#Blitzø and Loona both make me wanna cry

[mintaikk]

Maybe it's just my major fear of being a useless burden, but the fact that Stolas was literally so depressed and dissociating and just kinda going through the motions and was so completely out of it that he didn't react to hsving trash thrown on him and didn't even bother to try and lift himself back up when he went in the bathtub and literally has nothing left yet Blitzø still offered him a place to stay and helped him and guided him into his home and bathed him while saying that it'll be alright and lifted his head out of the water and double checked to make sure be didn't do it again and got up from the couch so Stolas could lay down and didn't ever seem annoyed by him or berate him or treat him as a liability and seemed genuinely caring and willing to help without complaint almost made me want to cry

[fizzie-frog]

Blitzø: core self, trauma and healing (part two)

This is a continuation of my previous post. Thanks to Tumblr limitations, I had to split it into different parts (trust me, I wish I could've made it just one big post).

PART ONE

This might be long...

He tried to waddle through the trauma of existing as someone as self-loathing as himself.

He denied;

“I didn’t do anything, it was an accident!”

He isolated;

He minimized, often with humour;

“Uh-oh, looks like it sucked all the fun outta you!”

He avoided being vulnerable;

“I DID CARE!”

And felt awkward/uncomfortable when he did end up spilling out his emotions;

“Weeeeeeeell, fuck you!”

Suppressed his emotions;

… Cause they’re blinding and suffocating, and it’s easier to avoid them.

He hated himself and didn’t believe there is anything good about him, despite having changed lives for the better;

And he dipped if he got too close (everything literally burnt down when he tried getting closer, didn’t it);

He often didn’t believe others would hold any endearment for him, even taking it as a joke;

“I destroy everything, everyo— I make everyone’s lives worse!”

And that’s it, really. He believes he’s a pest, a virus, something that can only do harm. While his core self still showed itself from time to time, he was blinded with the trauma of all his wrongdoings. All the people he’s hurt and that, in a self-fulfilling prophecy, made him hurt even more.

Everything he couldn’t look straight in the eye. The death of his mother, caused by him. The hurt of his friend, caused by him. The hurt he’s caused around himself. He couldn’t bear see it, knowing it would break him down. That’s why he avoided it. Thinking about what happened, what he did is suffocating. But that also blinded him from seeing his good deeds too. As usual, we’re more likely to see the negative over the positive.

Blitz picked himself up by the bootstraps as they say, but it didn’t help him, not within himself. So what did help?

I think it started in Oops…

He didn’t wanna be vulnerable, but after so much hurt and things left unsaid, it spilled. It all spilled out and made him into a crying mess right in front of Fizz, cause as much as he tried to act unbothered, he did care (as he said in the episode). He was vulnerable, he explained to Fizz exactly what happened instead of holding it in anymore, he apologized to Fizz. They both learnt what happened.

And the kicker? It paid off! Blitz was finally vulnerable to someone, his former best friend, and Fizz forgave him. He got his dear friend back for this. Not only did he win someone he loves back, but also this came as a punch to those unhealthy beliefs, cause he was vulnerable and it didn’t turn out bad.

We have Ghostfuckers.

After being plagued by his memories, Millie came to his aid. She not only reminded him of a time he actually changed her life for the better, but also confirmed that he indeed cares for Blitz.

Then the moment of truth…

Can’t get anymore raw than the moment when his death was imminent. It’s often in times like this that we people’s raw emotions.

In a moment when even Loona was tearing up at the thought of losing Blitz. When all his friends were already mourning him, crying for him as he was about to lose his life.

And in that moment, when he was sure he was gonna die, he could finally say it…

“I love you, guys”

There was nothing to be lost. He was gonna die and the last thing he knew was that his friends were crying for him, but were safe. He could die happy.

Of course though, he didn’t, as we know. Once he was outside the court room, he was pulled in a sobbing hug by his friends and daughter that were relieved he was okay. Even further proof of being loved. Despite the horrible circumstances, it must be so healing to his heart to have that.

True, unfiltered confirmation of being loved. He is loved. The possibility of someone you love dying shakes you. Loona realized it wasn’t worth pretending anymore - life is so short, especially for low class hellborns.

And probably so did Blitz. He was finally in a happy place. His daughter loved him, his friends loved him. Stolas loved him.

He is loved.

So in the Sinsmas episode, we started seeing so much more of who he once was.

He was goofy,

Attentive,

Listening,

Supportive,

Cheerful,

Encouraging,

Patient,

He looked at potential future,

He was selfless,

Protective,

Kind,

Even romantic.

And he was happy…

That’s not to say he’s completely healed. I think you can never truly heal from something like this, especially the magnitude of what Blitz went through in his life, and his issues can resurface.

But at this point in time, he’s finally in a happy place. He was affirmed, comforted and reassured. He’s content, and that’s the most healed he can be.

His core self is finally seeing the light of day. He is more himself than he’s ever been since that day.

So that was it. I’m sorry if I was a bit messy some places; as mentioned, life is kind of a struggle. Sometimes I feel like my brain is deteriorating or something, lmao, but I wanted to put this together cause I feel like Blitz has such a good, painfully relatable (to me anyway) arc and he’s such a complex character.

My love for Fizz remains the biggest, but I couldn’t deny the love I have for Blitz. He’s just such a good character with such good development. Selfish yet selfless, careful yet careless… So many dimensions.

If you made it this far, thank you! <3

[kayesfanfics]

Helluva Boss Characters When You Have a Nightmare

Characters: Blitzø, Millie AND Moxxie, Loona, Fizzarolli AND Asmodeus, Striker

A/N: I don’t write for Chaz, Stolas or Crimson, I think those are the only major characters I don’t write for. Chaz makes me uncomfortable, I’m not really a Stolas simp, and Crimson is literally abusive SO-

Blitzø

Bro would wake up very confused, still half asleep trying to figure out why you were crying and why you yelled in your sleep. Once he finally woke up and realized you were having a nightmare, he’d wake you up and as you shot out of bed, you’d bonk your head with his and he’d fall out of the bed as you went to the bathroom to splash cold water on your face

“Um, OUCH?” Blitzø would groan from the floor before getting up and walking over to you. “What was that about?” You’d sheepishly explain you had a nightmare and didn’t realize he would be RIGHT THERE, and he’d rub his sore head as he listened to you, before nodding and understanding fully

“Well, wanna get some coffee and stay up? We could watch White Chicks again.” He shrugged, not really knowing what to say in the moment. “Unless you’d rather go back to sleep-“ But coffee and a stupid movie sounded good to you, so you’d go to the living room and he’d make you both coffee before sitting with you and letting you cuddle up to him. You’d fall asleep first, and he’d groan cause he just had coffee, now he was wide awake dammit-

Millie & Moxxie

You’re woken up by Millie shaking you awake, explaining you were having a nightmare and crying in your sleep. You’re a bit confused but let her pull you close to her, noticing Moxxie isn’t in bed with the both of you. He comes walking in with pill bottles in his arms, being all “Okay, what do we need? Melatonin? Prazosin? Triazolam? Doxepin? Trazodone? Doxy-“

“How about tea, Mox?” Millie would interrupt him for you, earning a small giggle from you at Moxxie’s face. He’d rush off to make the three of you tea, coming back with a tray and handing both of you mugs, then cuddling into your other side as you all drank the sleepytime tea with melatonin for you

“Don’t worry, hon, whatever scared you I’ll protect you from.” Millie would kiss you on the cheek

“And I’m here to help you…psychologically.” Moxxie kissed your other cheek as you cuddled into both of them. MOXXIE WILL ALSO SING THE BOTH OF YOU TO SLEEP AND WATCH AS YOU FALL ASLEEP AND HOLD THE BOTH IF YOU

Loona

Ngl, she doesn’t know what to do at first, but then she remembers a time at the kennel when she had a nightmare and an older hellhound rested their chin on her and let her pet them to calm down. So she’ll plop her chin into your lap, and you absentmindedly would start to pet her, which helped calm you down and ground yourself

Once your breathing was leveled, she’d lift her head to look at you and tilt it, asking if you were alright or if you needed something. You’d just grab her and hold onto her like a big teddy bear, and usually she’d protest but this time she’d let you. Turning on her phone to scroll mindlessly, showing you funny videos that came up on her feed and getting you to laugh at them with her

She’d probably fall asleep first, comfy in your arms and tired from waking up from her deep slumber. You’d hold her and pet her, smiling when she kicked her leg and whined in her sleep, probably dreaming of chasing something

Fizzarolli & Asmodeus

Fizzarolli knew all too well why you were crying and whimpering in your sleep. He was a lighter sleeper than Ozzie, so he’d wake him up so the both of you could help you. When you woke up in a panic, they were both right there to assure you you were safe and with them, Fizz’s arms wrapped multiple times around you as Asmodeus held the both of you in his large arms, cuddling up to his furry chest

Asmodeus would shout for one of his workers to bring you some cold water and whatever else you’d ask him for, and Fizzy would be focused on asking you if you wanted to talk about your nightmare at all. Cause he knows holding that shit in for yourself sucks, especially when you have two very doting lovers here to help you

If you didn’t want to delve into all that, then Fizz would want to make you smile and laugh so that you’d forget about your nightmare. Then Ozzie would calm the both of you down and tell you it was time to sleep, pulling you both close and Fizz stretching a hand over to you to hold

Striker

He is not used to comforting someone or receiving comfort, so he may be a little lost on what to do. But then he’d remember how his Ma used to sing him back to sleep and tuck him back in when he was a kid, and usually he’d make you work for him singing to you, but in this case he’ll give you a free show

If he doesn’t think of that, he’d be asking you what you wanted and needed from him so you could calm down. If that was a glass of water, done. If you just want him to hold you, his arms are open for you. He’s not used to this kind of vulnerability, so he might be awkward about it at first but further into the relationship he’d get the hang of it and would be okay showing you his softer side

Sometimes you couldn’t go back to sleep, so the two of you would go sit out on his porch and drink together, chatting and looking at the dark sky above you. Seeing the glow of Bombproof walking around the fenced off area, Striker handing you his jacket if it was chilly outside, passing a bottle back and forth between the two of you until you fell asleep on the porch swing, Striker holding you close

[g-on-ef]

Can you imagine Striker and Blitzø's reactions the first time Loona slips up and accidentally calls Striker "Dad"

Striker was currently playing with his one year old daughter when he heard shouting coming from the living room.

Taking a deep breath Strike picked up Eden and said,

"Let's go see what your daddy and your big sister are arguing about this time,"

Eden giggled as her emerald green eyes sparkled with joy, Striker smiled down at her as he entered the living room.

There he saw Loona and Blitz going at it like cats and dogs. He could also see Loona was wearing a purple dress with a sweetheart neckline that stopped just above her knees, Striker could also see she was in her human form.

"Come on Dad just for one fucking night!"

"I said no and that's final!"

"For fuck sakes!"

"What's going on?" Striker asked as he put Eden in her playpen and approached his mate and Loona.

Striker and Blitz have been together for over a year now and while the two were happy together he and Loon were still on first name bases which hurt Striker as he wanted her to be open and affection as she is with Striker and Eden.

"Loony here wants to go to the surface Striker the fucking surface!"

"I'll only be gone for a few hours! Come on Dad let me go out for once!"

"Oh hell no you only want to go cause that skanks hellhound will be there!"

"And what about it? You said you were cool with us being together!"

"That was before I caught you two making out!"

"He was giving me a kiss good night!"

Before Blitz could say anything Striker placed himself between the two.

"Alright you two imma need y'all to calm the fuck down,"

"Striker tell her she can't go to the surface!"

"Come on papa tell dad that I can go,"

Striker looked at Loona than at Blitz on the one hand he can understand Blitz need for keeping Loona far away from the surface.

Than again ... Vortex will be there and despite both his and Blitz being overprotective Vortex has proven to be an amazing boyfriend. Respectful, understanding, always bringing Loona home on time, not to mention that Loona deserved a day to herself.

Shes been working hard at IMP, helping around the house when he's off assassinating people and Blitz is killing humans, taking care of Eden when they wanna go out, always coming home on time and calling them if she's gonna be late all in all Loona has been responsible, trustworthy, and shown that she deserves a night off.

Blitz is gonna kill him but...he was a teenager once and he wanted his freedom as well.

"Blitz...maybe we should let her go,"

"WHAT?!" both hellhound and imp asked.

"Blitz come on, she's been working hard at IMP, taking care of Eden when we aren't home, not to mention she's always home on time and calls us whenever she's gonna be late, she deserves a night off,"

Loonas expression morph from shock to happiness as Striker list off the reasons why Loona should be allowed to the surface.

"But...the surface..."

"She'll be with Vortex and admit it, the fucker has proven how much he loves our little girl so yeah I trust him with her,"

Blitz looked at his mate than his daughter both giving him a look that begged him to agree with them.

"Ohh fine! But I want you to call me every hour!"

"Blitz/Dad" both his mate and daughter warn/whined.

"Fine every two hours,"

"Deal,"

Blitz just humph before Loona hugged Striker.

"Thank you daddy thank you thank you thank you thank you!"

Blitz and Striker froze at her words come to think of it...Strikers eyes widen as Loon pulled back to see Striker looking shocked.

"Uhh...you okay?" She than looked at Blitz who like Striker looked shocked.

"What the fuck is wrong with you two?"

"Did you just call me dad?"

Loona blinked and realized she called Striker dad more than once today.

"Umm..." Eh fuck it, Striker was co and unlike Blitz won't make a big deal outta of it.

"Yes, I did." She said proudly already knowing hell shrug it off well that's what she was expecting what she wasn't expecting was Striker wrapping her in a hug and feeling tears on her neck.

"No you can't cry your supposed to be my cool dad not the overly emotional one!"

"You called me dad and think I'm the cool one!"

"Ugh papa do something!"

Blitz responded by wrapping his arms and tail around his mate and daughter.

"my baby called her daddy, daddy!"

Loona groan in annoyance as both her parents cried tears of joy at Loona calling striker dad.

She looked towards her baby sister who was giggling at her predicament.

"Laugh it up kiddo, this is gonna be you in a few short weeks."

Still Loona couldn't help but smile a little knowing her dad and pops are happy to hear her calling them dad shows how much they love her and Loona wouldn't trade them for anything or anyone.