#Bucky Barnes Angest

[fireandbloodtargaryenn]

End of Our Time Part 2.

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x reader

Warning: Angst. Major Angst.

Summary: Reader and Bucky are going through one of their roughest patches ever, which ultimately leads to the words you never wanted to hear.

A/N: As always I hope everyone that reads this enjoys it. Don’t forget to leave feedback (That’s important) and I apologise for spelling and grammar errors.

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This is the worst day of your life by far. Your fears were suddenly realised when your husband of three years cheats on you all because he moved on and loved another. It tore you to pieces, it broke your heart into millions of tiny, tiny pieces that you think may not be able to repair itself.

As soon as the door closed, you had never had cried and wailed so much nor have you begged someone to come back because you loved them with every fibre of your being, this sort of pain was all to new to you.

Clutching your chest as your wails come to a sudden stop, you were still kneeling on the floor still as tears were still flowing from your face, your breathing was uneven and uneasy minutes after Bucky’s final departure.

This was the worst feeling you have ever experienced, it was mind numbing, you couldn't think properly, you couldn't breath properly, you couldn't see because the tears kept filling your eyes and running down your face, everything was so hard to process and taking it all in was such a hard thing to process.

Time passed ever so slowly, as you sat on the floor, trying to get your shit together, you remember some lyrics from your favourite band.

So here I am for what it’s worth I spilled my blood against the earth. So give me all you came here for give me hell and give me war I’ll be waiting for an answer. I found my love and let it kill me.

You felt absolutley hopeless, loosing the love of your life, your soul mate was by far the hardest thing you’ve ever had to endure, you never wished this upon anyone, even your enemies.

Being married and a wife was the hardest thing you’ve had to do.

After a few minutes of just sitting on the floor contemplating alot of things you finally got up from the floor, you grabbed his wedding and wedding photos scattered around the house and placed them on the coffee table.

Grabbing the straight bottle of whiskey on the coffee table near you, the television was still going and taking a few huge swigs from the bottle, looking once more at the screen, you looked and felt disgusted that you married a cold, heartless, unfaithful, cheating husband. 

There was no point in pouring it a glass now, you thought that drinking from the bottle was the best way to numb the pain, you wanted to forget this night ever even happened.

You grabbed a piece of paper and a black Sharpie marker and began to start writing on the piece of paper. You needed to do this, in order to help you move on from this break up and divorce.  I hope she’s worth it. I hope she is worth everything. It cost you our marriage, don’t come back begging like a wolf when she break’s your heart. I don’t take second changes, especially from an unfaithful husband such as yourself.

I hope you're happy. You brought this upon yourself, you cost us everything. It’s your fault. I’ll do everything to make your life a living hell.

Go fuck yourself you cheating bastard.

- Your soon to be ex wife.

Folding it up and pitting ‘To the cheater’ and then you placed it on the coffee table with the wedding photos beside it, you took off your wedding ring, engagement ring and eternity rings next to them along with his. You breathed in deeply before moving away from the memories and the television.

You ripped the USB from the tv and turned it straight off. You didn’t want to see any more of your so called ‘husband’ Picking up the straight bottle again, and taking another swig.

The phone rings, you pick it up, it was Natasha. You havent heard from her in awhile it was nice to see a familiar name for once.

“Hello Nat?” you whispered slightly.

“Hey Y/N you ok?” Natasha asked

“No Nat...Bucky just asked for a divorce” you started sobbing 

“Oh my god Y/N...” Natasha said softly.

“It’s okay....Can I ask a favour? Can you please come over with Wanda and help me pack? I don’t wanna be here any longer.” you continued to sob to her. “Im on my way” said Nat.

You put your phone in your pocket as you polished off your bottle of whiskey and soon began to feel its effects, you knew that ir was 

Soon after it felt like an eternity, you heard a knock at the front door, you stumbled to the door and opened it you saw Natasha and Wanda standing on the other side, Natasha quickly hugged you as soo as you opened the door.

“Oh my god Y/N, I am so sorry this has happened to you. Im sorry that I had to break it to you first, I knew something wasn't right, I just needed to prove that the was doing something wrong and turns out it was true.” said Natasha, she was your absolute best friend,

“thank you Nat” as you pulled away from her.

“Hey Y/N. Don’t worry about Bucky, you have bigger things to worry about” As Wanda put her hand on your shoulder and you thanked her.

The next few hours, you all managed to get everything you owned out of the tiny apartment, it was sad and gut wrenching to move out of the apartment you once lived in with the love of your life and soul mate and leaving behind your ‘husbands’ belongings and painful memories that you wanted to let go of.

Standing in the door way with the handle in your right hand as you look through the mostly empty apartment for the very last time, tears were streaming down on your face as you took everything you owned and left only what Bucky owned.

Closing the door behind you for the last time on your old life and opening a new door of new opportunities, ones that wont involve Bucky.