#But its okay Nonnie 😭✨

[sunsetsandsunshine]

Bro Im dead why do people STILL keep calling you 'sunset…' 😭😭😭

But calling you by ur full blog’s name is lowkey insanity 😭😭😭😭😭😭

OKAY OKAY ALRIGHT IM GLAD I WASN’T THE ONLY ONE WHO SAW THAT……..

[pradaxstyles]

congratulations! you got your own lemon drop nonnie!!! reader (or OC) is traveling with/is friends with/is in a relationship with Ellie, and after a particularly rough night, reader basically asks ellie about her nightmares and says "You mumble in your sleep." idk how you would want to write this but i'd like to see it!! (i might send an idea for joel your way) -🍋

Oh my gosh hi my little lemon drop nonnie 😭 I've never had an emoji anon I'm so excited. Im sososo glad you requested something! Seeing this made my entire day!! It's been a few years since I've written anything, so I really hope you enjoy it!

As always, please come chat or leave some feedback!! I'd love to hear everyone's thoughts!! 💐🫶🏻✨

No Words Left Unsaid

Pairing --> Ellie Williams x Fem reader

Warnings --> Anxiety symptoms, Joel is dead (I'm sorry 😭) no explicit details of death, just mentioned. Ellie is a fragile mess. How I imagine Ellie to be if she had someone to go to (besides Dina) ab what happened to Joel. Briefly proofread, if I missed anything, please let me know!

Word count --> 1.6k

Alexa's notes✨ --> I hope this was okay!! I had an idea and quite literally ran with it. I'm always open for constructive criticism (please be nice about it)!! Love yall xoxo

You knew Ellie well enough that when she put her mind to something, it was going to get done. Regardless if she got herself killed while doing it, it would be the last thing she did.

What you didn't know, is where you stood with the short haired girl. Stolen glances, hands brushing against each other, soft smiles from across the room, the force that was Ellie made your cheeks burn like nothing else.

A heavy, repeated pounding came from your door late one night. Jolting awake, you rubbed the grogginess from your eyes and glanced at the clock, 3:47am. A chill ran down your spine, the winter air nipping at your skin.

The pounding came again, this time a little more urgent. Reaching for a blanket from the couch, you headed to the door.

Curiosity pricked at your fingertips, pulling the handle and revealing a crack of the person who woke you up.

Eyes widening, you whispered, "Ellie?"

You opened the door wider to get a better look at her. She was pacing, the prints of her boots having muddled together in the once pristine snow. Her hair wasn't in its usual bun, but rather messily laid around her head. You could tell she had been running her fingers through it as one hand remained nestled in her hair, pulling at the roots. She was mumbling things under her breath that you couldn't quite catch.

Releasing the handle, you walked down the small steps of your porch to where Ellie was still pacing. Laying a soft hand on her sweater clad shoulder, you said her name again.

She jumped and pulled herself out of your grasp. Finally able to get a good look at her face, you frowned.

Her eyes were puffy and red, cheeks a deep scarlet that concealed her freckles, her lips dry and cracked from picking at the skin there. A haunted look had made a home on her once cheeky demeanor.

She opened her mouth, willing words to form, but nothing came.

Taking a small step forward, you reached a hand out for her. "Ellie?" you questioned again, "What's going on? Are you okay?"

She met your hand and grasped it tightly. Her clammy hands a deep contrast from the cold air that surrounded the both of you. Ellie's eyes glossy eyes met yours and she squeezed your hand again. Ragged breaths clawed themselves from her lungs, her other hand landing on her chest.

Panic crept its way through your veins at the sight of the girl in front of you. Reaching for her other hand, you led her inside.

"Els, I need you to sit down okay? I'm gonna get you some water."

Ellie gave a weak nod before sitting on the edge of the couch. She took a deep inhale, the soft scents of your lavender and chamomile lotion bringing her a sense of comfort. You wrapped the blankets tightly around her shoulders before heading into the small kitchen. Faint sounds of hiccuped breaths and sniffling could be heard over the trickling of the water. A small sigh left your lips as you turned the water off, trying to compose yourself.

She had moved so her back was pressed into the couch and the blanket a cocoon around her body. Wanting to give Ellie some space, you sat on the opposite side.

Extending the glass towards her, "Here El, drink some of this, small sips. It'll make you feel better," you gently coaxed.

She accepted the water gingerly and took a sip before setting it on the small table in front of her.

"What happened, Ellie? Talk to me," soft words fell from your lips. A look of concern still etched into your features. You debated moving any closer before Ellie scooted herself so she was facing you.

Ellie took a shaky breath, "Joel-" and squeezed her eyes shut.

Your blood ran cold at the mention of his name. Joel had been a blessing to you and Jackson, someone everyone could count on. As much as you wanted to know what happened, you could tell Ellie was in no shape to discuss the events that occurred. You had an inkling, but didn't want to push it.

Tentatively, you tucked a loose strand of hair behind her ear and laid your palm against her cheek. She leaned into your touch before opening her eyes again. "We don't have to talk about it tonight if you don't want to, angel. We can just go to sleep and deal with it in the morning," you offered.

A look of absolute defeat painted her features and it killed you inside. You could see her weigh the options before softly nodding her head. Ellie felt the exhaustion of the day settling heavy in her bones.

You stood and collected Ellie into your arms, holding her there for a moment. A shuddered breath hit your shoulder before you felt Ellie wrap her arms around your waist and hold you tightly. You took a few deep breaths and rubbed small circles into her back.

She pulled back slightly and gave a weak smile. Smiling back, you offered, "Let me get you some warm clothes for tonight, hm? And then we'll go to bed."

You took Ellie's hand and led her to the bathroom and left her to change. The door clicked shut behind her and you let a deep breath fall from your lips.

Sliding back under the warm blankets, you sat against the headboard and closed your eyes, waiting for Ellie. The sound of the door opening and Ellie's soft footsteps had you perking up.

"It'll be okay, Els. We'll take care of it, I promise." You held your arms open for her and she all but collapsed into your warm embrace. Laying her head against your chest, she entangled her legs with yours as you pulled the blanket up to cover her back.

Pressing a soft kiss to the top of her head, you mumbled "I'm here, bug and I'm not going anywhere."

Ellie gave a small nod, "Thank you."

You hummed in response and held her tightly against your body as if to shield her from every damn thing that had hurt her.

The sun's warm light began peaking in way faster than you wanted.

Ellie was fast asleep, cuddled into your chest. You hadn't moved in fear of waking the girl up, so you stayed in that same position all night. Rubbing random patterns onto her back, brushing your fingers through her hair, and consoling her when she seemed to be having a nightmare.

She's mumbled incoherent sentences since she fell asleep. You weren't sure if you should've woken her up, but as soon as you whispered "You're okay," "You're safe," she stopped.

You wished you could take the pain away. Ellie hadn't told you everything since she and Joel had arrived in Jackson, but she told you enough. They'd been through hell together, and you couldn't imagine what plagued her while she slept.

Ellie began to stir slightly, a groan falling from her lips. She tensed, not remembering where she was. "Wha-"

"You're okay Els, you're with me," you reassured her. Glancing down at her, a confused look melded on her features. "Do you remember coming over here last night?" The question felt sour on your tongue, remembering the broken state Ellie was in mere hours before.

She nodded slowly and began to pull from your arms. "I'm so sorry for showing up like that, I didn't know what else to do," she started. "I got back and Tommy told me to go home but I just couldn't, how could I just-"

You could tell she was getting upset all over again. Her breathing was starting to get erratic and in an effort to calm her racing thoughts, you placed a hand on her cheek.

"Els, it's okay. You're okay, you know you can come over anytime you need to. I'm always here for you," you reassured her. Ellie's eyes frantically searched your face for any doubt, but she found none.

She nodded slightly and laid down next to your sitting frame, eyes glued to the ceiling. Glancing up to see what she was looking at, "You mumble in your sleep," you acknowledged hesitantly.

Ellie winced ever so slightly and looked over at you. Tearing your gaze from the pale ceiling, you met her eyes. "What did I say?"

"It wasn't full sentences or anything, just some mumbled words and sounds," you started. "I'm not upset or anything, I just didn't know if yo-"

"I have nightmares," Ellie whispered softly, keeping her eyes on you, "Sometimes they change, and sometimes it's the same thing every fucking night."

You moved to lay down next to Ellie, willing her to continue. She took your hand and brought it to lay against her chest. Taking a deep breath, she continued, "Most of the time it involves Joel and what we went through a few years ago. There was a few times we both should have died, and we didn't."

Reaching with your intertwined fingers, you thumbed a small tear from her cheek, and pushed some loose hairs back. Ellie watched your roaming eyes and how they looked so full of love. Everything she noticed was calculated yet soft, deliberate showings of affection. Your eyes fell back to hers and Ellie's cheeks warmed slightly. You nodded slightly, urging her to continue if she wished.

"Don't get me wrong, I'm forever thankful we didn't die during those times, but now all I see is him dead. I see it when I'm awake, I see it when I'm asleep. I can't get away from it. I can't lose another person again, I can't lose you. I'm not ready to lose you yet."

Ellie had never laid her cards out like this before, let alone told anyone what plagued her at night. You held her gaze the entire time, hanging on to every word she said. Ellie was so thankful for you in that moment. She was always thankful for you, but in this moment, maybe just a little more.

"You're not going to lose me, Els. It's us against the goddamn world. That I promise you."

[chuluoyi]

is it bad that i always read "LE" as the 😭(cuz i think its french)

forgive me i have sinned 😭🙏 /j

-🍵

matcha nonnie, it’s very okay!!🥹 you have committed 0 sin it’s okay— whatever works to make you remember it🫶🏻✨

[thefaultinourforcebond]

Thanks for the th update! Its really good.

You havent been that active here recently. How is life treating you? How is the editing process for th going? Is it still going to 18 chapters?

Have a great day! 💕

Life is going okay. I'm just so glad I'm in writing mode again, churns up the brain. I'm sorry of that lil needed break but yeah I agree that the break took longer than it should😭

Its defo gonna exceed 20 chapters just because we're only on half of El Castillo. There is a Part IV and V🤣 I'm not kidding when I say this "chapter" is super duper long and driving me insane. And I can't make up more chapters because I already set 18 slides of chapter covers🤣🤣

I hope you're having a wonderful day too Nonny. Forever grateful for reading✨

[fortpeat]

Idk if you know this but that pinky swear gif you posted - right before Peat returned the pinky swear his forefinger,pinky, and thumb were all out which in ASL means I Love You

I just noticed that and wanted to point it out because I forget not everyone knows that (my family does that sign all the time)

Hey Nonnie 💖☺️

I do happen to know about that gesture that peat did show. I think it's one of those ASL signs that's world wide known ever since we are kids 🤭 I learned it in kindergarten 😂 I didn't know that there is name for that language at that name coz then it was so cool to say that "oo look I know a secret language)

P. S the "I love you" peat showed also reminded me of Pai doing the same in the bathtub scene while staying out the rules 🥹🥹 ITS THEIR THINGGGG 😭😭✨

(I also got your second ask. It's okay Nonnie I did understand what you meant ☺️☺️)

[screampied]

holà 🧸🧸

how are ya vay-vay-VAYGUSSSS 🤸🤸🤸 AHHHH HAPPY TO KNOW YOURE DOIN BETTER erm what’s shark week ?😭 (a week for sharks ??) dw vegas i’ll blow your cramps out 💨💨💨

OMGGG THE SETTER 😭😭😭 IT SOUNDS HELLA FUN ILL TRY AND IF I FIND A CLUB AND I HAPPEN TO PLAY ILL TELL YA !!!🙏🏼🙏🏼

the olympics were so fun dis year like OMGGGG fun and stylish at the same time there were so many epic moments

was about to download love and deep space when i saw it takes 3GB of your storage… ill prob never play sorry 😞

OUHHHHH THNAKS A LOT FOR THE TIPS!! ILL MAKE SURE TO PUT THEM TO GOOD USE 🙏🏼🙏🏼 talking about writing i think i know why i always held back into writing… im scared of it as much as i love it… im always so scared of not being able to find the right words or syns and having to look for them on thesaurus feels like im cheating…☠️ anyway

AND TALKING ABOUT VOLLEY GUESS WHO FINISHED THE S3 OF HAIKYUU ??? ME, it was so good fr 🙏🏼 now i started the s4 and the animation is… someting?😰 its really weird but we rock with it i cant wait to start the scans too omhgggjfkekdksidkfjzkwksosdizi. and you vaygus where are you arrived (?) (pls correct me if it’s phrased wrong..) in haikyuu?

JJK ENDS IN 5 CHAPTERS ???? ALREADY ??? honestly i jus gave up everyone is fncking dead gege really got under my skin fr, imma kill him like he killed the whole cast

HAVE A GOOD DAY, NIGHTS AND DREAMS 🧸🧸🧸!!💕

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HIIIII STAR i’m okay i just woke up a few mins ago n im about to eat ✨💓 andddd gonna get on my laptop in a few to do some work. sry for the late reply my love 😭😭 shark week is just another saying for being on your period </3 thankfully im not on my period anymore bc i was SUFFERINNG. but thank u pookie mwaaaah

YESSS SETTERS ARE SO FUN. ooough lmk how it goes if you decide to go to a vb club !!! 💓🎀 + yeah real love & deepspace takes up a shit ton storage it took me forever to install it 😞 i had to delete a bunch of stuff but it’s so worth it

AGHHHHH HAVE FUNNNN. YOURE GONNA DO GRREAAAAT. and using a thesaurus is not cheating, it’s helping !!! ✨ all it does is strengthen your vocab <3 and PLS real, the animation for s3 caught me off guard bc i was like 🗿🗿🗿 but it was still a good season nonetheless !!!! :P

YOU TOOOOOO NONNIE MWAH

- 🦦 anon, don’t apologize it’s no worries !! take care of yourself, i’ll always be here 🫂🫂💓! glad you’re doing okay though, you can do this xxxx

- i don’t really have a type but older men are definitely 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

- I HAVENT. do you have any fav songs from him/them?

[marc-spectorr]

hi callie <3

ahhh thank you sm :)

yesss omg ive been melting so far. i keep thinking its Friday buts its only tuesday;-;

ohhh okay. tbh i just wanted to see if you had any recs so I can go on a binge after my exams. i read pretty much anything as long as it gives me the feels ygm?

lots of love 🦋

heyyy heyyyy 🦋✨

LOL this entire day i thought it was wednesday. i was super disappointed to learn that i was wrong and it’s actually tuesday :/// argshjs i miss the weekend,,,, can it pls come quicker 😩

ahhh so sorry that i’m not much help, i really wish i could give you recs 😭 but hey @ my other nonnies/friends, do y’all have any good book recommendations for 🦋?

but hope you’re having a great day/night babe! don’t be shy, feel free to drop by anytime :)