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[sammyvhs]

in between : 1.08.5 — jess’s sister.

They end up staying there for an entire day before you’re able to meet up with them. They rent out a motel for the night when you text Sam that you’ll be there in five hours (it’s midnight) and Dean hasn’t said a word to Sam the entire time.

“C’mon, man, talk. I know you’re angry, alright?”

“I’m not angry, Sam.” Biggest lie of the century, Sam’s sure. “I’m just tired, we both need sleep.”

“I thought you liked her, okay? Why are you so uptight about meeting up with her now?”

“Because you’re not meeting up for coffee, she’s gonna wanna to stay on the road with us.”

“That’s not fair, she has a life—”

“No she doesn’t!” Sam’s eyebrows furrow, both in irritation and confusion. He won’t take dean's talking shit about you, that’s for sure. “That’s not what I mean— she's just, she’s greiving. If that was you… I wouldn’t have a life outside of mourning you either. And she has questions, I could see it the second she found out I was a cop— which by the way, genius, how do we explain the box of fake IDs and trunk full of weapons?”

“Dean, she won’t come on the road with us, trust me. And she’s not grieving anymore—”

“She wasn’t in Stanford, Sam.” Now Sam’s really not sure where this conversation is going, he’s not even certain they should be having a conversation right now. It’s late and they’re both in the car tired as hell.

“How would you know that?”

“When you put her on speaker, when she— when you told her the story about the house—” not the story about Jess, the story about the house. “The wind and her sniffles, she was on a roof.”

Sam’s sure his heart is just stopping at this point but he hopes he can make it get back on track if only to respond to Dean who’s walking away from him. Sam follows, slamming the car’s door behind him too. “Sam, drop it.”

“Are you really going to just walk away? From me? From her?” He says it like it’s supposed to mean something to Dean. Like you’re supposed to mean something to Dean.

How weird is it that you do?

[pocketmouse18]

Thank you so much to @herosofmarvelanddc @cloudypaws and @mtab2260 for the tag! This was so much fun to think about :)

(fair warning, I wrote too much for many of these...)

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

Just 2 :)

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

450,577 if I did my math right!

3. How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

Officially? Just 1 - Agents of Shield (two, I guess, if you count MCU as separate, since I use characters from both...). Off the record, many more than that! I have lots of bits and bobs from other fandoms that I tinkered with when I was younger, still getting the hang of writing, not brave enough to post things, etc. etc. Some of those include X-Men, Harry Potter, Percy Jackson, the Fosters, Star Wars, the Hunger Games, the 39 Clues, and a few others I can’t remember. None of those will likely see the light of day, mostly because they’re unfinished, not very good, and just not reflective of who I am as a writer anymore, but they were fun to play around with at the time :)

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

I just have the two, but The Important Thing is to Try wins, hands down, with 1227. Shoulder to Shoulder has 95, though, which I’m also very proud of! Important Thing has a definite advantage, being as long as it is, so I don’t know if that’s really a fair comparison between them.

5. Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

Yes! Or at least, I always try to! I just can’t believe someone would be kind enough to take the time to tell me what they thought of my story, so I always want to take the time to thank them and return the favor :) Plus, as I’ve learned, it’s a fantastic way to get to know some really lovely people!

6. What's the fic you've written with the angstiest ending?

Well... I technically only have one story that has an ending, at least on Ao3, and it’s not an especially angsty one, since it ends in Phil and Melinda getting married :) I have some angsty chapter endings in Important Thing, if that counts? I’m not even sure if any of my unpublished fiddlings have angsty endings (most don’t have endings at all lol)... I don’t mind writing angst, but I don’t know if I’m capable of making something without a happy (or at least hopeful) ending.

7. Do you write crossovers? If so, what is the craziest one you've ever written?

Not really, unless you count AoS/MCU crossovers (which I guess technically count, but also I would argue it’s not a true crossover since (and I will die on this hill) AoS is a part of MCU canon). When I was younger I was a fan of playing around with crossover AUs more so than the actual characters crossing paths (so like, what if these characters from XYZ were demigods or went to Hogwarts or what have you, and not so much what would happen if the X-Men met Luke, Leia, and Han on one of their space adventures). I started writing a crossover between AoS and the Marvel Rising cartoon once (which again, not sure if that’s a true crossover, since Daisy was in Marvel Rising, but I digress), where Coulson tasks Daisy to work with Kate Bishop and Rayshaun Lucas to collect and train a team of young Inhumans, starting with Kamala Khan, but I ran out of steam pretty quickly when it got too plot heavy.

8. Have you ever received hate on a fic?

I don’t think so. I’ve had some people not understand some choices that I made, but they asked it in a way that I thought was perfectly nice, and I was happy to talk about it with them. Sometimes people get “mad” at me when I cause pain and suffering, but I know that’s all in good fun :)

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Nope, not for me. I don’t read it or write it, personally. Writing a kiss is hard enough!

10. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not to my knowledge! Important Thing is probably too long and unwieldy to ever steal :P

11. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Someone once asked me on FFN if they could translate Important Thing to Russian, which was basically the coolest thing I’ve ever been asked!

12. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

A fic, no. I’d love to try sometime! I had a friend in college who I co-wrote with A LOT, though, so I know I enjoy that process, given the right partner. We wrote several short plays together (ranging from ~15-50 minutes in length, including one that we wrote in a single afternoon!), selected scenes from a larger (unfinished) play inspired by historical letters we found in an archive that were sent between a man from Massachusetts serving in the American Civil War, his wife, and his 8-year-old son, and several scripts for TV sitcoms (2 pilots for 2 different shows, plus additional eps for those pilots, and a couple of later eps for a different show that a classmate of ours wrote the pilot for - we were trying to practice what it would be like to be on a staff with a showrunner haha). The sitcom scripts in particular I’m very proud of, and could talk somebody’s ear off about if asked (one’s about ghost hunters and one’s about a DnD party!), but maybe that’s better saved for another post ;)

13. What's your all-time favorite ship?

That’s a very hard question for me! Mostly because shipping stuff is usually one of the last things to register for me when I’m thinking about shows/books/movies I like haha... I’m always a sucker for Philinda, and younger me was rather taken with Percabeth, I suppose.

14. What's a WIP that you want to finish but don't think you ever will?

Hmm, several, really. The aforementioned AoS/Marvel Rising crossover I think could be really cool if I got it to work, but I don’t think that’ll ever happen. I also have a WIP that’s like an angstier version of a Hallmark Christmas movie AU where Daisy has to come home to her small town right before Christmas and figure out what she wants out of life, but I’m a little stalled out on that one, mostly because I’m waffling on who the charming love interest should be and because I don’t have enough of a plot, just lots of feelings about coming back home to a place you thought you had left behind lol.

I’d put Important Thing and it’s (as of yet) untitled sequel on here as things I want to finish, but I’m much more determined to see those through, so I don’t think they qualify for the “never will actually write” part of this question :)

15. What are your writing strengths?

I don’t know if other people agree with this, but I think I write pretty decent dialogue. My “training” (if you can call it that) is in, as you might have figured out by now, script and screenplay writing (those were the only creative writing classes I took in college). So having a sense of the rhythm a conversation needs to have and how to write dialogue that sounds mostly like how people really talk (but shined and tightened up enough so that it’s not actually like verbatim dialogue, which is far less interesting to read!) is something that I feel like comes pretty easily. I also think I do okay with similes and metaphors - my brain tends to work in that way. It’s easier for me to think of stuff (feelings, especially) in terms of comparing it to more familiar things than to just think of the thing directly, if that makes sense?

16. What are your writing weaknesses?

If I was being honest, this would be a very long section, but I know it’s not fun to read a big ol’ paragraph of someone self-criticizing, so I’ll keep it to one or two items ;) A big one for me is pacing, I think. I tend to write more than I need to and to over-explain things, so my chapters get very long and sometimes don’t really go anywhere? Until all of the sudden, they DO, because things need to HAPPEN! I’m a pretty rigorous self-editor, but I do have a really hard time cutting out sections (unless they’re really just not working), so even if it would help the pacing to leave out this conversation between character A and character B, I often can’t make myself cut it. I also think I struggle sometimes with balancing my ‘showing’ and my ‘telling,’ especially in the sense of me over-explaining certain things - like when it comes to feelings/facial expressions/etc, for example. I compensate for that in Important Thing by making it a part of a few people’s POV, but it’s not really a good habit to have in general. Also spelling! I’m really bad at spelling and run my stuff through robust spellchecks and text-to-speech before I post anything to make up for it :)

17. What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

I do it with some regularity, although I always get nervous about doing it wrong! It’s hard to avoid in AoS, where characters are spies and should (in theory, at least) have a working knowledge of multiple languages (”We’re spies, I thought we all learned languages?!”). Even in an AU, where characters aren’t spies, I like to try and pay homage to that, plus pay homage to certain characters’ native languages or just general multilingualism. I’ve spent a fair amount of time around people who speak more than one language, so I feel like it’s a natural part of groups of people to have more than one language spoken. I have a pretty good handle on written Spanish, a patchy idea of French, plus I know some Russian phrases from my dad and some German words from my grandfather, but I do rely on internet translation a lot. I usually run stuff through google, then run it backwards to see just how far off the initial translation was, then consult some actual, like, language learning sites to see if there’s particular idioms or common phrases that use different words than what google will give me, then run those words through backwards in the place of the original words to see if I can massage the whole thing to sound reasonably competent. Languages like Russian or Mandarin (which have their own alphabets/characters) are the hardest, since I have to also try and do a transliteration. I always try to put an apology/disclaimer in the notes any time I write in a language that isn’t English, because I’m sure I make lots of mistakes.

Also, I tend not to italicize words that are in other languages, because it looks weird on the page to me to set the other language apart like that (and because I italicize mainly for internal thoughts or emphasis, and usually what’s being said in another language isn’t internal or being emphasized). I put a rough translation at the end so we don’t have to pause the story for a parenthetical translation, but because the translation’s not right there, I try to either put in enough context clues that a person can still understand what’s going on, or I make sure that what’s written in another language isn’t critical to the overall understanding of the scene.

18. What was the first fandom you wrote for?

Officially, it’s AoS, since that’s the only fandom I’ve published for. I think the first true fandom I wrote fic for was probably either Harry Potter (entirely populated with OCs lol, I just liked using the world/setting), Percy Jackson (a mix of OCs and canon characters), or X-Men (all canon characters). I was a bit of a latecomer to fanfiction, though, like, I wrote a ton as a kid, but mostly original stuff, because I didn’t know that fanfiction in its current form was even allowed until I was in high school lol.

Oh! I almost forgot one! I’m not sure if this really counts as a fandom, but it’s definitely the earliest version of fanfic I wrote haha... I was like 12 and I wrote more than one story of an OC joining Robin Hood’s band of Merry Men, and then also one of that same OC becoming a knight of the Round Table, so like... do what you will with that information haha.

19. What's you're favorite fic you've written?

I can’t choose between my two darlings :( I mean, okay, technically it’s probably Important Thing. That story’s my baby. It’s huge and I’ve been working on it for almost 2 years, and I’ve poured a lot of my heart and soul into it. I’ve fallen in love with the universe I built in it, so much so that I wrote an entire prequel and have very concrete plans for a lengthy sequel. But I can’t not crow about Shoulder to Shoulder (the aforementioned prequel!), too... I’m just really proud of that one - it has a lot of firsts for me. First completed story. First romance-focused story. First foray into expanding the Important Thing universe. But yes, if I have to choose, then Important Thing wins. That’s a story that I started writing exclusively for myself - to give myself characters I could relate to and to explore a style of AoS fic that I loved reading - and that’s a story I will always and forever be proud of.

I think most people have probably answered this tag game at this point, so I don’t want to accidentally retag anyone! If you haven’t yet, and would like to join in, please do! This is your invitation <3

[bananonbinary]

Hi, I saw you've been talking about tma fics and I'm wondering if you have any recommendations

okay here’s a few from my bookmarks and subscriptions (these are almost all gonna be jonmartin cause tma is a LOVE STORY and any story where they arent in love feels ooc to me tbh):

(blanket warning for canon-typical shit in these, mind the tags in the links)

1) Patchwork: still updating. really good web!martin. Martin was killed by prentiss when she followed him home that one time, and the Web brought him back for unknown reasons. now he has spooky mind control powers, whoops? some good angst and a lot of cute monster!bf stuff between him and jon.

2) The Reverb In These Holy Halls: complete, but with some supplemental scenes and one-shots still being updated. s5 jon goes back to episode 1 and Fixes Things. ive read every goddamn time travel fix-it fic out there and this is one of the best ones, there’s a lot of REALLY interesting twists and people aligning with entities you might not expect. good good found family shit. also theres a nonbinary desolation!oc in the supplemental stuff that i fucking adore.

3) Illicio: still updating. come, join me in rarepair jonmartingerry hell. the eye tries to control jon by giving him gerry as a “gift,” and now gerry is basically tied to jon, whether anyone wants it or not. set in season 4, with all the fucking angst that entails, we got pining in so many goddamn directions over here.

4) The Reminiscences of Martin Blackwood, Post Mortem: complete. theres not much to say, its a victorian au. everyone is sad and victorian. its good. i like it.

5) ceylon, assam, and darjeeling: complete. honestly? this one isnt my typical fare, it’s far more sympathetic to elias than i usually go for, but its so well written that i can’t help but love it. Jon brings about the apocalypse on purpose, so he has a say in how it goes down and can protect his friends. he pretty much loses himself completely to the eye and martin struggles to bring him back; the writing from the perspective of The Archivist is *chef’s kiss.* written before ep 161, so the apocalypse is very very different than how it plays out in canon.

6) dustsceawung: still updating. i tried so hard to avoid moth!jon. i really did. i thought it was kind of silly and im not generally a bug fan, but here we are. this fic won me over completely. Modern Day Faerie au, jon is a moth fae and decided he likes martin after martin unknowingly saved him. martin knows the fae are not to be trifled with and is lowkey fucking terrified. its cute as shit.

7) Spider Silk: complete. not particularly plotty, just a cute series where jon and martin have been in love the whole time and played jonah from the beginning. satisfying wish-fullfillment, more good good non-evil web!martin.

8) There Are Monsters In These Woods: still updating. a full-on fairy tale au, full of princes and monsters and mages and quests and all that jazz. more fun moth!jon, and the way this fic translates the wordbuilding from tma into a fairytale setting is super interesting. a lot more body horror and on screen torture in this one than in the others im reccing here, so watch out for that.

9&10) did someone say time travel fix it but with kid!jon?? no?? well i have TWO superficially similar but ultimately very different fic recs about that. These are both about s5 jon getting thrown back to the Mr. Spider Incident, and promptly getting adopted by elias. after that tho they have almost nothing in common.

The Timeline of Theseus: still updating. follows an 8 year old fully realized Archive, with his memories of the future blocked off. Elias assumes hes some sort of gift from the eye, or a future ritual like agnes montegue, and is trying to raise him as best he can. Jon is 8 and incredibly adhd and supernaturally incapable of lying, and keeps just blurting out random ass shit that he Knows that Elias would really rather he didn’t.

Too Much Time: still updating. follows a basically adult!jon stuck in a kid’s body, who was sent back in time by and visibly branded by the web, the spiral, AND the eye. Elias basically kidnaps him and Jon is only grudgingly staying with him cause his brands make him an obvious target, and he doesn’t have any of his old powers. gerry is also there as a 12yo and their growing friendship is very sweet. bit of a warning for child abuse in this one, there’s nothing physical but elias is much more of a bastard here than in Theseus.

???) is it gauche to promo my own fics as well cause u can also check out my ao3 or my writing tumblr @bananaman-writes if u want, i have a fluffy canon-compliant asexuality one-shot and an archivist!gerry au that hasn’t gotten very far yet but i have many Plans for. (those plans are everyone lives and then they date)

[twinksegs]

OMG interaction on tumblr.com i’m shocked!!!!! lydz @hockeydilf tagged me in the top 10 songs i’ve been listening to currently!!! i’ve been in a really heavy deathcore/music of my emo days kick so please excuse all the teenage angst and brutal rage and random shit, leggo:

1. DARKEST SPAWN BY LORNA SHORE oh my fuckin goddddd!!!!!!!! so HEAVY AND YUCKY and black metal-esque omg!!!!! the best. out of all the times i have said i’m obsessed with a song, i never really knew what it meant to b obsessed. honestly. i got SERVED by this mf song. “none of us are fucking safe, in a sick world full of snakes”

2. my disguise by currents highly recommend this song even if u arent into heavy music, it’s more metalcore and less screaming

3. maleficium by lorna shore honestly the song and the entire EP (even tho my fave song on the EP is a toss up between uhhhhh lets face it ALL OF THEM gdi) tom barber’s voice is so powerful and the whole tracklist from start to finish is spooky as fuck and i love it. it gives me goosebumps. maleficium is the latin word for “an act of witchcraft performed with the intentions of causing damage or injury” per wikipedia and it matches the tone of the album in its entirety. HOWEVER what i love so so so so much about lorna shore, who are basically my perfect all-time favorite deathcore group, is that their lyricism in my opinion is far above their competition in the genre. most bands think every song being a variant of “fuck your religion/god” which yes i get the sentiment but its boring and worn out and lorna shore provides such a depth of emotion and a way with words that is only intensified by tom’s growls and thrilling highs jsjsksjzkzk okay i’m done

4. without me by halsey ...look i don’t know shit about this girl other than that baby pull me closer chainsmokers song but the moment i heard this i was HOOKED. BRUH. her voice in this song makes me MELT

5. wornout by traitors “my generosity has turned into a ball and chain, that’s the cold hard truth.. i’d stay the fuck away from me IF I WERE YOU” perfect for headbanging the FUCK OUT

6. imagine by ariana grande because lets b honest...who isnt obsessed w/ this song (is it problematic for me to say that i dont like 7 ringz)

7. do bad on my own by z-ro like i said this list is fucking random and while i acknowledge wholeheartedly that this is a bop, idk why it always fucking ends up stuck in my head!!!!! like i’ll be cleaning tables before the dinner rush and BAM the next 4 hours my subconscious elevator music playlist gets jammed on this track.....so involuntarily this is a top song in my spotify

8. hour of abhorrence by signs of the swarm after getting acquainted with lorna shore replacing tom barber with cj mcreery and of course tearing thru LS’ entire discography, i decided to check out cj’s old band and ONCE AGAIN i’m fucking obsessed with his old sound like the “senseless order” album is so PERFECT and hauntingly heavy. the intro to hour of abhorrence embodies that tone that reverberates through my chest and chills me deep to my bones!! perfect gym music too!!! love cj like have a huge fucken crush on him he’s so pretty

9. the conscience killer by a skylit drive TOTALLY fucking indulgent of my emo phase from age 11-15 but in all honesty a skylit drive will always be one of my favorite bands. she watched the sky (the best), wires, adelphia, identity on fire— ALL SO MONUMENTAL IN MY YOUNG ADULT LIFE. i remember going thru some shit and being so DEPRESSED but i would take my giant red cd player, plug into the outlet on the back porch and lie down in the sun and listen to indentity on fire cd on repeat. wow. the memories and the emotions associated with the songs are heavy!!!!

and last but not least.... (finally, right?😭😹)

10. no show by toro y moi like dude....i dont want to listen to anything but metal atm man but i was just reminded of this amazing musical group that my fellow metal-loving friend and coworker is seeing in concert right now. this song is heavenly i swear and it’s a bop u can get down n grind to. “my baby got fed up with my ego”

okay this is alot and if u made it all the way through thank you for sharing my thoughts and parts of my heart as i am connected to the music i love in thatnway!!!

💭💭🔅🔆fuck i’m so blitzed i almost forgot i have ti tag people so i choose @escarjorts @ursamini @clammylemon @egertin @jordanstaalsmugshot @buyerns please this is so fun to share your passions and seeing everyone’s unique musical interest! dont forget to tag me so i can go back and take a look at your list of top 10 current faves ;)) :$