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the-shadow-of-atlantis · 4 years ago

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All The Stars (Pt 7)

Summary: The girls decide to go on an adventure. Pam belongs to @thespacebuns

Tagging: @thespacebuns @the-sun-and-their-moon @melyaliz @coffee-randomness @speedypan

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The girls' slytherin dorm room was quiet, or as quiet as it could get with Pam who was not fond of staying still. She wore her sneakers and tapped the heels together as she lay on the edge of the bed with her legs straight up in the air. Adeline was trying her best at knitting frowning when her stitching was coming out too loose. Stephania and Joanne were trying to catch up on some homework which Nova had no idea how they could have possibly gotten behind when Pam, Adeline, and her were the ones usually sneaking out.

Nova on the other hand was humming to herself as she checked the inventory on her potion ingredients. Marking in her notebook which ones she needed to refill and which ones were good. She frowned when she noticed just how many she needed to replace. The amount of times Nova had to place an order with her parents to bring her more ingredients was starting to get absurd. It didn’t help that Nova knew Snape had his own personal collection of ingredients yet he never shared with anyone. Nova let out an annoyed huff as she shut her notebook.

“What’s up?” Pam asked, perking up.

“I’m low on ingredients again.” Nova sighed as she started putting her bottles away.

“And.” Pam pressed nosing Nova was up to something.

“Snape has a closet full of potions and ingredients. But he never shares with anyone.” Nova grumbled.

“Maybe some of the ingredients are dangerous.” Stephania tried to defend the professor, but the defense made Nova snort.

“The majority of the castle is dangerous not to mention Peeves.” Pam countered.

Nova got up from her spot and tucked her things away but not before slipping out her special notebook.

“Well I’m going for a walk.” Nova said and with that left the common room, Pam and Adeline quickly followed her.

“That bloody wanker.” Nova hissed as she looked up at the many shelves that stored different ingredients and potions. “Gillyweed, nightshade, frogs breath, unicorn hair, veritaserum, he has bloody veritaserum.”

“Isn’t that illegal?” Pam asked as she looked at the jars of pickled intestines.

“Like that would stop Snape.” Nova mumbled.

“Are you guys almost done?” Adeline asked quietly from the other side of the door.

“Yeah.” Nova mumbled as she walked out a frown still on her brow. “I'm sure most of those things I could find in the forbidden forest.”

“Is it really forbidden or does it just have a spooky name to keep muggles out?” Pam asked.

“Well there's one way to find out.” Nova said with a sly smile.

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“Remember point your wands low.” Nova whispered as she pointed the light her wand was producing low to the ground.

“Why couldn’t we have come in here when the sun was still up?” Adeline whispered nervously huddling close to Pam.

“Where’s the fun in that?” Pam asked as she peered into the wood trying to make sense of the shapes.

“Oh I should have brought my telescope.” Nova whispered as she paused in a small opening and looked up at the night sky. “How can the stars look so much brighter in the forest?”

“Next time you can stargaze, for now get what you need.” Pam whispered shaking her head in amusement.

“Right, right.” Nova said looking back down and trying to study the plants around her.

“Did you get everything you need?” Adeline asked hovering much closer to Pam as the woods seemed to be getting colder the later it would get.

“I just need a few more things.” Nova replied as she finished bottling the last of the plant she was harvesting. “But I think I can get those during the day cause they should be located around the lake.”

“Cool, cause even I'm starting to get the creeps about this place.” Pam said looking around.

“Not everything that’s in the woods is bad.” Nova said getting up and brushing the dirt off her pants. “These creatures just aren’t used to humans.”

“And that’s comforting how?” Pam asked as she started to follow Nova.

“Oh wait wait.” Nova said as she paused looking up at the clear patch of sky, she quickly pulled out her notebook and began trying to chart the starts.

“Seriously?” Pam hissed.

“Just give me a moment.” Nova said as she focused on the stars trying to identify them as she sketched.

"Guys I think something moved." Adeline squeaked.

"I'm almost done." Nova whispered.

"Nova." Pam squeaked out also.

"What?" Nova asked almost hissing then paused as the giant spider stood before them. How did she miss that?

The spider clicked and hissed and the girls screamed. Nova instinctively held out her wand and shouted the first spell that came to mind. Red sparks bounced off the spider harmlessly and it hissed again. The girls took off running every now and then shooting back spells at the creature. Was it technically illegal to use the killing curse if it was aimed at a giant insect? Nova didn't really have time to find out because Adeline suddenly tripped and fell.

Pam and Nova quickly returned and tried to pry away the roots that seemed to keep Adeline in their clutches. The spider was gaining on them and Nova stood protectively in front of her friends racking her brain for a better spell. Suddenly a large shadow passed over them and Nova froze wondering if maybe they were lead into a trap and other spider was waiting for them. Instead Nova was met with the backend of a horse.

“Halt.” A loud booming voice said, it took nova a second to realize it was coming from the horse except it wasn't a horse. “You know very well the students are off limits.”

The spider hissed and clicked angrily as it shuffled from side to side contemplating if it should also attack the centaur. In the end the spider hissed in annoyance and scurried off. The centaur turned to face them but seemed to pause when it spotted Nova. He leaned forward and studied her eyes though he seemed to focus on just one of them. After a few moments he straightened up and turned serious.

“What are you doing wandering the forest this late at night?” He asked.

“Would you believe us if I said we were collecting potion ingredients?” Nova asked her hand resting on her bag hoping she didn't break anything.

"Don't humans have places to acquire such things." It sounded more like a statement then a question.

"Yes but I figured I'd save my parents the money." Nova shrugged.

"The woods are a dangerous place. Some creatures know best to stay away other will not hesitate to eat." The centaur stated.

"Well we would have gotten out sooner if Nova hadn't been star gazing." Pam said poking her younger out at Nova.

Again the centaur seemed to study Nova carefully when he heard her name.

"You like to study the stars." Again it seemed like more of a statement then a question.

"When I have the time." Nova said simply looking down at her hands only to realize she was only holding her wand.

"Oh no my book." Nova exclaimed as she patted her bag as if the book would suddenly appear. "Poppycock I think I dropped it when we got attacked."

Nova was about to walk back the way they had run from when the centaur held his arm out and stopped her.

“You will return to the castle now before even more creatures discover you are here.” He said.

“But my notebook.” Nova pouted in the direction they came. However she knew they definitely should head back to the castle and make sure Adeline was okay.

“What ar’ you three doin’ in the woods?” Hagrid nearly shouted when they approached his hut.

“Make sure they are returned safely to the castle Hagrid.” The centaur said.

“Will do Ferinsi.” Hagrid nodded and quickly ushered the girls to his side to take them back to the castle.

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“I can’t believe you three were caught in the woods, after curfew, got attacked by a giant spider, then saved by a centaur, and you only lost 50 points.” Cedric said as he got his broom ready.

“In our defense Dumbledore found it amusing that the reason behind our venture is that Snape is stingy with his ingredients. Also Adeline wouldn’t stop apologizing.” Nova shrugged and Adeline blushed.

Cedric shook his head and turned to face Pam. “You ready.”

Pam nodded and kicked it off on her broom with Cedric following behind her. As Nova waited for them to finish she went to the edge of the lake and began inspecting the plants picking the ones she would need for potions. When her friends finished she was trying to take inventory again.

"I miss my notebook." Nova pouted as she erased a part of her note and recounted.

"What's so important about that notebook?" Pam asked as she sat down beside her.

"I have everything in that notebook." Nova said simply. "My personal star charts, my favorite spells, my favorite potions, my personal map of the school."

"That notebook is so small how are you able to fit all of that in there?" Cedric asked in disbelief.

"I have my ways." Nova shrugged but then frowned. "But it's lost now and I doubt I'll be able to find it again. I'll have to start from scratch."

"You'll manage." Pam said patting Nova on the back then looked up at Cedric. "Round two?"

"You're on." Cedric smiled.

"I have no idea how you two can fly around in those things." Nova wrinkled her nose at the brooms.

"Says the girl who wants to go to space in a tin can." Pam snickered.

"At least the tin can has seatbelts." Nova countered though rather weakly.

"Yeah yeah." Pam smiled as she hopped up. "Come on let's do this I really want to get on the team next year."

Again the two took off to the sky and Nova sighed trying to focus on her work. Her friends were still in the area Pam was giving Cedric a run for his money and Nova couldn't help but wonder why the Slytherin quidditch team didn't let her on. Suddenly Nova couldn't help but feel like someone was watching her, turning around she didn't see anyone but she did notice some of the tree leaves rustling.

“I’ll be right back.” Nova said to Adeline who looked at her nervously.

After making sure that the coast was clear Nova ventured to the edge of the woods. She didn't have to go far until her foot tapped against something on the floor. Looking down Nova immediately recognized her notebook. Quickly she scooped it up and inspected it, it didn't appear to be damaged. However when she opened it she found that the star chart she had been working on before the attack had been completed. Looking up into the woods Nova simply smiled before closing the notebook and headed back to her friends.

#hp oc #slytherin oc #all the stars

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seriouslyblacklikemysoul · 7 years ago

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Shelter - Remus Lupin x Reader (contains smut)

Request: would you ever do a PoA Professor Lupin and student y/n smut imagine?? If you can't, then that's okay! I absolutely love your work and if you're not comfortable with writing it, then that's absolutely fine ✨ Warnings: This is a PROFESSOR Remus imagine that contains smut. It’s perfectly legal since the reader is 18. However, if you do not like the idea or feel comfortable with it, please don’t read this. Just scroll past it. (I have to tell you though, that there is nothing wrong with relationships with an age difference-personal experience.) .Other than that, my English and the smut part, which is not the most graphic smut I have written. (under the cut) Image and gifs aren’t mine/ Credits to their original owners. Word count: 6k+ MASTERLIST

You knew you were in for a hell of a year since the moment you laid eyes on him. You didn’t know why or what but you knew… your last year would be a year to remember. You had missed the Sorting Ceremony, again. So, you went to your dorm and settled things down while you waited for everyone to fall asleep. You would then sneak to the kitchens and grab something to eat. Naturally, you were in for a surprise, but of course, you had no idea. After a while, it was late enough for you to go unnoticed. You had quickly found the pear and tickled it, transforming it into a door- knob. You smiled to yourself. You had found your way around the castle without that ridiculous map that the twins had stolen from Filch’s office. You knew every single secret passageway and every single corridor-you knew Hogwarts. You were friends with them, with all of the Weasleys. Maybe it had something to do with the fact that you had briefly dated Charlie. Even though you had realized that you were better off as friends after a while. You had bonded with the twins over Quidditch and pranks. You had tried to make them study-it had ended badly; your hair had gone pink, the color you hated the most, for a week. You crept inside the kitchens, and almost immediately were greeted by the kind house elves. “Hello, Miss! Welcome back!! What can Bloom get you, miss?” one of them asked you. “What have I told you, guys? It’s just Y/N” you smiled warmly at them. They just shrugged it off and started preparing only Merlin knows what. At some point, you were worried about the amount of food they were piling up, so you just stopped them, reaching for the chocolate bar that was right before you. “Um, guys… Chill. I think I’ll just grab some chocolate and-” but before you could finish off with your sentence you heard a low cough like someone wanted to make their presence known, coming from behind you back. Oh, no. You slowly turned around, ready to face the music-and probably Snape and detention- only to find a very, very, disturbingly young man, looking at you, rather amused. He had a beautiful face no matter his scars, that under the dim candle light illuminating the room, seemed to be soft and strangely attractive. He must have been in his early thirties, you thought. Oh, shit. He has to be your new DADA professor. He was your teacher? Great. “Hello” you said sheepishly and lowered your gaze, but not for long. You found yourself way too captivated by his kind eyes to look away. You saw him fighting a chuckle. “It’s past curfew, miss…” he trailed off, not really reprimanding you. You smiled and all your confidence had rushed back in. You were never the coward one. “Y/L/N. Oh, I know” you said, raising an eyebrow in emphasis. You liked challenging people. Not too much but just enough. Which seemed to be the case here as well. He was slightly surprised at your answer. He thought that you would apologize and rush out of the kitchen. But there you were, sitting on the table, opening the wrapped chocolate bar, answering back completely nonchalant. He stayed silent for a couple of seconds while you hadn’t even dreamt of breaking the eye contact you held with him. His eyes. “You do realize I could give you detention, Miss Y/L/N, right?” he asked you. You could tell that he intended to be strict but it didn’t exactly work. Instead, his tone sounded playful and a bit… provocative. You jumped off the table, walking over to him-it wasn’t your fault he was standing near the door. “But you won’t” you said steadily while piercing his eyes with your intense gaze. He was taken aback by your boldness. You chuckled lightly. “Goodnight… professor” you bid him goodbye, sending him a wink before you walked out. Oh, boy. What just happened?

You knew it was going to be bad. The moment you walked into his class, you just knew it. He had insisted on focusing on the practical experience of facing a boggart. You knew very well that you weren’t capable of facing your worst feat. It was simple, really. You didn’t fear something that could take shape. You feared your own mind. Your life was a lonesome experience and you could understand that very fact more than anyone. You carried the weight of humanity itself with you everywhere you went. You could say that you were trouble. You never really fitted in- your mind was so unending, you knew no limitations. Dumbledore had said that those were signs of geniuses. You thought that those were the signs of madness. Nobody quite understood what made you different, you didn’t even understand it yourself- but you felt it. You felt deep in your bones. You were the lone, last star of each ending night, that was still shining brightly as the sun began to rise. You knew you were no good. Maybe, professors saw an excellent student; maybe, your friends saw an amazing prankster; maybe your ex had seen a great lover. But none of those things were true. Not entirely, at least. And that feeling, being numb, that was your worst fear. It paralyzed you. That was why, when that boggart never took shape, you were instantly unable to move. Nobody really knew what was going on. Your classmates thought you feared nothing and the boggart couldn’t morph, but he knew the truth. Before he could help you, you had helped yourself. You weren’t looking for a knight-you were looking for a sword. You remembered every single moment that you felt like you had a family of your own. The twins making you burst into laughter in the middle of the Great Hall with their crazy pranks, Cedric making you feel welcomed and appreciated with his kind personality, Oliver counting on you to win the game. You were not alone, and you gave a silent promise to yourself to never feel numb. Even if the pain became too much to handle. Even if there wasn’t a single hope left. Even if the end was near. You would never shut yourself. Because, feeling, even the pain, was what made us humans. Because feeling and feeling too much was better than forgetting what it was like to have emotions. Feelings made something real. And you wouldn’t change that for the world. You hadn’t turned your boggart into something funny. You had simply placed it back inside the trunk that it had been. You looked at him, searching for something you didn’t even know what it was. His soft, rich caramel eyes were already on you. He seemed… confused. You stepped back, letting the next person in line perform the spell. You slipped out of the class and you knew that he had noticed, but you simply couldn’t stay there. However, you knew that he knew, so you had to face him at some point. But you couldn’t bring yourself to do that. You couldn’t face those big, soft, caramel eyes. Oh, Merlin. I am melodramatic.

For the next month, you had avoided his classes. You would come up with excuses, silly ones to stay away from him. You knew it wasn’t… shit, what were you supposed to do? Because the truth was… you had developed a crush on your professor. You couldn’t help it. He was kind and caring and sweet and gentle, he had helped Harry with his boggart… and you knew what he was hiding. You had guessed it the very first time you saw him. The secret behind his scars. Scars that to everybody else would seem… weird, or even ugly. But to you… to you, they were perfect. You wanted to trace your hands along his scars, you wanted to kiss every single one of them. And you had to contain yourself, or you would sigh in front of everyone. “Hello?”. You snapped your head towards… Fred and George. “What?” you asked as in a haze. You couldn’t possibly focus on anything else but him. You were having breakfast- well, coffee to be exact- and you could feel his eyes burning holes on your back. You knew it was him and you felt guilty. He hadn’t even mentioned that you were skipping classes to Dumbledore. “Lupin told us to tell you to get your ass to his office after class” the said in unison. You raised an eyebrow in question. “He told you to get my ass to his office?” you asked sarcastically, but you were too worried and stressed out to actually care. “Well, not per say. But that was the meaning. What did you do?” Fred said at once. You, however, didn’t want to answer. Because you knew what had led him to call you to his office. Your mind though, oh… that dirty little mind of yours. You were imagining all kind of inappropriate things you would do to him if you ever had the chance. And then it hit you. You would have to attend his class today in order to see him after. That little shit. Suddenly, you weren’t feeling all that guilty. “Nothing that concerns you two” you answered calmly. They just smirked. Sometimes, you could swear, they were able to read your mind. You blushed and kept your head lowered. Great. The day had passed in a blur. You didn’t really pay attention to any of your classes until… his. You were about to sit down as far away as possible when you realized that the were no desks or seats. Your eyes met his. For the first time in a month, you felt your heart squeezing in a strange way. His eyes were intense and a bit greener and a little less caramel that what you remembered. And captivating. Always so captivating. Before you could continue your daydream, more students walked in and he removed his gaze from yours. “Does anyone know what a Patronus is?” he asked the class after a while. His voice was soft and melodic, rich and kind. You had it bad. “A Patronus is primarily used to repel Dementors. They can also be used for communication by accomplished witches and wizards, sir” a girl said, ogling him, causing you the urge to throw up. “Very well. What else can you tell us?” he continued and you felt like you could melt. It was his voice, so it was his fault. “The Patronus is Guardian which acts as a shield between you and the Dementor like a projection of the very things that the Dementor feeds upon such hope, happiness, the desire to survive. However, since the Patronus is an incantation the Dementors can’t hurt it. The Patronus has two forms, non-corporeal and corporeal. A non-corporeal Patronus can appear as ‘a thin wisp of silver’ that hovers ‘like mist.’ Whereas a corporeal Patronus has a form that is clearly defined and is more than vapor or smoke. The ability to cast a corporeal or non-corporeal Patronus is down to the skill of the witch or wizard. Each Patronus is unique to the witch or wizard who conjures it, and it’s possible, in some cases, for a Patronus to change” you said looking him directly in the eyes. You simply had to answer, otherwise that… girl would receive his attention. Oh, no. No. No. You couldn’t be… were you jealous? Great. Amazing. You had a crush on your professor and you were jealous of everyone who caught his eye. Very… nice. He was clearly taken aback; he didn’t believe you would participate since you had been avoiding his classes for a month now. “Precisely miss Y/L/N” he praised you and you blushed. Where was your confidence? He went on about the charm, how to pronounce it and details about the way to cast it, but you already knew that. You may haven’t been able to produce a corporeal Patronus yet but you had been practicing since a very young age. “Miss Y/L/N. Why don’t you demonstrate for us?” he simply asked you in a way you could have never said no. He gestured the front of the class. Another amazing moment of your amazing day. You walked over there confidently, suddenly feeling like yourself again. You focused on your memories. Not one, as he had said, but many happy ones. Your first time on a broom, your first Quidditch game, your Hogwarts letter, your friends and the pranks you had pulled, the people you cared about. Before you could control it, his face appeared only to disappear seconds later. You didn’t have to say the incantation out loud. With a flicker of your wand, a silvery form emerged. Was that a… Thestral? The creature walked towards you and bow down its head for you to pet it. You placed your-shaking- hand on its fragile head. It was so surreal. You knew you were one of few people who could see those magnificent animals. They are only visible to people who have seen someone dying and fully accepted, understood and internalized the concept. The animal slowly raised its head and its eyes met his, lowering lightly its head in an indication of respect and then it disappeared. You didn’t move for a few seconds after that. You could hear that the other students were performing the spell as well. Some of them, summoning a corporeal Patronus, some of them not. You were a bit lost for a while after that, so, naturally, you jumped slightly when you felt a hand on your shoulder, shaking you gently. You focused your vision on his face, but you were too confused to remember your little crush. “Are you alright?” he asked you politely but concerned. You hadn’t realized that no one else was in the classroom. You nodded, forcing a smile, but it was too weak to last more than a couple seconds. With his hand on your back, he prompted you to his desk and made you sit down. “Why a Thestral?” you questioned, not really asking him; you asked yourself. He eyed you cautiously. “A Patronus is a representation of who you are and is manifested by a creature that represents you in some way. I have to ask you… have you witnessed a death?” he quietly asked you. They all did, eventually. “Three. My parents and my brother were killed-no, murdered by Voldemort himself. Such an honor” you answered softly, trying to prevent the memories from drowning you, therefore the use of sarcasm. He seemed to grow quieter. You didn’t want pity. “I think it is safe to say that those with this Patronus often have the gentlest souls of all, an exceptional wizard or witch who has emerged strong from a dark past” he said in a small voice, making eye contact with you, or trying to, since you wouldn’t look anywhere near him. “I do have to ask you one more thing. Why did you avoid my class the previous month?” he continued once he realized that you weren’t going to look at him. What could you possibly tell him? “First the boggart, now my Patronus. What is it with your class that makes my life so difficult?” you playfully asked. It was your coping mechanism. You dared to look at him, a small smile playing on his lips-oh, his lips… and that small scar on his upper lip…

It was your birthday, it was Saturday and it was freezing. You had the day to yourself since your friends had visited Hogsmeade. You had decided to stay and stroll around the almost empty castle. It was snowing and everything was covered in white. It was serene. You had purposely missed the breakfast so you could sneak something from the kitchens- some chocolate and tea would be nice. This time you greeted the house elves but since they didn’t have something to do, you wouldn’t keep them there, forcing them to make you something. You were a big girl. You could do it yourself.

You were boiling the water needed for the tea when a small cough made you jump and spill it on you. Many profanities left your mouth that moment. “I’m sorry, Y/N. Oh, Merlin, you must have burnt yourself” a guilty voice said, making you snap your head towards it. You were face to face with him. He seemed tired, exhausted really. And then you remembered… the full moon was two days ago. His eyes were more caramel that green, this time. You quickly muttered a drying spell along with a healing one and smiled comfortingly. “No need to. I’m perfectly alright” you said extremely nonchalant. You returned to the counter and started preparing tea again. “What brings you here, Professor?” you inquired amused. He let out a heavy breath and came next to you, placing his back against the edge of the wooden counter. Well, it wasn’t his back, but his hips… but that, you chose to ignore. You had talked and chatted few times after class, before class, in between classes. For nothing and everything. Sometimes he would do the talking, sometimes he would listen. Sometimes he would let something small of his past slip. You could tell that he didn’t mean to, but he didn’t really regret it either. Sometimes your conversations would be about the weather; sometimes about the very meaning of existence. A week ago, he had found himself wanting to tell you about his secret. You had seen it in his eyes. That was the thing about you. People were opening up to you, easily. It had something to do with the fact that you never judged anyone, that you accepted almost everything, that you wouldn’t be afraid to fight and stand up for your loved ones. He had discovered that you may were just eighteen, but you weren’t just eighteen. And even though you didn’t know this, he had found himself waiting with anticipation your next talk. He hadn’t answered when you handed him a cup of tea. It was your favorite and quite coincidentally his as well. He smiled at you, but he was tired and you felt bad for him. You reached for the top self-even though you weren’t that tall, you managed to get it. Two of the most amazing chocolate bars ever created. You smiled brightly, handing him one. He looked puzzled but entertained. “When someone gives you chocolate, you don’t ask questions. You just take it” you said in a playfully serious tone, taking a sip of your tea. It was hot and exactly what you needed. “Thank you, Y/N” he told you, rather moved by your small action. You just shrugged it off. “So what brings you here?” he asked you, moments later, a smirk plastered on his face, lighting up the whole country. “Hey!” you retorted. It wasn’t fair, using your question. He raised his eyebrows in amusement. You rolled your eyes, dramatically. “Fine. I wanted to have my special day spent with chocolate” you informed him, but he furrowed his eyebrows. You sighed heavily to add to the drama. “It’s my birthday” you said with a fake exasperation. His eyes twinkled with something that if you didn’t know any better you would identify as…hope? Mixed with something else. You couldn’t quite put your finger on it, but it was there. He placed down his cup and chocolate onto the table next to him. “Happy Birthday!” he wished you, excitedly. Before you could answer, he had enveloped you into a hug. You were thrown off. Like, completely off. After a few seconds, though, you shyly hugged him back, whispering a ‘thank you’ before breaking apart. He seemed shocked and happy and more shocked. Like he didn’t expect himself to be that bold. Or you to return the gesture. He had even blushed-something that made you realize that your crush was long gone and it had been replaced by something deeper. A connection you couldn’t understand in all its glory because you had never felt like that before. “Thank you, Professor” you said again but it didn’t feel right, calling him professor. “Call me Remus outside the class” he said so naturally that, again, he was taken aback by his own words and boldness. You chuckled lightly. “Remus” you said tentatively. He instantly smiled and your whole world seemed brighter.

You were proud of yourself. You hadn’t missed a single class and your grades were better than ever. You enjoyed school this year, but for entirely different reasons. It was something about him that made you feel… good, after a long time. You were very well aware of everything that would appear to be ‘problematic’. But you were also aware of your feelings. You felt l so naked when you were with him. He could strip you of your walls, of your guarded defenses, leaving you completely and utterly vulnerable. He had shattered any mental boundaries you had ever possessed. He left you breathless with his aura and creative, rhythmic way of speaking to everyone. You were losing your mind and falling into madness and it felt okay, almost a necessity. He showed you how to embrace the lack of time that humans all have, that death was the inevitable and that was not as important as people around you made it seem. You were out of your mind and that was such a wonderful thing. Your conversations were longer and more meaningful; you had found yourself in the Astronomy Tower the other night, talking to him about your love for the night sky and how you preferred the stars over the moon. Especially the full moon-you had seen him tensed up a bit and you had ‘accidentally’ let a hint slip through your lips. You had gone silent after that until you decided to tell him. You asked him when he would trust you enough, if ever. He had looked bewildered and slightly worried. You had smiled his anxiousness away, letting him know that you knew, and it was perfectly alright because it was still him, even if he didn’t think that. That you couldn’t care less. You didn’t know this, but in that moment, he had to admit to himself something that he kept pushing away all this time. He was captivated by your very essence. And it didn’t matter that you were a student-he never saw you as anything less than an equal; sometimes he saw someone greater in you- greater than anyone who had met before. Someone who held the wisdom of the world inside their soul. You had told him that you had always felt older than your age and that even Dumbledore had said that sometimes you were older than him. He had laughed and that sound was honey to your ears. Ever since that night, you were closer to each other, stealing glances and sending small smiles even across the class. You could sense that he was low-key, proud of you when you declined every single boy that had come up and asked you out on a date. You didn’t want to get your hopes up, but you felt it. Due to your past of falsehoods, you had developed this theory that all men are no good, worthless. He had shown you that men could be loyal, passionate, tender, and caring creatures. The boys you have dealt with were the complete opposite. He had made you see that there was a huge difference between the boys you had dated and the man you craved. You had finally met someone who meant more than a lot to you. And not just the ‘he makes me feel special’ but that person that you would fight harder for than you would for yourself. That person that made you want to be better, that showed you your true essence that you didn’t know existed until they came along. You had discovered things about yourself just from being with him. It started as a crush; after a while, you found yourself in love; and now… you could feel something more. Something selfless. It was the little things he would do that made you smile and cry at the same time. You knew that he felt it too-maybe not in the romantic way you did, but still. There was a connection that no one could deny. It was a cold February night but your heart was warmer than ever. In fact, it was so warm you couldn’t handle it. You couldn’t really take it anymore. You had found your way to his chambers. You didn’t really know how you were to say this. You couldn’t exactly walk in and go all ‘Hello, I’m in love with you. Okay, bye’. But once he opened the door, even that felt like a good idea. He was ravishing in the dim light. He smiled and it seemed that the sun had lost its glory. His eyes captured yours and you felt like you could melt under his gaze. You loved him. Merlin, you did. How could you be so stupid, thinking that it was just a crush? When you didn’t respond, he furrowed his eyebrows, asking you if you were alright, stepping aside so you could walk in. The moment that door closed, every single restraint you had… was gone. Every single defensive mechanism… gone. “I need to tell you something. I am in love with you. I have been for a while now. And I know that I am not supposed to feel that way. But I do and I can’t shake you off of my mind. You’re constantly there, reminding of everything I want and cannot have. Your mind is a masterpiece and your soul is ethereal. Extremely delicate and light in a way that seems too perfect for this world. Effortlessly, you shine brighter than the sun itself and when you smile, every pair of knees weaken, bowing down to the ingenious design you are. You are the kind of art that captures the blinding light that keeps me from opening my eyes, but how I foolishly don’t mind and long to go blind by such greatness. Your imperfections are my delight” you finally told him. You had let go of everything that was holding you back. You knew what he would tell you and you knew that he would try to make it hurt as less as possible, but he would start avoiding you. And even the thought hurt but you couldn’t cope with it any longer. When you finally looked at him, he was pale and visibly shaken. “I think you should go” he said in a small voice. He didn’t sound mad or angry or strict. You nodded. You had clearly overstepped your boundaries. You reached for the knob, but before you opened the door, you whispered a question that would torture his mind for a while. “Is it because of the ‘difficulties’ or because you don’t like me like that? I don’t need an answer. But you do”. With that, and a stolen glance you left his room, closing the door behind you. You let out a long breath. At least, you were honest with him and most importantly, with yourself. He was your teacher after all and almost twice your age. You could see the ‘problems’ as other people would call them. You weren’t stupid. You were, however, completely, unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him. But that didn’t mean that he was.

You were merely right. You hadn’t talked or chatted or looked each other ever since that night. He wasn’t avoiding you per say, but he wasn’t thrilled spending time with you, either. And that’s why you never pressured things. You had done your part. And he had done his. It hurt because you were pretending you didn’t feel that way anymore, but in all honesty, you were falling even harder every time you saw him, thought about him… him. You had felt the urge to bang your head against a wall or something in order to stop thinking scenarios that would never be true. Months had gone by. April was almost gone. You felt that you needed a change. That was the main reason that you agreed on a ‘friendly’ date. He was good looking, smart and funny. He was a really nice boy. But that was all he was. A boy. Nonetheless, you had decided to dress up a bit. It was spring and the sun was spreading its warmth all over the place, so after a lot of thinking you found yourself in a beautiful yet casual lilac dress, with your hair in loose curls and a touch of makeup. You looked good, you thought a tad surprised. You were about to turn when you bumped into someone. You would have apologized quicker if it wasn’t for your lack of focus. “I-I’m sorry, professor” you whispered. You saw him grimacing at your last word but then his expression turned into one of admiration. You knew you had blushed, feeling his eyes roaming your body like a second skin. You locked eyes with him. You could see the desire in them. Act on it, you stubborn git, you thought to yourself. He opened and closed his mouth too many times. You just shook your head and left. Or tried to. His hand was wrapped around your wrist, gently, almost scared by the very action. You halted and faced him. You were done playing games. You have had enough. And he did too, apparently. “I’ve tried distancing myself, making up excuses, intentionally finding reasons to avoid you but none of it ever worked” he admitted shyly but… finally. Your eyes widened a bit, your breath was caught on the back of your throat. Did he really just say that? “Never have I felt something more compelling than this bond we share. But I’m your teacher and twice your age and that’s not even the worst part. I can’t escape these feelings but I don’t know what to do, Y/N” he continued. He seemed almost vulnerable. Feeling like you would explode, you slowly brought your hands to his face, cupping his cheek, electrified by the touch. He pierced your eyes with his and boy, you were a goner. Not being able to handle it any longer, you crashed your lips to his. It didn’t set off fireworks, it set off an atomic bomb. His lips were soft and warm yet hungry. He kissed you deeply and pulled you closer, his hands wrapped around your waist, holding you in place. You kissed him back with the equal amount of lust and hunger and emotion. You softly bit his lower lip, tracing your tongue across it. But he pulled away, leaving you… empty. “We shouldn’t. This is wrong” he murmured trying to convince himself more than anything else. You grabbed his hand and without letting him complain, dragged him-quite literally- to his room. Thankfully it was just around the corner.

The moment that the door was closed, you attacked his lips and pinned him against the wall. You wanted him. You craved him. It had been almost a year. A year of built up emotions and… well, this. “Does this feel wrong to you?” you asked him, your voice stripped of every inhibition. Your tongue began to lick his lips, your teeth biting his lower lip again asking for permission. He didn’t respond at first but then… He pulled you closer to his body leaving you breathless by his sudden action. His hands were on your, roaming your body like his eyes had done before. He felt brave enough to slide his tongue inside your mouth. You thought that you would explode. A soft moan escaped your mouth. He tasted like chocolate. You were intoxicated by his scent. Sugar and ink and spice. You felt dizzy, going weak at the knees. His hands trailed down to your thighs as they wrapped your legs around hips, causing you goosebumps. You felt him going hard and you could only guess how… gifted he must be. Your hands went to the back of his neck, getting lost in his hair, tugging a fistful occasionally. You swiftly removed his shirt, not even asking permission, revealing his toned torso and his scars. You felt him stiffen but you were faster. Your hands lest his neck and softly touched his chest, caressing his skin and tracing his scars with your fingertips.You found him absolutely breathtaking. You bit down on his neck, nibbling the sensitive skin with your teeth before you whispered how beautiful he was like that. His hands found the zipper and took your dress off, leaving you wrapped around him in just your lingerie. You gently removed yourself from him, standing on your feet, smiling playfully at him while you made your way to his bed. He was watching you like he was the hunter and you were the prey. You sat down on the mattress and slowly laid on your back. He moved fast. The next thing you knew, he was hovering above you, taking your image in. You knew that he was beyond aroused and you were getting a bit… needy. He unhooked your lacy bra with his slender fingers as you arched your upper body to help him, while his mouth was trailing down to your collarbone and to the top of your breasts. He began to suck on your skin leaving hickeys and love bites wherever his mouth was. He moved to your nipples, sucking them into his mouth, making you moan louder and louder. You weren’t the innocent girl people thought you were. In fact, you wanted more to control than obey. You could see his eyes darken with lust, pure desire. He glanced down to your tiny underwear and then back to your eyes, asking you if you wanted it. You didn’t just want it. You needed it. His mouth trailed down to your belly, kissing all the way to the hem of your panties. The things that man was doing to you. He quickly removed the cloth that was blocking his view and dove into your heat, tasting you. You let out a gasp. He felt so perfect between your legs. Your hands went to his hair, grabbing a fistful. He moved his elegant fingers to your core, his thumb pressed against your clit as your writhed beneath his talented tongue and fingers. He licked up and down slowly, making sure you were a moaning mess. You let out all sort of noises; Whimpers, moans, heavy breaths. You knew you were dripping by the time he stuck two of his fingers inside of you, making you gasp again in surprise. He kept his pace fast and rough. You were moaning his name like a mantra. You were almost there. And he stopped. You whined in protest, your chest rising and falling at a frantic pace. How dared he? He hovered above you once again, trying to capture your lips in a kiss, but you had different things planned. You flipped him over, straddling him. You cupped his face in your small hands and kissed him feverishly. You slowly unzipped his trousers and trailed one hand down his boxers, softly palming him. You got a groan as an answer and smiled into the kiss before you broke apart, ready to return the favor. But he stopped you and your face fell. What happened? His hands found yours and placed them onto his shoulders as he lifted his body, removing his trousers and boxers entirely. You were straddling him with one leg on either side but you wanted to tease him a bit before lowering yourself entirely onto his penis. You hovered, brushing against the tip of his cock with your clit and you left open-mouthed kissed to his chest. He groaned as if you had tortured him. You chuckled and kissed him hungrily as you slowly used your hand to guide his *cough, huge, cough* cock inside you, stretching you out. His hands were gripping your thighs so hard that you wouldn’t be surprised if you had bruises after a while. You started moving up and down along his length while tilting your hips slightly when you were pushing down so that they rotated. You felt him rubbing all the right places. You attacked his neck, trying to muffle your moans because he was extremely good but failing as he picked up the pace, thrusting hard when you were pushing down, reaching places you never knew existed. He was thrusting hard and fast and you had to contain yourself not to lose it. He flipped you over, pinning you down against his bed. There was a new kind of hunger in his eyes. You wrapped your legs around him and when he moved this time, it was heaven. He started hitting your special spot and you thought that you couldn’t feel any better but you were proven wrong once his fingers started toying with your clit. And in that moment, you actually screamed his name and grasped the sheets underneath you. You felt your walls tightening around him, making him let out a growl. You saw the wolf in his eyes and you were determined to see him again and again. “Rem, I am-” you didn’t get to finish your sentence because he moved inside of you in a way that sent you over the edge, releasing all over him. That and you beneath him made him spill inside of you. Your name fell off his lips a couple of dozen times as an obsecration. You felt like you were his shelter and you couldn’t contain yourself. He panted heavily before pulling out and lying beside you. You hadn’t fixed your breath yet but you brought your hand on his torso, trailing his scars, wondering how can a person be that strong. He wrapped his arm around your waist pulling you even closer, as you rested your head in the crook of his neck, getting drunk off him again. “Did that feel wrong to you?” you asked, your voice filled with emotions. He placed a tender kiss on the top of your head. “You have no idea how long I wanted to kiss you” he whispered as his hands were rubbing small circles on your back. “Well, you certainly did more than that, Rem” you said suggestively, kissing his neck. You could feel his pulse accelerating a bit too fast but you just chuckled. “I like it when you say my name” he admitted shyly. You looked him in the eyes and smiled. “Remus, Remus, Remus” you kept repeating and felt your cheeks blushing. He, however, had indeed found a piece of heaven. He thought that he didn’t deserve it but he was selfish and he was going to keep it and cherish it.

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