#But I think I'm gender fluid
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I love the name jack because it feels like such a good placeholder like they call you john doe if they can't figure out who you are and Jack is like a fun nickname for John. I'm not a John though and my dad was gonna name me Jack if I was a boy but anyway. It's good. Hey I'm Jack how's it going I love how short it is, doesn't take up any of your time, only thing weird about it is to most people I don't look like a Jack when people look at me they go GIRL which is fine but that's not what comes to mind when I look at me. Is just me.
#I've been thinking a lot about Dianne though. Two ns#Keep seeing it everywhere n I like it too. Don't know why I like such normal ass names but like#God like this does not make sense#Gender philosophy and such#But I think I'm gender fluid#Because the only thing constant about my gender is that it is not#It's wildly inconsistent even the degree to which I give a fuck how people view me or caring about gender one way or another like#I just wear clothes the clothes don't have a gender and tbh brobably neither do I#I'm just a creature I'm just here I didn't ask for any of this I didn't create the gender binary I just had this framework#Forced on me from birth and since I can turn the whole thing inside out and backwards in my mind#It means nothing to me anymore. Including what other people think when they look at me.#BUT I enjoy juxtaposition#Looking like a woman yet having what is pretty solidly a man's name is very satisfying to me#The thing I hate most abt being perceived feminine is having your emotions categorized as female emotions and being disrespected for that#Like I feel patricide in this chili's tonight just kidding who said that
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Unironically, I think that Saeyoung would enjoy carrying his S/O around in his arms the most out of all mysmes characters. Take a moment to think about it. He knows he's in good physical shape. But nobody else does. He avoids talking about it or showing it off. It's a rather big contrast compared to his other skills and accomplishments he loves bragging about in the chatrooms, even if he often muddies the truth to keep everyone safe from his true identity. And when someone does notice the defined muscle in his arms, he's rather dismissive of it. A strange: 'Oh, yeah, I got some muscle' attitude, before he casually switches the subject. I kind of feel like he has very negative connotations about his own physical strength.
Saeyoung is a protector. It's his best AND he's worst quality simultaneously. As a child, he was too weak to protect Saeran. He used his brain, not his muscle. Now, he's a grown man. A strong, grown man who's probably much more capable of protecting someone physically when push comes to shove. But instead that strength is utilized by him for shady jobs at best, and downright horrible crimes at worst. His strength does no good for him. But he's forced to maintain it nonetheless. To remain alive. In order to protect Saeran, he needs to remain alive. To protect his brother not with his muscle. But with his brain.
Now, imagine this. His perspective on himself changes greatly when you come into his life. You help him believe in himself, to fight for what he thinks is right, to have hope into the bright future where he actually deserves to be happy and free, along with his family. He has viewed himself as nothing but a fraud, a forever tainted fallen angel, but you make him see the good and earnest man inside him that has always been there.
And with you, he can use his muscles for good, for the first time in his life. He can make you smile, squeal, and giggle in delight as he effortlessly sweeps you off your feet and twirls you around, joining you in your fit of laughter. He can help you carry the groceries on the way to his car, such a simple and mundane gesture, but one he finds himself enjoying almost too much. He can make you feel safe as he carries you up to your shared bedroom, since you can just relax and nuzzle into him without any worry in the world.
Because he's got you.
I'm skeptical that Saeyoung will stick to the same workout routine he had to follow while being an informant. Once his father is out of the picture and he knows his family is safe, he can allow himself to relax. Indulge a little. But I do think he'll maintain some of his muscle mass, specifically in his arms. As time passes and you settle into the quiet life of domestic bliss he's always dreamed of, his shape will become more supple and round, but his arms will always be there to remind you that he'll forever be your anchor.
And for him to remember that his strength can now be used to make someone happy.
#mystic messenger#mysmes#mysme#mm#saeyoung choi#choi saeyoung#luciel choi#mystic messenger 707#WROTE THIS ON THE SUBWAY TRAIN BC BRAIN IS VIBRATING HOPE IT'S DECENT#riding to work thinking of my blorbos#also i did write the whole 'now he's a grown man' thing but i kinda don't like it but idk how to phrase it better 😭#a grown adult???? a grown person??? human??? idk doesn’t sound the same#but saeyoung's gender is very much fluid so he can be a pretty girl when she feels like y'know y'know#eugh i'm too sleepy and rambling maybe i'll clean up these tags once i have my shot of espresso
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you say machete has to be closeted then why's he always wearing them little heels
Maybe he thinks he's a tiny bit nicer looking in them.
#no in fact he's just a little ahead of the curve let me try to explain#again I'm not a historian I'm just sharing what I've read I might be misremembering stuff so don't quote me on this#high heels became extremely fashionable in the early 1600's probably just a few decades after Machete's time#and they were originally worn by men#because they were inspired by Persian riding boots#if your shoes had heels you'd have easier time keeping your feet in the stirrups (think of cowboy boots)#Europeans saw them thought they looked snazzy and they became wildly popular in noble circles fairly quickly#for some hundred years or so high heels were the epitome of class wealth power and status and they were essentially genderless#remember that concepts of masculinity and femininity are fluid and change over time#things that were seen as manly a few centuries ago may seem downright effeminate to a modern viewer#it's all matter of perspective neither is objectively more correct than the other#they started to separate into men's heels and women's heels around mid 1700's iirc but the changes weren't massive even then#and only truly went out of vogue when the French Revolution hit in 1789#and people all across the continent were suddenly put off by everything that reminded them#of the frivolousness and extravagance of royalty and aristicracy#so in his canon timeline I don't think people are looking at him and going “hmmm that's pretty gay”#because heels hadn't become gendered yet#maybe he likes how they accentuate his already tiny paws and make his legs look even longer than they are#he's interested in fashion or at least likes to dress nicely in high quality garments#he tries very hard to look his best despite never really feeling comfortable in his skin#he was a real shrimp as a kid and even though he eventually grew up to be a beanpole he might still find the extra height appealing#no one's going to look down on him ever again#I admit the way I draw them is a lot more modern than the true historical style at the time but not outrageously so#artistic freedom and all that in the end I'm not aiming for 100% accuracy#modern au Machete has no excuses though he's just a little bit fruity#if the guy feels empowered by wearing little clip cloppers let him#answered#anonymous#Machete
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Girls sleepover (& knuckles)
#sth#shadow the hedgehog#sonic the hedgehog#sonadow#amy rose#knuckles the echidna#rouge the bat#cream the rabbit#I finally finished this pieceee omg#It took forever#I've had it in my drafts for weeks#I'm not 100% satisfied but I think I did my best#swatiart#Btw i headcanon both sonic and shadow as gender fluid/queer so that's why they are there
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Mike wearing fishnets
Mike wearing fishnets under ripped jeans
Mike wearing fishnets and a skirt
#I'm wearing fishnets today and immediately thought of him </3#i just think the emo in him would love them#this is also for the people who like gender fluid Mike#shout out to you guys#byler#byler tumblr#mike wheeler
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#danganronpa#danganronpa art#danganronpa fanart#danganronpa byakuya#byakuya togami#polaris p polanski#is this technically polaris???#kinda???#it's blurring a bit ngl :')#no matter if it's byakuya or his girlsona tho they be pretty#besides byakuya can transcend gender casually if he wants to. why? he's byakuya togami! B)#doesn't matter to the heir anyway#also they be wearing contacts#that's why they have no glasses#hmmm who knows. maybe this is just that slight transitional period from polaris to just byakuya being byakuya again. or some fluid area#he can sip the gender fluid if he wants after all! if it cost anything he'd have the money!#but yeah. am overthinking this now and have come back to edit this cus i felt like i needed to expand on things cus impulses be impulses T-#think i'm done now :)
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Even worst than the incest itself is Gabrielle having a relationship with a man*
#look i do think most vampires are pansexual#and many of them are gender-fluid#or maybe even overall unlabeled because they transcend time and will outlive any generation's little notions of gender/orientation#and just reach abolition of those limited concepts#that said she's one of the few exceptions AND GABRIELLE DOESN'T LIKE MEN IN ANY SHAPE OR FORM I'M SORRY
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Aren't you gay and a trans man?
Baby, I'm too hot and wise for exact labels
#saying 'gay' is just easier#used to identify as just a trans man but my gender is a bit more fluid than that#anyway. i like people :) and i'm ace. but sometimes i like sex. and i'll call myself a boy before i would a girl#but offline i don't care a lot#some people think i'm a girl and others a boy#messages from beyond the ask box#anonymous
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everything about me is about my general disconnect with the world around me, except being Objectum which is about being Alive.
#sorry I wrote a whole rant!!! and then this sentence popped into my head and I was like. Oh that can be the whole post actually asdfjdssdj#I Have Always Been Objectum. I think about that. a lot#like yeah you could argue I've always been aroace as well with my history but I thought it was lesbianism for such a long time.#but being aroace is more about absence of feelings which feels different from presence of feelings believe it or not dshdshd#it's. real nice and reassuring that I can look at back at so many of my memories and link them back to just Being Objectum#...I do think it's maybe why I'm having trouble with this gender stuff. because I have nothing to say I've always been one or another way#identity is fluid and Sometimes Things Just Change I do know that but it's. scary a little bit#yada yada I still feel like I'm lying somehow we've been through this before hdhsddsh#i'll get somewhere with this one day maybe#objectum#android.txt
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thinking about how last year I went to pride with my gay flag around my shoulders and identifying a bear cub exclusively attracted to men and mascs and now I'm going to pride in two days (on my birthday no less) identifying as a bear cub AND a butch bi lesbian boy/fagdyke. Abrosexuality is so wild. I wonder what it'll be next year.
#It's honestly wild to me how much things have changed#It was literally two days after pride wearing that flag all day that I was looking through Tumblr#And came across a couple hot butches#And felt myself panic bc of how attracted I was to them#And then I looked at the men I was thirsting for ONLY A COUPLE DAYS BEFORE#And was like “eh would be better if they were chicks about it” like WHAT#I honestly didn't want to identify as a lesbian even tho the ONLY people I was into for months were butches and studs#I thought I was being transphobic to trans men and MYSELF💀💀💀#But I've done a lotttt of reflection and a lottt of reading and learning#Leslie Feinberg and Audre Lorde were my saviors at that time#And now as an abro butch lesbian I can pretty confidently say if next year I'm gonna be a romance repulsed agender person#Or a pansexual gender fluid person#Or anything else in the future#I'll be okay#I was already okay#But I've grown and I'll process it better I think#Anyways happy early pride and early birthday to meeee#lesbians#bi lesbian#butch lesbian#lesbian man#masc lesbian#mspec lesbian#transmasc lesbian#gay#mspec gay#lesboy#gaybian#boy dyke#Abro lesbian
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Fucking. Hi. Hello Stickurge nation. Here's a fan kid.
Here is Bramble. He's been in my brain all weekend and I started drawing again just so I could get her out. Um. Do not ask me if it exists in the Boom universe or the regular game/comic universe because I don't know <3
#bramble has no lore he was just born yesterday <3#also it's a hybrid so. badgerec#she's mostly fluffy but he does have quills if you dig deep enough#it also inherited surge and stick's fucked up gender swag bc i said so. gender fluid king#surge the tenrec#sticks the badger#stickurge#my art <3#bramble the badgerec#sonic oc#sonic fanchild#proto endless possibilities au#nobody's gonna see this next tag so it's just for me but#reach for the stars au#<<< maybe? i'm thinking
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#A spooky Halloween come out 🥶🥶🔥🔥���💯#Yeah I think I'm gender fluid#But please continue to mostly refer to me as she/her I'm most comfortable with that ^^;#genderfluid#Ayyyyyyayayayyayayay#Honestly I think I'm probably more likely better fitting with the term demigirl#Idk I'm still figuring myself out
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i don't want to put my uninformed foot in my mouth or get involved with the Discourse but i've been seeing the two extremes of reactions to the korean low birth rates issue (on tumblr and twitter both) and i'm just kind of like. look. i feel like "low birth rates (in many countries but especially japan and korea as part of this conversation) are more broadly the result of capitalism/a culture of overwhelming overwork that makes social relationships and having families incredibly inaccessible to young people" and "low birth rates are very much a part of the current conversation about misogyny and social expectations for women in korea especially in the context of reproduction as 'unpaid labor' for women" are statements that can both be true
#laughs awkwardly#gender#especially considering the ways patriarchal expectations and capitalism very much intersect in terms of quality of life for women#ex. women being expected to have kids / raise kids / do all the housework and cooking in a relationship#while ALSO existing in a society where women (even married women) have to work demanding jobs to deal with the high cost of living#AND women are systemically discriminated against in terms of pay / job availability / work environment and harassment#all of these things add up. these conversations are not opposing points of view. you know?#and also like. not super comfortable with how TERFs are discussed in terms of non-white cultures#TERFism / radfems as a MOVEMENT (and a cult) is very much rooted in white supremacy / ideals of womanhood#again. multiple things can be true at the same time. yes i do see (from my perspective involved in taiwanese social media)#some east asian feminists engage in transphobia in ways that approach radfem rhetoric ('women are victims of men' 'men are predators'#type generalized sentiments which you can imagine gains a lot of traction among women traumatized by patriarchy)#but movement-wise i don't think it's fair (or just in good faith) to generalize radical feminists from non-white countries#to straight up TERFs. which again. rooted in white supremacy. keep feeling like i have to remind people it doesn't make sense#for asians to be white supremacists and that not all oppression on earth stems directly from white people. you weirdos#'what are you talking about' in east asia the type of feminist statements called 'radical' are stuff like.#women shouldn't have to wear make up every time they go outside. women shouldn't be expected to do all housework.#should men pay for women on dates. debates that i think in the states we kind of take for granted as stuff settled years ago#even if some feminists might be transphobic it's not necessarily Transphobia As Core Tenets Of The Movement. does anyone get the difference#basically what i'm saying is. wow these tags got long. maybe let's not apply uniform standards of 'correct language and values'#to non-white people and attack them when as all movements they are fluid and influenced by the people living in it#TERF-style transphobia is not the predestined course for them. maybe it's more productive to have open discussions about transphobia#to work towards inclusivity and solidarity in these movements than to prescribe White Internet Morality to them#and declare that they're evil when they are still very much having conversations that need to be had. thanks i think that's all#essentially. i find that 'how dare a non-american movement not have morally pristine vocabulary priorities and membership#as determined by white leftists' to be in itself kinda a racist attitude
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I thought it was really funny when loki sacrificed himself and he looked at sylvie and Mobius and all the shippers were like he is talking to sylvie no he's talking to Mobius like they are playing you they did on purpose so everyone thinks their ship won
#lmfao l laughed so hard I'm like i knew it#loki spoilers#listen im lokius all the way but this is disney they are not going to let their main male presenting character be with a man#doesn't matter that they said he is gender fluid or bisexual and they will pretend they have no idea why they are being shipped#it's all bait that's how must of these shows work the people on the show will be like um how did you think these characters are in love#i just dont get why shippers are fighting lmfao disney is always going to be the winners#i just can't believe people take what the people that wrote the show at face value they lie about ships all the time
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The feeling of my flat chest is so euphoric why the hell did I give this up
#thoughts#Chat i think i'm still trans#The closet is comfy#i'm either 100% a boy#Or my gender is more fluid than i thought#genderqueer#nonbinary#Transgender
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Man, talking to people that aren't buried in queer and furry culture like I am is such a good way to keep myself grounded. Like, one of my friends just asked me what a catboy or dogboy was (I made bead bracelets a long time ago saying those) and that gave me the chance to stop and think what I want those terms to mean for myself. Sometimes it's cool to have someone who just knows and understands, but other times it's super cool having folk around me that don't get it first try, no matter how weird that might sound to say.
#reminds me of when a friend J didn't understand my gender and asked me to explain#first of all I'm always down for a good infodump but that gave me the chance to sit and think what my gender actually means to me#I'm so used to expecting being ignored when folks don't understand that it always throws me off a bit#but I like getting to define terms for myself#(but also sometimes it's wonderful not having to explain—like one of my friends just came out as genderfluid and so I got to tell them abou#how my gender is technically fluid because I know they understand instead of me getting stuck just explaining how I'm nonbinary)#anywayss cool thoughts#btw just finished moving in and having my first classes this semester - they're super cool and I might totally die of overwork this time LO#love my classes <3 all except my group-based computing classes I still don't know if I hate y'all or not#I just watched a movie for my Spanish class and it almost made me cry right before classes (if you know Roma you know)#but life's been good so far 😌#fenn rambles#a glimpse into my real life lol#J friend jumpscare#A friend <3
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