️❄️❄️🎩🏩🏩🦕  Mafia!Huang Renjun x Art Thief!Reader

Resident Himbo: Operation Heartbreaker | 🍓🍓❄️❄️🚀🍳🦕 Lee Jeno x Reader + Kim Doyoung x Reader

[haejaetae-recs]

Favorites

(All fics tagged here!)

Here I've compiled some of my favorite works by some of my favorite writers. I'll add a lot more detail to this masterlist including brief descriptions and my input as found in my reblogs.

Also, if you happen to enjoy their work as well, please support them however you can!

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Quarantine Chronicles by @domjaehyun | Jaehyun, Johnny, Jungwoo, Jaemin, Mark, Jeno, Haechan | 3 pts. 126.7k total | M | roommates au, fwb, uni au

Fourteen days, five roommates, and five remarkably high sex drives. what could go wrong?

I'm obviously a Jaehyun simp but while reading this, I found myself so immersed in the other characters as well (especially Jaemin OOF he's such a freak 😭). Part 1 is basically 20k word long filth smut LOL so like I always say, be warned!

Pussy Fiend by @domjaehyun | Haechan | 2 pt. 68.9k total | M | roommates au, fwb, f2l, some dubcon be warned, uni au

The title truly does explain it all lol. Another @domjaehyun hit. The dynamics not only between HC and MC but all the roommates *muah*. The tension: outstanding. The smut??? *cries*. Yeah, this fic deserves the hype. Part 2 is a must-read.

Bitch Hunters by @tyonfs | Dream '00 line | 4 part series | M

huang renjun, lee jeno, lee donghyuck, and na jaemin are determined to have girlfriends by the end of their college years, but that’s easier said than done when they’re known as the biggest players on campus.

besties (gone sexual) by @tyonfs | Jaemin | 43.4k | M | best friends, fwb2l, slowburn

The final (and longest) installation of the bitch hunters series. Each part is a different dream 00 line member and can be read separately, although they are all a part of the same au. I do recommend reading the prologue found in the series masterlist first!

Na Jaemin, resident playboy and serial heartbreaker on campus, thinks he might have a crush on you [, his] best friend of seven years...

I could say so much about this fic series. I'm lowkey attached to every Tyonfs character I've ever read about. I loved every part, but Jaemin's hit especially hard, probably because of the length (that's what she said). It's not only the amazing story between Jaemin and his girl, but also expands the au so much and brings it to life. The ending made me feel like I was watching the finale of the last season of a TV show. So so good. Like I said, the parts can be read separately, but they're stronger when read in order. <3

Use Me by @yutaholic | Taeyong | 19k | M | bbf

You've had a crush on Taeyong, your brother’s best friend, for as long as you can remember, a crush made worse by the fact he’s completely off-limits. When Taeyong suddenly confesses you haven’t been alone in your feelings, you start sneaking around to be together, risking it all not to get caught.

One of my favorite Taeyong fics of all time *chef's kiss*. I love that the story is so heavy on the mc's life and development without taking too much away from the romance.

no one wishes at the snow by @neoculturetravesty | Jaehyun | 18k | M | fake marriage, single parent

Marrying for love was for the fortunate few. Marrying for love happened in fairytales and movies and dramas. Not real life. In real life, everyone married for convenience.

<Husband Jaehyun3 <3 So unique and well-written! If you're looking for a really good fic to take you on an emotional ride, this is the one!

cat & mouse by @tyonfs | Jaemin | 17.7k | M | uni au, fwb, brother's best friend, athlete/sports

rule number one of bro code states that sisters are completely off-limits, and, y/n, we just pushed that limit.

This fic is perfection, honestly. Idk why I didn't add it to this list sooner, seeing as the series was one of the first things I rb'd on this blog.

this is (not) easy. by @mrkis | Mark | 13.2k | M | uni au, fwb, bffs2l

Getting into a friends with benefits situation with your all time best friend was so (not) easy...

This is why I love the fwb trope so much. Angsty but not too angsty, and the smut scene where he makes love to y/n before trying to end things/confess. UGH. Big D Mark 4ever <3

Freaks by @2jaeh | Jaehyun | 8k | M | uni au, social difference, cheating

The campus bad girl has her eyes set on the preppy good boy, and she always gets what she wants...

Freaks: The Prequel by @2jaeh | Ten, Taeyong | 11.8k | M | uni au, fwb, revenge, 3some, mxm

A story of why the entire campus were almost certain that you Taeyong and Ten were in a poly affair. 

I adore the dynamic between TaeTenY/n, and I enjoyed reading Jae's internal struggle not only with his feelings toward mc but also with himself!!! Tbh, I get second lead syndrome from TY even though he's not meant to be a second lead, so I find myself gravitating towards the prequel, haha. 3 biases, one au. Really does it for me.

Playing the Game by @sluttyten | Taeyong | 11.7k | M | uni au, fwb, f2l, just a tiny bit angsty

Taeyong’s been your best friend for a few years now, but sometimes it gets a little hard to just be his friend. you’re at university and there’s no better time to blur that line between friends and a little bit more, to make your lives just that much more messy. 

Friends helping friends ahahah... I love his character in this a little too much and reread this fic when I'm having Taeyong brainrot. Perpetually in my TY era.

Pretty Boy by @ncteez | Mark | 9.3k | M | social differences

[Upon] realizing your grades have dropped drastically due to [your] lifestyle, you have no choice but to approach Mark for help. 

Hot nerd trope gets me weak in the knees every time LOL especially when the smut is this good *chef's kiss*

Mine too by @waithyuck | Haechan, Jaehyun | 7.5k | M | poly, mxm, 3some

Despite being in a consensual poly relationship with you and Jaehyun, Haechan is reluctant to touch you. You start to think he doesn't care for you until something switches in him after one steamy night...

My ults in a poly fic l- this was meant for me to find. Read this one multiple times and I think about it a lot because it exposed me to poly mxm and literally changed me LOL. Also, I loveeee how there's this sense of tenderness and fondness underneath the pure lust and desire between hc and mc.

In Your Arms by @sluttyten | Jaehyun, Mark | 6.5k | M | uni au/frat, fwb, are we seeing a trend with me and fwb fics???, 3some, a lil mxm, Halloween

(Part of the author's kinktober) Mark finds out you've been secretly hooking up with his and your other best friend, Jaehyun; Mark has a secret(s) of his own.

“Are you two not fucking? I thought this was an all three of us kind of thing?” THAT LINE ALMOST TOOK ME OUT I SWEAR LMAO. I keep coming back to this one ngl. The dynamics are just so unique and well done and I'm a sucker for service top Markie hehe <3

Still wondering how long those two had been at it tho... 🤔

late night driving by @jjsneo | Chenle | 5.6k | M | roommates

Chenle swears he’s going going crazy with cabin fever inside your shared house — and there’s no way you’re saying no to a late night drive with the roommate you so desperately have a crush on. who cares if his original story was a lie and, secretly, he just wanted to be alone with you.

DAMN. Chenle smut is so scarce around here, but THIS alone makes up for that, lol. I love how sweet it started out. The smut part lowkey caught me by surprise. Once again DAMN. Please read this.

amortentia (the room smells like absolute shit) by @tonicandjins | Haechan | 2.8k | hogwarts au, e2l-ish, cute stuff ♪(´ε｀*)

It’s no secret that the ongoing cat-and-mouse game between you and Slytherin House’s very own Lee Donghyuck remains unceasing from the day you and him were sorted five years ago to this day...

At the time of me reading this, I'm playing Hogwarts Legacy and am OBSESSED. On top of that, I'm a Ravenclaw, and this whole blog's aesthetic is inspired by HP (hence the dark academia). Anyway, this was really cute, and I love school crush tropes, especially when it's paired with enemies to lovers, I just- *sigh* Having knowledge of the series definitely makes this more enjoyable, as I was imagining everything happening and the surroundings.

[agoldengirl]

nct recs

masterlist

127

TAEIL !

SERIES

SMAUS

TITLED

UNTITLED

JOHNNY !

SERIES

SMAUS

TITLED

secrets | @lisired

UNTITLED

TAEYONG !

SERIES

SMAUS

TITLED

eros & psyche | @sluttyten

hey, mr. lee | @neoaevis

01:21am | @neocitydealer

UNTITLED

YUTA !

SERIES

SMAUS

TITLED

motherfucker | @guanana

secrets | @lisired

wrap it up (or off each other) | @alluringjae

our little secret | @yuta-senpai

UNTITLED

DOYOUNG !

SERIES

SMAUS

TITLED

secrets | @lisired

UNTITLED

JAEHYUN !

SERIES

cheater | @allaboutthedongs

SMAUS

TITLED

illicit | @ncteez

promised | @doiebunny

UNTITLED

JUNGWOO !

SERIES

SMAUS

TITLED

UNTITLED

MARK !

SERIES

neotherapy | @guanana

SMAUS

TITLED

little white dress | @ismileeprnc

UNTITLED

HAECHAN!

SERIES

SMAUS

TITLED

masquerade | @moonjella

UNTITLED

DREAM

RENJUN !

SERIES

neotherapy | @guanana

SMAUS

TITLED

masquerade | @moonjella

UNTITLED

JENO !

SERIES

neotherapy | @guanana

SMAUS

TITLED

teddy bear | @sluttyten

premium boy-toy | @ncteez

neighbour from hell | @onyourhyuck

masquerade | @moonjella

roommates | @bunxxy

christmas miracle | @dongfuck

UNTITLED

CHENLE !

SERIES

SMAUS

TITLED

UNTITLED

JAEMIN !

SERIES

neotherapy | @guanana

SMAUS

TITLED

pl4yg1rl is live | @domjaehyun

masquerade | @moonjella

death of a bachelor | @mull3ts

chef-d'oeuvre | @haechurch

UNTITLED

JISUNG !

SERIES

SMAUS

TITLED

the quiet boy has a big dick?! | @johnsuhsposts

UNTITLED

WAYV

KUN !

SERIES

SMAUS

TITLED

dinner & dessert | @sluttyten

kinda hot though | @sluttyten

UNTITLED

one | @lustfuldevils

TEN !

SERIES

SMAUS

TITLED

UNTITLED

WINWIN!

SERIES

SMAUS

TITLED

UNTITLED

XIAOJUN !

SERIES

SMAUS

the ex-factor | @misojunnie

TITLED

a taste of you (darling) | @sluttyten

book club | @brownsugarbaybee

UNTITLED

HENDERY !

SERIES

SMAUS

TITLED

morally gray area | @sluttyten

battleground | @2jaeh

UNTITLED

YANGYANG !

SERIES

neotherapy | @guanana

SMAUS

TITLED

masquerade | @moonjella

UNTITLED

LUCAS !

SERIES

SMAUS

TITLED

UNTITLED

OTHERS

SHOTARO !

SERIES

SMAUS

TITLED

UNTITLED

SUNGCHAN !

SERIES

SMAUS

TITLED

3:25pm | @writemekpop

UNTITLED

[orangezeppelin]

For the last few years of #leeweek I've made a point to bake a cake on Christopher Lee's birthday in celebration, partly because it is also Vincent Price's birthday and he was a great chef and food lover. He's put out a few cookbooks even, so this year I'm going to hunt for a recipe that he's made. This one is from his wife, and I found it on this blog post https://www.silverscreensuppers.com/vincent-price/vincent-mary-prices-dark-mocha-cake

I think it sounds pretty amazing, though my mom isn't a coffee lover and might not be so into it. (Though she also isn't a frosting lover so she might just scrape the frosting off anyway and happily eat a naked cake!)

I'm considering combining LeeWeek with a Vincent Price Gourmet Cooking Throwdown where the full week will feature dinners from the man himself, though I might pass on his famous Dishwasher Trout that he made with Johnny Carson:

[dreaminlittlenightmares]

What is everyone's favorite Christmas song?

The Maw

Six: I Want a Hippopotamus for Christmas, Gayla Peevey the Janitor: White Christmas, Bing Crosby the Twin Chefs: Welcome To The Christmas Parade, Mariah Carey vs MCR the Lady: Last Christmas, Wham! the Granny: Santa Baby, Eartha Kitt the Runaway Kid: We Three Kings, Epic Cover

Pale City

Mono: Rockin' Around the Christmas Tree, Brenda Lee the Hunter: the 12 Pains of Christmas, Bob Rivers the Teacher: Christmas Time is Here, Vince Guraldi Trio (the Peanuts) the Doctor: Carol of the Bells, Home Alone version the Thin Man: Baby, It's Cold Outside, Margaret Whiting and Johnny Mercer

The Nest

the Raincoat Girl: the Nutcracker Suite, Tchaikovsky the Craftsman: Merry Frickin' Christmas, Frickin' A the Butler: You're a Mean One, Mr. Grinch, Jim Carrey the Pretender: All I Want for Christmas is You, Mariah Carey

[lazuli-writes]

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summary: Donghyuck finds himself in over his head after traversing space and time.

pairing: Lee Donghyuck | Haechan & NCT

genre: angst / sci-fi

estimated word count: 2000 words

a/n: If it’s not clear, essentially hyuck discovered a pathway to the second dimension… and well things there are little too good to be true. Remember folks, copying other people’s works is plagiarism and that’s illegal. Don’t be that kind of person. Anyways, hope you all enjoy it :)

©little-lazuli. Do not copy, repost, or translate without permission

“But why would you ever want to leave hyung?”

Donghyuck whipped in the direction of those words. Other-Jisung stared at him, those eyes of gold, once something Donghyuck thought so fascinating when he first arrived in this second dimension. Now seemed calculating, expectant and possibly even… soulless.

“Sungie… you know I can’t stay. This…”

Donghyuck paused, gesturing to the perfect blue skies, the painfully bright green of the plants, the rushing sapphire of the river nearby, and the group of others, these other versions of his friends, his family, his brothers. All of them happy, smiling, laughing, playing together without a care in the world. Their inhumane eyes shining so bright, and their laughters almost sounding too high to be his brothers. Donghyuck pointed out, trying to show the Other-Jisung just how unnaturally perfect this new world was for someone like himself. Donghyuck wasn’t meant for something so perfect. He wasn’t deserving of it. 

“This isn’t my world. I… I just don’t fit in here. I don’t want to ruin all that you have here.”

Other-Jisung jerked in horror and disgust at the elder’s words. Donghyuck almost winced at the way the younger seemed to morph into pure wrath for only a second before cooling his expression, taking a second to inhale and exhale before starting.

“How could you ever think so low of yourself hyung… I don’t get it! Do people of this… alternate world of yours… do they make you feel like this?”

Other-Jisung’s words came out more like an accusation, rather than a question. And Donghyuck couldn’t stop the icy feeling that crept upon his skin as he stared at the boy before him.

When Donghyuck dived into that pond hoping to escape his members and his idol life for just a moment, he never expected to fall through space and time. The second dimension was everything Donghyuck wanted in the world. 

Never ending sunshine. Birds singing, dogs dancing across the fields, the fish gracing the water in schools. The cool wind carried the perfect aroma. His brothers, all together, all of them: peaceful, unburdened and happy. And himself, present to experience it all. 

This was Haechan’s world. 

And so Donghyuck had made it his little secret. His newest prized possession. The perfect world to break from the bondages of reality. And the first few times he came in and out, Donghyuck had been enraptured, mesmerized and beyond enamored at the sanctity of the Other World. 

But the longer he stayed, the more the perfection became imperfect. The sun shined for too long. The birds sang the same song every day. The wind had started to grow cold under the rays of the sun.

But the heaviest to bear, was his new relationships with his Other-brothers.

The Other-hyungs were exceptionally protective over his every need and desires. The simplest wish for food would see Other-Doyoung cook him a feast and more some… only for Donghyuck. The mere idea of someone not Donghyuck, eating the food Other-Doyoung had prepared for him, saw the chef explode in wrath. A splinter from a tree saw Other-Johnny set the tree aflame. Other-Taeyong even followed some stranger who had simply looked at Donghyuck in a way the Other had hated.

The Other-dongsaengs however, at first Donghyuck adored the way they fretted over his every move. He enjoyed the way they followed him around. And he enjoyed the way they reciprocated every piece of touch, love and appreciation he gave them. 

Yet, it took no longer than a few weeks for Donghyuck to finally open his eyes to what he believed to be their perception of him.

“I love Channie-hyung!”

“Haechannie, wanna play Fortnite with me?”

“Haechan-ah, are you okay?”

“Leave our Haechan alone!”

“Haechannie…”

“Haechan-ah…”

Haechan.

It was as Donghyuck first realized. This was Haechan’s world. The second dimension served as Haechan’s paradise. 

But he wasn’t just Haechan, he was also Lee Donghyuck.

And so, the first mention of his birth name came about and soon after, Donghyuck was forced to endure the silent spiral of suspicion and hovering from the other members. 

There was barely a moment where eyes weren’t on him every time he graced the second world with his presence. 

He didn’t miss the way Other-Jungwoo would scrunch his face when Donghyuck mentioned anything about the Others’ counterparts in his world. Or the way Other-Renjun’s eyes darkened at the mention of tiny anecdotes of his members. He especially didn’t miss the way almost all of his Other-brothers never uttered his name, his true name. Donghyuck. Despite hearing him mention it on occasion, not once have the others ever taken the second to even whisper the name.

All of it was culminating, Donghyuck knew that for sure. Bound to rupture and ensnare both his heart and theirs. And Donghyuck was terrified of which way the coin was going to land. His Other-brothers have never given him a reason to be afraid or worried in any way possible. 

But Donghyuck never enjoyed confrontation. 

And he’d be lying if he said he had his doubts on the way this one was going to play out. The fact that it came in the form of Other-Jisung was enough to throw enough of Donghyuck’s game and mental fortitude out into the abyss.

“No, not really.” Donghyuck whimpered out. His mind flashing back to the latest scolding he got for being overbearing again. It spoke volumes that he couldn’t remember which hyung snapped at him this time—had he become accustomed to the spite and disinterest of his family, to the point where everything simply blurred over as one and the same.

He didn’t want to admit that.

“What do you mean not really?”

Other-Jisung was rapid in his response, head tilting and a dangerous look in his eyes. Donghyuck felt the goosebumps spread on his skin, the cold feeling in his chest and soul invading his senses as he eyed the Other. 

“Well… I don’t know Sungie. I-I just… it just gets hard sometimes you know” Donghyuck gestured out, trying to relieve the growing radiation of heat and contempt the Other-maknae was visibly showing towards his home. Donghyuck’s home.

“Sometimes I just want to take a breath away from it all. But they’re still my home… they’re still my family-“

“This could be your home! Are we not your family hyung!” Other-Jisung snapped out. Donghyuck didn’t even realize he was backed up against a tree. 

When did I move back?

When did Other-Jisung get so close?

And why did he have to be taller than me?

Donghyuck may have seen himself as a maknae through and through, and the idea of tampering in other dimensions may have grounded his gears every now and again. But there was no way he was going to let himself be intimidated by someone—even a neat imitation of said someone—he loved.

“I never said you weren’t my family Sungie-“

“Then why-“

“Please let me finish Jisungie!”

Donghyuck’s tiny rise in volume was enough to have the Other-maknae back down. Taking a few steps back, head hanging as his eyes continued to shine with wrath. All the while, Donghyuck took the spare seconds to calm his nerves and halt the growing urge to flee. He couldn’t just leave the boy before him hanging. 

These Other-members of his had been there to comfort him, to hold him and wipe his tears away. The same tears his own brothers would create in him, with their careless comment or lackluster—or sometimes heart aching response to his affections. The Others were his escape when the night got too cold to bear. And for that he will always be grateful. 

But he needed to speak his truth. This was Haechan’s home, not Donghyuck’s home. And it was about time Donghyuck woke up and stopped fawning for unattainable dreams and fantasies.

“Sungie… no amount of words can ever express how much you all mean to me. You took me in when I was unknowingly at my lowest. You gave me the refuge I needed to regain myself. You made me feel like what it meant to be Haechan again.”

Donghyuck paused as the guilt of watching the scene before him held him. Other-Jisung still held the horrible wrath on his face, but his lips trembled with every release of water from the younger’s glassy eyes. He didn’t mean to make the Other cry, and he hated himself for it.

“T-then why hyung… why do you want to leave again? Are we not enough? You were always Haechan. You’re my Haechannie-hyung. You may not be of our world, and I know you know our original Haechan is gone… But you’re still him. You’d never have to worry about missing hugs or not getting enough joy and smiles coming your way… not when you’re with us. Not in this world hyung. We love you! We love you so much Channie-hyung.”

Donghyuck's heart felt as if it was being flayed alive. He couldn’t handle it. Only more reason to leave. He was getting attached. Attached to this perfect world that was never his. Attached to this reality that was not his. Attached to a fantasy that CANNOT BE HIS. 

“But I’m also Donghyuck, Sungie. And Donghyuck belongs to the other world. It’s not the best… that we can both agree on. But it’s home. The same way this was Haechan’s home. Donghyuck needs to go back to his home”

Donghyuck paused to overlook the Other before him. The tears remained on the younger, and Donghyuck couldn’t stop the innate urge for him to wipe them away. Taking a few cautious steps forward, Donghyuck stood before the younger, whose glare was marred by tears and shivers. Donghyuck didn’t hesitate to wipe away the tears, and took both of his hands to softly caress the face of the Other-maknae before him.

He didn’t know how long he stood there, trying his best to exude an aura of peace and tranquility, hoping it would seep into the younger before him. It took some time, but eventually, Other-Jisung’s sneer crumpled, instead, he looked down to his feet with his eyes closed, almost as if he was ignoring the world around him. Donghyuck sighed sadly, still rubbing the Other’s cheeks before continuing.

“Please understand why I’m doing this Sungie. Please trust what I’m doing is not to hurt you. I just need my home. I promise I’ll be back. How could I ever leave you all eternally? I could never do that. But I do have things I must do back home. Please trust me and my love for you all. I’ll come back.”

Sungie only sighed, before he took a step back to detach himself from the elder. Donghyuck sighed, taking the move as the other’s reluctant acceptance. Donghyuck smiled sadly before making his exit.

“Thank you Sungie. Hyung loves and appreciates you so much. I love you uri maknae.”

And with the silent promise to come back, Donghyuck was off into the tree line of the forest, with the intent to find the pond to head back home. He was too far away to hear the silent apologies of the Other-Jisung however, as he pulled out his phone and called who he needed to.

“Jisung-ah? What did Haechan-ah say?”

Other-Jisung couldn’t stop the whimper that came out at the pain of having to watch his Channie-hyung leave with the intention to go find those heartless bastards from his home world. He was even more apologetic at what was to take place only moments from now, since it was clear that Other-Jisung failed in his mission.

“I’m sorry Taeyong-hyung… those monsters have their hooks too deep in him. They want their Donghyuck back now… he’s heading to the pond right now.”

Other-Jisung stood there, awaiting for Other-Taeyong’s response. Which was just as Other-Jisung expected, filled with pain etched into its voice. 

“Then we have no choice. Go back to the tower, and prepare his room for him. Let hyungs take care of this Jisung-ah. We won’t lose Haechan-ah to those selfish demons, I promise you that. Go get some rest.”

“Okay hyung. Thank you.”

And with the ending of that call, Other-Jisung sighed out another shallow breath, hoping to all of those below and beneath that his Haechannie-hyung could be saved. For this alter-world didn’t deserve his Haechannie-hyung. 

And if his family needed to force the truth down someone’s throat for both the alterns or his hyung to realize, then Other-Jisung was okay with it. Everything was going to be alright one way or another.

[thehyperrequiem]

Diego and the Scary Monstrous Revival (Bendy and the Dark Revival parody) cast

"Return to the cartoon studio from Diego and the Dino Machine™. See the ink-soaked kingdom of Diego Brando™ like never before through the eyes of Edge/Jolyne, an animator with mysterious abilities. Deeper, darker, and with more horror-stoked action, the Scary Monstrous Revival will keep you on the edge."

Edge (Mario + Rabbids) as Audrey Drew (Real World)

Jolyne Cujoh (JJBA Stone Ocean) as Audrey Drew (Cycle)

Starscream (Transformers Prime) as Wilson Arch

DIO Brando (JJBA Stardust Crusaders) as Shipahoy Wilson

Mikitaka Hazekura (JJBA Diamond is Unbreakable) as Porter

Mariah (JJBA Stardust Crusaders) as Betty

Wambus Troubleham (Bugsnax) as Steve McGregor

Carne (JJBA Vento Aureo) as Big Steve

Gwess (JJBA Stone Ocean) as Carley

Dr. Ferdinand (JJBA Steel Ball Run) as Slicer

Foo Fighters (JJBA Stone Ocean) as Heidi

Bakugou (My Hero Academia) as Bill Danton

Ghiaccio (JJBA Vento Aureo) as Mad Artist

Changelings (My little Pony) as Widows

Queen Chrysalis (My little Pony) as Widow King

Ringo Roadagain (JJBA Steel Ball Run) as Lord Amok

DIO Brando (JJBA Phantom Blood) as Shipahoy Dudley

Decepticons and Vehicons (Transformers Prime) as Keepers

Glamrock Animatronics (FNAF SB) as The Ink Jets

Limp Bizkit Zombies (JJBA Stone Ocean) as Iridescent Lost ones

Weather Report (JJBA Stone Ocean) as Henry Stein

Cromdo Face (Bugsnax) as Joey Drew

Scary Monsters Diego Brando (JJBA Steel Ball Run) as Bendy/Baby Benders

Partial Utahraptor! Diego Brando (JJBA Steel Ball Run) as Ink Bendy

Utahraptor! Diego (JJBA Steel Ball Run) as Beast Bendy

Hot Pants (JJBA Steel Ball Run) as Alice Angel

Partial Utahraptor! Hot Pants (JJBA Steel Ball Run) as Susie-Alice

Yukako (JJBA Diamond is Unbreakable) as Allison Angel

Koichi (JJBA Diamond is Unbreakable) as Himself/Allison’s Boyfriend

Gyro Zeppeli (JJBA Steel Ball Run) as Boris the Wolf

Johnny Joestar (JJBA Steel Ball Run) as Himself/Boris’s Friend

Giorno (JJBA Vento Aureo) as Tom

Pucci (JJBA Stone Ocean) as Sammy Lawrence

Rubber Soul, Devo the Cursed, ZZ and Steely Dan (JJBA Stardust Crusaders) as The Butcher Gang

Legoshi (Beastars) as Norman Polk

Formaggio (JJBA Vento Aureo) as The Projectionist

Daniel J. D'Arby (JJBA Stardust Crusaders) as Bertrum Piedmont

Dark Enchantress Cookie (Cookie Run) as Susie Campbell

Joseph Joestar (JJBA Battle Tendency) as Wally Franks

Caesar Zeppeli (JJBA Battle Tendency) as Thomas Connor

Snorpy (Bugsnax) as Jack Fain

Chandlo (Bugsnax) as Himself/Jack’s Lover

Tiziano (JJBA Vento Aureo) as Swollen Jack

Squalo (JJBA Vento Aureo) as Himself/Swollen Jack’s Lover

Triffany Lottablog (Bugsnax) as Allison Pendle

Floofty (Bugsnax) as Grant Cohen

Salt Cookie (Cookie Run) as Shawn Flynn

The Pillar Men and Santana (JJBA Battle Tendency) as The Butcher Gang Enemies

Utahraptors (Jurassic Park series) as The Searchers

Zombies (JJBA Phantom Blood) as Lost Ones

Megatron (Transformers Prime) as Nathan Arch

Airachnid (Transformers Prime) as Tessa Arch

Perceptor (Transformers Animated) as Alan Grey

Gramble Gigglefun (Bugsnax) as Telly Wester

Mario Zucchero (JJBA Vento Aureo) as Angus Newman

Tonio (JJBA Diamond is Unbreakable) as Dale Little

Eggabelle (Bugsnax) as Kay Lee

Beffica (Bugsnax) as Jane Todd

Gingerbrave (Cookie Run) as Lance Derby

Ratchet (Transformers Prime) as Hank Scott

Juno (Beastars) as Grace Conway

Deku (My Hero Academia) as Phil Clark

Sale (JJBA Vento Aureo) as Archie Carter

Carrot Cookie (Cookie Run) as Kitty Thompson

Quinn (Flipline) as Sally Newt

Telence T. D'Arby (JJBA Stardust Crusaders) as Hudson Doyle

Shockwave (Transformers Animated) as Chef Buck

Ironhide (Transformers Animated) as Muncie Dunn

Tea Knight Cookie (Cookie Run) as Eugene Lloyd

Thunder Mcqueen (JJBA Stone Ocean) as Carl

Scary Monsters Diego Brando (JJBA Steel Ball Run) (With Raptor teeth and eyes) as Sinful Bendy

Chapters:

Chapter 1: Drawn to Darkness

Chapter 2: The Raptor's Domain (The Demon's Domain)

Chapter 3: The Eternal Stand Power (The Eternal Machine)

Chapter 4: The Prison of Horrors (The Factory of Horrors)

Chapter 5: The Scary Monstrous Revival (The Dark Revival)

[leejenowrld]

Hii bubs just read your jeno fic and its literally one of the best I ever read like ever! Firstly how are you? How was your holiday? Hope your year started well! So I made a lot of notes as I was reading, this is going to be very long. Contains spoilers and me freaking out

So starting with yn in the principal's office, I somehow read professor Johnny Suh speech about the project with his exact voice and tone like he really speaks like that sometimes-

Ooooh the panic attack, does she have anxiety?

The way jeno is so soft and smart I'm already In love with him in this wait till she found out he's a fuckboy

AND SHE DID Yeonjun spitting the facts sorry I laughed

Ok so yn and jeno are getting along they're really cute everything is peachy but I'm sending some trouble ahead

I'm still at the beginning so I may be wrong but maybe this sexy and fuckboy persona is just for show, the real jeno is who he is when he's with yn, he's naturally confident but he's also naturally laid back so he is able to have "two personalities", I even think is a bit like the Lee jeno in real life like he's so powerful and sexy on stage but out of it he's actually a sweet silly boy

No but jeno with theo had me giggling that was so cute

Oooooh its getting sexy hmmm the sexual tension hehe

Yn crying cause she wants him I get you girl

Jaemin cameo <3333

Them talking about sex I SWEAR they're getting to another level

"So you're not a needy slut?" IJBOL

Oh the similarities between her ex and jeno I hope he won't do the same

Jeno explaining his fuckboy story was so necessary but omg he's so sexy I caaaaannnnttt

The dress scene was so sensual wow the party and jeno's protective side aaa

Their differences are starting to crash I knew it would come a moment like this, but it's good how they can sort it out, I'm also happy yn enjoyed the party

They're dating OMG THEYRE DATING like officially

The smut was chefs kiss

Why does jaemin hyuck and renjun walking in on yn and jeno seems so real (jaemin and hyuck would definitely tease the hell out of him and ask if they could join and renjun would be pissed)

Oh no those stupid parties!

She's right actually, he should've told her on the phone what was happening, communication is one of the most important things in a relationship

Thank you sunwoo you're an angel but now I'm nervous

About the mean ppl I get both sides ofc yn is uncomfortable about it and jeno is also right in not letting it get into them

And I love how he's always so soft with her in these moments

FUCKING BITCH WHO ARE YOU TO TALK LIKE THAT TAKE CARE OF YOUR OWN BUSINESS I SWEAR WHO SHE THINKS SHE IS I HATE HER SO MUCH

(Quick break to pet my cat cause she won't stop meowing)

The smut and after smut scene in the car was so beautiful I almost cried with them fr

GIRL you're letting some slut get into you DONT BRRAKUP WITH HIM

I WANT TO SLAP THOSE BITCHES

Again sunwoo is an angel

Jeno I love you so much you're the sweetest

DONT LEAVE HIM YOUR DUMBASS

Girl now what are you doing on his party

Damn but it's getting wild omg that was so sexy of yn

THRYRE BAAAAAACKKKKK I LOVE THEM

Also besides the love story the project idea is so cool

The speech was AMAZING I was smiling so wide through it

"I don't believe in God, but God made you for me" THAT WAS SO GOOD WTF

I love how they're ALWAYS HORNY

Sooooooo the writing was magnificent, the plot everything was so good so well planned. I got mad, frustated, happy, emotional, you portrayed love and its difficulty so beautifully

heyyyy!!! my holiday was good thank you 🥹 happy new year to you mwah

suh being the professor is everything to me. a little behind the scenes, i wanted to add a scene with him and ten (as they’re married and both are rich and handsome together duh) but it didn’t fit :( it was gonna be the ending but i really wanted the ending to be jeno smirking and saying he deserved the blow job lmao

yns anxiety!! huge role in the fic

jeno!! yeah!! super interesting. he kinda does have two personalities but keep in mind the person he was when he was with yn was a more relaxed, laid back and reserved version of himself. he’s was holding himself back a lot. i mean, as a person he is quite chill and doesn’t really actively attract attention, everyone just finds him hot and sexy cus he has that nonchalant vibe about him, but when he’s high he’s a lot more needy and himself… but he also shows his needy and confident and touchy side when he and yn get together ;))

them talking about sex was so funny lmfao it’s just jeno finally starting to loosen himself

thank you! i do struggle with smut and i wanted to showcase yn and jeno being freaks which tbh i could’ve done better but it’s ok!!! my series of texts between them will show that lmao

he’s so soft :( softest sweetest boyfriend ever he’s whipped

it’s frustrating isn’t it!! jealous ass dumb bitches. it’s so upsetting how yns anxiety got in the way :(

it was getting wild!! we love a good reconciliation line

no like… jeno and yn are CRAZY for each other oh my god they’re the most in love people you’ll meet. i wanna showcase that even more with the texts i’m gonna post and also future one shots :) wanna write them getting engaged and their sexy honeymoon hehe

[nightmaretherabbitsideblog2]

Hello I'm Nightmare!

[He/Him,They/Them]

Minor!!!

Blogs:

Main/Cuphead Blog:@nightmaretherabbit

FNAF blog:@nightmaretherabbitsideblog1

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This is Remnant Ink Au.

A Batim/Batds/Batdr au that is mainly all headcanon with a dash of canon somewhere in the abyss.

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Dni! Proshippers/Comshippers,pedos, racists, homophobics, transphobics, Zoophiles,NFT Supporters, NSFW centered blogs!!!!

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13+ blog! Because sensitive subjects,some jokes, and d e a t h, depression, mental illness, language, and alcohol and/or drug use(mention).

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ASK Box: CLOSED (Q&A closed rn)

Rules NO NSFW ASKS!

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CHARACTER LIST (TILL I DISCOVER MORE STRANGERS)

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Also these are my headcanon ages and stuff so yeah!

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{BATIM and BATDS EVENTS AGES/CHARACTERS}

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Joey "Datura" Drew: 20

Henry Stein: 19

Audrey Stein(Drew):7

Norman Polk:19

Samuel "Sammy" Lawrence:18

Bertrum Piedmont:38

Wally Franks:19

Grant Cohen:18

Allison Pendle (Connor):17

Susie Campbell:18

Thomas Connor:17

Murray Hill:24

Jack Fain:18

Shawn Flynn:17

Lacie Benton:18

Jacob ???:21

Daniel "Buddy" Lewek: 13

Constance Gray:8

Doctor Daniel Hackenbush:20

William "Bill" Chambers: 14

Brant Morris:15

Milla Legna:12

Linda Stein(Jones)21

Johnny Keys/Lamont:15

Emma Lamont:22

Dorothy "Dot" ???:13

Nathan Arch:32

Tessa Arch:32

Abby Lambert:24

Eugene Lloyd:28

Chef Buck:35

Wilson Arch:17

(these 2 are in post-BATIM/BATDS, because they don't come to the studio till then)

Porter ???: 8

Betty ???:10

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Audrey "Bobby/Lord Amok" Stein (Drew):17

Dale DuFrane:22

Kay Lee:17

Heidi ???:18

Jane Todd:16

Bill Danton:30

Hank Scott:29

Grace Conway:17

Archie Carter:16

Lance Derby:26

Phil Clark:32

Porter???:18

Betty???:20

Kitty Thompson:15

Steve McGregor:27

Wilson Arch:27

Eugene Lloyd:38

Chef Buck:45

Muncie Dunn:26

Andre: 22

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[zablife]

lovely lee! when your account comes up on my dash i envision colors of red and blue, like an old movie in the cinema kind-of red and blue. like i’m seeing a 3D movie come to life! animals: i see a lion, strong and courageous, but also super loyal and lovely! also a deer, so gentle and sweet! characters: JOHNNY’S GIRL ALL THE WAY. your writing when it comes to him and your reader/character is always chef’s kiss. music: lana del rey 1000000000%. i also think she transfers really well into your writing style. x

love ya,

xanadu 💋

Oh, I love all of these things and you for being so unbelievably kind! Ty my lovely, supportive moot 💕 When I think of you...

You are pinks and reds, lipstick prints and tiny hearts doodled in the margins. And, of course I see Brittany Murphy! I can't help the association now that I've become engrossed in your amazing series. Likewise bees and honey make me think of you as well which is perfect bc you're so sweet 😉

[jpbjazz]

LÉGENDES DU JAZZ

LEE KONITZ, DU BEBOP AU FREE JAZZ “I knew and loved Charlie Parker and copied his bebop solos like everyone else. But I didn’t want to sound like him. So I used almost no vibrato and played mostly in the higher register. That’s the heart of my sound.”

- Lee Konitz

Né le 23 octobre 1927 à Chicago, Leon ‘’Lee’’ Konitz était le plus jeune des trois fils d’un couple d’immigrants juifs. Son père Abraham Konitz, qui était d’origine autrichienne, exploitait une buanderie à l’arrière de la résidence familiale. Sa mère était Anna Getlin, une immigrée russe.

Même si la famille de Konitz parlait yiddish à la maison, elle n’était pas pratiquante. Les parents de Konitz ne jouaient pas de musique, mais ils avaient encouragé la passion de leur fils.

Konitz adorait Benny Goodman et, à l’âge de onze ans, il avait convaincu ses parents de lui acheter une clarinette. Son professeur Lou Honig, qui avait aussi enseigné à Johnny Griffin et à Eddie Harris, lui avait donné une formation de musicien classique. Un an plus tard, son admiration pour Lester Young avait incité Konitz à abandonner la clarinette en faveur du saxophone ténor. Éventuellement, Konitz avait renoncé au ténor pour se consacrer au saxophone alto. Konitz n’avait pas abandonné le ténor complètement puisqu’il enregistrait à l’occasion au ténor et au soprano.

Konitz avait suivi des cours de saxophone de Santy Runyon. Ses premières influences avaient été les saxophonistes et les trompettistes des big bands : Johnny Hodges, Roy Eldridge, Willie Smith et Scoops Carry. Konitz admirait aussi énormément Louis Armstrong. Plus tard, Konitz avait mentionné aussi l’influence que le solo de Benny Carter sur ‘’I Can’t Believe That You’re In Love With Me’’ avait eu sur son développement musical. CARRIÈRE PROFESSIONNELLE Konitz avait amorcé sa carrière professionnelle en 1945 avec le groupe de Teddy Powell comme remplaçant de Charlie Ventura. Le groupe avait été dissous un mois plus tard. De 1945 à 1947, Konitz avait travaillé de façon sporadique avec Jerry Wald. En 1946, Konitz avait rencontré le pianiste Lenny Tristano, avec qui il avait joué dans un petit bar. Sa collaboration avec Tristano avait eu une grande influence sur le sens de l’improvisation de Konitz. En 1949, Konitz avait d’ailleurs fait partie du sextet de Tristano, avec lequel il avait enregistré deux disques, ‘’Intuition’’ et ‘’Digression’’, qui avaient préparé l’avènement du free jazz. La même année, Konitz avait décliné une offre de travailler avec son idole Benny Goodman en 1949, une décision qu’il avait regretté plus tard.

L’année suivante, Konitz avait travaillé avec le chef d’orchestre Claude Tornhill, qui lui avait présenté son arrangeur Gil Evans. Evans avait à son tour présenté Konitz au trompettiste Miles Davis, qui l’avait fait enregistrer avec son groupe en 1949-1950. Ces enregistrements avaient étaient réunis plus tard sur l’album ‘’Birth of the Cool’’, qui a été publié en 1957. La présence de Konitz et d’autres musiciens blancs sur le disque avait mis en colère certains musiciens de couleur, car plusieurs d’entre eux n’avaient pas d’emploi à l’époque. Fidèle à son habitude, Davis avait balayé leurs critiques du revers de la main.

Konitz avait expliqué plus tard qu’il avait rejoint le groupe de Davis afin de jouer avec le saxophoniste baryton Gerry Mulligan, qui faisait également partie de la formation. Konitz avait commencé à diriger ses propres groupes la même année, mais l’album n’avait été publié qu’en 1955 sous le titre de ‘’Subconscious Lee.’’ Konitz était aussi un bon ami de Charlie Parker, même si certains critiques avaient prétendu le contraire. Konitz avait déclaré en 2013 dans une entrevue accordée au Wall Street Journal :

“I knew and loved Charlie Parker and copied his bebop solos like everyone else. But I didn’t want to sound like him. So I used almost no vibrato and played mostly in the higher register. That’s the heart of my sound.”

En 1952-1953, Konitz avait enregistré et fait une tournée avec l’orchestre de Stan Kenton, tout en continuant de diriger ses propres formations. Même si Konitz était admiré des autres musiciens, cette adulation ne s’était pas nécessairement matérialisée en contrats.

Après s’être pratiquement retiré de la musique au début des années 1960, Konitz était revenu en force quelques années plus tard avec un répertoire diversifié allant du cool bop au free jazz. Il faut dire qu’au milieu des années 1970, le jazz était en pleine renaissance à New York. À l’époque, Konitz avait beaucoup plus d’admirateurs en Europe. C’est d’ailleurs en Europe que Konitz avait passé les dernières décennies de sa vie et avait enregistré la majorité de ses albums. Au cours de cette période, Konitz avait collaboré avec des musiciens comme Paul Bley, Martial Solal, Charlie Haden et Brad Mehldau. Il travaillait aussi comme professeur. Konitz avait des étudiants un peu partout à travers le monde à qui il donnait des cours à distance par l’entremise d’enregistrements audio.

En 1961, avait Konitz enregistra l’album ‘’Motion’’ sur étiquette Verve avec Elvin Jones à la batterie et Sonny Dallas à la contrebasse. Résultat d’une session spontanée, l’album était exclusivement composé de standards.

En 1967, Konitz avait enregistré ‘’The Lee Konitz Duets’’, un album qui comprenait une instrumentation inhabituelle pour l’époque (un trombone et deux saxophones). L’enregistrement couvrait presque toute l’histoire du jazz de ‘’Struttin’ with Some Barbecue’’ de Louis Armstrong, en passat par un un duo avec le joueur de trombone Marshall Brown, à des improvisations de free jazz avec l’ancien collaborateur de Duke Ellington, le violoniste Ray Nance, et avec le guitariste Jim Hall.

En 1971, Konitz avait également collaboré à la musique du film ‘’Desperate Characters.’’ En 1975-76, Konitz avait retrouvé son ancien partenaire du trio de Lennie Tristano, Wayne Marsh, dans le cadre d’enregistrements et d’une tournée en Europe. Konitz avait également formé son propre nonet avec qui lequel il avait joué régulièrement au cours des années 1980. En 1981, Konitz avait participé au Festival de jazz de Woodstock, qui avait lieu dans le cadre du 10e anniversaire du Creative Music Studio.

Konitz avait collaboré avec une vaste gamme de musiciens au cours de sa carrière : Dave Brubeck, Ornette Colenan, Charles Mingus, Attila Zoller, Gerry Mulligan, Elvin Jones… En plus d’avoir enregistré en trio avec Brad Mehldau et Charlie Haden, Konitz avait publié un album live avec le batteur Paul Motian. L’album avait été enregistré au Birdland en 2009. MALADIE ET DÉCÈS Plus il prenait de l’âge, plus Konitz avait tendance à s’affranchir du jazz plus conventionnel qui avait été sa marque de commerce au début de sa carrière. À la fin de sa vie, Konitz avait enregistré un certain nombre d’albums de free jazz et collaboré avec plusieurs jeunes musiciens de la relève. En 2003, Konitz avait même interprété un solo sur la pièce ‘’Someone Took The Words Away’’ du chanteur rock Elvis Costello. Son album avec la chanteuse et saxophoniste Grace Kelly lui avait valu 4 étoiles et demi dans le magazine Down Beat. L’article était signé par un certain… Michael Jackson!

Victime de problèmes cardiaques, Konitz avait dû subir une opération chirurgicale à la fin de sa carrière. Konitz devait jouer au Festival International de Melbourne en 2011, mais son concert avait dû être annulé en raison de ses problèmes de santé.

En août 2012, Konitz s’était produit devant une salle comble au Blue Note Club de Greenwich Village. Konitz faisait alors partie du groupe les Enfants Terribles qui comprenait aussi le guitariste Bill Frisell, le contrebassiste Gary Peacock et le batteur Joey Baron. Quelques jours après son 87e anniversaire de naissance en 2014, Konitz s’était fait plaisir en jouant durant trois soirs au Cafe Stritch de San Jose, en Californie, avec le Jeff Denson Trio. Le répertoire du groupe était entièrement composé des standards de jazz préférés de Konitz.

En 2018, à l’occasion de son 90e anniversaire, Konitz avait enregistré un album en duo intitulé ‘’Decade’’, qui, comme son nom l’indique, célébrait dix années de collaboration avec le pianiste Dan Tepfer. Konitz, qui s’intéressait également à la musique impressionniste française, avait aussi fait un enregistrement avec un quatuor à cordes, le Lee Konitz & The Alix String Quartet.

Après plusieurs années de maladie, Lee Konitz est mort au Lenox Hill Hospital de New York le 15 avril 2020. Sa mort était attribuable à une pneumonie causée par l’épidémie de Covid-19. Konitz, un des rares saxophonistes alto dont le son n’était pas une copie conforme de celui de Charlie Parker, avait toujours été doté d’une curiosité insatiable et d’un grand esprit d’aventurier. Même si certains musiciens et critiques avaient qualifié son style de trop cérébral, Konitz avait joué un rôle essentiel dans la fondation du free et du cool jazz.

Konitz avait remporté plusieurs honneurs au cours de sa carrière, dont le prestigieux Jazzpar Prize en 1992. En 2009, Konitz a également été élu ‘’Jazz Master’’ par le National Endowment for the Arts en 2009. Konitz, qui s’était marié à trois reprises, laissait dans le deuil deux fils, Josh et Paul, trois filles, Rebecca Pita, Stephanie Stonefifer et Karen Kaley, trois petits-enfants et une arrière-petite-fille.

Même si Konitz était énormément admiré par ses pairs, il était moins connu du grand public. Dans une entrevue accordée en 2013, Konitz expliquait ainsi sa conception de la musique : “My playing was about making a personal statement — getting audiences to pay attention to what I was saying musically rather than giving them what they wanted to hear, which is entertainment. I wanted to play original music.”

Même si comme plusieurs musiciens de jazz, Konitz avait souvent dû jouer dans des clubs enfumés où à peu près personne ne l’écoutait, il s’était considéré chanceux d’avoir un endroit pour jouer. À ceux qui lui demandaient comment il avait fait pour travailler dans des conditions aussi médiocres, Konitz avait répondu : “Wherever I’m at, I’m happy to have a chance to play. People come in and say, ‘How can you work in this noisy little joint?’ I say: ‘Very easy. I take the horn out of the bag, and I put it in my mouth.’ I appreciate the opportunity.” c- 2023-2024, tous droits réservés, Les Productions de l’Imaginaire historique SOURCES : KEEPNEWS, Peter. ‘’Lee Konitz, Jazz Saxophonist Who Blazed His Own Trail, Dies at 92.’’ New York Times, 16 avril 2020. ‘’Lee Konitz.’’ National Endowment for the Arts, 2023. ‘’Lee Konitz.’’ Wikipedia, 2022.