#Btw thank you for the Vocaloid rec I'm always always open to Vocaloid recs bsd related or not. Especially with Meiko!!

[kyouka-supremacy]

Why is "A Happy Death" by Kikuo so sskk core how did kikuo and Asagiri make it so that the lyrics, "You will fly to heaven where the world is pure and new, if they pardon all my sins can I be there with you?" so sskk core this is absolutely sick

Omg you're right. Kikuo's songs sure are always... Something. Akutagawacore song.

The implied killing each other, but also the desire to find each other again in the afterlife!! Especially, I'm thinking about the “I want to die like this // I love you, able to answer so honestly and purely”. I think about this a lot- when push comes to shove, I think there's no other way Akutagawa would have wanted to die. He's so unfit to life, so made for violence and death, that he always knew he had to die, one way or the other; I mean, he already experienced dying twice, and neither time showed much regret or resentment for his life coming to an end. He's got a terminal illness. Overall, as someone who was always meant to die from the moment he was born, he must have felt like there was no better way to die than dying for a loved one, where him loving someone felt like a miracle of his own, he himself probably believing he could have never been able to love anyone. I'm sure Akutagawa would consider that the best way he could have died (“I want to die like this”), I'm sure the “You damn fool // Hurry up and go” is his own “I love you, able to answer so honestly and purely”

But I agree that the line you pointed to is extremely sskk, especially from an Akutagawa pov. I do believe Akutagawa sees Atsushi as this kind of ethereal being, someone who's destined to heaven, because that's what he deserves, because he's made for a world that is “pure and new”. No matter his hateful words, in the end Akutagawa was never able to see anything but perfection in Atsushi. Maybe that's actually their greatest difference.