#Berry🛵🌻

[theonlyqualitytrash]

—I am continuing as I said.

You're my spirit animal. You get it. You really do! It's like our minds are in sync. I can feel a genetic connection.

For me, it clicked in my head the moment when Fyodor looked down at Atsushi in pure disgust, anger, and disappointment when Atsushi desperately begged him to save his friend's life. I think in that moment Fyodor saw himself in Atsushi - the man he once was - that innocence. He was reminded of the humanity he had lost over time - the same helplessness he had once experienced, the emotions so vulnerable that it caused him to lose everything (perhaps the first time he discovered his ability). I just know that that man will have the most tragic backstory imaginable and that I will bawl my eyes out. Slowly forgetting who you used to be, your family, your friends...watching everyone you love die…being condemned to centuries of loneliness because of an ability that's more of a curse than a gift...and the fact that he is deep down craving to bond with someone. I can’t even imagine how dehumanizing all of this must have been for him. To be betrayed and murdered over and over again, to witness all the horrible events throughout history... I am honestly worried about his sanity. Can we blame him for what he wants to achieve? I wish I could give him a big hug. 😞

I'm so angry at the anime for taking away those silly moments that showed Fyodor's remaining humanity and replacing them with serious scenes. They really disliked him, huh? By the way, agree with you. It is shallow to say being cold and calculating is all he is because his character is much, much more complex than that. I think his coldness and calculating are acquired traits. I find him to be one of the most mischaracterized characters by the fandom, and I think it's because most people don't actually care about the actual plot. They just want their favorite ships and characters to be the center of focus all the time so badly that they don't stop for one second to think and just complain about everything. Like okay, I get it, I want to see my favorite side characters too, but they are not relevant to the unfolding story right now. It wouldn't make any sense to suddenly show them like a commercial break while Atsushi is in a dangerous situation and being repeatedly traumatized. ☠️ Plus I feel like this kind of behavior is very disrespectful to Asagiri-sensei, to Harukawa-sensei, and to the work and the effort of everyone who has been working on this manga. I mean, no one is forcing them to read. 🤷‍♀️

I do not understand how some people don't like the recent chapters or the direction in which the story is going. Yes, it's a bit confusing sometimes, but I think that's the reason why this manga has become much more intriguing than ever before. Because it makes you think about every little thing. Asagiri-sensei is COOKING.

Finally, all the spotlight is on our main character Atsushi, and our main anti-villain Fyodor. I'm excited to see how things will take a turn. I think it's a good thing that there won't be any new chapters until February, it will give the fandom time to digest all the new information (and deaths 😭).

And now that Fukuzawa is gone too, Atsushi can either go berserk and lose control of Byakko, fighting with everything he has, and possibly manage to do some damage, but Fyodor would still be able to escape or he’d try to join him for the sake of getting the page from Fyodor (though I doubt Fyodor wouldn't have figured such a thing out the moment he tries to, but still). So, I don't think Atsushi will succumb to despair yet (but the concept would be very interesting to watch tho). That page is still a source of hope for him. (Plus the living members)

(I don't know about Viego but I LOVE Snape and the Undertaker as well. Heavy on the Undertaker, by the way.)

AND FINALLY, SOMEONE WHO LOVES MY BOI ATSUSHI FOR HE IS ONE OF MY FAVES TOO. I also really like Kyōka, Nikolai, Lucy, Dazai, Sigma, Ryūnosuke, Chūya, Aya, Higuchi, and Oda…

(proceeds to list almost the whole cast 💀)

But of course, despite all the above, there is only one person who 24/7 occupies both my mind and my heart... - Fyodor.

I'm afraid I'm too loyal. Even with fictional characters.

The message you wrote at the end of your answer means a lot to me, thank you. 🤍🌸🌺 Likewise, please try to take care of yourself and be sure to listen to your own advice too! I've never heard of holding an ice cube in your hands to calm down before, but I'm going to try it if I ever feel overwhelmed. I'm sure it will work as it's funny to even think about doing it. 😭

I loved reading all of your thoughts; it’s so refreshing to see someone else get equally excited about the same things I do! We can just geek out and deep dive without restraint, and that’s what I find niche about the internet—screaming into the void and having people scream at you back :))

I couldn’t agree more with everything you said. You’ve voiced my thoughts exactly! Although I understand why they cut certain scenes from the anime (animating is tedious, after all 😞), it still hurts because those moments were so important to Fyodor’s character and how people perceive him. No joke, I have a word document where I’ve listed all the times Fyodor smiles or shows any emotion—and spoiler alert, it’s a lot more than the anime lets on.

"I find him to be one of the most mischaracterized characters by the fandom"—THIS! Popular characters get mischaracterized the most because of their success. Fyodor’s definitely fallen into that category, and along with him, Chuya, Dazai, Poe, and Sigma have suffered the same fate. I think it ties into the shipping problem you mentioned: I’m not an avid shipper myself, but I understand it as a creative outlet. The issue arises when fanon (born from ships) starts overwriting the canon version of characters. It can be really frustrating when you just want to see a character explored more deeply without stripping them of their core traits. But, at the end of the day, I can’t blame anyone for enjoying what they do.

Regarding the recent chapters: I think a lot of people don’t like them simply because they don’t understand them—and that’s okay! Our community spans a wide range of ages, but most of the fandom is middle-to-older teens, and that poses a problem when you’re dealing with a seinen manga which is meant for an older audience; while the anime, being more accessible, appeals to a younger crowd. The recent chapters have been chaotic and packed with info, and casually dropping quantum physics? As someone who loves learning new stuff, I’m all for it! Asagiri does a great job of explaining it in a way that’s digestible, but I know it’s a lot to take in for some. (Anyway I will have Fyodor mansplain everything to me please)

As for Atsushi, I also don’t think he’s going to succumb to despair. He’s a tough cookie, and we saw that at the end of Season 5 when the anime was hinting at the fight with Amenogozen. Also after Tanizaki's death, I think people started to realize that all this suffering is just pushing Atsushi to grow. It’s painful to watch, but it’s necessary for his character development. I’m also really curious to see how Fukuzawa’s death will affect both Atsushi and Kyōka. (I have a feeling Lucy will play a role with the phone)

Gosh my heart aches while thinking of irl Dostoevsky's works and how they all somehow have the overarching theme that love changes, people can be reborn and redeemed: so I am holding onto the thread that maybe, just maybe-very cliche I know-the power of love will save Fyodor. That perhaps Atsushi has the power to make Fyodor redeem himself. But sadly he seems resigned to his role as the solitary genius who need to cleanse the world of people like himself.

don't mind me sobbing about his character again

Some other things I want to lightly touch on:

Undertaker is THE goat in Kuroshitsuji (I loved the new season, also we are getting the emerald which act in 2025???? Crazy. I remembered when I first read the manga in 2017)

As silly as it sounds the ice cube trick works because our brains register the cold stimuli and it stops releasing cortisol and other stress inducing hormones! It is a neat life hack indeed :>

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Discussions like these really spark joy in my heart :)) Please take care while out there <3

Kisses and good vibes, Q

[thequimmqueen]

🍕Updated Next-gen Character Name List🍕

Timm+Quinn:

Lynn💘

Liamm🎵

Duke gotcha+Shannon:

Raymond📰

Sarah🔎

Joy+Moe:

Jamie🐦

Maya💮

Roy+Olivia:

Rolland📋

Hollie🍍

Hank+Kayla:

Dannah🚨

Safiyah💅

Cameo+Cherissa:

Sandy🍉 (previously known as Cairo)

Cori+Robby:

Russell🎣

Coralina🎏

Ember+Hacky Zack:

Burnett🚒

Axel👔

Zack🚧

Vesta✳️ (previously known as Ambar)

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Romanos🇮🇹:

Guy Mortadello+Bruna Romano:

Marianna🚔 

Gavin🍷

Clover+Carlo Romano+Koilee:

Kōi🐠

Lotta🍜

Bento🎸

Ginevra🥁

Gino Romano+Okalani:

Georgina🍳 

Kalea👑

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Mindy+Whiff:

Rebecco💄(also known as Becky)

Iggy+Sasha:

Haley🔬

Taylor+Peggy:

Stella📷

Marty+Rita:

Matilda🏈

Arthur📽️

Brody+Skyler:

Brandon📚

Abel🎨

Cielo🖌️

Emmlette+Kingsley:

Anastasia🎬

Kellen📹

Sarge fan+Radlynn:

Randall🍠

Sweety🎮

Radha🌟 (Adopted,Failed Offspring Harvest Experiment of Radley Madish)

Alberto+Penny:

Pilar🏵️

Benny🎤

Houton⚽️

Noemi🌼

Scarlett+Rudy:

Adonis♦️ 

Kore♥️

Cooper+Prudence:

Carrie🐈

Brooklynn🐕

Greg+Yippy:

Courtney🌻

Lily🐞

Johnny+Boomer:

Bloom🍀

Arán🌰

Autumn🍁

Chuck+Nevada:

Helena💐

Fawn💍

Snow❄️

Utah+Gremmie:

Caspian🐚

Genaya🌠

Hugo+Janana:

Tanner🎼

Maggie+Mitch:

Magnolia💼

Gunther🌮

Mousse+Sienna:

Gelatta🍦

Syrup🍮

Julep+Deano:

Tulip🌷

Leandro💉

Willow+James:

Jhonnen🛵

Whitney👻

Jenni🔧

Kenji+Zoe:

Eijirou👾

Amanda🦋

Scooter+Austin:

Roopert🌟

Audrey🛍️ (changed from Adrianna)

Connor×Wylan B:

Iza-B🎋 (adopted)

Deckard 🎧 (adopted)

Cassidy🥇(adopted)

Whippa+Georgito

Créme🍬

Graham📋

Drakson+Kasey O:

Kate🥋

Diego💌

Pinch+Bertha:

Paula⚾️

Abraham🏋️

"Ace"⭐ (real name is Jack, changed from "Jack Derby" due to the nickname not making sense)

Rico+Rhonda:

Roberto🏺

Jazz🏆

Xolo+Sprinks the Clown:

Xefferson🤹

Xandra+Rollie:

Xanna💥

Romeo⚗️

Professor Fitz+Edna:

🍀Jerry & Betsy☘️ (Clones)

LePete+Tohru:

Petra☀️

Koko🥊 (previously known as Kumako)

Ryu🎐

Haru🕹️

Cletus🐰

Pablo🪴

Pally+Trishna🍊:

Nina🍊 (adopted)

Nick🛶

Michael💙

Wendy:

Wendyl🔩

Índigo+NuMarcus:

Magenta👗

NuMabel

Cecilia:

Josefina🎒 (surrogate kid)

Allan+Akari:

Allison💰 (In custody of Allan)

Kuro🍋 (In custody of Akari)

Allan+Ivy

Eva🛩️ (child from second marriage)

JoJo+Louie:

Johann✒️

Lauren🥘

Mayor Mallow:

Molly💎

Crystal:

Shard🃏

Fila-sophie📚

Luau Lepunch+Betty Pecan:

Toasty Coconut🍨 (Scoopian+LePunch Hybrid,Looks More like Betty)

Gala Donut🍩 (adopted Scoopian Child)

Shelly Coir🌴 (Scoopian+LePunch Hybrid, looks more like Luau)

4th of July Scoopian:

Stardust🎆

Rocky Road:

Terrance Milch🍡

Jill Berry+Chip Mcmint:

Cranberry Jelly💝

Bianco Ciocco🍫

Sue x Mary:

Susan☎️ (adopted)

Sarge×Radley Madish:

Onnelious & Brown (Adopted/Used to be Two of Sarge's youngest soldiers)

💜Pines and Payne💙 (Mutated+Adopted Pinacoolada Twins)

Annana💛(Mutated+Adopted Bananapants Daughter)

Radetta💗(Sucessful Offspring Harvest Experiment)

Mr. Sherbet

Tiger Dail🐯

Tomatoe Lady:🍅

Campari🥫

Foodini:

Gabriel🎩

Ripley+Chase

Rodrigo🤓

Stephen🐍

Sprout:

Horia🥕

Skip+Daniela:

Railey🛎️

Kahuna+Makaila:

Koa🏄‍♂️

Big Pauly:

🧂Salt & Pepper🧂

Gabitha:

Tessa🐔

Bonnie & Yalanda:

Klaus💤 (Adopted grandson/apprentice)

Liezel+Kaleb

Scoops🍦

Hector🐻

Treble+Perri:

Damon⚙️

Geezer📻

Budwin+Lisa

Bucky💭

Zandro👾

Boopsy

Barnum 🪆 (Son)

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Possible new Nextgens:

Simone:

Shira🎥

Didar:

Noah🎙

Yuko:

Ichika

Chester

Gordon ⛺

Petrona

Roman

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Roger GearSpeed🏁 (Real Name: ???)

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[theonlyqualitytrash]

Dear Quality,

The new fanfic you recently posted sent me into a wonderland... Now I wonder what your favorite season is. Because what you have written made me suspect that you are a winter enthusiast.

While I love the colors of autumn (and obviously Halloween), I've always preferred the snowy weather of winter more than anything.

I love the way snow looks, smells, and tastes, and how it crunches under my feet. I can sit in front of the window for hours and watch the white flakes falling from the clouds and not get bored. ❅ It's also the perfect time to prepare a cup of hot tea, grab a blanket to bring into the living room, and watch a movie or read a book, snuggled up on the sofa wrapped in my soft blanket. And now it's also very pleasant to visualize myself with Fyodor doing the things you write about... I believe his favorite season would be winter too. I remember him saying that the color white reminded him of his homeland. He must love the way the snow covers everything during winter, like a white unsullied duvet, don't you think?

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The long, dark, silent nights give me a deep sense of peace that I can't describe through words. It complements my melancholic nature. Everything is dying but I don't see it that way, to me it is rather a chance for a new beginning. That said, I consider winter to be the most romantic time of the whole year. And no, it is not because of February 14th. It's because it always makes me want to cuddle with someone you know. 🥺 I behave more affectionately towards everyone than I normally do. My friends call me a clingy koala.

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Cute socks, cozy sweaters, warm woolen mittens, hoodies, boots, and long coats - I love them all. I like dressing in layers of winter clothes. While I don't really like being cold, I hate the hot and sweaty weather more than anything, it’s unbearable for me - plus there are no mosquitoes. Seriously, those blood-sucking vampires are my arch nemeses.

Thanks for listening to me yap about winter.

I’m excited to hear your answer. What is your favorite season? ♡

Dear Berry ^^

It’s so lovely to hear that you love winter… I am definitely a cold enjoyer myself!

Fyodor is most certainly also a winter person. The peacefulness and quiet that winter brings must appeal to him. Snow acts like a natural sound muffler, and everything seems to slow down—it’s almost quaint.

I also remember Asagiri mentioning that snow reminds Fyodor of his homeland, and that he sees himself as the colour white. He must get so homesick, and it breaks my heart... Honestly, all I wanted for Christmas was for Fyodor to get home and get some well-deserved rest. :((

When I was younger, I used to love summer, thinking it should be my favourite since I was born in the summer. But as I grew older, I found that I prefer cooler seasons. I miss the days when we’d get two-meter snowfalls as a child—those were the best, especially because school would get canceled. Now I crave visiting a country that gets snow because it’s something I can’t get where I am. :"))

I’d say my favorite time of year is late fall and early winter, and yes, you’re absolutely right—winter has become my favorite season. Not just for the reasons you mentioned (I wish I could burn all mosquitoes), but also because the early darkness makes me more productive. On days when I don’t have university, I love staying up until 3-4 a.m. writing, listening to music, and getting lost in my work.

Like you, I adore layering clothes. Sweaters, oversized coats—don’t get me started on fluffy scarves! I feel like a cute little granny with them over my head (I don’t wear hats because I feel like I look strange in them). And I just love winter activities in general. Just the other week, I went ice skating with two of my friends. I have no clue how to skate, but we had so much fun. (I was holding onto them for dear life)

I love reading your yapping, Berry, and I hope you're staying warm in your little corner of the earth!

~Kisses and good vibes, yours truly, Q 🤍

[theonlyqualitytrash]

Dear Quality,

I found myself thinking of you today! Everything going good for you lately?

I actually prefer to write to people anonymously under emojis (-🛵🌻 etc.), but I'm starting to think that it's not really necessary. I just love the vibe of being a secret, ykyk? There are questions I would like to ask to get to know you better. If you don't mind answering, I will try to write to you more often and keep your inbox busy. However, if I do not, know that I must be studying. 😪 I would be happy if you could also let me know what type of questions you don't want to be asked about so that I don't overstep any boundaries unknowingly.

I thought you might like this question. Here is the question I wish to ask you today:

What do you like about Fyodor? Since you said you will write mostly about Fyodor, I am assuming that he is your favorite character as well. What makes his character so fascinating for you? I would like to know why, in your own words and thoughts. Feel free to write as you like.

Have a lovely day and take care of yourself! 🤍

Dear Berry, (Can I call you that?)

Hello! Good day (or night), and all the lovely greetings that exist on Earth. Lately, I’ve been doing surprisingly well. I’m happy Christmas is around the corner, so I can give gifts to my loved ones. :> Today, I decorated the tree with my little brother, played outlast trials and bought some gifts for my Secret Santa at uni

I had a feeling you were 🛵🌻-anon! I’m glad you confirmed it, and I’m so happy you’re feeling more comfortable. <3 It makes me proud to know that I’ve created a space where you can push past your anxieties (that I think most of us have) and just exist in this corner of the internet. I completely understand your love for the anonymity; it’s liberating in a world where everyone’s eyes are on you

I might be totally wrong in what I’ve said, though—sorry if I read too much into it! oof—

I absolutely love getting questions, though! I was actually thinking about making an introduction post soon, where I share some general info about myself, my blog’s dos and don’ts, etc. It might make it easier to interact with me, so I’ll probably work on that in the near future

Generally, my ask box is open to most things—questions about BSD or anything else: my hobbies, music, philosophy, poetry, animals, fashion… really, anything as long as it’s respectful and doesn’t try to stir up drama or bring in politics. I try to keep things SFW, though I don’t mind NSFW content (I’ve written about cults and brainwashing, so it’d be hypocritical of me to mid it). If I don’t respond to something, it’s either because it made me uncomfortable or doesn’t feel relevant to my blog. I do like to communicate, though, so if something ever bothers me, I’m ready to type it out and vent. (I promise I’ll try to keep it funny! /j) I will probably include this a second time in my introduction post

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Now, prepare THE ramble:

There are many characters in BSD that I cherish, like Atsushi, Louisa, Nikolai, Sigma, and Ango, to name a few. But you’re right—Fyodor holds a special place in my heart. His complexity makes him my main focus in my writing. I may write about other characters in the future (I have drafts sitting on my PC collecting digital dust, poor things), but Fyodor’s nature is just so fascinating and so fun to write for

When I talk about Fyodor, I can’t help but also mention Atsushi. I love both of them because they’re two sides of the same coin. They’re both trying to find their place in the world while striving to make it a better place (though their approaches are very different). Atsushi represents what Fyodor was before grief consumed him, and Fyodor represents what Atsushi could become if he succumbs to despair. What I find especially interesting is that Atsushi is, in a way, a part of Fyodor that he buried deep inside himself to achieve his goal—the untapped goodness, the desire to save everyone, the deep empathy and care. I’m sure Fyodor has these traits too, but he’s so consumed by sorrow and grief that he feels the only way to make a real change is to force the world to change

I’ve always loved anti-villains. Just give me a well-written one, and I’ll fall in love. Characters like Undertaker from Kuroshitsuji, Viego from League, and Snape from HP come to mind. Fyodor is similar in that regard. I think what first drew me to him was his gentle, almost otherworldly appearance in the manga (don’t get me started on the anime version; I will not forgive bones for taking my dainty prince away). His presence is soft and delicate, and even though his actions are dark, there’s something about his demeanor that keeps me intrigued

What really hooked me, though, was how misunderstood he is. He’s often portrayed in fanon as cold and calculating, but I think that oversimplifies his character. Sure, he’s serious and sometimes condescending, but there’s so much more to him than that. After rereading the manga and looking at what Asagiri wrote about him, I feel like I’ve discovered a whole new layer of Fyodor

I also love his politeness. Honestly, I just really appreciate politeness in people, and Fyodor’s refinement only adds to his charm (even if his actions don’t exactly match his manners)

Another reason I love him is that I can relate to a lot of his traits: his desire to change the world, his loneliness, his trust issues, his reserved nature, and even his nervous habit of nail-biting when stressed. And I think that’s why I’m so drawn to him: beneath all his guarded behavior, there’s a humanity that’s carefully concealed

sigh—I just want to show him some emotional vulnerability and let him rest, feel safe

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Know that you matter! Always!

Exam season is coming up for me too, so I totally get the stress. But it's important to remind ourselves that in the grand scheme of things, that exam grade won’t matter in 5 or 10 years. The long nights of stress and anxiety are only going to make us unhealthy. So please, do take care of yourself! (And please don't feel obligated to keep my asks busy) Drink water, eat your comfort food, get the sleep you need (I’ll find you if you don’t), and maybe take a moment to step outside and breathe. Every emotion and feeling is valid, and if things feel overwhelming, try holding an ice cube—it’s helped me more times than I can count

And hey, if you need to talk, my DMs are always open. We can cry together. :))

Sending you kisses and good vibes! Good luck on your exams <3

[theonlyqualitytrash]

Hii! It is me again. If you don't mind sharing this information online, may I ask which pronouns are you using? I wouldn't wanna make a mistake when I address you. I hope you have a lovely day, Q. ^^

-🛵🌻

That is so thoughtful! I go by she/her :))

I am always delighted to hear from you ^^ ♥️ Take care 🛵🌻-anon

[theonlyqualitytrash]

I literally just finished reading your most recent fanfic about Fyodor and I am in LOVE. When I started to follow your account, I realized that you are also the author of the fanfic named "Momento". 😭 I would like to just say that I admire, no, I'm mesmerized by the way you are writing. AND YOU WROTE THAT IN TWO DAYS?!? Please keep this up. You're a real gem. Instead of calling you Quality Trash, can I just call you High Quality? I can't bring myself to call you trash. I'll be looking forward to your next masterpiece!!! ♥️♥️ Please take care of yourself , stay hydrated & eat plenty, have a good day, stranger on the internet.

Sincerely yours,

-🛵🌻

Dear 🛵🌻 anon,

The thought that my words touched people so deeply makes my heart almost burst from joy. I have always had a hard time expressing myself through speech, so I just naturally gravitated towards writing as an outlet for my thoughts. And the fact that people find it interesting enough to shoot me a message? I am both grateful and thrilled. ♥️

You may call me whatever you feel like, I heard people also address me as Quality or just Q, but High Quality is also alright if it feels right to you. ^^ As a side story, the username came to me a few years ago when I was struggling with mental health and I had an epiphany moment: I didn't need to feel ashamed about my sadder thoughts, just accept them as they are and live with them. I didn't feel myself important or interesting, the trash part came from how I viewed myself; but people around me saw me as a worthy human being, hence the quality part. So I decided to acknowledge both parts, both realities and create my username. (I have come accustomed to see things from both the 'bad' and 'good' perspective; there being no bad emotions or thoughts, just bad acts, but this is a blabber for another post)

Thank you so much for reading my ramble (I usually ramble) and for all of your kind written words, they had made me giddy and I am more motivated to write than ever; I am sending good vibes in your corner of the earth; I hope they find you in peace and accomplishment. ✨♥️