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dazais-guardian-angel · 7 months ago

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Flying Too Close To the Moon (a Baizhu character analysis)

Over a year ago now, in February of 2023, Genshin Impact's twitter account posted about a certain green-haired doctor from Liyue with a snake, announcing that he was at long last going to become playable. *narrator voice* Little did I know at that point just how much my life was going to be ruined changed by this man, something I never could have fathomed in all my time of playing before.

Today, by the time of Baizhu's birthday, almost a year since his release, he has never left my team and is one of my ultimate comfort characters... and at the same time, paradoxically, fills me with such intense feelings of dread, if I ever think just a little too hard about him for a little too long.

This is my experience with him.

From the beginning, I wasn't one of the people who had been anxiously awaiting for Baizhu's release. I'd always been curious about him, and thought he was beautiful (but lol who in this game isn't?), but there was practically nothing to know, and he appeared so little, so not being an existing fan, I didn't think much about him compared to other more prominent characters. With that first drip marketing, however, I was suddenly instantly intrigued:

"Regrettably, Baizhu cannot save all his patients — himself, for example. Herbalist Gui has mentioned that Baizhu's physical condition is extremely poor, and he often has to go back to his residence to rest after seeing patients. Even so, his smile never falters while in front of people. When Gui asked him about this, he replied, "If the doctor looks sick himself, how can his patients face their illnesses with confidence?" Day after day, Baizhu heals his patients. His ever-present smile hides the numerous bitter medicines he takes and the pain he suffers alone."

What's this, Baizhu is a doctor who is also sick himself? He has a chronic illness?? Finally I have a disabled character in a video game I can play as and relate to??? Not to mention the DELICIOUS angst potential the (absolutely devastating) last sentence held. Unfortunately, because my lazy ass rarely ever talks to npcs outside of quests, I was completely unaware of this very important little fact about Baizhu, learned via Herbalist Gui that had been in the game since literally 1.0, but to say that I was excited upon finally learning it now was an understatement. This changed everything, turning a character I had previously only had a passing interest in into someone I felt like I might be able to connect with, and a character I could truly call my own. Previously, my favorite Genshin character was Zhongli — he was my very first limited 5* and I started the game pretty much because I was interested in him lol — but just from this short summary alone, I had a strong feeling that Baizhu had the potential to surpass him, and become my new favorite.

My initial impressions from everything we knew about Baizhu pre-release (for how little that was) were that he was a kind, selfless doctor who didn't want others to see his weakness, but in secret was striving for immortality in order to save his own life from his severe illness. Qiqi seemed to be someone he observes to further his research in gaining said immortality, but his love and care for her still feels sincere, although he can never properly convey this in words because, to me at least, he's keeping himself at a distance from her and others so as to not hurt them too much if he passed away. Baizhu tearing out Qiqi's journal entry about him being a good person so that she doesn't dwell on and remember such things about him seemed to support this, as well.

Upon release, we also had Dainsleif's lines about Baizhu in his collected miscellany video, which made me emotional as well: Dain, someone who is cursed with and suffers daily from immortality that he never asked for, respects Baizhu's desire for immortality himself, because for him it would be freedom from the pain and suffering he already experiences, seemingly. Most people want immortality for selfish reasons, but for Baizhu, I thought, it's out of a desire to save his very life, and in turn save more people as a doctor in the future. It's human, understandable, and the mark of an incredibly caring and altruistic person, and Baizhu wanting to heal himself is something to be sympathized with, especially if you can relate to his pain.

This part in particular from his demo was so powerful to me: the defiance of his fate, of his death, and the display of his continued strength of will and resolve, and even skill in battle, no matter how physically weak he may be. Though he still has his doubts and his guilt, here he says "I will not die, I will beat the odds, and no one can decide my fate for me, nor can they shake my resolve."

All of this only made me love him more and more. I was hoping we would get to see his insecurities and fears about his condition and his possible fate, and that he would learn to allow himself to be cared for by those who loved him — to realize at least a little bit more that he will never be a burden on others, because the guilt over such things is all too real for someone with a disability or chronic illness. His non-spoiler voice lines were so comforting and hopeful, and I wanted his story to be hopeful as well, without going as far as to magically cure him like what unfortunately happened with Collei.

That was what I wanted. More or less, that was what I expected, especially with the copious other examples of the "overworked character learns they need to take a break and feel supported by the traveler" storyline in Genshin insert the waifu baizhu (waifzhu?) jokes here.

And then, I played Baizhu's story quest.

.....No image in the world can fully sum up exactly how I felt after that, but, well, I think Paimon here is the closest I can get.

I still remember it like it was yesterday. I remember standing there, at the bottom of the steps leading up to the pharmacy where the end of the quest left me, not knowing how to feel. Feeling completely numb. Feeling like I'd just gotten punched in the gut a million times over. Feeling sick. Call me overdramatic, too overly attached to fiction, whatever, but no words can possibly convey just how much the revelations about Baizhu in his quest fucked me up. I did not feel good for quite a few days after playing it, as it haunted me, as I turned it over and over again in my mind. Not just the information given itself, but how it was given; the entire tone of it all. At some point I was finally able to make myself cry, and it was only then that I felt at least marginally better. But I'd be lying if I said that I've ever truly and fully processed and let sunk in everything to do with Baizhu, even a year later.... and I doubt that I ever will.

Don't get me wrong: Baizhu's story quest is without a doubt one of the best story quests in the game so far, and that's not at all bias speaking. It's short, to the point, uses npcs effectively and in a way that helps develop the main character instead of taking all the spotlight over them, and it leaves setup for more story in the future. For a Baizhu fan, it's the best quality one could ask for. It's the most we've ever learned about him, the most screentime he's ever had, and it emotionally and tenderly shows exactly what kind of person he is, and why he is the way he is, and does the things he does.

It's also absolutely horrific, and to this day I'm still not entirely certain exactly what message the writers wanted the player to take away from it by the end.

The quest introduces us to a boy and his father, Ayu and Jialiang, the latter of whom Baizhu wishes to treat, partly as a personal favor to his late master and to said master's other past disciple, the mother of the family, Jiangli. Through Baizhu's handling of their case, and talking to Hu Tao, we learn that Baizhu is not only obsessed with attaining immortality, but that he supposedly uses less-than-reputable methods to heal patients, methods that he keeps tightly under wraps. This, along with all the strange research he does that seemingly has nothing to do with the medical field, has given him a suspicious reputation — the game subtly lampshading the fandom seeing him as nothing more than a sketchy snake doctor ever since the beginning — but no one has ever been able to dig deep enough to find any proof that he has any ulterior motives, not even Yelan; thus, the ultimate consensus is that he truly must be nothing more than a kind and benevolent doctor who has his patients' best interests at heart, no matter what else he's doing in the background. Upon Baizhu treating Jialiang for the first time, however, we’re directly confronted with this secret, dubious healing method he uses, and what exactly it means for Baizhu, as with all the masters that came before him.

To say my stomach dropped here would be an understatement, because I knew exactly what this meant. And sure enough, not a few minutes later in the quest, we get the dreaded truth:

Baizhu’s poor physical condition is not from natural causes; rather, he is as weak as he is because he’s made himself that way. Changsheng is a former adeptus he made a contract with, that allows the host to transfer some of their own life force from themselves to someone else, using Changsheng as the conduit. The contract is meant to strengthen the body of the host and extend their lifespan, however these advantages effects are outweighed by Baizhu, and all his predecessors before him, repeatedly giving away their life force to heal others, causing them to become frail and inevitably die young. The contract has always been used in this way, and all of its prior users all met the same untimely end; Baizhu is at no less risk of that.... which is why he wants to become immortal, so he can continue to heal people with the forbidden arte without fear of death.

This would already be a Lot as it is. Trading away one's life force to save another isn't exactly a brand new trope, but the idea of a doctor doing it over and over again to save lives when all else fails, even to the detriment of their own body.... It's the ultimate act of selflessness, of kindness, of sacrifice. It's touching. It's laudable. It's devastating, to a degree one can't even imagine.

Because Baizhu doesn't just stop there, as we find out at the end of the quest.

How do you expect me to read this—

and additionally this—

and also this...

...and not have it occupy my mind 24/7, sending me in a downward never-ending spiral of existential horror, for all of eternity?? just like Baizhu himself—

While it's heavily implied that all the contract users prior to Baizhu only ("only") used it one-way, to give their own life force to others, Baizhu has taken it a step further, and also been using Changsheng to transfer his patients' diseases and illnesses onto himself. This likely is a more effective way of "curing" some of them entirely, instead of simply delaying their symptoms' worsening with more life force, although he cannot take on the worst of them/terminal illnesses of course. But he has taken on so, so many, so many diseases and so many symptoms, all compounding and blending together to the point that Jiangli, another doctor just as skilled as Baizhu, cannot even distinguish them all or recognize some of them, that he might as well be terminal. Not only does Baizhu do this for the sake of his patients, but he's also using his body as a human petri dish, testing different diseases and poisons on himself to see how they interact with each other, both to create more effective medicines and understand the mechanisms of the human body better, and to perhaps find the secret to immortality.

This reveal at the end of the quest is presented as an awe-inspiring, poignant twist, that's meant to make you see Baizhu in a brand-new light. The animated cutscene is tear-jerking, bittersweet, yet beautiful, as we finally come to understand the full scope of just who Doctor Baizhu is, just how truly pure and selfless he is, and just how much he has sacrificed, and plans to sacrifice forevermore. Many people who weren't fans of Baizhu or were neutral on him had their minds completely changed upon this bombshell being dropped, it rightfully clearing away any and all misunderstandings about him somehow being a bad person, and fostering newfound respect for him. That's the best word to use for how the game portrays all this: respectable. Baizhu's situation is tragic, but his actions are nevertheless shown and seen as beautiful, and admirable. His self-sacrifice is to be praised, and honored, because he is doing it for the good of so many others, because his heart is just that big, and that caring. It's bittersweet, but Baizhu is determined, and we should respect his resolve.

But should we really?

Yelan would disagree, I believe. Which is ironic, considering that in her own story quest, Baizhu transfers poison into himself from Uncle Tian with her there, and she is none the wiser.

Just... really stop and think about the implications of what Baizhu is doing to himself, and the life he lives. Try to imagine it, how it would feel, to be inundated with that many diseases and toxins, to the point that all of your internal organs are diseased; to the point that you have every symptom imaginable, sometimes all at once. Now, take that, and imagine living that kind of hell with it progressively worsening, for all of eternity, as Baizhu wants to do.

You can't fathom it. To say that it's beyond human comprehension is an understatement. And yet, that is Baizhu's reality, every single day, and if he has his way, for the rest of time.

This is not okay.

What truly frightens me about Baizhu, is how.... empty he feels. He is kind, gentle, nurturing, and a bit flamboyant and mischievous at times, but he has essentially no personality traits or life outside of "being a doctor". All of his voicelines involve him giving health advice, or looking after us or others, or discussing the troubles he encounters in the medical field, or his hobbies, which involve... making medicine. While there's nothing wrong per se with a doctor truly enjoying their job — it's what makes Baizhu such a good caretaker, after all — their life and personality never revolves entirely around that. People have their own lives outside of their professions, that don't involve said professions, even the most enthusiastic and genuine of workers. But Baizhu..... doesn't have anything else. For Baizhu, being a doctor is all that he is.

Nothing is more subtly chilling than this joke Changsheng makes (that gets reinforced by Paimon later), where she calls Baizhu her "mannequin" — and especially the way that Baizhu doesn't comment on it at all, merely continuing to look like a guilty child getting scolded for being reckless. Because a mannequin is an eerily accurate description of Baizhu: he is not a person of his own, but merely a vessel for her power. "Baizhu" does not exist outside of his role as a healer; he has no other life, no other aspirations, no other joys and things to care about, nothing. Even though he's a pillar in Liyue Harbor that is beloved by the community, especially by the children, he's also in a sense practically a ghost: he is never seen outside of taking care of people in some way, because he never lets anyone see him at his sickest, and he has no sense of self outside of that role as a doctor. He is distanced from everyone, almost as though he was already immortal.... he could die at any time, frighteningly easily, and to him, no one would notice or care. As depressing as it is, even Qiqi, a literal zombie, is more alive and has a much more fulfilling life at this point than Baizhu does.

Many of Baizhu's voicelines are dripping with casual self-deprecation, and others with extreme hypocrisy, where he will express frustration and disappointment at others not being diligent in taking care of themselves, completely oblivious to his own extreme levels of self-harm and self-sacrifice. Of course, as mentioned earlier, feelings of inadequacy and being a burden are tragically not unusual for someone with significant health problems, but it goes far, far beyond this for Baizhu, before he was ever ill — all the way back to his childhood. Baizhu's hometown was struck by a plague when he was young, from which he was seemingly one of the only survivors, and his obsession with wanting to save each and every life he comes across that needs saving, no matter the cost to himself, is likely born from the trauma and extreme survivor's guilt that the event instilled in him. It was during this plague that he encountered his former master, and in training under and being influenced by him, he adopted these harmful mentalities (through no fault of his or his master, to be clear), without ever being given any other way to cope with his pain, other than to do everything in his power to never let anyone else die ever again.

Again, Yanfei sums it up best.

The true tragedy of Baizhu is that, although he wholeheartedly agrees with his late master's sentiment, and truly believes that he himself is headed down a different path from his predecessors, at the end of the day, he is no different from them, nor is his chosen path any different from theirs. As he states, those with the most altruistic and purest of hearts are the ones seduced by the contract, and he, too, has fallen victim to Changsheng's siren song: the allure of reaching beyond human means to prevent death. He believes he has found the solution to the conundrum of saving both the world at large and the one doing the saving, but he's merely fallen into the trap just like all the others: even if he doesn't die, he is still sacrificing himself, cursing himself to a fate unimaginably worse than death itself. After all, as he says, the contract can't erase pain from the world entirely, but merely transfer it from one place to another, and Baizhu is living proof of that. If his master could see what he's doing, he most definitely would be heartbroken at the "answer" Baizhu has found, because a life isn't saved if it's merely surviving, and not living.

All of this began from Baizhu, selfless and benevolent as he is, wishing to save a snake. Changsheng is a dear friend, a being so closely intertwined with his very soul, and his closest connection to his late master, and yet she is also the very thing that's killing him, and will inevitably be his doom, in whichever way that comes. Baizhu being who he is means he will never abandon her, and Changsheng will never leave him as well, her worry over the fate of her host overwhelmed by her fear of death and her desire to live on, which is how the contract has persisted for six generations. It is a toxic bond, and yet their care for each other is too great, both parties accepting the misery that awaits them. Changsheng knows that any of the cycles could be her last, but cannot help but seek out new ones in order to continue living — and Baizhu intends to make that "last" be a reality, by living forever, to make sure that Changsheng will also never die, but also that no one else can take on the contract after him. He wants his cake and to eat it too, wishing to save anyone and everyone — and he fully believes that he can. He believes that he is headed towards the light of the moon, escaping the flames of the sun.

But the moon is still ever-so-far away regardless. Perhaps even impossible to reach, if Teyvat's sky truly is fake. No matter where he aims, even if he isn't burned, Baizhu is destined to fall eventually, if he keeps going the way he is. Many people have tried to warn him, to convince him that immortality isn't what he deserves, to convince him of how much he's loved... but Baizhu is too stubborn; too, ironically, selfish in his selflessness. He insists he has everything under control, that he won't let himself die... but how can anyone believe that, when all the signs suggest that he's already on death's door? And even if he does get his wish, and be granted immortality, will he truly be content like he thinks he will, endlessly suffering with only Changsheng by his side?

I don't think the writers ever intended to glorify Baizhu's actions, or at least, I don't think it occurred to them that it could be read in that way. I do still mean it when I say he is one of the best-written characters in the game, because there is so much care given to him in his story quest and to his lore, even if, frustratingly and tragically, Hoyoverse as a whole doesn't seem to care about him at all. He's so fun to play as, and in isolation, it makes me very happy to have a canonically disabled playable character. But I'm also so, so haunted by him, and I think more people would be as well, if the game didn't gloss over the incredibly bleak reality of Baizhu and his symptoms due to the overall lighthearted tone of Genshin. I desperately need to see where they're going to take his arc, if they intend to at all, because there is so much potential for it, and right now it's very much up in the air. I don't want him to die, as I fear he's close to, but I need him to heal, and finally learn that he's done enough, and that he can finally, finally, stop. Stop torturing himself, and finally accept for himself all the love he's given others for so long now, and live. I want Baizhu to live more than anything, and not the way he is now, nor as a cursed immortal. I want him to live, and thrive, and truly, unapologetically, be himself (whoever that "Baizhu" is), and be happy.

He already has someone worth living for, right here, aside from Changsheng. He has a daughter, a family, who love him, not to mention an entire city, and and I dearly wish he could realize that. I wish he could know how comforting he is to me and so many others, and how important he is to us, not because of what he can do, but because of his beautiful heart. 💔

Happy Birthday, Baizhu. Thank you for being such an incredible healer on my team, and I hope we'll see you in Chenyu Vale one day :')💚

#genshin impact #baizhu #meta #posting this so late at night but I WANTED TO MAKE IT FOR BAIZHU'S BIRTHDAY #FML FOR BEING SO LATE AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #this man ruins me 👍 please everyone cry over him and have an existential crisis over him like i do daily #he is Not Okay #and i need him to be #hoyoverse when will you do him justice like he deserves!!!! when is his comeback!!! aughhh!!!!!!!!

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daybreakrising · 9 months ago

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B.AIZHU, C.HANGSHENG & C.HENYU VALE

it's long established that c.hangsheng is originally from c.henyu vale & that b.aizhu's master lived there whilst under the contract with her. we also know that, when he was young, b.aizhu's hometown was devastated by a plague which took his parents (and is implied to have taken many other lives too), after which he began studying under his master who had been practicing medicine there at the time.

so, it has long been my headcanon that b.aizhu's hometown was a village in c.henyu vale, which suffered such loss during said plague that those who survived left to make new homes elsewhere, and thus the village was abandoned and, eventually, lost to nature and time. (the exact location of this village is yet to be decided: i'm keeping an eye out for suitable spots whilst i explore the new areas-). his master is also buried in c.henyu vale & this is where b.aizhu signed the contract & vowed to be the last.

with that in mind, a reference to a "little bai" in some notes found during the world quest "scrolls and sword manuals of g.uhua" (transcript below the cut) got me thinking.

(i also have some thoughts on c.hangsheng and the other adepti we meet during the main story quest, which i will pop beneath a cut for spoiler reasons.)

(SPOILERS FOR 4.4 MAIN STORY QUEST & SCROLLS AND SWORD MANUALS OF G.UHUA WORLD QUEST BEYOND THIS POINT)

here is the transcript mentioned prior:

now, my initial thought after a brief WAIT WHAT- moment was: these notes are probably incredibly old given they're located in the dilapidated w.angshan hall, so it couldn't possibly be referring to b.aizhu as a child

however-

these notes are from someone learning and practicing the arts of the g.uhua clan, a current and ongoing martial arts school, and we know from x.ingqui's vision story that the clan headquarters at w.angshan hall are still in use in recent years:

Reading it, the G.uhua head was shaken with tears, declaring that "it is not X.ingqiu who needs the G.uhua Clan, but the G.uhua Clan that needs X.ingqiu." Since then, this verse has been sealed up at the Clan headquarters at W.angshan Hall.

and h.uang the t.hird has been scamming tourists out of mora by giving them tours of the hall in order to help maintain it. so, potentially, these notes - sealed in the library where, presumably, x.ingqui's verse is also located - are not as old as i first thought. given that x.ingqui is the first successor to the arts after "many years", and the implication of success at mastering the g.uhua arts by the writer of the notes, it's still unlikely that the "little bai" mentioned is b.aizhu himself - especially as there is also an implication that the "life ender technique" was passed down, which (as far as we know), b.aizhu does not know.

but if not referring to b.aizhu himself, perhaps this is an ancestor of his that shares a similar name, which i am establishing as evidence that he is originally from c.henyu vale. there are no known members of the g.uhua clan (yet) with any name similar to "bai", so it's possible that this potential ancestor was someone who served the clan by bringing food and supplies from a nearby village (i will be looking at potential locations within easy travel distance from the hall's position) or wished to study the arts and, in making a connection with the writer of the notes, got that wish granted.

and the asking of a recipe (and the subsequent pages being filled with mutton recipes) ties in with my headcanon that b.aizhu enjoys cooking & is quite adept at it, so perhaps he has a store of recipes passed down through his family (and has created some of his own). adding to that: his habit of brewing teas, which would make sense for someone who potentially grew up in a part of l.iyue known for its tea-making.

so, to summarise: b.aizhu is from c.henyu vale & possibly connected to the g.uhua clan

C.HANGSHENG & THE ADEPTI OF C.HENYU VALE

again, spoilers ahead for the 4.4 main story quest.

as stated at the start, it's already established that c.hangsheng came from c.henyu vale:

Long ago, C.hangsheng lived in the mountains of C.henyu Vale. One day, a desperate doctor who had lost his family to a deadly plague had traveled to the Vale, searching for the Herblord. Arriving at the Herblord's residence, he found only an extremely weakened white snake.

the mention of the herblord, in particular, is what brings me to the 4.4 main story quest, as she is mentioned during the interaction between f.ujin and l.ingyuan as being one of the three who saved c.henyu vale during the archon war. it is important to note here that the herblord's form was that of a white snake, as mentioned by l.ingyuan:

so, it's pretty safe to assume that the herblord and c.hangsheng are one and the same. as we know, adepti have the ability to transform between beast and human forms, which "herblord" is said to have done in order to create medicines and save the sick:

to create medicines and save the sick: sounds familiar, no? and we know b.aizhu's master went in search of the herblord in the hope of learning greater medicinal knowledge so that he could, in future, save those ailing from deadly ills such as plagues. yet all he found was a white snake - well, as we saw at the end of the quest, adepti who expend a lot of their energy at once lose the ability to maintain human forms and are greatly weakened in strength.

when the three adepti turned against their master to save c.henyu vale, it was herblord who fought them:

While L.ingyuan herded them to shelter, Herblord fought against their former master, and F.ujin climbed Mt. Lingmeng and hurled the V.otive R.ainjade into the waters.

now, going up against a god is probably a good way to expend a lot of energy, so it would make sense that herblord reverted back to her snake form in the wake of that crisis - and although l.ingyuan confirms that she left c.henyu vale sometime after it was resolved, it wouldn't be a stretch to assume that she would, eventually, return to her home in the mountains, especially if she was greatly weakened. f.ujin, after all, returns to carp's rest at the end of the quest for a similar reason, where she can recover her energy and, it is implied, return to her preferred human form in time.

the herblord is known to have lived upon mt. yaojun (and c.hangsheng was found within "the mountains of c.henyu vale" at the "herblord's residence"), which brings me to this rumour that b.aizhu tells to c.hangsheng in his character story 5:

In ancient times, there was once a Mt. Yaojun, and the master of the mountain and their tea-loving friend once made a pact to wait until the tea trees on the mountain had grown, then hold a tea banquet, inviting all the adepti to partake of their tea. What a beautiful thing that might have been! But alas, of the two Adepti who made the agreement, one sank into the water like the residual remnants of tea leaves, and the other lost all ten of their fingers for picking tea, and even their memories of the past faded and were forgotten.

the master of the mountain, given all the previous context, must refer to herblord / c.hangsheng. without evidence to suggest otherwise, i can only assume that their "tea-loving friend" could be f.ujin. l.ingyuan is another option, as the three are implied to have been very close friends in years past, but i lean more towards f.ujin for one specific reason: within the rumour, it is said that one of the adepti "sank into the water" - like a fish, no? the other "lost all ten of their fingers" and "their memories of the past faded and were forgotten" - herblord lost her human form, and c.hangsheng has known issues regarding her memory of things past:

Only the name of contract is known, and not even C.hangsheng can explain the details, only that she learned it long ago. If you ask who she learned it from, she cannot recall even a bit of tangential information. Talking about the distant past with C.hangsheng is often like this.

herblord is also rumoured to have an adeptal form of the branches of an ancient tea tree (echoes of an offering artifact set, soulscent bloom), which ties in with the legend b.aizhu tells. additionally, in the same lore for the soulscent bloom, a legend regarding herblord is that she "flew up to the adeptal mountain on a subdued evil beast" - c.hangsheng's contract, "way of the dragon-dragging jade snake" may refer to this particular legend.

and on the subject of the contract, when asked what would happen if there was no successor to b.aizhu's master, c.hangsheng says this:

so, without a host, c.hangsheng will die - and interestingly wishes to do so on mt. yaojun, home of the herblord and presumably where she was first found, where she will be reunited with "old friends". perhaps, then, herblord was so greatly weakened in her clash with her former master that she relies solely on the contract and a human host to maintain her adeptal energy, and her healing arts are all she remembers from her past. it's also possible that the contract was devised as a kind of "back up" to ensure her healing arts continue to be of use in the world - or perhaps she always inteded to pass on these skills to a successor in the way that many adepti have students, only the "contract" became a lot more binding out of a need to preserve her life. this could also explain why those who accept the contract have snake-like features (eyes, canonically; more features in my headcanon for b.aizhu) - her host becomes akin to her human form.

in summary: c.hangsheng and herblord are one and the same, she no longer has the strength or adeptal energy to take on her previous human form & therefore uses a human host in its place. she cannot remember ever being herblord, but she remembers f.ujin & l.ingyuan as being her friends.

#( THIS GOT SO LONG )#( the c.hangsheng stuff involves a lot of lore and references so it took a While )#( but i had so much fun writing this )#( hoyo won't give me my snoctor man in c.henyu vale so i'll do it myself )#;the doctor will see you now (headcanons; baizhu)

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