#Caroline Graham Hansen fic

[putellas14]

Winner Takes All (Caroline Graham Hansen x Reader ficlet)

"Good luck today, baby! I know you're going to win this. " You stretched your legs out on the hotel bed, looking out the window at Sydney.

"Are you going to be able to watch, at least?" Caroline asked. You could hear the disappointment in her voice that you weren't there.

"Of course, love. Training should be done by then and they're going to let us stay here and watch the game in the conference room." You'd told Caroline that the trainers at Barcelona wouldn't give you the time off to go watch the World Cup final in person. The only reason you weren't with the team playing today was because you'd injured yourself a month before the tournament began and you were only now just getting back to training.

"Okay, well, I'm glad you can at least watch."

"You know I'd be there if I could be, right?"

"Yeah, I know."

"Okay. Go get the girls ready, captain. I can't wait to see you lift that trophy. I love you."

"I love you. I'll call you afterwards. Bye, babe."

"Good luck." You tossed your phone on the bed next to you and scootched off. You were meeting up with Caroline's family soon and you needed to get ready. You ran a hand over the name on the jersey laying on the bed. You'd never worn a Graham jersey in public before. But today felt like the right day. Checking your watch, you cursed yourself for talking to her for so long. You were definitely going to be late. You quickly changed your clothes and rushed out of the hotel.

You were amazed by the crowd when you walked into the stadium. Almost every seat was filled. You'd met with Caroline's parents outside but decided to wait going to your seat until it was nearly game time. Caroline often stopped to wave at her parents before heading into the locker room after warm ups. And you didn't want to risk ruining the surprise.

Just before kickoff, you made your way down to Caroline's family. You hugged some of the other girls' parents you knew and took your seat. Watching her walk out with the captain's armband on filled you with pride. She had proven herself as a leader when she flew to Canada and begged Coach Nelson to come to Norway. He had made all the difference for this team. It was one reason you were extremely sad to miss this World Cup. You always missed your time playing football but being able to see Caroline lead the team to this final was a huge moment that you had missed.

You watched the game on the edge of your seat. Caroline had that look on her face when she went in for the half. She was in her head. She was likely replaying key missed opportunities from the first half, trying to figure out how to improve for the second half. You took out your phone, shooting a quick text to her. Sometimes she checked her phone, sometimes she didn’t. You knew she didn't need the text to get herself ready for the second half, but you hoped maybe it would help a little.

Not twenty minutes into the second half, Maren scored and you were on your feet, screaming your head off. Caroline looked over to catch her dad's eye and saw you. And the little girl next to you. She stumbled coming out of the team celebration. Giggling to yourself, you blew her a kiss.

When the last five minutes hit, you were clutching her mom's hand. Japan scored in the 90th minute and you groaned to yourself. But then you heard cheers and looked up. The offside flag had come up. The VAR check on it seemed to last for hours. When nothing came from it, you jumped to your feet screaming. The girls just needed to hold on through injury time and that star would be theirs.

Four minutes of injury time. Four minutes of both teams fighting like hell for a goal. Norway to solidify their win. Japan to keep themselves in the game. Neither achieving their goal.

The final whistle brought a chill straight through your entire body. They'd won the World Cup. After everything they had been through. Despite everything they had been through. You hugged everyone around you. There were more than a few tears falling in the family section. You wished you could be down there celebrating with them. But this time you had to sit back and let your girl have her moment with her team.

And they did. They excitedly danced around the field, jumping in the piles of confetti and throwing it at each other. You were busy watching Guru dance with Ingrid that you missed Maren point towards you and Caroline run towards the stands. Her dad nudged you when Caroline tried to get your attention unsuccessfully. You looked down at her.

"Pass me the kid!" she yelled.

You helped Maria climb over the wall and down to Caroline. Everyone near them heard the yelled "Mama!" that she let out when Caroline swung her around. A few heads turned to look as Caroline showered the girl's face in kisses. She set her down on the grass and whispered something in her ear. Maria nodded and smiled up at her.

Caroline got closer to the wall again. She hugged her parents and then crooked her finger at you, telling you to come down towards the railing.

"Congratulations!" you said, stopping in front of her.

"Come closer," she said. You leaned down towards her, expecting a hug or something. You were not expecting her to grab the back of your neck and kiss you. Neither of you were shy about your relationship but you also both enjoyed your privacy. The kiss was hard and salty and over before it really began. You hugged her tightly, well as tightly as you could with the wall between you. She barely pulled away from you before she grabbed you by the hips and tossed you over her shoulder. The scream you let out must have been heard around the stadium. She tapped your butt and took off running, telling Maria to keep up.

"Put me down! I'm gonna kill you!" But she didn't put you down. Not until she reached the other girls. You smacked her shoulder as soon as your feet hit the grass. "You could've just asked me to come down."

"Security," Maren said simply, shrugging. The huge grin she gave you indicated that the idea had been hers. You yanked her into a hug.

"Congratulations, vennen." Just as you went to step back, you felt a huge spray hit the center of your back and you ducked hoping to avoid more. Your Barcelona teammate, Ingrid, followed you as you ran. Screaming, you ran behind Caroline, using her as a shield.

"What are you wearing?" Caroline asked, shoving Ingrid away before she could spray the both of you with more water. "Turn around." She pushed your shoulder until you turned. "Babe," she whispered. You felt her run a hand over the letters of her last name.

"I wanted to wear something special for you," you said, turning your head to look at her over your shoulder. She melted into you, wrapping her arms tightly around your waist and burying her head in the curve of your neck.

"You look good with my name on your back," she whispered into your neck.

You felt little arms wrap around your waist and looked down to see Maria holding onto both of you. Picking her up, you moved into Caroline's space so Maria could wrap her short arm around both of your necks.

"I love you," Caroline said, kissing her cheek. "And I love you," she said to you.

"Sorry to break this up, but they're calling us," Ingrid said. "It's time for the awards."

"Go," you said. You put a hand on Caroline's cheek and kissed her softly. "We'll be here waiting when you get back." You watched her walk away, pride swelling inside you. You and Maria moved off to the side to watch the awards ceremony. Maria cheered loudly, clapping her little hands when Caroline lifted the trophy.

You patiently waited for Caroline to enjoy the celebration. A few of your teammates had spotted you and come over to give you and Maria hugs. You were talking with Guru when Maria started wiggling in your arms and trying to get down. You set her down and watched her take off across the field. Worried, you tried to keep an eye on her while Guru continued talking one hundred miles an hour.

Maria ran right to Caroline, who was talking to Ada. Ada smiled down at the girl and ran a hand through her hair. You could see her say a few words to her before turning to leave them alone. Caroline sat down on the grass and pulled Maria into her lap to show off her medal.

You excused yourself from Guru and walked over to them slowly, taking in the scene in front of you. Caroline took her medal off and put it around Maria's neck, bringing an even bigger smile to her face. You watched Maria show the medal off and Caroline take in everything she said with great interest. This was the most important moment her career, and she was choosing to spend it with your daughter. Stopping, you kneeled down next to Caroline's outstretched legs.

"Marry me," you said suddenly, putting your hand on her knee.

"What?" she gasped, looking up at you.

"Marry me," you said again. "I want your name to always be the name on my back."

"Y/N," she whispered. "Are you sure?"

"Idiot. Of course. I want you to officially be Maria's mama." You saw her arm tighten around the child. You leaned into her leg. "So? Just going to leave me hanging here?"

"No. No, I mean, yes!"

You giggled nervously. "Is that a no or a yes?"

"Yes!" She leaned forward to wrap her free arm around you. You locked your arms around her neck, holding her to you. "I love you."

"We love you, superstar."

"Mommy, look!" Maria yelled, not paying attention to anything her parents were saying. "I'm a winner!"  She held out the medal around her neck.

You pulled back from Caroline enough to see Maria. "We all won today," you said smiling. Caroline kissed your cheek as you ran a hand through Maria's curls.

"We all won everything today," she said, breathing out a sigh into your neck. "I won everything today."

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[m1edemafc]

bilbao is one hell of a drug

pairing: lucy bronze/ona batlle, ingrid engen/mapi león, caroline graham hansen/marta torrejón, jana fernández/jill roord, mariona caldentey/lia wälti, keira walsh/laura feiersinger, alexia putellas/olga rios

tags: uefa womens' champions league, winning

summary: winning the champions league and securing the quadruple can only lead to lots of partying and accidental hard launches (according to twitter).

READ IT ON AO3

[alexiabae]

TIRED; caroline graham hansen x fem!reader

Summary: in which caro rant to y/n about how she felt on her national team.

Warnings: short fic for this precious sunshine.

Note: English is not my first language.

not my gif.

She read the breaking news.

And she was devastated.

If it was true, how can you leave out two of your best players out?

Two players who came to win the champions league.

Y/N grabbed her phone and was meeting by a photo of her with her girlfriend, making her forget momentarily about what she was going to do. She searched for Caro's number and pressed the button once she found it.

A tone.

Two tones.

And at the three tones, Caro answered it.

"Hola min kjærlighet." Caro greeted her in a groggy voice, clearing her throat after.

"Shit. Are you sleeping? I don't watch the hour, sorry." Y/N curses, making the forward laugh.

"Don't worry. I needed to wake up soon." The blonde informed, letting out a yawn.

Y/N bit her bottom lip; "I read the news... It's true?" She asked unsure, not wanting Caro to get mad or upset.

Caro sighed.

"It's true. I don't tell you anything because I don't care anymore about this national team." Caro hissed the last part.

Y/N could hear how pissed she is about it.

"You don't have fault about anything, okay? Neither Ingrid." Y/N let her know, even if she didn't know the full story.

"I know it. It's the fault of Hege. She didn't listen to us, to her players... It's frustrating. Sorry, I don't want to bother you about it." The Norwegian rarely gets mad or angry or raises her voice.

Y/N shakes her head even if her girlfriend couldn't see her. "No, no. You know that you can count on me, and if you want, I will be grateful to hear it." She said with a soft voice, putting herself better on her seat on the sofa, watching by her window the dark sky.

"Hege punished us for telling the truth. She didn't care if we lost match after match. She only cares about herself. We aren't good enough because we don't work sufficiently on it. We need staff people who care about us, not participating in the world cup. It matters if you do ridiculous things in front of the world." Caro said in a rush, her voice getting raised as her angrier thoughts showed up. "And Ingrid? She didn't say anything bad. She admitted our mistakes, but of course if you want to play you need to shut up and nod." She finished.

Y/N was really surprised by Caro's statement. Not from the words, if not for her tone of voice. It was a mix between angry and sad, winning the temper.

"My advice is that you need to do it for your teammates, they don't have the fault for your coach being uncompetitive." Y/N muttered, not wanting to disturb Caro. "And for your country. The people who show you their support, no matter the countries they are from. Like me for example." She tried her best to cheer her up.

Caro let out an inevitable soft chuckle at her last comment. They are in silence for a few minutes, processing everything in their minds.

"You will see Ana today." Y/N remind her, playing with her laces from her pajama short.

"Yeah. Something good, at least." The blonde muttered, rolling on her bed, closing her eyes.

"How is Ingrid?" Y/N can't resist asking by her friend.

"Affected. But she received some calls before and she is better. And she has us too." Caro explained.

Y/N felt bad. She found an hour ago about Norway's news and probably Mapi or some familiar found it hours ago and called the brunette.

"Sorry about not calling before... I was working." Y/N apologises, regretful for having a shit of a job.

"I supposed that you're working. Don't worry, babe. I just want it to be over and fly to the warm city where I live." Y/N giggles, finding funny how her nordic girlfriend hates the cold.

"What about me?" Y/N teases.

Caro plays a lazy smile. "You are the most I miss right now... So, be prepared when I come back because I'm not going to let you go."

"I can't wait." Y/N whispered, smiling remembering the moments with her.

"I will let the national team after the world cup." Caro confessed after a moment of silence. "I can't anymore. I'm really tired of their behaviour. They know what they want and they don't want me. So..." She trailed off, sighing.

"I will support every decision you make." Y/N support her.

Caro smiled; "Thank you, min kjærlighet. I just want to focus on us, family, friends and my club. That's all I want."

"Well, I'll let you rest a little more." Y/N said watching the hour on her phone, setting an alarm to watch the game in a few hours.

"Sorry that you asked for the morning to watch me play..." Caro said sadly. "I'll make it to you, I promise."

"Don't be silly. You don't have the fault. And sadly that type of shit always happens. So focus on passing to the next level."

Caro laughed at how her girlfriend denominated it like a video game.

"I will try my best if they let me." The blonde said. "For you." She added in a whisper.

"Te quiero." Y/N whispered back.

"Jeg elsker deg mer."

[kamwilliamsonn]

make me - Caroline Graham Hansen

"come over here and make me."

Your eyes glistened with amusement as Caro ran all around your shared bedroom, trying to find her favourite hoodie.

You were laid under your blanket, comfortable watching the chaos as your fiancée wanted that specific jumper so badly.

Oh, and by the way, you're the one wearing it.

"Babe? Can you help me, where-" She started, before noticing the red sticking out from your navy blue blanket

"Babe." She repeats sternly, "is that my hoodie?" She asks, not really a question though.

You sink further into the bed, trying to hide it. "No?"

She huffs out a little laugh and places her hands on her hips softly. "Babe, I need to go shopping and it's cold, so I need my hoodie." She tells you, a soft smile on her face.

"Exactly! It's cold, and you're leaving me here without your cuddles. It smells like you." A small pout is on your face as you look up to her. "If you want me to take it off, you'll have to come here and make me."

She walks over to the bed and pulls her shoes off quickly, crawling so she's hovered over you.

She pulls the blanket off of you, leaving you in your joggers and her favourite hoodie and you think she's about to tickle you, but instead, she leans down slowly and presses a soft kiss to your forehead.

Then she litters some all over your face, ignoring your lips.

When you get sick of her teasing, you grab her face and pull her lips to yours, her hands grab your waist under the hoodie and your t-shirt.

And then she pulls away, her hands stay resting on you as she mumbles. "If you give me the hoodie, I'll bring you back some chocolate, and I'll take the day off work tomorrow."

Your eyebrows furrow as you decide if it's a good deal. "And you won't leave me in bed alone tomorrow?" You ask, your hands going back to play with the hairs on the back of her neck.

"Never. Tomorrow, we can cuddle all day. I won't even make you wake up for food." She smiles teasingly.

"Fine... Deal."

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Bearing in mind, they're probably in Norway during this 😭 I didn't think about how hot Spain is while I was writing it

And sorry it's so short, clearly longer fics are not my thing 😭

[carolineshairtie]

can you do more recs?

WOSO FIC RECOMMENDATIONS PT.2

DAISYCHAINS @woso-dreamzzz

- Marta Torrejón x Caroline Graham Hansen x Child!Reader (mostly fluff)

PUPPY LOVE @awfcspencer

-Alexia x reader (fluff)

OUT OF THE BAG @barcaatthemoon

-Alexia x reader (angst)

SUNSHINE @pixiesfz

-Steph Catley x child!reader (angst with fluff)

STUCK @gunnerfc

-Alexia x reader (Smut and angst)

I LOVE YOU @ale-wosofan

-Alexia x reader (fluff)

PRETZEL CHOCOLATE @magics-neptunes-things

-Lia Wälti x reader (Angst with a happy ending)

MOST LIKELY TO @mapiforpresident

-Alexia x reader (fluff)

[patrywoso]

Okay for the 2 fics of the next week i'm going to do 2 polls to see who i'm going to write for

[delfiore]

barcelona femení as greek gods

not a fic but i just came back from a football game and i thought of this on the bus ride home. i could die on some of these hills i swear.

ZEUS: KING OF THE GODS, GOD OF THE SKY

—Alexia Putellas.

HERA: QUEEN OF THE GODS, GODDESS OF MARRIAGE AND WOMEN

—Fridolina Rolfö.

HADES: GOD OF THE UNDERWORLD

—Caroline Graham Hansen.

POSEIDON: GOD OF THE SEA

—Irene Paredes.

APOLLO: GOD OF THE SUN, MUSIC AND HEALING

—Keira Walsh.

ARTEMIS: GODDESS OF THE MOON AND THE HUNT

—Aitana Bonmatí.

ATHENA: GODDESS OF WISDOM AND WARFARE

—Salma Paralluelo.

APHRODITE: GODDESS OF LOVE AND BEAUTY

—Ingrid Engen.

DEMETER: GODDESS OF THE HARVEST

—Patri Guijarro.

ARES: GOD OF WAR

—Mapi León.

HEPHAESTUS: GOD OF SMITHERY AND CRAFTSWORK

—Mariona Caldentey.

HESTIA: GODDESS OF THE HEARTH

—Marta Torrejón.

DIONYSUS: GOD OF WINE AND PLEASURE

—Lucy Bronze.

HERMES: THE MESSENGER GOD, GOD OF TRAVELERS AND SHEPHERDS

—Ona Batlle.

i need to go to sleep.

[copper-16]

🚀 🦈 📗 🤖 ?

🦈 My list of no gos:

- Daan and Ellie

- Beth and Viv

- Magda and Pernille

Absolutely NOTHING against these couples whatsoever, in fact I love all of them. But I have no clue how to write any of them. I have tried and every time I feel uncomfortable and just can’t get into a flow, for whatever reason! I also really struggle to write Caroline Graham Hansen, she’s a bit of an enigma to me from a character perspective!

🚀 Do you like to outline your fic first or create as you go?

Outline - always! I’ll give you a tiny method to the madness here lol, here is what a typical outline for a chapter looks like at the end of this! Please excuse my typos and grammar errors - it’s called an outline and not a final draft for a reason lmao

📗 Funnily enough, one of my works I wrote was actually supposed to be a manuscript, but I turned it into a fic instead! It was the high school AU, that was actually originally going to be based off of Tatumn Milazzo and Ella Stevens from the NWSL, but then I decided that I was too scared to try to write an actual book, so I decided not to. I think I’m very worried about having to world build when all of my writing is done in a format where all of that has already been done for me.

But I’ve always wanted to write a book, so maybe one day I will!

🤖 Yes and no. Two of my close friends (and my therapist and psychiatrist lol) know that I write fanfiction, and most of my other friends know that I write, but they don’t know what about. When they ask I just say I write about soccer players, but I think that they think I’m making people up, not that I write fiction about real people. I’ve gotten more open about it over the last year and a half, and a lot less embarrassed! It’s fun to tell people what I’m working on, especially when I’m excited about something.

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Barcelona Women fic's Masterlist

✨II Ona Batlle x Reader

eras of us (1), (2)

✨ II Aitana Bonmatí x Reader

God, it's brutal out here

The favourite

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Champagne Problems

Safe and Sound

The Bitch is back

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New Year's Eve Party (5)

searching for hope

training season

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underneath your clothes

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Big Reputation

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If I was a man

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Picture You

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familia

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If I was a man

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New Year's Eve Party (3)

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[putellas14]

✨Woso Fic Masterpost, part 2✨

*Caroline Graham Hansen

Winner Takes All (on AO3)

*Sandra Paños

La Rosa Roja (on AO3) ☠️

*Laia Codina

Super Secret LA Spot (on AO3) ☠️

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“aw, did you miss me?” (on AO3) ☠️

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About Damn Time (on AO3)

[wosowrites]

Going Through It Part 2 (Caroline Graham Hansen)

warnings: misscar!age, depression

a/n: a lot of people were asking for a part 2 of the fic sooo let’s go! I also broke my own heart writing this it's super long and super sad.

prompt: in which different people come around in support for you as you go through all the stages of your miscarriage with caroline.

The 7 stages of grief. A myth? Definitely not.

Stage 1: Shock

When the medics told you they would bring you to the hospital to confirm that you really were indeed no longer with child, you just nodded blankly. You could see Caroline was trying to hold it together for you but you selfishly couldn't bring yourself to think about her. All you cared about was that they baby in your belly that you were supposed to protect was gone now. You felt as though you had failed it.

And then the doctors at the nearest hospital confirmed what to you had already been confirmed, so you listened as they told you for the second time that your baby was dead. Caroline held a straight face as she rubbed her thumb over your hand,, and you just stared blankly at the wall facing you. They said something about an abortion as soon as possible to get the fetus out, but you didn't listen. You didn't listen either as Caroline told you lovingly that she was going to go give the news to the Barca girls who were in the waiting room. A funny bunch they were, for sure, all with their tracksuits and sweaty hair.

You laughed at that. It started off as a quiet giggle but soon enough you were full on howling with laughter. Caroline had left the room by then and so had the doctors so anyone walking past your room would surely think you were a misplaced psychiatric patient. A few of the doctors came running in when it had been about a minute of your hysterics. They tried talking to you and calming you down but you just laughed harder. So they put you to sleep for a little, and when Caro walked back in with Ingrid, Mapi and Alexia, the doctors simply said that:

"She's in a lot of shock. She started laughing hysterically and we think its best for her to sleep before the procedure."

So, when Caroline heard that you were asleep, and that her actions wouldn't hurt you further, she started sobbing.

Stage 2: Denial

You and Caroline had already been excused for the UWCL and the rest of the season. Although the public knew very well that you were pregnant when you took the hit to the stomach, no one other than the Barca girls knew that the child had died. People just assumed you were not playing as a precaution, and Caro was taking care of you. Oh, and the Chelsea girls knew as well, having reached out in support and apology. Jess Carter had never felt worse in her life. But it wasn't their fault and everyone knew that. It was wrong place wring time. However three days after the abortion, Caroline found you in a worse situation than she could ever have imagined.

"Love?" Caroline called out in the apartment, having stopped calling you baby out of fear of even mentioning anything related to a child. There was no answer. "Y/n?!"

Caroline called out your name again as she walked through the house, poking her head into your bedroom, the washroom and every other room in the house. That is until she heard the faint sound of music. Her heart dropped. The only way she wouldn't have heard music playing was if it was from the nursery. You had both agreed to sound proof the room as you had heard that letting the baby cry it out was often the best solution. Caroline hadn't touched or even looked at the nursery since 'the incident' but she imagined today was the day.

The Norwegian gently pushed open the door, finding you sitting in the corner of the room on a rocking chair. There was My Funny Valentine playing from her phone in the room, the song you would always sing to your belly. Your hand was on your stomach, rubbing it gently though your grey tank top. Your eyes were closed and you were humming along with the melody, not noticing the presence of your wife. Caroline felt like she would throw up. She stared at you through wide eyes before slowly backing out of the room and closing the door again. Her eyes filled with tears as she leaned her back against the door. The Norwegian took a couple seconds to steady her breathing before rummaging in the pocket of her shorts and pulling out her cell phone. The woman quickly dialled a familiar number and waiting for a voice to answer. "Hola, Caroline," Mapi's voice said in a kind and gentle voice. "Hi. Uh, I don't know what to do. I- she's just sitting there and-" Caroline tried to rant but Mapi cut her off, noticing how clustered her words were. "Caro. Breathe. Breathe for me, do you want me to come over?" She asked gently. "No. No that's not a good idea. I just need you to tell me what to do because right now shes sitting in the nursery on the rocking chair, playing a song we always sang to her belly and she- she has her hand on her stomach like-" Caroline lowered her voice, "-like there's still a baby in there."

There was silence over the phone. Mapi felt sick and horrible for her friends. "I-I cannot give you advice on this. You just need to talk to her, I think. She's in denial."

And so Caroline did. She opened the door to the nursery and walked towards you. "My love," you said, smiling and opening your eyes. "Hi darling," your wife answered, kneeling next to you. She put her hands on your knees and looked up at you. Your hands still laid on your stomach, but not for long as the forwards hands reached out to grab yours in hers. "Don't make me tell you. Don't make me say the words," Caroline said, her eyes full of tears. But you just stared at her with a small smile. You freed your hands and cupped her face, wiping her tears. "What is it, my love?" you said gently, almost in a ghostly way. "We're not pregnant anymore, y/n."

Stage 3: Anger

You handn't meant to hit her. You hadn't. You. Had. Not. Right? It just happened. It had been the third time she had caught you with your hand on your stomach, humming to a child that wasn't there. And you had snapped. Right after you did, your head was cloudy, and you wanted to apologize, and kiss her, and tell her how much you loved her. But instead you yelled. "Shut up! Don't! I have already lost our fucking child and now you're not even letting me- I don't know! Hold out hope. Hold out some kind of belief that the universe wouldn't take my child away," you yelled, sobbing violently. Caroline looked at you, sobbing just as hard as you were. "I'm going through this too, you know?" She yelled back, catching you off guard. "Yeah. But at least your not going through the guilt of knowing that your decision killed our child."

It was mean. It was loud. It was hurtful from both ends. But then you slipped on your shoes, grabbed your car keys and then opened the door, pausing at the entrance. "We need to be there. Now," you said dryly.

Caroline nodded and followed you outside. You headed down to the parking lot, walking to your subaru. You both headed for the drivers seat, but as you reached to open the door, your hands hitting, you looked at her. "I can drive. I’m not pregnant anymore, remember? You made that very fucking clear," you spat at her.

Caroline flinched, but she went to the passengers seat.

You arrived at Ciutat Esportiva about twenty minutes later, the whole car ride being filled with awkwardness and the faint sound of Beyonce's vocals. You got out of the car quickly, trying to get away from Caroline. Jonatan had told you that there wasn't the need for you both to come if you weren't up for it, but you knew you needed to get out of the house. It was just an hour long meeting to discuss next seasons signings and departures, but it felt to Caroline like a reintegration into normal life, and to you, it felt like a reminder that you had failed your child.

You walked into the meeting room, your hair in the same dutch braids they had been in for the past two days, your Barca sweatpants on paired with a black hoodie. The girls came up to you and hugged you gently, you forced a small smile before taking a spot at a table with only one open chair left, means to get away from your wife.

The second the meeting finished, you stood up quickly. But due to your lack of sleep and food, your head swirled and you doubled over, feeling a wave of nausea come over you. Mapi, Alexia and Caroline were quickly by your side, la Reina holding your elbow and Caroline quickly letting you fall into her arms. But the second you had regained your bearings, you pushed her away. "Stop it. I'm fine," you basically growled. Taking your car keys from the table and rushing out of the meeting room and towards the parking lot.

Caroline was left, feeling shameful for no valid reason in the middle of the room. "I thought the whole 7 stages of grief thing was a myth but... shes going through them right now. I need the anger to be gone, Marta, I can't take her being mad at me," Caroline cried gently. "She's not mad at you. She's mad at herself and she's taking it out on you. Just- don't tell her shes going through the seven stages. If she knows she'll try to stop it and right now she needs to feel. And so do you, Caro. If you guys need anything, call me. Call us, any of us. We'll bring food or movies... anything really," Marta answered.

Stage 4: Bargaining

You got out of the anger stage the night after the meeting. You left your room, having finally showered and found Caroline watching Bridgerton in the living room. You sat down next to her and took the remote, pausing the show. "I am so sorry. I don't know what the fuck my problem is. I love you so so much and I just snapped," you said to her, putting your hands on her face and wiping away a stray tear. You kissed her softly on the lips as she thought about what Marta had said about not informing you about the grief process she was living. It was the first kiss you had shared since the miscarriage and it was welcomed to say the least.

It was on a walk down town that you reached the stage of bargaining. Caroline had been confused about that one. You weren't religious, and neither was she. But when you walked past the Sagrada Familia, and asked if you could go inside, she knew it was time for stage 4.

The Sagrada Familia was extremely impressive. Even after being in it multiple times, it never lost its beauty. It was a thursday, so it was open to the public, but you still sat on a pier, leaving Caroline to watch you from afar, wondering about the bargaining stage.

There was only you on the pier, looking up to the high ceiling of the Sagrada Familia, the architecture designed in a way that the ceiling looked like a forest. You didn’t believe in God. God had ruined your family. Or at least your parents wrongful actions in his name did. If there was a God, you knew he loved everyone and that he wouldn’t have wished for your parents to kick you out for your "sins" at 16.

But you still thoguht to yourself that considering you had already lost your child, talking to the person who the town you grew up in made you believe was the only source of power wasn’t a ridiculous idea exactly.

In your head, you started thinking.

Hi, fuck this is stupid. I don’t do this. I’m not talking to anyone. Jesus- I mean. No. Not. Okay let me start again can we just forget about the previous sentences.

You thought for a second, half expecting the voice of a man to appear in your head.

Okay. Let’s do this. I lost my baby. And- I guess I’m hoping that if you do exist then talking to you will make you care for him… or her but I felt like it was a him. I don’t think you’d let an innocent child go to… Hell or whatever but I don’t know. It can’t hurt to talk to you... I can’t believe you took my child from me. I want him back. Please, I want him back.

Tears were not streaming down your face and the thing that snapped you out of your tear filled gaze towards the ceiling of the Sagrada Familia was the creaking of the bench, indicating the presence of another person.

You turned your head and looked to find a man sitting there. He looked maybe 60, his hair whitening but not fully yet. The delusional part of your brain wanted to ask him if he was God.

"You do not look good," he said in spanish. However it didn’t sound like an insult, nor did it sound like a judgment. It was just a fact.

"I do not feel good," you answered him, unlocking eyes with him and looking forward to the tinted glass. "Tell me. You will never see me again, I’m a stranger with no right to- to pass judgment or anything of the sort," he told you. It felt weird, to say the least. Why would you tell this random spanish man about the loss you were facing. But you did. "I lost my baby. He died in my stomach-" you started saying. And although you were planning on holding back a little, you didn’t. "-I play for the Barcelona women’s team. And I got kicked in the stomach and it killed my baby," you told him.

He looked at you sorrowfully. "I’m probably the only spanish man in the world thst doesn’t know football. But I do know the loss of a child. And I do know that it gets better, no matter the pain you are in right now," he said to you, putting his hand over yours in a parental way. "I’m sorry for your loss," you told him. "Don’t be. She’s in a better place right now," he said to you softly. "Heaven?" you asked, looking at him. "Oh no. She was much too good for Heaven. I loved her but God would not have let her, such a… purer soul that him, near his gates. She’s just- she’s not in Hell, she’s not in Heaven, she’s just not here which is better. For some people, that is. The world is better with you in it, but some people are just too good for this earth. Your baby, your baby was too good to be here," he said.

You left the Sagrada, tears in your eyes but your heart oddly lighter. While walking back home, you held Carolines hand tightly. "He's in a better place, Caroline."

That thought, that calmness of heart lasted about two days.

Stage 5: Depression

Caroline started feeling joy, and wellness again a day after your conversation with the man at the Sagrada. She started going out for runs again, working out, cooking and signing. She was still heartbroken, but she knew there was nothing to do, and she had now chosen to move on. But you weren't ready. And you felt as though she was leaving you behind. As Carolines happiness escalated, yours fell drastically.

Saturday morning, Caroline let you sleep in as she went to training. It had been decided with Jonas that she would start training again to be fit and ready for the UWCL final vs Wolfsburg. She wanted to get back into her every day life and she missed football beyond words. You did too, but the thought of standing up, and then running, and then dribbling and shooting and... it just made you want to throw up to say the least.

So when Caroline came back home at 2:00 and found that the apartment was exactly how she left it, meaning you lying in bed, blinds closed, and the kitchen counter spotless as she had left it, she knew you had reached the stage she so wished you would manage to skip.

She peeked into your shared room, looking at the darkness greeting her. But she closed the door as quickly as she opened it, grabbing her keys and rushing back out of the apartment. Caroline got into her car and drove the first place that came to mind. If anyone could talk to you, bring you back down to earth, it was Alexia. Team mother.

She pulled up at her apartment and then rang the bell, a voice she didn't recognize answering.

"Putellas residence," a voice said in spanish. "Uh-hey, is Alexia home?" Caro answered in English, her spanish being shocking despite you trying to teach her. "Oh, yes. Are you her teammate?" the voice asked. "Yeah, I am. It's an emergency,"

That's all the person needed to hear for her to let you in. You rushed to the third floor and then opened the door of her apartment without knocking. "Alexia! Alexia!" Caroline yelled across the apartment. Alexia followed by a shorter brunette girl quickly walked out of the kitchen, the midfielder heading for your wife and quickly putting her hands on Caroline's face, trying to calm her. "What is it? Is y/n okay?" Alexia said quickly. "No. Yes. But no. I can't do this anymore. I can't move on and leave her behind. We're a team, it's her and me but I also don't want to be...depressed. I need you to talk to her because if I do-" Caroline started saying. "You're scared it could ruin your relationship," she finished the sentence. "Yeah," Caroline answered, letting out a heavy breath.

Alexia looked into Carolines eyes and nodded before turning to the woman behind her. "Mi amor, necesito manejar esto. Quédate aquí, vete a casa, haz lo que quieras pero tengo que irme." Alexia said before kissing the woman on the lips, putting on her shoes and then leaving with Caroline. "Is that your-"

"Girlfriend? Yes."

"What did you tell her?" Caroline asked. "That I needed to leave and that she could do whatever she wants at my apartment," Alexia said.

Finding you lying in the dark under covers was not something Alexia ever wanted to see. You weren't crying, you just seemed numb. Alexia had told Caroline to make soup and buttered bread for you, as if she could convince you to eat it would be ready before you could change your mind.

Alexia opened the blinds first, which she hoped would make you change positions, but you just stayed still. She then circled the bed and lied down beside you. She faced you in the bed and gently moved the hair from your face. "Hi sweetie," she said to you.

Your eyes focused a little bit and locked with hers. She knew that she now had you. She needed to talk before you zoned off again. "You need to eat, and clean yourself. You can't let the pain you're feeling win. Please eat. Sit up and just do something. Read, watch a movie? Talk to me if you want," Alexia said, making sure her tone didn't seem begging as she didn't want to guilt trip you.

You seemed to think about it for a while.

"No."

A week later

You hadn't gotten out of bed, you had eaten maybe a few pieces of cheese and a few slices of fruit, you were covered in your own filth and Ale had basically moved in with you guys.

"Today's the day, Caro. Mapi's been here, Ingrid, Patri, Aitana, Jonatan. Every one has tried something and we just need to bring out the tough love at this point. Make the soup, make her food and run a bath because-"

"Alexia," Caroline breathed out, looking past her head to the bedroom door that had just opened.

Wearing Carolines Norway hoodie and black nike pros, you trailed out of the bedroom, your greasy hair tucked behind your ears and your mascara from that day at the Sagrada, smudged.

Alexia turned around and looked at you. "Hi," she breathed out, her eyes widening with love and relief. Caroline rushed up to you, trying not to smother you, but you were the one to smother her. You dug your head into her shoulder and inhaled her scent. "I'm gonna do better. I'll be better," you whispered to her. "Its okay, it's okay," she let out shakily, brushing her fingers through your hair. "Do you want to eat, or bathe, or if you just want to sit on the couch and watch TV thats okay too it's-"

"I'll eat. And then bathe?" you said, your words sounding like a question. "Yeah. Yes," your wife said quickly.

You settled into the chair at the counter and smiled at Alexia. "I should go," she said gently, coming up to you and kissing your head.

Caroline hugged the spaniard and thanked her over and over. "Hey, Ale, tell Jonatan I'll be back in training next week,"

Stage 6: Acceptance

You accepted your baby's death fully two days later.

"Caroline! I'm gonna order pizza!" you called out to her from the kitchen.

The second you said those words, you really noticed. The few months you had been pregnant, the idea of pizza made you feel nauseous. The hormones from your pregnancy made you hate the food. Caroline poked her head out of the washroom, looking at you with wide eyes.

Do you... do you want pizza?" She said gently. "Yeah. I do," you said, placing the order and then putting down your phone to walk up to her. "He's gone," you said quietly, wrapping your arms around her neck as she put hers around your waist. "Yeah, he is. But we'll have our rainbow baby."

Stage 7: Processing grief

Caroline had made it very clear to all the staff and to all the players that she did not want to make you coming back a big deal. She and you wanted to move on, move past the pain, and just go back to being footballers. And they respected that. Your first training session back wasn't great, but everyone was patient and kind. You appreciated that a lot. After practice, you sat in the locker room and pulled out your phone. You hadn't been on social media in weeks, but it was time to tell the public.

y/n.y/l/n_ Baby boy, I wish your mother and I had gotten to know you. For the past weeks I've felt like a failure. I wish I had never gone in for that tackle. I wish I had never stepped onto that pitch. Things happen though, and I love you no less than I would have loved you if I had gotten to hold you.

graham95: love you both more than life

marialeonn16: the entire city of barca isstrong for you

chelseafcw: our thoughts are with you

fcbfemeni: Nosotras te amamos y te apreciamos

It was true. You didn't know for sure if your baby had been a boy or a girl, but you knew. A mother always knew.

[wosowrites]

Going Through It (Carline Graham Hansen x Reader)

warning: ⚠️miscarriage⚠️

a/n: not all fics have happy endings but it’s based off this request here

prompt: in which after finally getting pregnant, you get kicked in the stomach early on in your pregnancy during a game, and caroline goes crazy. eventually, you find out you miscarried.

Chelsea v Barcelona. UWCL semi final. England. London. Stamford Bridge. You were pregnant.

Only two months in, so playing was still okay, as per your doctors words. Caroline and you had been trying to get pregnant for over a year and a half, and to be fair, you had given up during your latest round of IVF. But then, by some miracle, you got pregnant. Finally. Caroline and you hadn’t told anyone at all, other than Jonatan. He was the only one to know besides you both. There was no use telling anyone else so early.

And so, you travelled to London, trained briefly, and then, it was game day.

"You feeling okay? No nausea, no aches, no-" Caroline whispered to you as you sat down at your cubby. "Caro. I am feeling healthy, and excited, and okay. No nothing," you said, gently placing your hand on her cheek as she stood over you and smiling at her reassuringly.

"What are you two lovebirds on about?" Lucy said, chuckling at the both of you. "Nothing!" you said quickly, and more sternly than you had expected. Lucy raised her eyebrows at you but moved on.

You lined up in the tunnel, holding the hand of a little girl and excited that one day, you would be able to walk out into a stadium with your little girl or boy.

The atmosphere was amazing, a wave of blue accompanied with a teeny tiny patch of red and blue and yellow and purple.

The pressure was on right off the bat, and it payed off. In the fourth minute, Caroline broke though Chelsea’s lacking defence, the loss of Millie and Kadeisha was huge, and scored, hitting the bottom left corner perfectly. She ran towards the Barca fans and jumped into the arms of the girls over there, making a point of hugging you individually. "Vamos!" you yelled, pumping your fist in the air and smiling at her. "For him, or her," she said, gently brushing her hand over your stomach and jogging off.

Even after two years of marriage, and 4 more of dating, she still made you blush.

The half ended 1-0, and everything was going good. Jonatan wanted another one, not too happy with the fact that his team hadn’t scored more considering the number of Chelsea’s injuries was large.

So, you walked back onto that field, determined to score.

You had no time to prove yourself however. That wasn’t supposed to happen. It was a complete accident. Wrong place, wrong time.

As a defender, you did your best to slow down Sam Kerr, and you did, but out of nowhere came Guro Reiten, running down the line. Sam passed the ball as Mapi tried quickly to get in front of the cross Guro was about to send in. But Mapi didn’t get there. However, your keeper got her fists on it, not being able to catch it. Jess Carter recovered, she was right behind you, a little to your right. So, you turned around, and slid. She was in the box, but you were confident you would get it.

You were wrong, everything went wrong.

Jess shot it right away, which you hadn’t expected as it looked like she would take a touch, so your slide resulted in nothing. Your foot didn’t make contact with the ball, as it was already flying towards Sandra. The one thing that did happen though, was Jess Carter’s follow through. Her foot kept going after the shot, and due to your unlucky slide, your unlucky body placement and your unlucky luck, her cleat made strong contact with your stomach.

No one was watching.

Everyone in the stadium was watching the ball fly towards Sandra. But the second Sandra’s fingers tipped the ball over the crossbar, was the same second you let out a blood cooling scream.

It had hurt, yes, badly in fact. But the scream was more out of fear. Everyone’s heads turned sharply to look at you, only to see you curled up in a ball on the ground, holding your stomach and shaking.

You were in shock, that was the only way to describe it. You were shocked, and your body wasn’t responding to the kick well. Carters hands were over her mouth, she knew she had hurt you, although completely accidentally, but to what extent, to what cost, only you and Caroline knew. And Jonatan, who’s eyes were wide and who was yelling at the medics to get on the field immediately.

Caroline was by your side immediately.

"Baby, baby, what happened?" she said quickly. But you couldn’t answer, all you could say was no, over and over. Something felt wrong. Something was wrong. "What did you do?!" Caroline yelled, standing up and facing Carter. "I- my follow through hit her in the stomach because of the slide, it was-"

Jess didn’t have time to finish her sentence as Magda stepped between the barcelona player and her own teammate, seeing the rising anger and fear in Graham’s eyes.

Mapi was now kneeling next to you, and so we’re medics.

"Where does it hurt?"

"You need to answer me, y/n,"

"She’s not talking! What the hell is wrong with her?"

"SHES FUCKING PREGNANT. SHES PREGNANT!" Caroline yelled, turning to the medics and kneeling back down next to you.

Your face was completely covered in tears, and the second Caroline yelled that, the medics were on their feet and waving over a stretcher. Everyone on the pitch had heard Caroline’s words, which means the first row of people had heard, which means soon enough, it would spread through the stadium.

"What?" Mapi said, her eyes wide.

Caroline ignored her, the spaniard looking over to Jonatan who’s hands were covering his mouth. Her eyes fleeted to the Chelsea bench, most of the players looked sick. Mapi looked back at you, locking eyes with Jess on the way, she looked nauseated.

The Chelsea keeper had ventured out of her net towards her girlfriend and was now gently leading her away from your body on the ground.

Caroline was kneeling beside you again, and Mapi turned away Chelsea players and tried to settle down some of the Barca girls who were panicking and Caroline’s shouted words. But soon enough, you were on a stretcher and being carried off the field.

There was clapping in the stadium, but it sounded dull, and low.

Everyone knew.

Something was really fucking wrong.

As you covered your face with your jersey, it exposed your stomach. Caroline walked beside you, no use in hiding it anymore, so her hand lay on your stomach, praying for your child to be alive. Stud marks ran deep and bloody on your abs.

Nothing had ever felt like more of a blur.

One minute you were on the field, the next you were on the sidelines, the next Jonatan and Ingrid were beside you, the next you saw that Ingrid had been subbed on for Caroline, and Laia for you.

The tunnel felt dark, and the medical examiner’s room even darker. A portable ultrasound was in the medical room, although it had dust on it from its lack of use. The Barca medic spoke to you in spanish gently, even though she knew you weren’t listening, and that even if you were, you would only understand snippets of his sentence.

Caroline gently lifted your shirt up, her hand brushing hairs from your forehead and her eyes locking with yours. She had never seen you look more scared. Ever.

The medic started by cleaning your stomach, getting the blood stains off as well as the dirt and the grass. She warned you that the disinfectant would hurt, you didn’t feel it.

"We’re gonna do the ultrasound now," she said in broken english. You nodded slowly. "There will be a heartbeat," Caroline said gently.

There wasn’t one.

The medic tried to find one, telling you over and over that the machine wasn’t strong and to not worry. But with every minute, your cries got heavier and then louder.

Eventually, she put the ultrasound down and walked out of the room, leaving you and Caroline alone.

You had never imagined you could cry for 40 minutes straight, but you could.

How did you know? You heard a door open as Caroline was still standing beside you, looking down at you and crying as your hands stayed over your face as you sobbed. You let your hands fall and turned your head to see most of the team standing in the doorway.

There eyes were hopeful, hopeful that they would have a team child soon. But they were met with nothing but your shaking body, Caroline’s lost eyes and the overall vibe of hopelessness.

"Im sorry, i’m so sorry mi amors," Mapi said, walking into the room and kissing Caroline on the cheek, holding her face in her hands. She then turned to you and kissed you on the forehead for a few seconds.

"Did we win?" you chocked out, looking at her with broken eyes. "Of course we did," she said to you gently.

You nodded slowly, breaking your eye contact with her to look at your wife.

You sat up slowly, pulling down your jersey. "I need to shower," you said.

And so, you did. No one stopped you as you walked to the showers, everyone watched Caroline fully breakdown.

[m1edemafc]

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heya, thanks for stopping by my blog! i mostly made this because interacting on ao3 is a bit of a pain sometimes, and it's easier for me to take prompts/requests/questions on tumblr.

i'm so happy to take requests, so feel free to drop any prompts or requests! i'm not inherently opposed to writing anything, but forewarning, i hate every piece of smut i've ever written so it's highly unlikely that i'll publish anything with substantial smut. not ruling it out completely but it's just ~very~ unlikely.

these are my current works, you can find them all on ao3! unless it's a headcannon, my work will only ever be published on ao3. sorry to all the tumblr fic readers out there, but i promise ao3 is fairly easy to navigate even as a guest.

masterlist:

lucy bronze/ona battle

all these people think love's for show, but i'd die for you in secret

tags: established relationship, fluff, domestic fluff, karaoke

status: work in progress, eight chapters

jana fernández/jill roord

my heart has been split open (you see everything i'm hoping)

tags: hurt/comfort, acl injury, angst, fluff

status: coming soon, one shot

keira walsh/laura feiersinger

i just want to know you better (know you better now)

tags: 5+1 things, situationship, getting together, kind of a slow burn?

status: complete, one shot

mapi león/ingrid engen

let our hearts be the only sound

tags: established relationship, proposal, fluff

status: complete, one shot

alexia putellas/jenni hermoso

you'll find that you were never not mine

series: inked on my soul

tags: alternate universe, tattoo artist jenni, footballer alexia, getting back together, jealousy 

status: complete, one shot

fc barcelona femení

bilbao is one hell of a drug

tags: uefa womens champions league, winning

status: complete, seven chapters

alessia russo/leah williamson

hearts collide, souls intertwine

series: country girls universe

tags: kid fic, forced roommates, getting together, potential slow burn (i haven't decided)

status: coming soon

the way the moonlight dances in your eyes

series: country girls universe

tags: kidfic, fluff, literally just fluff, new kit pics!!

status: one shot, complete

caroline graham hansen/marta torrejón

forever is in your eyes

tags: kid fic, post retirement, marriage, domestic fluff

status: coming soon, one shot collection

a little about me:

i'm a 23 year old gemini vegetarian from australia! i've been an arsenal fan (both women and men) for quite a while now, but recently become a barca femeni fan. obviously being australian, i am a huge huge fan of the matildas (less so a socceroos fan tho, but up the boys).

although i love football, i am the least coordinated person and have not ever played football outside of pe lessons in school. i grew up as a competitive swimmer before i quit when i was 16 and i also played a few seasons of club netball during high school (i was not that great). i mostly am a pilates girlie now, but also have decided to start running this year and am running my first 14k race in august (please cross your fingers that i make it out alive).

although i've been an avid fic reader for over a decade across quite a few fandoms, i only started writing fic this year. that mostly happened because i've been on somewhat of a sabbatical for the past few months, and am not currently in uni or working so i've finally had time to actually put pen to paper (or fingers to keyboard) on all the words that have been floating around in my brain.

in saying that, my self declared sabbatical will be ending in july so i cannot promise any consistency around posting. i don't mind some gentle pushing but please keep in mind i usually take a full time course load at uni, work two jobs and also have a social life, friends, family and also a whole host of health problems so sometimes my life gets a bit too out of hand and it kinda is out of my control.

i really am trying to enter my era of a healthy work-life balance though, so i'm hoping we won't reach the same level of chaos that my life previously has been.

anyways, if you have made it to this point, you are a real trooper and thanks for reading through my rambles!

:))

[putellas14]

Do you have a masterlist? Love your work ❤️

I have two! I ran out of link space on the first one. Thanks for reading 💜

[wosowrites]

What fics are you currently working on, if you don't mind me asking?

part 2 of my Mamma and Mommy Jill Roord fic

a sam kerr fic

a caroline graham hansen fic

another jill roord fic

a niahm charles fic

a fic with the entire man u team

leah williamson fic

part 3 of my I can be your new Home JFlem fic

and a jordan nobbs fic

💓💓💓