#Cel that transition hurt in the best way

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Waaa everyone did such a good job on this!!!

"There's a room where the light won't find you, Holding hands while the walls come tumblin' down, When you do I'll be right behind you

So glad we've almost made it, So sad they had to fade it,

Everybody Wants to Rule the World~"

-Everybody Wants to Rule the World by Tears for Fears

And here it is! The long awaited AvA "Everybody Wants to Rule the World" MAP is complete!

I can't believe it's out for everyone to watch. It was such a delight to work with everyone on this project and I can't even begin to imagine how excited everyone is to finally see the results of all their hard work!

40 parts with 35 participants! And you know what? Everyone absolutely kicked it out of the park

Please take the time you check out everyone's credits below and give them your support!

In a separate post I'll share the MAP Call image, the Thumbnail, and the Credits image without their words because I think they make great backgrounds!

And I hope you enjoy this crowning MAP!

Credits (Check out the Video Description for Full Credit Links!):

Intro & Part 23: Sammy8D257 (yours truly)

Part 1: Pegg @sticksfight

Part 2 & 20: Mary @mary-games-and-arts

Part 3 & 13: NivousNiv @nzn43

Part 4: Rubtix @rubtix-a-betz

Part 5: zkylearnstherope @zkylearnstherope

Part 6: AveryBug [Youtube]

Part 7: Whirld @whirld-of-color

Part 8: Sticky @sticks-without-stones

Part 9 & 25: Vita1/Galactic Bastard [Youtube]

Part 10: Wildcrest [Youtube]

Part 11: Eclipnet @eclipnet

Part 12: Urantum [Youtube]

Part 14: Danrishy @danrishy-ava

Part 15: Marsh @marshmallowart

Part 16: Lara Prisma @lara-prisma-avm-ask-blog

Part 17: Jack What-Stasis @what-stasis

Part 18: KikoQueenoftheRats @kikoqueenofrats

Part 19: dazeyyt [Youtube]

Part 21 & 33: Maechery @maechery

Part 22: Ghosty [Youtube]

Part 24: Reptilia @reptilia0freptiles

Part 26: FireflyFlareNight @fireflyflarenight

Part 27: Ella @ellathebirb

Part 28: Celentinel [Youtube]

Part 29: Ravienski [Youtube]

Part 30: Wxlfy @wolfydoesstuff

Part 31: Oaks @veryoaki

Part 32: Sabre @sabretoothedhorse @ohhhsosleepy

Part 34: Flanik @flanik

Part 35: Theo/Purple @cindersnows

Part 36: Yumesz [carrd]

Part 37: Jadeactuallysucks @jadeactuallysucks

Part 38: Storge @storgicdealer

Outro: Allu @allunary (w/ bkgs help from NivousNiv)

Thumbnail Credits:

Victim: NivousNiv

Purple: Maechery

King: Lara Prisma

Dark: FireflyFlareNight

Background: Sammy8D257

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LOADING INFORMATION ON JINX’S MAIN RAP AHN ROHUI...

IDOL DETAILS

STAGENAME: N/A CURRENT AGE: 27 DEBUT AGE: 20 TRAINEE SINCE AGE: 15 COMPANY: Midas SECONDARY SKILL: Music production (hip-hop and r&b)

IDOL PROFILE

NICKNAME(S): 로양이 (play on 고양이/cat), 희로 (her given name backwards, lit: emotions/feelings), 희로안 (her full name backwards, play on the english pronunciation of “heroine”) INSPIRATION: in interviews, rohui always mentions that diamant is the reason she wanted to become a singer, but her fans know that she is a huge nixie fan. SPECIAL TALENTS:

can do vocal impressions of other artists (boa, yoon mirae) and a few classic cartoon characters

able to freestyle verses that aren’t cheesy

can read lips, making lip-reading games easy and not that entertaining

NOTABLE FACTS:

was a trainee under cel entertainment and was training to be a vocalist before the company went under; trained with midas for about two years before debuting with jinx

between the time of cel ent.’s closing and rohui joining midas, she momentarily gave up her dream of becoming an idol and joined the indie music scene

was briefly enrolled at knua as a film making student, but dropped out once she became a midas trainee and knew she was going to debut; always says she wants to go back to school and finish her degree

invests the majority of her money in property and donates a hefty sum to charity throughout the year

IDOL GOALS

SHORT-TERM GOALS:

rohui would like to get the opportunity to write b-sides and title songs for jinx, other groups in midas, groups outside of midas, and become more well-known for her songwriting abilities. although she enjoys making songs and posting them on soundcloud, she would also like to reach a wider audience with her music. she also has a desire for working on her individual, personal brand more, giving the public a better image of herself so she can further her career in any direction she wishes with little to no trouble (and whether she decides to stick with midas or not).

LONG-TERM GOALS:

she doesn’t see herself as being an idol forever. transitioning into a full-time producer is one of rohui’s long-term goals. she would like to be able to work from home and be out of the public’s eye, earning enough money from royalties to live comfortably in a sizable home in jeju while keeping an apartment in seoul for business purposes. she also has the pipe dreams of going into filmography and moving overseas to expand her career into foreign markets.

IDOL IMAGE

‘fake it until you make it’, a phrase rohui heard a lot while jinx’s career was still fresh. getting used to the personality midas media had prescribed her proved to be more difficult than she thought. always the more rebellious one, she was relieved when she was told that her idol persona was close to her real one. what stressed her out was that the company’s definition of ‘rebellious’ and her own were quite different.

the abrasive, flirty bad girl that fully embodied the more feminist-based lyrics of their songs, the representative 센 언니, the one who was allowed to throw caution to the wind at times: this is what she had to be. it was, and forever will be, cliché to make the rapper in the group the wild one; it wouldn’t be a stretch to say that rohui hated it.

in reality, rohui wasn’t this harsh character she had to portray. she tended to keep to herself and judge from afar, only putting herself out there and getting into certain situations if it was truly necessary. rohui was never a boisterous extrovert nor a four-dimensional oddity, and neither was her idol persona, but at times it felt like it. between show hosts commenting on her un-ladylike characteristics and fellow idols expressing that she was too intimidating, she began questioning herself. it made her wonder if she had changed on a fundamental level, becoming what others thought of her instead of what she knew herself to be.

as she got older and as jinx’s concept changed, she was expected to behave more mature – a double edge sword. for years she was used to being more risque than the rest, it was a difficult switch. at least, now, finding balance between who she is and who she has to be is a lot easier.

IDOL HISTORY

rohui’s life could be summed up in four distinct parts: crisis 1, the avoided crisis, crisis 2, and crisis 3 (along with various miniature crises along the way).

CRISIS 1.

surprisingly, it wasn’t getting into an entertainment company that was the hard part, it was staying in it.

the fifteen year-old rohui entered cel entertainment as a vocal trainee through one of their many auditions. at the time, passing an audition seemed like the hardest part of it all. later, the hard part was maintaining non-failing grades in school while training her mind and body at the company. what the true test was, however, was what happened when cel entertainment ceased to exist. everything she and her fellow trainees were working towards had suddenly disappeared, training proving to be useless unless the company was alive.

she took this as a sign to stop trying. while others immediately went auditioning to other companies, rohui switched her focus to her education. even though she had been set on what she wanted with her life while training at cel, her parents still made her take the college entrance exam and enroll at a university. while going to college was some’s plan a, it was her plan b.

cel closed its doors early 2010, near to when her first semester began which gave her no time to breathe and process what had happened. she went from training, to devastation, to the unfortunate reality that studying was never (and will never be) her forte, back to devastation. as much as she loved film, the program she was enrolled in at knua, music was one of the only ways she kept herself sane.

late 2009, rohui made a soundcloud account unknown to cel entertainment. she’d post her crappy reworkings of various songs and a few shitty originals along with some vocal covers. one of the many things she regretted about her training at cel entertainment was not taking advantage of the music production classes. at least that could have been useful. after cel had dispersed into dust, rohui kept posting and developing her own sound.

with her interest in music still strong, she started to enter the underground indie scene, making a few friends and featuring on a few songs, none of which made it further than the cd they were burned on. for a few months, it was fun. it almost seemed like she’d be happy with doing music as a hobby and pursuing film full-time. almost.

THE AVOIDED CRISIS.

if anyone were to ask, rohui would say that no, she wasn’t actively looking for another company. she had just started her new life contract-free and was enjoying the fresh start at university, making new friends and having new experiences.

that was only partially true. the reality was that she had became desperate.

she couldn’t make becoming an idol her entire life now though, she had already done that. there were ways to get into another company, but each never worked out. audition times for what seemed like every company worth auditioning for didn’t match up with her schedule and skipping more than one class in a program like film was like begging to be failed.

only a month after forcefully being removed from the trainee life, a stranger handed her a business card after asking her if she was interested in becoming a celebrity. the introduction was abrupt yet welcomed, and she took the card willingly, promising to call the stranger the next day to set up a time to audition. this eagerness faded on the bus ride home, though, rohui second guessing the encounter the entire ride. there were plenty of stories on cyworld about fake companies and fake recruiters from real companies luring desperate people like herself into giving them money. could a fake audition really hurt anyone? the only answer she could come up with was ‘no’, and if it was a real audition for the real midas media, then her idol dream just might not be over yet.

the next day she called and the next week was her audition. she was asked to sing, rap, dance, and model until the recruiters said it was enough. with their stoic faces and busy pens, rohui guessed her fated chance at entering the company was slim to none. but as fate would have it, she passed.

(kind of avoided) CRISIS 2.

don’t get her wrong, she was ecstatic to learn that she was in the debut lineup for midas media’s new girl group. her only problem with the whole situation was that she spent the last four years training her voice to sing, not to rap. rohui had a little less than two years to get the basics of idol rapping down.

all of the little things were proving to go wrong: rapping instead of singing and not fully embracing her girl group persona to name a few. then she heard ‘bad girl, good girl’ – jinx’s debut song – for the first time. the only part that could vaguely be labeled as a ‘rap’ was the lyrics at the very beginning and at the very end. the rest of her designated parts were more singing-based. crisis avoided? not entirely. just because one song didn’t have any real rap verses didn’t mean she wasn’t going to have to continue to practice. at least she had until 2015 to really get her act together when it came to rapping.

(rohui would later learn that the real crisis stemming from this period in her life was the 10 year contract she had signed. at 20, 10 years of being an idol didn’t sound that bad. she’d later realize that living her life by someone else’s rules would turn into her own personal hell).

CRISIS 3.

2014 to 2016 was a terrifying time. jinx came into the music scene with one of the best debuts in history; they were able to beat out so many other groups and survive, but this period made rohui think otherwise. the seven year curse had turned into a five year curse, and she could see their career beginning to sink.

with jinx’s career looking like it was going to tank, she didn’t feel like it was worth being an idol any more. there were too many rules to follow, too many people to keep happy, and she didn’t have enough time for herself (let alone have time to even be herself). although there was a part of her that wished jinx would survive, there were also shards of hope that midas would give up on the group.

in october of 2015, around her birthday, she had convinced midas to let her reopen her soundcloud account she had previously closed. even if she was done with being an idol, she wasn’t done with music. the past four years were filled with her practicing jinx songs and rohui creating her own, finding her own musical color.

the beginning of 2016 also saw another social media account opened by yours truly: a youtube channel. rohui convinced midas to let her open her own account by telling them part of the truth. it was a way for jinx to gain more fans, by the lucky few that would stumble upon her videos, and retain current fans with new weekly content. what she didn’t say was that it was a way of her solidifying her own fanbase, just in case the whole girl group thing went down the toilet.  

then 2017 came and the resurrection of jinx in the public’s eye happened; all plans of succession were gone (until her contract was up).

THE VARIOUS MINIATURE CRISES.

no idol’s life is clean-cut without any scandals or hardships, rohui isn’t the exception.

1. with jinx being shoved so violently into the public’s attention, violent words splashed right back at them. the first miniature crisis came shortly after debut. she never saw herself as fat or gross, but that didn’t stop the public from thinking so. rohui couldn’t count how many comments about her chest and thighs she read, just that it was enough to prompt a series of odd diets. she tried eating a small amount only once a day, just drinking water, eating only bananas, and it got  to the point where comments switched from her being ‘too fat to be an idol’ to people saying she ‘lost her charm’ and looked sickly. rohui struggled with her weight until 2016. that was when she let go of any care of what others thought of her.

2. if reopening her soundcloud and starting a youtube channel weren’t enough, in late 2017 rohui was asked to be a long term radio show host and was able to create her own show. of course her fans were happy, but there was some pushback from others. she was labeled a tryhard who didn’t care about jinx anymore and was told she was acting like a different person and not being herself (when she had been acting like a different person the entire time, only now showing the world her real personality). the songs on her soundcloud were more of the r&b genre and her youtube channel featured her love of film, books, and music production. having her radio show ‘wilted, bloomed’ aligned with these interests didn’t seem like a stretch to her. she knew from before that it was impossible and impractical to try to please everyone, this situation only solidified this fact even more.

3. reading a book was the last thing she thought would bring controversy, but ‘kim jiyoung, born 1982’ did just that for her in november of 2017. it wasn’t even like she paraded the book around, holding it above her head and shouting to the world ‘hey, look what i’m reading’. instead the very top of the book – just enough to show the title – was showing out of her bag at the airport. once one of the journalist pictures started circling the internet, some of her fans started showing their true colors. they burned her photocards, ripped her posters, unfollowed her on social media (after leaving hateful comments), vowed to never listen to a jinx song again, and declared rohui to be feminist trash who should be eradicated from the earth. there would never be a time where she would be able to understand the minds of men, so she wasn’t about to start now. she wasn’t going to apologize for her beliefs of equality or change herself to be liked by those fans.  

4. this time she knew exactly what she was doing. it was interesting how just one instagram post can cause a hurricane of hate. in the summer of 2018, she posted a picture of herself in the studio wearing a top, but no bra. in all fairness, she forgot she wasn’t wearing a bra while taking the picture and only noticed when she went to go upload it. ‘funny’ wasn’t the word she immediately thought of when she saw her name trending on naver or when all of the ‘is she losing her mind?!’ comments came in. looking back on the situation, it did prove to be funny. just the outline one slightly showing nipple through a completely opaque, black shirt turned a good portion of people who cared about her on their heads. rohui would upload a few more braless pictures here and there; maybe she was losing her mind, but she was also still making money and doing things she wanted to do.

5. everyone needs to have fun sometimes, rohui is no different. apparently celebrities aren’t allowed to have fun the same way normal people are, but that didn’t stop her from going to a few night clubs here and there. when she was younger and just starting her career, there was no time to go out. if there was, she made sure to disguise herself the best she could, putting on wigs and makeup different than the style she’d usually wear. now though, she has stopped caring. on december 31st, 2018 she went out with a few friends to a club in itaewon, got drunk, danced, and someone decided it would be a great idea to film her and post it on twitter. to her surprise, there was way less criticism than she’d thought there would be. people thought that this made her seem more human (thank god, because she discovered she really, really likes going to clubs).

some may say that her life as an idol has already climaxed and is falling, and she would say that they were right. rohui has little to no desire to resign with midas and is even counting down the days. she doesn’t see it as an end, though. instead, her life will finally begin as soon as that contract concludes