#Cal is cutie ´ 7 `

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why is andrew the best peter but tom the most interesting peter 🤔

im slwepy as fuck rn but i was waiting to answere. this till i was free from the disgusting inhumane clutches of egg and jams ok so see we i may be biased byt look at tjis guy.

yea this is rea footage of me being a simp i dont care he's cutie patootoe baby waby shona janu also like decades older tham me 😀 but anyway now that thats out of the way. we ALL love peter 3. thats a colective thing eveyome agrees on if u don't um ya boring bye

but he issss the best lke?? the way he plays peter the way he literally becomes him im not saying tobey or tom r bad im js saying andrew isbbetter. like . i havent watched tobeys movies so i cant sau that abotu him actually but i hve watched homecoming ffh and nwh amd i promise that andrews peteer is the best the funniest the prettiest peter because in toms peter we get to see a lot df action right?nd we get ro see him interacting with other superheroes and hes got ppl who r superpowered like him who have his back but peter 3 has no one hes alone !!!! he js has his aunt and his gf (she died) <3 but still we see hes so funny like that knife scene? wjen hes like omg noooo knives my only weaknes s :( and stuff he IS SO FUNNY !!!! NO KNE TALKS ABOUT IT. HIS HUMOR IS THE KINDA PATHETIC THAT WILLL MAKE U LAUGH SM CUS ITS PATHETIC and . peter 1 has 3 movies lots of screentime and as i said lots of interaction with other superheroes lots of plot lots of stuff happening to him lots of trauma lots of character development. but still for me at leastz petee 3 js. overshadows him? cus hes got js 2 fucking movies but hes so perfectly funny and traumatised and happy and sad and angry in that limited amount of thing without it feeling extra or obnoxious and like how do u not see jes the best????? like theres a guy who has an assignment of 20 pages and 7 days to do it and thwres another guy with the same assignment with only 2 days to do it but the seconf guys assignment turns out to be better and ppl r shocked when i cal him the best?? im not saying tom isn't thafs why i said hes the most interestign cus as i said He has sm sm sm sm sm character development i love it so mucj like we get to see him with this girl whos lowk weird and he has. crush on another girl but girls fsther tries to kill him send s him to jail and then he starts falling for first girl and he alao haa bsf who is guy . chair and hes in love witb the girl bit its awkward cus suddenly they apparently died for 5 yrs and came back to life then his real dad died and he goes to trip to be happy but thees jealousy jeaosy and random guy with fishbowl helmet and super storong element villains and nick furu is not rea ans hes scared and his love finds out hes spidey and they save the world tgt aND THEY KISS !!!!!!!! also he becomes thor/captain in middle but then later fickingg bald ass jj tells everyone who he is and now hes gotta do smth about it and eveyone almost dies and then there's ppl form diff unieerse and theres Him from diff univers????? and aunty may dies :( and hes sad and angry bit his bros got his back and MJ ALMOST DIES WHAT THEFUCK WAS THAT MARVEL WHY WUD U DO THAT TO MG POOR BABY PETEE 3 and amyway hes murderous but doesnt kill and them self sacrifice and love ob hisblife and bsf forget who he is !!! do u see how much is happening this is all so interesting its sooooo aweome i love him thats why i said whag i said i must stop now thsnk u meow bueyeey

[emptylittlebug]

6/14/23

247.0

In: Adderall, Wellbutrin, McD’s large Diet Coke, McD’s large vanilla ice coffee (230), ham sandwich for lunch (470), sloppy joe sandwich for dinner (254), Cutie mandarin after dinner (47), fml.. cosmic brownie (270) 1271 total

Out: fitbit says 2833cal

Total: -1562 cal

Today:

I feel very meh today. Like a blob. Like a sleepy, giggly, blob.

I took my Adderall for the first time in a month. Hopefully that’ll help some 😅

I watched Best Little Girl In The World last night for the first time. Been dealing with eating disorders since 2004 and just watched it for the first time. Ha. It was definitely not as good as I keep seeing it is. But it was a decent movie. The ending pissed me off and was sooo rushed. Literally “i saw my worse than me friend die and now I can eat ice cream and laugh and go home” within 10ish minutes of the movie. But. I felt it was important enough to document on here lmao.

I’m tired. That’s all. Might update later. Idk.

Just know I’m still here. Fat, pathetic, annoying, but here.

Oh yeah. My mom just started a new diet…. Iykyk.

She’s counting calories for the first time in her life. Guess who she calls every fucking meal to ask what is low calorie and will fit into her 1,200 limit a day? 🙄

Edit:

It’s 7:06pm. Just updated my in/out cals.

Making my first rule… no food after 7pm.

Second rule… 1000 cal max.

I totally didn’t document here that we have a beach trip planned for September.

13 weeks from tomorrow… 92 days.

Edit:

12:10am. Updated my in/out. I noticed it was 11:30 and decided to try to hit my steps and cal goals for the day 😅 Running in place is weird when you’re trying to not sound like dropping bricks to the downstairs apartment neighbors lmao. I’m sure they hate me. But I did get 7660/10000 steps and 2833/3000 cals burned.

Maybe I’ll try to hit the goals tomorrow. I don’t wanna burn myself out again though. But trying to hit the goals might be good.

And.

Once the apartment complex fixes my fucking a/c (been waiting for over a month…) I was thinking about trying a workout video every night. Idk which one yet. But anything is better than nothing! I just have to wait for a/c because a workout video when its 92° inside is just NOT gonna happen…. Not with my burning up 247lb ass already sweating and chafing in awful places…

Hmm. What should my beach goal weight be? It’s 13 weeks away. First time at the beach in 7 years.

I’ll obviously still be fat as hell. But I can be less fat as hell.

2-4lbs a week? 220-200? That’s too broad.

200 goal but be happy if I hit 215? Yeah I like that one.

47lbs in 13 weeks….

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☁️ My ED Snacks ☁️

 ~ Hey cuties! Today I made a list of some of my favourite low-calorie snacks! 

//🍼//

Watermelon Hint 🍉

- basically water with just a faint taste of watermelon

- there’s different flavours to choose from

- good if you feel the need for something sweet

| 0 cal | 0 sugar | 0 carbs |

Green Tea 🍵

- caffeine

- yum

| 0 cal | 0 sugar | 0 carbs |

//🥥//

Rice Cakes 🍙

- og ana snacks sdjfkshd

- actually pretty good

| 1 cake = 0 calories | 0 sugar | 7 carbs |

Dried Seaweed 🥬

- super yummy

-usually the only thing i eat in a day lmao

| 1 container = 30 cal | 1 sugar | 1 carb |

Pickles 🥒

- not a lot of people like pickles but i do haha

| 17 cal | sugar 1.9 | 3.7 carbs |

~ sorry this isn’t a very long list, i don’t eat that much sdjfskfhjks

[emptydiet]

Rating my Safe Foods 🐰

╰┈➤ because I’m bored xx

cucumbers ! — 10/10

— extremely low cal, filling, and tasty esp with extra salt or seasonings. can be good with any meal or as a crunchy snack. one of my favs, can’t go wrong.

apples ! — 9/10

love them sm. only 90 for a whole serving and it will typically fill me up for a long time. also really delicious and gives me my sweet fix.

soup ! — 8/10

only an 8 because some soups are high cal, but overall simple chicken soup is typically low cal and is so fuckin good and for what. It’s so yummy and makes for a great dinner.

toast ! — 7/10

usually I’ll have it dry because butter scares me, but I’ll put cinnamon on it occasionally. doesn’t fill me up a whole lot but it’s still a go-to for lunch or breakfast.

eggs ! — 9/10

eggs are so superior. 70 cals for one and they can be cooked so many different ways. I don’t add any extras and just cook them straight up. perfect for protein.

iced coffee ! — 10/10

I know I know it’s not a food but it’s still one of my favorite things to drink whenever I feel like bingeing or just need a boost. will never get old.

salad ! — 6/10

personally I’m not rlly into salads but they’re always a good thing to order when going to a restaurant or going out to eat. it doesn’t fill me up that much but still makes for a comfy meal.

protein shake ! — 9/10

the protein shakes I buy are only 160 cals and I normally have half of it with lunch or for breakfast! super filling and rlly rlly yummy.

cuties ! — 10/10

oranges are definitely a top safe food. cuties are 80 for two, filling, and help satisfy my sweet tooth.

bananas ! — 9/10

I love to make banana smoothies or just have a cut up banana for lunch. delicious and 70 calories.

[hotxhocolate]

MY WIZARDS EXPERIENCE

A COMPILATION BC I'M TOO LAZY TO SEPARATE THIS SHIT

P.S. Spoilers(?) Ahead P.P.S. THIS IS REALLY LONG SO HONESTLY DON'T WASTE UR TIME JUST WANT TO GET THIS ALL OUT

Episode 1

Douxie is precious. I'd give my life for him love him.

Archie the little shit. I love him.

THE OPENING SEQUENCE!!! BROOOOO

Jim u unfotunate bb

GIVE JIM A BREAK!!!

Merlin ur so useless sometimes i h8 u

NARI BB I LOVE U I'M ADOPTING U U PRECIOUS CHILD

GIVE DOUXIE AND CLAIRE THE STAFFS THEY DESERVE!!!

THE END CREDITS!!!!!!!!!

Episode 2

FREE JIM!!!

DON'T KILL JIM!!!

SAVE JIM!!!

POWERFUL CLAIRE 😍

GLOWY EYES CLAIRE 😍😍😍

MORGANA I KNOW U TRIED TO KILL MY BABIES IN TROLLHUNTERS BUT I LOVE U UR GORGEOUS

Arthur u suck

... douxie that was yourself

douxie u suck at blending in but i still love u

oh God steve why

u fucking look alike ofc u'd say that

YES FREE JIM!

drunk steve :')))

rapper steve :')))

Merlin during that part when the trolls escape Camelot lol same

POWERFUL CLAIRE!!!

GLOWY EYES CLAIRE!!!!!

trollhunter squad -1 being saved by their enemies lol

Episode 3

I do not like glowy eyes jim

morgana gwen gay

HOLY SHIT POWERFUL CLAIRE 😍

i wanted u two (morgana and claire) to be friends :'(((

HOLY SHIT ARTHUR WAS THE ONE WHO CUT MORGANA'S HAND OFF

AHSAKAJSKAJ MORGANA DEAD???

Episode 4

AGAKAJAAJ BLINKY

NIMUE!!!

TIME TO SEE WHICH NIMUE THEORY IS TRUE

AAARRRGGHH!!!

WITCH CLAIRE! POWERFUL CLAIRE! U AMAZING GIRL I LOVE U! U CAN OPEN THAT SHADOW PORTAL!

TEACHER DOUXIE :')))) I LOVE U

no nimue theory is true (or maybe there's a true theory out there but the ones i have read aren't)

IT'S THE THINGY!!! (and by thingy i'm referring to that netflix screensaver?/sneakpeek?/thingy)

Douxie freeing Nimue and receiving excalibur

Ur an amazing person Douxie and i love u

Jim & Morgana parallel???

OoO IT WAS NARI WHO GAVE MORGANA THE HAND

history's going alright in my pov

Episode 5

MORGANA GETTING HER GOLD ARMOUR GEAR THINGY!!! (me: 😍)

MORE TEACHER DOUXIE HIHI!!!

SHIT CLAIRE GET OUT OF THERE

>:((( merlin listen to them

steve and food hihi (same)

oh God steve

steve calling for eli :'(((

IS CALLISTA GONNA BE DEYA?!!!

CALLISTA DEFINITELY IS DEYA

CLAIRE IS BEING THE AWESOME QUEEN SHE IS AGAIN I LOVE HER

U GO GIRL

creepslayerz :'))) i miss eli

past douxie u dork i love u

Episode 6

AAAAAAAA VENDEL

Jim & Claire reunion 😍

draal i missed u :'(((

TROLL DADS ORIGIN HIHI

IF THEY KILL JIM I SWEAR

THE AMULET OF DAYLIGHT ORIGINS HIHI

where's kanjigar?

decimaar blade >:(((

coach steve HIHIHI i love him

Jim and Claire date hihi they're so soft my bbs

:'((((

jim... claire's always been an awesome wizard

THE AMULET ORIGINS!!!

DOUXIE AND MERLIN WORKING TOGETHER TO CREATE IT :')))

DOUXIE FINALLY GETS THE STAFF HE DESERVES YIEEEEE!!!

CALLISTA TROLLHUNTER!

pre-trollhunters draal >:(((

THE TROLL DADS 🥺

BLINKY U GAY SHIT

ALSO AAARRRGGHH!!! HAD A NOSE RING WHAT A CUTIE

YIEEEEEE CAL IS DEYA I KNEW IT!!!

AJA MENTION!!!

Episode 7

IT'S THE BATTLE OF KILAHEAD!!!

PLS DON'T KILL JIM HUHU

gosh merlin u useless shit douxie's doing all the hard work

DEYA WHERE DAFUQ R U

OH NO LANCELOT

OH NO ARTHUR

OH HE ACTUALLY DIES HERE AND IT'S NOT GONNA MESS WITH TIME ALRIGHT NO PROBLEM

DEYA! TROLLMARKET! WHERE R U

THERE THEY ARE WHAT TOOK YA'LL SO LONG

WHERE'S THE DAYLIGHT ARMOUR???

OH THERE IT IS

DOUXIE TURNING HIS STAFF INTO A GUITAR THE ABSOLUTE CUTIE

don't worry doux i think it's amazing

DOUXIE U DORK I LOVE U

U CAN DEFEAT MORGANA WITH THE POWER OF MUSIC I BELIEVE IN U !!!

DOUXIE AND HIS OBSESSION WITH FIRE HIHI

IT'S THE QUOTE (ALTHOUGH JUST PART OF IT) BUT STILL !!!

IF U THINK I DIDN'T RECITE IT ALONG WITH DEYA

(disappointed she didn't get to say it so i'll say it for her) DON'T THINK !!! BECOME !!!

DEYA MY GURL I'M SO PROUD OF U

I LOVE MY TROLL DADS

JIM PLS DON'T DIE :'(((((

where's steve? where dafuq is steve? did ya'll leave him? HOY DON'T LEAVE HIM

oh jk he's there

hihi past douxie hihi

Episode 8

JIM NO DON'T DIE HUHU

NARI U PRECIOUS CHILD 😍

PROTECC NARI

DOUXIE AND HIS MAGIC GUITAR I LOVE HIM

WTF NO JIM!!! HUHU

NOOOO JIM

AYSJAHSKAHA IT'S KREL HIHI

her name's zoe !!!

soooooo who exactly is zoe

"we're closed to privileged arthurian toolbags" ok i love zoe

wizard underground hihi

HAVE I ALREADY SAID HOW MUCH I LOVE NARI HIHI

WTF DID THEY DO TO JIM GRRR

FREE JIM !!! SAVE JIM !!!

OH NO THEY FUCKING BROKE THE AMULET AGAIN

WHY DOES EVERYONE KEEP BREAKING THE AMULET

WHY DOES IT KEEP FUCKING BREAKING

MORGANA!!!

MORGANA JOINS TEAM GOOD ???!!!

HOLY CRAP WHO DAFUQ IS THE GREEN NIGHT

IS IT ARTHUR? BUT HE'S DEAD ???

PROTECT NARI HIHI I LOVE HER

but gdi merlin

YES!!! SAVE JIM!!!

so ... who is pretending to be nari

is it archie???

yep! it is archie

NARI I LOVE HER

PRECIOUS

gdi merlin we're not leaving without claire and jim

CHANGE JIM BACK FREE JIM SAVE JIM HUHU WTF DID THEY DO TO JIM

fucking shit morgana i want u in team good stop being team bad

IT'S ARTHUR HOLY FUKC

HOLY SHIT MERLIN DEAD ???

i h8 merlin but shit bro why'd u kill him huhu

GLOWY EYES DOUXIE 😍

POWERFUL DOUXIE 😍

GO BOI

MERLIN ALIVE ???

"i'll try to make u proud" "you already have" :'((( no i'm not crying u r

SON???!!! HAHA(?) I KNEW IT???

BUT WHY WOULD CALL UR DAD MASTER??? WHAT KIND OF MESSED UP KINKY SHIT???

Episode 9

hihi past douxie

douxie u cheater

AH JK FATHER FIGURE NOT REAL FATHER alrightz

doux :'((((

i mean i'm not super sad bc i don't really like merlin but still

IS THAT A GOOD MORGANA I SEE hihihi

FREE JIM :'((((

nari i love u

NO JIM'S ALIVE I BELIEVE

noooo don't bake douxie into a blood pie i love him

did charlemagne the devourer just make a pun

charlemagne is archie's dad lol i didn't expect that

charlie

lol this is gonna take a long time

TEAM GOOD MORGANA !!!!!

HIHI MORGANA I'M PROUD OF U

CLAIRE AND MORGANA BFFS lol

BB ARCHIE THAT'S SO CUTE

DOUXIE!!!

THE CLAIRE MORGANA DUO HIHI

Episode 10

Last ep huhu

krel my boi !!!

nari bb :'(((

krel precious

douxie hihi my boi !!! U SMART BOI I LOVE U

YES U ARE STRONG ENOUGH HISIRDOUX CASPERAN I LOVE U

he trapped them in a time loop i love him

douxie and his guitar i love him

NARI HIHI UR SO PRECIOUS I LOVE U

THAT'S MY BOI DOUXIE I LOVE U

OH NO DON'T KILL DOUXIE

DOUXIE PLS DON'T DIE

AHSKAJSKSJA PURPLE EYED CLAIRE OMG GURL I LOVE U

GLOWY EYED PURPLE EYED CLAIRE !!!!

OH NO DID THEY KILL MORGANA

DID MORGANA DIE ?????

OH NO DON'T KILL CLAIRE

CLAIRE PLS DON'T DIE

MORGANA DEAD :'(((

WHY DO THEY KEEP KILLING PPL HUHU

stop it

STOP BREAKING MY HEART

JIM ALIVE!!!!

IT'S MY BLUE EYED BABY BOI

OH NO JIM DEAD :'(((( i'm literally sobbing right now huhu NOOOO

U CAN'T DO THIS WTF HUHU

AHAAJJAJAAJ TEAR!!!

AHSKAJAKAKAKA JIM ALIVE!!!!

JIM HUMAN!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

OH NO DOUXIE NO

DON'T DIE DOUXIE HUHU

YES SAVE DOUXIE!!!! CATCH DOUXIE!!!

OH NO FUCK DOUXIE DEAD TT

DOUXIE ALIVE!!!

or douxie dead??? i'm confused

MHM DOUXIE WHY R U THERE GO BACK TOT THE LAND OF THE LIVING

LOL DOUXIE NOT FOLLOWING MERLIN'S INSTRUCTIONS I LOVE HIM

WTF DOUXIE DEAD???!!! I DISAGREE

YES!!! DOUXIE ALIVE !!!!!!!!!

JIM HUMAN I'M SO HAPPY!!!!

JIM EYEBROW SCAR??? OMG!!!

JIM WIELD EXCALIBUR???

OR NOT???

TALES OF ARCADIA: FRIENDSHIP IS MAGIC

no douxie nari don't go away huhu i'm gonna miss u

DOUXIE AND NARI IN A BIG CITY IS THAT NEW YORK OR SMTH

WHERE R THEY???

BUT WBT EXCALIBUR???

AND THE ARCANE ORDER???

SEASON 2???

it's a limited series tho so maybe not huhu

[skinnixciggs]

DAY 2 SKINNY GIRL DIET💕

3/23/21

cottage cheese - 110 cal

cutie, strawberry, kiwi

almond milk - 80 cals

frozen blueberries

spinach & strawberry salad w/ balsamic vinaigrette

estimate: 100 cals (give or take)

total: 290

limit: 300

hi!! day 2 went pretty well :) i did my 18 hour fast, and ate between 2pm and 7:30!

i didn’t exercise at all today, which is kinda :( but i think it’s okay, there’s always tomorrow!

if i get the motivation maybe i’ll do a quick workout later tonight. but my cal count may be just a bit off, maybe a little under or a little over. if it is over, then i know it’s not by much so i don’t feel too bad. plus, everything i ate today was healthy! and i drank almost 64 oz of water again, and i had a detox tea, and now i’m having a green tea before bed 😌 again, the skinny girl diet doesn’t count fruit or veggies, which is kinda nice! but anyway, today went goooood and i’m happy about it. tomorrow i’m gonna make it my goal to do at least one workout.

anywayyy stay safe !! ✨✨

[rcl-stan]

my (probably controversial) opinions on ships

Canon:

percabeth: their relationship set the bar so damn high i want what they have 😔 10/10

jasiper: i say jasiper bc everyone argues whether or not it's jasper or jiper and it's a solid combination of the two. tbh their relationship wasn't good. like good while it lasted but if they never broke up i would've been surprised. it was also hella fake, and piper is probably gay let my girl live hera 4/10

frazel: ✨no✨ first of all (here's a side controversial opinion) i don't like frank. don't worry, i absolutely love hazel. second, that age gap? um, chile anyways 👀 sorry if you think that an eighth grader dating a junior in high school is okay, but it's a definite no for me ❤️✨ 0/10

caleo: it's cute, i like how they were a whole "destined to be together" thing and how they both believed they could never find love, but it was rushed. i have a whole long ass headcanon about how i would've done leo and calypso and their love lives better, but that's a post for another day. tbh leo's probably gay tho. the gods were nice to cal 5/10

gruniper: tbh this was the beginning of rickald sticking literally every character in a relationship but i'm happy for grover and they're really cute 7/10

charlena: they're so cute they make my heart soft 🥺 10/10

chrisse: tbh they're also super cute and i really love clarisse not being "just an asshole" like everyone can be loving and compassionate and that's sweet <3 and her saving him from insanity after the labyrinth?? and her getting dating advice she loved him so much?? 🥺👉👈 also i was simping over both of them watching sea of monsters sooo 10/10

solangelo: they're cute but i ship nico w someone else peep the non canon portion. bonus point because i love will solace more than anything and he should be known more than just being nico's bf 8/10

tysella: cute and i like how even monsters can find love but once again just ricks attempt to stick as many characters together as possible like it was so out of the blue PSA it's okay to not feel/want/find love <3 don't let fiction bring you down ily and you're doing fantastic sweetie <3 anyways 5/10

zarter: yes yes yes just YES ugh they're real cute and let me just say the red pyramid/the throne of fire broke my heart but we got back on it 10/10

saltnubus: i- just- what the fAwk 😃 they're the same person ?? i, gIrl eye- chicas it's- ugh let's just get to the rating because words can't describe this ship but numbers can 2/10 (extra points for effort and not dead walt)

Not Canon:

tratie: YES V GOOD SHIP they're adorable please make this canon we have one more book pull some strings. i remember in my most recent reread of pjo i was waiting for tratie and there was nothing and i realized it isn't canon my mind was blown. loss of a point because it's been around for so long and still hasn't been made canon, like, around for so long most people forget it's fanon until it's brought up every once in a while. 9/10

jercy: tbh i don't ship it. like they'd make good friends, but even then they'd both have multiple people they'd put over each other. 0/10

jasico: once again a hard no for me. i just don't see it. like def bros and i think jason being the ultimate good friend to nico, yeah that's cool, but no romance just bromance 1/10

pernico: ✨no✨ 0/10

pipabeth: v cute ship but once again feel like they wouldn't've been #1s to each other, better than jasiper worse than percabeth 6/10

lukabeth: FUCK THAT SHIT NONONONONO GET THAT PEDOPHILIC SHIT OUTTA HERE RIGHT NOW -92736373937373/10

thaluke: feel like they may have had a small thing when they were on the run, but it's a no for me 1/10

perachel: this ship is so valid y'all are just afraid of having this conversation well here it is. it's more similar to jasiper in how if they had gotten together i don't think they would've lasted, but there was some thiqq chemistry and they would've been really great together. and they're also really good friends, stop erasing that 😡✨ 8/10

jeyna: they would've been so great together. as much as i love me a lesbian reyna, i have to admit jason and reyna would've been lowkey goals and super adorable and just, perfect for one another. super sad hera decided to get in the way of that :/ 9/10

theyna: tbh i don't ship it. i just don't see any chem between the two. cool friends maybe, but it's a no for me. 3/10

pipeyna: yessss now that's a badass duo if i've ever seen one. turn it up! 7/10

clareyna: y'all ain't ready for this oneeee ugh like too powerful of a duo the world ain't ready but they'd be so cute i- 🥺 soft clarisse and reyna but also stern and badass clarisse and reyna ahhh this is so shmackalicious, spicetastic, words can't describe... but numbers can 10/10

clarina: a couple of cuties and they definitely had something. not bad, 6/10

valdangelo: no words can describe how much i love this ship. litch-rally gay percabeth. they're meant to be and i'll bet my life on that. like they've both gone through almost the same things, they just handled them differently. they'd feel for each other and eventually open up to each other and get along great. never feeling like they belong but finding comfort in eachother. knowing that there's someone there for them, who understands them, not feeling alone, ugh 🥺 please they're sooo cute 🥺👉👈 also forgive me if this is horribly incorrect but i feel like leo constantly flirting with every girl is just a bit of internalized homophobia ?? like if he had a super religious family i could see them being homophobic (i'm mexican and a lot of my family is like that so i can see it being like that, but not all mexicans are tho) so that could've been kinda rooted in him. he was also called el diablo by his family that could've ran through his mind a bit idk that was just a bit of random extra info anyways 10/10

valgrace: i've never gotten background on this ship?? like i'm open to options yk let me learn so like if anyone wants to elaborate on it/give me reasons to ship them i'm all ears ! but based off of what ik of them in general i don't think they'd be super great. def better as just friends, 3/10

jason + annabeth: uhm issa no from me they'd be that super bland saltine cracker couple, maybe like lifeless praetor duo or smth (if anna elizabeth was somehow roman ofc) 0/10

piper + percy: chaotic and iconic, but definitely not in a relationship 1/10

beckendorf + percy: no❤️✨ but beckendorf was definitely percy's first crush and you can't change my mind 0/10

carter + hazel: this one was a request from my ig.... idk how to feel like.. i mean.. tbh i don't even know... i haven't heard this before today, if you got reasons lmk i'm here for it but i'm very... idek what i'm feeling. ??/10

[skinnyandwitty-blog1]

“SAFE” FOODS

this is a list of all my “safe” foods. “safe” being in quotations because they are only safe if i eat them in the amount specified, or less than the amount specified.

15 raspberries (15 cal)

5 grapes (15 cal)

4 strawberries (20 cal)

1 cutie (20 cal)

1 cup romaine lettuce (8 cal)

1 cup zucchini (22 cal)

8 stalks celery (16 cal)

1 cup raw cauliflower (27 cal)

1 cup raw broccoli (22 cal)

1/2 cup baby carrots (26 cal)

1/2 cup raw onion (32 cal)

1 cup raw spinach (7 cal)

1/2 cup raw mushrooms (8 cal)

1 egg white (17 cal)

1 cup unsweetened almond milk (30 cal)

1 cup unsweetened cashew milk (25 cal)

1 slice butternut whole wheat bread (65 cal)

1 cup microwave popcorn (42 cal)

1 tsp vegetarian bullion (5 cal)

diet coke/ coke zero (0 cal)

coffee- pike place starbucks k cups (5 cal)

mio water enhancer (0 cal)

[shittyfandomimagines]

Wedding Blues-CH

Been a hot minute since I’ve posted about this cutie 🥺

GIF creds to owner❤️

I did not edit or spell check this, so god pls forgive me😂

White laced gown, navy blue accents with a hint of maroon in the flower bouquet, champagne pink included into the reception hall and our gowns; I mean this wedding was like my dream come true.

I signed the guestlist for my friend's wedding, Adam and Alissa had been together for years, been my friends since college, so this was a long time coming.

“It’s beautiful here, isn’t it?” Calum’s voice shocked me, I turned around slowly to see him dressed in a white button up and black slacks. “It looks just as amazing as someone else does right now.” I look him up and down as he was standing in front of me. He rolls his eyes and reaches out for me.

I hug him the best I can without smearing my makeup on his shirt, him and Alissa would kill me both.

“Baby, you look just as amazing. This color makes you look... wow.” He sizes me up and I roll my eyes. “I’d love to stay and chit chat but the photos are about to start and I gotta go. Bridesmaids duties never end.” I joke and he rolls his eyes.

“Fine, but make sure to take some on a cell phone so I can update my lock-screen.” He winks and my heart melts. “I will, I love you.” I kiss his lips shortly and he smiles. “I love you more. See you inside, rockstar.”

-

“Do you think you’re ever gonna walk down that aisle with Calum? It’s been like 5 years now, hasn’t it?” Melissa asks while we lined up in front of the doors. “We’ve talked about it, sure. We’re both too busy for that now.”

“I mean it’s been this long, if he hasn’t committed to it yet, then he never will.” She says and my heart drops. “I don’t believe that.” I say and Melissa shrugs.

“I agree, it’s been this long.” Kennedy says from behind me, I felt like throwing up. I don’t know why I let them affect me this much. I don’t know if it’s the slight jealousy of this being the 3rd wedding we’ve attended in the past 2 months or if I’m just an insecure piece of shit, but either way, my heart was dead.

“Enough of that, it’s time to start.” The wedding planner cut us short as the doors opened slowly.

Everyone looked back at the three of us as we walked together with the groomsmen, I caught a glimpse of Cal smiling and winking at me, but I quickly looked away before I accidentally cried.

Soon, Alissa came in and the ceremony started. I would sneak glances at Calum and he’d be staring solely at me, which made me look away or put my head down.

I loved the thought of marriage with Calum more than anything, but it just was always the thing on the back burner. We haven’t even talked about marriage in at least 7 months.

What if it was true, that if he was to commit he would’ve done it by now. But he’s a super star, marriage obviously isn’t something that sells.

Maybe my life will as be that saying “always the bridesmaid but never the bride.”

——

The party really started when the mini bar opened up and I could get my hands on any type of liquor.

“You looked amazing up there.” I heard Calum’s voice before a hand wrapped around at my side.

“Thanks babe!” I tried to force a fake smile, but he saw right through me. “What’s wrong?” He asked and I shook my head. “Nothing I promise! I am just exhausted, I’ve been up doing this bridesmaid thing since 7 am. I’m sorry.” I pout slightly and he kissed my lips shortly.

“You sure?” He asks while moving my hair out of the way.

“Pinky promise.” I lie as I stick my pinky out to his while he connects.

“Do you want to catch a table together?” He asks and I shake my head. “Can’t, she put my placement card over at the head table.” I point and he frowns.

“She didn’t put you by Liam, did she?” He asks while winking at me, Liam was an old high school fling.

“No, he’s at the opposite end.” I smile softly and he just turns his head to the side a little, I saw so many wheels turning. “Okay well I’ll catch up with you at the first dance. Text me from up there, please. I miss you.” He kisses my forehead before walking over to an empty seat by our old friends.

I just felt like my life wasn’t as shiny as everyone else’s. I mean yeah I am dating the sweetest man on this planet, I have an amazing job, and I know he loves me but what if that’s just it? What if he doesn’t see a future with me and he is just blinded by it just being boring old us. What if he doesn’t want to marry me and that’s why he hasn’t asked by now? I’ve been to 3 weddings as the bridesmaid this year and I haven’t once considered that maybe I’m not good enough to be the bride.

I feel so happy for my friends because they just seem so happy, but what if I’m not cutting it for him anymore?

——

“Now it’s time for the ladies to gather around for the bouquet toss, come on girls!” I hear the DJ announce, I hadn’t even moved out of my seat since I sat down. I skipped the whole dancing thing, I could see Calum’s disappointment but I guess he didn’t mind too much.

“C’mon y/n, that means you too.” Alissa yells and I move to stand behind her, the crowd of women intoxicatedly happy.

“3, 2, 1!” The crowd yells but Alissa doesn’t throw the bouquet, she turns around slowly to hand it to Kennedy who was front and center. Kennedy seemed confused before she turns around to see her boyfriend, Grayson, on one knee.

You’ve got to be fucking kidding me!!!

They’ve been together for a whole year and they’re getting married before me? Someone better call Ashton Kutcher and the camera crew out here before I fucking lose it.

I roll my eyes before I march my happy ass back to my assigned seat. What the actual fuck?

——

“Baby?” Calum sounded upset behind me, I turn around to see him looking extremely exhausted. “Yeah!” I fake my happiness when I speak.

“I’m gonna head home, partying doesn’t feel like me tonight, so I’ll see you there. I know you’ve got a few more bridesmaid duties to do before you can go.” He sounded just as off as I did.

“Oh, yeah! I do. I’ll see you at home, don’t wait up for me.” I smile lightly and he nods.

He kisses my cheek softly before he walks out of the venue.

—

“Everyone, please give it up and say goodbye for a few days to the new mister and misses Adam Walker!” The DJ yells as the couple makes it to the venue doors. The 6 of us in the bridal party were lined up with them and their parents.

Alissa gave out hugs until she finally got to me. “You okay?” She asks and I nod shortly. “I am all bridesmaid out, I hope you have fun.” I give her a hug and she nods. “I will, tell Cal hi for us. Love y’all.” She said before turning away, was my pain that obvious or??

——

I finally made it home and my feet were beyond dead.

“Baby, is that you?” Calum’s voice called out, fuck. Fuck.

“Yeah, it’s me.” I put my keys down and then my purse.

I turn the corner and almost run flat into him, I apologize quietly and move towards the stairs.

“Did I say something today? Or do something?” Calum asks from behind me, I could hear the pain in his voice.

“No, it wasn’t you. I’m just tired.” I lie and take the first stair. “I believed that for a few minutes and I’m sure you are tired, but that’s not it. You’re avoiding me and you didn’t even text or dance with me. You just seem pissed off at the world or me, if it’s me then I am sorry.” His voice stops me, I slack my shoulders.

“You didn’t do or say anything Cal. Sorry.” I say as I make my way up the stairs before he stops me again, but it didn’t matter because he was up the stairs shortly after me.

“I hear you but I don’t feel you.” He says as he grabs my arm loosely. “It’s not anything you’ll understand because I don’t even understand it myself.” I sigh and face him, he physically softened a little at that but it didn’t last long.

“Just talk to me baby, please. You know it won’t be stupid, we’ve been doing this for 5 years now, we’ve got this.” He soothes and I roll my eyes.

“Yeah, 5 fucking years. That’s the problem.” I grunt and move out of his grip and into the bathroom. I find the makeup wipes and start to scrub my face. “What does that mean!” He exclaims and I shake my head.

“We’ve been together for 5 years and you haven’t asked me.” I felt like a stupid bitch for even talking.

“Asked you what?” He sounded absolutely clueless.

“To marry you Cal! Marriage! Why are we even dating still, if you don’t plan on starting a family between us then what’s the point anymore!” I slightly raised my voice and he takes a step back.

“What? Of course there’s a point to us. How do you know I don’t want to marry you? We’ve talked about it before!” He was getting just as frustrated.

“If you haven’t committed to it now then you never will, and other people think that too! It’s been so long since we’ve ever spoke of marriage Calum.” I fold my arms across my chest.

“There’s more to love than a ceremony and a ring! If that’s all that matters instead of the 5 years of loving each other solely, then I’m not the problem here! I can’t believe marriage is so important to you as a sign of commitment, like I haven’t gave you all of me! You’ve got to be fucking kidding me!” He shouts and I jump slightly, taking a big step back.

He was right though, maybe right with his voice too damn loud, but nevertheless.

There was more to love than a ring or paper, I just felt like that’s what it should end up at, but it’s not. Paper doesn’t change commitment, it changes titles.

“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to yell at you like that or scare you.” He moved closer and I nodded.

“Please talk to me. I’m sorry and we can work it out.” I wasn’t avoiding talking because I was scared or upset that he yelled, I just knew he was right and I felt like a fucking idiot.

“Baby,” his voice was shaky and I grabbed ahold of his hand softly. “You shouldn’t be sorry, I’m the freaking idiot here. You were right, it’s not about a ring or paper. I’m sorry that I overreacted and ruined a nice time.” I admit and he lets out a sigh of relief.

“It’s okay, I understand. You do know that I want to marry the fuck out of you, right? Because I swear to God, I’ll fly us to Las Vegas right now.” He jokes and I nod, laughing a little.

“I don’t want to elope and I don’t want you to feel like you have to propose any time soon. You’re right and I can wait, because my commitment and love for you will stay the same regardless.” I hug him and he chuckles lightly.

“I love you.” He kisses my cheek and I smile warmly. “I love you more.”

“If someone ever gets proposed to at our wedding though, I swear I will go into labor at their wedding and die at their fucking funeral.” I joke and he laughs, eyes crinkling and all warm like.

“Note taken.”

[itisannak]

Fighter (Calum Hood Fluff)

Summary: Calum finds out his girlfriend is boxing. (Request) (Words: 2.1k)

I sit on the edge of my bathtub, waiting for my skin to dry after my shower. I feel a little worn, tired from the training, but at any moment, Calum will knock on my door, ready for our date night. I smile at the thought of cuddling up next to him on the couch; after the hell of a week I've lived, he is the only thing I need. I rub some lotion over the freshly formed bruise on my arm, an acquirement from today's mock fight. I am used to them by now, I've become unbothered by the purple marks on my body, but one of the things I wish for is to keep my 'feminity' while training.

I have barely slipped in my sweats and tee the moment the doorbell goes off. I grin brightly, knowing that behind that door there is the most handsome man I've laid my eyes on, waiting for me with a box of pizza in his hands.   "Hi..." I sing, opening the door for him. He looks as tired as I do, but the smile on his face spreads as his eyes land on me. "Hi, baby." He leans down to leave a kiss on my lips before he walks into my flat. "What kind of pizza did you bring?" I ask, clapping my hands excitedly. "I am glad to see you too... Oh my God, I've missed you so much..." He mocks me, making me roll my eyes as I snatch the box away from him. "Yeah, yeah... I've missed you too... But I am starving, baby. I haven't eaten in hours." I pout at him, opening the lid to find out the triple cheese pizza we both adore. "I doubt you've eaten anything today. You look exhausted..." He comments, moving behind me to hug me by my waist. "I've eaten. I just got back from training so I am starving." I reply, leaning my head back on his shoulder. "Well, let's get eating..." He whispers, picking me up to take me to the couch. "You know I can walk, right?" I ask as he lets me down on the couch. He sits next to me, placing my feet on his lap. "I know. I just like picking you up." He replies, picking up the remote control. "Will you stay the night?" I ask, moving up to curl against him. "I really want to. But I have a meeting tomorrow morning and I have to be there early." He sighs, making me pout my bottom lip. "I really wanted to spend a bit more time with you." I murmur and he chuckles. "You can come and spend the night tomorrow at my place. Maybe spend the whole weekend if you'd like..." He suggests, smiling comfortingly at me. I mimic his smile, leaning my head on his chest. "Yeah, that sounds good. I will get to hang out with Duke as well." I say happily, making him hum. "So, I'll pick you up from work and we can get home together." He states. "Not from work. I have a training session tomorrow. Can you pick me up from the gym?" I ask him, opening the pizza box. "Sure. You have training again tomorrow?" He asks me, picking up a slice as the episode starts. "Tuesdays, Thursdays, and Fridays are for training, baby." I giggle, taking a slice for myself. "I see. Well, you can send me the address and I'll be there at..." "7:20." I chime in, leaving a kiss on his cheek.

My trainer holds the punching bag as I do reps of the arm exercise she gave me. "Good posture... Exhale at impact... Just a little more." She instructs me, keeping the punching bag straight as I punch it. "My wrists are kinda burning." I state, feeling that the tension of the day is finally getting to me. "Just 10 more. Can you do 10 more?" She asks me and I nod, going back to punching. By the time I am done, my legs are sore and my arms are burning, but I feel a rush a pleasure in my body.   "You were great today. Rest and I'll see you on Tuesday." She says, giving me a fist bump. "Thanks. See you on Tuesday." I wave her off, bringing the glove to my mouth to untie it. "You are boxing? The training you are doing is box training?" I hear Calum's voice coming from behind me. I turn around, finding my boyfriend looking at me surprised as I bite onto the velcro's end. "Well, hello to you too, babe." I giggle, walking to him. "Hi..." He looks at me mesmerized, jaw hitting the floor. "Wanna help me with the gloves?" I extend my hand at him, which he takes without stopping looking at me surprised. "Are you intimidated?" I ask as he removes the first glove, freeing my hand. "Why would I be? My teeny tiny cutie girlfriend is apparently lethal..." He moves his head nervously. "I am not lethal. I just can defend myself if needed." I reply and he chuckles. "That wasn't intimidating at all..." He mumbles, freeing my other hand as well. I rub my wrist, trying to soothe it, as I think of something to say to make him feel less awkward. "You know that I am still your itty bitty teeny tiny cutie girlfriend. Who just works out by boxing, right?" "You look badass punching things and I guess it caught me off guard a bit. Why didn't you tell me sooner? All this time when you were telling me that you are training, I thought it was like cardio or weights and stuff... I could never picture you Rocky Balboa style." He giggles, putting his arms around my waist. "I think you are overstretching this a bit. But yeah, I've been told that it's hard picturing me boxing. I guess I didn't tell you because you would kinda freak out a bit... I mean, everyone does in the beginning. And I didn't want to put you through that." I explain, bringing my hands to rest on his chest. "I am not going to lie, I am a tad bit freaked out, only because I am scared you will get hurt. But, I've been with you for almost a year, and I haven't seen you injured or hurt in any way, so I will have to live with the fact that my girlfriend is fucking badass." He leaves a peck on my forehead, making me smile. "Well, even if I wasn't boxing, you would have to still live with the fact that your girlfriend is a badass. I'll go change now." I lean in for a quick peck before I pick up my stuff and walk to the locker room.

"So, you only train for fun or you have matches and stuff?" Calum asks me as I walk out of his shower while he brushes his teeth before bed. "Mainly for fun. But I have a couple of friendly matches as well. Like once every 4 months or something." I reply, leaning against the marble top counter. "So, you've had like 3 matches or so while we are together." He points out. "Yeah, I guess." I shrug my shoulders, grabbing my toothbrush. "How come you didn't invite me to any of those?" "You were touring, baby. You are invited to all my matches from now on if you want to come." "I will be there. Banners and all. Even though I will probably freak out at every hit you take." He says before he rinses his mouth. "Well then, I guess I will have to throw more hits than I take." I state and he hums, shaking his head. "Have you ever had like, a serious injury?" Cal asks me, worry written on his face. "No, because I mainly do it for working out. Just a couple of bruises." I reply, cupping his jaw before I pull his face close for a kiss.

The day of a mock match came sooner than expected; I seriously don't feel anxious at all, but I can't say the same for my boyfriend. As the days passed, he became agitated, and I am pretty sure he had a nightmare once. It is cute how he is so worried about my wellbeing, but he is pulling it off proposition, to the point where I restrain from talking about it in front of him.

As he promised, he is in the crowd, along with Ashton, who at this point I think has become his emotional support buddy for the game. Of course, he is not the only person in the crowd; people are sitting on the bleachers, cheering while their people are on the ring. "You feel ready?" My coach asks me. "Honestly? No." I reply, shaking my head and earning a weird look from her. "How come? You are always ready for the ring." She asks, her eyebrows almost touching together. "My boyfriend is in the crowd and he is tensed, so I am tensed." I reply, pointing to where Calum is sitting, crouched down while Ashton is rumbling something to him. "You've been on the ring so many times, and you've only gotten a couple of superficial bruises. This is a mock fight, you are here just for practice and nothing more. Honestly, you are more in danger during our workouts rather than in here. So, calm down and have fun." She explains, trying to make me feel calmer, but as my eyes are fixated on Calum and how worried he looks, my stomach tightens more. "I know, but he doesn't. And I am worried about him." I sigh, taking my eyes off him. "Want me to go talk to him?" She offers but I instantly shake my head. "Nooo... He is going to worry more then. He is going to worry about me leaving for workouts." I chuckle awkwardly, brushing it off. "Ok then. Calm down cause you are next and if you are not concentrated, you will be more prone to getting hurt." She explains, pointing to the ring where the fight is about to finish at any moment. I stand up, fixing my posture, and taking a breath to calm my jitters. "I am ready and I am going to be there. Everything will be fine." I breathe out, stretching my neck from side to side.

I hiss as the medic presses the gauge against my lip. The only time Calum is at one of my matches and I got a bust lip. "It doesn't look like you'll need stitches. It is not deep, so you were lucky." The guy says, looking at the little wound. "You are not dizzy, are you?" He asks, and I shake my head no. "I am fine." I reply, now moving my lips more easily. "Great. I will need you to clean the wound 2 times a day for the next 3 days. And I think you will be fine." He smiles at me and I nod, getting off the little bench. "Thank you." I cheer before I walk off the medics' rooms.

Heading back to the backstage room, I am almost certain that Calum will be waiting for me, totally freaked out by the situation of my lips. "You were badass." Calum cheers, pulling me into his arms as I enter the room. "Thank you..." I am beyond confused, definitely not the reaction I was expecting. "You are ok, right?" He asks, pulling away to take a look at me. "Yeah, if you excuse the lip." I reply, smiling as I watch him being out of his panicked state. "Will you need stitches for that?" He asks, running his thumb over my cheek. "No... The medic said it is superficial." I reply. "Thank God. You really looked badass. I never thought I would be so into the idea of my girlfriend being a boxer." He states, pressing his lips on my forehead. "See? I told you that you would get used to it." I reply, giggling. "Do you think that your trainer would give us a couple's training?" "I don't know. I mean, you are taller and buffer than me, so it might be an issue, but she can give us a stuntman class." I reply, gripping onto his t-shirt as he pulls me closer. "I would like that. A lot actually. Because watching you on that ring made me feel things..." He whispers, holding me to his chest. "Really? Well, maybe I could exploit those things you are feeling." I reply, purring as I rest my head on his chest. "Maybe you should." "Guys, I hate being the third wheel... Please, this is uncomfortable..." Ashton cries, making Calum and I part from each other giggling.  

My Masterlist

[mynamemightbeana]

A partial list of my safe foods 😊

Protien sources:

Cottage cheese is 110 cals per half cup and has 13 grams of protein

Black beans are 100 cals per half cup and have 7 grams of protein

Hard boiled eggs have about 80 cals per and 6 grams of protein.

Chicken breast has about 160 cals per 3 oz serving and 31 grams of protein.

Fruits and veggies:

Apples (about 80 cals for a medium apple)

Cutie oranges (about 40 cals per orange)

Celery, tomatoes, and carrots: I try not to count cals for these!

Snacks:

Rice cakes and crackers (cals depend on brand)

Popcorn (abput 60-80 cals per serving)

Drinks:

Green and black tea, black coffee, and water are all 0 cals, and when I'm craving umami i like to drink chicken broth from buillion (about 10 cals per cup)

[djzibaz]

Fifth #ZibaRadio Show, LIVE! Twitch.TV/DJZibaZ

Electrelane - Cut and Run

Angel Olsen - Never Be Mine

Belle and Sebastian - Sleep the Clock Around

The Robot Ate Me - Apricot Tea

Braid - Baby, Now That I’ve Found You

Tortoise - Salt the Skies (Live)

Toro Y Moi - New Beat

The Blank Tapes - Sleepy Head

The Smiths - Well I Wonder

Patsy Cline - Crazy

The Cure - Lullaby

Mac DeMarco - The Way You'd Love Her

New Order - Temptation 7" Mix

Pet Shop Boys - West End Girls

Palomino Blond - Creature Natural

Stereolab - The Black Arts

Selena - Como la Flor

Richie Valens - Donna

Rilo Kiley - August

The Growlers - Love Test

The Get Up Kids - Stay Gold, Ponyboy

Shakira - Loba

Los Prisioneros - Estrechez de Corazon

Los Tucanes de Tijuana - La Chona

Black Box - Everybody Everybody

Modern English - Melt with You

Crosses - Telepathy

So Many Wizards - Best Friends

Flock of Seagulls - Lost Control

The Cure - Never Enough

David Bowie - Let's Dance

Braid - Strawberryann switzerland

Depeche Mode - The Great Outdoors!

Q and Not U - and the washington monument blinks goodnight

The Promise Ring - A Picture Postcard

Damian Marley - Welcome to JamxRock

!!! - The Funky Branca

New Order - Shellshock

Queen - Under Pressure

Hall and Oates - Africa

Death Cab for Cutie - I Will Follow You into the Dark

Johnny Cash - Hey Porter

Bombay the Hard Way:Guns, Cars, Sitars-The Good,The Bad & the Chutney

Wes Montgomery - Tequila

Hank Thompson - I wasn't even in the running

Wes Montgomery - Bumpin' on Sunset

Julio Iglesias - Guantanamera

Misfits - Mommy can I go out and kill tonight?

Sex Pistols - Anarchy in the U.K.

Joy Division - Disorder

Stevie Wonder - Don't you worry about a thing

Madonna - La Isla Bonita

Pointer Sisters - I'm so excited

Kool and the Gang - Too Hot

Julio Iglesias - Historia de un amor

Depeche Mode - Get the Balance Right

Xiu Xiu - Twin Peaks Soundtrack

Morrissey - The More You Ignore Me

Bob Marley - Buffalo Soldier

Larry Young - Khalid of Space Part Two

Neon Indian - Halogen

Bossa Nova - Cielito Lindo

Cal Tjader Sextet - Crow's Nest

Yusef Lateef - Come Sunday

Polo - Anna

Ray Charles - Hey Good Lookin (Hank Williams cover)

Frank Sinatra - You Make me Feel So Young

Mexrrissey - Cada Dia es Domingo

The Marcels - Blue Moon

Crests - 16 Candles

Chris Montez - Let's Dance

arvin Berry and the Starlightrs - Earth Angel

Joe Jones - You Talk too Much

[bnprm]

merry christmas 🎄if you don’t celebrate, then happy holidays!!

wow 2018 eh? most of you know me from my old blog and i’m sure y’all know all the shit i’ve been through this year. but it’s been worth it. i’ve learned from the difficulties and have become a better person because of them. but i wouldn’t be where i am right now without every single one of you who have interacted with me over the last while on this website. i’ve found my home and for that i am truly thankful. 

here’s some special people who i want to celebrate this xmas! 

@dans-homosensual-holidays : dylan my canadian buddy! thanks for being there for me whenever i’m being ultra lazy. thanks for getting me back up on my feet doing no matter what it takes. you’ve been a great beta and i can’t wait to continue my writing journey with you!! enjoy your holidays, you deserve it ❤️

@lemonheadlester : harley!!! i’ve only known you a month but i feel like i’ve known you forever! thanks for being so supportive and for putting up with all my bullshit 24/7,, i love you!!! 💕 

@philstive : cal pal!!! i’ve known you for like a year i think??? and wow it’s been great knowing you,, i consider you one of my best tumblr friends and i hope we can keep chatting! you’re a cutie and you deserve to have a little bit of happiness this xmas break! i love playing game pigeons and you never fail to put a smile on my face. i love youuuuu 💝

@heartthrobphilly : wow i love the new url brook!! you were one of my biggest tumblr inspirations (and still are) but now that we’ve gotten a lot closer i’m happy to call you my friend! thanks for putting up with my rants and all the bs in that gc. you’re an amazing friend and i’m so happy to enjoy this xmas with you! 💜

@gemibi-dan : ciciiiiiiiii my kpoppie phannie friend!! thanks for being a great meme source and for putting up with my sad boi hours.... you’re a great friend and i’m so grateful to have met youuuuuu!! 💘

@bisexualldisaster : gurleen my canadian hockey friend,,, you’re so special to me and i love you so so so much. thanks for being there for me! keep being amazing 💖

and finally (how could i ever forget)

@philverandgold : jules i’m not going to get all sappy because you know how i feel about you. you’re my best friend and it’s been one hell of a wild ride getting to know you to telling you stuff i wouldn’t tell anyone else. thanks for putting up with me bestie ;) remember you matter and i love you the most 💓

so merry christmas to everyone!! enjoy your holidays because every single one of you deserve it!!!! don’t forget to take time for yourself and keep shining!!! ⭐️💕

[val3nt1nasblog]

7/31/22

today i ate

breakfast:

neapolitan oreo (80 cals)

lunch:

1 cup sliced zucchini (19 cals)

8oz mango passionfruit juice (5 cals!! love it)

gummies (105 cals)

dinner:

half a 3 cheese focaccia (140 cals)

cutie (45 cals)

extra:

two more oreos :( (190 cals)

total: 584 cals

i cant believe my summer break is almost over :(

[calqanda]

Announcements (Week of August 27, 2018)

--- COMMUNITY EVENTS ---

(1) QTPie: Fall Welcome Come for new friends, resources, FOOD, and cupcakes! QT (Queer and/or Trans) Pie is pronounced "cutie pie," and is both the title of our welcome event and a way of affirming that our queer and/or trans communities are made up of beautiful, amazing, QT Pies! Come have dinner and cupcakes with community and connect to resources! ♥#imaqtpieUCB

When: Thursday, August 30th, 2018 Time: 5:00PM-7:00PM Where: MLK Student Union, Multicultural Center (MCC), ADA Accessible --- (2) PINKWASHING AND MAINSTREAMING: A TALK BY DEAN SPADE Reform efforts aim at increasing justice and survival for queer and trans people have become more visible. At the same time, mainstream institutions have started to promote themselves as gay- or trans-friendly in order to get good PR, especially when they want to appear progressive to cover up harmful and violent practices. This process, called "pinkwashing," raises questions for social movement activists.

Dean Spade is an associate professor at the Seattle University School of Law and founder of the Sylvia Rivera Law Project.

When: Tuesday, September 4th, 2018 Time: 6:00PM-8:00PM Where: 110 Boalt Hall, Berkeley Law Room; UC Berkeley --- (3) TRANS HEALTHCARE PANEL: HORMONES AND GENDER AFFIRMING SURGERIES Join us as clinicians from Tang's Trans Care Team and student panelists discuss navigating trans healthcare at Cal! Food will be provided, so come, eat, and learn as we talk about hormones and gender-affirming surgeries.

Date: Wednesday, September 12, 2018 Time: 6:00PM-8:00PM Location: Gender Equity Resource Center (GenEq); 202 César Chàvez; UC Berkeley --- (4) QUEER PROM Welcome to the 2018 Queer Prom! This is for all current/active QT members of CalGreeks and QARC organizations to come together for a fun night of music, food, and activities. Please invite anyone from these orgs who you think might be interested in attending! Once you have RSVPed and we've confirmed that you are a part of one of the accepted organizations, you will get an email with more details about the event.

When: Friday, September 21st, 2018 Time: 7:00PM-10:00PM Where: TBD Costs: $3 in advance, $5 at the door RSVP: https://docs.google.com/…/1FAIpQLSf9ShbBX4dRJNZjx…/viewform…

--- RESOURCES AND OPPORTUNITIES ---

(5) APIICON 2019 COMMITTEE CHAIR APPLICATIONS Hello community! Applications to be a part of the planning team for the 2019 Asian Pacific Islander Issues Conference are now open! They close on Saturday, September 1st at 11:59PM. For more information about available positions, pay, and responsibilities, please see tinyurl.com/apiicon19info. If you're ready to apply, please fill out the form at tinyurl.com/apiicon19app.

Comments/questions/concerns? Contact ucb.apiicon@gmail.com

Deadline: Saturday, September 1st, 2018 11:59PM (PST) Application Link: tinyurl.com/apiicon19app --- (6) QUEER ART AND FASHION SHOW: PROJECT COORDINATOR APPLICATIONS 2018-2019 Project Coordinator applications for Berkeley's second annual Queer Art and Fashion Show are out! In April 2018, Queer Alliance Resource Center (QARC) interns organized the first Queer Art and Fashion Show, which emphasized the importance of queer and trans body positivity, self-care, and self-love. Due to the love from the community for this show, this event will be happening again next year and the project director is in search of folks to help bring the show into fruition for a second time around!

If you are interested in being a part of the planning process for the second annual show, please fill in and submit this application by no later than Wednesday, October 3rd, 2018 11:59PM (PST). There are only three available project coordinator positions, so there may be supplementary interviews in necessary.

Please email Katie Ly at katiely22@berkeley.edu if you have any questions!

What: Queer Art and Fashion Show Project Coordinator Applications Deadline: Wednesday, October 3rd, 2018 11:59PM (PST) Application Link: https://tinyurl.com/QueerArtProjectCoordinator